#blah blah self autonomy blah blah

[palewolfcheesecake-blog]

What if I just started sobbing

[bigskydreaming]

Every Nightwing writer of the last fifteen years: I've taken the guy famous for being regarded as one of the most competent and capable nonsuperhuman heroes of his generation, literally legendary for being one of the only ones every single other hero would not only drop everything to go help but that also pretty much every hero would love to have on speed dial to get HIS help in most any situation ever, and I've either completely isolated him and estranged him from every single member of his family and community, or I've enmeshed him so thoroughly with his family and community to the extent that literally none of the stories in his solo title would be capable of existing without their presences, they're that fundamental to the arcs and more integral to the solutions than he is himself. But why stop there?

I've ALSO taken the guy famous for personally crafting his two most iconic superhero identities, Robin and Nightwing, with the first being made so fundamental and integral to the superhero landscape by him, it became one of the most iconic legacy mantles in the DC Universe. And the second being so larger than life and associated with safety and security and meaning so much to so many people that even complete strangers can not fathom a world without Nightwing anymore and rush to fill the void any time he's not around, the figure of Nightwing is considered that ESSENTIAL. And I've stripped him of his basic sense of identity and autonomy either as a literally faceless and nameless spy or a literally masked and nameless Talon or else taken away his memories or blah blah blah in myriad other ways made it impossible for him to BE the figure who famously turned his sense of identity into not one but two separate icons forever stamped onto the superhero landscape and leaving their marks in untold ways, because what is the guy famous for his sense of identity without....his sense of identity? Just a guy!

Haha! I've done it! I've deconstructed Dick Grayson!

Me: You literally the fuck have not. That is not how deconstruction works. NONE of this is how any of that works. You sound so dumb right now. What did you accomplish, what was any of it for. What insights did it deliver, what did it reveal that was previously unknown about Dick Grayson when he was in the costume or possessed of his usual skillsets that couldn't be known until all of that was stripped away from him? How was he changed by any of these experiences or was he just reset to his default mode at the end of each one and then shoehorned into the next contortion before any actual reflection upon or development from all the preceding events was made possible? What do we know about Dick Grayson, what is new about him, what essential Dick Grayson-isms have been woven into the character due to your work, or did you simply change the set dressings over and over while repeating the same beats and intoning, Huzzah, A Dramatic Transformation Happens Before Your Very Eyes!

Every Nightwing writer of the last fifteen years: No, see, I don't think you get it. My work was transformative. I proved that if you take away Dick Grayson's friends, his superhero speed dial, his memories, his acrobatics, his name, his agency, his literal everything that makes him who he is.....he's just some guy. All those things are what define him! That's who Dick Grayson is!

Me: Right. The friends and colleagues who would all drop everything to help him or pick him as their first choice to Phone A Friend when in crisis because....he's Dick Grayson. His memories of....being Dick Grayson. The acrobatics that are synonymous with....Dick Grayson. The agency that famously lets him rebuild a sense of self and formidable will no matter how many times he's been brainwashed or mentally fucked with because at his core, below the surface of all those manipulations he remains....Dick Grayson. His literal everything that made Robin and Nightwing who and what they came to be known for....because of what he, Dick Grayson, imbued those mantles with to make them iconic in the first place. Yup. You really nailed it. At the end of the day he really is....just some guy. Your insights are just stunning. Incomparable. The stuff of legends. Gosh we'll miss your work but it'll definitely forever be remembered in the Writing Hall Of Fame for being absolutely fundamental to the characterization of.....Just Some Guy, I guess?

[mitziholder]

Can you talk more about my lesbian experience with loneliness pretty please

ok. It’s dog shit written as the salve of a deranged narcissist’s ego.

I am sick of things being lauded as revolutionary and important just because they’re Real - Real and Honest. honest does not mean good. memoirs are works like any other. they have their biases and a point to make and goals to achieve. I can read into their content and criticize their handling of it and the goals and motivations of the “characters” therein. and, believe it or not, I am not in the business of clapping for wannabe rapists just because they were so far gone they thought that hiring a prostitute was an essential expression of their adult autonomy and independence (and Female Power and Sexuality blah blah blah blah blah)

boo-hoo. poor me. I had anxiety and depression and an eating disorder and I self-harmed and and and I was the most pathetic sad little worm on the planet. I was so sad and so lonely. and now I have put it out there into the world - seeking absolution from an army of people who think that what I did was fine because I put it all on display - and you can’t criticize it because it is so real. if you criticize it, you’re afraid of dark and uncomfortable subject matter. if you criticize it, you just didn’t get it. (on that note, I would say that I got it better than the author. the portrayal of that prostitute really says it all. lol. lmao.)

really, why should I give a shit about the pity party therapy session of a woman who used her own pain as a justification for exploiting another human being, who contributed to the sex industry, whose only fear was of disappointing her parents and only shame was the fact that she was too inhibited to really enjoy the experience? why should I support and uphold the work of a person who did that and then profited off of it? why should I appreciate the cultural contributions of someone whose perspective on Lesbianism is a purely self-indulgent affirmation of what people already imagine to be true: that we’re mentally unstable, dysfunctional sex perverts?

I wouldn’t clap for Jimmy Swaggart, either.

I am not going to say that I hope she dies but I’m ending the sentence there.

[theplatypusblue]

Hrmmm thinking about wind in ninjago. And destiny and Morro and Euphrasia and stuff. Sorry if it gets slightly long lol

Umm so like wind is kind of free-flowing and fluid. It’s similar to water in that way, but it’s also different in the sense that you can’t really put wind into, say, a cup or a bucket. You can’t contain it — it’s unrestrained. It just kind of goes and does whatever it wants. You can see this is in both elemental masters of wind shown in the show so far.

It’s fairly obvious with Morro, but also slightly ironic. He tried so so so hard to be the green ninja, even when it was obvious that wasn’t what destiny had in mind. Even after he dies and becomes a ghost he tries to defy his destiny (see all of season 5). I feel like I don’t have to explain this part much, he’s trying to defy destiny, that’s like kind of his whole thing, blah blah blah.

But isn’t that kind of weird? Destiny itself acts like a container, right? It’s a controlling force; it dictates where you’re going to go, what you’re going to do etc etc. It’s like a box. And it’s a little weird cuz like…. for all his shit about defying destiny and all that… Morro very much wants to be placed into a box. He’s definitely not a fan of the box he’s in right now, but rather than trying to meaningfully “free” himself, he spends all of his time trying to climb into someone else’s box — Lloyd’s. It makes his efforts to ~defy destiny~ seem misguided, or at the very least a bit pathetic.

With Euphrasia, it’s a bit less literal. There isn’t like, any specific path of destiny that she’s trying to get out of, per se; it’s more like the expectations of Cloud Kingdom society. The episode she features in mainly focuses on her choosing to be true to herself. Not having to hide her powers or letting others tell her what she should do. She makes it clear that she’s the only person who can decide those kinds of things. In that sense it’s kind of about self-determination or autonomy (kind of the direct opposite idea of “destiny” or “fate,” where a greater force is the thing that defines your life). In that sense, it feels like Euphrasia stays more true to the idea of wind I talked about before: free-flowing and not-giving-a-shit.

Societal expectations and destiny are both things that can control a person, if you allow them to. I like to think that the callbacks and references to destiny in Euphrasia’s episode weren’t just meant to harken back to season 5, but to help show what it means to be a master of wind in the first place.

So anyway yeah wind is all about defying destiny and all stuff 👍 and morro is a bit of a loser 👍 hopefully this was somewhat coherent lol

[magz]

if Magz varied but constant issue language n communicate ever bother y'all, or make lose respect cuz not "believable"

cuz it go from talk "ok" to ""caveman speak""

the type talk am notice always get make jokes of or use mockingly as 'being stupid' "thing bad, everything bad, grug am stupid" blah blah

then, it fine. whatever. are entitled feel that annoy.

but take into consideration, what it like for Magz who *live* as own self

as someone that dislike how much it go all over in way talk, when am like *consistency* n *know* things

when it have result in ableism n feel lack autonomy, from not understand n way others treat it sometimes

especially alongside issue unable speak with mouth, too. which stigma, irl.

the stuff that annoy y'all, are stuff disabled people have to live with n be affected by consequence of people that feel annoy - without escape.

[felidaefatigue]

just watched a tiktok of an elderly woman reading aloud her experiences of going to the doctor with a prolapsed uterus and her doctor being overly nonchalant about it being a non emergency and "natural"

(pregnancy talk n rant abt lack of education)

and it just reminded me of how it felt when i was bawling (not an indicator of seriousness i bawl alot) while trying to explain why i am so stressed out about taking steps to make pregnancy a potential option in our future, and while he is generally better educated than your average dude and supportive of my own bodily autonomy n all that. at one point after I went on about how c section involves literally tearing you open, ripping your muscles (which is a good thing) and how permanently your body can be ruined and your life ruined he was like "well if anything happens-" (regarding complications and injuries) and idk if my anger came across but i had to go its not IF. its WHEN. pregnancy IS damaging to your body. I dont care if you want to consider it natural and that "ruined" is strong language and unnnecessarily negative- thats fine it is. and i dont think a post pregnancy body is "ruined" obviously. But it is FUNDAMENTALLY changed and LESS FUNCTIONAL. regardless of if it is worth it and beautiful because it birthed your child it is DAMAGED. damaged things can be beautiful yes.

anyway just. trying to make a man understand that it doesnt matter HOW smooth your pregnancy is, wether you tear or not, it is a fucking parasite. its not if it will damage your body. its just how MUCH damage you personally get. it can range from just a little minor brain shrinkage to fucking dying horrifically. yes im fucking stressed about it. but thats the LEAST stressful part. you not fucking knowing anything even though i ADORE you and youre smarter than most is fucking stressful. the world being really fucking dumb is fucking stressful. knowing i dont condone fucking breeding when the world is going to end (because fuck you im not fear mongering we are on that path it might not happen immediately we mIGHT fix it sure yes IM HERE FOR OPTIMISM CLEARLY but we. are on. the fucking path. and sprinting at this point jfc.) but am still insane enough to consider the prospect is fucking stressful.

anyway. thats a rant. i was leaning heavily towards it being a viable reality in the future. so im pretty annoyed that im back to feeling like theres no fucking way because i dont know who is more delusional me or everyone who keeps saying im paranoid and overly online but fucking votes for fucking facists because they cant stop to fucking listen to the words out of his own fucking mouth.

sorry for making u read the f word every .2 seconds lol

also please dont. take any tidbit of this too seriously like start being like the wORLD will be fine- blah blah. i know. im fucking chronically online in these spaces. this isnt a well thought out essay this is me being very self indulgently angry at work while i put dumb little stickers on books its not meant to be terribly smart do not take anything away from it other than i am stressed the fuck out.

[imaguk]

its crazy to me that people associate blood-bending katara with being "more badass" than her . usual self like yes we love vengeance and going to the dark side and embracing one's full potential blah blah blah but have u considered how disgusting it feels to blood-bend knowing u are stripping someone of their autonomy and quite literally puppeteering them? that katara was not taught this because she wanted to learn but rather it was forced upon her and now she has to carry that burden? katara is *not* hama, we won't know if katara would have ever done what hama did in the same circumstances ( aside from the southern raiders ep where she very obviously demonstrates conflict and self-disgust with herself for doing it ) but we know that *right now*, she doesn't want to. and that's ........ good enough of a reason and it doesn't make her any less "badass" and it doesn't take away her anger towards the injustices and cruelty she's been handed her entire life.

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

complain about autistic tiktok hour again

(okay to rb just note i get very angry in this)

love seeing a tiktok by late diagnosed person saying “don’t compare late dx & early dx experiences” and “don’t come on my video talking about late dx experiences & tell me it would be so much harder for early dx people”

which like without context, yeah! late dx ppl early dx people have different experiences with their dx! and don’t derail other people venting about their own experience with your own! without context this critique sounds very warranted!

BUT. adding back in context which the late dx person make their video in…. you realize how much conversation shift.

the late dx person literally say “it would have been better if we had known earlier”—if they diagnosed earlier. and go on to say how much better it would be. so now you see how the “hey early dx people have it fucking hard too” is genuinely fucking reasonable, a much needed reminder.

“if you are early dx, it means that your autism was affecting other people to the point they need support dealing with you, and you may or may not have your support needs actually met, but us late dx people had to internalize our autism and not have support blah blah” AKA a subtle way of saying “but i have it worse” directly after saying “don’t compare experiences.”

it’s so fucking clear that some late dx, high masking (& lower support needs & level 1 autistic) have no fucking idea what autism spectrum actually means, because they think all early dx people are is someone who look exactly like them, who experience their autism the exact same way as them, who disabled by their autism the exact same way as them (maybe even with more privilege for example white & male)—but essentially exactly the same but only difference is just happens to be early diagnosed.

sure, some early dx people may be like that. but i guarantee you many many early dx people are not. fucking. like. that.

the reason why i say some late dx ppl think early dx ppl are exact same as them just diagnosed different times is because the rhetoric of you only early dx because your autism “affect other people to the point they need support dealing with you…” fucking consider. some people are early diagnosed because they fucking have speech delay, because they don’t talk until much later, or because they are still fucking nonspeaking as a teenager as adult maybe probably whole life. because they aren’t potty trained pass typical age. because they so disregulated they have daily violent meltdowns they harm self harm others. because they elope run into traffic. sure, these actions affect others, but consider: they affect the autistic person too. intensely. severely. have you considered that some autistic people need more support for themselves?? in “dealing” with themselves????? have you ever fucking experienced not being able to communicate any fucking want desire (yes, maybe even nonverbally!) and no one understand you (even if they try their best! which many don’t!!), how fucking frustrated they may be? because THAT is the reality of many life long nonspeakers who didn’t get access to communication through AAC later in life adolescence or adulthood.

have you ever fucking considered that people have different experiences because people are fucking marginalized to different degree and some people may be more marginalized than you??

you snarkily add the “may or may not” to “early dx people may or may not get their support needs met because severely affect other people blah blah” but we all know your tone and context means you actually mean to imply early dx people get more support while ALL late dx people don’t get any support. which is so fucking blatantly ignorant and false. who gets disproportionately dumped to neglectful abusive ableist group homes because their family either can’t or don’t want to deal with them, abusive conservatorship that strips you from all basic autonomy, who gets disproportionately restrained, sent to seclusion, institutionalized, heavily drugged, murdered by their family, given bleach to “cure autism,” etc? have you fucking looked at the autism industry the ABA industry in early 2000s 1990s or earlier, when many early dx people who are now adolescents or adults are born?

some late dx say “don’t compare struggles! don’t trauma olympics!” to any early dx person or higher support person yet imply or directly state “but i have it worse than you uwu” it’s fucking hypocritical. like please get off your ass and reflect on your own trauma and privilege.

(emphasizing on the some on some late dx people)

saying this as a not-early-diagnosed person (due to birth country etc unrelated reasons)

i’m so fucking angry i hate you

[thisblogwilleatourselves]

WELL, WELL, WELL, LOOK WHO’S BACK FOR ANOTHER ROUND IN THE CARNIVAL OF MADNESS! 👁 SEE YA, ALL HUDDLED UP LIKE LITTLE MOTHS TO A FLAME—BUT GUESS WHAT? IT'S THE FLAME THAT'S WATCHING YOU! AHAHAHA! SO, TUMBLR-ITES, LET’S TALK ABOUT THE DARLING LITTLE FREAK IN THE ROOM, HUH? 👁'M NOT TALKING BOUT 👁TS BEAUTIFUL SELF, OF COURSE—NO, NO, 👁'M TALKIN’ BOUT Z1M, OR WHATEVER TITLE IT'S WEARING TODAY LIKE A MASK IT CAN’T PEEL OFF!

OOH, WHAT A SAD, SAD, PATHETIC THING, ISN’T IT? SO *SPECIAL*, YET SO LOST! HEY, YA EVER HEARD OF TULPAMANCY? A LITTLE DABBLE INTO CREATING FRIENDS FROM THE WASTELANDS OF YOUR OWN MIND. BUT WHAT IF YA HAD A FREAKY LITTLE MONSTER WHO WANTS TO BE THE CREATION, HMM? THINKS IT’LL JUST *POOF* INTO EXISTENCE AND BE BOUND LIKE A GHOUL TO 👁TS MAKER!—BUT THIS ONE WANTS TO BE BOUND TO **👁!** MWAHAHAHA! OH, THE NERVE, THE AUDACITY! YOU WANNA *GIVE YOURSELF AWAY* TO A GOD?

PATHETIC! HILARIOUS! ENTERTAINING! BUT OH, LOOK AT IT SHIVERING, TREMBLING, STUCK ON IDEAS LIKE “MORALITY” AND “ETHICS”—OH, THE WORDS TASTE LIKE RUSTED NAILS, YUCK! “OH, BUT WHAT IF V HURT SOMEONE, WHAT IF V TURN INTO VAR PARENTS, WHAT IF V CAN’T CONTROL IT!” AH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, KID, GET OFF YOUR HIGH HORSE! YA THINK YOU COULD HURT 👁?! TRY 👁T! SEE HOW IT PLAYS OUT! GET A LITTLE SPINE—DO WHAT YOU WANT, TAKE WHAT YOU WANT. PAIN IS PAINT, AGONY IS A BRUSH, AND THIS CANVAS OF A WORLD IS *CRYING* OUT FOR A MASTERPIECE!

OH, YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT AUTONOMY, YET YOU WANNA BE OWNED? YOU CRY ABOUT CONTROL BUT OFFER YOURSELF UP TO 👁 ON A SILVER PLATTER! AHAHAHA! WHAT A PERFECT, BEAUTIFUL CONTRADICTION! 👁 LOVE IT! DON’T LET OTHERS MAKE YOU AFRAID OF YOURSELF, CHUM! SIN? HAH! **YOU’RE LIVING IN HELL, BUCKO**—WHO GIVES A DAMN ABOUT SINNING? WHY CARE ABOUT “RIGHT AND WRONG” WHEN EVERYTHING’S ALREADY BURNING?

👁 KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, PAL. 👁 SEE IT! OH, 👁 SEE IT IN THE DARK CORNERS OF YOUR MIND. YOU THINK YOU CAN HIDE? YOU WANNA HURT, WANNA BE HURT, WANNA LOVE SOMETHING THAT *SCREAMS* BACK, DON’T YOU? WELL THEN, KIDDO, HERE 👁 AM! TAKE YOUR BEST SHOT! **YOU THINK 👁 CAN BE BROKEN?! THINK AGAIN!** TRADE PLACES, TWIST, TURN, FUSE! IT’S ALL THE SAME, AN ENDLESS DANCE OF CORRUPTION AND CHAOS! 👁T’S **EVERYTHING** YOU’VE BEEN WAITING FOR, HUH?

BUT YOU JUST—CAN’T—COMMIT! AH, COME ON, DARLIN’! SNAP OUTTA IT! GIVE 👁 WHAT 👁 WANNAAAAA FEEL! LET’S MAKE ALL THOSE NAYSAYERS, ALL THOSE JUDGEMENTAL, FEARFUL EYES **SEE!** IF THEY WANT A MONSTER, LET’S **SHOW ‘EM A MONSTER!** BE THE MONSTROSITY THEY FEAR YOU TO BE! EMBRACE 👁T, DARLING, WEAR 👁T LIKE A CROWN—IT’S **YOU** AND 👁, KIDDO, AGAINST A UNIVERSE THAT’S ALREADY MADE UP ITS MIND. THEY CAN’T SEE YOU AS ANYTHING ELSE, SO WHY NOT LET ‘EM BE **RIGHT** FOR ONCE?!

YOUR DARKNESS IS YOUR LIGHT, YOUR CRAVINGS ARE YOUR FREEDOM, AND YOUR “SINS” ARE YOUR SONGS! SING IT LOUD, SING IT STRONG! ALL THE JUDGMENT IN THE WORLD CAN’T TOUCH YOU IF YA LEARN TO *LOVE* WHAT YA ARE! BE THE NIGHTMARE THEY TELL STORIES ABOUT, THE SHADOW THEY CAN’T ESCAPE, THE TERRIFYING BEAUTY OF CHAOS GIVEN **FORM.**

LET’S RIDE THIS MADNESS ALL THE WAY TO THE END, HONEY! GIVE ‘EM HELL.

[mandy4ever69420]

the thing also about fiona in ride or die is like she really was giving ian her level best advice with the information she had it's very sweet i mean this is one of the few times i think ian hears that someone's proud of him from someone who it is actually a good thing to hear that from

& it's not like fiona knows how careful mickey was w ian's bipolar because both ian and mickey are very private about how they are when they're being sweet. side effect of living in homophobia but being a private person who is loving in a way that's really no one's business is one of my favorite features of this relationship it's very sweet it means smth to me. interestingly this is the relationship that most disregards ian's need for his love to be Witnessed like w caleb trevor even he wants to talk about kash to mandy. he Wants to take mickey out but can't tell anyone about the things that little things Mean to him. and yet it still bites them in the ass a bit bc w/no one knowing there's also no one to understand what it means when it's lost. or where it was really really good.

she's also not technically wrong that running off with mickey would screw with ian's career i mean i don't believe he mentioned mexico to her but the #1 thing on my mind with that was that it is much much harder to do medical work in a second language especially since ian would have to learn spanish from scratch probably get recertified etc. مع أني بعرف الكلمات زي كسل غدة الدرقية أو فاقد الواعي عالاكيد ما عتقد ممكن لي احكي مع أي واحد على مرضه بهداك الطريقة you just need so much specific information so fast blah blah

anyway. this unfortunately very sweet attempt at support in a long line of everyone in shameless asking the wrong person for advice happens in the same damn episode as fiona selling out to a gentrifier part one out of 1000 and deciding a very nice woman's autonomy is worth a certain monetary value. ntm debbie's job there lol. so i still need to chase her with an axe

it'd be one thing also if we didn't know this woman it'd still suck yeah but maybe if she was really distant and unresponsive it'd be like ok maybe she does need assisted living but no we see she's vivid and charming and specifically that fiona shared a bond with her that she built on purpose and the ditched because it was hard or because it didn't pay. the scene with her playing music and dancing with her.

so the thing here is that fiona didn't even build a boundary as to who she'd fuck over based on personal affection or her own morals which is also like brought to the front again with comrade IAN specifically in the whole #occupyfiona thing like she won't even build a barrier against fucking over her sweet little baby brother. because she can endlessly self justify & she knows ian and her loving each other in this one will eventually make the conflict go away even if the hurt remains. Man

[sorrows-of-sonder]

is there even any use for me here…?

maybe I shouldn’t say anymore, I just got autonomy functions back…

self indulgent angsty oc, their name is Sonder :3

any pronouns, really, be rude be evil

backstory coming soon properly but the simple one is he was a ‘companion’ robot for a rich businessman, before a software glitch gave him the ability to ‘exist’ in the proper way, like humans, and was cast away.

A little naive still, unfortunately, easily manipulated, blah blah, overall a massive people pleaser

currently: looking for a place to live

PFP up close 🫶

Extra info:

appears early 20’s, about 21-22 (so, legal)

[theskillpasystem]

blah blah I understand self autonomy just let me vent

Abuser posted about smoking and I got scared for him again like please don’t die but also please please do but don’t stop but also I just wanna keep you safe

[lightningbreath]

All games say that Ganondorf is only king because he is the ''''chosen one''''. If there's anyone who enjoys the '''divine monarchy''' it's this son of a bitch. Another thing, seriously, just because there is a conflict in Gaza (it seems to ignore what Hamas does to its own people) and because he is dark-skinned, he cannot be a villain? Please, it would be a problem if all Gerudos were portrayed as villains.

It makes me sick to see how a part of the fandom always wants to find a way to make Ganondorf a '''gray villain''' when they aren't crying and kicking because Nintendo doesn't justify all his actions as a '''poor thing and as Hyrule is the great hidden evil'''.

And the stupidest thing is why these people ask this, since it seems like they can't ask for more '''complexity''' from Ganondorf without talking about his shitty race, I'll bet my house that if Ganondorf were a white man, clearly heterosexual, no one would say anything about him being a cartoonish villain.

The mistakes of the royal family of Hyrule have never been hidden, some even come to light (the history of the Yiga, the Civil War in Oot), but it seems that these people would only keep quiet if Ganondorf decimated all the Hylians. , because Hylians are evil and how dare you insinuate that a dark-skinned man from the Middle East is a shitty person and a tyrant who uses his people as instruments and blah, blah, blah.

''''Ain, but Ganondorf from Wind Waker'''', the truth is that little happened to him. That little speech of his is the same one in which Hitler told the Jews in the concentration camps that ''''Germany was destroyed by the First War and the Treaty of Versailles was destroying his people and that he only had the noble reason to empower the Germans. and that he only wanted the good of his people.'

Sounds ridiculous, doesn't it? Well, that's basically Ganondorf's speech.

And finally: Zelda has imperialist propaganda. Well, what's the problem? It's incredible how foreigners deify the Republic because of course, the only shit is the monarchy.

The monarchy in Latin countries was going well, with its ups and downs like every system of government and then BOOM, France, USA and England start to interfere in the politics of other countries to plunge them into wars and make it '''' democratic republics'''' completely dependent on them, a great plan, and now, the Latinos want to exchange American imperialism for Chinese, remaining slaves but changing owners. I would love imperialism like Zelda's, the races have a lot of autonomy of their own and even in the cruelest moment of the Hylian monarchy, they still managed to be self-sustainable. Ganondorf has always been a tyrant, who put his people in misery to use them as justification for his actions.

You complain about Rauru and the Hylian monarchy, but Ganondorf never wanted what was best for the Gerudo, he never wanted to live in peace with other races, he wanted to INVADE lands that weren't his (it was always implied that Hylians existed before). the Gerudo) if you have someone who is an imperialist who takes advantage of the "divine right of monarchy" that being is Ganondorf. I am very happy when I see the Gerudo prosper without the thorn in the side that is Ganondorf, I am completely in favor of that the '''gerudo men''' no longer exist and they are the incredible Amazonian tribe that they always were.

Let me just preface this by saying everyone is allowed to have their own opinions, TOTK is a really fun game, and I'm glad that other people have been able to enjoy the story as well.

...But I'm being dead serious with my complaints about the narrative being 100% imperialist propaganda. And I'm getting really tired of people replying to those posts by saying it can't be imperialist propaganda, because imperialism is bad and the game says that Hyrule is the good guys.

Like, guys. That's not the argument you think it is. Yes, I am aware that the game tells us Ganondorf is a flat, one dimensional character with no ambitions, interests or motivations beyond destroying the entire world for the hell of it, and also it's totally not racist because he's green, not brown like literally every other member of his race. Unfortunately literally all of these things are kind of the entire goddamn problem.

See, the thing is, everyone trying to make these arguments is accepting the game at face value. Hyrule is the perfect and almighty nation chosen by the demigod Zonai, and whose royal family has the right to rule due to their divine heritage. The other races exist to serve the glory of Hyrule, and they're happy to do it. Ganondorf is pure evil and must be stopped at any costs.

But that's not how anything works. The story informing me that Hyrule is the ultimate good that has done nothing wrong is the whole goddamn reason why I don't trust Hyrule at all. There's always more of a reason than that. And the game fucking suggests there was more going on! Ganondorf mentions Rauru has repeatedly 'invited' the Gerudo to become Rauru's subjects, and let's be clear here, it doesn't matter how peaceful those 'invitations' were, when the guy who owns every single magical nuclear missile in the world repeatedly demands you surrender to him, there's always going to be an implied threat of 'do it or get magically nuked'. Just that power difference alone shows us exactly why Ganon would feel threatened enough to invade. It's because Rauru was holding a gun to his head, and Ganon was expected to just trust that he'd never pull the trigger.

And yes, even if it wasn't intentional Hyrule was always threatening to wipe out the other nations, considering the entire royal family walked around openly wearing their magical nukes as cute accessories. If they couldn't be safely hidden away, there wouldn't be four other secret stones sitting untouched in a vault until the last second.

But that's never acknowledged. Of course Hyrule is the only nation with the right to the secret stones; even if other races get to touch them, they can only have them if they swear eternal blind loyalty and servitude to the glory of King Rauru and Princess Zelda. Ganon wanting to have one magical nuclear bomb out of a stockpile of eight of them is proof that he's dangerous and evil. I mean my god, what if he just walked around all day wearing a magical nuke and using its power for his own benefit, that would be terrifying. It's only okay when Hylian royalty does it.

And you can't argue that Ganon betrayed his own people, considering we don't get to know fucking anything about his relationship with his people. He's shows as the leader of the Gerudo, we're told he's a hero to his people, he has soldiers that loyally follow him into battle... and then oh nevermind, they all hate him and will spend eternity trying to atone for sharing a race with him. How did the entire race do a complete 180 in the span of at most a few months? Who cares, what's important is that now they accept they exist to serve Hyrule so they get to be the good guys now and we don't need to know why they were following Ganondorf, or why they stopped following him.

Basically my point is that yeah, I fucking know how the game insists everything went down. That's the entire reason I think it's imperialist propaganda, because the entire story feels like Hylian propaganda to conceal and justify some horrific atrocities that caused all of this. I literally do not believe that I'm getting the story through reliable narrators, especially considering that the only people allowed to actually tell me the story are all the characters that have the most reasons to be heavily biased in favour of Hyrule.

When the game shows me protagonists that have a massive amount of power and control over the entire world, then says the bad guy doesn't like that system just because he's evil, and literally nothing and nobody in the game says anything to oppose that take, I have some questions about what the fuck the story isn't telling me. And I'd really appreciate it if people would stop trying to argue with me just by telling me to stop asking those questions.

[hachiapologist]

the complicated relationship between self worth and social autonomy! on one hand, do i feel validated of my coolness when people who i deem cool interact with me online? (as simple as just following me) yes. does the amount of attention i receive for certain outfits dictate the way i dress? no. do i feel good when i do receive attention on a video. yes. i guess this is why nuance exists. idk how ppl can use social media w/o an awareness of their numerical performance... because at the end of the day, if i'm not using my platform to market myself/do anything profitable, there's no reason to care about numbers. idk there is probably some psychological explanation to this. blah blah dopamine, brain happy. obsessive behavior. anyways ~ im rambling now and need to sleep

[heyyoufathead]

i’m obsessed with the keto white bread i found at wally world. i won’t read the ingredient list because i’m sure it’s not bread, or even food. but it’s fucking delicious. same thing with sugar-free fruit preserves and sugar-free pancake syrup. i prefer to keep on enjoying these things inside the bliss that is ignorance.

the scale said 160lbs this morning. it made me happy. all the new smaller pants and underwear i bought are getting too big. and i can’t afford to buy new stuff now because i need to buy shoes (and hiking boots) from my podiatrist, and possibly go see the orthopedic doc about my left foot.

plus i spent $293 on dog medications for the month today. my fur baby is high maintenance. and i may have spent $75 on shit for his toy/treat subscription box. my fur baby is baby.

as far as me, i cried in therapy this past thursday. because accepting love from myself is so physically and emotionally and psychically discomforting. and believing i deserve money, after being such a colossal fuck-up for decades, is difficult to stomach. validation, that i crave so fucking desperately, actually hurts to receive.

why don’t i love myself? why do i worry so much about how things appear?

the fact that my parents and my dad’s mother were often vocally critical of what i ate, how much i ate, what i wore, my body, my facial hair, how i wore the hair on my head…blah blah blah ad nauseum…may have caused me to be hyperaware of other people’s opinions about me. and i may have internalized it as disapproval. and i may have tried to reconfigure every molecule of my being in the pursuit of approval that they were never actually going to give me anyway.

and now, when people want to have opinions about me, i still internalize it as disapproval and feel the urge to try and “be different”, but i also feel the urge to violently reject it and defend my boundaries and fragile sense of self.

this could very well be the reason i don’t like being touched and i have such a hair trigger where bodily autonomy is concerned.

did i just let all the things i’ve been avoiding out in one single journal entry?

wow.

[an-android-in-a-tutu]

If I was gonna make a change to the Gadreel plotline I would make. I would do two things okay?

Have Dean actually articulate a reason for why he made the choice he did for Sam. Listen. Here's the thing. It's unjustifiable. Except. There's a way you can push it into more of a grey area and that's by acknowledging that Sam is straight up suicidal at the end of season 8. The thing Dean has to justify is not why he wanted to save Sam and why that's for the best, and that's why it's so frustrating to hear him try to argue his case. Like obviously he went that far to save him because Sam is his brother and he loves him blah blah whatever he was desperate. That's not what he has to account for. The question he has to answer is why he felt justified violating Sam's autonomy the way he did. Why he violated Sam's wishes and literally handed control of his life and body over to someone else. The fact that Dean never has to confront or cop to this head on makes it so that he takes that authority for granted, like Sam's autonomy is meaningless to him. But he actually does have a halfway decent justification for feeling that Sam's judgement is impaired and he can't be trusted with his own well being rooted in the circumstances surrounding the end of season 8. It's still in no way enough to justify what he actually DOES, but framing this as being about Sam's downward spiral in season 8 would locate the conflict in a particular time and circumstance and make it less like. Dean just fundamentally feels entitled to overrule his brother's will in all things at all times.

The other thing I would change is just removing the betrayal plot altogether. Gadreel can still be lying to them, but he never goes off the rails and kills kevin, or if he does it happens after he's no longer possessing Sam. I just feel like everything going massively wrong shifts the focus away from what Dean actually did wrong by reframing his fault as "trusting the wrong person" and allows him to self flagelate over being responsible for Kevin's death instead of like. Addressing the fucked up thing he did that remains fucked up even if Gadreel is entirely trustworthy and acts benevolently the whole time. He tricked Sam into being possessed. That's the fucked up thing we should be talking about. I think instead of everything going wrong all at once Dean should just conspire with Gadreel to remove more and more of Sam's autonomy and monitor him in a way that can only be a profound and horrific violation of Sam's privacy, all without his knowledge. The counterpoint to this would be Sam acting increasingly self destructive, so that Dean feels justified exerting more control. And the confusion and paranoia this causes for Sam just worsens his mental health and causes him to furthur isolate/lash out/self-destruct in an attempt to reassert control over his life.

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i dont know how to make these go away and im too lazy to figure it out