#between this stuff and my old wattpad books from the early-mid 2010s I have so many windows into my mind at the time | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

robotwrangler · 26 days ago

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Bruh.. I just found my old dream diary I kept fastidiously updated from 2014 to like 2019, sitting in my old email address’ archive folder.

I read some of the early entries for nostalgia’s sake, and it feels comforting to observe the similarities between my 14 year old self and my current self. She was out here getting asked to dance by her #1 fictional crush in a dream and telling him “sorry, I don’t do that sort of thing, thanks for the offer though.” I’m glad I was always a too-serious stick-in-the-mud and it’s not just a result of the world changing and embittering me :]

#im not that embittered. despite having the most fucked year of my life I still think good things are coming #and that good exists in the world and whatnot #anyway these dream diary entries are full of so much secondhand embarrassment that it’s hard to read for long #but I also am very fond of my old self and I’m genuinely so glad she did so much writing all the time #between this stuff and my old wattpad books from the early-mid 2010s I have so many windows into my mind at the time #i like looking at how I changed over time and seeing documentation of me discovering things I came to love and still love #and also which things were so intense for me back then but did NOT last. for example #the fictional crush in question was a hetalia character but that’s okay. I didn’t know about the existence of GOOD media yet #it did take me like 3 years to get over him despite him being essentially a side character who showed up like 5 times ever

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