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⯠ðððœð² ð ð³ðŒð¿ ðð®ð²ðµððð»ðŽâ
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amor, moonie ììŒ.
ð ððŸð ð»ðððŒðº ð ððððð ððŸð, ðŸ ðºð ðŒððððŸðŒðŸÌ-ð
ð ðºðŒððº ðº ððºððºÌð ðœðŸ ððŸð, ððºÌ ðœððððœððœð. ððºÌð ðœððð ðŸð ðð: ðºððð, ððð»ð
ðððŸ ððŸð
ð ðððŸ ðºÌ ðððœðº ðððððððŸ ðŒðð, ðððºðŒÌ§ðº ðŸ ððŸððððœð. "ð ððð" - ðŸð ðœððððŸ - ðŸ ð¿ð
ðððð ðððº ððððº ðŸðð»ðºð
ððºððºððœð ðº ððºððœðŸ ððŸð
ððœððððº ðð ðŒðºððð ððºðð ððŒðð
ðð ðœð ððºððœðð, ððºð ððŸð ððŸðð¿ðððŸ ððºÌð ðŒððŸððð ðº ððð. âââââ ðð¿ððºðºðŒð»ð±
ððµðµð±.
ìì°â, ìì
ð¬ºÍâ namjoon
èç©ç®± â¥ïžâ rkive of our love.
act ¹ literatura da tua alma.
è©©åž â â¡ âââ versos ð«ð€ð¢ð¯ðððšð¬ do meu afeto, pela alma que tu carregas.
â¿ (ð.) tuas palavras, como sementes, brotaram em meu ser e hoje cuido de um jardim oculto, composto pelo teu amor e pela tua essência.
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ðŒðð¿ð¿ðŸðŸ, ﹫ð»ðð & ð»ðððð
ð ððºðððº ðððºð ðð ðððð ðœððŸðºð â˳ã
﹫ðð : ð
ðððŸ ððð ð
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ððððŸ ððŸ ðºð ðð ð
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ð£ð«ð«ðŠ â¿ ð. ððºï¿œï¿œððððððŸ
ââ ððððð
ðŸ ð»ððð â
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#ðð¡ð ðððð #short bios#twitter bios#bts bios#random bios#kpop bios#messy bios#bios#bts locs#jungkook bios#bts icons#jimin bios#taehyung bios#coquette#coquette bios#simple bios#dividers#bts users#bts lockscreen#bts packs#bts headers#icons#bts moodboard#jk icons#kpop locs#golden bios#yoongi bios#namjoon bios#jin bios#hoseok bios
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â â â â ðððð!â â â â â ðððâ ðððâ ððŸð â ð
ðððŸ?
â â â â â¿Í,â â ððð ' ððŸ â â ððâ â ð±ðŒðºðŒð±ð®ð°ðµð¶
â â â â @ ððððððððâ â :â â â ð²,â â ð·ðŽð°ð
ðŽðœâ â â
right place, wrong person.
ð¿ððŸðŸððð ððððŸð
ð¿ ð¿ððð ðððŸ ðŒððºððð ð ðððŸðœ ðð ðð
ðºðŒðŸ ðð ðð ðððððððð; ð'ð ðº ð¿ððŸðŸ ððððºð ðºððœ ððŸððð
ðŸ ðððœðŸððððºððœ ðððºð ðºðð ðŒðºðððð ððŸððºðð ðððºðððŸðœ ðððððœðŸ ðº ðŒðºððŸ, ðŸððŸð ðð¿ ðð ðœððŸðð ' ð ðð
ðŸðºððŸ ðððŸ ððð»ð
ððŒ.
â â â ðððð, ðððððð & ðððð
â â â ððºððððð â¿Í ë¹ìŽëš¹ì ì²ì¬
ì¬ìì¹ . â let's put an end to this masquerade ball, i see love all over the city; i can barely sleep, your ghost is in my closet.
ððð áµá¶ ððððâ ðâ ð â¡ â i ' m a burn down all the love and the hate, the right, the wrongs.
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â â â â â â â ââ¬ÌžÌÍ/ÌÍÌ
Ì ÌÍÌ¿ÍÍÍÍÍÍÍιÌââ â â Kiss ur â¡ïž Tatto0sâ
#â â ð»Â á®á°Í ÖŽÍÍ Í Í á®Â  â§Ì©ÍÌŸÍ It's so lonely in my Mansionâ ..â #â â
#jungkook icons#jungkook profile#jungkook moodboard#jungkook bios#jungkook headers#jungkook packs#jungkook layouts#jungkook wallpaper#namjoon icons#namjoon profile#namjoon moodboard#namjoon bios#namjoon headers#namjoon packs#namjoon layouts#namjoon wallpaper#bts moodboard#bts icons#rm bts#jk bts#kpop moodboard#messy moodboard#indie moodboard#yk2 moodboard#grunge moodboard#â papi tá de volta!â ã̶̷̎̀Ì#nocreativity#like or reblog
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ðððœðððââððŸð.â â âð
ðððŸð
ðâ â â¿â â ð«ðŠðâ 'â ë¹
ð»ð ð«ð€ð¢ð¯ð. ðŸð ððŸðððŸð ðð ððð
ððºÌð ðœðŸ ððŸððŸð ðœðŸðððºð ðððŒðŸÌ ðð, ððºðððºð ððŸððÌðððºð ðŸðððºÌð ðð ðŒððºÌð ðŸ ðºððððº, ðŸð ððœðŸðð ðºð ðŒððœðºðœðŸð ðððŸ ððºÌð ððŸðððŸððŒÌ§ð; ððÌ ðððŸðð ððð
ððºð ððºððº ðŒðºï¿œï¿œðº. ðŸð ðŸðððð ððð
ðððºÌððð ðððº ðŒðºððºð
ðð.
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â ðžÍ Û« bts wallpaper ! festa day â
â
like or reblog if you use !
by koosmicmoon/ luni ><
#bts bios#bts locs#bts layouts#bts moodboard#bts icons#kpop#aesthetic#bts#jungkook#bts jimin#bts taehyung#taehyung icon#kim taehyung#jin wallpaper#kimseokjin#jhope wallpaper#bts jhope#yoongi#suga#namjoon wallpaper#namjoon#bts namjoon#bts jungkook#jungkook wallpaper#jimin#park jimin
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Ý ê°Í¡ ÍॠI'm a distressed mess, but â¥ïž × we're still the best dressed.
#â¥ïž ð â¿ â¥ïžê³ (â
ËáŽË)#taehyung moodboard#bts moodboard#kpop moodboard#bg moodboard#messy dividers#messy locs#jimin layouts#jungkook moodboard#jungkook layouts#bts#yoongi layouts#bts icons#namjoon vintage#hoseok lq#jin bios#jin#green moodboard#pink moodboard#archive moodboard#softcore#aesthetic#symbols#coquette#jimin moodboard#retro moodboard
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ì. ð â¡ ððð
ðððððð zZz (ÂŽ-ã
àž`)
ð¥ð ^ã
^ ðŽðŒðŒ.
ððððŸ ë°© â¡ í, ð¬ ðž together by akaito, our love is ììí and strong, my ð¬ðð¯ðð§ angels.
ê° ï¿œï¿œï¿œðð§ð ððð§. ê± like flowers, ìâ¯â¯â¯ â they know how to make my days ðšð colorful and happier.
eternal love eð â admiration,
the ã»ãã³ lovers of my life.
ð²ð€ðµð€ð ðŒ â¡ boys ( ë°©í. ) âïž who make me feel loved and cared, boys who love me as much as i love them.
ÍÍÍÍðºðŒðºð
ðŸðððð ðŸðœ â ð«ð®ð¢ð² · ﹫ð-ðŸð
Í Í Í Í Íðððð ððððŸ Íððð ðððŒðððºððŸð ð¿ðð ð.
#bts#messy#random#namjoon#seokjin#yoongi#hoseok#jimin#taehyung#jungkook#nicknames#bios#icons#layouts#kpop#moodboard#locs#carrd#users#girls
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and they were roommates - ch. 7
pairings: jungkook x reader/taehyung x reader
genre: strangers to lovers, enemies to lovers, friends to lovers, eventual angst, eventual smut, fluff, pretty much everything . college!jungkook AU, college!taehyung AU, tsundere! jungkook, warm personality taehyung, slowburn
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series summary: it all started with a rejection from your longtime crush, jeon jungkook. you decided to confess to him on your last day of high school. after a harsh rejection and a rough summer dealing with the heartbreak, you were starting anew once your freshman year of college came. you were going to be sharing an apartment with two other roommates that you donât even know. what a surprise youâre going to be in for once you find out itâs the one and only: jeon jungkook and kim taehyung.
ch. 1 | ch. 2 | ch. 3 | ch. 4 | ch. 5Â | ch. 6 | ch. 7
Itâs around 8 in the morning when you wake up from your slumber. Youâre greeted with a shock of pain shooting through your head and your body is feeling as if itâs floating on water. âFucking hangover.â you grumble to yourself. You press a hand onto one of your temples.Â
You managed to get up from your comfy bed and walk to your desk drawer, where you found a small bottle of pain reliever pills. You pop two of the capsules into your mouth, washing it down with a random bottle of water you had on top of your desk. The hangover wasnât as bad as you thought it would be. After all, you were able to sober up a lot faster than your friends did.Â
You were about to lay back down on your bed until you felt your stomach rumble. It was making gassy noises and hunger cues at the same time. Great. I have to shit and eat. You open your bedroom door and are met with the smell of a rich, salty umami scent surfing around the apartment floor. The smell caused your stomach to growl even more.Â
Before you went to check out whoever and whatever was in the kitchen, you used the restroom to release whatever your body wanted to waste out. After brushing your teeth and washing your hands, you applied heavy concealer where Jungkook had left his hickies on your neck from last night. You entered the kitchen and caught the sight of Taehyung stirring a large pot of miso soup with a ladle. Jimin was already sitting on the table sipping the soup. When Taehyung notices your presence, he greets you with his signature grin. âMorning, __. Sleep well?âÂ
âYeah, I guess so. Woke up with a slight hangover though, so I just popped some pills. Do you guys need some?â you ask the two. Jimin shakes his head, rejecting your offer. âThis soup is enough to cure me.â He says after swallowing down the rest of his bowl. âIâm good too but thanks for asking, ___.â Taehyung softened at you just beingâŠyou. Considerate, selfless you. It was one of the reasons why he fell in love with you. His stomach flip flops after he is reminded about the realization from last night.Â
âDo you want some miso? Itâll help with rehydrating yourself.â Taehyung offered. You accepted his offer and joined Jimin at the table. âCan I sip on some of your water?â You ask Jimin. âGo ahead.â You gladly reach his large glass of fresh cold water, and your âsipâ turns into you finishing it completely.Â
âSo, I said you could have a sip, not finish it.â Jimin stared at you as if he wanted to kill you. âRelax, Iâll refill it for you.â You chuckle, and went to the sink, refilling the water that you indirectly declared was half yours now.Â
After Taehyung serves you a medium-sized bowl of miso, he joins the table with you and Jimin with his own bowl too. He chose to sit next to you. You give Taehyung a grateful smile. âThank you so much for the meal, Tae. Iâll eat it well.â Taehyung ruffles your hair and gives you a gentle pat on your back. âEnjoy.âÂ
As per usual, Jimin rolls his eyes at Taehyung being oblivious to his own feelings. There was a comfortable silence in the kitchen. Jimin was just scrolling through his phone while you and Taehyung were devouring the miso.Â
While Jimin is scrolling through his Instagram stories, he sees that Namjoon has posted a couple of things on his story. Jimin skips through the ones of him just recording the party, and himself with his friends. Jimin was about to just skip his story entirely until he gets to a post of you and Namjoon posing in front of the mirror together. He had arm around you and you were holding up a peace sign. His eyes widened at the sight. âWow, not Namjoon already posting you on his Instagram story.â Jimin excitedly shoves his phone in front of you.Â
When you see the picture, your face heats up. âOh, yea that happened.â You say sheepishly. Taehyung tried not to get jealous but heâs just naturally a jealous person. It doesnât feel good for him to see you potentially seeing another guy, especially upon recently learning that Taehyung indeed has strong feelings for you.Â
âWell? Are you just gonna say that? What else happened?â Jimin pressed. You debated on telling the boys that Namjoon had asked you out on a date later this week. You felt shy to say out loud that you were going on a first date with someoneâŠever. Namjoon is your first ever real date. Youâve kissed only two people in your life; Kim Seokjin, and one guy you had lost your virginity to when you were a third year in high school. His name was Hwang Hyunjin. You and Hyunjin were not an official couple. It was more like what they call nowadays; a âsneaky linkâ. Hyunjin was attracted to you, you thought he was hot enough to fuck. The two of you were just horny teenagers and wanted to get your virginities over with. It was just sex and kisses, no dates and no feelings. Hyunjin ended up transferring to a new school for his senior year and you havenât heard from him since.Â
You decided that you shouldn't make it a huge deal to hide the date from them. âHe, uh, actually asked me out on a date later this week.â You confess. Jiminâs eyes immediately fixated on Taehyung's reaction. Taehyung tried to get himself to say something. Anything. But he felt as if his throat was closed.Â
âThatâsâŠgreat, __. Are you excited?â Jimin began. You nodded. âYeah, I am. He seems nice.â You didnât want to admit that he was your first date ever because you knew they were going to just tease you for being an inexperienced loser. âHeâs supposed to text me later today to confirm the time and date.â You added. You chugged down a large spoonful of your miso.Â
Taehyung remained silent. He wasnât heartbroken but he felt challenged. If Taehyung wanted you, he had to get you one way or another. He doesnât know if he should suppress his feelings or express it the best way he can.Â
Suddenly, the three of you heard a bedroom door opening. It had to be Jungkook. Your stomach felt as if it was fluttering with anxiety. This would be the first time you would be facing Jungkook since you decided to end whatever relationship the two of you had. Enemies? Frenemies? Whatever the title was, you didnât want anything to do with Jungkook for right now.Â
It came to your surprise when it wasnât Jungkook who entered the kitchen. The three of you made eye contact with a foreign figure standing in the kitchen entrance. It was a girl. A pretty girl. This pretty girl was wearing an oversized black t-shirt. Your stomach and heart dropped in realization when you knew who the shirt belonged to.Â
âMorning.â she spoke out, giving you guys a short bow. She looked a bit nervous, as if she was meeting Jungkookâs parents. The three of you didnât verbally say anything; you all slightly bowed back to her. âWould it be alright if I grabbed some water from the sink?â she asks, while playing her fingers. Taehyung motioned her where she could find the cups. âGo ahead.â He said.Â
She smiled at him graciously, and grabbed herself not one but two small glasses. She filled them both up with water and gave you guys one final bow before walking back to Jungkookâs room. The slamming of the door brought the three of you back to reality.Â
âUhm.â Jimin starts. âYeah..â Taehyung continues. âSo, does he do this often?â Jimin asked you both. Taehyung shakes his head. âThis is the first girl heâs ever brought back.â He informs. The emotion that was coursing through you was a mixture of pain, jolt, and numbness. âSheâs pretty.â You admit. Jimin nodded in agreement. âYeah, she is but..arenât one night stands supposed to not interact with household members? Thatâs like against the law of hookups.âÂ
Taehyung snorted at Jiminâs sentence. âYouâre so dumb.â He playfully hits his head. âJungkook though? Heâs really entering his hoe phase now. About time.â Jimin sighs in relief, crossing his arms behind his head as he leaned back into the chair. It was silent for a few seconds. Jimin sat up quickly at a realization. âThatâs why I heard moaning when I came home last night. I thought it was Taehyung watching porn.âÂ
You managed to crack out a chuckle at Jiminâs abruptness. Jimin is the comedic relief in this household that you, Taehyung and Jungkook needed.Â
. . .
When Yeri returned back to Jungkookâs room, he was still asleep. He was snoring quietly, his pink lips slightly parted. He was shirtless and bottomless underneath the covers. Yeri sat on her side of the bed and simply stared at Jungkook. She was in awe at his natural beauty. She could stare at him for hours. When Yeri took notice of him at the party last night, he was all she could stare at all night. His beauty was striking. When Yeri knows she wants something, she gets it. And thatâs exactly what went down last night.Â
Jungkook leant down to whisper in her ear and ask if she wanted to go back to his place. Without even thinking about it, she agreed. Yeri and Jungkook took an Uber back to the apartment. On the way there, the two of them were in a heavy makeout session throughout the entire ride. Poor Uber driver. At least the heavy tip Jungkook left for the driver made up for the trauma. The rest of the night was pure bliss for Yeri. She hasnât cummed that many times in a one night stand sinceâŠever. Jungkook was a god with his fingers, mouth, and with his dick. Yeri took a glance at her thighs to see if he left any marks on her. He was kissing them like crazy last night. She was met to see no hickies on her thighs, or neck or anywhere.Â
Yeri knew that Jungkook shared his apartment with roommates but when she saw you in the kitchen with the other men, she wasnât expecting one of his roommates to be a woman. And Yeri recognized you too. Yeri has only known Jungkook for twelve hours so she knew that it wasnât any of her concern of what kind of people live with Jungkook. However, when she had seen Jungkook at the party, she knew that she did not want to use him to be any kind of a casual hookup. She wanted more.Â
Jungkookâs eyes began to flutter open from his sleep. He was a light sleeper so he could feel that someone had been in his room and observing him. When his eyes fully opened, he was met with the sight of Yeri staring at him. He almost screamed, if he was being honest. He wasnât expecting her to still be here when he awoke from his slumber.Â
âWhy hello there, Jungkook.â She cooed at him. She handed him a glass of water and two pain reliever capsules.Â
Jungkook stared at her for a bit. He didnât understand why she was still here and giving him pills and water as if she was his girlfriend or something. âThanks.â he muttered and hesitantly took the water and medicine.Â
He gulped it down and placed the empty glass on his nightstand. âHow did you sleep?â Yeri asks. She reached down to tuck a piece of his jet-black hair behind his pierced ears. Jungkook shuddered at her touch. Her hands were freezing cold.Â
Before he could answer, he looked around his bedroom. Their clothes were scattered throughout the floor. The messiest his room has ever been in awhile. He hates mess. He hates anything that isnât in his order.Â
When he attempted to sit up, his back instantly began to sting. It was as if his skin was ripped open. He hissed in pain and attempted to turn his head to examine the cause of the pain. Yeri got up from the bed and went to look at his back for him. When she noticed all the scratch marks she left on him, she winced hard.Â
âOh..Iâm sorry. Seems like I scratched you a bit too hard.â She flashed him an apologetic smile. His mind flashbacked to Yeri riding him and digging her nails, piercing through his skin, from her pleasure.Â
He cringed at the memory, not wanting to reminisce on what the two of them did last night. He felt awful to admit that he was embarrassed his drunk self caused him to engage into another hookup. Two hookups in one night was an extremely rare occasion for him.Â
Over the summer, prior to beginning his freshman year at Konkuk, Jungkook decided to gain sexual experience to prepare himself for the college girls. He found girls on Tinder or Hinge that were willing to fuck and fuck only. As much as Jungkook tried to act like he didnât care about girls and dating, he knew that he didnât want to waste his college years without any sexual experience. He wanted to have stories to look back on, like Taehyung did. Jungkook didnât like catching himself trying to follow Taehyungâs playboy footsteps however it was hard for him. Both Jungkook and Taehyung were extremely popular with women and it was overwhelming trying to contain the amount of attention the two of them had.Â
âSâokay.â he mumbled back to Yeriâs apology. He got up from his bed and reached into his drawer to look for an outfit to change into. âI saw your roommates. They were eating in the kitchen.â Yeri mentioned. Jungkook silently panicked to himself. Everyone met her already? Why would she go into the kitchen and introduce herself?
âAre you hungry? We can join them in the kitchen, if you want?â She continued to talk. Jungkook wondered to himself why the hell Yeri wonât stop talking. He put on a gray plain sweatshirt, solid black boxers and matching gray sweatpants. âI, uh, actually have to be somewhere and am running late.â He indirectly asks her to leave. Yeri gets the message clearly. âSo you live with her then?â She asks without any context. Jungkook cocks a brow up. âWho?âÂ
âThe girl in the kitchen. I saw the two of you going somewhere in private last night.â If she was upset, she wasnât showing it. âOh. Her. Sheâs just my roommate. Needed to talk about her boy problems and came to me for advice.â He fed another lie. Yeri took a second to process what he said. She had a feeling that Jungkook wasnât telling her the full truth. She remembered seeing you look annoyed with him and vice versa.Â
âI see. Just wondering.â she ends the conversation. âSo, I guess Iâm going home in my Playboy bunny costume then?â She asks rhetorically, expecting Jungkook to give her an outfit to go home into.Â
âOh, sorry.â Jungkook went digging into his drawer to find a pair of shorts that he hoped would fit Yeriâs petite frame. He found a pair of biker shorts that should be able to fit Yeri. âTry this on.â She slides the shorts on. They were a bit loose on her waist but the oversized shirt she had on should be able to cover that. Jungkook then went into his closet and grabbed an unused trash bag. âYou can put your costume inside this.â âIâll order you an uber right now too.â
Yeriâs expectations for him were met expeditiously and she gave Jungkook bonus points for the trash bag. âThank you.â She gives him a soft smile, which he returns back. âIâll be going now. Hopefully, Iâll see you around to return your clothes sometime?â She asks with desperation laced in her tone.
Jungkook nodded in agreement. He had actually no plans to get in contact with Yeri again. He just needed to release the sexual frustration that was left in him after not being cum from the hookup with you. However, Yeri was wearing his most favorite black shirt so he definitely wanted that back.Â
âCan I walk you to the door?â he offered. âOf course.â Jungkook opened his bedroom door for Yeri and the two of them made their way to the apartment door. Jungkook took a quick glance into the kitchen as he and Yeri walked past it. You were no longer in the kitchen. It was just Taehyung by himself and he was washing the dishes.Â
When Yeri grabs onto the doorknob, she gives Jungkook one last look. âSee you around, Jeon Jungkook.â She gives him one final flirty smile and exits the apartment. Jungkook breathes out a breath he was holding in.Â
âSo youâre hooking up now?â Taehyung approached him, slapping a hand on his shoulder. âSorry, Tae. I know I shouldnât do that. I wonât do it again.â Jungkook apologized. âWhat? Iâm not upset. Iâm beaming with joy! See?â He flashed him a toothy grin.
Jungkook smirked at his brother. âVery funny.âÂ
âSo...howâd you guys meet? Whatâs her name?â Taehyung gave Jungkook a hyped up smile, finally happy that Jungkook is doing âregular-guy-thingsâ and not just sitting in his room doing homework and watching anime all day.
âThis is where I stop talking to you.â Jungkook attempted to flee away from his annoying step-brother, but Taehyung wasnât having any of that. âBro, just tell me. I promise Iâm not gonna stalk her or anything like that. Yet.âÂ
âWhat?â
âKidding. Now tell me her name.â
Jungkook sighs in defeat. âYeri. Just Yeri, I donât know anything else about her. I literally just met her at the party last night.âÂ
As Jungkook said that, he was on his phone as if he wasnât paying him any attention. This ticked Jungkook off. âHow are you gonna make me tell you stuff about her when youâre on your ph-â
âGot it. I found her Instagram. Lee Yerim. Must go by Yeri for short.â Taehyung interrupted and shoved his cellphone in front of his face. Jungkook didnât care to look at her Instagram page that was right in front of him. He doesnât care about Yeri.
âI didnât ask to see her Insta, dude.âÂ
âYou donât wanna follow her? At all?â
Jungkook groaned in annoyance. âIâm not like you. I donât crawl back to every woman I touch.âÂ
Taehyung clicked his phoneâs off button and tucked it into one of his pockets. He chuckled at Jungkookâs shade. âWhen are you gonna meet someone you genuinely care about?â he asked abruptly.
Jungkook was taken aback by his question. âWhy are you asking this?â
Tae shrugged. âI just would like to see you experiencing love. Or a crush. Or even tolerate someone.âÂ
Jungkookâs jaw clenched a bit. Jungkook canât remember the last time he felt romantic emotions toward someone. Itâs not like he doesnât do romance, though. It is just not a priority for him right now. He doesnât prioritize anything that doesnât benefit himself or his career in any way. Besides, love hasnât done anything spectacular for his life. Love is like an estranged parent for him: knows it exists, but not familiar to it.
Jungkook is aware that his estranged relationship with love is why he has a cold personality. The closest person in his life that he can confidently know that he loves is Taehyung.Â
âI donât have time for love.â He simply answered. Taehyung let out a breath. He knew he was going to say that. Jungkook doesnât make time for anything that doesnât have to do with his studies or work.
âLove doesnât care about timing. You canât always push the thought of a relationship away.âÂ
âI can do what I want.â Jungkook stubbornly continued. Taehyung rolled his eyes at his brother. âYouâre so annoying.â Taehyung walked away from Jungkook and made his way towards his bedroom. âIâm gonna get ready for work.âÂ
Jungkook stared at his figure until he disappeared into his bedroom. After being left alone, he released a long breath of air. Taehyung and his weird questions reminded Jungkook of you. He remembered the question you had asked him a while ago: âAre you content with your life?â
Jungkook still doesnât know the answer to that question.
. . .
 It was the next week, a Saturday afternoon, when you were in the middle of cleaning your room until you heard a ding sound from your phone.Â
You walked over to where you had left your cell phone charging on your bed.Â
Namjoon: So how does tomorrow at 5pm sound? Dinner on me.Â
Your heart quickened at Namjoon finally texting you. You would be lying if you said that you werenât waiting on his text all day. You didnât want to respond right away, it would look too desperate.
Instead, you immediately texted Hoseok.Â
you: guess whoâs going on a date tomorrow :)
Immediately, he responded. Typical Hoseok.
hobi: uhm WHAT..
 with who???
you: guess ð
hobi: taehyung ??
You groaned in annoyance. Taehyung and I will never happen.
you: no. -.-
hobi: then i donât care
you: LOL ur so annoying. Do you remember the guy I was dancing with last night?
hobi: wait him? heâs actually so fine. GO AHEAD ð¥ž
you: hehe thanks :) I can't wait to see where heâll take me.Â
hobi: bring protection <3
you: i don't let them hit on the first date ð
. . .
âYou know Namjoon and __âs date is today, right?â Jimin joined Taehyung in the living room. âYeah, I do.âÂ
Jimin searched for a sign of jealousy on his best friendâs face. âSo, what do you think of the two? Think theyâre cute together?â Jimin decided to play with him.Â
âYeah, theyâre alright.â Taehyung replied dryly. âHey. Cut it out,â Jimin snapped. Taehyung looked up from his phone and shot Jimin a bewildered look. âFuck are you talking about?âÂ
âCut your little act. Iâve been your best friend since we were fucking five. Do you really think you can hide shit from me? I know you like __. Heck, Iâm shocked that no one else caught onto it because you make it obvious as hell. When she enters the room, sheâs all youâre looking at.â Jimin spat. He was beyond irritated at this point. âWhy are you just gonna sit there and let your feelings continue to build up?â
Taehyung remained silent. This time, he didnât want to lie and say that he didnât like you when he really did. And he was desperate to talk about it with someone. Someone he trusts.Â
âSheâs my friend,â He starts off. Jimin was about to call him out again until Taehyung continued.
âAnd I donât want to ruin the friendship weâve built together. Plus, she seems happy dating around right now.âÂ
âI donât understand. Are you admitting that you have feelings for her?â Jimin asked for clarification.
Taehyung takes a deep breath. Heâs nervous as fuck. Jimin will never leave him alone once he confirms it to him.Â
âI do.âÂ
Immediately, Jimin jumps to his feet and runs toward Taehyung, plopping his butt down the couch, next to him.
âFinally! Fucking finally! When did you come to your senses?â Taehyung couldnât help but to laugh at Jiminâs excitement. He expected Jimin to be happy but not this happy.Â
âLast night, I guess? I donât know man. We were just on the way home after the party. And I feltâŠjust so happy doing the most mundane thing with her.âÂ
Jimin smiled in pure genuinity at hearing his best friend babble himself over you. As a good best friend would be, he wanted his best friend to be happy more than anything.Â
âWow, this is so crazy, Tae. My boy is in love.â He sings out âloveâ. âPlease shut up.âÂ
Jimin topples over in happiness and laughter with Taehyung. âSo, whatâs next now? Youâre just gonna continue being her friend? Even though it'll literally kill you on the inside?âÂ
âFor now, yes. I donât wanna overwhelm her. Sheâs probably just trying to date around and live life. Doesn't wanna settle down with a simple guy like me yet, right?â Jimin groaned as soon as he finished his sentence. âWith that mentality, you will never have a girlfriend. Tae, you have a good personality, good looks, and have a great sense of humor. You have the golden trio! Why not use it to your advantage and get the girl? Itâs not like Namjoon is her boyfriend.âÂ
âI just need to be sure that our friendship is ready to go to the next level. I donât want to just confess, and make it awkward for us if she doesnât feel the same. Also, you canât forget that we are literally roommates. It would be a stressful living situation for not just her, but you and Kook would be affected as well. Thereâs a lot to consider here.â Taehyung rambled on. He knew he was making valid points. Potentially dating your roommate is one of the most awkward and stressful decisions anyone could make. Jimin could see where he was coming from.Â
âYouâre right. Sorry for pestering you about it, Iâm just excited to be right about you.â Taehyung snorted at that. âDickhead.â
âDo I actually only stare at __ when sheâs in the room?â
âYou literally drool.âÂ
Jimin suddenly had an idea. But it was a bad idea. It wasâŠsort of manipulative. And this idea hit him out of nowhere. Seeing the way Taehyung lit up talking about you, it was something Jimin had never seen before. Like Jimin and all of their highschool population, they all knew that Taehyung used to be quite a player. Therefore, the sight of Taehyung genuinely liking a girl was very new and refreshing. And as his best friend in the whole world, Jimin has the right to do anything to make his friend happy.Â
. . .
Drip.
A singular droplet plopped on the top of your head. You looked up to the sky, only to be met with incoming dark gray clouds. Fuck. Of course it would rain right now.Â
As if on cue, one singular droplet turned into two, three, four and many more.Â
The smell of wet concrete and humidity filled the air. The rain began to drench you. You sighed heavily with great annoyance at this inconvenience. The bus stop you were at had no benches nor a shelter. It was just a pole and a sign. You held your hands up above you, as if you could successfully umbrella yourself on your own.
You checked your cell phone for the millionth time, hoping for a text from NamjoonâŠagain.Â
Your date was supposed to start thirty minutes ago. You were waiting outside for him, mentally giving him the benefit of the doubt. But you knew he wasnât coming. He didnât even have the audacity to call or text that he wasnât going to make it. You felt humiliated and angry. Youâve never been stood up before and you didnât know why or if you did anything for Namjoon to ditch you.Â
You sigh of defeat and begin to make your way home. Even though you were literally at a bus stop, you felt that walking in the rain would match the mood you were feeling. A bit dramatic of you but it was suitable for the situation.
As you were walking, a dark, moody presence was felt behind you. Its presence was so calming yet uncomfortable at the same time. And familiar too.
The rain that was drenching you seconds ago came to a halt.Â
You were looking down at the ground as you turned and you were met with a pair of black Doc Marten boots. Immediately recognizing whose shoes it belonged to, you looked up and was unsurprisingly met with the sight of Jeon Jungkook, holding an umbrella above you.
You and Jungkook remained in intense eye contact. Your breath was hitched in your throat. This was the last thing you wouldâve expected to happen to you. He was the last person you would expect to hold an umbrella for you.
âHi.â Jungkook spoke. âHi.â you say back, looking intensely into his soulless eyes.Â
It was extremely uncomfortable to be alone with him after what happened at the Halloween party. You had been successfully doing your best to avoid him. It was still hard for your mind to wrap around the fact the two of you had hooked up together.Â
âW-whatâs up?â You croaked out. âIâm heading home.âÂ
âSo am I.â He said. âLetâs go home together.â Jungkook stood beside you, trying his best to make the umbrella completely cover the both of you. Your heart was beating erratically right now. Jungkook remained quiet as the two of you walked together. âWait, werenât we just at a bus stop?â Jungkook halted. You hesitantly nodded. âThen why are we walking? Letâs just head back to the stop. Iâm sure the bus will be coming soon.â He said monotonically. You followed him as if you were a lost puppy and the two of you sat on the bus stop bench.Â
The awkward tension was thick enough to slice your skull open. Your heartâs beating only got quicker and if you felt as if you could faint at any moment. You hated this; why is he here? Why is he talking to you as if nothing went down between you both? You wanted to so badly run away and never come back to your apartment.Â
The bus finally arrived after what felt like an eternity. Jungkook got up and motioned you to get in first.Â
You sped away and hopped on the bus and tried to sit as far as you could, hoping that Jungkook would get his own seat.
Unfortunately that did not happen.Â
âWhat are you..â You stammer. Jungkook closed his umbrella and readjusted his sitting position.
Jungkook stared straight ahead from his seat, as if he didn't have a single thought running through his head. Soon after, you felt the bus rumbling. As the bus drove away from your stop, you looked out the window.
Just five minutes ago, you were waiting impatiently for your date to arrive, you gave up and tried to go home alone but now you are taking the bus home with Jeon Jungkook sitting right next to you.
It has been a couple of days since the Halloween party incident and you have done a great job at distancing yourself from Jungkook. You hadnât spoken a word to him since then and have not seen him physically. It drove you a bit mad, though. Not seeing him, not having any contact with him while trying to avoid making the apartmentâs tension awkward. You were willing to take the Halloween incident to the grave with you.Â
âSo, Iâm guessing the date didnât go well?âÂ
You snapped your head to face him. âHuh? What makes you say that?â You scoffed.Â
âIf it went well, you wouldnât be riding the bus home alone right now, would you?âÂ
You scoffed again, completely blown. âThis guy..â you mumbled under your breath. âWhat if I took the bus alon to meet up with him? Iâm going home the same way I went. Alone.â you lied. It was for your pride.Â
âWhy would a guy let his date go home alone?â He asked. Why is he asking so many questions? Why does he want to pick on you so bad? Wasnât the Halloween incident enough?
You decided to ignore him. You werenât going to feed into what he wants to hear. Silence fell between the two of you for a moment.Â
Not wanting to sit in silence with Jungkook, you opened your bag and reached your earpods. As soon as you were about to insert a pod into an ear, the annoying boy spoke again.Â
âNamjoon isnât a serious guy.â
This got your attention. âWhat?â
âGoing on a date with Kim Namjoon and expecting anything after is like waiting for world peace to happen: impossible. You shouldâve known better.â He scolded you. Your eyebrow twitched upward. âWhy are you telling me to do better? It was just for fun.â You lied again. You were embarrassed to admit that you were hoping your date with Namjoon would turn into something new and exciting and serious.
âFrat guys are a waste of time. They are not fun nor serious. Donât waste your precious time with them.â He continued.Â
This made you angrier. Why does he care so much?Â
âWell, I got stood up. So, it doesnât really matter anymore. You wonât catch me trying to hang out with a frat guy ever again.â
You didnât like that you were venting out your feelings to Jeon Jungkook. Jungkook was the last person to care about your feelings and thoughts on just about anything.Â
âYou canât just let any guy date you. You have to be careful and selective with whom you choose to date.â Jungkook annoyingly analyzed. You chuckle at him. âWhat are you, Aristotle? No, he just faked his personality at the party to get himself some pussy.â You shot back. This earned an arrogant smile from Jungkook. âMaybe so.âÂ
âWhere did you come from?â You decided to prompt. Might as well try to continue whatever conversation the two of you were sharing. âJust errands.â He cracked his knuckles. Something tells you that Jungkook was doing more than errands. Perhaps he went out with the girl from the party that he fucked last night. You hate the fact that you still feel hurt whenever you think about Jungkook doing things with another girl that wasnât you.
âAre you okay?â You turned to look at Jungkook. You were shocked to hear him ask you this type of question.Â
âWhy are you asking?âÂ
âJust answer me.âÂ
You gulped down saliva and nodded. âIâm fine. Not my fault that he didnât have the balls to tell me he didnât wanna go out anymore.âÂ
Jungkook liked hearing that you werenât gonna let Namjoon ruin your mood. It made you seem strong. âWas he gonna be your first date?â He continued to ask. Suddenly, this bus ride felt way too long. You didnât know that Jungkook had such a nosey side to him.
Immediately, you became defensive, like always. âHey, Jungkook. Iâm not this bitchless loser you are making me out to be. Iâve been on dates before,â you lied. âIâve been kissed before, Iâve had sex before, Iâve done everything, okay?â You said a bit too loudly. You tried ignoring the stares you were getting from other bus passengers. Jungkook stifled back a laugh at your irritated response. âEverything?â He repeated.
You couldnât help but wheeze out a brief laugh. âShut up.â You groaned, biting your lower lip to restrict more laughter to come out.Â
âI am still doubting it. You have no game.â It was as if Jungkookâs favorite game in the world was to get under your skin and you despised how easy it was for you to give him the power to constantly and consistently piss you off.Â
âReally? Do you remember Hwang Hyunjin? He was one of the cutest guys in our grade,â you looked Jungkook straight in the eyes. He was still facing straight but it seemed like he was listening. âWell, we fucked back then. And when I say fuck I mean actually fucked. Like dick-inside-vagina fuck.â Again, you got more stares from the person sitting in front of you. You returned back a scowl.Â
Jungkook slowly began to face you. To say that he was shocked was an understatement. Hwang Hyunjin used to be one of the guys that every girl in their school wanted. It was like a competition between him and Jungkook on who was the most popular guy in their grade. Jungkook didnât give a single fuck about him but Hyunjin constantly tried to belittle him to make him feel better about himself. At first he would try to bully him for being the smartest student in their class and for Jungkookâs preference of sitting alone everywhere. However, Jungkook had to teach Hyunjin a lesson on not to mess with him; a violent lesson.
After that, Hyunjin kept his distance from Jungkook for the rest of the school year; all the way until his transfer to a different high school in the middle of their third year. He was surprised that you were previously sexually involved with Hyunjin. He wasnât exactly the nicest guy nor was he the type of guy he thought you would go for.Â
âYouâŠused to sleep with Hyunjin?â He asked. You nodded proudly. âWow. Maybe you are dumb after all.âÂ
You rolled your eyes heavily and didnât feel like continuing this conversation with him anymore. âWhy donât I remember seeing the two of you interact?âÂ
âWe werenât in a relationship. Just fuck buddies or whatever.â You mumbled. You have moved on from Hyunjin after he transferred but the memory of Hyunjinâs commitment issues and his treatment towards you still hurts to remember.Â
You thought that he couldâve been the one. However, he strictly wanted your fling to be sexual only. No strings attached whatsoever. But in your head, Hyunjin was the most âthoughtfulâ guy you had ever known. He was âthoughtfulâ enough to worry about you to make sure you donât get hurt or get led on this situationship. You thought he was careful, articulate, and set on what he wants in life. You thought he cared about you by the way he would caress your body and leave sweet kisses all over you after sex. You thought he cared about you by the way he would give you secret winks at the school hallway, as if he was flirting with you. You thought he liked you by the way he would moan your name and your name only during sex. He would say how good you felt, how good you tasted, how your kisses are the best. You thought he liked you when he would act like he didnât know you at school. He was just trying to protect your identity, right?
Hwang Hyunjin was not thoughtful. He was not careful, not articulate, and not set on what he wanted. He didnât care about you nor did he like you. It was all in your head. As if your situation wasnât any more cliché, Hyunjin was just a popular guy hooking up with a not-so popular girl and he was too ashamed to be associated with you. When in the privacy of your childhood bedroom, that was when he was being his true self. Outside of those walls, he was ashamed of you. Embarrassed of you. He just wanted you for sex and sex only. He used you and a part of youânoâall of you knew that. You just thought, in your little idealized mind, he actually wanted you at all.Â
And thatâs what hurt you in the end. Your fantasies.Â
After Hyunjin, Jeon Jungkook returned to the picture:
Itâs common knowledge that Jungkook was the genius of your high school. He was too focused on his schoolwork to have fun and date around. And you had admired that about him. Jungkook was one of the many schoolâs heartthrob, but he was the top. The ultimate one, the one that every single girl in Busan knew of and wanted. Due to his prestigious awards and national acknowledgments, your entire hometown knew of Jeon Jungkook. Jungkook was not only idealized by you but every other girl who had a crush on him. You thought he was mysterious, suave, introverted, and humble.Â
The Jungkook that you know as of right now is still the same introverted intelligent guy but heâs abrasive, cold, and self centered. Heâs not emotionally intelligent. He only thinks for and about himself. Heâs extremely blunt and honest with his words and he doesnât know how to read the room. He has the beauty and the brains but youâre not sure if he has the basic foundation of being a good person.Â
âIâm guessing your type is selfish assholes.â Jungkook spoke. You smirked. âI mean yeah, I used to like you, right?âÂ
Jungkook's eyes darkened at that, slightly intimidating you. âWhat? Are you not a selfish asshole?â You edged. âI donât care what you think of me. I could care less of what anyone thinks of me. If you want to think of me as a selfish asshole, then go ahead.â He hissed. He was so irritated with you.
âI donât have to think about it, I know it. And youâre also someone I was dumb enough to like. You even said so yourself.âÂ
Jungkook looked confused. âYou said you donât like dumb girls, remember that?âÂ
âYouâre expecting me to remember any conversations Iâve had with you?âÂ
âIâm not the one whoâs trying to engage in conversing with you. You chose to sit next to me and ask about Namjoon. Maybe go sit somewhere else so you can continue to forget about this conversation too.â You couldnât help your anger at the moment. Jungkook gets under your skin so badly, as if he yearns to piss you off. Youâve never had anyone push your buttons the way Jungkook did.Â
Jungkook remained silent yet continued to stare at you. A new, indescribable emotion quickly flew through him when he saw the way your lips were pouting softly and seeing the way your eyebrows were crinkled in frustration. He had to hold back a chuckle seeing you so upset with him. You looked as if you were a child that was denied candy. Jungkook kind of melted in a way seeing you in this state. âDidnât realize you were so whiny,â he continued to tease.Â
âJungkook, I swear to god if yo-â
Two small bottles of banana milk and strawberry milk were shoved in front of your face. âPick one.â He interrupted. You quickly shut up and angrily eyed the two milks. âWhy?âÂ
âYou donât want them?âÂ
âNo, I do, itâs justâŠ,âÂ
âJust what?âÂ
You gave him a suspicious look. âYou poisoned them, right?â This earned a hearty chuckle from Jungkook. âLook at you being a comedian.âÂ
You pouted again as you snatched the banana milk from one of his hands.Â
âIâm done with boys.â You say out of nowhere. This gets Jungkookâs attention. âWhat do you mean?â
âIâm done with boys. IâmâŠnot going on another date with a guy unless I truly know him. You know, Iâm here to get good grades, make memories and have fun. Not to waste my time on dudes who just want to dip their dick in anything that has a hole.â You vented out once again. âAnd I meant it when I said that I was done liking you. In case you remembered what went down on Halloween. I donât know you well, therefore there is no use of me to continue liking you. I hope that we can move forward from what happened on that day.â
Jungkook, stunned, stared at you. He had no idea what to say. He suddenly felt a bit intimidated to be sitting near you. Especially since you brought up that forbidden night between the two of you.Â
And then, he too, felt pity towards you. The past few months he had gotten to know you had been full of arguing and distance. Here you are, apologizing to him for simply liking himâor likedâhim and not knowing him well. Jungkook felt uncomfortable. He didnât like that you were still being kind to him after everything heâs done to you.Â
âIâm sorry you havenât seen the real me yet. Iâll work on that.â He replied.
You gave him a perplexed look. âReal you? You mean you arenât an asshole?â Jungkook let out a laugh at that, rolling his eyes. âYouâre the asshole.â He mumbled.
âAre we on good terms now?â Jungkook bored his doe eyes onto yours. Of course, heâs still gorgeous, thatâs never going to change.Â
âYeah. Good terms. Good roommates!â You grin. Jungkook rolled his eyes at you again. âGood terms, good roommates. Okay.â And the two of you shared a kind smile with each other.
âKonkuk University.â An automated voice called out the next stop. âWeâre home.â You say. The two of you get up from your seats and ride off the bus.
Jungkook felt a sense of satisfaction in his chest after the two of you agreed to remain on good terms. Before, he felt as if he was walking on millions of eggshells around you, trying to avoid the extreme tension between you both. He didnât want to live in a household where he needed to avoid a single roommate that hated his guts. He didnât want that energy soaring through the apartment. And so, he needed to reach good terms with you. Not just regular okay terms, it needed to be good for him. For some reason, he didnât want bad blood between you and him.
It was just you and him walking together towards your apartment. The rain turned into a slight drizzle, pitter pattering on the pavement. Jungkook whipped out the umbrella and placed it above the two of you again.
âItâs just drizzling.â You say.
âDonât ruin the moment.âÂ
. . .
It was one in the morning when Jungkook was interrupted by his studying when he received a text message from a random number. He dropped his pen on the desk and picked up his iPhone.
unknown: what are u doing tomorrow?
He raised a brow up. Who could be texting me? I have everyoneâs number saved.
He decided to reply back to the mysterious human. Maybe it was just a bot?
jungkook: Who is this?
Almost immediately, the person/bot responded.Â
unknown: wow are you seriously asking this
Jungkook was starting to get annoyed. He wasnât in the mood to play games, he has a fucking exam tomorrow. He thought that maybe his roommates would know who the mysterious number was. Maybe it was a friend of theirs?
He got up from his desk and opened his door. You, Jimin and Taehyung were in the kitchen baking brownies. The three of them offered Jungkook to join but he declined the offer. âDo any of you guys know who the hell this number belongs to?â He showed the contact to the three, furrowing his brows in annoyance.Â
âNo idea, Kook.â Jimin answered. You and Taehyung shook your heads, also not knowing who the number belonged to.
âSeems like you should know who they are.â Taehyung smirked. Jungkook tilted his head, still thinking about who it could be. âI seriously save everyoneâs number, brother. It might just be a bot or someth-â The mysterious number double texted.
unknown: its yeri. We exchanged numbers the other night? lol.
Jungkookâs confused expression turned into a solemn deadpanned look. âNevermind. I know who it is.â Jungkook sighed.
âWell who is it?â Jimin asked as he licked raw brownie batter off the mixing spoon. âNone of your business. Iâm going back to studying. Let me know when the brownies are ready.â Jimin didnât let him walk away so easily. He jumped on Jungkookâs back, causing an uproar from him. âWhat the-âÂ
Taehyung joined in and grabbed the phone from him while Jimin physically held him back. âWhat are you assholes doing?â Jungkook shouted. You were stifling back a laugh at the sight of Jungkook being thrown around.Â
âWell well well. If it isn't Ms. Yeri hitting you up, eh?â Taehyung cooed out. He reread Yeriâs text over and over. A grin spread on his face. Taehyung was happy that Yeri and Jungkook were still keeping in contact. Finally a girl that could make him happy, right?
Your heart admittedly sank at hearing that sentence. It was obvious that Yeri must be the girl that Jungkook slept with from the Halloween party. You could tell that she was into Jungkook at the night of the party but you didnât think that the two of them would still keep in contact after the party. He must really like her.
Jungkook was finally able to push Jimin off of him. âSheâs the one hitting me up. I had no idea she had my phone number.â Jungkook groaned. He took a quick glance at you and Taehyung. And another quick glance at you.Â
âWell we arenât gonna let you leave until you respond to her.â Jimin jumped on his back again, causing Jungkook to whimper in pain. âYouâre so heavy, Jimin.âÂ
âQuit stalling and text her back already.â Taehyung snapped. âIâm not stalli-âÂ
âNow.â
Jungkook snatched the phone away from Taehyung and quickly replied back a âhey yeriâ to her. âOkay, I replied.â The two boys gave a congratulatory slap on his back, grinning from ear to ear. âLook at you! Finally hitting it off with a girl. Donât they grow up so fast, Jimin?âÂ
âThey sure do, Taehyung.â The boy's unseriousness caused you to giggle. âYou guys are traumatizing Jungkook.â you say. Jungkook nodded in agreement. âYeah, youâre traumatizing me. Why are you two happy that you are traumatizing me? Iâm supposed to be studying.â
âFuck you and your studies and come hang out with us.â Taehyung sneered.Â
Jungkook wanted to kill himself. It is now close to four in the morning and his three other roommates were up laughing their asses off at a movie Taehyung had chosen. It was supposedly a comedy but it was anything but funny. Jungkook just wanted to desperately go back to his room and continue studying. And it didnât help that Yeri wouldnât get the hint that Jungkook didnât want to be texting her at the moment. He was sending the driest texts and she would still find something else to talk about.Â
yeri: So what are u up to right now?
Jungkook rolled his eyes. Sheâs already asked this question like five times now. He caught sight of your eyes drifting back and forth into a slumber. It was as if you were trying hard to fight the sleep away. No one else noticed this but Jungkook.Â
jungkook: Watching a movie.Â
yeri: oh cool! What's it called?
jungkook: Idk.Â
At this point, you were averaging a couple seconds of sleep, and returned back to watching the movie. Taehyung and Jimin still had their eyes glued onto the screen, fully awake, like children who didnât want to go to bed at all.
yeri: we should watch a movie together! How does tomorrow night sound?
Jungkookâs eyes widened at the text. Yeri boldly just asked him out on a date. He didnât know what to say. He has never been asked out on a date before. It wasnât like he was nervous or anything but he hardly knows Yeri. Jungkook debated whether or not he should even agree to the date or not.Â
Taehyung turned his head over to glance at you. You were in the middle of sleeping. Your lips were slightly parted open, with just a trickle of drool dropping down from your lips. You were snoring as soft as a baby. Taehyungâs heart clenched at the sight of you deep in sleep. This was the second time he had seen you like this. He doesnât think he will ever get tired of this view of you looking so gorgeous. Itâs all he can look at. The movie wasnât as interesting as seeing you subconsciously away from the world.
And then out of nowhere, you screeched out a heavy snore. Immediately, Jimin yelped at the horrific sound. âWhat the fuck?â Taehyung bursted out laughing, not being able to hold it in. Jungkook too had a smile twitching from the corner of his lips. âHas she always been a snorer?â Jimin asked in a whispered voice. âYeah. She snores pretty often.â Jungkook answered without a second thought. Taehyung and Jimin gave him a shocked stare, as if they werenât expecting him to know that.Â
âWhat? She literally lives right next to me? Our walls are thin.â Taehyung and Jimin nodded understandably. Still, Jungkook found his cheeks warming slightly at them being surprised of Jungkook knowing a sleeping habit of yours.Â
Your loud snores shifted into soft purrs. âLetâs wake her up after the movie ends. Thereâs a few minutes left.â Jimin suggested. Jungkook kept glancing back at Yeri's text. It was just there staring back at him, taunting for a response. He didnât know what to say. It wasnât like he didnât want to go but he hardly knew Yeri at all. All they did was hookup once and now sheâs asking to go out on a date. Okay, so maybe Jungkook wasnât cool with the idea: Heâs a practical guy. He sees himself going out on dates with women heâs physically, emotionally and sexually attracted to. He has to like her looks, like her personality, and see himself sleeping with her at some point. Heâs not into wasting his time on just any girl.Â
Suddenly, Jungkook remembered his conversation with you on the bus earlier. You apologized to him for liking him. Apologized. As if you liking him was some kind of crime.Â
You apologized for not liking the real Jungkook, just the version you liked in your head. It was at that moment that Jungkook thought to himself that your mentality was more mature than it seemed. You gave up on your longtime crush on him and accepted to be friendly with him, even after the messy hookup the two of you shared on Halloween. He thought to himself that if you can give Jungkook another chance of being âfriendly roommatesâ then he can give Yeri a chance of possibly showing a different impression of herself. Jungkook was ready to reply back to Yeriâs proposal.Â
jungkook: Okay. When and where?
When he locked his phone after replying, his breath halted at a weird sight in front of him.Â
Taehyung wasnât watching the film on the tv screen anymore. He was watching you sleep. He was watching the way your chest heaved up and down. Taehyung was absorbing the view of you sleeping because it was such a precious sight to him. Seeing you so quiet and away from the world was like a new kryptonite unlocked.Â
Jungkook immediately caught on that the way Taehyung was staring wasnât like his usual self. He knew that this was different. It was as if he didnât want to believe the sight that was in front of him was real and happening.
Jimin stood up from his chair and stretched big. âMovieâs over, guys. Iâm gonna do my skincare routine and then knock.â Jiminâs voice woke you up. âDamn, I was trying hard not to sleep.â You yawned. Taehyung smirked at you. âYou were snoring, by the way.â Your eyes widened and you threw your head back out of embarrassment. âFuck, you guys shouldâve woken me up as soon as you heard me snoring. You know snoring is bad, right? Iâm basically choking on my spit.â Taehyung chuckled at your dramatic response and reached out his hand for you to grab, to get you up from the chair.Â
âOkay, drama queen. Go to your bed. I got to work in a few hours, I need to sleep badly.â Taehyung pulled you up from your chair. You pouted at the nickname he called you. âFine. Goodnight, boys.â You waved at Jungkook and Taehyung before walking slowly towards your bedroom. It was just the two brothers left.
Jungkook felt uneasy at the moment. He witnessed Taehyung giving you a longing glare as you slept. Taehyung began cleaning up the dishes that were scattered throughout the living room, humming a little song to himself. Jungkook found himself thinking about the way Taehyung looked at you. He canât seem to think that the way he looked at you was actually sincere; as if it held a meaning to it. With the way Jungkook had studied Taehyung's past history with women, he was feeling a mixture of being bitter and confused. What is it about you that has Taehyung acting not like himself?Â
. . .
It was around 5 oâclock in the evening when Jungkook entered the kitchen to grab himself a glass of water. He was dressed and ready to head out to his movie date with Yeri. He wasnât looking forward to it, as expected, but he didnât want to flake on Yeri.Â
You were completing an assignment on your laptop at the kitchen table as he was getting his water glass.Â
âHeading out for the night?â You asked him without looking up from your laptop screen. Jungkook took a large gulp and nodded. âMhm.â
âLucky you.â You chuckled. âAre you studying for once?â Jungkook asked. He walked over to take a glance over your screen. You were writing an essay and he saw that you were about 10 pages in. âWow, ten pages?âÂ
You nodded and sighed in exhaustion. âYeah, itâs some dumb critical analysis essay I have to write for my women and gender studies class. It has to be at least 15 pages.âÂ
Jungkook's eyes widened. âI donât think Iâve ever written that much before.âÂ
âYeah well thatâs because youâre a dumb little STEM major. You have to code an entire website and create a whole new periodic element for homework, right?â You joked. Jungkook grabbed your earlobes and lightly pinched it, earning a loud yelp from you. âShut up, undecided major.âÂ
You rolled your eyes as a response and reverted back to writing your essay. âSo where are you going?â You asked. Jungkook hesitated and thought if it was a good idea to tell you about the date. Not because he thought that you would be sad or anything because according to you, you are âover himâ, but because he didnât want you running off to tell Taehyung and Jimin about the date. Knowing them, they would persuade Jungkook to keep seeing Yeri.Â
However, he couldnât come up with an excuse. âIâm hanging out with some friends from my internship.â He lied. You snorted. âFriends? Since when did you have other friends aside from Yoongi?â You laughed. âYou donât know my personal life.â He defended. âYouâre right, I donât but I know for sure that youâre too much of an antisocial asshole to tolerate having more than one friend. You can barely stand Taehyung and Jimin.â
Jungkook hated knowing that you were right. Maybe you knew him better than he thought. âAre you lying about your whereabouts, Jeon Jungkook?â You turned to face him. With the direct eye contact, Jungkook found himself stuttering and trembling on what to say. Heâs a terrible liar.Â
âN-No, Iâm not. Youâre being nosy.â He groaned, chugging down the rest of his water. This caused you to stand up from your chair and you began to face Jungkook directly. âTell me the truth! Are you going to sell some drugs?â
I wish I was, he thought to himself. â___.â He warned. âAre you going to meet up with someone?âÂ
Before Jungkook could reply, you noticed something sticking out of the pockets of the puffer jacket he was wearing. Immediately, you snatched the mysterious items out of his pockets and inspected it.Â
â___, give me that!â Jungkook snapped, trying to reach over your shoulder to grab them out of your hands but you were able to run away from his reach.Â
You glanced over at the two movie tickets in your hands. âYouâre going to the movies?â You giggled.Â
Jungkook pursed his lips together in annoyance and snatched the tickets out of your hands. âYou make it hard for me to be nice to you.â He sighs in frustration. âYou have two tickets too, so youâre going to see it with someone.â You teased. âIs it with Yoongi? Does Hoseok know? Hoseok will get sad knowing him. He gets FOMO so easily.â
Jungkook decided to tell the truth since he doesn't know what other lies to say since he knows for sure that you would most likely blab to Hoseok about the movie. âNoâŠIâm going to see it with just a girl I met.âÂ
Your eyes widened at hearing that. âA-A girl?â You stuttered. âLike aâŠdate?âÂ
Jungkook nodded. He examined the look on your face however you had an unreadable expression. âOh geez, sorry about keeping you here then. You should probably head out now, right? Wouldnât want to keep your date waiting!â You forced a smile on your face and shuffled your way back to your laptop to continue writing your essay.Â
Jungkook stood where he was, not knowing what to say or what to do next. Jungkook found himself wanting to stay home and preferring to spend his night sleeping in bed, reading his manga or even continuing to stay in the kitchen with you to bug you some more and chat. However, he knew that you were right. He had to leave soon or else Yeri would be waiting for him for too long.Â
âJust donât tell my brother or Jimin, please. I donât want them to bug me about it.â Jungkook pleaded. You nodded in agreement. âI understand.âÂ
Jungkook shuffled his feet and cleared his throat. âOkay, well Iâm leaving now.âÂ
Jungkook was about to leave until he heard you calling his name. âJungkook!â He slowly reentered the room.Â
âGood luck on your date.â You gave him a soft smile.Â
Jungkook simply nodded back and left.Â
. . .
Jungkook had been gone for over two hours now and you were still stuck on page 10 of your essay. You couldnât stop thinking about the idea of Jungkook going on a date with someone. It was even harder to swallow the fact that that someone isnât you.Â
You hated to admit it but getting over Jungkook wasnât going as easy as you thought it wouldâve been. Of course you are aware of the fact that Jungkook would never like you back and that you only liked an idealized version of Jungkook, however you still held strong romantic feelings for Jungkook either way.Â
The past two hours, you kept comparing yourself to the girl that he went on the date with. Was she prettier? Was she smarter than you? Did they meet through his engineering classes? What does Jungkook like about her? Was he having a good time right now?
Your heart clenched at the possibilities.Â
âHey.â You heard a voice coming from behind. You jumped and turned your head to see Taehyung smiling at you.Â
Immediately, you returned a genuine smile back at him. âHi Tae!âÂ
âWhat are you doing?âÂ
You sighed. âIâm just struggling on this essay. I havenât written anything.â Taehyung snaked an arm around your shoulder. âWell, when exactly is this essay due?âÂ
âTomorrow, I think? I was on a roll but now Iâve lost all my concentration.â You pout. âHm. Maybe some fresh air will do you some good?â Taehyung suggested. He began to snake both of his arms around you, constricting you in a tight embrace.Â
âIf I were to agree to go outside, where would I go?â Your voice cracked from Taehyungâs tight hug. âMaybe to walk to that new sushi restaurant that just opened up by our place? With your favorite roommate?â You snorted at him and pushed his arms off of you. â
I guess my mind would appreciate a nice dinner break.â You hummed in pleasure. âLetâs go, then! Iâve been dying to take you ever since they opened last week!âÂ
You were shocked to hear that. âYou were waiting to take me?â Taehyung affirmed by nodding his head. âOh!â You laughed nervously. âWell, let me go ahead and quickly change into something suitable for our sushi adventure!âÂ
You ran off to your room and changed out of your comfortable hoodie and sweats and transformed into a nice jean mini skirt, oversized sweater vest and into a pair of black loafers.Â
âHonestly, you mentioning sushi has my stomach already growling like crazy.â Taehyung chuckled at you. âCome on, letâs go.âÂ
As you both walked down the street together, you began to observe the beautiful city that engulfs you. The high-rise apartments, the hustle and bustle of the college town you grew to love living in. Being outside was enough to reduce the inner stress you had going on; the essay, the upcoming exams, andâŠthe unfortunate heartache of Jungkook being on a date with someone. Youâve realized that the feelings you harbor for him were a lot harder to let go than you thought it wouldâve. At first when it was just a little highschool crush, you were able to like him from afar. It was more of a physical, vain crush. However, you live with him. You have gotten closer to him in a more intimate way compared to the high school crush. Yes, heâs still an asshole to you. Yes, heâs closed off and doesnât seem interested in getting to know you past as being his roommate. It hurts. And youâre trying to let go, you really are. What else can you do to help yourself get over him quickly?Â
âWeâre here.â Taehyung brought you out of your endless thoughts. He held the door open for you as you entered the sushi restaurant. The scent of the raw fish, ramen broth, and cooked rice infiltrate your nostrils. âGod, it smells amazing here.â Taehyung chuckled at you admiring the restaurant. âHopefully the food is just as good.âÂ
âHello, for many?â The hostess asked. âFor two, please.â Taehyung answered. âFollow me.âÂ
As the hostess led you and Taehyung to your tables, you hesitantly stared at Taehyung as discreetly as you could. Suddenly, you could hear Hoseokâs voice in your head, remembering all the nonsense he would say to you about Taehyung.
âHow havenât you hooked up with him yet? Heâs so good looking!âÂ
âTaehyung seems to care about you a lotâ
âYou guys are practically Han and Anna from Frozen; always finishing each otherâs sentences and getting excited over the littlest things and you both enjoy each otherâs company like crazy.â
And then you remembered what Chaeyoung said from a previous phone call,
â___, youâre telling me that youâre just friends with a beautiful man like that?â
Some of your closest friends kept pushing you to get with Taehyung and you just never saw him that way. But why? They were right; Taehyung is good looking, he does care about you, and you guys get along extremely well together. Did you just not allow yourself to see Taehyung past friends for the sake of your feelings for Jungkook? Admittedly, if you had met Taehyung first, he would be the one high school-you wouldâve been crushing over. Taehyung is kind hearted, mature, he is beyond artistically intelligent, he cares for others and financially provides for Jungkook. You looked up to him in so many ways, he inspires you to be a better version of yourself. So, why didnât you find yourself romantically attracted to Taehyung?Â
Taehyung pulled the chair out for you. âWhy thank you.â You giggled. âAbsolutely.âÂ
The hostess leaves you both with the silverware and menus. âWhat sounds good to you?â Taehyung asked as he scanned the menu.Â
âYou.â You smile.
Taehyung chokes on air. You slightly chuckle at his cute reaction and hide yourself in the menu. âHow unexpected of you to say, y/n.â He blushes. âI donât know where that came from, honestly.âÂ
âNeither do I.â Taehyung blushes as well. You could feel your chest tighten at the adorable sight of Taehyung looking shy and awkward. âYou look cute when you blush.â You admit. You wanted to see him blush harder and so he did. Taehyung bursted out a nervous laugh and pressed his palms against his cheeks. âYouâre making my cheeks burn, y/n.â His box-like smile appears.Â
âOkay, Iâm done..for now.â You give him a reassuring smile and look down at your lap. You honestly donât know where the sudden flirting came from. You meant in a playful friendly way however you didnât seem to mind if Taehyung was to take your flirting seriously. Which he didnât really seem to since he was laughing and smiling along with you.Â
The thing with Taehyung was that he had an incredibly comfortable aura to him. You felt safe with him, you felt at ease. Maybe that was something you were looking for in an amicable way? You had your two childhood best friends abroad, living their own lives. Sure, you had Hoseok, however he is a busy individual and is often spending his free time with his boyfriend, as he should. You felt lonely and your heart was yearning for someone to confide in, hang with, be yourself with. Taehyung simply checked all those boxes. For now, you had settled with the fact that Taehyung was who you needed for amicable and sanity reasons. Any other feelings would come naturally if it was meant to be for.
Your server approached you and Taehyung and offered you both water and if you guys were ready to order. After ordering your choice of dishes, you were back in a comfortable silence. âTell me how your week has been going.â Taehyung asks, taking a sip of his water right after. âMmâŠnot much honestly. Just been going to classes, studying. Nothing interesting.âÂ
âWhat do you mean ânothing interestingâ, didnât you have a date earlier this week with that guy from the party?â Taehyung brought up Namjoon. Your face dropped in annoyance at the memory of him ghosting you so suddenly. Especially when he seemed so interested in you from that night. âLetâs just say that the date didnât happen. He kind ofâŠghosted me.â You admit, biting your lip from remembering how embarrassing it was. Taehyungâs eyes widened. âHe what?â You nodded, validating his disbelief.Â
âYeah, believe me I was in shock too. I have no idea what I did.â Taehyung scoffed at you. âI could bet you a million dollars that it wasnât anything that you did; it was just Namjoon being the typical frat boy slash fuck boy that he is. Heâs a dickhead and I donât know why I encouraged him to ask you out.â Taehyung spat. âYou encouraged it?â You asked in shock. âYeah, he kept asking Jimin and I if you were single and if it was alright for him to ask you out, since he knew you were our friend.â Taehyung could feel the warmth of anger in his chest as he spilled out what had happened at the party.
You responded with silence. Namjoonâs sudden rejection hurts less now however Taehyungâs anger made you feel slightly guilty. Not because you thought you did anything wrong but because you didnât want to be a reason as to why Taehyung would hold anger against a good friend of his. Taehyung tried to read your expression. He could tell you had some guilt mixed with embarrassment. âAre you okay?â He asked. He leaned and tried to attempt to reach for your hand but he went against doing so.Â
You nodded and tried to give him a reassuring smile. âIâm okay. I was able to get over it well.â Taehyung let out a sigh of relief. âItâs his loss.âÂ
You chuckled softly at that. âHis loss, indeed.â Taehyung leaned back against his chair and was trying to read your expression again. He could tell you didnât want to continue talking about this and so he changed topics. âWell, are you interested in anyone else?â You choked on a little water and gently coughed.Â
âGeez, Tae. Nice change of topics.â You laughed awkwardly. Taehyung shrugged it off and smirked at you. âIâm just in my gossip era.â You rolled your eyes at him and dabbed some water from the corner of your lips with a napkin. âUh, no. Iâm not interested in anyone. Iâm trying to enjoy my single life.â You answered. Taehyung could only nod at that. Of course he wasnât expecting much of an answer from you. He knows youâve been through a lot with Jungkook and now with Namjoon. He just wanted reassurance that there wasnât anyâŠcompetition in his way.Â
Actually, he wanted to double check if Jungkook was no longer an option for you. âSoâŠanything going on with you and Jungkook?â He asked again. Your eyes widened at his abrupt question. You didnât expect him to suddenly mention his brother out of nowhere. âTaehyung..â You started off. He locked his dark brown eyes with yours, not afraid of how intrusive his question was. He was set on trying to get you to see how he feels for you one way or another.Â
âUhm..â You hesitated. âI mean there was always nothing going on between us. However, if you meant to ask about my previous feelings for him thenâŠI donât think I like him that way anymore. I see him as just an acquaintance and roommate. Iâm sure the same goes for him. AndâŠyeah.â You finished. Again, Taehyung was trying to read your expression, your tone, your body language. From the way you didnât look directly into his eyes when you answered, the way you fiddled with your fingers, the way you chewed on your bottom lip when you were thinking of your response, and the way your voice sounded defeated, as if you had lost something you didnât want to lose, was enough for Taehyung to know the true answer lying underneath your surface.
You were lying.Â
You still harbored feelings for his brother. You donât see him as just an acquaintance and roommate. He doesnât know what you see Jungkook as but it is certainly not as platonic as youâre making it seem. He could feel his chest throb in pain slightly at the realization. Taehyung had no idea if Jungkookâs feelings towards you were mutual or not because he never seemed to care to notice or study the way Jungkook was around you. He was certain that Jungkook most likely saw you in a platonic way. From what he knows of, the two of you donât spend a lot of time together. Nor do you both talk to each other one-on-one a lot. Taehyung thinks that the kind of relationship you and Jungkook have is currently a contractual mutualistic relationship: you guys are supposed to just put up with each otherâs antics and that was that.Â
âI see.â He forced a smile onto his face. âAre you comfortable living with us three guys still?â You laughed at his question and nodded. âOf course. I love you guys.âÂ
Taehyung leaned forward to you again and this time, he actually reached his hand out to yours. You gladly gave your hand to him to hold. âI couldnât have chosen a better roommate to deal with our bullshit. We love you too, y/n.â Your heart glowed at Taehyungâs sentimental confession. âAwe, Tae..â You cooed softly.Â
âOkay, I have one family-sized sushi boat and your sides for the lovely couple here.â Your server interrupted and placed a large wooden boat of the gorgeous raw fish onto your table. You and Taehyung gave each other a look and snorted at the âcoupleâ remark. However, you indirectly agreed to go along with it. You figured that couples usually receive free dessert at the end of the dinner either way. âLetâs dig in, shall we?â You eagerly smiled at Taehyung. He returned the gleeful expression and the two of you pigged out together.Â
. . .
How can a 115-minute movie suddenly feel like an eight hour shift?Â
Jungkook was feeling incredibly bored out of his mind as he watched the sci-fi movie that Yeri had picked out for them. He looked over at you and could tell that she was very into the movie. Her eyes were locked onto the film and was mindlessly chomping down the bucket of popcorn she was hoarding. Jungkook wanted to melt like the butter on the popcorn and slither his ass out of the theater.Â
He would rather spend 115 minutes walking barefoot on the asphalt in the middle of the summer than be here on this date he didnât want to go on. Jungkook had tried to give Yeri a chance to redeem herself but she just wasnâtâŠinteresting. Nothing about her was intriguing to Jungkook. He asked her questions to attempt to get to know her. Sheâs in college studying to be an actress, sheâs a part time pilates instructor at a nearby gym, sheâs also a full-time content creator on YouTube and likes to make makeup tutorials and skincare videos. She likes horror and sci-fi movies but Jungkook prefers rom-coms. She likes to spend her free time outside in the city and bar hopping with friends, meanwhile Jungkook prefers staying in and isolating himself in his room. She doesnât like to fraternize with anyone that isnât wealthy, socially popular, good-looking, or just anyone that isnât similar to her lifestyle and interests. Sheâs shallow and vain and Jungkook wasnât vibing with that.Â
When Yeri told him about her close friend circle, it raised a huge red flag for Jungkook. He was familiar with her groupie. They were all influencers that posted beauty and fashion content, only dating within their wealth level and socialite class. They would still talk bad about other students on campus as if they were still stuck in their high school bully era. After getting to know all this about Yeri, Jungkook was quite ready to ghost her as soon as the movie ended.Â
All of a sudden, a jumpscare happened on the screen, causing half of the theater to scream and throw their popcorn in the air. Yeri was one of the few who screamed and instinctually clenched her arms around Jungkookâs.Â
âThat was so scary, Jungkook.â Yeri pouted and buried her head into his arms. Jungkook responded by rolling his eyes but didnât mind letting Yeri borrow his arms for a bit. He looked around the theater to see what appeared to be other dates, and the women were grabbing onto their dates like Yeri was. He grew to be even more annoyed with Yeri. He didnât like how typical she was. She was like every other girl. Nothing special about her. Itâs harsh but true, according to Jungkook.Â
He suddenly found himself comparing Yeri to you. Would you react the same way Yeri did? Would you hold onto him during a scary scene? Jungkook can confidently say that the answer was no.Â
You wouldnât react the same way. You wouldnât hold onto him. No, you would be asleep halfway through the movie and the jumpscare would awaken you from your slumber, and you would jump and scream obnoxiously. You would spill whatever food was on your lap and you would most likely run away from the room. Had you been watching the movie in the comfort of your apartment, instead of running away from the room you would just turn the movie off and change the mood by making an unfunny joke to ease up the tension. Thatâs what you would do. And for some reason, Jungkook found himself smiling and quietly laughing at the imagination he created in his head.Â
Yeri could hear Jungkook chuckling to himself and gave him a concerned look. âJungkook? Why are you laughing? The main characterâs best friend just died?âÂ
Jungkook immediately shut up and cleared his throat. âI just thought of something funny.â He answered. Yeri curled an eyebrow up. âWhat were you thinking about?â She whispered. Jungkook shook his head. âItâs nothing. Itâs just that this scene reminded me of an inside joke between me and a friend.â He lied. Yeri just nodded understandably and refocused her attention back to the movie.Â
Jungkook allowed another smile and a snort to escape from his lips before making himself regain his attention back to the âheartbreakingâ scene of the death of the best friend.Â
. . .
âI had fun tonight, Jungkook.â Yeri shyly smiles at him. Jungkook forced a smile onto his face. âIâm glad. I had fun too.â He lies. âThank you for walking me home.â She tucks a piece of hair behind her ear. âNot a problem.â He replies dryly. Yeri stops at a large modern looking building. âThis is my dorm building.â Jungkook nods in response. âGoodnight, Kook.â Jungkook tried his hardest not to physically cringe at the nickname she decided to give him. He managed to wave at her. âGoodnight, Yeri.â He began to turn around to walk to his apartment but Yeri called out to him and ran to grab his jacket. âWait,âÂ
âHm?âÂ
âDo you want to do this again sometime soon? Maybe next week?â She bit her lower lip in anticipation. Jungkook could see a shimmer of hope and a dash of nervousness in her eyes. He genuinely did not know what Yeri saw him and why she still wanted to continue seeing him. He tried his hardest to remain stoic and dry with her to show his lack of interest but she wasnât getting the hint. He tried to think of a good response that will give a hint of rejection without straight up saying so.Â
âIâll see. I have a lot of exams coming up so Iâll let you know when is a good time to meet up again.â Jungkook answered. Yeri remained quiet for a moment before nodding in agreement. âOkay, sure! Text me when you make it home safely!â She waved at him. Jungkook smirked. âI only live about five minutes walking distance from here. Iâll be okay.âÂ
Yeri chuckled, âAlright, fine. But let me know when youâre free again!â She reminded him. Jungkook simply nodded and began to trail away from Yeri. âBye Jungkook!â She unnecessarily yelled out. He was only a few feet away. He gave an awkward smile and waved back at her, and began to speed walk.Â
His speed walking shortened the walking distance by half and he was able to make it home comfortably. He entered the apartment and was met with the sound of laughter and the smell of alcohol. He took off his shoes, slid his feet into his house slippers and headed into the living room. He saw you, Taehyung, and Jimin sitting in a circle. It seemed as if the three of you were just talking and spending time together. He couldnât help but feel a pang of FOMO. He would much rather have spent his night like this than be out on a date with a random girl.
âHey, Kook is home! Where were you tonight, young man?â Taehyung slurred. âUh, I was just out with Yoongi.â He chuckled nervously. He shared a quick glance with you, and you gave him a reassured look; a look that said he was okay and that no one knew of the date.Â
âYou need to stop hanging out with Yoongi and hang out more with your brothers and y/n.â Jimin slurred out, taking a quick swig of soju. Jungkook shared another glance with you. He looked confused. âWhy are they drinking?â He asked. âJimin begged Taehyung to share a drink with him and wellâŠone drink turned into many. Iâve just been here giving them company.âÂ
âJungkook! Come have a shot of soju with us!â Jimin patted on the ground for him to sit. âUh, I think Iâm just going to call it a night. Iâve had a long da-,â Jungkook got interrupted by Taehyungâs loud groan. âOh my god, we donât care, come over and sit with us now.âÂ
Jungkook squinted his eyes at his brother in annoyance. You stifled back a laugh at this interaction. âYouâre taking a shot with us too, miss y/n.â Taehyung targeted you. You gave him the exact same annoyed look that Jungkook had given him. Regardless, Jungkook listened to his two seniors and sat where Jimin had patted him to sit in. He sat between you and Jimin.Â
You scooted your body away from Jungkook little by little. âNow, take a shot.â Jimin slammed the shot glass onto the coffee table. âHereâs your shot glass too, y/n.â Jimin handed yours. Taehyung administered the pouring of the shots to you and Jungkook. You both turned to each other hesitantly. âI just wanted to give them company.â you whispered to Jungkook. âAnd I just wanted to go to bed.â He whispered back. âIâll take my shot if you take yours.â You suggested. Jungkook just sighed in response. âThereâs no such thing as saying no to these two.â He groaned. You both tapped your shot glasses onto the table and then threw the alcohol down your throats, earning a loud sound of approval from the two best friends.Â
âLetâs go! All of the roomies are getting fucked up tonight!â Jimin yelled. âUh, Iâm just going to take this one shot with you guys. I still have that paper to write and I have class tomorrow morning.â You halted the two boys from encouraging drunkenness from you.Â
âMe too. I have an eight AM class.â Jungkook added. Jimin rolled his eyes at you both and some fingers through his dark locks. âYou goddamn scholars.â He cursed under his breath. âDo you work tomorrow?â You asked Taehyung. âNope. Iâm off from work and I have a late afternoon class so I get to sleep in!â He and Jimin dapped each other up, earning a scoff from Jungkook.Â
âHey, by the way, where were you guys earlier today? I came home and the apartment was silent.â Jimin asked you and Taehyung. âOh, Tae took me out to try the new sushi place that opened up in town! You guys seriously should go sometime soon, it was so delicious.â You were bouncing in excitement as you bragged about the restaurant. âOh, and if you want free dessert, you should go with a girl. Our server thought that ___ and I were a couple and they gave us a slice of tiramisu cake.â Taehyung looked over at you and you both laughed at the memory.Â
Jungkook darted his eyes between you and his brother. âHe thought that you both were a couple?â Jimin repeated back, laughing along. âI know right.â You cackled. Jungkook remained silent as three of you guys laughed. He began to glance at the way Taehyung looked at you. Lately, he has been picking up way too many weird signs from Taehyung when it comes to you.Â
Logically, if Jungkook could sense that his brother was acting differently around a certain girl then he would conclude that he is interested in her but Jungkook couldnât wrap his head around the idea of Taehyung being interested in you. Not that there was anything wrong with you, it was just that he didnât think of you being the type to sway Taehyung. Jungkook simply thought you two were not romantically compatible. Jungkook may not know you that well but he certainly knows his brother.Â
âTaehyung, letâs go take a smoke outside real quick.â Jimin stands up from the floor and massages his butt. âFuck, my ass is so sore.â He mumbled. Taehyung got up and was beginning to follow Jimin from behind until he took a quick glance at you and Jungkook sitting together. He felt a small ache in his chest from the thought of leaving you two alone. Especially with him knowing that you very much still had some feelings left for Jungkook. Theyâll be alright.Â
Taehyung and Jimin go out to the balcony and shut the door behind them. âSince when did Taehyung smoke?â You ask Jungkook. âHe occasionally smokes whenever heâs drunk. But Iâve seen him smoke out of stress too. He just does it when he feels like it.âÂ
âAh, I see. Iâm kinda like that too.â You chuckle. Jungkook snapped his head towards you and gaped his mouth open in surprise. âI wouldnât take you as the type to smoke.â He curled his lips up at your confession. âItâs my little personal secret. Iâve been smoking since I was 16.âÂ
Intrigued by this, Jungkook leans his body back, using his wrists to hold him up. âNow what caused 16-year old you to pick up cigarettes?âÂ
You smirked at him. âMy parents were going through a rough patch together. They were literally on the brink of divorce and kept dragging me into their problems. It was way too much stress for me to harbor as a high schooler that was also dealing with pounds of homework and exams every week. Luckily, they were able to work things out because they went to counseling but as of today, I like to puff puff a little bit sometimes to relieve some stress.âÂ
Jungkook nodded understandably. He had no idea that you had gone through some family hardships as well. âI see,âÂ
âSo Iâm the only one that knows this secret of yours?â You nodded. A part of him was a little pleased that he was the only one who knew. Â
âIâve never tried it before.â He says out of the blue. The two of you shared eye contact at that. You were quizzically checking him out, wondering if he was hinting something. âWell, I suggest you not to do it. Once you try it a few times, thereâs no going back.âÂ
Jungkook had an idea but it was an extremely bizarre one. He didnât know where the idea came from or why it was created. But he was amused at the thought of it and didnât mind encouraging the idea to blossom. âYou could do it with me. Just once wouldnât hurt.â He suggested but it came out more as a question.
Your eyes popped open. âWhat?âÂ
Bashfully, Jungkook looked away. âNevermind.âÂ
âWait, no! I didnât mean it like that. Iâm just surprised that you would consider doing it with me. I meanâŠâ
Jungkook made eye contact with you again. âIf I was to try a cigarette for the first time, youâre one of the people Iâd be okay with trying it with. Iâd be okay if I was to do it with Jimin or Taehyung too. Youâre my roommate, so I kind of trust you too.âÂ
You nervously looked away and had to release an exhale that was being clogged inside of you. âOh, sure! Of course, I get it. I trust you three as well.â You couldnât believe what you were hearing. By Jungkook admitting that he would want to experience something, anything with you meant that he was admitting that he felt comfortable with you. That he trusted you. Despite your history together, you didnât think that Jungkook would carry intimate feelings of trust and comfort around you. Was it because he sees you as more than âjust a roommateâ? He sees you as something more? Like a friend?Â
âLet me know when you would want to do so.â You said. Jungkook nodded. âSure.â A slight comfortable silence fell upon you two. âDo you want to take another shot?â You asked. Jungkook thought about it before he agreed. âItâs not like theyâll know we took another one.âÂ
âBut this is actually my last one. After four or five shots, Iâm done.â You warned. âFour or five? Youâre such a lightweight.â Jungkook teased. âHow many shots does it take for you to get wasted?âÂ
Jungkook calculated in his head for a moment. Taehyung used to throw parties whenever their parents were out of town back when he was in eighth grade so theyâve both had a bit of experience with alcohol. âIâd say around ten is when Iâm beginning to feel a buzz.â Your mouth dropped. âTen? For a buzz? Thatâs borderline alcoholic.â Jungkook smirked at that. âYeah, well when youâve been drinking for as long as Taehyung and I have then youâd know.â âWell then tell me how long youâve both been drinking for.âÂ
âSince I was thirteen. For Taehyung, since he was fifteen.âÂ
âThirteen? Fifteen? Thatâs insane.âÂ
He shrugged. âWell, our parents were barely around to notice. If they were around, I doubt that theyâd care.â You gave him a sympathetic smile. âAlso, we went to a rich private school so a bunch of kids like us began drinking at an early age. It was the privilege and the fact that almost all of our parents were wealthy assholes that didnât give a fuck about us.â You groaned at Jungkook. âYouâre being such a downer. Youâre making me sad.â You whined. Jungkook let out a chuckle and ran fingers through his hair. âAlright, Iâll stop ambushing you with my depressive lore.â You both laughed together.Â
You liked this. You liked being able to be civil with Jungkook and laugh about things together. You liked whatever kind of moment was happening between you both.Â
You hesitated on whether or not you should bring up his date. You didnât want him seeing that you cared to know about every single detail that happened tonight and you didnât want him seeing that you were a little bit jealous too.Â
Suddenly, Jungkookâs phone buzzed. He reached his hand into his pockets and brought the phone out. It was an Instagram notification from Yeriâs account. He clicked on the notification and saw that she had tagged Jungkook onto her story and posted a picture of their two drinks and the singular bucket of popcorn and she had captioned it with a heart.Â
Jungkook let out the most irritated groan of his life. How did she even find his Instagram account? He never followed her and she never followed him? His username was very discreet, it did not explicitly say his name. It was actually an extremely long username: @abcdefghi__lmnopqrstuvwxyz.
âWhatâs wrong?â You asked as you finally took your second shot. âNothing.â He mumbled. âWhat? Tell me.â You edged.Â
Jungkook debated on telling you. He didnât know if you would be a good confidante for this certain situation for many obvious reasons. However, you both agreed to remain just friends right? A civil relationship with each other? Once he had decided on telling you, the patio door opened and Jimin and Taehyung stumbled back inside the living room.Â
He gave you an apologetic look. Maybe you didnât need to know and it was the universe telling him so.Â
Taehyung took a quick glance at you. You looked annoyed. Not at Jungkook, not at Jimin, and not at himself. It seemed as if you were annoyed with yourself. You were looking down at the ground and picking at the rug on the floor. âAre you okay?â Taehyung asked, placing a hand on your knee.Â
Jungkook and Jimin peer over at this, with Jimin smirking to himself and Jungkook keeping his eyes glued to his brotherâs hand. You fixed Taehyung with a brief smile and nodded. âYeah, Iâm fine. Iâm just going to call it a night, Iâm getting tired.â You fake-yawn. Taehyung nodded understandably and withdrew his hand from your knee. You get up and stretch. âGoodnight guys.â You wave to the three roommates and begin to drag yourself to your bedroom.Â
Jungkook watches you as you disappear into the doors of your room. He could tell that you werenât being truthful with the way you quickly came up with an excuse. You didnât appear to be sleepy a minute ago. He didnât want to stay and hang out with Jimin and Taehyung alone for the rest of the night. He knew that they would pressure him to drink more and he would eventually oversleep his classes, his job, and it was also a weekday. There was no need to be drunk this early into the week. âBe right back.â He muttered to Jimin and Taehyung. Jimin watched Jungkook leaving. He didnât think too much into it. He turned his attention to Taehyung.
âI saw you placing your hand on ___âs knee earlier.â He cheesed. Taehyung groaned a jumble of words that Jimin couldnât comprehend for the life of him. âI didnât understand a single word you just said.â Jimin laughed. âSorry, itâs just all those shots we took back to back that are catching up to me now. Everythingâs spinning. All I can think about is ___. Where is she? Is she here? Does she know?â Taehyung rubbed his hands all over his face as an attempt to get himself together.Â
Jimin laughed even harder. âYouâre a mess. Sheâs not here, itâs just you and me. Keep your voice down.â He chuckled. âSince when did your tolerance get better than mines? Fuck, Iâm so out of it.â Taehyung groaned even louder. âWhere did Jungkook go?â Taehyung asked. Jimin looked towards his bedroom door, which was where he assumed Jungkook went. âProbably went to bed. He said heâd be right back but you know he didnât want to hang. Heâs spiritually an old man.âÂ
âDoes ___ know?â Taehyung mumbles again. âKnow about what?â Jimin scooted closer to him.Â
Jungkook opened the door of his bedroom and was heading towards the bathroom until he heard Taehyungâs constant repetition of âdoes ___ know?â. He stopped in his tracks, and stood right outside of the bathroom door. There was a wall blocking and separating the living room from the hallway that contains the bathroom and the bedrooms, therefore Jungkook couldnât be seen from where he was.Â
âJust say yes or no, Jimin.â âTaehyung, I have no idea what youâre talking about. Be specific.âÂ
Taehyung let out an irritated groan. âAbout you-know-what. About me. About me and her.âÂ
Jimin shushed him, in case either Jungkook or you could hear. âNo, man. No one knows except me. Iâm the only one. No one will ever know between us two.âÂ
Taehyungâs drunken eyes looked up to meet with Jiminâs exasperated expression. âYou promise?â He slurred. âI promise.â Taehyung smiled in satisfaction. âIâm sorry for being a mess right now.âÂ
Jimin snorted. âYouâre always a mess.â âSays the one who is a college dropout and is crashing at their best friendâs place.â The two of them laughed together. Jungkook remained where he was, in confusion. What was Taehyung talking about? What was going on between you and him that you didnât know about? That he didn't know about?Â
âShould we go to bed?â Jungkook heard Jimin asking Taehyung. Without hesitation or thinking, Jungkook ran back to his bedroom, no longer needing to urinate. He heard the shuffling of their feets dragging on the floor. Jimin put Taehyung to sleep and walked back to the living room.
. . .
It was a week into Christmas break when Taehyung had the idea for the group to go ice skating. âThe place is open until 10. We can get food from the convenience store afterwards. Come on, itâs only 6:30, we have time to get ready!â He eagerly said. You sipped your peppermint tea and thought about it. âI mean, I havenât properly enjoyed myself ever since the semester ended. Iâve been rotting in bed ever since I submitted my last final. Iâm down!â You agreed.
Taehyung smiled at you and then turned his head towards Jimin and Jungkook. âIâm down too. I have nothing better to do tonight.â Jimin said. âWhy is it that itâs down to you for the last vote? Why do you always have to be such a grandpa?â Taehyung pestered his brother. Jungkook couldnât hide the smile that crept to his face. âThis grandpa was planning to go on a jog before dinner and bed.â He ran a finger through his now silky dark brown hair. He dyed it dark brown last week after feeling like he needed a change with his appearance.Â
âWell now you can spend it with ice skating instead. Come on, you can even bring Yeri with you! You two have been inseparable ever since she came over for our Thanksgiving dinner.âÂ
You couldnât help but to shudder at the mention of her name. You didnât expect for Jungkook to continue dating her after the movie date but he is. Sheâs been coming over to the apartment almost every single day. Your bedroom was right next door to Jungkookâs and you could hear her giggles, their conversations, their snores when they slept. It was as if you were given a sneak peek as to what hell must feel like.Â
Jungkook looked down at his phone and opened his text messages with Yeri. She had been begging to hangout today and do something. She was texting him nonstop and kept mentioning how bored she was and how she missed him as if they didnât see each other less than 24 hours ago. Having a girl like Yeri by his side was tiresome. He knew that he'd rather go ice-skating and bring Yeri than have to hear her blowing up his phone with whines and complaints of wanting to do something throughout his peaceful jog, his peaceful dinner, and his peaceful bedtime.Â
âSure.â He said. Taehyung smiled, in shock seeing that he actually agreed. He thought that having Yeri in his life was causing him to become more social. âLetâs leave around 7.âÂ
Jimin immediately got up to get ready with you following behind. Taehyung looked at Jungkook and smirked. âI see Yeri has your shell opening up. I like that.â Jungkook rolled his eyes. âShe isnât opening my shell. I just feel like ice-skating.â Taehyung shrugged. âYouâre still going out more ever since you started dating her.âÂ
Jungkook didnât care to explain anything to him. He doesnât know what goes on in his mind and what goes on between him and Yeri. He doesnât need to know that they only have a sexual relationship and that Jungkook doesnât harbor an ounce of romantic feelings towards her. He doesnât need to know that Yeri is in a one-sided situationship with him. Taehyung doesnât need to know anything.Â
âIf you think so.â He bites the inside of his cheek and stands up. âIâm gonna get ready.â He walks past Taehyung and texts Yeri to get ready.Â
Why do I feel like I will never be able to understand him, Taehyung thinks.
. . .
You fell on your ass for what felt like the fiftieth time. âI canât fucking skate!â You cried out, holding back a laugh. Jimin skated towards you and reached his hands out to pick you up. âWhy do you keep falling? Stop embarrassing us.â Jimin teased, causing your laugh to burst out of you. âIâm trying!âÂ
You were having a great time. Seeing families, friends, couples being together made you sonder with happiness. Something about being able to be silly and kid-like without embarrassment made yourself feel as if you were on cloud nine.Â
You attempted to continue skating after Jimin had helped you get up. Each time you attempted, it got easier for you. You didnât mind falling, you liked the âtrial and errorâ-ness. You looked ahead and saw Jimin and Taehyung holding hands and skating together. You giggled at them. Seeing the two having fun together made you miss Jihyo and Chaeyoung. Every winter break, the three of you would ice skate, sled, drink hot chocolates, bake cookies together, and rewatch all your favorite holiday movies. You spent more than half of your life with them and this was the longest you have been apart and with minimal contact too with the time difference and busyness.Â
You knew that Chaeyoung was coming home in less than two days and Jihyo would arrive the day after to spend Christmas with their families. No plans were fully confirmed since they would also be busy during their holiday break with their family. Your prior blissful mood transitioned into disappointment.Â
You decided to attempt to catch up with Jimin and Taehyung to get your mind off of your dear friends. You attempted to skate faster and successfully did so.Â
Taehyung felt you bump against his back. â___!â He reached an arm backward to pull you from his behind and place you next to him. âYou got better at skating.â He complimented. âI think I got the hang of it this time. I always remember during the season but then once winter is over, itâs like I get rusty for a bit.â Taehyung nodded understandably.Â
You heard a loud giggle coming from behind you. You turned to check quickly but was met with the sight of Yeri and Jungkook skating together. He was holding her hand to keep her steady but her legs were wobbling like crazy. âI canât do it, Kookie!â She yelped out. You internally cringed at the nickname she gave him. You also internally winced at the inevitable heartache seeing him like that. Seemingly happy with the small smile that curled up on his usual inexpressible face.Â
He looked happy. He looked like he was enjoying himself for once. You studied his smile to question whether it was genuine or not. You felt terrible wishing for the latter. He deserved happiness. He deserved to be with someone that made him feel out of the world. He deserved good things and good people in his life, despite all the shit he emotionally burdened you with.Â
You hoped that his relationship with Yeri would eventually cure you with the hopeless crush you still held onto him. You forced yourself to look away after what felt like an eternity watching them.Â
What you didnât notice was that Taehyung was watching you watching them. He noticed the hurt that was gleaming in your eyes. The yearning, the pain was written all over you. He was so pleased with Jungkook putting himself out there that he forgot to take account of your feelings towards them. He didnât want your mood to be sour for the rest of the night, he wanted you to have fun. He wanted to see you happy.Â
âHey you.â Taehyung nudged. You looked up to meet his eyes. âWanna race?â He suggested, raising his brows. You smiled and nodded. âFrom where to where?â
Taehyung hummed, calculating where to end. âLetâs stop at the exit door. Loser buys the winner hot chocolate.â He pointed at the hot chocolate stand that was just outside of the rink. âOn the count of three.â You say.Â
âOne,â You start
âTwo,â Taehyung continues
âThreeâ You shout. Taehyung is already speeding ahead of you, causing you to shout curse words at him. He laughed and looked behind to see you failing to catch up.Â
âIs that Taehyung and your roommate racing each other?â Yeri asked Jungkook. Jungkook turned his head to where he could hear the commotion going on between you two. You had a beaming grin on your face and was attempting to pull Taehyung backwards to make him lose the race. Taehyungâs box-shaped grin was plastered onto his face and he was giggling non-stop. â___, youâre cheating!â He laughed hard.Â
Jungkook couldnât look away. He didnât know why or what was making him not want to look away but he felt as if his eyes were glued onto you and Taehyung. He felt that same uncomfortable feeling washing through him. He felt a knot forming in his stomach and a sense of unease at the same time. Jungkook couldnât comprehend for the life of him as to why he couldn't shake the unexpected pang ofâwhatever it was that he was feelingâ away.Â
Yeri eyed Jungkook as he watched you and Taehyung racing. She noticed the way his jaw was slightly clenched and the way his hand that was gripping onto her arm to help her skate was tightening around her. âJungkook?â She nudged him. His attention resumed back to her. He tried his best to give her a smile. âHm?â He said.Â
âYou okay?â She asked. âYeah, I was just looking at them racing. Seems silly to race on ice. They could get hurt.â He lied. She only nodded, not knowing what else to say. She looked over at you and Taehyung again and caught sight of you both already off the rink, and were removing your skates.Â
Taehyung reached for your hand and dragged you to the hot chocolate and pastry stand that was outside of the rink.Â
âDonât you think they could be cute together?â Yeri asked Jungkook with a playful smile on her face. Jungkook couldnât help but to scoff out loud at that. âSheâs not Taehyungâs type.â He clarified. Yeri gave him a confused glare. âWhat do you mean? Sheâs pretty. And they seem to get along well.â Yeri explained. She studied his face again but she couldnât make anything out of it. It seemed as if he was in deep thought yet at the same time it looked like he didnât care about the topic. His stare was completely blank yet it could be interpreted in many different ways.Â
âYou donât know Taehyung like I do.â He defended. Yeri decided to leave the conversation at that. âWanna get hot chocolate too?â She asked, looking at him with pleading eyes. Jungkook shook his head. âNot in the mood.â He said dryly.Â
He felt bad being suddenly passive-aggressive towards her. He didnât understand why he was being like this either. âLetâs sit for a bit.â He began to hold Yeriâs hand and pulled her to the benches.Â
Yeri begins to scroll on her phone meanwhile Jungkookâs eyes automatically drag itself to observe you and Taehyung again. The two of you were sitting on a bench across from them. You were showing him something on your phone. Whatever it was that you were showing, he was laughing at it. His laugh was contagious and it made you laugh harder. âI was dying at that video for a good hour yesterday.â You breathed out, trying to catch your breath. âSend that to me, send that to me.â Taehyung said.Â
Jungkook didnât miss that Taehyung was slowly attempting to scoot closer to you, to the point where your left knee and his right knee were practically touching and your shoulders were a good millimeter apart. âOo, letâs take a picture to post on my story!â You squealed. You hold your phone out and Taehyung doesnât hesitate to close the minimal space that was between. He presses his cheek against yours and poses with his eyes squeezed shut and a peace sign held next to the other cheek.
You beam at him and post the story. âYou look so cute!â You squeal again. Jungkook couldn't help but to laugh to himself at the sight that was in front of him. He was in denial for the longest but he admits now that Taehyung was indeed attempting to flirt with you. He knows his flirtatious tricks and anyone with a human brain can comprehend that he is blatantly flirting with you. He knows youâre too oblivious to this because you are an oblivious person in general. Jungkook knows youâre too naive to understand that Taehyung was being a little too touchy for someone he considers to be âjust a friendâ.Â
Just because Taehyung was flirting with you doesnât confirm that heâs doing it out of a genuine romantic interest, Jungkook thinks. It could be because he is simply in a flirty mood or maybe he just wants to see if you would fold for him like how other girls do. That's what the old player Taehyung would do.Â
Jimin interrupts Jungkookâs thoughts and plops down next to him. âAre you ready to go? Iâm starving.â Jimin sighed out. He reeked of cigarettes. âYouâre smoking too often.â Jungkook lectured him. âI got nothing better to do with myself. Iâm in my flop era or whatever the kids say these days.â He runs a finger through his hair. Jungkook chuckled at him. âI think youâre doing whatever you can to cope.â Jungkook comforts. âIâm ready if theyâre ready.â Jungkook nudges his chin toward you and Taehyung that were still in the middle of a deep conversation, probably not even noticing Jimin and Jungkook right in front of them.Â
Jimin chuckles and sighs in amusement. âTheyâre so silly together.â Jimin mumbles under his breath but Jungkook picks it up. Jimin searches for a piece of gum in his pockets. He shoves a piece into his mouth and throws the wrapper to Taehyungâs head, getting your attention. âLetâs go eat.â Jimin shouts. Taehyung looks at you, inverbally asking if you are good to go. You nod in agreement. âConvenience store right?â Taehyung confirms.
âYes!â Jimin jumps. Yeri checks out Jimin walking towards you and starts to poke your body, just to tease you. Taehyung joins along and starts to pull onto some strands of your hair. You attempt to shove the boys off and fall into a fit of laughter. Yeri couldnât help but feel jealous seeing how well you got along with them. Yeri was aware that Jimin and Taehyung were extremely close to Jungkook and desperately wanted to get close with them, as a way to make herself feel accepted into his circle.Â
The three of you were already walking ahead, leaving you and Jungkook behind. Jungkook was just staring at the bench where you and Taehyung were sitting a second ago. âLetâs go, Kookie.â Yeri nudges him. He simply nods and stands up. âSure.â He walks ahead, leaving Yeri alone.Â
She grew irritated with Jungkook. A while ago, Jungkook was being gentlemanly with her and was seemingly having a good time with her. She doesnât understand what suddenly went wrong with him for him to be so cold and distant now.
Jungkook stops in his tracks and turns behind to see why Yeri wasnât following him yet. âWhatâs wrong?â He asked. She shakes her head, not wanting to bring it up. âNothing.â She gets up from the bench and catches up with him.Â
The rest of the night was spent with a brief convenience store run, a brief âdinnerâ together inside of the apartment, and a brief conversation before everyone went to bed for the night.Â
. . .
âAre you sure you donât wanna spend Christmas and New Yearâ with us, ___?â Taehyung asked for the millionth time. You nodded. âIâm very sure, Tae. Iâll be okay. Iâll make sure to enjoy my week alone.â You reassured. Taehyung clenched his jaw, feeling hurt that you were going to spend the holidays alone. Your parents went on vacation in Bali, wanting to spend the holidays with just them two.Â
You and your parents were never that close when it came to quality time. They were supportive, attentive and loving parents but when it came to family-bonding quality time, it was practically nonexistent. It was what you grew up with. This was the norm for you. It was disappointing, of course, but thatâs how it was.Â
Jihyo suddenly came down with a terrible cold and was unable to come down and spend the week with you and Chaeyoungâs family dragged her down to Busan to spend the holidays with her grandparents. To be honest, you were kind of expecting her to offer you to spend the week with her and her family since they know you well and love you but she didnât. Maybe it wasnât on her mind and you didnât want to burden her to make her feel as if she had to ask and invite you.
It was Christmas Eve and Taehyung, Jungkook, and Jimin were on the way back home to Busan to spend their holidays with their familyâJimin spending it with the brothersâ family. Although Jungkook didnât verbally express it, he too felt bad leaving you alone for the holidays. He didnât know much about how your family functioned but he was curious as to why you werenât going to be spending it with them.Â
Jimin gave you a pitiful look and hugged you. âOkay, well we should be leaving now. Our bus departs in 30 minutes.â Jimin said. You hugged him and chuckled. âGo on then! Let me know when you guys make it safely! Iâll be sure to update you guys on what Iâll be up to so you guys wonât be too worried.â You pulled away and nodded. Taehyung didnât say anything but gave you a forced tight-lipped smile. âAlright. Merry Christmas, ___.â Taehyung walked over and hugged you tightly. You returned the tightness. âMerry Christmas.â You whispered.Â
After Taehyung finally pulled away, you glanced over to Jungkook. He was glaring at you back. You werenât able to understand the look on his face but you could swear it seemed as if he too had a look of pity. âMerry Christmas, Jungkook.â You said. You didnât know if Jungkook wanted a hug from you as well so you decided to just wave.Â
âMerry Christmas.â He replied, holding a hand up. After a slightly uncomfortable silence, Jimin goes ahead to open the front door and heads out first. Taehyung gives you a final smile before he follows behind. Jungkooks remains where he was for a little bit.Â
âLet me know if you need anything.â He gives an actual wave and exits. He closes the door slowly and softly.Â
You were now finally left alone for the entire week and you had no idea what to do now. The void of being alone hasnât hit you yet and you hope it doesnât ever or else you would end up crying yourself to sleep.Â
. . .
âBoys, over here!â Jungkook heard his mother calling out to him. His mother and Taehyungâs father were standing next to their large black SUV, waving at them. âWeâre home, Kook.â Taehyung mumbled sarcastically to him. Jungkook smirked, shaking his head at him. âSo glad.â He replied back.Â
Jimin ran up to their parents and hugged them. âItâs been so long, Mom and Dad!â Jimin cheered. He liked to call their parents mother and father since they practically raised Jimin along with Jungkook and Taehyung.Â
âOh, Jimin! You get so handsome every time I see you!â Jungkookâs mom pinches his cheeks.Â
Taehyungâs father pulls Taehyung in for a hug and pats his back. âMy son, welcome home.â He smiles. Taehyung fakes a smile back. âMissed you, dad.âÂ
After greeting Jimin, Jungkookâs mom pulls him in for a hug and kisses his forehead. âHow have you been, my son?â She grins at him. Jungkook thinks to himself that being away from college has made his mother and Taehyungâs father extra affectionate with them. âIâve been good. How have you been taking care of yourself?â He asks. She shrugs. âIâve been picking up on yoga and pilates. Itâs been relaxing me from my usual heavy workload.â She smiles.Â
Jungkook noticed that there wasnât a driver to pick them up like usual. Everyday, on his commute to school or anywhere else, he would have a driver to drop him off and pick him up. âNo driver today?â Jungkook asked his parents. Taehyungâs father shook his head. âWe both had the afternoon off and decided to get you guys ourselves.â He smiled.Â
Jungkook and Taehyung looked at each other in surprise. âI see.â Taehyung said. âCome, letâs go have lunch.â Jungkookâs mother held onto him and pulled him to the car. Jungkook certainly wasnât used to the sudden physical touch his mother was giving him and the sudden quality time as well.Â
. . .
It was now dinnertime and Jungkook, Taehyung, Jimin, and their parents were all sitting at the table together.Â
âTell me about your living situation. Are you guys enjoying living together?â Jungkookâs mom asked Jungkook and Taehyung. Taehyung nodded. âYea, Iâve trained Jungkook well. He cleans up after himself, heâs a great cook, and he likes to hang out with me and Jimin whenever he isnât busy.âÂ
Jungkookâs mom darts her eyes between the three. âJimin?â She asks. âMhm. Jimin is living with us for the time being.â Taehyung clarifies. Jungkookâs mom mouth gapes open and turns her attention to Jimin. âOh really? Jimin, what happened to your schooling? Are you not going anymore?â She asks.Â
Jimin debates whether or not he should be honest with them. Taehyung and Jungkookâs parents were a lot like his parents in the sense of needing their children to attend prestigious universities, getting good grades, and getting a good job after graduation.Â
âIâm taking a short break from school. I was feeling a little overwhelmed with the strict academic regulations that came with being a pre-med student. I feel like I need to be mentally prepared and confident with my decision to study medicine and I was not.âÂ
Taehyungâs father nodded understandably. âOf course, studying medicine is a serious decision. Youâre going to be saving lives. You made the right decision, son.â He boasted. Taehyung gave a quick glance to Jungkook. He was already returning the same look he had: shock. What was going on with their parents? Had Taehyung or Jungkook told their parents that they wanted to take a break from school, they would most likely faint or die from a heart attack.Â
âDo you like living with our sons?â Jungkookâs mother asked, giving Jimin an amused smile. Jimin chuckled, looking at the two. âYeah, theyâre the best. They and ___ made me feel very welcomed into their humble abode.â He smiled.Â
Their parents gave him a perplexed look. âWhoâs ___?â Taehyungâs father asked. Jungkook stopped chewing his food and only stared ahead at his mother who was giving him a confused look. Taehyung turned his head to Jimin and silently cursed him out. He explicitly told him during the busride to not bring you up to them. He knew that his parents wouldnât be okay with a woman living with him and on top of that, they would know that Taehyung was struggling to make ends meet when it came to rent. It was their decision to cut them off financially, therefore they had no need to know what was going on in his life financially-wise.Â
âUh-,â Jimin stuttered. One thing about Jimin was that he was a terrible liar. He couldnât lie for the life of him. â____ is Taehyung and Jungkookâs next door neighbor! She comes over often and hangs out with us. Sheâs very nice.â He spat out. Jungkook let his silverware clang onto his bowl of soup and groaned out loud. Taehyung blinked and pinched the bridge of his nose with his fingertips.Â
âWhat? Are we not allowed to know about the kind of new friends youâve made in Seoul?â Taehyungâs father protruded. âYeah, tell us about ___. We would love to get to know your new female friend that is very close with you guys.â Jungkookâs mother chimed in. Taehyung chuckled nervously. âNo, of course we can talk about ___. Like Jimin said, she is very nice. Sheâs a good friend of ours. She goes to Konkuk with us.â He explained.
Jungkookâs mother nodded. âWhat is she studying?â His father asked. âSheâs studying to be a doctor.â He lied. If he was to expose that you were an undecided student, their parents would immediately disapprove of you. It would be worse than being a gap student, like Jimin.Â
Taehyungâs father nodded in approval. âSmart girl.â He smiled. âYes, very smart indeed. Is she originally from Seoul?â Jungkookâs mom leaned close to the table, seemingly very interested in learning more about you.Â
âSheâs from Busan like us. She actually went to the same school as Jungkook.â Taehyung nudged him. Jungkook choked on the soup he was trying to swallow. âWhat?â He muffled. âNo way! What a funny coincidence! Jungkook, is she a good friend of yours too?â His mom grinned.Â
He tried to swallow the rest of the liquid and pondered on the question. âUh, I guess, yes.â He answered. âThatâs so nice. We probably know her parents well.â Taehyungâs father nodded. âOh, I donât think so. She doesnât come from an affluent family. Sheâs kind ofâŠregular.â Taehyung said.Â
He winced at the usage of âregularâ to describe you but it was the only word he could think of for his parents to understand you and your background. It was the only word theyâd understand.Â
âOh, I see.â She nodded. âShe must be pretty, right?â This caused Jungkook and Taehyung to both choke on their food and Jimin to snort out a laugh.Â
âWhat did I say?â she asked, worried as hell.Â
Taehyungâs father chuckled at his sons. âTheyâre blushing, love. She must be very pretty indeed.â He teased. Taehyung dabbed the corner of his mouth with a napkin and cleared his throat. âWhy do you guys care?â He said with a muffled voice.Â
âWeâre just curious.â She edged.Â
Taehyung tried to brush off the question but Jungkookâs mother kept pestering. âSheâs as pretty as every other girl in the world.â He tried to play it off. His father chuckled at his choice of wording. âTo me, that translates to sheâs pretty to you. Do any of you boys like her?â
Jimin laughed harder. âDad, stop.â Taehyung hissed. âIs she in Busan for the holidays? We would love to meet her, you should invite her to spend New Yearâs with us!âÂ
Jimin answered for them. âShe stayed home for the break. Her parents are out of town.âÂ
âJimin-,â Taehyung warned. âSo you mean to tell me that sheâs alone for the holidays? Why?â Taehyungâs father asked, with concern. âNo idea. We had asked her to spend the holidays with us too but she insisted against it. The three of us didnât want to leave her behind too.â Jimin continued to yap on. Taehyung pinched his leg and he yelped from pain.Â
âTaehyung, Jungkook? Do invite her to come down and spend the week with us. We would love to have her here.â Jungkookâs mother suggested. âI-I think she will be okay. She might have other plans made and we shouldnât disrupt that.â Taehyung said.Â
âBut-,â
âMom, just drop it. Sheâs busy with another family that lives in Seoul. She told me herself. Donât get worked up over it.â Jungkook chimed in. His mother remained silent but nodded. âI just think that no one should be spending the holidays alone. I recommend you guys text her and make sure she has company of some sort. Especially since sheâs a woman living alone. Who knows what could happen to her.âÂ
That was probably the last thing the three of them wanted to hear. Although they felt reassured enough by you that you were going to be okay alone, they shouldâve considered the fact that you were still a woman residing alone for a week and any weirdo could possibly hurt you and if not that, you were going to feel lonely regardless. Why would they just be okay with leaving you alone?
The three of them remained silent for the rest of the conversation. Taehyungâs father got the hint that they were now preoccupied with the thought of you being alone and decided to change the topic for the rest of dinner.Â
âAre any of you boys seeing someone?âÂ
Jimin turned to look at Jungkook. âJungkook, are you seeing someone?â His mother gasped. Jungkook kept his head down at his soup and remained silent some more. âYou are?âÂ
âIâm not seeing anyone.â He lied. âWho is she? Who are her parents? Where is she from?â
Taehyung chuckled at him. âHer name is Yeri. Theyâve been seeing each other for over a month now. Sheâs nice.â He answered for him. Jungkook kicked his legs under the table and Taehyung let out an abrupt chuckle.Â
âI canât believe how grown our son has gotten. He has his first girlfriend.â His mother cooes to her husband. âWe would love to meet her whenever youâre ready to introduce us to her. I know it wonât be for a little while longer since it is still so new and fresh.â
Jungkook suddenly felt hot with irritation. Where was all this coming from? His parents suddenly showing an interest in his life? To Taehyungâs life? Why are they abnormally understanding of Jimin's drop out situation? Why now? Why now after heâs been gone for months that they suddenly want to act attentive and caring?
âWhatâs going with you both?â He asks. They give each other a perplexed look. âWhat are you talking about, son?â His mom asks innocently. âYou know exactly what I mean. Why are you guys being like this? What did we do? What do you want from us?â He hissed.Â
Taehyung wanted to attempt to control him but to be honest, he was quite relieved that he took the initiative to say something. He was beginning to feel claustrophobic with his parentâs sudden switch up.Â
His parents remained quiet and uncomfortably looked at each other. Jungkook and Taehyung could sense tension oozing off of their silence. They knew that something was actually going on.Â
The father cleared his throat and dabbed the corner of his lips with a napkin. âI think itâs time we tell them.â He said sternly. Jungkookâs mother didnât react. She instead responded by taking a long chug of her red wine.Â
Her sweet mother demeanor switched into a cold yet seemingly anxious attitude. âTell us what?â Taehyung asked.Â
âIâll say it.â Jungkookâs mom spoke up. Her voice was deep. She darted her eyes between her son, Taehyung and Jimin. Her eyes softened as she glanced between the three boys she deeply cared for and loved.Â
âTwo months ago..,â She started off.Â
âTwo months agoâŠI got diagnosed with stage two cancer. Breast cancer.â She stated.Â
All of a sudden, Jungkook felt as if his chair was sunken into a black void that was hungry to capture him. He felt as if he was disassociated from where he was. Is this a dream? Is it reality? Is he somewhere in between? Did he hear her correctly?Â
Is this actually real life?Â
With the silence in the room, you could hear a pin drop. You could hear thoughts.
âYour mother has her first chemotherapy session scheduled about two weeks from now. Doctors say that it is still possible they can remove the tumor inside.â He spoke up.Â
Taehyung slightly turned his head to Jungkook, if he could figure out whatever was going through his head. If he even had anything going through his head at all.Â
His face was as white as the wall, lips as white as him. His doe eyes were a combination of grief, anger, shock, and nothing at the same time. Jungkook could throw up at this very moment.Â
âWhy wouldnât you tell me this sooner?â He whispered to her. She looked at him with regret and with pain. Pain for her only child having the bear this kind of news.Â
âI figured it could wait. I didnât want this to distract you from your studies.â She said matter-of-factly. Jungkook slammed his silverware to the table.Â
âIt took for you to get cancer to suddenly care about me? Care about my feelings? Consider me into your life for once?â He spat out. She jumped from the sudden harsh words he said to her.
âNow that youâre sick, you want to suddenly act like you have a son to talk to?â He continued. He tried to fight the tears that were threatening to spill but he couldnât bear it anymore. He was destroyed. He was furious. He couldnât even look at her without wanting to say bad words.
âJungkook-,â Taehyungâs father tried to get him to stop but Jungkook seriously could not manage to stay in the same room as her. He stands up from his seat and storms upstairs to his bedroom.
âJungkook, come back please.â His father yelled out for him. Taehyung watched him as he left. He understood where this was coming from. It was a mixture of grief of the devastating news and it was a mixture of him genuinely being furious at how his mother was acting like everything was fine between them when it just wasnât.
Jungkook slammed his door and sat onto the side of his bed. He expected the rest of the tears to fall out but it felt as if he finally became mentally strong enough to block it. He was struggling to catch his breath, to catch a single ounce of a breath to exhale. His chest felt as if he swallowed a flame, growing hotter and painful to withstand.
He didnât have the capacity to think rationally, act logically, and be stable. He was dealing with a surge of insanely different emotions and didnât know what to do. He didnât want to see his mother, he didnât want to see his step-father, he didnât want to see Taehyung or Jimin or have either of the two come to his bedroom to confront him. He didnât want to be here. Not at this home, not in Busan, all he knew was that he wanted to be as far away from here as possible.Â
Without thinking, he grabbed his duffel bag,âwhich luckily hasnât been unpacked yetâhis phone, keys, and wallet and immediately left his childhood bedroom. He stomped down the stairs, not caring if they could hear him coming down, and headed straight towards the front door.Â
The nearest bus station was a 30 minute drive, about a two hour walk from his house, but he didnât care. He stormed outside of the house, ignoring the calls from his mother and father.Â
Taehyung remained where he sat, knowing that Jungkook would be too stubborn to listen to him. He knew that Jungkook was just in shock and just wasnât handling the news in the best and mature way.Â
âWhere could he possibly be going at this time?â Jungkookâs mother breathed out heavily. âRelax, he probably went on a walk to clear his mind. Give him some time to breathe.â His father soothed.Â
âTaehyung,â His mother called out. He managed to look up from his plate and made eye contact with her. âPlease call Jungkook if he doesnât return within an hour.â She pleaded. Taehyung nodded in response.Â
âPromise me? It is almost sunset, he shouldnât be walking in the dark all alone.âÂ
âI promise.â He croaked out. Jungkookâs mother places her head into her palms and lets out an exasperated sigh. The table was filled with a painfully awkward silence. Jimin shifted uncomfortably in his seat. He was suddenly missing his own homeâthe home where he is disowned from.Â
âIâm going to get Mirae to clear our plates if we are all done eating now.â Taehyungâs father spoke up. Mirae was the housekeeper.Â
âMirae, come please. Weâre all done here.â He called out, after using the silence as a collective response.Â
. . .
After an hour and a half of speed walking, Jungkook finally made it to the bus station. His shoulders were aching, his legs were throbbing, and he was sweating like crazy. He felt pity for the people around him that could smell his sweat from walking over 20,000 steps across town.Â
He approached the guest service desk. âGood evening, do you have an available ticket for a bus to Seoul? Soonest one, preferably.âÂ
As he was walking to the station, he decided he would head straight home to the apartment. He didnât want to spend an entire week with his mother and pretend that everything was fine when it wasnât. He didnât want to spend Christmas and the New Yearâs and pretend that he was having a good time when he wouldnât.Â
âThe next bus to Seoul is arriving in twenty minutes. Youâre lucky, there was one available seat left. Would you like to purchase it?â The attendant asked. He immediately reached for his wallet and handed his credit card, not caring about the price of the ticket.Â
After purchasing his ticket, he sat at the nearest bench and closed his eyes.Â
All he could replay in the back of his mind was the sight of his mother at the dinner table. He didnât realize how frail she appeared, how deepened her wrinkles grew to be, and how pale her skin was. Her hair was thinner and grayer. She barely touched her dinner as well. How could he have not noticed how sick his own mother looked? His own mother was sick with cancer and he didnât even notice it.Â
His guilt shifted to resentment; how could she suddenly want to repair their damaged relationship now? Why now? Why after being diagnosed with a sickness does she suddenly want to make things better between them? Why didnât she care prior? Would she have still reached out if she was never sick? Would she still care about him?Â
He refused to let the tears that were pooling fall. He didnât want to care about this. He didnât want to admit that he is still a hurting child inside. He is still a young boy that misses and needs his mom. He didnât want to be that boy anymore. He wanted to be the 20-year old man that was a college student, living on his own, and heading off into the real world.
Jungkook suddenly felt his phone vibrate in his hands. Taehyung was calling him.
After letting the phone ring for several moments, he decided to pick up.Â
âWhat?â He said.Â
âWhere are you?â Taehyung asked. He sounded as if he was keeping his voice hushed, as if he didnât want anyone to eavesdrop on the conversation.
Jungkook debated for a moment if he should just straight up tell him. He decided to lie. âIâm going to Yeriâs.âÂ
âYeriâs? What, why?â He stuttered. âI, uh, donât think I can handle being around my mom right now. Yeriâs with her family in Seoul for the holidays, so Iâm just going to spend the week with her.âÂ
Taehyung sighed against the speaker. âKook, your mom is sick. SheâŠshe needs you right now? Donât do this.â He said quietly. Jungkook assumes that his mother is nearby and Taehyung didnât want her to listen to the phone call.Â
âSheâs got you, your dad, and Jimin. Sheâll be fine. She didnât need me before and she certainly doesnât need me now.â He spat out.Â
Taehyung remained silent on the line, not knowing what to say to convince Jungkook to come back. He didnât know what to say in general.
âAlright. Do what you want. Should I tell our parents youâre with Yeri?â He asked.
âI donât care. Tell them whatever you want, I couldnât give a single shit.â Jungkook hangs up without letting Taehyung say anything back. He swallowed the guilt he felt after talking to Taehyung so harshly. He knew that he shouldnât take his anger out on him. Jungkook didnât know how to handle this situation at all. He just wanted to leave Busan. He wanted to be home.
. . .
It was 11 oâclock at night and you were awake, with a sheet mask on, painting your toenails, and were on your third glass of red wine. Faye Webster was playing on your speakers in the background and you were humming along to the lyrics as you lightly brushed your pinky toe white.Â
You were in a blissful mood; tipsy with wine, good music and good wine. Your chicken you ordered for delivery was on the way. Maybe this week alone wouldnât be so awful after all. Maybe a week to yourself was what your soul was craving.Â
Your phone was on DND, the LED living room lamp was cozy and warmly yellow. You were in paradise. Although at the same time you did miss the boys. You missed the chaotic energy they brought. You missed the Friday night movie watches, the constant bickering, the smell of Taehyung cooking dinner, the gossip you shared with Jimin, and the rare presence of Jungkook.Â
You could only hope that they were enjoying their time at home. You missed Busan like crazy and wish that you could be back in your hometown too.Â
You chugged down the rest of your wine and immediately began pouring yourself another glass. Being wine drunk was the move for tonightâs solemn mood.Â
Your last toenail was painted and you placed the toe dividers in between. You sighed in delight and sipped your wine gracefully, still humming along to the song playing.Â
Your relaxed mood was paused after hearing the sound of someone knocking on the door. You perked up, knowing that your fried chicken had arrived. You waddled over to the door, and eagerly opened the door.
Your breath was caught in your throat as you were not met with the sight of the delivery man. You were met with the sight of Jungkook.
âJungkook?â You gasped, still in disbelief that he was here right in front of you.Â
âHey.â He said.Â
You couldnât manage to say anything else. You could only just stare at him. He looked physically exhausted. His hair was disheveled and looked greasy. His lips were cracked and dry and his eyes had dark bags hanging underneath.
âCome in.â You said but it managed to come out as a question. He entered the apartment and removed his shoes. He walked straight to the kitchen right after and grabbed a glass cup. He poured himself water from the sink and chugged it down in one second. You were still staring at him in disbelief.
âUmâŠcan I ask why youâre home so soon?â You asked. He observed your shock-ridden face that was being covered by the sheet mask you had on your face. Your hair was tied up into a low bun and was pulled back by a plush headwrap with kitten ears attached to it. You had on your pink gingham patterned matching pajamas and he looked down to your freshly painted toenails and the toes being separated by the divider. He let out a chuckle at your relaxed appearance.Â
âSorry for interrupting your self care night.â He smirked at you. You embarrassingly walked away and headed back to the living room. Jungkook followed you. âWhatever.â You mumbled to yourself. Your solo night was now ruined by Jungkookâs random return.
You reached for your wine glass and took a large gulp. Your palms were suddenly sweaty and your heart was beating fast. You were nervous. You were now no longer alone in the apartment. It was just you and Jungkook.Â
âWhy are you home?â You asked again. Jungkook shrugged. âI didnât want to be there anymore. I felt like coming back.âÂ
You stared at him down, still extremely confused. All you could think to yourself was why. Why, why, why? What happened?
âDoes Taehyung know youâre here?â You asked. Jungkook shook his head no. âHe doesnât. And I would appreciate it if you didnât tell him I am. He thinks Iâm somewhere else.â He shoved his pants into his pockets and kept strong eye contact with you. He knows youâre confused and that you must have thousands of questions running through your mind right now.Â
You nodded in agreement. âAre you going to stay? The entire holiday break?âÂ
Jungkook nodded. âOh.â You manage to say. You couldnât hide the disappointment laced in your voice. âAgain, sorry for interrupting you. I shouldâve told you I was coming.â He ran his fingers through his greasy hair.
âDonât apologize. This is your home too. You can come and go as you please.â You chuckle nervously. You were extremely nervous to be alone with Jungkook for an entire week. This reminded you of the time when Taehyung was gone for a weekend to go interview for his candidacy as a recipient of the âbest filmâ award. You and Jungkook were in a heated argument, like usual, and you remember how awkward it was to be alone for a weekend. Now, it was for a whole week. Seven days.
âYou want to join me? Iâm just drinking wine and listening to music.â You offered, trying to break the awkward tension that was brewing. Jungkook debated for a moment. He didnât know if he was in the mood to socialize anymore for the day. He was on a crowded 4-hour bus ride, and desperately craved to be back in his bed after a long day of commuting.Â
Despite that, he felt bad to decline your offer. âSure. Do you mind if I shower first? Iâm pretty gross and greasy right now.âÂ
You immediately reassured him. âA-Absolutely, go ahead and shower and do whatever you need to do. No rush!â You blabbered. Jungkook gave you a curt nod and dragged his duffel bag and himself ahead to his bedroom.Â
You breathed out a long stressed out sigh. You reached for your phone and tracked your chicken which was beginning to take too long to arrive. The driver was five minutes away.Â
You groaned into a pillow, not caring that you were staining it with your sheet mask serums.Â
. . .
After forty-five minutes passed by, you were gnawing on your third chicken leg with Jungkook devouring the food as well. He didnât realize how hungry he had been. He barely ate the entire day.Â
âThis is some of the best chicken Iâve ever had in my entire life.â Jungkook said with his mouth full. You chuckled as you were chewing. âThis is my go-to chicken restaurant. They never miss.â You dabbed the corner of your cheeks with a napkin and rinsed the chicken down your throat with a nice cold beer.Â
You shouldnât be mixing alcohol right now but you forgot that you had ordered beer with the order and didnât want to mix fried chicken with wine; it wasnât a good match. You were slightly past tipsy and entering drunk territory.Â
Jungkook was also drinking his beer of the night. A fresh hot shower, fresh pair of pajamas, a cold beer, and crispy Korean fried chicken was the perfect way to end his shitty long day.Â
The two of you were devouring the chicken in a comfortable silence. Faye Webster was still playing quietly in the background. âI like Faye Webster too.â Jungkook said.Â
Your eyes widened. âYou listen to her too?â He nodded. âI like to play her music whenever I study or read. Keeps me focused.â He said. You couldnât help but to smile at that. âThatâs so cool. I havenât met anyone that also listened to her. She makes great music.âÂ
Jungkook nodded in agreement. âSame here. Sucks that she probably might not ever tour in Korea.â He sighed, tossing a chicken bone into the box.Â
âNever say never.â You wagged a finger at him.Â
The two of you were sitting quite far apart; both sitting on each end of the couch. He was freshly showered and the entire living room was filled with the scent of his shampoo. He smelled like fresh and clean laundry. You admired the way his damp wet hair stuck to his forehead and how his ends sprung and curled outwards.Â
Another comfortable silence fell upon.Â
âSo, how was your short time with your family?â You asked, trying to make some conversation. After all, you did invite him to hang with you.
Jungkook took a gulp of beer and pondered on how to respond to your question.Â
How straight forward should he be? He has come to the conclusion awhile ago that you are someone who is trustworthy and someone easy to confide problems with. You are good at comforting others. However, he constantly mentally struggles whether the two of you are considered to be âfriendsâ enough to discuss any dilemmas with. The two of you have a weird so-called friendship.
However, despite all the complications, heâd rather communicate honestly to someone who wasnât biased to his family for once.Â
âIf I had to describe it in one word, it would be: weird. It was weird.â
âHow come?â You pestered.
He sighed. âThey were being abnormallyâŠnice for once. Like they were trying to act like actual parents and wanted to know what we were up to since we last chatted. Immediately, that was a huge red flag for me because since when did they care about that, right? What other way was there to describe that other than weird? It was so weird.âÂ
You cocked your head to the side. âI see.â You nodded. Jungkook continued on.
âIt was such bullshit. They picked us up from the bus stop themselves and actually sat down to eat dinner with us.â
You were in shock hearing at how distant and fucked up Jungkookâs relationship with his parents was. The fact that he was shocked that they ate dinner with them said a lot.Â
âEventually, I made them stop the bullshit. I asked them why they were acting so differently and comes to turn out that my mother has fucking cancer.â He said nonchalantly.Â
Without hesitation, you immediately got up from your spot and sat right in front of Jungkook. âIâm sorry, what? Your mom has cancer?â Your eyes were wide open, with your heart thumping against your chest from the shock.
âYeah, stage two breast cancer. Sheâs known for two months and broke the news over dinner.â He chugged another gulp of beer. He could feel his chest burning from the emotions arising again and his eyes stinging from the tears threatening to form.Â
âOh, JungkookâŠâ You cooed. You hesitantly placed your hand above his hand, debating whether you should touch it out of comfort. You decided to just place your hand over his forearm.Â
âIâm so sorry to hear that, Iâm truly so sorry.â Your eyes met with his and Jungkook could easily read the immense sympathy you had for him. Your eyes looked glassy, as if you were going to cry.Â
He shook his head and let out a cold laugh. âIs it bad that Iâm so fucking pissed at her, ____? Iâm genuinely so furious with her. Why is it that now after finding out sheâs sick, she wants to become more present in my life and start wanting to know how Iâve been? She has never cared before so why should she switch up and care now?âÂ
You allowed Jungkook to continue venting. You knew he had more to let out of his system.Â
âAm I a bad son for storming out after she broke the news? Was I supposed to get over it and stay for the rest of the break and be there for her? Am I in the wrong for being upset?â He was fuming. His nose was turning pink from his arising emotions and he continued to withhold the tears. He refused to cry. He refused to cave in.
âYouâre allowed to feel whatever you feel. I think you have every right to feel this way,â You started off, beginning to rubbing circles on his forearm with your fingertips. Jungkook looked up to make eye contact with you.
âI also think youâre in shock and this is you reacting out of shock and the lifelong resentment you hold against your mom. The shock is coming out of worry and fear. And you carry worry and fear over your momâs news because you love her despite the resentment. You love your mother and youâre scared to lose her. You also have so much reason to be furious at her as a secondary emotion.â
âI donât want to worry about her, sheâs never worried about me. She practically let me raise myself. Taehyung was more of a mother to me than she was.âÂ
You stopped rubbing circles and removed your hands from his space.Â
âDo you want to hear advice or do you just want a friend to listen to you? I can do whatever you need.â You asked. Jungkook could only stare into your soft and kind eyes. He didnât know how to answer that. Heâs never been asked that before.Â
The fact that you called yourself his friend comforted him slightly. He needed a friend by his side.Â
âI donât want to talk about her anymore.â He firmly stated. Jungkookâs an avoidant person. When he struggles with an issue, he pretends it doesnât exist.Â
You could tell Jungkook was truly hurting from this. You could see the pain tattooed in his eyes. You also didnât want to force him to talk about something that was distressing him and that he was clearly still in the process of accepting to believe.Â
âLetâs finish this bottle of wine together, yeah?â You smiled at him. He tried to suppress the smile that was trying to respond to yours but he couldnât. Itâs something about the way you always manage to get his soft emotions out of him that he canât hide well.Â
. . .
Throughout the week, you and Jungkook were co-existing well. The two of you would accompany each other during breakfast and dinner, and occasionally grab iced Americanos for lunch.Â
There was a holiday market on campus and you invited him to tag along. The two of you spent a good hour at the market and checked out everything together; even playing the Christmas-themed arcade games provided.Â
You continued your Christmas tradition of watching classic holiday movies in your coziest pajamas while eating fresh baked cookies and hot chocolate. Normally, you would do this with Jihyo and Chaeyoung and had assumed you would continue the tradition alone this year but Jungkook surprisingly joined you.Â
Jungkook was beginning to grow comfortable with considering you as an actual friend and not just someone whom he likes to bicker with. He liked your company. He liked how you used him as Jiminâs replacement to discuss any gossip and how you used him as Taehyungâs replacement to become the chef of the household. He cooked everything for you; breakfast and dinner. He realized while he was cooking breakfast one morning that one his love languages for his friends was doing acts of service. He liked cooking for you, he liked helping Yoongi out with any assignments he had trouble with, he liked doing extra household chores to make Taehyungâs day easier whenever he had a busy day of working and going to school, and he liked tagging along with Jimin to the gym to spot him during their weight lifting sessions, even tags along without Jimin asking.Â
He didnât regret leaving Busan. He knew he needed time away to process and needed time apart from his mom to understand her and her reasoning on why she did what she did. After all, she canât just ignore the emotional negligence sheâs done to him since he was a child. He was enjoying his break back at home.Â
It was New Yearâs Eve morning when you and Jungkook were sitting at the table and enjoying each otherâs company as per usual.Â
âI forgot, will Tae and Jimin come back tonight or tomorrow morning?â You asked Jungkook. âI think tomorrow morning. My parentâs usually like to throw New Yearâs parties and probably want the two to celebrate with them and their asshole friends.â Jungkook sipped his tea.
You chuckled at how nonchalantly he insults people. âDo you want to come with me to Hoseokâs New Yearâs party? He texted me about it last night. It was a last minute he and Yoongi made.âÂ
Jungkook immediately nodded. âYeah, Iâve been missing Yoongi like crazy.â You gaped your mouth open. âAre you actually missing someone? Thatâs crazy.âÂ
Jungkook tossed a raspberry at you. âIâm not an emotionless psychopath, ___.â He rolled his eyes. You groaned in annoyance. âI donât know why you canât admit that you indeed are an emotionless psychopath.âÂ
âJust because Iâm not nice to everyone doesnât mean I donât have a heart.â He argued. âI think it means you have unsolved trauma you need to get through.â You argued back, causing Jungkook to snort at you.Â
âTherapy is expensive, being an asshole is free.â
You laughed at him, shaking your head in amusement. âLetâs leave at around 10:30.â You suggested. He nodded in agreement and went back to reading the news on his phone.
You suddenly got a Facetime call from Taehyung. Excitedly, you answered quickly.
âGood morning, ___!â Taehyung beamed at you. This was the first time you were seeing his face after he left to go home. The two of you continued to text everyday but this was the first time he called to Facetime after being gone throughout the week.Â
âTae! Whatâs up! Iâve missed you a lot.â You smiled at him. Jimin popped his head into the screen and waved at you. âJimin! Hi, Iâve missed you too!â You grinned at the two.Â
âWe just wanted to say hi on the last day of the year. We miss you too. Wish you were spending the New Yearâs with us but weâll be back tomorrow morning. We were supposed to be back today but my parents want Jimin and I to stay and hang with them and their asshole friends.â Taehyung said. You choke out a giggle, remembering how Jungkook said the exact same thing a minute ago. A reminder of how closely similar they can be.Â
A text from Jungkook slides to the top of your screen:
jungkook: Remember, they donât know Iâm here.Â
You quickly text back a thumbs up emoji and return back to the video call.
âSo, whereâs Jungkook? Is he still asleep?â You asked. âOh, heâs not here in Busan. He went to spend the holidays with Yeri and her family. I have no idea where in Korea heâs at.âÂ
Your face fell at what Taehyung said. You peered over to look at Jungkook and he was still just reading the news on his phone, as if he didnât hear Taehyung.Â
You felt so stupid to remember that Jungkook had a whole girlfriend. Heâs barely mentioned her the entire time heâs been home.Â
âOh, right. Well, Iâll probably text him to wish a happy new yearâs after midnight. How have you guys been, what were you guys up to all week?â You quickly dismissed the Jungkook topic.
Jimin groaned. âTaeâs dad asks us to play golf and tennis with him every morning at the country club he goes to everyday. Then, in the evening, Jungkookâs mom asks us to go to her pilates and yoga classes with her. Weâve literally been exercising every single day. Three entirely different sports and exercises everyday. At night, Tae and I try to sneak out and get drinks and go to clubs to let loose.â Jimin whined. You giggled at them.
âThat actually sounds like a lot of fun, I wish I could attend pilates classes for free. Itâs such an expensive hobby.â You chuckle. âAt least we burn so many calories a day that we have extra space to drink our sorrows away.â Jimin groaned again. Taehyung chuckled and nodded in agreement.Â
âWish you were here, ___. How have you been spending your break? Enjoying the silence in the apartment? Do you keep the door locked every night?â Taehyung pestered you.
âIâve been having a great time alone. I spent Christmas with Hoseok and plan to spend tonight with him again. He and Yoongi are throwing a party.â You lied. You didnât want Taehyung to have the idea that you spent Christmas alone like a lonely loser.Â
âAh, Iâm so glad heâs giving you company. Let me know if you need anything, okay? Iâm always here for you.â Taehyung urged. Jungkook tried to hold back a scoff at his obvious desperate attempts to woo you over.Â
âI promise, Tae. See you tomorrow, okay? Thanks for calling to check in.â You smiled and waved.Â
âTaehyung and I are gonna head out to the club with his dad now. Wish us luck. See ya, ___.â Jimin hung up on the call before you had a chance to say something back.Â
You sighed in happiness, realizing that you truly missed the two and enjoyed seeing their faces and hearing their voices after so long.Â
âWhy do you look so happy? You missed Tae-Tae?â Jungkook mocked you. You rolled your eyes at him, already annoyed. âI miss both of them, not just Tae. Whatâs with everyone thinking I like Taehyung or something?â You groaned.
Jungkook snapped his head up at that. âWho thinks that?â He asked. âLiterally, everyone. Hoseok and my friends Jihyo and Chaeyoung, too. Hoseok even has the audacity to think that Taehyung has some kind of crush on me. Ridiculous, right?âÂ
Jungkook kept quiet for a second but laughed it off. âExtremely ridiculous.âÂ
For some reason, this annoyed you. ââExtremelyâ? Is it that weird if someone like Tae was to like me? As if Iâm so unlikable or something?â You spat. Jungkook laughed again, not expecting you to get so heated at that.
âDid I say that? Tell me what exactly I said that hinted at that?â He snickered. You scoff at him. âYou said âextremelyâ really honestly. I could tell by the way you dragged out the word. You said âextreeemeleeyâ.â You mocked.
Jungkook was growing to be more amused with you. He didnât know you had a dramatic side to you. âAs if you are such a catch yourself! Iâm surprised you even have a girlfriend that can handle you.â You pick on him.
It took Jungkook a second to remember who you were even talking about. He hasnât thought about Yeri since the ice-skating date. He doesnât even remember if heâs replied to the last text she sent.
Admittedly, Jungkook felt bad that he cared little about Yeri. He knows that sheâs a nice girl and genuinely deserved better than the treatment heâs giving her. Itâs clear she wants more than sex from him. He made a mental note to have a chat with Yeri about their relationship after the New Yearâs. He knows that he canât be the one to give her the kind of relationship sheâs seeking for and that it was shitty of him to lead her on like this for so long. Maybe he really can be an emotionless psychopath.Â
âDidnât highschool you harbor a big ass crush on me? Clearly, I must be a catch.â He teased. Everytime Jungkook mentions your stupid crush on him, you mentally kill yourself. What in the world made you think it was a good idea to confess to him on the last day of school? Why were you so confident that you wouldnât run into him again after graduation? You shouldâve known that you were going to lose your freshman dorm and end up living in an apartment with him and his brother somehow.Â
âWhy donât you go tease your girlfriend instead of teasing me all the time. Do you even know what sheâs up to lately? Youâve barely even talked about her and havenât heard you talk to her on the phone or anything.â The bickering continued.Â
âWhy do you care though?â Jungkookâs smile grew bigger. You couldnât help but laugh along with him. The lover girl in you couldnât help but get butterflies at the grin heâs giving you. Itâs rare to see Jungkook smile but itâs even rarer to make him smile. You forget how pretty his teeth are and how gorgeous he looks when heâs smiling.
âStop smiling at me, you look like a creep.â You lied. Jungkook snorts at you and goes back to reading the news on his phone. You take the opportunity to secretly admire him and his beauty. God, you hated how he still makes you feel like that giddy high schooler all over again. It wasnât fair.Â
What will it take and how long will it take for you to get over that stupid feeling he makes you feel? When will it hit you that Jungkook is into someone else, someone that isnât you? Your heart panged at the constant reminder that Jungkook once had your heart and stomped all over it til it was no longer existent and relevant in his eyes.Â
. . .
â___! Youâre here! AndâŠJungkook too?â Hoseok gave you a confused glance.Â
âHe had nothing better to do and he said he missed Yoongi so I had no choice but to drag him.â You whispered through your teeth. Hoseok nodded understandably.Â
Hoseokâs apartment was surprisingly packed. You didnât realize how many friends he and Yoongi collectively shared. It was around 30 people together inside their large studio apartment.Â
You and Jungkook had pregamed together before heading out to Hoseokâs. You both took three shots of soju together and made small conversation before leaving. You were feeling happily buzzed right now.Â
âLetâs take a shot together, my love.â Hoseok handed you a small plastic shot glass of a mysteriously pungent clear liquid. âWhat is this? It smells so strong.â You scrunched your nose. âTequila. Don Julio Blanco.â He smiled at you mischievously.Â
âOh, you want me fucked up tonight.â You chuckled at him. You both clinked your cups together and tossed the hot liquor down your poor throats and poor liver.
âIâm thankful for our friendship, ___. We only met a few months ago but youâre already one of the most important people in my life. I love you.â Hoseok pulled you into a tight embrace. âI love you too, Hobi. Thank you for being my friend. To another year of friendship.âÂ
Hoseok kissed your temple and leaned down to whisper against your ear. âI have something to tell you but Iâm afraid youâre going to kill me.âÂ
You chuckled and leaned into his ears. âNothing you can do could possibly make me hate you.â You began to mentally prepare yourself for whatever he was going to tell you.
âPromise?âÂ
âDepends on what it is.â You smirked. âNamjoon is here.â
Your smile dropped instantly. How the fuck is he here? âHow the fuck is he-â
âSome of Yoongiâs friends spread the word to him and next thing I know, heâs here with them.âÂ
You groaned out of annoyance and stress. âFuck me.â You sighed.
âI just wanted to let you know in case you run into him.â Hoseok gave you a sympathetic glare. âThanks, I guess. I mean, I wasnât really into him like that either way, itâs just going to be so awkward if I was to run into him after he just randomly ghosted me. I donât know what Iâd even say to him.â
âYou donât owe him an explanation. He does. So, donât feel obliged to make conversation if you do happen to run into him. Just stick by me and Yoongiâs side the entire night, weâll look out for you.â Hoseok reassures you.Â
You nod in agreement. âIâm gonna go greet my friends that just walked in, give me a second, okay?â Hoseok patted reassuringly on your shoulder and walked past to greet his newly arrived guests.
You sighed in annoyance to yourself, not knowing what to do as you were left alone. Jungkook went off to find Yoongi. You looked around the room to see if you could spot Namjoon.Â
Luckily, you couldnât see him anywhere. Hopefully, he left for the night?
It was creeping to a quarter past 11. You caught sight of Jungkook and Yoongi in the middle of a conversation. You didnât know how to distract yourself by looking all lonely so you reached your phone and randomly scrolled through different apps.
After a few minutes of doing so, you decided to go to the cooler and search for a drink to emotionally rely on for the time being. As you were searching, you reached for a Wild Basin Mango Mai Tai seltzer. Your hands were grabbing to the can until another hand suddenly reached over the same seltzer can.Â
You looked up and were unfortunately met with the sight of Namjoon.
âGreat.â You mumble to yourself.Â
âHey, ___! Nice seeing you here.â Namjoon chuckled nervously. You flashed him a fake smile and instantly stopped reaching for the drink. âH-How have you been?â Namjoon attempted to make conversation with you. You couldnât help but to scoff and roll your eyes at him. You tried to walk away from him but he chased after you.
â___, wait please. I can explain, okay?âÂ
Namjoon led you to a quiet corner and placed your back against the wall. âSeriously, I can explain.â He pleaded.
âI donât think I want to hear your excuses tonight, Namjoon.â You tried to walk away but Namjoon gently stopped you. âSeriously, give me just a minute of your time to explain. I promise to leave you alone after.â You held his right hand up, as if he was genuinely swearing to do so.
âYou have five minutes.â You crossed your arms.
He breathed out and scratched his neck. âWell, I donât really know how else to explain it butâŠI swear I was serious when I asked you out on that date. I had true genuine intentions. I was really into you that night we met butâŠI was sort of blackmailed to not go on that date with you?â He admitted.
Your heart sunk at that. âIâm sorry?â You asked in disbelief. Namjoon nodded understandably. âI know how crazy that fucking sounds but I swear, I was told to not go on that date with you from a friend of mine. He said he would make the date wouldnât happen under any circumstance. And heâs a pretty scary guy so I just did what he told me. I know I shouldâve told you this as soon as he threatened me but he said not to tell you and ⊠now here we are.â
Namjoon looked genuinely sincere. He had a worried expression mirroring his eyes. He wasnât avoiding eye contact with you or anything that expressed that he could be possibly lying. You could sense in your gut that he was telling the truth.
âWho told you not to go on that date with me?â You asked.Â
â___, I wish I could tell you but I can-â
âIf you want me to forgive you, tell me who told you, please. Please Namjoon.â You begged.
He remained silent for a moment, obviously mentally debating whether he should confess or not.
âPromise you wonât confront him about it? I feel like he had good intentions with the blackmailing, I genuinely trust that he mustâve had a good reason to do so. Donât confront him, please.â He pleaded.Â
You nodded in agreement. âI promise.âÂ
Namjoon sighed, to prepare himself. âIt was Jimin.â
You gape your mouth wide open. âJ-Jimin? Are you serious?â
Namjoon reached his hands into his back pocket and pulled out his phone. He went into his text messages and shoved his phone in front of your face. âRead the texts.â
Jimin: Joon, you busy?
Namjoon: Nah, not really. Whatâs up?
Jimin: Meet me in front of your apartment in ten minutes. got a huge favor to ask you
âHe came over to ask me to not show up to our date. He said it was important and didnât give a clear enough reason as to why. He just kept emphasizing how important it was and that he would eventually explain why but he never did. I swear to you, ___. I seriously didnât mean to ghost you like that.â Namjoon explained.Â
You took a moment to absorb everything. As expected, you had thousands of questions running through your mind: Why would Jimin want your date with Namjoon to not happen? Why would he set you two up together to only make him ghost on you like that? Why would he comfort you as if he wasnât the reason as to why the date never happened. Why would Jimin do that?Â
You grew to be extremely irritated. You didnât want to bring this negative energy into the new year. This was a problem for next year you to handle. Tonight, you wanted to just enjoy yourself.Â
âThank you for telling me this, Namjoon. Seriously.â You smiled. He returned the grin at you. âYou donât hate me, right?âÂ
You chuckle at him. âNot anymore.â The two of you chuckle together. âLetâs go back to where everyone is.â You suggested. You pulled on his arm, making him be dragged from behind.Â
Jungkook caught sight of you pulling Namjoon back to the crowd and immediately felt himself grow to be confused. âIs that Namjoon?â Jungkook asked Yoongi. Yoongi swiveled his head to check out the direction Jungkook was facing. He saw you and Namjoon in the middle of the conversation, drinking seltzers together.Â
âYeah, some of my friends brought him along. I guess the frat king had nothing better to do tonight.â Yoongi turned his attention back to Jungkook. He was still eyeing you and Namjoon down. Yoongi knew that Namjoon had randomly ghosted you the day of the date and knew that Jungkook would naturally be feeling slightly overprotective over you. Yoongi knew that despite Jungkookâs cold exterior towards you, you held a soft spot in him. He could tell by the Jungkookâs eyes softened whenever he was around you, the way his defensive avoidant traits have diminished and how heâs become more open and welcoming to allow you in his trusted circle.Â
âYouâre not going to get drunk and shit on her again, right?â Yoongi teased. Jungkook chuckled and swirled his tongue around his inner cheek. âNah, not anymore. WeâreâŠsheâs a friend to me now. I donât do that to my friends.â Jungkook said, shyly.Â
Yoongi felt proud of Jungkook. He can see how Jungkook is shifting away from his angsty teenage self and is trying to transition into an emotionally composed man.Â
It was now five minutes until the New Year countdown. Hoseok had passed out hats, glasses, and glasses of champagne to everyone. After passing everything, he walked over to you and Namjoon. âNice to meet you again.â Hoseok flashed him his best fake-smile.Â
Namjoon obliviously smiled at him back and waved at him. âYou too! Thanks for hosting this party.â He gave him a curt nod. Hoseok smiled again and nodded. âOf course, thank you for coming! Make sure you get your New Yearâs kiss for good luck!â Unbeknownst to Namjoon, Hoseok lightly pinched your elbow, causing you to yelp. You gave him a death glare but he didnât bother to give you a glance. âIâm going to look for my New Year's kiss partner. See you next year!â He joked, giving you a quick wink before disappearing into the crowd.
You glanced at Namjoon and nervously chuckled. âThatâs Hoseok, by the way, if you didnât know. Heâs one of my best friends.â Namjoon nodded. âOf course, I remember him from the Halloween party. Heâs Yoongiâs boyfriend or something like that, right?âÂ
âYeah, he is.â
There was a slight uncomfortable silence between the two of you. All of a sudden, the room was filled with countdown chants.Â
âTen, nine, eight, sevenâŠ,â
â___?â Namjoon faced you. You looked up at him. âYes?â
âFive, four, three, two, one! Happy New Yearâs!â
He looked down to your lips and his eyes were asking for permission to kiss you. You didnât know if it was the alcohol hitting your system all at once or if it was the fact that you had forgiven him for what he did but you decided to not give a fuck and not make the kiss a big deal.
You gave him a single nod and he immediately bent down to plant a gentle and soft kiss on your lips.Â
It was a sweet kiss. He didnât try to barge his tongue down your throat nor did he try to slobber your face full of his saliva.
You hummed in pleasure and kissed him back, cupping one of your hands onto his face. Namjoon breaks the kiss after a few moments and flashes a soft smile at you. âThat was nice.â His eyes turned into crescents.Â
You giggled and nodded in agreement. âIt was. Happy New Yearâs, Namjoon.â You held your champagne glass up to clink with his. âHappy New Yearâs, ___.â You felt the need to clarify your intention of the kiss. âThat was just a friendly kiss, right? Just so that you could get good luck this year?âÂ
Namjoonâs grin grew wider and nodded. âYeah, just a friendly kiss.â He understood why you asked the question and felt the same way about you; just friends.Â
. . .
It was the next morning. The first morning of the new year. You were awake at 7 in the morning with Jungkook. You were slightly hungover but luckily you had remembered to take Tylenol and drink water when you had arrived home at two in the morning.
Taehyung and Jimin would be arriving home in an hour and Jungkook had asked you to help freshen up the apartment with him. Strangely, Jungkook had barely said a word to you all morning. Just a gruff âgood morningâ.Â
âWhatâs gonna be your excuse when they see you home already? You gonna say you came home last night or something?â You asked, as you were fluffing the couch pillows. Jungkook shrugged. âI guess so. I got nothing else to come up with. Iâll say I came home right before midnight.â
âYeah, thatâs smart.â You nodded.Â
Jungkook continued to sweep the floor in silence. You could sense that something was up with him. He was avoiding eye-contact with you and you felt as if he was purposely physically distancing himself from you. âYou okay? Hungover or something?â You asked.Â
Jungkook snorted at that. âYou forget that I have a way higher tolerance than you, ___.â âRight, I completely forgot youâre the king of alcohol, my bad.â You rolled your eyes.Â
Jungkook was starting to feel bad that he was being moody with his hot and cold emotions towards you. He didnât want to continue his toxic habit of giving you the cold shoulder and taking his feelings out on you. He wanted to try and actually treat you like the friend you are to him.Â
âAre you back together with Namjoon?â He finally decides to ask. You swivel your head to his direction and feel yourself become speechless.Â
âI saw you with him last night. You guys seemed friendly.â He continued to say, without looking at you as he swept the floor.
You mentally debated with yourself. Did he deserve to know or care? He wasnât even that close with Namjoon. Did he see you two share the kiss?Â
âHe found me at the party and asked me to hear his explanation as to why he ghosted me. I decided to forgive him.âÂ
Jungkook nodded, still feeling unsure. He wasnât sure if he was okay with you surrounding yourself with people like Namjoon, from the perspective of a friend and the perspective of a man who knows how other men operate.
âWell, what was the reason?â He asked. You instantly got reminded of the fact that Jimin was behind the reason as to why he flaked on the date.Â
You felt your face turn pale and cold from the anxiety and confusion. You still canât pinpoint on why Jimin would go out of his way to sabotage a situation that he encouraged to start in the first place? Did Jimin have bad intentions against you? You didnât know if you should confess to Jungkook and if you did, would he even believe you? Would he gaslight you and claim that Namjoon was making it up and that you were being too gullible? However, you felt that if anyone would truly understand where Jimin was coming from, it would be either Jungkook or Taehyung.Â
âItâs gonna sound crazyâŠlike really fucking crazy. But he explained to me that he was told by Jimin to not go on that date with me.âÂ
Jungkook shared a similar wave of confusion wash over his face. His eyebrows furrowed furiously with his pink and plush lips gaped open slightly. âYeah, weird right? I canât pinpoint a single fucking reason as to why Jimin would go out of his way to do that. I canât think of anything that's valid enough to hijack a date that he knew I was looking forward to. Especially since he was the one who got us to get to know each other at the Halloween party.âÂ
Jungkook agreed with you. He couldnât think of anything as well. âJust ignore it, ___. Iâm sure Jimin did it for an urgent reason. Forget I even asked about it.â He tried to reassure you. His eyes darted over the clock that was placed on the wall, hinting that Jimin and Taehyungâs arrival is coming near; about less than thirty minutes from now.Â
âButâ,âÂ
âIf I hear anything from Jiminâs perspective, Iâll be sure to let you know, okay? I think the place looks clean enough. Thanks for helping.â He gives you a forced smile and nods curtly.Â
You decide to go along with Jungkookâs suggestion for the time being. You could tell that Jungkook is trying to avoid the topic. He had a cloud of tense aura surrounding him. After being acquainted with Jungkook for some time now, you knew when and when not to press his buttons.Â
âAlrightâŠjust text me when the boyâs arrive. Iâm gonna go shower real quick.â You leave before he could respond.Â
Jungkook sits on one of the reclining chairs and simply stares at the wall. He gets lost into his thoughts about possible reasons as to why Jimin would sabotage your date. He has this uncomfortable feeling brewing in his gut. It was as if Jungkookâs gut knew the answer but he mentally could not pinpoint it for the life of him. He didnât like how much he was bothered by this new information.Â
Jungkook let out a heavy breath and felt conflicted with himself. He knew that he wanted to intervene but also he knew that he shouldnât. Nothing in this situation required his immediate attention at all. But something in him compelled his need for action. He needed to know and he needed to know now. He needed to help you get closure for this. Thirty minutes suddenly felt like thirty hours. The seconds were going agonizingly slow.Â
âWhatâs up, Kook?â He heard his brotherâs voice through the speaker of his phone. âHuh?â He said.
âYouâŠyou just called me?â Taehyung said, with confusion laced in his tone. Jungkook was in his head about this that he didnât realize he had unconsciously called Taehyng just to see how far away he was from home.Â
âRight, s-sorry. I mustâve butt-dialed you.â Jungkook hung up immediately. He felt pathetic. He felt as if he was beginning to go crazy with the way he was so pressed about this. Jungkook decided to go and cook a quick breakfast to welcome Jimin and Taehyung in order to distract himself and to make time go by faster.Â
During the cook prep and the actual cooking time, thoughts and possible explanations as to why Jimin would force Namjoon to ditch the date plagued his mind: Did Jimin suddenly find out something was wrong with Namjoon? Was he toxic? Did he have an infamous cheating history? Was he protecting you from something? Something so serious that he had to stop the date from happening?Â
His blabbering thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the front door opening. He was welcomed to the sight of Jimin and Taehyung stumbling inside the apartment with their heavy luggages.Â
âKook?â Jimin grinned. He jumped into his arms and embraced him tightly. âKook, what are you doing here!â Jimin placed his hands onto his shoulder and pulled him back into another embrace.Â
âWe thought you werenât gonna be back until tomorrow?â Taehyung didnât look as shocked as Jimin. He appeared to be genuinely confused and in utter shock.Â
âWell, I-â
The sound of your squeal interrupted Jungkookâs explanation. âYou guys are back!â You jumped into Taehyungâs arms, launching him enough for him to almost fall backwards. âWhat a nice welcome.â Taehyung chuckled, wrapping his arms around your waist. He felt his heart soaring at the fact that you immediately ran to him first and welcomed him in such a wholesome way.Â
Jimin chuckled to himself at the sight and shook his head. âWhereâs my hug?â He fake-pouted. You pulled yourself away from Taehyungâs embrace and pulled into Jiminâs arms, a bit hesitant. Jimin didnât sense your reluctant energy that was obviously oozing outâat least in Jungkookâs perspective.Â
âIâve missed you too, Jimin!â You smiled at him. Jimin ruffled your semi-wet hair and pulled you back into a side hug. âTell me everything. Tell me how your entire week has been without us three.âÂ
You nervously darted your eyes towards Jungkook for a second before clearing your throat. âIt was great, yâknow? Got some real needed alone time and spent Christmas and New Yearâs with Hoseok, as you already know. Other than that, I had a good time. Iâve missed you guys like crazy.â You tried to steer the conversation away from your so-called âalone timeâ.Â
Jimin turned his attention back to Jungkook. âRight, we completely forgot to continue our conversation. When did you come home? Like Tae said, we thought you werenât gonna be back til at least tomorrow?â Jungkook wasnât nervous nor was he scared to lie to them.Â
âI came home last night around 9-ish. Yeriâs family went to celebrate the New Yearâs with family in the area so I decided to come home that same night.â Jungkook said. He darted his eyes between Jimin and Taehyung to see if they believed a single thing he said. Jimin was nodding his head, as if he didn't doubt him.Â
When Jungkook moved his eyes to Taehyung, he seemed bothered. His lips were pressed into a thin line, his eyes were a chilling almost-black color. âSo did you spend New Yearâs with Yeriâs other family as well?â Taehyung asked.Â
Jungkook paused. He didnât bother to look at you because he knew that you were already looking at him, eagerly seeing what he would say. Would he tell the truth or would he lie again?
âNo, I spent New Yearâs with ___.â He said.Â
There was a brief silence between the brothers. It was a silence that only the two of them could feel. As if they were the only ones who could feel the sudden tension brewing between them.Â
Jimin could tell that Taehyung was bothered at the fact that you and Jungkook spent the night together unknowingly. He didnât really get why Taehyung would feel bothered at that since everyone knows that you and Jungkook would never get along no matter what, right? Assumingly, the night was spent with unstoppable bickering and negative tension.Â
âYou didnât spend it with Yeri?â Taehyung asked again. Jungkook shook his head. âShe wanted to spend it with family and well, IâŠwanted to accompany ____.â He said. Taehyungâs Adam-apple bobbed up and down.Â
âRight,â He started off. âIâm glad you kept each other company.â Taehyung looked between you and Jungkook and reached for his luggage. âBreakfast smells amazing, Kook. Iâm gonna go settle my things in my room and come back out to eat.â Taehyung rolled his luggage away from the kitchen and headed towards his bedroom.Â
You could tell that something was off with Taehyung. His entire mood did a whole 180. âLetâs eat, guys.â You suggested, to ease the tension that was beginning to affect you and Jimin as well.
The breakfast between the four quickly aided to resume the usual comfortable vibe with everyone. Jimin and Taehyung filled you and Jungkook in on how their week went in more detail. Their Christmas and New Yearâs went by smoothly, they talked about the horrendous bruise that Taehyung got from straining his calves during a pilates session with Jungkookâs mother, how Jimin got along surprisingly well with Taehyungâs fatherâs golfing buddies, and all the girlâs numbers that Jimin and Taehyung received from their secret nights out clubbing. You shared in every detail how you spent your week except you left out the minor fact that Jungkook had been with you throughout all of those events: the wine nights, the holiday market stroll, watching Christmas movies till you knocked out, et cetera. Jungkook was with you throughout all of that.Â
The recollection of all those memories as you were sharing them made you unconsciously smile from ear to ear as you blabbered on. You didnât realize how nice it was to have had Jungkookâs presence with you the entire time. In fact, it made you feel as if you got to know him better in a more intimate and vulnerable way. You were able to fully get along and connect as people, as roommates, as friends. You no longer view Jungkook as the handsome stranger that you just randomly harbored a crush on for years. You knew him as your anti-social yet dorky and nerdy roommate who lived in the bedroom next to yours that had a great taste in music, is a phenomenal cook, a person who loves to provide acts of service for those he cares about, is a genuinely intelligent person when it comes to the books but not so smart when it comes to real-life and its complex problems and people. All of that and more made you start to love Jungkook not in a romantic way but as a person. As a friend.
Breakfast wrapped up nicely, with Taehyung claiming that he needed to take a nap or else âhe would dieâ. You decided to go back into your bedroom and catch up on your current read of the month. âDo you guys need help cleaning?â You asked Jimin and Jungkook. âWeâre all good here, ___. Thanks for asking.â Jimin smiled softly at you. You returned the smile, ignoring the slight discomfort as you made eye-contact with him.Â
After breakfast, Jungkook had volunteered to help Jimin clean up. He decided that this would be the best way to corner Jimin and get him to spill the truth as to why he sabotaged your date with Namjoon. He tried his best to just not give a single fuck about this but he truly couldnât. Something was gnawing at his gut to fulfill the need to know what happened.Â
The two were at the sink; Jimin was washing and Jungkook was drying.Â
âSo, did you enjoy your stay with Yeri and her family?â Jimin asked. Jungkook nodded. âIt was alright.â He said.Â
âDo you see yourself getting serious with her? Like full commitment?â Jimin looked at him, giving him a cheeky grin. Jungkook snorted at that. âSlow down there. I donât even take myself seriously, what makes you think Iâll take someone else seriously?â Jimin chuckled at him. âIt wouldnât kill you if you actually had feelings for someone, Kook. Itâs okay to allow yourself to feel sometimes.âÂ
Jungkook ignored him. âHow are things going with you?â Jungkook changed the subject. Jimin chuckled again, aware that Jungkook was purposely avoiding the topic. âIâve been okay. Going back to Busan made me realize how confident I am in my decision to drop school and move in with you guys for the time being. Busan is not for me right now.â Jungkook nodded understandably. âI know weâve said this a million times but you can stay for as long as youâd like. We love having you here.â Jungkook said. Jimin smiled at that.Â
Jungkook was having trouble coming up with a way to nonchalantly bring up the topic. âHow was the New Yearâs party? Did you hang with Yoongi the entire night?â Jimin asked. Jungkook mentally thanked Jimin for bringing up the party as it can lead to the perfect segway to mention Namjoonâs appearance at the party.Â
âI did, actually. You know me too well. Yoongiâs my only friend.â Jungkook fake-chuckled. âDid ___ have a good time? At least from what you saw?â Jungkookâs immediate thought was the memory of you and Namjoon in conversation.Â
âI think so. She was with Hoseok and his friends the whole night,â He started off. He decided it was a good time to mention Namjoon now. âI saw her with Kim Namjoon too.â He finally said.Â
Jimin stopped washing a cup that was in his hand. He paused for a second but remained avoiding eye-contact with Jungkook. âNamjoon was there?â He asked.Â
âYeah, I guess word spread real fast about Yoongiâs and Hoseokâs party.â
Jimin nodded slowly. He didnât know what to say. â___ and Namjoon were talking?â He asked again.
âYes. It was an odd sight to see. From what I remember, Namjoon ghosted her after a planned date, right? At least thatâs what Taehyung told me. He told me not to mention Namjoon in front of ____ anymore out of concern that it would bother her.â Jungkook continued.Â
Jimin managed to look at Jungkook. âUh, yeah, he did ghost her.âÂ
Jungkook was debating whether or not to bite the bullet. âHuh,â He said.Â
âDo you happen to know why he would do such a thing?â He finally asked. Jiminâs face turned slightly pale. If there was one thing Jungkook knew about Jimin after a decade of friendship, it was that Jimin was a terrible liar, especially under pressure. He breaks easily.
âI have no idea. Thatâs something Tae and I have been wondering too.â He stuttered slightly. Jiminâs sudden change in demeanor confirmed to Jungkook that Jimin for sure had something to do with the sudden ghosting of Namjoon. Namjoon wasnât lying to you after all.
Jungkook suddenly felt confident enough to continue pressuring Jimin into telling him the truth now that Jimin was vulnerable enough to crack.Â
âHuh. Thatâs weird.â Jungkook was fake-pondering. Jimin shared a confused glare. âWhat do you mean?âÂ
Jungkook shrugged. âI mean, I heard something weird from ___, thatâs all.â Jimin turned even paler. The water from the faucet was still running and Jimin was holding the same mug from earlier in his hands.Â
âWhat did she say?â Jimin asked, with his voice getting low. Jungkook confidently gave Jimin a firm stare. His eyes darkening and his amused mood from earlier was dispersing into a somber glare.Â
âThat you told Namjoon not to go on the date.âÂ
Jimin remained silent. His silence confirmed it all.Â
He remained speechless for another moment before suddenly turning off the sink. His wet hands gripped onto Jungkookâs wrist and he pulled him to the front door. âLetâs take this outside.â He muttered under his breath.Â
He dragged him outside of the apartment before softly shutting the door. Jungkook wasnât scared nor confused. He was eager to hear what Jimin had to say.Â
âExplain exactly what she said.â Jimin looked afraid and helpless. His eyebrows were furrowed and his eyes were gleaming with fear and anxiety.Â
Jungkook sighed. âAccording to ___, Namjoon approached her at the party and apologized for not going on the date. He blamed it on you. ___ told me that Namjoon told her it was your doing as to why she got ghosted.â Jungkook explained.Â
Jimin ran his sweaty fingers through his hair. âListen, Kook. I have a good reason as to why I did that. I didnât do it out of malicious intent towards ____ whatsoever. But I canât tell you nor can ___ know too. I really canât.â Jimin pleaded.Â
Jungkook shook his head. âLook, I know ___ and I arenât the bestest of friends but I can feel how confused, shocked, and hurt she is. Imagine finding out that one of her good friends was behind the reason as to why her date got ruined. Especially by the same friend that set her up with the guy in the first place.â Jungkook reasoned. âI donât know if you noticed but ____ has been a bit distant from you ever since you came back home. I donât want either of us to live in this kind of uncomfortable environment.â Jungkook continued.
Jimin took a moment to absorb everything Jungkook said. He felt extremely conflicted between doing what he should or shouldnât do.Â
âDo you know if Namjoon told her anything else?â Jimin asked. Jungkook scoffed. âIs that all you care about?âÂ
âJust tell me, Jungkook.â Jimin snapped.Â
After a moment, Jungkook shook his head. âThatâs all she and I know.â
Jimin placed his hands onto Jungkookâs shoulders. âListen to me Kook. What Iâm about to tell you, you have to swear and promise me that you are not going to tell a single soul about this, okay?â
Jungkook was suddenly nervous. He didnât know exactly how to prepare himself for the information he was about to receive.Â
âI want to promise that but it really depends on what it is, Jimin. If I think itâs something ___ should know about then Iâll tell her.âÂ
Jimin shook his head. âI swear to you that this is something that ___ shouldnât know about. At least for now.â
Jungkook cocked his head to the side, out of confusion. âWhat is it, Jimin?â
Jimin continued to mentally debate with himself for another minute or so. He kept running his fingers through his hair and letting out exasperated sighs over and over again.Â
âNo one else knows this, okay? Not even Namjoon,â He starts off. Jungkook was listening patiently.
âIâŠI told him not to go on that date because of Taehyung.â Jimin says. Jungkookâs entire stomach dropped. âWhat do you mea-â
âBecause⊠of Taehyung.â He repeats. âBecause Taehyung likes ___.âÂ
Jungkook felt as if he had dissociated from reality for a second. Was this real? Was what Jimin said real? Was he in a dream? âWhat?â Was all he could bring himself to say.
âTaehyung is in love with ___.âÂ
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