#body horror ment /

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“pseudo pregnancies repeatedly every month for three years”

hey there, I’m really sorry if this is an insensitive ask, but would you mind clarifying? It sounds like my own experience, but I’m not sure if I’m interpreting what you’re saying right. :(

I was forced on hormones that tricked my body into thinking it was pregnant and with that comes severe morning sickness. Still on them, I’m not allowed off unfortunately cuz I’m being monitored and they make me feel really awful.

Again, if you feel uncomfortable, don’t hesitate to delete this

Okay so. I was also monitored up until 15 where they thought I would "balance out". Which never happened. I got more masculine as I grew into being an adult.

I developed body hair on my chest and belly at 15 and hid it via shaving or bleaching it lighter. I also had my breasts forcibly swell up and... Frankly. Lactate when I was 12 till 15. It was a monthly set of pills. 3 weeks on the hormones to induce the "pseudo pregnancy" and 1 week on an iron pill that definitely wasn't just iron from how it tasted to me.

Body Horror in Night Terrors CW

It caused me to have night terrors of my own breast tissue falling out from my nipples. Repeatedly for years. I know I was an awful person as a kid because of what was being done to me. Those dreams still haunt me to this day, as well as the "pseudo pregnancies" as they made me very suicidal and depressed all the time. That gives me full reason to believe medical records I was able to find about my mutilation as a baby. I was acting out awfully and need corrected but I also needed help at that time. =/ (I'm only mad at a parental Associate about this.)

I found out real fast the moment I went on Testosterone at 18 that I felt: Less Epileptic, Less Suicidal, Less Nerve Pain, and Less Muscle Pain. My cycles were even Regular and Normal Flows. No more pain or cramping that Hurt.

So no, you were not misinterpreting what I said, if that reassures you. The birth control, as they called it, forcibly feminized me and made me physically ill as I am missing a testes and need Testosterone bodily at least. It really doesn't help I had brain damage from a brain bleed that healed forcibly around that time either but. Yknow. Yknow how intersex and unwanted children are treated.

I appreciate you at least asking and giving me an opportunity to explain why I personally am VERY against the idea that HRT and Gender Affirming Surgeries has never been used for bigoted reasons. I am even trans and want to transition still. There is just a disturbing lack of care for intersex individuals, trans or cis. I've even had to watch cis intersex women be treat awfully in public and medically. It's not pretty. Those women deserve better. Every intersex person deserves better. Including you, anon.

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Late night HC time!!! Since I'm on my body horror kick..

Tskr live action Ryoma again!

TW body horror!

Most people don't notice this, but if you pay close attention to Ryoma, it seems like they don't breathe at all.

While they are half dead, they do actually breathe... They just do it reaaaaaal slow. Like the one breath of air on for minutes, so the expanding of their lungs is subtle.

Even if you press an ear to their chest, you'll hear pretty much nothing. Since it's so gradual, there's really no sound when they pull air in. Only if they are startled will it be audible, but strictly in that initial reaction. Just a sharp intake of breath. Methinks it'd be neat if it sounds grainy like a death rattle.

Same goes for their heart! Even without Gadzook's cooling, Ryoma would feel cold to the touch due to the sluggish circulation of blood.

This has scared Tomoko to death several times since sometimes Ryoma sleeps like a rock.

In cold temperatures, Ryoma doesn't have a visible breath either. If Joseph was around I think he'd suspect them of being a vampire honestly- going back to his fight with Straizo. Can you tell I rewatched Battle Tendency recently?

Also about blood circulation, since it's poor.. their skin has a yellowish, greyish tinge to it. Places where the skin is thinner, like their eyelids or lips suffer the most.

Ryoma wears a ton of makeup to counteract that, if they didn't they'd have people asking them if they were sick dkhdsj. That's why I figure they also wear tons of blush, and bright eyeshadow and lip colours- besides also just liking those things stylistically.

I mentioned Gadzook's cooling before. It's something they do to keep Ryoma from falling apart and preserving them. While they did fix their internal damage... Methinks...well, it is obviously no one could survive from that. It was fixed retroactively, Ryoma was dead when Gadzooks brought them back.

They are alive... But I think it's more comparable to maybe? How a breathing machine can make a person mechanically breathe though they are dead. The body doesn't have the ability to do that on its own. Ryoma's physiological processes are being maintained artificially.

Going back to the topic of cold... Ryoma Is startlingly cold to the touch. Their go to excuse is a iron deficiency, which obviously doesn't hold up under scrutiny... but one's mind wouldn't immediately go to 'this person is dead', so it suffices.

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the thought of kni cutting his hair after the trauma of tesla got to me

[fates-theysband]

although to be fair to the good people of galloway there's probably too much eldritch bullshit going on for them to care. like oh you were a girl in high school and now you identify as neither a man nor a woman? cool, did you hear about the guy that melted behind the quick-stop?

[solidwater05]

Looking at fungus based body horror for a Hermitcraft au and I keep finding Hermitcraft art. I feel called out

[anatomical-puppet]

this is doing way better than i expected it to so i’m taking that as permission to go on a fully-fledged autism ramble

body horror- to me, at least- is about making you consider when a human body stops being human. how much has to happen to it before it’s considered something else? a person with a stab wound is a person with a stab wound. no amount of organs hanging out makes someone look or feel inhuman. but people melting and fusing together? teeth breaking through the skin along someone’s spine? a jaw opening and opening and opening, so wide you can see down their throat and into their stomach? that’s not human. it’s something else, and it’s horrifying not because it could happen to you, but because you don’t know how to feel about what you’re looking at. are you supposed to pity them like a person, or fear it like a monster? THAT is what body horror is. it doesn’t even have to be bloody, it just has to ride that line between revulsion and sympathy

i need people to understand the difference between gore and body horror or i’m gonna start ripping bricks out of walls

[imagibunny]

i think if people are gonna do body horror you should push it as far into "what the fuck" as you possibly can

personally i'm just very?? anxious?? about offending people, especially on accident. so that why whenever i draw body horror it looks less realistic and more "hey!!! no!!!!"

cause unless people have eyeballs comin out their arms and jaws can stretch abnormally (we're talking to the ground at best) i think i'm safe

[torchtour]

is gord's gun arm bleeding blood or oil or something else??

saw a few tags asking about the goopy arm! so.

the gun fires bullets made of congealed blood (NOT finger/toenails but. its remnant of the hand so pretty close?). the gun uses an alternating clotting/thinning system to tease blood out of the partially-closed wound for firing. blood is also the gun's coolant/lubricant and will spill from the gun when the stump faces the ground. just. just lots of blood involved.

[spooksier]

some sketches for a piece im doing for class :-) i <3 freaks

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im literally unable to do that i think. if i dont think about/draw art for the franchise for too long i start to develop a splitting headache as i grow mold all over my body

oh wow All my recent art has just been girls. sonic art coming. one day. eventually

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dabi's scarring/physicality in canon and post canon. tw for general body horror/body yuckiness/body trauma/burnt flesh talk/medical talk below:

the first thing to note here is that at the time he's sixteen, 70% of his body is burnt beyond recognition, or so garaki informs. now almost a decade later, dabi's body is now roughly 85% burnt. despite the 15% increase, the 85% comes from careful calculation on dabi's part rather than reckless overuse of his quirk. while dabi's personality changes and regresses around endeavor, he's actually a calculated individual outside of those interactions. we see that expressed multiple times throughout canon, and there's no way he could've survived this long if he wasn't both cautious and smart when it comes to his own body.

the sheer amount of burns means he has to be incredibly careful with how he moves. fortunately (or perhaps the opposite) for him, he expresses that he doesn't "feel" much of the pain anymore. while this is true for new wounds, i don't believe this is the case for old wounds. for any time he reopens a wound, or a new inch of skin is burnt, he will be feeling in in a matter of days. he handles this chronic pain by misusing narcotics and stolen prescription meds.

onto the nature of his wounds. it can be hard to discern exactly how this purplish-raised skin acts. does it behave like normal skin, is it scar tissue, is it a scab? in truth, it's a bit of all three. naturally, when his quirk is activated from the same spots, the same places will be injured over and over again. overuse of his quirk will then cause the burns to spread farther and farther out from the origin point of the quirk activation.

that said, let's start at the point of origin.

as we see from the flashbacks provided, toya's flames manifest around his chest. as he continues to train, he discovers that he can manifest them on his arms. given the patterns of the scarring, he can also manifest them on his back. those three points are going to burn the hottest for the longer periods of time.

because of that, the area right around those origin points act more like scabs than tissue or skin. this is what reopens/re-burns the most when his quirk is activated. these areas also hold the most amount of nerve damage, so it's less felt when these wounds are tampered with. they often crack when turning or extending. occasionally, these wounds have to be dressed and tended to, so infection doesn't grow.

onto the area near the origin points. this would be his sides, up his arms, down his legs, and his neck. this acts more like new scar tissue. this will be the "brightest" shade of purple, as it's not too far off from being in a scab-like state. this will re-tear if there's too much extension or use. these areas are also the second most likely to reburn, pulling it back to a scab-like state, and must be rehealed. these areas actually hold the most amount of pain, since it's in this incomplete state between scab and scar tissue.

the areas farthest from quirk origin points. these areas include his hands, cheeks, feet, and eyes. these points operate the closest like normal skin, though can't be considered so. they are still horrifically burnt, but act more like older scar tissue than new scar tissue or scabs. these areas don't provide too much pain until it's reburnt. then, because these areas have the most amount of nerves, it causes dabi quite a bit of pain. these are the most tangible, and can take some movement before splitting.

i want to briefly point out his joints and motion spots. no matter how "healed" they are, any over-extension will cause pain and may even split. this is mainly seen on his lips. when smiling or expressing too wide, the corners of his lips will split and bleed. i want to draw attention to dabi's "blood" tears for a moment. since his tear ducts are burnt, he's unable to cry. this causes internal bleeding and eventually drip out of his cheek wound.

onto upkeep of these wounds. we've all seen the staples. my dabi wears gold, by the way, instead of silver. the staples are meant to keep the skin from sloughing off. it promotes the healing of tissue and tendons beneath, but it's primarily to keep the skin on his body. otherwise, he'd likely die of hypothermia as the skin burns of sloughs off. the placement of the staples are updated as needed, but as i mentioned before dabi is very careful about overuse of his quirk. it's not until after meeting endeavor that the staple placements have to be adjusted. after a hard mission or after taking some hits, he may have to re-staple himself, but that's out of bodily injuries caused TO him, rather than something he does himself.

if the staples are removed, his body parts will hang by the tendon alone!

his daily routine does have to be modified in order to accomodate for these wounds and the chronic pain accompanied with it. when showering, he must be careful of how long these wounds are exposed to water. his showers have to be relatively quick, and relatively cool. afterwards, he has to fully dry and be incredibly careful that no moisture is left on the wounds before dressing. in addition to showering, he also prefers to wear loose clothing, as tight clothes tend to up against the wounds and cause them to re-open or rip from the staples. dabi also sleeps a lot. not only is he a creature who enjoys routine, sleep helps the healing process, and more often than not, he can nap or sleep for a few hours.

geten also mentioned the smell, so i think it's important to note as well. he remarks that toya smells like burning flesh, and that is absolutely true. he regularly smells like charcoal or "burnt". along with this, he smells like tobacco from the cigarettes he smokes, and very... chemical from the hair dye he uses.

onto post-canon. first of all, this is what he canonly looks like.

yikes. now this form is created because of the "supernova" toya becomes, which seems to completely burn his body, and almost replace his internal organs with a glowing blue flame. here, though, we see that his eyes are returned to him and he can look upon his family. he seems to retain vision there, too - so it's not just an aesthetic addition.

in my post-canon verse, this supernova that toya becomes is a result of the quirk given to him in the final war. rather than actually cause life-ending damage to his insides, the quirk was contained in itself and spared him death. instead, the burns and injuries we see above are due to his body's natural inclination to not handle such intense heat. at this point, toya is being treated like a severe burn patient. he'll stay in this fancy tube for around 3-4 months. while in this tube, he's mostly in a coma-esque state, only being awake for a single hour a day to talk to his family.

after 4 months, there will have been enough internal healing to be able to transfer into the burn ward of a villain hospital. here, he's more conscious and more "with his senses", rather than the regressed state we saw in the final war. he starts mandated counseling sessions during this time, and lawyers are finally able to take his statements for proper sentencing. skin grafts and plastic surgeries begin at this time to help restore his appearance.

after another 4-5 months in the burn ward, he will be transferred to a more "residential" area of the hospital. at this point, he's able to be awake most of the day. he also starts physical therapy. it's important to note that toya will never be "able-bodied" again. his nerves are too damaged, and it's just not possible for him to live on his own. he starts learning to walk again, using forearm crutches to help his gait. he practices using his hands again, though he'll never be able to write. he also undergoes speech therapy to be more easily understood. he starts to look more like himself after the plastic surgeries, which will continue to take place every few months until his appearance is fully restored.

after about a year of intense treatment, toya is finally released to natsuo's and fuyumi's care. toya's quality of life does have a sway on his sentencing. because of that, he's sentenced to house arrest under the care of the two listed before. endeavor is the last person he needs to be with from a mental standpoint, given enji is his abuser and the one who neglected him time and time again. rei, herself, is in no place to be taking care of him, either.

he chooses to go with natuso, as they were bonded the most. as he adjusts to this new quality of life, he does have mandated intense therapy. toya will never be able to use his quirk post-canon. he "can", by technicality, but he's in such a fragile state, despite looking more healed than ever. it would be a bad idea, and the grafted skin can easily split again. in general, he's too weak to even muster the strength to conjure a flame. despite the state his body is in by the end of it all, he's finding peace at last.

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Day two: Mantle

Day three: Honey

Day four: Sacred heart (not canon at all just. Thought it'd look cool lmao)

Hough. Ok finally got these done

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THOUGHTS

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Gonna post some pokepasta agere hcs I've been sitting on for a bit, starting with Lost Silver's protag since he's my biggest motivation for this blog! /silly

"Trainer Gold" / "Lost Silver" / ... hcs

Pkmn: Celebi, Typhlosion, unown (technically)

State of being: ghost

Status: regressor. Ranges include 9-10 and 2-4. Probably does fine with other littles when not regressed but not yet sure if he's a flip or just comfortable with it.

Died around 15*, and is Technically 'permaregressed' to that state no matter how much irl time or experience occurs (*40 badges = 5 regions. I average regional travels at about a year each minimum)

He likely regresses to the 9-10 range a lot - an age when his adventure was unfolding, and the future was bright and exciting and still held promise for him.

Regresses further 2-4 range. Very small.

Very sad and easy to cry, his regression is almost always vent regression so constantly on the verge of tears.

Finicky about touch - both craves the physical reassurance but also is scared/wary of touch (so many open wounds - and also phantom pains - don't help)

Can technically manage things on own - either unown powers and/or short-term ghost limbs can be utilized temporarily for about any purpose. But when regressed he's more likely to lean into just being taken care of.

Struggling with self-sufficiency using supernatural powers is very draining on even a ghostly body, so it's far preferable to be looked after. He can accept it better when younger as he feels less baggage about needing to be capable then.

Prefers having music to silence. The unown make noise, but barely anything else in his resting place does, so hearing music or other people's voices is a welcome stimuli.

Regression gear is a mixed bag - they can be soothing items, but most often it's some item or another that he could risk dropping and either need to grab or need someone else to grab

However, onesies are a nice item because it's not something he has to worry about holding, he can just wear it

Likewise, soft items - blankets, plushies and the like - may run the risk of being dropped but are easy to interact with whether in one's hands or not (eg snuggling or laying on it) so those tend to be things he gravitates to as well, on top of finding them comforting.

Building nests of soft things tend to be a nice easy way to make sure he has a comfortable regression space.

Pillow forts are hit or miss - sometimes it feels too much like his grave if it's too dark or enclosed. Things like string lights and music can help offset this feeling however.

Used to like playing games, but now it may be hit or miss, as they're typically accomplishment-geared

Not a hc I'll do much with as it's not comforting for me, but one I know someone will appreciate and I think also just makes sense - typically needs diapers at least when regressed, as his motor skills and energy levels are too low otherwise

[fates-theysband]

"i know it's a little soon, but like richie, you melt into the wall"

oh that's FUCKED but also really really fucking funny

[god-mouths]

degrees of separation