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soath · 1 year ago

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One thing I love about Ashton and Fearne is that Ashton very aggressively projects onto her all the things they want to be; blasé, confident, effortlessly loved, capable of shaking off anything. They see the best, brightest parts of her but it's an admiration that often obscures her real fears and sensitivities! She's not just the impulsive, flirty fae, she's really scared for her friends. She's a sheltered young woman who's never truly lost someone they loved before. Ashton connects instinctively with her whimsy, her need for challenge, the bouts of spite, the urge to shake things up, the "level of crazy that I'm kind of into" but he can't grasp the degree to which she'd be messed up if he died in front of her. Coming off of so many years of nihilistic self-pity, it's hard to recognize that your actions impact other people, and I think part of the reason they wanted Fearne is because they thought that exploding in front of her wouldn't be as bad as doing so in front of the others. Just take his stuff, it's fine!

(It's not fine.)

#critical role spoilers #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #it's not quite manic pixie dream girl but it's in the same clade #both ashton and fearne have very maladjusted senses of each other!#they both think the other one is a little more down and cool than they are #so the entire dynamic is this one-upsmanship of playful teasing that only rarely breaks the surface #two people who are both going 'oh you're insane i need to step up my game!' is not a recipe for good choices #but in ashton's case he's genuinely bottled up his vulnerabilities under seven layers of redirection #because after the first couple of life-ruining horrors you have to have some fortifications #whereas fearne is for the first time in her life being confronted by the possibility of losing everything #and is having new real boy prime material plane feelings like grief and regret and guilt #so ashton's 'hey want to do something crazy this afternoon?' *explodes*#is hugely damaging for her

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