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sad--tree · 3 years ago

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mood is flipping bw cautious optimism and abject despair practically on the hour and its only week 2 of 15 so uhhhhh. wish me a very good Please God Oh God Please Let Me Get Thru This Last Term With My Sanity, Health, And GPA Intact 🙏

#one moment im like...... maybe i DO got this? this isnt so bad i can totally survive this last term.......#the next moment is like...... i Have Never Known Peace Nor Computer Programming. reaching hitherto unknown levels of s t r e s s #blah blah im a failure i should just drop out b4 a fail out blah blah etc etc #i hate college #the whole 2 of 15 weeks thing is both heartening and anxiety inducing for. the same reasons? but also opposite reasons?#like oh jeez thats so little time = hell yeah gonna graduate and be done soon!#but also oh god thats so little time 2 do eveything that needs 2 be done!#on the other hand. ah man 2 of 15 thats so early in the term! lots of time 2 get my shit 2gether n expectations havent ramped up yet #but also. ahhhhh why cant i just graduate thats so many weeks til i can get this fucking thing over with!!!#no 1 mention job searching 2 me theres no ambiguous feelings there just. pure fuckin misery #told myself id start looking in the new year and i HAVE but all it does is make me feel bad abt myself n my life choices #not as bad as ill feel tho if i graduate n dont immediately have a Decent JobTM w/ benefits lined up #meaning i have 2 start paying the full uninsured price of my adhd meds ''lol''

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