#beginningsarehard

[beginnersrunning-blog]

The Beginning

Today, an unassuming Sunday much like any other, is the day I have selected to start working towards some goals of mine. To ‘get fit’, whatever that means. I have been trying (and failing) to lose weight and get in shape for a few years, with mixed results. I have gone through stages of hardcore dieting and working out, sometimes for months, but I always slip back into a mixture of bad habits and denial. 

Last year, my dreaded HSC, was perhaps my worst yet, where the overwhelming stress, bad diet and lack of exercise saw my weight hit an all time high of 85kgs. The last four months since my HSC has ended have been a bit hit and miss but I have managed to at least lose a few of those HSC kilos. However I’m still atleast a dress size or two bigger than I used to be, which has made shopping and getting dressed in the morning two of my least favourite activites.   

Therefore I’m making this blog to prompt myself to keep to some simple fitness goals each week, to ‘keep me honest’ so to speak. Perhaps other people will find this and use it as motivation for themselves too, or perhaps not. Either way I hope I can make some positive changes in my life that will ultimately make me happier, and above all healthier.

I have stuck to the mantra for years, that it doesn’t matter what your weight is as long as your happy and healthy. But for a few years there have been long periods of time where I haven’t been happy or even very healthy. I know that losing weight won’t really make me happy. However by developing healthy habits such as eating better, drinking lots of water and working out regularly, I hope that I can begin to feel better and healthy. The side effects of feeling happier about what I see when I look in the mirror, is really just a bonus. 

I want to be able to walk up my driveway without losing my breathe, to run a flight of stairs and lift heavy grocery bags with ease. At this stage I’m not happy with the way I look on the outside or my current fitness level, which is pretty abysmal if that wasn’t already obvious.

I aim to workout, starting first with walking and then maybe graduating to running, three days a week - Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday. Hopefully in the mornings, but most likely in the late afternoons. I also hope to drink atleast two liters of water a day and begin to follow a healthier diet, cutting out as many fats and sugars as I realistically can. 

I know I will struggle, for if it was easy everyone would do it. I will find it hard in the beginning, to break my bad habits and do what I’m supposed to. I will struggle especially with my diet as I am already a very picky eater with little to no impulse control. However I hope this blog will encourage me to stick to it and hopefully become a better me. And if not at least I’ll have something funny to laugh about in a few years, the time I started and promptly deleted a fitness blog

-BeginnersRunning

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