#bnta

[mrsnancywheeler]

Okay so did I just have the most heartbreaking, soul crushing idea/thought? Yes. And will I share it with you? Absolutely! I'd love to hear your thoughts on it.

Okay so what if finnicks sweet girl gets the thought in her head "would finnick of married me if he didn't think we were going to die ( the quater quell)" and that maybe he only went through with it at district 13 because coin said it would be good for moral and to broadcast. And then she starts second guessing stuff and thinks maybe that's why he didn't want to have sex with her on the marriage night and that he doesn't actually want kids with her.

Sorry I'm a whore for angst

-BNTA💕

yay! I love soul crushing, heart wrenching thoughts, make my day.

this is so, so on brand for her. especially after having time left alone while finnick is starting on the star squad, thoughts get invasive. she's laying in bed at night, sad, missing him, and then the thoughts start saying he probably doesn't miss her. he left, he doesn't want to be with her, he only got married because of the propo but doesn't want to spend time with her, he only ever married her anyway because he knew she would volunteer no matter what and wanted her to die with some hope, that's the only reasons he was even with her, to make her live a life that was less glum, not because he wanted too.

he left because he's hoping if they're separated long enough he can silently leave her when the war is over and keep her in the hospital wing forever. her life feels so glum, so grey, until she finally gets to join the star squad and is so relieved because if he doesn't love her, she loves him and wants to keep pretending.

but I imagine sometime after the war has been won if she was still having those thoughts one day she'd just be like, "you're gonna leave me now, aren't you?"

"what?"

"I can't even beg you not to because you deserve to be happy too, I want you to be happy."

"I am happy." tears are softly brimming her eyelids as she shakes her head.

"you don't have to lie to me, finnick, you don't have to coddle me anymore. there's no impending death, or propo, if you want to be free then, just leave me be. I get it, I wouldn't marry me either."

his eyebrows are scrunched together, he's holding her face, "woah, woah, woah woah woah, no, angel. get those thoughts out of your head, I married you because I love you and I'd do it again. do you want to do it again? we can finally have a wedding at home."

"finnick, I know why you did it, you're not condemned to hold me down. I get it now, you left nothing to keep you back." he wouldn't just understood what she meant if she hadn't brushed her stomach with her hand.

"my poor, sweet girl. I love you so much it kills me. the war is over, we can have as many kids as we want, we can have another wedding ceremony, I'd never dream about lying to you about that." his forehead is pressed to hers, tears of his own in his eyes, "okay?" eventually after some staring into each other's eyes she's nodding, breaking down, bawling into his chest as he holds her. "love my sweet girl, so much, got you forever."

[bandarrrrr]

Only person I talk to on Tumblr is @thenotebookscribbler

Soooo

@thenotebookscribbler

Appreciation POST

[mujhesukoonmilgaya]

Roti main bohot achha banati hu.

Ab woh gol gol nhi Banta woh alag baat hain.

[whatsleftofdishaa]

Finally It's sunshine day, I mean simmu's day, I mean simran's birthday. Happy birthday meri soul sister aka simmu 🩷. @alhad-si-simran @alhad-cleopatra

But I should tell you this that

Meme wishes hogyi ab paragraph ki baari

Sunshine in human form tujhe janamdin bahut mubarak ho 🫂🩷. I'm honestly glad that you exist vrna pta ni kisi poems padhke inspire hoti and I mean it yrrr. God filled you with so much of hope, happiness and himmat. And you are always spreading that among others without running short on them. I have to say this ki @om-is-ok is a very lucky guy. Pichhle janamo ke achhe karmo ka fal mila hai use is janam mein tere roop mein. And most importantly simmu yrr jldi jldi books publish kr apni, I want to read them 🥹.

Ek gana dedicate krna to bnta hai and ye gana yrr kaafi time se dedicate krna tha so what better occasion than your birthday. This song actually sums up everything that I want to say to you sunshine 🫂🫶🏻. And dher saari jhappi and pappis for you 🫂😚🫂😚🫂😚🫂.

[just2bubbly]

bubblesssss ye dkhna bnta h https://www.instagram.com/reel/C8zzLLrsqFA/

😂 mere dad ko laga isko English bolna nahi aata isliye atak raha hai 😅 but reason toh sabko pata tha 😅👀

tum yeh wala dekho

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C81OW3Cvkmb/?igsh=MTJ1bzg2dzF4OW84ag==

[deluluwriter]

Zindagi ka ek or khusbsurat kissa tha

Jb tk jia tb tk haseen

Jo gya to yaadein banke muskuraahat ka karan bnta rha

[shut-up-rabert]

Aur yaha hum ek achhi khaasi ladki ko phaste hue dekh skte hai

Voizzzeeee itne derr tak kon sota hai 😠

main poori raat soya hi nahi lol

[hanyrr]

When I was young I thought it was polite manner to take your plate to the sink when visiting another person's house but ab smajh aaya why that aunty insited on taking the plate to the point of snatching it from your hands,

....kunki ke kisi bhi number k bahar k logon ko host kene k bad kitchen m jo toofan bnta h vo kisi k bhi samne sajjan sabhya sanskari si image ki dhajjiyan uda skta h

[phepde-xrayed]

Desh ka youth jagrook ho rha or yaha right wingers ki fatt rhi. India hmesa se political rha h or rhega revolution yhi se suru hote.12th m pdhne wale students bahut jldi 18+ honge so yeah illogical bate mt kro cool bnta hoon yeah woh

I ain't reading all that

Maa chudwa bhai

[snowfalllll]

Aaj phir me us jagah gyi jahan gye mujhe kaafi samay ho chuka tha. Vo neher ke paas vaale bade se patthar me akeli bethi me, pero ko paani me daal kuch soch rhi thi, par chidiyon ka shor, behti hawayein, paani ki sarsarahat ki aawaz.

Mujhe mere Mann ki baat kuch saaf sunayi nhi di, koi aawaz me jese maano dhundh si chaayi ho.

Me aankhein band kar kuch lamhe shaant bethi rahi, khayalo me dubne si lagi.

Phir kuch der baad lga jese koi ho aankhein kholi aas paas dekha toh koi nahi tha lga jese koi hai ya koi parchayi ho.

Me phir dekhte dekhte phir soch me dhalne lgi.

Diary uthayi kuch likhne ko toh phir ek dafa zor se tumhari ehsaas ne dastak di. Maine phir socha Aaj naa likhu tumhe aur usi pal tumhare alawa saare shabd khtm hogye. Agr tum nhi toh kya likhu me? Mere shabd toh shuru bhi tumse hote hai aur khtm bhi. Tum Naa jaane kb sama gye mujh mein yun jese samaye ho khushboo phulon mein, kuch is qadar jese samaye ho sur panchiyon mein, ya shyd jese samaye ho is qadar jese piroye gye ho shabd panno mein.

Ek pathar mere haath me chubh gya aur ehsaas hua mein phir kho gyi thi tum mein? Ya mehez tumhare khayalon me?

Me phir soch me pad gyi tum yahan hote toh Mausam kitna alag hota. Tum nazaare dekh rhe hote aur me sirf tumhe. Dheeme shayad hum kuch gaane sun rhe hote. Tum kuch bol rhe hote aur me apna dhyaan sametne ki koshish krti kyunki tumhare saamne mujhe baatein toh shyd sunaayi hi nahi deti itni kho jaati. Yaa shyd me hi itna bol rhi hoti ki tumhe kuch kehne ka mauka hi na milta.

Tumhe pta hai jb bhi safar khtm ho aur manzil ki baat aati hai toh me aakhir chaahti kya hoon? Toh me tumhe ek shaam ji bhar kar niharna chahti hu kuch iss tarah ki phir ye aankhein baaki sb bhul jaaye aur jo naa mile inhe didaar tumhara toh ye bechain hojaye, Tumse baatein krna chahti vo sb baatein jo shyd me ek arse se mann me liye ghum rhi hu, tumhe mehsoos karna chahti hoon paas se, tumhe ik dafa har chiz bhool kar baahon me samet lena chahti hoon, tumhe btana chahti hu tum kya ho mere liye aur kitni mohabbat hai mujhe tumse, tumhe paas rkhna chahti hu sirf thoda paas.

Kitni ajeeb baat hai na tum mere ho nhi phir bhi tumhe khone se darti hoon,

Ishq muqammal hoga ya nhi pta nhi phir bhi pyaar sirf tumse karti hoon,

Chahat bas itni ki tumhari kuch khushiyon ki vajah me ban jau kabhi,

Darr esa ki kahin ye be-ishq si uljhan me tumhari saza na ban jau kabhi,

Mohabbat itni ki tumhari yaadon mein ye umr guzaar loon,

Khwahish esi ki koi dekhe bhi tumhe toh har dafa pehle me tumhari Nazar utaar loon,

Aur jo tum kehte ho mujhe jalan hai gairo se,

Toh masla sirf itna h ki muddaton baat ye khushi mili h vo kahi gum na ho jaaye darti hu is khayal se,

Hn nhi pasand koi uss nazar se dekhe bhi tumhe jaise me niharti hu,

Ek tumhare liye hai toh me khudko swaarti hu,

Tum mohabbat ho meri mera itna chahna toh bnta hai,

Aur mohabbat me mashroof ho Jana toh bnta hai.

Phir socha chalo milke shayad har chiz khud hi baya kar dungi phir mann ne sawal kiya,

"pakka keh dogi usse jo bhi mann me hai?"

Shayad Haan.

"Kehti ho smjh nhi aata vo saamne hua toh kahogi kya usse, aur ek taraf kehti ho sb keh dungi."

Hann keh toh dungi. Aur jo naa keh saki toh theek hai na ek aur mulaqat ka bahana mil jaayega.

"Aur kbtk esi mulaqatein krti rahogi usse."

Shyd ek umr bhar.

"Aakhir chahti kya ho."

Bas vo hoti hai naa pehli mulaqaat? Hn bas vahi.

-Yours Snowfall

[mrsnancywheeler]

The fact that now reader is in the war with finnick and he's probably freaking out because now she in danger but also imagine if she was still rlly mad at him and was giving him the silent treatment or avoiding him and barely communicating with him so now he feeling guilty because by trying to keep her out of danger once again (like how she got a target on her back for the game bc them dating) he's put her in more danger because not only is she in the war but she wont stay near him where he can protect her :(

I just love agnst so much!!

Anyways would love to hear your thoughts in this

-BNTA💕

we'll definitely explore more of this next chapter, but the river is from the perspective of finnick and his perception so I thought this would be a good opportunity to talk about reader.

like there is so much going on in her brain and she's finally been able to settle the thoughts long enough to just be with Finnick and enjoy the feeling. it calms her, steadies her, she has less episodes, but suddenly he's taking that closeness away and she's panicking. not only will that mean she once again has to learn how to deal with the issues in an internalized fashion, but she's terrified he'll die and she'll be stuck in district 13 without any knowledge of it and completely helpless when she does find out. she's scared that he'll be reckless because he's doing what's best for the revolution and so she has to figure out how to go too.

that is of course after her brain can grapple with the confusion of feeling like he hates her, that he's punishing her, isolating her from what she loves and knows. but regardless of her fears she loves him so blindly and so intensely that none of it matters when she wants to be there with him to stop him from dying. so she's doing everything in her power to prove she's sane enough to be on the squad, despite whatever finnick might've told coin.

and she'll take his anger, she'll distance herself as long as she can just know he's alive and not throwing himself into danger because she couldn't take it if he did.

I also just love angst sm pookie 💋

[fuckyoumint]

Me falem 1 estilo sério só 1 que fica bom em gordo

Suas roupas vão sempre ser feias se vc nn tiver um corpo pra deixar elas bntas

[wife-of-all-dilfs]

Am I re-reading your 'what friends do' fic again. Maybe. Is it because it's the best ic ever written. Absolutely.

-BNTA💕

giggling and kicking my feet rn. gimme a kiss 💋💋

[yehuserdumbhai]

Should I study or just give up?Subha tk saara syllabus to vaise bhi nhi hona aur jitne gndi meri kismat m ,Mai Jo chapter nhi padhungi mam usse se puchenge to kya he tuk bnta h padhne ka

[diya-ke-khayal]

hello and welcome to the introductory post that i should have made 5 years ago but aaj kal naye log aa rhe hai yahaan pe toh ek banana bnta hai 

hi my name is diya (🪔) 

im desi and bengali 

I’m an 05 liner and a heavily traumatised science student 

tumblr is my coping mechanism for anything and everything so my feed is going to be a mix of EVERYTHING 

my music taste ranges from 70s bollywood to rnb and rock music 

im a badminton enthusiast (agar koi dilli mai ho toh bolo kyunki bc yahaan ke bacche dhang se khelte bhi nhi hai) 

if someone needs to talk: my inbox is a free real estate (saari bhadaas nikal do) 

and heres some pics that match my vibe: 

[mikey-bunny]

Minors/ageless blogs are cleared out!

Time for a re-theme.

boku-no-t-academia ➡️ mikey-bunny

I’m gonna start over entirely, which means all my BNHA stuff is going bye-bye til further notice. My blog’s no longer gonna be just about BNTA, just a general tickle blog. (My hyperfixation had changed over to FNAF anyway, and there’s plenty of tickle stuff for that too!)

I may or may not post about BNTA in the future, I’ll need time to re-work and tinker with my MHA AU.

From now on, I’m not creating any non-familial tickle stuff with canonically underage characters. A parent playfully tickling their kid or a sibling tickle fight is fine, but otherwise I’m no longer comfortable with it.