#blazedgrayhaze

[shostakobitchh]

I personally, strongly, vehemently believe that Severus snape is a girl's dad through and through. in another life where lily and sev stayed together and raised Ariel, I strongly believe they'd have had another girl to which perhaps a 5-7 year gap between the girls would create a whole house of tension and veiled animosity that Severus would have no mind (but secretly be an expert at) dealing with. this is a strong gut feeling for me, like I just know.

thoughts?

he's SUCH a girl dad, he'd say it was because lily is a far better role model for the girls than he would be for the boys, but really I think he'd be a good parent under the right circumstances, so much more comfortable and Soft that even Lily is like, who ARE YOU.

I think Severus would've been against another one and been like "why are we messing with perfection here" which completely disarms Lily because how is she going to argue that LOL until oops! another one! and since they're actually prepared for this one we get the full force of Snape being an actual psychopath the entire pregnancy and birth, getting pissed because WHY DO THE HEALERS GET TO HOLD HER FIRST meanwhile Lily is like OH MY GOD

so I don't have kids yet (and won't for a while unless I manage to create an accident) but I have always seen myself with boys and hope to god I do because I grew up with a sister who I BRAWLED with on a daily basis. I think you hit it right on the head; he'd be so good at dealing with the thinly veiled animosity (and they're HIS girls so god help them all) but he'd be fucking blasé about it. like, "okay, she stole your shirt, but did you die?" he'd be almost too calm while they're screaming at one another because he also screams at people when he's pissed and he knows sometimes you just gotta get it all out. but he'd be very good at deescalating when they came to him individually, he'd just sit and listen (not completely ignoring them but also not putting too much stock into it). but that 5-7 year gap would be BRUTAL, because Ariel would be a pre-teen/teen around the time the Other Child is an annoying little twerp, and then when Ariel is into early adulthood the Other Child is in pre-teen/teen phase so they wouldn't mellow out until they're older.

[shostakobitchh]

heyyyy, just wanted to make sure you’re alright. the last update i saw u we’re faring very well and i wanted to check how u were.

sending you lots of love and hugs

I am doing a lot better - having 5 days off did wonders for my mental health. I'm hoping December is a bit better in terms of crazy schedules, I'm pushing my way to Christmas break! thank you for the message though, it's supremely appreciated <3 <3 <3 <3

(in other news, I'll be getting married the end of December too, so WOOOOOO)