#beyond exhausted

[brand-new-me]

Can’t sleep. I haven’t had a good night’s sleep all fucking month. I’m gonna start screaming I swear.

I don’t think this would affect me as much if I wasn’t used to being able to effortlessly get 8-10 hours of sleep per night. But goddamn. This sucks.

[areyouwell]

lmao i kinda dropped that new title and dipped didn't i...?

where've i been? working, i'm afraid. however it should get better soonish, currently lookin for a new manager i can train up and step down. it was fine when i was in a writing slump for like, a year or so, but now im back in it i wanna balance my time a bit better <3

i won't have another day off for a while, and im slowly working on Ut Supra Sic Infra because im so excited for it, i made a banner and everything :(

[astraskylark]

Just made 40 momos cause we misjudged the amount of cabbage we needed I never wanna see another momo again

[diivineray]

I’m over today

[curlyburp]

The kind of tired where you feel alert but your eyes burn when you close em

[shannonofthezteam]

6.10.24 Exhaustion/Delirium

We flew overnight and landed in Reykjavik at 6:00 AM local time. Then, we jumped onto our connection flight to Helsinki, landing at 2:00PM local time.

It took some time to take the train to Helsinki's Central Station and to find our apartment. So, once we settled, we were completely spent. John and I took a 13 minute nap (I know it was 13 minutes because we set an alarm), and then it was off to dinner. After dinner, grocery shopping K Market for some breakfast foods in the morning.

Since we were exhausted and the kids have had quite a few "moments" today, my photos are not great. I promise to improve on my photos and storytelling once I get some ZZZs. Thanks for your patience.

[bowofbalance]

I just won at life, I want to go to bed and sleep for 5000 years

[spielzeugkaiser]

I did it!! I did it with quite the fever, shaking out of my skin because I had the fever shakies and half dead, but I got my degree! Wooo

[retr0scum]

Finally, the cousins

[mmmairon]

Home was the only place left.

Prints

[petrichoraline]

[mamawasatesttube]

this might be mean but. it really ticks me off when people respond to authors and artists wishing for actual community and engagement with their works by saying "oh but you see im just so anxious i cannot offer you any kind words." with the optional "but do please keep making things for me anyway!" because like...

a) do you understand how anxiety-inducing it can be to pour a little piece of your soul into a work of art and share it publicly? i feel like you don't see the people creating these things as people like you and that is an issue. we are people who just really love a thing and want to talk about it with other people who also love that thing.

but moreover, and this is the part that might be mean, b) damn why doesn't your anxiety prevent you from making excuses to us then? i wish it did! like if you're SO anxious about a fic author blocking you for saying something nice, why are you not anxious about getting blocked for telling that author "okay but i don't want to comment on your works though"??? because i can tell you which of these two things is way more likely to piss me off and it isn't the comment.

like. idk man. if you really don't want to comment on and engage with people's creative works, no one can force you to. but also consider maybe not commenting on and engaging with those people's posts just to explain that you don't want to comment on/engage with their works. if you are so committed to staying quiet and being a passive consumer then commit to the bit and stop asking creative people who put way more of themselves out there than you are to pat you on the back and reassure you that you'll still keep getting free content even if you can't do so much as drop a "this was really good!" in the comments.

[gomzdrawfr]

he doesn't like to share

[delicioustarong]

Oof I finally have a few hours for myself---

Anyways! References! Here are the reference sheets for my AU "Beyond Reach" it's messy but it gets the job done :3

I have a few illustrations planned for this au, so stay tuned hehehe

[teleportationmagic]

The thing about Jayce and Mel is that like. She does not view him as an investment. That is just certifiably false. You have to skip over all her scenes to believe that.

In the beginning she does! She absolutely does! She conceives of their relationship as a business one - where she makes profit off his inventions, and he profits from her business and political acumen, both monetarily and powerwise. And overall, she believes she's fulfilled her half of the bargain.

It's only when he comes back to her after Viktor gets sick that she realizes he believes this is something deeper. And it's notable that she responds to that emotion - she opens up about herself too, comforts him, and expresses real emotionality about it. It's then that we see his ideals start to influence her - especially reawakening in her a desire for nonviolence.

Wanting to do things peacefully is something that's been with her since she was a child. It is what guides her away from Noxus, because her pacifism just does not fit there. It's why she loved Piltover so - they aren't a violent expansionist empire, which is a really low bar, but that's what she's grown up in.

She never finds the violence in Zaun, because she never goes looking for it. This is her fault, and her flaw, let me make that clear. She has some of the most power in the city, and should know about what kind of violence is holding up, and work to resolve it, truly. But she doesn't, because she's focused on her own exploits, and has so insulated herself away from the class struggle that it does not register for her until it grows to violence.

And then, once that violence comes, she maintains that pacifism with an iron grip, more than Jayce himself. It is Jayce who constructs (almost) all the HexTech weapons that are used in the Undercity, in Caitlyn's police squadron. He betrays the oaths that he's made to his partner, where Mel keeps the promise she's made to her's. She is the only politician left to try to tamp down on the worst of Ambessa's instincts, and her removal from Piltover is what marks it's descent into militarism.

She is ultimately a complicated woman, with a bunch of interesting relationships to Piltover and Zaun. I think you can divide Piltover as a city neatly between her, Jayce, and Caitlyn - each of them standing for some of Piltover's best instincts, and some of its worst.

[semisolidmind]

How long do you think Y/N was stuck inside playtime, saving the toys she did and defeating the prototype? A couple days? A week?

I imagine after all that, Y/N took a long and hot shower after all that. If not immediately passing out from the lack of proper food and medical aid

idk. the game makes it all feel like it's happening pretty fast. it looks dark outside in the first chapter, so the player is there at night or early morning. once they get deeper into the factory, you obviously can't tell time by daylight, and i don't think you can see any clocks anywhere.

id wager the timeline of the game takes place over about a week? maybe less? if each game only takes a few hours to complete, it's maybe happening over the span of only a couple days?

but yeah, regardless of how long it takes, the player would probably pass out as soon as they and any of their rescued toys are away from any danger. as soon as everyone is settled in the house, y/n is passing out and not waking back up for at least a day or two.