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blnk338 ยท 6 months ago
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imnotdeadipromiseiloveyouall
....hiiiiiiiii
hope you're all well!
for a bit of an update on myself, yes, the ao3 curse hit me (but i didn't die, i just got employed LMFAO).
over the past few months i've been grinding out university and work, reading, writing poetry, and cooking in my free time. while there's a lot on my plate as of right now, there will soon be less, and I've been itching to get back into writing. my silly self has sort of fallen in love (but its a coworker, so any tips on killing the feelings asap, lmk <3), gotten much better sleeping/eating habits, and overall improved on all fronts of my life.
my apologies for leaving you all in the dust, as i never really thought i was going to leave, i just thought i was losing steam and taking a break.
...and then i didn't log into tumblr for like 6 months, lol
as of right now, im rereading RWYS and want to keep writing it! while I'm not going to give any definitive timelines due to my own schedule, I've been missing all of this and all of you.
i hope you're all well, and im grateful for the patience and kind messages. I've seen a handful from AO3, my inbox, and messages that i want to get to.
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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Fall and Rise of the Reaper
(/death mentions, injury mentions, piss-poor parenting, PTSD flashbacks, murderous intentions)
Jell-O's and pudding cups turned to soup, soup turned to stew, and stew turned to whole meals; Gatorade and Pedialyte switched to water and tea, then coffee and juice; months in bed crawled into weeks, then days, then hours, then only for sleep. You healed physically throughout each day but were without mental vitality. Any semblance of the person before the fall was gone; you were just a shell going through the motions of every therapy session.
Day in, day out; therapy, eat, sleep, repeat. Mom didn't visit for a while, she didn't believe it, not for a bit, at least. When she did visit, however, the room was understandably silent. Mourning her husband beside her nearly-vegetable of a kid was rough.
It had been nearly eleven months post-fall that you actually got to the cemetery to see him yourself, each breath more labored than the last while the grass, crusted in frost and icy slush, crunched under your feet. You'd had to endure the other funerals for the 831, visit Rigo, and deal with the legal repercussions of being legally missing, then dead, for apparently a day. The timing didn't line up, you'd thought as you scribbled your signature across the seemingly endless stack of papers. That didn't matter, though, and you knew that. All sensibility and understanding of the world had flown out the window with Navarro and Okazaki that day.
Canvas shoes stopped before the freshly chiseled granite slab that read out that familiar name of your father. The tombstone looked at you, and you looked back. Neither one of you moved. The crows didn't squawk either, they just watched, as did the rest of the fauna surrounding the graveyard. Shockingly enough, you almost wanted the corvids to cut in, to yell and shriek at the human stepping into their territory; but they didn't. They just watched, as most birds do.
Words weren't spoken, merely thought, as you stared down at the ground as the gears in your head click, click, clicked. Rigo was returning to the military, he'd said that weeks ago. Click, click, click. Not because he wanted to, but because he felt like he had to. You supposed he'd be sticking with that as his post-fall career. Click, click, click. The legality of your actions with Owens was still in play, but they said they'd let you go if you went to outpatient, huh? Click, click, click. The turning of gears faded into whipping helo blades, and you stopped breathing for a moment, no air puffing from your warm lungs into the crisp air. Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. What did you do after the outpatient requirement finished? Did you... go look for another job? Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Could you even work anything remotely minimum wage with the scars on your face? They hadn't even healed yet, not fully anyway. Would anyone even consider you for an interview? Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Did you really have a choice to go... anywhere?
Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Navarro was ripped out of the safety of the metal bird. Okazaki was next to go. Achebe was long dead before she even saw her sergeants fling out to their deaths. Johnny was missing. Rigo was going through the motions. Marisha was enduring the guilt of almost being the only survivor. You were a walking corpse. Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. What about Phil?
Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Someone screamed.
What about Graves?
Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Something red and wet slapped onto your skin.
Why wasn't he...
Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Your stomach flew up into your lungs as you were thrown around, glancing at Rigo. He was scared.
Why wasn't he hurting?
Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. You were scared.
Why wasn't he in the helo?
Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Death considered both of you for those moments.
Why wasn't Graves dead too?
Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. Vwoom, vwoom, vwoom. But Death did not have either of you on her list.
Your ears had been ringing, an inaudible siren to the corvids that watched on as your hands flexed and relaxed. The thoughts trickled easily together, molding like water molecules that clung and enlarged each other. Why wasn't Graves dead? Out of all of the 831, he came out unscathed, smiling, happy, that things went the way they did.
Caw!
Jumping in place, head snapping to the crow, it stood on a distant headstone, watching you with its beady black eyes. To him, you were a human standing near a rock, unmoving for minutes. To you, the corvid was a sign, an encouragement. Finish the job.
Beginning your trek through the graves, over the dirt, and past the gates, you yanked your phone out of your jacket pocket and pulled up Marisha's contact, finger practically breaking your screen with how hard you pressed the "call" button.
Ring, ring.
...
Ring, ring.
...
"-- Hello?"
Her voice was tired. She must be after all of the dead-teammate paperwork she had gone through up to that point. "Call a plane to Cincinnati," you replied, frame turned back to watch the crow from before. He had moved from the previous headstone to your fathers, still watching you. A beat passed, why did you stop? Was it hesitation? The corvid cawed and your thoughts came to fruition. No, it wasn't hesitation, but instead, a wait for confirmation. "I'm reenlisting."
RWYS is back in production! I will be taking on classes next semester, and am working over the break, but RWYS is now officially off the backburner. Thank you all for your patience, continued support, and love.
(Take this as an early holiday gift)
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blnk338 ยท 11 months ago
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IM NOT DEAD I LOVE YOU ALL IM JUST BVUSY <333333333333 HAPPY HOLIDAYS <33333 HGUS AND KISS
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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blnkupdate
am super busy with the end-of-the-year school/work stuff, but stuff will come out!! dw! writing isn't really a top priority rn because i gotta focus on life stuff, but I'm still coming out!! with stuff!!
generally speaking, none of my fics are "over" they're just on a hiatus until i can unwrap myself from all the personal stuff I'm doing
hope you all are safe and happy :)
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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Little update: I am not dead, just in kinda constant pain from wisdom teeth that havenโ€™t come out ๐Ÿ‘ was sick and busy with school, and I apologize for the lack of context (everythingโ€™s been hurting, figured Iโ€™d give myself a break lmao)
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING!! :)
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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mini blnk update :3c
was super busy the past few weeks bc the law class i took was a BITCH!! but that's okay, she's done now :) (passed the class)
currently working on BITW and sorta kinda RSR but am planning on releasing BITW before RSR
speaking of spiders; gonna make a few references, but will be posting the prologue and first chapter along with the REVISION of the original spidersuit i made! :D
i mentioned this before, but for character creation/writing, I'm referencing dorohedoro, isomniac's spiderman, and moonknight for Huntsman :)
edit: its also 11:30 pm and i just got the chance to not look at homework/housework/errands/job work so that puts my schedule into perspective haha
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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another blnkdate for u guys (im gonna start calling them that)
i am feeling so much better!! i had a rough landing due to the drugs i was prescribed (upchucked THREE TIMES!!! yowza) but I'm feeling a lot better! my surgery was on the first and i forgot to be like "ok I'm gonna go for a bit guys" and a lot of you were, rightfully, concerned.
im finally able to sit in a chair and not in bed, and generally i have improved
as an update for all of my fics, i will continue to be updating them as time goes on, and I'm not sure which will come first, however (next-updated chapter wise):
fangs and funhouses is over halfway done,
goodhearted gunman has not been started but may be started soon,
run spider run is partially started (outlined),
blood in the water is on a pause while i... figure out how to write a scene,
and reap what you sow will come back soon, as i believe a ceasefire is coming and biden is feeling pressured. please remember that hounding the white house with calls, emails, and texts, threatening to rescind your vote, and speaking up online is doing something!
im still a bit icky, but i am better :)
in other news, i am thinking about starting jjk so maybe some shorter fics will come outta that
love you all and thank you so much for your patience, your kindness, and your messages!
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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I will miss you forever tater tot :(
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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Blnk update I love being alive and the world is beautiful :) have a nectarine
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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update to my update: while I was feeling under the weather, I got to watch the new One Piece live action and fucking adored it; fallen in love with buggy (and jeff ward WOAH)
my other fics are still on the way but this was just me bein sillay :)
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blnk338 ยท 2 years ago
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exposure therapy to my shellfish allergy, will update
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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MIGUELITO IM COOOOMMMINNNNNGGGG <3333333333
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blnk338 ยท 2 years ago
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THIRD EXAM DOWN AND I GOT A FUCKING 49/50 WE FUCKING WIN THESEEEEEE
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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No context Miguel fic spoilers (I still donโ€™t have a name)
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blnk338 ยท 1 year ago
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Small update on the Miguel ficโ€” about 2.3k words starting out, but it wonโ€™t be posted until I have the costume drawing done just so people can get a proper idea on what Iโ€™m explaining.
Iโ€™ll keep going with updates but Iโ€™m also working on RWYS, BITW, and school!
Thank u all for the love :)
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