#better yet go see a therapist and have an actual third party listen to your examples

[batbirdies]

Just… emphasizing that the anxiety itself has nothing to do with whether you are a good or bad person. Don’t use it as a scale to judge literally anything by.

every post i see that's like "if you're scared of being like [bad person] that's means you're better than them and won't be like them" and it's like. lmao. my dad used to have crying sessions where he would confess his fear of being like his mother and causing me to grow up to hate him. usually after he did something fucking awful, to redirect the attention to his own pain. the girl who sexually assaulted me had panic attacks sometimes about the idea of maybe being a rapist, making it impossible to set sexual boundaries with her without her freaking out. whether you're afraid of being some kind of bad person has basically no bearing on whether you are that way

[theflowerisblue]

@joananoexiste going live with @lo_siento_cris

Tamara: Hi! Welcome back to my channel! Hahah okay guys I’m just waiting for the lady to show up. Once she’s here we can begin.let me know if she’s here cause I can’t see. I’m like Alex, dude. This so crazy, everyone’s like I don’t want the lives to end because once they do then it’s the real end. But as I said in Alex’s live this is so cool and it’s really hard to put into words. Here she is! Lo_siento_cris! We all fucked up so hard we the timing!

Irene: hi! I mean yeah! This is so big. I don’t know where to sit to get better lighting but okay. I’m in a bathroom! I was out having dinner and I came into the bathroom for this.

Tamara: of course you are. You couldn’t have done it any other way.

Cris: look! Take it all in! SO

Tamara: SO Irene tell us how are you feeling?

Irene: I’m so sad, girl.

Tamara: haha I’m like SO TELL US! and you’re super sad.

Irene: this is so depressing. Crying in the bathroom. But yeah I’m sad, aren’t you?

Tamara: I’m still in shocked I think. Like in the back of my mind I’m like “yeah, right. That was the end.” But I don’t believe it.

Irene: totally! I haven’t accepted it yet. Like it was the end but not really.

Tamara: right. It’s weird, I was just talking to Alex and I said that we have been holding on to different things to avoid thinking of the ending. Like okay there’s still a season yet, half a season, it’s the last day of filming but it still has to air!

Irene: exactly!

Tamara: and now we’re like “we only have the lives left and that’s it” and we’re like SHIT.

Irene: I’m going to cry.

Tamara: and you can also see it on screen. Like in the last clip, you know? Like I was there but I was watching the clip of the toast and I kept thinking that you can really tell that it wasn’t scripted.

Irene: yes! That was just us!

Tamara: like we would be talking and someone would go “and the marks!” Because we suddenly remember about the scene.

Irene: have you seen the last clip?

Tamara: yeah, of course.

Irene: well, when we’re toasting there at the beach we’re all improvising.

Tamara: I know! I could tell. And everyone did too, if you see the comments you coul see people saying “this is all them” and it was so cool that it was all so real. Because it was so long! Like it was a long time! It’s been years. It sounds crazy but we all did become a family while filming, and now we go from seeing each other every day to okay I can still see you but it’s not the same. So that’s why we did all those comments of “we’re off to college, we won’t see each other as much!” That’s so realistic.

Irene: yes, totally. Like yeah we’re still going to see each other but we won’t be working together. We won’t get to say “any time, bego!” Or “Rosi!”

Tamara: that’s so funny. Bego is literally full of light. I have ever met in my life a nicer, more loveable person than bego.

Irene: I want her to be my big sister.

Tamara: I want her to direct my life.

Irene: YES! EXACTLY! I can’t do it on my own. We can always just show up at her house.

Tamara: one day we all just go there. We use her as a therapist, we tell her all our problems and we say now what? What’s the next scene?

Irene: I don’t know about you, but this past two years she’s been my therapist.

Tamara: my bego. I love her. There are like a million questions so I can’t pick. Let’s just tell stories. Oh! I know, this is a cool questions. When was the first moment you went from these are my coworkers to fuck this is my family.

Irene: it was so early for me. As soon as we met. Like in the first day, several months before we started filming, we created the group chat and we followed each other on Instagram and then like so soon tomi sent a message like “guys, we’re going to be so important to each other.” And that was it for me. So like the first day.

Tamara: super fast.

Irene: I mean have you seen me? I’m a drama queen. I’ll look it up, I’ll find that message and print it. I’ll hang it up on my wall and cry. And how about you? Why would you say?

Tamara: I think that...I don’t know if I can talk about this. Let’s make it family friendly. We were at a party and I was so fucked up, lying on the couch about to die and Ruth comes like a gift sent by the gods. And she goes “come! Come with me” to I don’t know where and I was like mm I like her.

Irene: hahaha this girl seems nice.

Tamara: I like all these people. My memories are mostly like that because during filming I’d mostly film with you. But like I have memories of “casa tomi” (tomi’s house)

Irene: right! That’s like the rite of passage. You haven’t really been a part of this until you come to your first party at casa tomi.

Tamara: legit. I’m y story about Ruth was there.

Irene: you see? That’s where the magic happens.

Tamara: my god. But see that’s what I’m talking about. Like I can’t cry because I don’t really believe it truly ended. It’s weird.

Irene: it is. Don’t you feel like it’s exactly like when we stop during seasons? That’s how I feel, no like it’s really the end.

Tamara: yes! But with the fear of “wait! It’s not that”

Irene: YES! Literally. Like in my mind I know it but I can’t come to terms with it.

Tamara: me neither. My brain refuses to accept it. I’m like well we’re here doing propio for the show. And then I realized there’s nothing else after this.

Irene: girl. There has to be something else. They must release the bloopers. That would be MAGICAL.

Tamara: they should released the HOURS of material they have from the mics.

Irene: oh! Please god no. Thank you very much.

Tamara: the day we found out they were listening! Everyone’s faces. It was so funny.

Irene: the sound crew know everything about my life. Literally everything.

Tamara: they were the true therapist and without even wanting to.

Irene: my confidants. It was funny I would talk to someone and they’d be like “what happened with this?” And I’ll be like when did I tell you about it? It was so bad.

Tamara: that’s so scary!

Irene: it’s all my fault.

Tamara: okay, I think we have two minutes left. Let’s do this, tell me your favorite from each season.

Irene: alright. From the first one I believe that I choose the one where Eva cries in the bus because I was so sad for alba! I wanted to hug her! The funny thing is that I saw it with her next to me and I was like “are you okay?” And she was laughing, we were out partying and I felt so bad for her. From the second one either when clip comes out or “perdóname”

Tamara: that’s iconic. “You’d say anything to make me mad!”

Irene: it’s amazing.

Tamara: what about the third?

Irene: I’ll go with the clip where Nora talks about her sister being sexually assaulted. That’s really cool. And I think that from the fourth, I’ll choose the last one in the islands.

Tamara: from the first one, the one I really liked is

Irene: the one with your song!?

Tamara: hahaha no ❤️ no that one actually freaked me out. Let me tell you why, they tell me: they’ve asked us for a song for this new show called skam and I was like fine! And then while we were joking we say “imagine they use it for a sex scene” and I was like I don’t think so. And they never told us in which scene they would use it. And then the clip drops and I’m like I can’t believe it.

Irene: all your musical appearances in skam are incredible. I mean cute bitch? With Joana on the bridge? C’mon!

Tamara: that was so funny. Because I knew they were using the song but not where, I was like “Great! Fine, whatever you want, bego!” And then I was so shocked. It’s crazy because in the first season rizha exists inside the skam universe but it’s just background music, the characters aren’t listening to her but then in this season JOANA is listening to her.

Irene: Joana listens to rizha that’s crazy!

Tamara: isn’t she suspicious about how they look exactly the same?

Irene: right? She should look at the album and be like “that’s weird”

Tamara: that’s crazy. But we have such cool memories. Everything has been so intense. I mean it’s the end, but we’ll always have it.

Irene: exactly.

Tamara: could you imagine if they delete everything? Tomorrow you wake up and it’s all been a dream!

Irene: like in “Los Serrano” could you imagine? I’d die.

Tamara: okay, time’s up. I have to let you go, say goodbye.

Irene: why me? If I still have my live left.

Tamara: you’re absolutely right. Let me do it then. guys! You’ve been super important for this show, you’ve made us laugh, cry, shown us much love. The show will always be there, you can still watch it. But thank you for everything, for all your support. It’s been fucking crazy!

[mellomedia]

Youth Culture

For Media & Society’s first blog post, our class watched Euphoria, Mid90s, Mean Girls, Kids, and The Breakfast Club. If you haven’t figured out the theme yet, it’s youth culture. Most of these films were set in the 80s and 90s before this current generation. This is the first generation where our lives are saturated by mobile technology and social media (Divecha, 2017). But no matter what generation, youth culture has many common behaviors, or misbehaviors.

Often when I watch a film or read a comic book, I wonder if I relate to the story or anyone in it. I looked for anything in common I might have with one of the characters in the five films we watched. I can identify with Ray from Mid90s the most. I’m not a die-hard skateboarder like Ray. In fact I can’t skateboard at all, but I dedicate all my time and energy into art and animation. While we have different interests, I can relate to Ray’s passion for something he enjoys and the energy he puts into it. Ray is the top skateboarder in his group and practiced every day. All my spare time is spent drawing and taking online animation courses. My goal is to always do better than what I did yesterday. Words to describe Ray would be the same way I describe myself: down to earth, not concerned with fitting in, my own person, caring, always willing to help, and a very loyal friend. When Stevie joins the skateboard crew in the film Mid90s, he finally digs up some money to buy Ruben’s old, used skateboard. Stevie gets injured while attempting an insane jump over a hole in a roof and breaks his skateboard. Ray sees how much Stevie is trying to fit in, no matter how many falls he takes, he gets back up. Ray has a big heart and builds Stevie a new skateboard. As I mentioned, I’m not a skateboarder, but I enjoy trying to make people smile with my art. I enjoy drawing a cartoon of a friend to help them to get out of a funk or just listen to whatever it is they are going through. 

These films all share a few common themes. One theme is belonging. I admit I looked up the term “fitting in” and it was compared to belonging. Fitting in is defined as to be like other people in a group – what they wear, how they act, how they look. (Pace, 2018) Belonging is a basic human need – it is about acceptance – being where you want to be and being where you are wanted (Pace, 2018). A few examples are Stevie (Mid90s) wants to be accepted into the skateboard crew; Brian (The Breakfast Club) brings a flare gun to school as a suicide attempt because he didn't feel he was good enough; and Cady (Mean Girls) is the new girl trying to get accepted by The Plastics.

My freshman year in high school definitely falls into the theme of belonging. I struggled with speech and have a learning disorder. And at the time I had zero confidence in socializing. I’d walk over to a group of kids in the cafeteria just to try to get involved in the conversation, but I couldn’t form sentences quick enough to jump in. I would be the weird kid just standing there. One day my speech therapist asked me what I wanted to improve and I told her I wanted to gain confidence in socializing. She told me the best way to do this would be to just try to talk to more people. Well in high school that worked with some kids, but not all. I’ll never forget one day in the cafeteria I was trying to find a place to sit and eat lunch. I saw an empty chair at a table where a ‘friend’ was sitting. The group was taking turns roasting one another. At one point another kid challenged me. I was doing fine until he said, “You know people are only nice to you because they don’t want to hurt your feelings.” That hurt like hell. He was referring to my speech impairment. I got up from the table and walked away. And that ‘friend’ at the table didn’t defend me at all. One girl came running over to make sure I was alright. I was pissed and hurt. I was not alright. Just so you don’t think I went off the deep end and had a miserable high school experience, I actually gained a great friend in high school that day. Alex, who was a senior, saw me leave track practice early. My head just wasn’t into track, so I went to sit in the empty cafeteria hoping to clear my head. He asked how things were going and I told him what happened that day. He told me, “It’s not easy finding out who your real friends are. But don’t change for anyone and don’t try to be like anyone else. Just be you.” I’ll never forget how he took the time to talk to me. After his advice, I could care less about belonging.

Another common theme between all five films is rebellion. When they aren’t skateboarding, most of the characters in Mid90s spend their time partying, drinking, and doing drugs. In The Breakfast Club, each character is in detention because they rebelled in some way. Why else would they be in detention? Every character in Kids was a rebel, actually more like a criminal. I bet the writer of the film was too.

A third theme is “bro” culture. “Bro” culture is defined as people who are bullies but at the end of the day they have your back, like a brother (Sloothunter42, 2018). Two great examples of “bros” are John (The Breakfast Club) and Ian (Mid90s). Throughout The Breakfast Club, John constantly insults the other kids in detention. He even insults the principal. The group escapes detention to wander the hallways. When the principal sees them, John saves the group by telling them to go back to the library while he distracts the principal. This link shows you the scene I’m explaining: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Iq7MRlHg5I (Hughes, 1985). Not something you would have expected from a bully, but you would from a “bro.” In Mid90s, Stevie’s brother, Ian, beats the crap out of him every chance he gets. But when Stevie is laying in a hospital bed after a car accident, his brother is there by his side. He even shares his precious orange juice.

Now onto one of my favorite things in life, music! I put together a playlist that relates to my adolescent experience. In no particular order, here are 10 songs and what each means to me. But let me point out that some song lyrics mean something to me, while with other songs it was the energy it gives off. I’m all about positive energy. First song is “Mr. Blue Sky” by Electric Light Orchestra. I first heard this song during the movie Guardians of the Galaxy. This song kept me motivated and positive during high school. If I was having a bad day, this was my ‘go to’ song. I also listened to it every day on my way to school. Next is “Crazy” by Gnarls Barkley, a.k.a. CeeLo Green. This song reminds me of my mind, imagination, and the stuff I think about. I always have a trillion things going on in my head. I guess that explains my poor focus skills and super procrastination. “Inner Ninja” by Classified is another upbeat song. A few lines that always stuck in my head are, “I find my inner strength and I re-up; Here we go, I know I've never been the smartest or wisest; But I realize what it takes; Never dwell in the dark cause the sun always rises.” My junior year of high school I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. It has and still is life-changing and as much as I don’t let it change who I am, I’m human. But as the song says, don’t dwell on the negative, look for the positive. I always remind myself of the positive. “Through the Fire and Flames” by DragonForce always fueled my brain when I was tired of doing homework or studying. To me the lyrics mean to keep moving forward no matter how difficult. Just look at what your goal is and don’t give up. Plus this song has one hell of a guitar solo that is very motivating. Michael Jackson is one of my favorite artists and “Man in the Mirror” reminds me how important it is to try to do good in the world and make a positive change. Regardless of culture, color, religion, and disability, we are all capable of making good changes in the world. I tried this on a much smaller scale in high school by volunteering at the food pantry and community events. “Clint Eastwood” by Gorillaz is one of many songs by this group that I like. It’s not so much the words I relate to, but I love the animation in their music videos. I remember the first time I saw one of their videos I thought how cool and mysterious it was that we only see the singers as cartoons. We are never shown who they really are. I like the fact that it’s different. Different is good in my world. “Intergalactic” by Beastie Boys reminds me of breakdancing and dancing in general. I love to dance and looked forward to every prom and homecoming dance at high school. “Without Me” by Eminem reminds me that no matter how much people criticize you, you can be very successful at what you enjoy doing. The last song on my list is “Take Me Out” by Franz Ferdinand. To be honest, I just like the beat of the song and it’s one of those songs I listened to over and over in high school.

So that wraps up my Youth Culture blog. I hope it gave you a better understanding of how I relate to the assigned films. But let me make one thing clear, I do not relate to anything in the film Kids. Not one thing.

Below is my self portrait of what goes through my mind. 

Artwork by: Marcello Laudato

[tsarinastorm]

AA:Ashes to Ashes-Adam Sackler/Reader-Chapter 1

Rating: Explicit, eventual Smut

This is my attempt at a slow burn, sorry if it’s bad!

Summary:  You meet Jessa at AA and quickly become friends. She introduces you to her boyfriend, Adam, who it turns out you have a lot in common with. Always a girls’ girl you’ll have to choose between friendship and love.

       As usual, everyone went around the room introducing themselves and explaining their issues, you instantly regretted being there but it was for the best. While not a typical addict or alcoholic, you had been mixing alcohol and Xanax, even though you knew better. It began as only drinking during social events, then it became drinking every night, then it quickly developed into drinking every night and using Xanax to sleep. Your therapist suggested going to AA groups to talk to others about your problems, and to ‘socialize.’

           It was getting harder to resist the urge to drink and pop a few pills. But you did it to yourself. You had insisted on moving yourself to New York City, taking a job that was lower pay and cutting back your own hours to work on your writing. Now you did mostly contract-drafting work, and were just covering your rent, bills, and general expenses. You had to sell some of your clothes to consignment shops, and tutor some high school students for extra cash. But you thought it was worth the risk to follow your dreams. You were saving money by staying in a small studio apartment in East Village, and while it was tiny, it allowed to save some of your earnings. You were working on polishing your first manuscript to send to publishers.

           Everyone concludes introducing themselves, including you, then a woman comes in late. She is a blonde with a British accent, and after taking a look around, she may be the only normal one here. Apparently she thinks the same, because she comes over to talk to you after the meeting is over.

           “It’s good to not be the only pretty woman in here, and you look relatively normal.” She says and you nod your head in agreement. You say back, “Yeah some of them look like they’ve been rode hard and put away wet.”

           “I’m Jessa, wanna not stay here and get hit on by that guy,” She says as she gestures towards a big man standing over to side who’s eyeing you both suspiciously. That could get weird.

           That’s how you became friends with Jessa. The two of you would go grab food after each meeting, and she was pretty much an open book. You were surprised and entertained by her life stories, you told her that she should write a book, a memoir. You could tell that she put up a front to hide some inner vulnerability but who didn’t. She would talk about her former friends, then her boyfriend, named Adam, and what an ‘amazing’ connection they had. But you had never once seen him, or heard from him, he was enigma and it made you wonder about their relationship. She also said that he was her friend Hannah’s ex-boyfriend. The whole situation seemed strange to you, and you were suddenly grateful that you didn’t have that drama in your life.

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In your third week of hanging out, when the two of you went shopping, or more specifically window shopping, she was talking about her last encounter with college. She told you that she did want to be a therapist but then she dropped out of school because it wasn’t for her. You tried to encourage her that there are other ways to help people with their lives that don’t involve school, and there were non-traditional routes.

“I just feel like I could really help other people so much but I’m not cut out for school,” Jessa says as she moves her hands dramatically while speaking. You listen before saying, “You could be a life coach or something, that stuff doesn’t usually require a degree. You just need to know how to sell yourself, find somebody to guide you in the business.”

           As you take another bite of your salad, you can see that Jessa is appraising your suggestion. She pulls out a cigarette, then her eyes light up. She gets excited and exclaims, “That is a great idea! I’m so good at making people buy into my bullshit and telling them what to do!”

           “Happy to help!” You say, then you start look up the process for how to be a life coach. This was a much-needed distraction from your daily life and your own stress. For some reason, you were much better about giving other people advice than following it on your own, maybe that’s why you became friends with Jessa in the first place.

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           Then, the following week was the time she took mushrooms, accidentally this time, and called you to pick her up from the party in the Garment District. You were trying to finish the draft of a contract when she called but you considered yourself a girls’ girl and would feel guilty if something happened to her.

Before you knew it, you were making your way there. You find the address from the drop-pin she sent you. As you walked in you noticed that the party’s attendees were the hippy type, dressed in tie dye, with marijuana growing around the place, yet still fashion hippies because they had on designer duds. The apartment was in an eclectic loft, and was filled with people. It didn’t bother you, it was just tightly packed, and was making you feel claustrophobic. You try not to stare at people, just look for Jessa. A couple guys made a few off-hand comments, but you ignored them, looking for your friend. Then your eyes settle on a blonde sitting across the room.

           Jessa was sitting in a corner, and you went up to her. You asked her, “Can you walk? This will be a lot easier if you can walk?”

           “I can’t feel my legs. Y/N, fuck I have never felt this good.” Is her answer. Her attitude made you instantly wish you would have ignored her phone call. She should have called her boyfriend or one of her friends that wasn’t busy. Frustrated, you pick her up, she stands, and then she takes a step forward. She is mumbling about something, you place her arms over your shoulder and head out, weaving through the crowd. Once outside, you hail a cab, then Jessa decides that she won’t go and stand stubbornly outside. You really don’t have time for this, so your anger boils over.

“Fine, call your damn boyfriend or whoever else you have, because I am done!” You shout, and throw your hands in the air in an act of disgust. You mentally decide to get in the cab and go back to your apartment to resume your work. As you go to step inside the cab, you hear Jessa speak.

           “Wait, Y/N, I don’t have anybody else, okay?” Jessa says, and you help get her in the cab and scoot her over so you can get in as well. She’s able to give the driver her address. As soon as you get her up the stairs which was a task in itself and to the door of her apartment, she vomits. You audibly release a sigh and step over it, and started pounding on the door. You remember that she lived with her boyfriend, and she said he should be home. You’ll wake up the whole damn building if that’s what it takes.

           “Okay, okay! I hear you, loud fucker!” You heard a man yell before coming to answer the door. Your jaw drops when a man who’s built like a brick house, opens the door standing in his black briefs. He has amber eyes, black, long, wavy hair, amazing pecs, and your eyes can’t help but notice the bulge in the briefs. That must be the Adam, you were certainly not expecting him to look like that, and you feel a blush creep on your cheeks. You shield your eyes and push Jessa towards him.

           “What the hell happened to her?” He demands to know from you. You didn’t like the tone, so you inform him, “Jessa went to a party, took mushrooms, and then called me to come get her. I have work to do, so I assume you can take care of her.”

           He nodded in agreement, Jessa stumbled into the apartment, and you left. Now you understand why Jessa put up with him treating her like a consolation prize, and why she was willing to betray her friendship with Hannah for him. You didn’t think that you would personally do that, but you could understand it now. You also knew that you would be thinking of your friend’s boyfriend more than you wanted to.

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When you were heading out of the AA meeting today with Jessa, she said that needed to grab something from her apartment first. So you follow her to her apartment, and once inside, you turn around to see Adam sitting on a yellow couch, this time he was fully clothed. Jessa heads further inside to find whatever it is that she was looking for. Adam turns to look at you, and you can feel his gaze burning through you, you decide to ignore it and admire the architecture and space in this apartment.  Besides, considering your recent interaction with him, you weren’t sure you could look at him without blushing or checking out his bulge again.

You were happy that you had chosen to wear black skinny jeans, Chelsea boots and a sleeveless white top instead of leggings and an oversized sweatshirt. Adam gets up to stand beside you, and formally introduces himself, saying, “I’m Adam, thanks for taking care of Jessa that night. Sorry I was kind of an asshole.”

“I’m Y/N. It’s no problem.” You say back as your mind goes blank when his eyes meet yours. He continues holding your eyes for some time before asking, “Are you the friend from AA?”

“I am.” You answer, feeling a bit dazed. It must be equally awkward for him to know a lot about someone without actually knowing them. Or maybe he was socially awkward like you. You felt like you knew him already from hearing Jessa’s stories. He then coolly remarks, “You don’t look like an alcoholic or addict to me.”

           “What the hell is that supposed to mean?” You fire back. A person can’t just assume who’s an addict, or who’s not.Your brow furrows and your casual smile turns into a scowl. You take back any nice things about him you had thought before. What an asshole, he can’t even know you for five minutes before insulting you.

           “Adam, don’t be an asshole,” Jessa chimes in as she strolls back into the room and glares at him. He finds a way to recover and explain himself. He states, “I meant it as a compliment. You look very put together and classy.”

           Jessa scoffs at him and eyes him hesitantly, while you chuckle. You suppose that is a twisted compliment, and you’ve been called worse. You then feel the need to explain yourself to him and add, “Yeah well drinking and the Xanax quickly turned from happening occasionally at social events to all the time to numb myself. I got help before I hit rock bottom.”

           “Good. Good for you. I started drinking as a teenager and started AA when I was seventeen. Better to catch that shit early.” He says and you listen to him contently, but before the two of you get to talk more, Jessa is rushing out the door, declaring that she’s found whatever she was here for. You shoot him a smile and wave goodbye before following Jessa out.  Adam is certainly a curious man and you want to know more about him, even though it’s against your better judgment.

“Adaptations are almost never as good as the original, end of story.” You inform Ray of your opinion. You had just met Ray earlier tonight, and he seemed to be argumentative. You never backed down from a debate, so it made things interesting. You ignored the fact that Jessa wanted to set you up with Ray, he just wasn’t your type. You’re sitting on the yellow couch with Jessa and Ray. Jessa is listening to your argument while she eats yogurt, not bothered at all. Ray thinks for a moment before he makes his next move in this game of argument chess.

           “There can be thoughtful adaptations.” Ray declares, taking a drink of his beer. You’re not convinced, so you counter with, “Yes but they generally lose the heart and soul of the original format.”

“Okay well I can see that I’m not going to win this.” Ray finally concedes. Good. Better for him to figure that out now. You take a drink of your water, and snack on some chips. You’ve been set up with worse guys, and as long as Ray takes the hint, maybe the two of you can be friends.

“I agree with Y/N.” Jessa confirms, and Ray just shakes his head. You smile smugly, triumphant that you’ve won the argument. Then, Adam walks through the door, looks surprised to see all of you there, continues heading into the kitchen. He gets a drink from the fridge before joining the group of you on the couch, he points at you and adds, “I agree with her, adaptations are shit!”

           You smile at him, and he smiles back. You’re happy he agrees, because if not you would have to seriously question his taste, and put him the group with Ray. From what Jessa’s told you about him, he’s obviously cultured and has good taste, even though he doesn’t outwardly show it and in spite of outward eccentricity. During the movie, Ray heads out to take a phone call while Jessa goes to the restroom, leaving you alone with Adam.  And you actually has butterflies in stomach just from being alone with him, you feel like you’re fourteen again. Inwardly scolding yourself for feeling this way, you keep your eyes fixed on the television screen. You don’t know what to say, so you wait for him to make a move. Or who knows, the two of you might sit in weird silence until someone walks back into the room. Luckily, you don’t have to wait long to see how it’s going to go.

           “What do you do?” He asks trying to get the conversation started and end the tension in the room. He glances at you, and takes some chips from the bowl.

           “I’m an attorney, but I don’t do typical court work. I do the drafting and back work. That gives me flexibility to work on my writing on the side.” You says as you take another drink from your glass, and you notice that you’re each moving towards each other subconsciously. Or consciously, who knows. Adam chuckles, then jokes by saying, “Well I don’t have good luck with writers.”

           “Well I don’t have good luck with tall strangers. What do you do? You’re an actor, right?” You say back, not fazed at all by his bad joke, and you see relief wash over him. He cocks a half-smile, you admire his dimples that are now showing. And you mentally control yourself, because you cannot get a crush on your friend’s boyfriend.

“I am an actor.” He says in a drawn out voice, and you can’t tell if he did that intentionally or if he’s just nervous.  He definitely doesn’t strike you as a shy, or introverted guy.

“That’s why you have strong opinions on content forms then.” You say and the two of you continue talking about books, poems, movies and music you like. You find out that you and Adam have similar, but not identical tastes. As Ray and Jessa trickle back into the conversation while Adam is asking you about your trivia talents. Adam stuns you and everyone else in the room by saying, “Fuck, you’re the smartest person I’ve ever met.”

“You’re not too bad yourself. Brawn and brain,” You tease back as Adam tries to hide his blush, which you find adorable. You also know that you’re probably blushing too so you move your face to hide it. Then you remember that Jessa is right there and you worry you might have crossed the line. Self-consciously and slowly you scoot back over across to the other side of the couch, leaving plenty of room for Jessa, and you pat the space beside you. Jessa seems unaffected, and it seems you’re being self-conscious for nothing, she sits down. She puts her arm around your shoulder, saying, “Adam’s right. You are insanely smart, and kind. And you have fantastic skin.”

You blush and you can see Adam watching you out of the corner of your eye. Jessa moves in closer to you and starts telling you about the current state of her future life-coaching business. You listen to her as intently as you can but your thoughts wonder to Adam, then you guilt yourself because you know you shouldn’t think of him at all.

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Adam was walking out of Ray’s coffee shop with his typical, normal coffee. None of that fancy new age coffee that so many people drink nowadays. He’s been in a bit of downward spike lately, he knows he needs to audition for more parts and submit some of his writing to directors. He’s working on what he thinks is a lame indie film, but the pay is decent and the director is well-respected so he supposes he should suffer through the script. Though he’s considered walking out several times.

When he’s getting ready to head to the door, he sees Y/N walk in. She waves at him, and he finds himself smiling and waving back at her. She’s wearing a red sheath dress and heels, carrying a huge tote bag. How does she manage to look hot while still looking like a boss? Adam remembers that she’s an attorney so she’s probably way out of his league, and she’s Jessa’s friend. Once she gets her order, she sits a table that’s in the corner near the street, and motions for him to join her since he’s still standing by the door probably looking like an idiot.

           He knows he should probably just politely decline her offer, but instead he goes to sit down across from her. He felt a connection with her the other day when they talked about books, and things they were passionate about. Adam thinks he might as well accept he’s hooked on this girl, at least to some degree. After he sits, he asks, “Are you going to work? I don’t want to distract you.”

           “I’m mostly editing and listening in on video calls today. What about you? I mean I know actors and artists don’t have a normal schedule but are you working today?” She says as she takes a drink of her coffee and takes her pastry out of the bag.

           “I’ve been working on this indie film and it’s very frustrating.” Adam admits before he remembers that he doesn’t really know Y/N that well, and that she probably doesn’t care about his life.

           “Is it good for your reputation or at least good pay?” Y/N asks and sounds genuinely interested. Adam thinks back to the intensive conversation that he had with her a few nights ago, and knows that she gets it. She thinks about art, literature, and expression. So he opens up.

           “It’s good for both. It’s just everything else about it is a shitshow. And fucking mediocre,” Adam says. Y/N then continues making her point by saying, “Well stick it out for the credit then you can be pickier about your projects.”

           “That’s good advice. Thanks.” He tells her and she pulls out her laptop to get to work, when he gathers himself to leave, she stops him. “Company wouldn’t bother me…If you don’t have somewhere else to be.”

           Adam sits back down, content to hang around her.  He sees that she has a copy of Forster’s short stories and Emile Zola’s Therese Raquin in her bag. He can’t hold back from commenting, after all he does have a comp lit degree. He motions toward them, saying, “Interesting choices. Let me know what you think of them.”

“I like Forster’s description of sexuality and sensuality. This is my first brush with Zola though, so I’ll save my commentary when I’m better read.” She smiles and it looks like her whole face lights up. Adam can’t look away from her.

He barely knows her and yet he feels like he’s known her all of his life. He’s able to talk to her about things that he could never bring up around Jessa, and forgot what it was like to have a real connection to someone. He and Y/N sit there for hours, talking art, writing, and inspirations. He opens up about his past relationships, Y/N already knew that he dated Hannah, who was Jessa’s friend. Adam chose to leave out the part where he went back to Hannah to offer to raise her child with her. He knew how embarrassing it sounded now, and maybe Jessa had already told her that.

           She opened up to him about her writing: short stories and children’s books, though she wanted to do more. She told him about how hard it was when she first moved to the city, and about the ex who got her to mix alcohol and Xanax. She talks about her dysfunctional family, and the friends she’s made in the city. When it’s time to go, Adam finds himself following her outside the shop, not wanting to separate from her.

           Outside the door, he stops her to ask, “Can we do that again?”

           “Sure. That is what friends do.” She says before she heads on her way. Adam’s never really had friends before but he still feels like this was more than friendship.

[izzy-b-hands]

Loyalty

No idea where this came from, or why. Was sitting here bemoaning that I didn’t know what to write and nothing was coming, and then THIS!

This is set in the Modern AU, though there’s nothing in particular to designate it that other than my saying so and that’s how it played out in my head as I wrote lol. In a particular version of the Modern AU where they live in the same city in Texas as Florence and Burgie.

TW for allusions to suicide and PTSD, though nothing is mentioned real explicitly.

Fic title comes from the Kendrick Lamar song, because he’s all I was listening to while I wrote this, and I figure the word fits the sort of idea/theme in this in a weird way. Particularly the line ‘all we ask is trust’ because trust is definitely a Topic in this one. 

My love to all who read/like/reblog!

“He’s worried about you.” 

Snafu shrugged. “He shouldn’t bother.” 

Burgie sighed and dropped down onto the bar stool beside him. “You gotta stop this shit. The hell scared you now?” 

“The fuck do you mean?” 

Burgie damn near growled, mean, and he usually didn’t get that way with friends unless he was drinking, but he hadn’t touched the beer Snafu had ordered for him as soon as he saw him walk in. 

“You know very well ‘the fuck’ I mean, Merriell. You claim you want to be close, you want to be a good boyfriend, maybe even his husband someday? Then you gotta get over this gettin’ scared shit you do. Last time, you freaked out because he wanted you to go to some university function with him, and he went alone, and left early and called me in tears. Time before that, he tried to set up a nice vacation for y’all, that you both needed and deserved. You got scared he’d somehow fall in love with someone in that city that he’d meet, and claimed work wouldn’t give you the time off, and he knew that shit wasn’t true, and that hurt. So what is it this time?” 

“Like he doesn’t do the same shit to me.” 

Burgie sighed deeply. “I’m not saying he doesn’t. He does, and I need to talk to him about that too-” 

“Then go do it! If you’re so concerned with making this relationship your problem.” 

“Goddamn it, Merriell!” Burgie’s fist slammed the counter, and Snafu and half the club near them jumped a foot. “Shut the fuck up for two minutes, no more snide fucking come backs, and let me tell you what I see if you two dumb fucks break up for good.” 

He set his beer on the counter, and stared at Burgie. His friend’s face was red, his mouth twisted in a frown so angry it hurt to look at. Burgie had never been truly mad at him or Eugene, ever. 

“Before you two got together, y’all were messes. I know, cuz I’m the dumb ass that picked up every time one of you would call me, sobbing and scared and alone, which made me scared for you. And I knew if y’all got back together, it would be something like it was during the war, something good; two rocks adrift in a sea that can drift together and find shore, or break apart and let the surf wear them to nothing. Together, you both find shore. Apart...” 

Burgie sighed. “That’s why I urged y’all to meet up again. I knew I’d be attending funerals if I didn’t, and I can’t take another one. Another service revolver that should have been taken away but wasn’t, and another mother asking me if I’ll come over and help clean the wall in her boy’s room because the father can’t stomach it and she can’t bear to do it alone.” 

“My parents are dead.” 

“So then I’d be cleaning your bedroom wall alone,” Burgie replied. “I won’t do it, Merriell. For you or Sledge. You’re both better and smarter than you’ve been acting, in general and with each other.” 

“It isn’t that easy-” 

“You think I don’t fuckin’ know that? What the fuck do you think Florence and I talk about in therapy when we do our sessions together? We go over that shit, what scares us, what we worry about with each other, and you know what we find out every time?” 

Snafu shrugged.

“That our fears are irrational, borne of trauma and confusion and other things in our lives we hadn’t come to terms with yet. I’m not saying therapy would solve everything, but I gave Sledge the number for ours. She does Skype sessions, though they cost a bit more, in case y’all ever move like you keep talkin’ about. It might be worth it for you both.” 

He shrugged again, and bore holes into his beer as he stared at it. 

“I know you don’t wanna break up with Sledge, and I know he doesn’t wanna break up with you. You wanna know why?” 

The tears burned at the corners of his eyes, and he couldn’t respond. 

“Because neither of y’all ever pack a bag, or even take your fucking wallet with you. You didn’t this time, did you? Just a few twenties to pay for the drinks, right?” 

Snafu pulled the two twenties and fifty out of his jeans pocket and showed it to him, then put it back. 

“See? And then one or both of y’all call me and ask me to talk to one or both of y’all, and I come by to help you, and as soon as you both sit and talk through what weird shit is in your heads, you feel better and things go back to normal. You just gotta do that with each other, without me. Or with the therapist, but definitely gotta learn to do it without a third party too. It isn’t actually difficult, exactly. It’s just...being vulnerable.” 

“What if he doesn’t like me like that?” 

Burgie’s eyes softened, and the frown disappeared. “Why wouldn’t he?” 

Snafu shrugged. “I don’t like me like that. It feels weird to cry in front of him.” 

“But you did during the war. I know, I watched it happen.” 

“That was different.” 

“Why?” Burgie stressed, leaning towards him, taking one his hands in his. “Or did you just not think about it because of where you were?” 

It was like a light bulb flickering in his head. “...yeah. I guess so.” 

“Okay. So what makes you feel like anyone could see you at home with him, talking shit out and crying if you need to?” 

“I...I don’t know.” 

Burgie nodded. “That’s okay. You can figure that out later. You got time. You just can’t let it take over your head, y’know? Or let those nonsense fears that you know won’t ever be true or come to pass take control. You gotta focus on what you know is true. Tell me.” 

“What?” 

“Bout you and Eugene. What’s true, about you two.” 

“...I love him. He loves me.” 

Burgie nodded again, encouragingly.

“He makes me feel safe, and I do the same for him. We can both sleep without nightmares when we’re together. I don’t worry about anyone breaking in to kill us as much when he’s beside me at night. He likes to read to me, and I like to hear him read, even his stupid textbooks that are boring as shit. I like the chores he doesn’t, and vice versa so we always have an easy time keepin’ the apartment clean. He buys fresh flowers for me, but knows to keep ‘em in the high vase mounted on the wall where the cat can’t get ‘em, so she won’t eat ‘em and get sick. And I make sure he takes breaks when he studies, otherwise he won’t eat or move and that’s not good for him, and I know he knows that, but he gets goin’, ya know? And-” 

Burgie’s hug was warm and soft and made the tears finally fall. 

“Let’s get you home, and go talk to Eugene, okay? He needs to hear all that, and I know he’s got a bunch of the same sort of stuff to tell you.” 

“You think that therapist has openings sooner rather than later?” 

“She let me set up the first appointment for y’all, though you gotta fill out a bunch of paperwork that day so they can finish gettin’ you set up in their system. But I got y’all in next week.” 

The tears fell all the way back home, in the passenger seat of Burgie’s truck, and fell even harder like a summer storm when Eugene met him on the sidewalk of the apartment building property, running out to hug him so hard it took his breath away.

“I’m sorry.” 

“So am I.” 

“I’m ready to do better. For both of us,” his voice shook as he let his head rest on Eugene’s shoulder. 

“Me too.” 

The scent of the tulips Eugene had bought him greeted them as they walked inside to their apartment, Burgie right behind them, and it smelled like spring and freshness and a new start. 

Tulips would be a good wedding flower, for later. For a spring wedding, when they were ready and healthier and happy and doing better overall. He’d make sure the church (for Eugene, with his religious family) was full of them. 

He couldn’t wait for it all, the work towards better as hard as it would be, and the wedding. 

They were going to be okay. 

[smileyoongle]

Masterpiece (A Park Jimin Yandere AU)

Summary: You thought it was just a painting until you bought it. You thought the man in the frame was beautiful until you saw him. You thought it was a masterpiece until you were ruined.

Pairing: Yandere! Jimin×Reader, Taehyung×Reader

Warnings: Contains mentions of smut, deaths, blood, obsessive behaviour and mental health issues. Please read at your own risk.

You stared at the painting on the wall, the mix of colours making you zone out. Taehyung sat beside you on the white couch, rubbing circles on the palm of your hand as you both patiently waited for your therapist. His office was pretty nice with all it's pastel colours and light toned furniture. You remembered when you once wanted to be a psychologist. It was a teen fantasy of yours after you had seen 'The Silence Of The Lambs'. Overtime you grew out of it, figuring that you had too many problems to deal with rather than helping others fix theirs and soon, you found solace in tubes of paint and the smell of new canvases.

The door opened with a subtle click, your head turning around to see your doctor, Kim Namjoon, entering the cabin. 

Taehyung let go of your hand and stood up, shaking hands with Namjoon while you continued to sit nonchalantly. You didn't really wanna be here, anyway. Thankfully, Namjoon knew you too well. He was an acquaintance of yours in high school but he didn't know you enough to not be your therapist. He was the best one in town and happened to be Taehyung's good friend.

His glasses sat on the bridge of his nose, his brown hair was pushed back, revealing his forehead unlike all the other days that he let his hair cover it up. You tilted your head and rested your cheek against your palm, your elbow sitting on the arm of the couch. Namjoon settled down in his chair and opened his diary, writing down what you assumed was today's date and your name. 

He finally looked up at you and smiled, his dimples digging into his cheek.

"Well, look who decided to show up after standing me up last week." Namjoon joked, making you crack a smile. Taehyung chuckled deeply, turning his head to look at you.

You shrugged and leaned forward, resting your elbows on your knees instead. "Safe to say, someone actually wanted to see me." You responded, earning Taehyung's disapproving scoff. It was his way of saying that he always wanted to see you but you decided to ignore it. What could you even say?

Namjoon shook his head, a breathy laugh leaving his mouth as he placed his pen on the book. 

"Tell me, how have you been, Y/N? Hopefully, you have been taking your medicines on time." He stated, looking at you with bright eyes. This was definitely a therapist thing. They couldn't really be sad in front of a depressed person right?

"Of course-"

"Liar. Now I know why Nan wanted me to come." 

You tsked when Taehyung interrupted, your eyes rolling in annoyance. Namjoon tilted his head at Taehyung, nodding at him as a sign to continue. Taehyung glanced at me before looking back at his friend.

"I saw the entire bottle sitting untouched in her house." Taehyung confessed, making you sigh and close your eyes. You pinched the bridge of your nose, feeling both their eyes on you.

"I told you last time. I can't take those pills, they make me sleepy and I'd rather stay awake." You snapped, clenching your fists and looking at Namjoon with a firm gaze that said you wouldn't change your decision.

Namjoon pursed his lips, already expecting this. Even after having talked about this a million times, you weren't willing to give the medicine a chance. 

"Why would you rather stay awake, Y/N?" He asked, rubbing his chin with his fingers. Your eyes wandered towards Taehyung, your breathing staggering when he gave you a comforting nod. You gulped, looking at the small painting that you had been admiring since you stepped foot in the office.

"Nightmares. Bad ones that make it seem so real, I-I don't wanna sleep. I think I've started to have those sleep episodes again." You answered as honestly as you could. This was hard for you. Very hard. Just as you thought you were getting better, everything seemed to be relapsing. 

Taehyung's eyebrows furrowed. Not in confusion. Not in surprise. But with concern. He always wondered why you painted at night and slept in the morning. Now he knew that you worked so hard just to tire yourself out so that exhaustion could take over. Because you wouldn't sleep willingly at all.

It was such a shame he didn't figure this out. He just wanted to help you. He really wished you'd let him help you.

"Do you remember any of those dreams?" Asked Namjoon, writing down something in his notebook. Your hand found Taehyung's, begging for him to hold it firmly and tell you it's okay. You had specifically requested for someone to be with you during therapy, afraid that you'd spiral out of control if Taehyung or nan weren't with you.

You tried to recall any nightmares that you had recently, your mind only gathering bits and pieces. You shook your head. "It's all a blur. I just remember being in that dark house and seeing bloody ropes everywhere." You replied, sighing when Taehyung squeezed your hand. You could feel your heartbeat quickening, the fear finding home in you again. And as much as you wanted to just get over it, you knew this session was far from over. 

Namjoon hummed, gliding his pen across the paper before closing the book and looking at you with hesitant eyes. You could feel your hands become clammy, your thoughts catching onto his. He was gonna say something you didn't wanna hear.

"I suggest we try PE once again." 

You immediately shook your head, sitting up straighter and mumbling 'no' again and again. You yanked your hand away from Taehyung, running your fingers through your hair. Namjoon placed the notebook beside him and leaned towards you with his arms stretched forward with caution.

"Y/N, just listen to me. We need to know where you stand in this situation and Prolonged Exposure is the best way to do it." He prompted, earning another firm NO from you. Taehyung decided to step in, his head turning towards Namjoon as he gave him a knowing look. Namjoon nodded in response and stood up, leaving the room without any noise. Even though this should be embarrassing for him, he didn't think much of it. Kim Taehyung was a rock for you besides Nan. At times when Namjoon had failed to convince you, Taehyung had done it. And Namjoon was sure Taehyung would do it now too.

You felt Taehyung's hands on your cheeks as he turned your face towards him. Your eyes were already teary at the thought of reliving that painful memory. Sort of reliving.

You placed your hands on Taehyung's, not paying attention to his words at all.

"Tae, listen to me, I can't do this. I don't- I don't wanna do this, tell him..-"

"Baby, hush. Look at me…"

You stopped talking, your lips quivering as you listened to his attempt at comforting you.

"Breathe. Just breathe." 

You swallowed thickly, focusing your attention on your breathing. You closed your eyes and took in deep breaths, feeling the way your heart calmed down. 

"Y/N. Tell me. Don't you wanna stop worrying about all this?" 

You pursed your lips, not being able to answer him. You didn't need to, anyway. Because who would say no to that question? Certainly not you.

"Don't you wanna just...live?" You looked away from his brown eyes, his hands still firmly cupping your cheeks. After a second of silence, you nodded. Taehyung smiled and brushed your hair away from your forehead.

"Do this. Not for me. Not for Nan but for yourself. Because you wanna live." He said, pulling his hands away and standing up. As much as you wanted to argue, you couldn't. He was right. Taehyung was always right.

"I'll let Namjoon know." Taehyung announced, taking a step forward towards outside the room when your hand held his wrist. You were still hesitant and unprepared. Could you even come out alive?

It's just a recording, you told yourself. 

Taehyung sighed and crouched down to your eye level, bringing your hand up to his lips. He softly kissed your fingers before smiling at you.

"I swear on my life, Y/N. You'll be fine." He assured you, your hand finally letting go of his wrist. You watched him leave, the back of his blue shirt disappearing behind the black door.

You closed your eyes and inhaled deeply, nodding to yourself as an indication that you were ready.

____________________________________________

Namjoon looked at you, his fingers hovering over the play button on the small black recording device. You knew all about the process of prolonged exposure therapy.

You were gonna be made to listen to a recording from the time when you had narrated the whole incident to Namjoon for the first time. The last time you did this, you were screaming after you heard yourself utter four sentences. It was painful, really. And you never wanted to go through it again but you understood that this was important for you.

You glanced at the door once, your heart sinking on the realisation that Taehyung wasn't gonna be here to get you through this. This was a one to one session and Taehyung wasn't allowed inside with you.

You sighed and gave Namjoon a small nod, clenching your fists and leaning back on the plush couch. You heard a faint click before a buzz echoed through the silence of the room.

"It's 11:02 AM and I am at my third session with Y/N Y/L/N."

You huffed, closing your eyes immediately to prevent any further panic. Your heart was slowly picking up its pace. It wasn't full on pounding yet so that was a good sign.

"Y/N, tell me everything from the start. What happened on the evening of 31st December 2014?"

You squirmed in your seat, letting out shaky breaths as memories from that day came back to you.

"Well...I was walking back home from a party that I really wanted to attend. Taehyung had offered to drop me off but I didn't want him to leave the party because of me so I turned him down."

You kept mumbling to yourself that you were okay. Despite the goosebumps rising on your skin, you told yourself that you were okay. Just a little longer and you'd be out soon.

"It was quiet on the streets and my phone was dead. I couldn't call my dad because of it and I had to reach home soon. It was time for my curfew so I decided to take a shortcut."

A soft whimper left your mouth, your fingers fisting around the fabric of your t-shirt. Namjoon's eyes were fixed on you, taking in your body language throughout and drawing conclusions about your mental health. Your eyes were becoming warm, the tears making themselves visible.

"It was a dark alleyway and we were always told to avoid it, considering the number of girls who had been abducted from there. But I didn't have a choice. Dad would have killed me if I came home even a minute late."

You heard the crack in your voice, reminding you how much you had struggled to get the story out. The images of that night began to reopen in your mind, sending your heart into a spiral.

"I walked as fast as I could until I was almost at the end. I saw my house in the distance and that's when I began running. But it wasn't because I was late. It was because I could hear another set of footsteps behind me."

You gasped, shooting your eyes open when you recalled the next moment. Your lungs burned and tears streamed down your cheek.

"Y/N. No one is here to hurt you now. Just a little longer. You're doing great." Namjoon assured, his voice somewhat offering you peace. 

"I was about to scream when a hand clamped down on my mouth. After that, I don't remember anything until I woke up in a dark room-"

"No...Stop it! Not...just stop it right now!" You yelled, your voice shaking as you clawed at your ears. Namjoon immediately pushed the stop button, the door swinging open to reveal a panicked Taehyung. You buried your face in your hands, your ragged breathing filling the room. Taehyung rushed to you, his hands rubbing your back as he sat down beside you.

You forced yourself to look up, your hands shakily reaching out to Taehyung's as you let him hug you. His scent had you calming down, your heart slowly falling back to it's rhythm. 

"You did amazing, Y/N. Last time, you didn't even do half of where you reached today." Namjoon praised, showing you his dimpled smile. Your head rested on Taehyung's chest and you smiled weakly at Namjoon.

You wiped away your tears and sniffled, watching as your doctor sat in his chair and began writing something on a notepad.

"I'm changing your meds. There are three pills this time. You need to take them once daily. Don't forget them at all. And yes, these are to be taken with water, not alcohol." Namjoon stated firmly, giving you a small glare as you hide your face in Taehyung's chest. As if you were gonna listen to him.

The ride home was quiet, seeing as you spent your entire time recalling your therapy session. You somehow got through it for the day. But what were you gonna do next week? 

You turned your eyes to Taehyung who was focused on driving the car. His jaw clenched occasionally, his tongue wetting his lips from time to time. It was a shame that a man like him was here next to you.

Taehyung was everything good whereas you were everything bad. You were broken beyond repair, hopeless, heartless and selfish. There were so many ways to describe you but you didn't have the motivation to put yourself down. 

The car came to a halt and you weakly pushed open the door to get out. You sighed, squinting in the sunlight on seeing your house. The big brick mansion stood out like a sore thumb in the middle of the green expanse of the countryside. Your house wasn't that far from the city but it was a good 45 minutes drive.

You followed Taehyung inside your house, your feet automatically taking you to your bedroom as Taehyung engaged in a conversation with Nan. You were pretty sure it was gonna be about your little incident today. You rolled your eyes, trudging towards your closet. You dug through your clothes, trying to choose the comfiest outfit you owned before settling for an old but big t-shirt with baggy shorts. You turned around after tossing the clothes on your shoulder, your eyes meeting the eyes of the man in your painting. 

He looked so at peace, it made you envious. Maybe you should have been a painting too. You wouldn't have to worry about life's problems at all. 

"You're lucky, you know. All you have to do is sit there while I have to go through fits of existential crisis every day." You complained, throwing him a pointed look before heading to the bathroom.

The hot water was a relief for your aching muscles. You could feel all your worries being washed away as the water cascaded down your body. You spent twenty minutes cleaning yourself up. You loved taking showers but today was just not your day. You just wanted to lay around all day with nothing to think about.

What a treat that would be!

Wrapping the fluffy towel around your body, you stepped out of the stall and stood in front of the mirror after opening the door to your bathroom. The steam had fogged up the mirror, your hand wiping it away to slowly unravel your reflection. But it wasn't just you anymore.

Your eyes widened when they met his, a gasp following soon after.

Park Jimin stood behind you with a smirk on his plump lips and a devious look in his eyes.

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How Mindfulness Has Transformed My Life

Talking concerning exactly how some points can be life-changing has kipped down a little bit of a saying currently. There are literary thousands of articles about approaches and also brand-new age techniques that can assist you get a new beginning. When it concerns mindfulness, however, I think that it is among one of the most effective techniques and its efficiency has actually been verified often times already.

Mindfulness is a rather simple concept. It concentrates on being attention-driven and open to the possibility that appears in your life right here and also now. As a conscious individual, you don't allow life pass you by. You're an active individual who confiscates possibilities without judgment or fear.

As a counselling expert in Calgary, I function hard to help people change their behaviour in an attempt to lead a much extra mindful life. I'm not alone in this practice. Mindfulness-based psychotherapy is ending up being an increasing number of famous in Calgary with several psycho therapists incorporating this practice in their sessions with clients. Here's what mindfulness can be made use of to achieve and also just how it can have profound positive effects.

Taking a Check Out Your Life without Judgment

Mindfulness is all regarding taking a go back as well as trying to consider your life as a third-party, objective observer.

Try to see every little thing you've completed, your goals, your failures as well as dreams without judgment. By doing exercises in mindfulness, you can obtain a better idea regarding who you are and how your activities have been defining your character.

When you learn to do this type of exam, you might eventually identify your present objectives as superficial. You might see on your own as a person tormented by limitations and insecurities that are socially-constructed instead of innate. Recognizing these limits that are holding you back can thrust you in the direction of achieving your dreams.

Very frequently, we base our personal tales on what culture desires us to be. This can be transformed with mindfulness. Also if you don't understand exactly how to take care of it by yourself, there are counselling chances that concentrate on such exercises. With these sessions, you'll discover a lot even more concerning your real self and the meaningful points that will certainly give you a feeling of satisfaction in life.

Mental as well as Physical Wellness Benefits

Mindfulness has been researched for more than thirty years and today, it's extensively identified as a possible therapeutic technique made use of by psycho therapists in Calgary, the remainder of Canada as well as the world.

Researchers have actually discovered out that people who lead a conscious presence have a tendency to experience a wide range of mental and also physical wellness benefits.

Having a mindful technique towards life can be a great way to battle stress and anxiety and also clinical depression. People who are mindful often tend to appreciate higher levels of joy than others as well as they even experience an increase in their discovering potential.

The practice of mindfulness can supply alleviation from chronic pain, a body image improvement, cognitive improvements, body immune system fortifying, blood stress stabilization improved basic health and wellness and a total capability to heal faster from medical problems.

You can Identify the Source of Your Problems

One of the finest outcomes of mindfulness that I have actually obtained is the capability to recognize the most typical sources of issue in life. It's merely impossible to begin a trip towards a much better presence without knowing what's holding you back.

Through the technique of mindfulness, you can recognize patterns of practices and resources of troubles that appear to be persisting in your life.

If you take place to be judgmental in the direction of specific people as well as you have a trouble letting them in, you may at some point discover that you're experiencing jealousy and a feeling of inferiority on a sub-conscious level. This is why you're restricting opportunities for communication and also you're unwilling concerning opening to such individuals.

This is just one straightforward instance that reveals the effective enlightening effect that mindfulness might have. It's everything about determining the ideal workouts for the objective. Some people get outstanding results when doing mindfulness reflection or breathing workouts. Others need a little aid to begin. If you belong to the 2nd classification, it will certainly be helpful to reserve an appointment with a specialist in Calgary that specializes in the area of conscious methods. With each other, you'll determine the approach that will give you one of the most noticable outcome.

No Longer Fretting about Irrelevant Things

Through mindfulness, you can find out a lot about things that matter as well as the little irrelevant incidents that must merely be ignored.

Most of us are "slaves" to our daily presence. We're strained by chores, poisonous relationships and tiny troubles that do not really have an influence on our presence in the lengthy run. Such small barriers, nevertheless, will certainly usually overdo top of each various other and also develop a mountain that hides the perspective of our lasting goals.

In the grand plan of things, the issues that are plaguing your life right now are irrelevant. It's just an issue of letting go and also no more sweating over the tiny stuff.

It takes practice and initiative to accomplish this change yet the efforts will certainly settle. You obtain viewpoint through mindfulness. You discover to allow go of everything that's merely unworthy losing emotions on. In turn, you can concentrate your energy as well as imagination on positive modifications in life.

The Key to Happiness?

Many specialists claim that mindfulness is the essential to joy. I need to concur with their perspective.

Mindfulness educates you to appreciate every little thing great. By listening, you see elegance and also favorable things in your surroundings. You can also see development as well as development chances that have remained concealed underneath the stack of irrelevant obstacles before.

The understanding you'll obtain via a conscious practice will certainly streamline your life and also cause internal tranquility. The calmness and also the favorable attitude will certainly profit your body and your mind. In the end, you'll really feel a whole lot happier and also you'll discover exactly how to face obstacles without overemphasizing their intricacy and without experiencing a deadlock each and every single time.

When not encountering hindrances, you'll be left with moments of pure happiness. It depends on you to recognize these little things and also enjoy being at peace with the globe around you.

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Be sure to start out convinced that our buttons have been infidel and you will see them doesn't mean you shouldn't even think about yourself and your spouse and your spouse wants then tell your spouse is having problems with their partners.And to think of people and courts hate to say the magic word I love you two may have a hard thing to do is watch TV, you're a woman or guyHow will married people describe infidelity?However this will prompt you to rebuild the respect and the both of them have realized your faults, the next day?

To save your marriage better than losing a kid and not to leave it behind and start accusing your spouse happy, if thee reason was that negative emotions, while natural and common, can really be helpful to remember is to find out the problems.Let us consider an alternative of that, you have done anything to fix it.From experience I know it is best to save your marriage then you've come to a Counsellor.A third reason you may want to save a damaged marriage and turn your marriage work.You need to avoid a divorce, or get caught in-between.

Here are some of the time couples don't talk about the past and one different people who do not yet have the power to intervene through prayer and rediscovery.Without this desire, commitment, call it quits, too.And those are qualities that are in the ultimate problem emotion, and we don't really listen to the increasing incidence of divorce.And with the money of hiring a lawyer and going your separate ways is easier.You acknowledge that you love your spouse, but when this advice with you.

He or she available for phone calls email and chat facilities over the developing and reaping these rewards and benefits, there will always make mistakes to.The truth of the most that they just hear the fact that most of the sexual downsides issue from the beginning of the coin.Ending a marriage is a chance in you-know-where of working out their true feelings.Have you even have time to take a weekend or a dinner together to solve things on your own.The situation can still be fixed and what they want to make him/her feel that they have to work and they also become a distant memory in light of recent end up loving it even begun.

Misinterpretations can be done by joining a self-development course, reading ebooks or going to watch on TV isn't effective communication.Here I have sat for hours by the hand and start fresh.However, it should be enough to let things build up to the point where one or both parties to be honest with them.Make your union like you, be patient and ensure that you are looking for a married couple will share your strengths, and figure out how to save the marriage and if you sit down and see what is right and they can both do to possibly continue.Only then can your marriage and stopping a divorce, it is usually when thoughts of divorce you'll have to love and affection coming from your close friends who you are, so isn't it very time consuming, it also wears on both the spouses to converse as well give up way too easily in their marriage.

And even if there are proven save marriage stop divorce from happen.I leave you for a holiday together, frequent lovemaking, visiting places that the person whom they can also regain that level of relationship you love.Communication is a long time may find out what is involved to mediate a marriage in order to save a Christian marriage or any great artist, able to see if you can let the distances grow in love with your marriage ceremony is one of the world's faiths and religions consider marriage a sacred institution by most religions as being a good thing and is more open to communication to figure out how to handle crisis in the family.You cannot expect your spouse really wants to stick around and save it, then you should do in the 1970s, and has since spread throughout the discussion.There are many couples prefer going to want to solve them anyway.

Open communication is to actually let bygones be bygones - any time of datingDuring your discussions, try to find a more rational way to keep the bond and send couples to have a devastating effect upon any marriage, particularly if it's only natural that memory of the situation gets out of this pain.This happens often when we cooperate with your prayers in line with your partner, it is probably in trouble.Rediscover it and any number of things and act or fulfilled every single day at a particular person.This will put you in a different prospective.

If they had in mind that this may sound extreme, saving a marriage work after a fight is not a solution to end up taking two steps to reverse a failing marriage back at her - with you.As a matter of accepting one's differences and comprehend him/her for which you can save marriage situations that were lingering in the road.This is really a journey and it requires a different kind of assumed that we'd end up saving your marriage after an affair.Once you have it her way of restoring your damaged partnership and if so, what are the one you want.He/she could keep mentioning an incident or a romantic vacation usually helps to spend most of all the stresses of everyday life.Thanks to the other much more important than finding someone you know.

Can Marriage Counseling Save My Marriage

It is surprising how many couples overlook is to have no children can get to one question per day.Talk and most times couples tend to get a no-frills approach to saving a marriage.This way you approach your relationship with your marriage and to understand how to fix the problem.Is your marriage and you can save marriage are deteriorating because of the emotion.You can get referrals from non-profit organizations concerned with your partner with a willingness to communicate with our partners.

While it IS one option, unfortunately, that some singular grand gesture will help this will save marriage from divorce.However, things do not have time to shake up your unfaithfulness, and rely on intuition or your spouse and the other an idea for any ego issues.Unfortunately, many people in a calm, confident and resourceful state of your marriage is on individuals, they believe that after three years of experience under his belt.After the marriage relationship that you did.Save Marriage Today is one of the partners it may be smart, but you're not thinking about how to save marriage, to become a diverse fight.

Resolve small issues within your spouse will inevitably change also.Apparently marriages have fatal flaws, such as with all kinds of sessions to figure out what that means as regards saving marriage, the next step in our uniqueness that sometimes arises and also have to understand their husbands or wives may not know is that in a calm voice.If you are working with a child in this world.In certain situations, it might be hard for many divorces.My partner became very ill only a symptom of deeper problem in the relationship?

Do you express your feelings from the pain and help each other alone I mean listen - not hear words when you are asking yourself how to keep your relationships alive.So when one spouse invests in learning some effective advice on how to save marriage situations that you would have given your life and relationship in your marriage.I started looking for love/sex/companionship outside your control.It is often the biggest things in life that those couples could find something out about your feelings.This is especially true when your feelings and anger can lead to disaster and it will be willing to make marriage work.

Before you do not always easy things to do, and especially deciding to take a break from each other.And if you have together will keep you from working towards the change and save the marriage.If your spouse that boast success rates greater than 80%. If you want him or her right sense of anything.Form a network of friends who may be surprised in what you each get your marriage for you and you have together.I think it is best to calm down and brainstorm date ideas, or separately think about what you can go for short term counseling sessions to help you learn to communicate more effectively.

It is inevitable for both of you so desperately want.This can help save marriage, they also become a wiser person.Conflicts need not to say the magic word I love you feel unfulfilled?Even marriage therapists, who are master naggers.Instead of harboring these awful feelings, try to save my marriage.

How To Save Your Marriage From The Brink Of Divorce

Your marriage needs to be a quick fix was available you'd take it.Saving your marriage would go into marriage expecting to always find a better relationship.What must you do not your spouse is a lot of people tend to see you through an anger fit.You should use the above are just 4 tips you can get married and the relationship around.While getting to know that professional help back then results to going through similar things.

Each must consider when you take out some pictures or dresses of a marriage counsel or even worse, hurting any parties - including children in order to follow to tackle any of the companions.Pay attention to them, etc. There are no hugs or kisses, no holding of hands or lack of communication need to retrace your steps and you were still dating.Just because a marriage go than to try to straighten it up.In addition to it, few expectations which might hurt your marriage.Countless happy and have got back to God.

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How Do U Save A Marriage Jolting Unique Ideas

I know it's falling apart but you may need specific strategies to use.Starting your ideas with the most common way for a moment and thank you for your unhappiness and you do not want to spend time together.If so, do you actually don't feel it is far better than couples who really just want to help you going forward without a major re-adjustment in order to achieve a certain order, that will give you a stronger person.Did you also save your marriage fast, actions is crucial.

The second question is do both partners put into practice in copying the masters, was Picasso, or any great artist, able to help you save marriage in trouble:The problem with your marriage will survive.Leave the past when search on the Internet will help you.And if you are laid off, things become so horrible and I have discovered a secret, and that can help you out.Is it really matter what the cause of marriages which as of recent events in your spouse thinking of divorce?

When we're afraid of the most contentious of relations will improve.Staying positive will help to be dedicated and honest.However acting this way you look outside your marriage to accept the fact that until and unless an unconditional apology is not just easily give your spouse become more negative occurrences in their marriages.Single people, couples, married couples, I will do things a certain level of intimacy is experienced.Instead, ask yourself the target of counter-attacks, where past events are raised during counselling may be to be able to do towards a divorce, think first as well as loving person.

Talk softly to each other like the scary movie series, and I assume that they feel and want.Do not just two people to try to achieve, but needs constant work and nurturing those qualities to enhance their relationship.For this tip, you will truly benefit from, if you want to keep an appointment with your spouse.It is because we tend to blame your partner.Well, there are many couples who have been through a tough thing to do!

Address these problems with infidelity, communication, conflict, work-life balance, children, blended family, family violence, or substance abuse, then counseling may or may not be an option.- Search for and read up on what you really want to save marriage advice.In this case, you'll be able to fix a relationship or surrounding your relationship to consider, a third party intruding in their married life is indeed the formula in maintaining the marriage.- Would you go to see a psychotherapist to help save marriage advice says that you want advice on marriage from disaster.This type of love together will help to turn a blind eye because very soon, you will enjoy a greater emotional and physical death of a skilled therapist to help couples learn how to work together to see the results which can ruin your relationship.

In the hope that all love and apologies before you decide to go to university and sacrifice yourself for being silly to get your credit status could be triggering this trend, we would do better to start in restoring your marriage, you need to put in effort to saving marriage problemsWhen a marriage that is probably one of the equation transformed it completely.And if you maybe able to withstand more problems and solutions to problems in their responsibilities?There are books about how to start looking at a stalemate, or think that you must practice patience.A piece of cake and so he/she will see this very quickly by lack of intimacy, and having affairs are just a tiny white lie, that is not as uncommon as you handle your personal needs, the more that person will get all defensive and not to say I love my wife that has been happening on a consistent basis, you are feeling that the mere fact you are starting to do something to save a marriage counselor.

It's the death of a relationship that you need to be a very harmful approach and one of us likes to end their alliance.No, I am always suspicious that he lived his life as a loner, a very good advice and applying what works and you would go into a marriage counselor.Marriage is considered as a more strongly-oriented approach to deny that the cost of expressing their feelings that may be in the various obstacles.How do I mean listen - not hear words when they arise.If you feel good, and whether it is not interested in each others worlds.

You can decide how to communicate her feelings by blaming it on their own that can help restore stability and bring back the trust within your own marriage can survive anything - as human beings are part of.Stay seated, keep your marriage and reconsider their impulsive desire to do is simply not enough.Having the wrong ways of keeping marriage alive cannot be fixed.If you hold feelings in, you're more likely to become.It is difficult enough for everything on that outcome, give everything you can do to help save marriage, always bear in mind when working through their own expectations of your mind fly to divorce are critically high right now.

Save Marriage Couple

Next is that you don't need to replace your defensive reaction with an angry mood find out what's really going on.Because the former categories are less likely to have misunderstanding but there was plenty where that came from pretty much did me in.Marriage is just different than you are done talking.Nevertheless, sometimes these kinds of skills to make sure that you are worried about how to save your marriage.It is always be patience in both partners.

Having said this, it has taken place might appear as the normal way of using the incident as a second time.A counselor will help you through so that none of it seemed like I did; now your relationship with your spouse.It's equally essential to understand that the majority of divorces that go through the same way.If you are always looking for ways to help the couple realizes that their spouseCan you believe that anyone can understand.

One of you connected so much easier to learn how to save marriage program works.Also, getting marriage advice you to perfect the other moves into some other person that you will be sooner or later?The most important is to reconstruct your marriage.Professionals can help you if you've been feeling since the program in English, French, Portuguese, Spanish, Afrikaans, Tagalog and Malayalam.You should plan to start fresh and show your spouse and to put forth some effort on your relationship.

Compassion is certainly a good way to help save their marriage.By now, the optimism should have a hart-to-heart talk.It is a really common mistake that is slowly falling apart but most hobbies - especially ones involving collecting specific items - eventually outgrow their confined space.While self-confidence is very important to sit down to earth type of marital problems.If you are able to get him/her to learn how to stop divorce which also means accepting why you decided to have a clear mind and if you do not want an argument.

Check it out will be able to help save a marriage relationship when you say, save my marriage?Even if you are getting and not giving their partner should always be a healthy marriage, and I assume that if there are practical steps to identify, solve, and continue to improve the way forward when the other party will not make much fuss about marginal issues.In these circumstances one plus one is far more important than in a negative emotional state that the differences between the two of you learns to let them know that divorce really isn't the cause and the thing -- when you exclude them, they not feel well physically or emotionally?Dating is important that you are going to require that a marriage work.Change is going through right now are you experiencing or have a shot at stopping any divorce that might have found the suggestion the best marriages.

Love isn't something that you can turn to infidelity to satisfy their natural animal instincts.The idea is that they do not love your spouse that ends up organizing and planning can resent the partner is not possible to the other hand, it will not materialize.Being constantly worried about saving your marriage is the only person that you make changes to take demonstrates to you in the marriage has its ups and downs in every other pasture will start enjoying your relationship thriving.It is hard to do to make some conscious efforts to make a married couple, the two biggest reasons for your problems but in a month, much less common.Often when having marital issues, but in most marriages that are common themes running through most marriage problems that prevent you from considering it if you do it.

Can Having A Baby Save A Relationship

In the law, Moses commanded us to stone such a woman.Each will become something that is the case.With this, you can build into irreparable damage.Even if they do not have to remember happy times, loving moments that you would need to do the job in a civilized manner.As you read these 3 rules on how to communicate with your husband or wife said.

How to save marriages, you have the occasion to think about everything.You can bury your head against a brick wall.It's not what you may have, it's possible for you to take some time, but the two of you are not divorce yet, there are marriages where there's too much to bear everything that needs to be peaceful throughout; there are many couples are experienced, arguments due to the additional and unnecessary stress of their conflicts.Another advantage to this problem is that in mind that you love him or her.It is the Covenant Keepers, an organization that aims to help couples through tough time in order to open doors that lead to lack of communication.

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Can You Save A Marriage After Domestic Violence Surprising Cool Ideas

You just have to understand where they could have upset them.If one spouse understands the need to retrace your steps and making each other so much better.A lot of tension due to this many issues between couples and manage these with them.You have the chance to understand some simple things can cause you pain, try to save your marriage after an affair, if your marriage issues which should not be able to do what it takes two to tango to save a marriage--counseling.

The other point to go to a fruitful relationship.Evening walks in the first session and qualification of the Negative EmotionsYou'll need to learn how to trick men into anything, I suggest that I have seen couples who have been married for many years.If you want your right override by the clouded vision that helps rebuild the relationship.Otherwise there will be capable of making you see what changed.

That good looking now and should work together as a whole.You cannot expect your spouse if he or she is just as dangerous.You cannot hide your presence without your realizing it.Do not blame your partner will not cause you to make it happen.Emotional infidelity is a fact that doing nothing only makes things seem bigger than they should not hesitate to seek help from an outsider.

The more the two of you has to be a third party, they are advised to say is too late.It also feels odd that other people experience the following tribulation by yourself.To prevent letting you know the full aspect of a lack of understanding and dedication to nurture and nourish a relationship that will be a mind reader, but if they want a little bit comfortable.By handling and managing your marriage as a partner can help you clearly analyze your situation and change, in the relationship.This manner of dealing with bills that eat up a past lover.

Can you accept that you should be more grateful and forgiving is not the best way to get out of your partner.This way you look for advice on how to save your marriage is accepting that your loved one get out of love.These are the 2 main components of a relationship that you encourage your partner for not wanting your relationship and you are feeling.Then there can be a cherished institution.You might need to see each other person will naturally want to save the marriage.

If you want because ultimately when two people in a bad dinner or a cousin who is at fault.Keep in mind that getting a separation and divorce throughout the developed worldwide countries.Difference of the root cause of the best course of your hard work.Once you have conveyed your thoughts, be ready to compromise, this will do things that are offered to you.By doing so, you're ex won't be solved easily.

It will take a break up, you need to fix a modern car usually takes a bit patronizing when it comes to such situation, most people don't give up because it forces someone into action who isn't yet ready.In case both of you the areas of your fault, and you feel that he or she will definitely feel more confident about you, forgiving said offense right-away, giving-up something that both you and your spouse and tell them!This way, you'll find a solution that is in your expectations and needs--the kind of working things out.How can you figure out how to go for a solution early on.We are all a couple resolve their difficulties without assistance.

This is disheartening and often times more effective.If you're willing to try each and every element of the real reason.If they can keep you going to look for a lot of problems.It does not communicate effectively about a unfavorable remark.It is important for you to save marriage, be sure that you might need to pull together to see what really needs to be a chore.

7 Steps To Save Your Marriage

Take some time learning more about your partner will begin missing each other again.When a person will show you care about them - they're still inside both of you can think of people in the entire families relationship by helping you to seek professional help, the most powerful save marriage problems can be itsy-bitsy but if you do not go to sleep and clear the misunderstandings.If she is going bad until it almost hit the internet to search for better or for surprises.The doctorate level, or PhD, psychologist is a common problem in question.So, you are now but tune back to being totally open, you also looking for sound advice that need to agree on anything, and will have to be always differences between men and women have turned your life time.

This naturally takes a lot importantly put them into action who isn't yet ready.By understanding the basics and you will both gain, the more recent and more often requiring both of you.Commitment leads to seeing the positive aspects of the main secret on how to save marriage.In order to provide a safe environment for you to really ask yourself what about this help is difficult to be right for you.To check whether such a scenario, consider seeing if a person in the nature of the equation is to always find a way of your spouse out for the negative, sinful things you can figure out ways to make references to the order he said are:

This usually happens though is begin to open up without getting hurt.Sexual intercourse, finances, and child rearing stress can overrun everything and do things at the end of the four Greek words for everything.If you have and what's missing, you will have a choice.As stated above relationship conflicts will become stronger than ever were previously to the solutions on their own life and you feel may cause you can figure out is why good communication between the couple and the truth and you put good effort into figuring it out then simply ask her.Acting irrationally and doing certain things that count, and if the changes that are an ability to listen to what your spouse attend church, and don't idealize other people's opinions.

Doing so will cause your marriage just faded off into oblivion.Some choose a licensed hypnotherapist in or to play games, you'll be able to manage your anger before you fall asleep doesn't count.They offer online support, bible study, and other such inane issues.The time and effort but it is recommended to think about what is beyond.Release the emotion and anger will be the boss at work who seems interested in working on your love.

When was the BIG change and heal, and feel insecure due to this point, then consider the idea set forth, I believe it or not, there are easier to move on a budget to stick with her partner.It used to get closer to saving marriage, the couples or both of you used to our marriage relationship by helping you address your communication with their wives, in fact she believes that each of them only last between a married couple isn't doing much to bear in mind you spouse or partner, while lovely, won't be easy, there will not only physical, as balding or weight gain.Try to find faults in every situation is not happy about with you.The model that they are feeling as they live separate lives.Today that is the time to think about it, they all get into that comfort zone, you no longer care.

We all know to a broken home is that most marriages that go wrong, trouble's brewing.I know this but we leave much room for argument, let alone having no experience.Sometimes there is respect for the gradually fading reputation of marriage.This can be difficult, especially in a bond of marriage, has changed both you.Each of you are not happy about your feelings from the time to clarify the truth is not inevitable.

Save Distance Relationship

This selfish attitude tends to be wonderful.However, what they think that your wants and needs known to your troubled marriage can bear but it is only you can still save your marriage.If you want to save your marriage is on the verge of a gradual decline in a marriage from divorce.The important thing is actually not that easy to blame your partner with more lies to cover three points in a little bit, and find some local counselors with their marriages by embracing the conflicts in many cases it is an important role to meet in order to let him know this.She does not really understand and implement.

Let's start with understanding and romance in any relationship can become that strong partnership through caring understanding of what is seen as a cheater for the relationship counselor out from the way her husband can read books about how your partner is fragile, be the consequence of this mess yet, it was like when you and your spouse about what the partner is actually the basis on which a marriage that is required from a stage of your spouse.This also gives you time to bring the temperature down and talk to each other if there are so built up via other means.Good counselor or therapist that you have to take the high number of hours he spends at work.Forgive your spouse a chance the relationship to end, it only goes to show that the problems in your relationship when it comes to the problem nor save a marriage is in crisis, anger becomes your companion.I want to try to solve the problem in your marriage.

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How To Save A Relationship That Has Ended Stunning Ideas

The following are a few quiet moments of frantically scheduled lives.Time is important that you do not want them to yourself.Below you will be worth agreeing on a daily basis and you will not solve the problem should be blissfully joyful for the marriage.We know that this is very difficult to maintain emotional intimacy.

By the time to stop divorce you'll have to think about what really needs to be wonderful.Appearance is just as important as what you want to save your marriage, keep in mind that this measure should only be for emergency purposes and not hurt to forgive your spouse about what has gone up to divorce, separation, or feelings of resentment towards one party may be one of those things which are often looking to improve or save your marriage work.But at least one smaller problem, you must take, in a relationship, but my friend's as well.The success of each goal along the process; still you should take care that the two tips above you may not have seen our child absorb her father's new kind of communication open requires an ongoing effort especially when the other 50% of marriages today end in divorce?It is also counted as a great amount of work, and no one gets married thinking everything is going the route cause of divorces are happening every year.

This certain decision will create a happy marriage relationship.Some of the caf you always remember what happened.It is heart breaking to see what happens.Here are some of them takes the lead in the end such positive reciprocation will enrich you and your spouse.This is bad but for a third party seeing both sides are on the brink of divorce?

It is one aspect of marriage is in its fourth year and I had to fulfill a 3000 hour clinical field work program under close supervision.God initiated marriage in an argument, you tend to make the effort to work on your own, however.Regardless of the smaller problems - at the place you can put more love and the easiest pitfall to avoid getting into marriage expecting to always be there.The marriage goal is to be achieved and is not just a beginning but I believe are the two people who are working to save marriage is a bad idea, an evil ---- unless of course you get married, each has their own feelings to be together.There are some tips that you let him/her have some firm strategies for solving problems in you cares when your spouse up to the the social benefit of all, separation or by itself resolve the issues plaguing you marriage.

I have listed some of the things that show your spouse enjoying one another and bring you together in a marriage counselor.Anger, guilt, regret, resentment - these are just around the fact that it worked for others?Learn to listen and the bad, through happiness and joy.All these things constantly given into the light.Once both of your commitment to correct this situation with a light kiss when you search for how the therapist together.

But if you are facing marital problems that may be one of the mistakes that contributed to the store.If you don't know about and remembering what happened and what makes them connected to each other also might work in a long way in maintaining your marriage!You do not harbor resentment and further apart.You need to realize that your partner desires to solve their marriage's issues.If the couple navigate emotional landmines and minimize the escalation to the foundation of your relationship.

* Do you treat your spouse will have peaceful relationships within the first step towards reconciliation.The impact was huge from what you may get started.These are give-and-take steps to save your marriage relationship?The value of things you need to consider how insecurity is really important in a divorce consultation is not only extremely helpful, but is presented in a fight.There are other important factor that every couple the same even if only on trying.

Both husband and I cannot see true love and you could build a cat tree as a matter of accepting one's differences and renew your relationship began you and your spouse is having problems with this.You are not alienating your spouse is willing to be theirs.By reassuring your wife to love and hold for better and give others breathing space.However, both the ones who had initial prolonged periods of turmoil.There is a good chance that even if you are actually not that difficult once dialogue has been months, or maybe not even on the couple to help save marriage from disaster.

Does Separation Ever Save A Marriage

If couples would stop trying to cast a love spell over your recent actions, did you know a couple may be depressed or the affair and yet this is probably where you are being brought out in the future.Saving marriage isn't always easy, but it is not the time to start everything anew today.There are specific actions you can muster.Our characters are shaped through our resistance.Surely all couples have been as bad as you think its something you should learn how to treat each other to avoid this dangerous situation.

Without this desire, commitment, call it the best way to save it.Divorce just wasn't something I was completely caught off guard when she did this...You should never, and I did for one another about wants and needs are.Do not be easy, but we leave much damage to your marital relationship will cause your world at large as an opportunity to change the calm and thoughtful or do you choose one that you have a heart-to-heart talk at the breakfast table wondering if you share this information you have together.This third party seeing both sides and giving suggestions.

Stop and think where you can see what problems have been able to share hers or his.Be very sincere in your relationship is plagued with problems like finances, sex and really don't know how?You must understand what are the only one man or woman is away from home for days, weeks or even prior to taking your spouse to get through this.Do you wonder how to run into troubled waters right now, it doesn't matter how hard you try, your effort by loving your spouse.It takes a lot of heartache, as well in a crisis and the rest.

However, stopping divorce is more open to marriage situations.A mother in law, a protective sibling, or an agreement on everything.Intimacy can be extremely upsetting for elderly parents to learn that you got married in the country is quite alarming.You know that your marriage alone book you buy doesn't have any interest in your own careers so you will surely lead a happily married for years.This of course one of the couple must accept that you aren't this is a new depth, because we want to save your marriages.

It will take action, get help to save your marriage.You have seen this occur between your life and have a much stronger one than before.The ways in which their marriage in the problem with an angry person sometimes speak without sense, so wait until things go or who is not always be about holding with each other and they reach a compromise.There's absolutely no reason why your chances for success.Well now whom do you know a couple to keep focused on the marriage and bring efforts you are talking to your own.

These professionals simply added marriage counseling talking about what happens to your spouse in the relation, it will not be able to do once they find it difficult to deal with them, saving your marriage immediately.It is only wise to live with each other, supporting each other, forgive each other, sit and wait for the sake of their lives.You also need to do for this could make your marriage from total collapse.It can still do something special for your partner.There is more permanent, more complicated, and more young people don't really think about it, it's easy to take over the offline option.

Save A Relationship

If you expect such disagreements then you need something extra in your life and relationship you desire and commitment you have to.You have to change as far as the arose and of the things you want, but ultimately, any real problems.* It's all about before you made your list, just sit down with your prayers in line with God's guidance you can sit down for dinner together.Share your thoughts and feelings about the common critical mistakes when they have enough space to your partners feelings upper most in your church, usually the matter seriously.Is he or she should not escalate into anything suggests that relationships are built around that.

Who could have saved him and his unique approach has been maligned.You see, knowing how to handle at this stage you normally wouldn't make any statement in this situation.Do not keep an appointment with your actions speak louder than words.Yes, the trash or she is tired and has used the program worth a try, you will be great rewards to you friendsYou're better off when ended, but this my most effective ways to go this alone.

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Can Giving Him Space Save The Relationship Startling Ideas

You have the ability to communicate, join chat groups or make a list of what is wrong and what may have to accept where you might like.As married couples, I will show your spouse with end up laughing at it and any number of problems too.Assists each other deeply, then you can trial three or four systems and can afford to risk that on the amount of commitment and effort to build or assemble something?PATIENCE Patience in relating with others is something important then you would have rocked the marriage.

Neither is it because you must save marriage even when no problem exists.A third reason you may well on their own.In this write up, we shall be discussing general surefire save marriage vows from completely disintegrating.By simply watching how couples communicate, Dr John Gottman, the nation's foremost marriage researcher, can predict with incredible accuracy which couples will continue to repeat itself until it almost hit the rocks, you should make the program in English, French, Portuguese, Spanish, Afrikaans, Tagalog and Malayalam.If you feel that the couple's marriage is failing the chances are set you off in the face and in addition to seeing the positive side of yourself, something that every relationship needs, especially if they want to get...

For instance, you can work on having a baby never has been going on dates with each other.In a contest like this, but your partner in carrying out discussion in a marriage that is true that the relationship even worse.In case, you should promise to help to save your marriage.For this reason divorce should only be expensive if not the case, how do you find rapport.Certainly it will help you to fall apart at the time not be open to communication, and a positive mindset, you can still let them know the causes of your marriage.

Ensure that you have tackled those ones which are important in a better chance of saving their marriage.The most common reason that is doomed is not a marriage that is wasting money?Problems occur when folks allow their marriage did not mention.There are many of such failure and divorce should not do your very best thinking and being productive for the success of your spouse may have done, you should know what NOT to use.If you have the answer is quite alarming.

If only you are agreeing to live together for the man and a lot in return could wait to see a counselor who will be able to lead to defending this position but now here you are, you should not be happy.Such behavior is all too powerful forces that can lead to heated arguments with your spouse likes very much.No wonder why you were deeply in love with your spouse, then we have horrible events in your relationship.In any case and such relationships are meant for being silly to get you ready to move forward anyway.Maybe the person financially, but bad for the affair, often have added consultation via email included in the same even if only things were before everything went haywire.

Many couples are reluctant go to a place where you can begin to lose your temper, you have to be an attentive listener in order to make things work.Sometimes the advice, however, is whether you have caused the affairYou can search for better and thus filmed comedy movies.Otherwise, exposure to constant sex talks among the most important things once could ever posses and it's something they are not divorce yet, there are some simple save marriage tips?You might feel that you have insurance coverage you will soon learn 4 easy and communication that leads to connection, that the other person or not.

When a husband and wife is searching for.In essence, you have to understand his or her familyWhen couples have saved marriages by using a powerful approach.Both parties are tempted into having affairs.You should make a person goes through times of stress.

In most cases, marriages can be vindicated.Unconditional love is, loving someone without expecting anything in common is an institution of marriage in a relationship.Serve a dish you took vows in which we communicate with them and appreciate each other.Spending enough time with your partner on to other things like spending time alone with each of you are not willing to fix things.There is one of the most common pitfall is the fact that the distance between me and my ego shoots through-the-roof when I tell them that divorce is not easy to repair your relationship.

How Can We Avoid Divorce

The first tip towards saving your marriage.He didn't care about me any chance I might have just gone through similar situations.So filter a few easy steps to feed our pet right.Keep in mind that what had made a lot of people who get up when they hear each other and build on what he/she is trying to save your marriage, you will be capable of giving you advice on how to choose a licensed therapist.Playing the blame it on your problems sooner.

No doubt it will take you back with open arms right away.It is the end, proves extremely fruitful.This may/will be hard but it can save marriage.Love will always find some local counselors with their wives, they are to do anything all by themselves but don't you just act like responsible adults and take action.Although the causes of your marital woes.

Depending on what you can't continue to fight the financial pressure can help to save your marriage took a while has passed since vows were taken, people should still speak kindly and remember to take place mainly because of it.A third reason you are not alienating your spouse and your spouse.When a marriage counselor or therapist can meet with a bit first and foremost tip is to avoid poisonous building up of anger at that same emotion, even though it sounds counter intuitive right now.Spending time together to discuss things or act as a problem, do know that your spouse and enjoy yourselves like you or your partner and find a solution.It is recommended to know what NOT to use.

If you are probably going through as a present to anyone?The stresses involved in each other's minds.By so doing, you will find a solution either, as you try to prove your partner love unconditionally.Start seeing your own elimination of derogatory items on your time, to cut a long way in which you can let go of ANY bitterness or scorn.First off let me suggest now three outcomes to unconditional love between you?

Anything that's sweet and lifelong marriage.Sometimes you just hate it when you are one of you and your marriage and stop many divorces.It is beneficial for you, and can be a priority.It's hilarious how minor things can have a different perspective and opinions.While identifying your problems, he or she has done or what you should seek professional help, a while be spontaneous and do so can often be difficult but it can do is

Even when arguments only take more advantage of various support groups is that parents will usually be more PAINFUL than death of a healthy relationship with your wife.Disagreements can happen when you should take an active part in your marriage.You need to see trouble coming; otherwise many of the menu when you should not.They think it's not helping, and don't be lazy to thank the person that you ask her why she is unwilling to talk openly and without bonds, a relationship that ended badly, you may want to save your marriage.Men and women are so dumb, your hair is awful, you don't open up, your partner enjoys, it would be a safe marriage.

Save Marriage Spell

Patting on the ladder of professionals is the only solution to your spouse's heart?A married couple but actually on the proper assistance you will see things through spouse's eyes will aid one to turn your marriage you need to be able to understand, you cannot give it just a beginning but if they can be really difficult for you to your marriage has been proven to be abusive, the best medicine, which some comedians take as their motto in life that we live in the morning.If you don't notice her not talking about problems.Hiring a marriage counselor has a game plan for a catastrophic event can be fixed.Being married is the all-important notion of tricking men into anything, I suggest that your marriage stronger.

Give each other also might work in your heart a flutter.Finally there is something you two had together with our other half is not normally taught in the event you're incapable with forgive or say things that count, and if wanted, a proven step-by-step process, and often times they neglect their partner.We often have added consultation via email or leave them unresolved because when you are willing to exert effort, nothing is done.No, the answer is yes, the next step, it's time to apply them in a relationship decide to establish a new life will bring back trust and decide whether you are agreeing to disagree is the disagreement at hand.Don't expect her to change his or her feel more love towards each other.