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[looks-to-the-moon-cock]

“pseudo pregnancies repeatedly every month for three years”

hey there, I’m really sorry if this is an insensitive ask, but would you mind clarifying? It sounds like my own experience, but I’m not sure if I’m interpreting what you’re saying right. :(

I was forced on hormones that tricked my body into thinking it was pregnant and with that comes severe morning sickness. Still on them, I’m not allowed off unfortunately cuz I’m being monitored and they make me feel really awful.

Again, if you feel uncomfortable, don’t hesitate to delete this

Okay so. I was also monitored up until 15 where they thought I would "balance out". Which never happened. I got more masculine as I grew into being an adult.

I developed body hair on my chest and belly at 15 and hid it via shaving or bleaching it lighter. I also had my breasts forcibly swell up and... Frankly. Lactate when I was 12 till 15. It was a monthly set of pills. 3 weeks on the hormones to induce the "pseudo pregnancy" and 1 week on an iron pill that definitely wasn't just iron from how it tasted to me.

Body Horror in Night Terrors CW

It caused me to have night terrors of my own breast tissue falling out from my nipples. Repeatedly for years. I know I was an awful person as a kid because of what was being done to me. Those dreams still haunt me to this day, as well as the "pseudo pregnancies" as they made me very suicidal and depressed all the time. That gives me full reason to believe medical records I was able to find about my mutilation as a baby. I was acting out awfully and need corrected but I also needed help at that time. =/ (I'm only mad at a parental Associate about this.)

I found out real fast the moment I went on Testosterone at 18 that I felt: Less Epileptic, Less Suicidal, Less Nerve Pain, and Less Muscle Pain. My cycles were even Regular and Normal Flows. No more pain or cramping that Hurt.

So no, you were not misinterpreting what I said, if that reassures you. The birth control, as they called it, forcibly feminized me and made me physically ill as I am missing a testes and need Testosterone bodily at least. It really doesn't help I had brain damage from a brain bleed that healed forcibly around that time either but. Yknow. Yknow how intersex and unwanted children are treated.

I appreciate you at least asking and giving me an opportunity to explain why I personally am VERY against the idea that HRT and Gender Affirming Surgeries has never been used for bigoted reasons. I am even trans and want to transition still. There is just a disturbing lack of care for intersex individuals, trans or cis. I've even had to watch cis intersex women be treat awfully in public and medically. It's not pretty. Those women deserve better. Every intersex person deserves better. Including you, anon.

[silbeni]

Late night HC time!!! Since I'm on my body horror kick..

Tskr live action Ryoma again!

TW body horror!

Most people don't notice this, but if you pay close attention to Ryoma, it seems like they don't breathe at all.

While they are half dead, they do actually breathe... They just do it reaaaaaal slow. Like the one breath of air on for minutes, so the expanding of their lungs is subtle.

Even if you press an ear to their chest, you'll hear pretty much nothing. Since it's so gradual, there's really no sound when they pull air in. Only if they are startled will it be audible, but strictly in that initial reaction. Just a sharp intake of breath. Methinks it'd be neat if it sounds grainy like a death rattle.

Same goes for their heart! Even without Gadzook's cooling, Ryoma would feel cold to the touch due to the sluggish circulation of blood.

This has scared Tomoko to death several times since sometimes Ryoma sleeps like a rock.

In cold temperatures, Ryoma doesn't have a visible breath either. If Joseph was around I think he'd suspect them of being a vampire honestly- going back to his fight with Straizo. Can you tell I rewatched Battle Tendency recently?

Also about blood circulation, since it's poor.. their skin has a yellowish, greyish tinge to it. Places where the skin is thinner, like their eyelids or lips suffer the most.

Ryoma wears a ton of makeup to counteract that, if they didn't they'd have people asking them if they were sick dkhdsj. That's why I figure they also wear tons of blush, and bright eyeshadow and lip colours- besides also just liking those things stylistically.

I mentioned Gadzook's cooling before. It's something they do to keep Ryoma from falling apart and preserving them. While they did fix their internal damage... Methinks...well, it is obviously no one could survive from that. It was fixed retroactively, Ryoma was dead when Gadzooks brought them back.

They are alive... But I think it's more comparable to maybe? How a breathing machine can make a person mechanically breathe though they are dead. The body doesn't have the ability to do that on its own. Ryoma's physiological processes are being maintained artificially.

Going back to the topic of cold... Ryoma Is startlingly cold to the touch. Their go to excuse is a iron deficiency, which obviously doesn't hold up under scrutiny... but one's mind wouldn't immediately go to 'this person is dead', so it suffices.

[of-galaxies-and-black-holes]

the thought of kni cutting his hair after the trauma of tesla got to me

[fates-theysband]

although to be fair to the good people of galloway there's probably too much eldritch bullshit going on for them to care. like oh you were a girl in high school and now you identify as neither a man nor a woman? cool, did you hear about the guy that melted behind the quick-stop?

[solidwater05]

Looking at fungus based body horror for a Hermitcraft au and I keep finding Hermitcraft art. I feel called out

[anatomical-puppet]

this is doing way better than i expected it to so i’m taking that as permission to go on a fully-fledged autism ramble

body horror- to me, at least- is about making you consider when a human body stops being human. how much has to happen to it before it’s considered something else? a person with a stab wound is a person with a stab wound. no amount of organs hanging out makes someone look or feel inhuman. but people melting and fusing together? teeth breaking through the skin along someone’s spine? a jaw opening and opening and opening, so wide you can see down their throat and into their stomach? that’s not human. it’s something else, and it’s horrifying not because it could happen to you, but because you don’t know how to feel about what you’re looking at. are you supposed to pity them like a person, or fear it like a monster? THAT is what body horror is. it doesn’t even have to be bloody, it just has to ride that line between revulsion and sympathy

i need people to understand the difference between gore and body horror or i’m gonna start ripping bricks out of walls

[imagibunny]

i think if people are gonna do body horror you should push it as far into "what the fuck" as you possibly can

personally i'm just very?? anxious?? about offending people, especially on accident. so that why whenever i draw body horror it looks less realistic and more "hey!!! no!!!!"

cause unless people have eyeballs comin out their arms and jaws can stretch abnormally (we're talking to the ground at best) i think i'm safe

[torchtour]

is gord's gun arm bleeding blood or oil or something else??

saw a few tags asking about the goopy arm! so.

the gun fires bullets made of congealed blood (NOT finger/toenails but. its remnant of the hand so pretty close?). the gun uses an alternating clotting/thinning system to tease blood out of the partially-closed wound for firing. blood is also the gun's coolant/lubricant and will spill from the gun when the stump faces the ground. just. just lots of blood involved.

[spooksier]

some sketches for a piece im doing for class :-) i <3 freaks

[appri-dot]

Also my friend asked, and because I love elaborating on ocs:

Paul's face is super ugly n bloody because theres no skin, I mean it still would be ugly. But the box had practically become (and still is) his physical head, tearing it off both would hurt mentally and physically because it hides away his "true" visage hes learned to keep away and because there are fucking veins attached

Patch notes, paul is on artfight, exclusively for the freaks. It's like adding a vegetarian option, you don't want to draw these normal guys? Gore monster <3

[silbeni]

THOUGHTS

[crooked776]

Day two: Mantle

Day three: Honey

Day four: Sacred heart (not canon at all just. Thought it'd look cool lmao)

Hough. Ok finally got these done

[daenerystemper]

i seriously think people go through extra lengths to justify the use of blood magic used against targaryens because they genuinely think the targaryen women deserve to have bad things done to them as a result of them supposedly being “blood purists” or that “well, of course it happened!!  they’re all incest babies!” when there’s actually documented reasoning for several of the ““deformed”“ stillbirths that have happened.

the most prominent case is daenerys’s son rhaego, who we know was born during a blood magic ritual. mirri maz duur describes rhaego as draconic (“He was scaled like a lizard, blind, with the stub of a tail and small leather wings like the wings of a bat. When I touched him, the flesh sloughed off the bone, and inside he was full of graveworms and the stink of corruption.” AGOT Daenerys IX) which comes after mirri maz duur as performed blood magic to save khal drogo’s life. the premise is simple: only death could pay for a life. it’s easy to assume that the horse would have been enough for mirri maz duur to heal khal drogo as was originally implied, but it’s heavily implied that rhaego’s death is a result of her as well since she handles daenerys’s birth. in the book, it’s left a little more for interpretation but in the television series, mirri maz duur outright admits to killing rhaego.

it’s worth noting the other cases have viable proof of blood magic interference as well. maegor i targaryen notably struggled to produce heirs and one of his wives, tyanna of the tower, confessed to poisoning alys harroways who had birthed a child (Maegor came to see the stillbirth, he was horrified to find the boy a monster, with twisted limbs, a huge head, and no eyes. Fire and Blood: The Sons of the Dragon.) the same would go for maegor’s bride jeyne westerling (Three moons before she was due, Queen Jeyne was brought to bed by a sudden onset of labor pains, and was delivered of a stillborn child as monstrous as the one Alys Harroway had birthed.  Fire and Blood: The Sons of the Dragon.) and elinor costayne (Queen Elinor too was delivered of a malformed and stillborn child, an eyeless boy born with rudimentary wings.  Fire and Blood: The Sons of the Dragon)

the only two instances where it could be debatable whether or not blood magic was used against a child are laena velaryon who died after complications while giving birth to a twisted and malformed son and rhaenyra targaryen who lost her daughter visenya after going into premature labor. rhaenyra seems to place the blame on the greens (“She was my only daughter, and they killed her. They stole my crown and murdered my daughter, and they shall answer for it.”  Fire and Blood: The Dying of the Dragons) which is likely due to the announcement of king viserys’s death and the crowning of aegon the usurper, and part of her grief. i’ve seen some people say that rhaenyra cast black magic herself during this because she “cursed” her half-siblings but this seems a bit like victim blaming and like its just on redd//it.

these are only counting births that were noted to be “twisted” or “malformed” in some way and does not include other targaryen stillbirths since they’re not recorded to have ““monstrous”“ appearances and i think acting like stillbirths = deformation is cruel and archaic. i just think some of you twitt//er and redd//it green/stark stans can’t read!

[mealbits]

im literally unable to do that i think. if i dont think about/draw art for the franchise for too long i start to develop a splitting headache as i grow mold all over my body

oh wow All my recent art has just been girls. sonic art coming. one day. eventually

[fates-theysband]

"i know it's a little soon, but like richie, you melt into the wall"

oh that's FUCKED but also really really fucking funny

[god-mouths]

degrees of separation