#being klaus's bff and him being scared to take it further

[imagine-always-and-forever]

Klaus being afraid to take your friendship to the next level would include...

all things considered, you couldn’t blame him for being scared

his track record with love was shaky at best and the heart can only take so much breaking before you get scared it’ll shatter once and for all or if it’s too broken to recognize

you noticed Klaus’s fear after some months of his odd behaviour

it had taken you ages to realize that it wasn’t wishful thinking and that something was there

in fact, it took Kol and Rebekah telling you as much (albeit Kol’s was done in a snarkier way that was aimed to insult you rather than clarify his brother’s actions and confirm your suspicions)

over those months after you tried giving Klaus opportunities as you knew he liked to be the one to initiate (connected to his whole being the manly alpha thing)

but Klaus never took them

he acted oddly when you thought he realized the opportunity existed

excuses would come up, he’d leave, he’d do anything to ruin the moment, he’d act like even the most obvious opportunity and unsaid offer wasn’t there at all

yet his eyes always gave him away

his body language and his gestures sent such starkly different messages that it left you baffled

why?

it wasn’t like him to not take what he so obviously wanted and what was so obviously on offer

you confronted Elijah about his brother’s behaviour

Elijah told you what you already knew, Klaus had a rough history with love of any kind and a messed up relationship with the concept entirely

Klaus, you realized, was scared

and if there was one thing you knew would get him to at least talk about it so that you could at the very least get back to normal, was to call him on it

so you did

he played right into your hand

Klaus didn’t like hearing people say he was scared of anything

as with all emotional conversations with Klaus, it ended in yelling

you probably should have picked the timing better

it was two in the morning in the middle of the living room

you had to have woken the entire street up but nobody came running and the police didn’t come knocking

it was almost a half hour into the yelling, your voice was getting tired and you’d already shed tears of anger, hurt, upset, and more, when Klaus finally said it

he didn’t so much admit that he was scared as admit what it was that scared him

how could he be sure that you’d stay?

how could he be sure that you’d keep loving him?

his past told him that love was a lot more complicated than feelings in the moment

how could you love him?

how could he handle losing you be it through your death or otherwise?

because, the truth was, “in the end, we are left infinitely and utterly alone” so what’s the point in getting hurt?

the point, you are sure to tell him, is that the past does not define the future and only he can decide if he is left alone because you aren’t going anywhere

and he can quote you on that in a few centuries if he ever gets scared again