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being an object fictive and objectum is like the funniest coincidence ever. like yeah this tracks -coiny bfdi #🪙❄️

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I feel like my elimination scene is becoming a trigger for me. Like, knowing how much pain it caused me, all the years of math and loneliness and being trapped and all the damned blue of EXIT and then having my disappearance celebrated and being told people like me shouldn't exist (or at least, how I interpreted it. How else could I have viewed it?) It makes me... not very comfortable. It causes some deep, visceral feelings that I haven't felt in so long. I know rationally that I don't have to worry about that again but still. It feels like Four has etched the word pain into each nanogram of my being. -Firey Jr, BFDI fictive #🪙❄ (That's the tag most of my headmates have been using, iirc)

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Going to watch BFDIA 14 live today (ask sent as of July 27 for context) I'm so not ready -Coiny fictive #🪙❄️

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I'm sorry Pin. I really did try my best, I did what I could. I'm sorry it wasn't enough. -Coiny fictive #🪙❄️

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LGBTQ canons...

For starters, I (Dark Markery from Find the Markers) was 100% somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. Demiromantic? Greyromantic? Cupioromantic?? Idk. Something like that. I was definitely asexual. And transmasc.

Coiny BFDI was (and still is) bisexual and non-binary. Had the classic "I have to the best passing trans man ever" to "I like to play and have fun with gender" pipeline which might actually just be an us thing idk

And Firey Jr (since they're co-fronting and posted a few times on here) was pangender and demiromantic -#🪙❄️ (all are fictives!)

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Fic count fic count! So I have 215 with me in them, which for a somewhat niche fandom with 1,700+ fics isn't too bad. How many of them are about me and my boyfriend?

...3. One of them was written by me. -Coiny, BFDI fictive #🪙❄️

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made a section of my wall dedicated for making/printing out things related to me and snowball. i love being normal or something. i call it my shrine

sorry to any other coinys and snowballs who have seen The Snowcoin Wall -Coiny BFDI fictive #🪙❄️ (that's why i chose this tag btw for anyone curious)

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fun facts with coiny: my deadname was penny. i. dont know why i remember this?????? -#🪙❄️

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Idk if I've already said this before. If I did then I'll just say it again. Spongy, I'm sorry. I was an ass, I did some pretty messed up stuff to yoi, and I'm sorry. You deserve better.

I dunno. I just feel bad. Kind of saw something that sparked some major self-discomfort (why does someone ship us and why do they make it so... gross and weird??? eugh. It makes my skin crawl.) Am I overtalking again? I do use a lot of words to say something really small all the time, don't I? Sorry. I'll short word it:

I'm sorry. I care about you and you deserve so much better. -Coiny #🪙❄️

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it's weird to want to look like my source because i'm a literal fucking COIN. not even a penny, i'm explicitly unspecified even though i'm sometimes used to equal one cent but other times i'm priceless so. shrugs -coiny fictive, bfdi #🪙❄️

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i miss tree so much that i've started listening to an australian guy who makes comforting x listener audios ohh it's never been more over for me i miss my wifesband -pen fictive

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thinking about that time mid slap session where firey just grabbed my arm and stared at it for a solid 15 seconds and gave me bandaids the next day. thanks worstie ily -coiny fictive #🪙❄️

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It bothers me a lot when the fandom expects and wants me to speak so much. I'm mute. That's the goddamn point. I'm not going to talk for you. I'm not even talking for my friends. Why would I talk for you?

Teardrop, BDFI fictive :)

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nutty butters that my friends all went to hell that one time and i didnt even get to go with them despite also dying at the same time. probably because i died in a cash register in space instead of a trash compactor but still, really funny to watch. wish i got to go to hell with them that'd be the most interesting thing to experience in source probably. -coiny, bfdi fictive #🪙❄️

also for anyone who is unaware of my source yes this actually happens in bfdia 9. we are all brought back the next episode and it is only brought up once after they get out of hell. and yes it is literally just hell.

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i miss death pact ouuuh IM SORRY FOR LEAVING I JUST WANTED TO BE ON ERASER'S TEAM I DON'T LIKE KILLING OR ANYTHING I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! -Pen, Battle for Dream Island fictive

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hang on i think me and barbecue sauce dated (that one side character from BFDIA in Gelatin's shadeshouse/the broken bottle from Gelatin's steakhouse in TPOT 9) and we were exes. not because we broke up or anything but because he's dead and i couldn't recover him. awesomesauce. now i miss him -coiny, bfdi fictive

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