#beomkai hard thoughts

[sputnikbeomie]

— Without Me You're Defeated

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An enemies to lovers vampire beomkai au

Summary:

Two years after a war between all vampires had nearly wiped all supernatural species out, everyone had called truce. Or so they thought. Fast foward eight years, and Beomgyu is the adoptive brother of Choi Yeonjun, after having been taken into the Jeonju clan by his parents. The vampires in the past eight years had been trained ruthlessy to the bone, made to be an ultimate killer.

And Choi Beomgyu? He was rank number one of the Jeonju clan.   Yet he had made one promise to himself: get revenge for his parents. And the person that was linked to? Kai of the Huening clan, also number one in his rank.   Yet when the two of them keep getting sent on missions to bring back each others head, not everything goes as planned.   A lot of secrets and truths are uncovered along the way, some that Beomgyu would rather not know. But what happens when Kai isn't everything he ever seemed to be? Beomgyu's world turns upside down, and feels like he's betraying everyone and everything he has ever known, all for a vampire he had sworn to kill and hates with every fibre of his being - At least he thought he did.

Series

Part 1 of The ning ning and teddy bear zone

Tags:

✿ rated E

✿ beomkai fic

✿ vampire! au - enemies to lovers

✿ 27.5k words

✿ 1/1 chapters

Ao3 - Without me you're defeated

- bonnie 🦇

[goldennika]

Initial Thoughts on TOMORROW X TOGETHER's The Name Chapter: Freefall

Ok so i just listened to TNC: Freefall in full and damn, okay. Really solid album, sonically. And i say sonically bc i haven't read up on the lyrics just yet (i don't think the eng trans are out yet ☹️)

Am loving how they're showcasing more of their vocals (txt lower register enthusiasts, we are being fed at last 😭) and the whole band/session feels of the music really emphasizes that.

can we take a minute to talk about beomkai's vocals?? bc i really think this might be their era 🥹 and seeing as all of the boys have at least 2 credits to their name in this album, it really feels like this is their sound, and their personal music preferences came through too

i'm on the fence about DILT's inclusion in the album though. we all know it was not a planned track at all but it was a really good opportunity for them to collaborate and have a fun summer track out before headlining lolla 2023.

that said, it just doesn't seem to fit in (at least sonically) in this album. i don't know if moving it higher up in the tracklist would have been better since i haven't read the lyrics yet but sonically, it might have worked more since the more powerful/complex sounding tracks are in the first half, imo

but overall, this album is full of surprises, and very good ones at that!! I'm sure i'll love it even more when i listen to it again but yeah, from the first listen alone, i would recommend this album!!!

Track first impressions under the cut! very raw reactions ahead haha

Track 1: Growing Pain

oh damn gritty TXT ???

LOWER REGISTER LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOO

legitimately gave me goosebumps

EXCUSE ME THE OOH's IN THE CHORUS???? DELICIOUS

H U E N I N G K A I

that's it. that's the thought.

the guitar is so good ugh

ROCK BAND TXT LET'S GOOOOOOO

this will absolutely kill when performed live 😵‍💫

Track 2: Chasing That Feeling

HERE FOR THE SYNTHS(??)

giving TCHFTG and Blinding Lights by The Weeknd (i love The Weeknd btw)

Yeonjun's voice is so soothing??????

wait is the nod to the TCHFTG instrumentals intentional??????

maybe this is just me but their choreo (based on the MV) looks like it goes so hard but this song feels relatively chill/easy listening (esp compared to their last few title tracks bc sugar rush ride was a doozy to take in) so it seems a bit... off? idk idk

looking forward to a stage/practice vid to come out to appreciate their performance more!

Track 3: Back for More (TXT Ver)

already reacted to this before and ugh so good

HUENINGKAI POPPED OFF IN HIS VERSE UGH

Yeonjun's is also so good

love their adlibs so much 🥹

super interesting to place this track right after Chasing That Feeling 🤔

dance break instrumental and adlibs have my whole heart actually

like i can see them dancing in my head even if i'm just listening

Track 4: Dreamer

oh shit i love the bass already??????

FIRST LINE IN AND I'M IN LOVE ALREADY???

kinda scared to check the lyrics ngl

oh this song is delicious

i can already see all the tiktok edits happening (not necessarily a bad thing for them imo)

ooh shit "let me break it down for you" jdfh;kdjsfb;nsfkja

I LVOE THIS TRACK?????????

WAIT IS TAHT ALL SOOBIN IN THE CHORUS??????????

or is taehyun there too?

the "let me break it down for you" is going to haunt me in my dreams thanks

Track 5: Deep Down

strong start. nice

WTF IS THIS DIRECTION THEY'RE TAKING I LOVE IT????? 😳

yooo the minimal instrumentals in the start was so good

oh it got clubby in the chorus

OH HELL BEOMGYU IN THE CHORUS SHOULD HAVE COME WITH A WARNING (deep down i need you more)

this feels so different from the usual TXT but it works??

okayyyy the trumpet sounding stuff in the outro was a nice touch

Track 6: Happily Ever After

pretty sure i'll cry if i read up the lyrics of this one haha 🥲

oh this track is so smooothhhh in the pre-chorus

oohhh the la la la's are growing on me

it's like happy fools but more refined?????

LOVE the blending/harmonization 😩

GIVE ME ALL THE LAYERED VOCALS @ BIG HIT

SOOBIN I LOVE YOU (outro ver) 🥹😭

Track 7: Skipping Stones

the cymbals? hi-hats? at the start oh god *chef's kiss*

feels like a band session up in here!!!

HUENINGKAI LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO

oh damn beomgyu???

taehyun with the high notes mhmmm

band txt is the future i can see it all so clearly now

LOVE the way they start off each line durign the verses. scratches my brain sooooo good when they give the little oomph then blend it down ugh (sorry idk musical terms)

kinda obsessed with this music already wtf

the female vocals too!!

HUENINGKAI EXTENDED NOTE LET'S FUCKING GOOOO

HE MADE IT SOUND SO EASY?????????????

mhmmm soobin's falsetto

wow

just wow

FUCK ME WITH THOSE OHs AT THE END OF THE SONG GODDAMN

Track 8: Blue Spring

i know we were joking around about band txt but what if it's not a joke anymore bc we've had track after track of band/session sounds and i am not okay anymore

i'm never gonna be normal about this song sorry not sorry

POP OFF HUENINGKAI GODDAMN

what if i cry.....

hmmm the rest of the instrumentals kicking in. so good.

and then they strip it down??? to let the vocals shine????

so so good

COME THROUGH WITH THE DRUMS

soobin's verse with yeonjun's adlibs is what dreams are made of actually

god yeonjun and hueningkai are gonna make me cry

NO FUCKIGN WAY THEY ADDED MORE OF TAEHYUN'S ADLIBS????

STOP THE FUCKING CAR THEY'RE HARMONIZING INT EH CHORUS TOO??????????????

TYUNNING ADLIBS IN THE OUTRO????????????????

MY JAW IS DROPPED AND I CANNOT BREATHEEEEEEEEE

Track 9: Do It Like That

ok yeah ngl the mood shifted dramatically after all the band txt sounds lol

DILT is a cute song but i don't think it makes sense in this album

or at least not in this placement???

i may reconsider if this was a TXT ver lol

or maybe they were thinking about our mental health when they decided to keep it in the album

i would probs be a sobbing mess if tnc: freefall rly just ended with the studio ver of blue spring 🥹

Track 10: Chasing That Feeling (English Ver)

including this here bc why not it's on the tracklist anyway haha

tbh i wasn't feeling this track much from the teasers

but hearing the song in full changed my mind

the build up is good

why does yeonjun's voice sound so good in this genre like how is it soooo good

time's a thief that won't stop stealing -- well damn did i feel that

taehyun our belting star 🥺

[kimuramasaya]

a (long) get to know me tag! tagged by @jaehyukkies

tagging: @alrightyaphroditie @blahblahblahcollapse @beomkai @polargyu @dongkwan

—what day is your birthday? may 6

—what's your favorite color? mauve and sage green

—what's your lucky number? 2 the only prime number that is even

—do you have any pets? a dog

—how tall are you? 5'5″ (165cm)

—how many pairs of shoes do you own? probably 20ish but I wear like 4 regularly

—favorite song? I’m terrible at choosing favorites but I listen to treasure’s come to me every day. I also love glass animals’ agnes and lord huron’s what do it mean

—favorite movie? again I’m bad at choosing faves, but my go to comfort movies are howl’s moving castle, clueless, and troll 2 (1990)

—what would be your ideal partner? dating is honestly not at all important to me, so this isn’t something I think about. the people I’ve dated in the past were pretty different from each other, but I think the main things they had in common are that they made me laugh and were more outgoing that I am.

—do you want children? no thank you! would much rather be the fun auntie.

—have you gotten in trouble with the law? nope

—bath or shower? shower

—what color socks are you wearing? I rarely wear socks. it’s just too hot where I live for most of the year (winter included)

—favourite type of music? pop, but especially alt, indie, and r&b influenced pop

—how many pillows do you sleep with? 3

—what position do you sleep in? all of them, but most often on my stomach. I usually try to sleep on my back though since it’s easier on my back and neck

—what you don’t like when you’re sleeping? I’m not too picky about sleeping conditions. as long as it’s not too hot then I’ll eventually be able to sleep. my anxiety makes it hard for me to fall asleep, but once I am asleep, it takes a hell of a lot to wake me up

—what do you have for breakfast? during the week, usually just oatmeal and coffee. on the weekends, I usually sleep until about 11, so I skip breakfast.

—have you ever tried archery? once at church camp

—favourite fruit? mangoes my beloved

—favourite swear word? fuck is so versatile so she’s usually my go to, though I curse a whole lot less now than I used to

—do you have any scars? a couple on my knees. I was a reckless outdoorsy child

—are you a good liar? not really. the guilt usually gets to me

—what’s your personality type? istj. phlegmatic. type 6.

—what’s your favourite type of girl? what does this mean???

—innie or outie? innie

—left- or right-handed? right

—favourite food? I can always eat chicken adobo and lumpia. these foods remind me of my grandma, who is just like my favorite person in my family.

—favourite foreign food? Japanese food!

—are you clean or messy? I’m pretty clean. I get a little obsessive about cleaning and tidying, which is kind of a family trait. I just feel better when everything is neat and easy to find.

—most used phrase? I say honestly and literally pretty regularly. if you’ve seen jo koy’s tagalog thursday about how filipinos say “what did you say,” I also make that sound a lot.

—how long does it take for you to get ready? on weekdays, I’m up and out the door in under 40 minutes.

—do you talk to yourself? all the time. it really helps me to slow down my train of thought

—do you sing to yourself? yes a lot.

—are you a good singer? decidedly average. my music training is in piano and percussion, so my sense of pitch is not super developed since I only ever had to tune timpani

—biggest fear? if we’re talking run of the mill fears, it’s sn*kes. I have about every version of it filtered on here because even still images of them give me panic attacks.

—are you a gossip? unfortunately I am nosy, so I love to know things, but I absolutely do not spread it.

—do you like long or short hair? the last time I cut my hair, it was a little above my shoulders, but I’m notorious for going a year or more between hair cuts, so I don’t really have a strong preference.

—favourite school subject? math, but specifically calculus.

—extrovert or introvert? very much an introvert, so it makes total sense that I chose a career that requires me to talk to a ton of strangers every day.

—what makes you nervous? most things, but I also have really bad car anxiety because I was in a roll over car accident.

—who was your first real crush? looking back now, it was my best friend from elementary through high school. she meant a whole lot to me, but I didn’t really understand it until we grew apart

—how many piercings do you have? technically, I have one in each ear, but I haven’t worn earrings since I was like 12. they just haven’t closed since my parents got them pierced when I was still a baby.

—how fast can you run? running is the absolute worst I refuse to run.

—what colour is your hair? dark dark brown, nearly black

—what colour are your eyes? brown

—what makes you angry? having to repeat myself multiple times after answering someone’s question. I can understand needing to hear something a few times, but at a certain point, it just makes me feel like people don’t care what I have to say.

—do you like your own name? I have the most common name for the year I was born, so no. I’ve been called “other Rachel” too many times.

—do you want a boy or a girl as a child? none for me please.

—what are your strengths? I’m extremely detailed oriented. once I decide to do something, I will do it thoroughly. I’m dependable, so if I agree to do something, I won’t back out of it. I also think I’m good at understanding other people’s actions or logic. I’m always trying to think of reasons why someone did what they did.

—what are your weaknesses? I have a bad habit of taking on more than my share of a project. I do it because I know I can handle the extra work and I want to make things easier for others, but I was once told that it comes off as me not trusting others (I’m getting better about this). I’m also not great at communicating my feelings and will keep everything bottled up as much as possible

—what’s the colour of your bedspread? gray

—colour(s) of your room? sage green walls, off white carpet, and like warm golden brown furniture. I also have an oversized green floral armchair