#been watching s4 today and was thinking about how the timeloop au specifically had me knowing exactly how sapphire was going to act | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

muninnhuginn · 9 months ago

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sth about how sapphire has low self-esteem even when he's considered a genius or otherwise extraordinary. and how that low self-esteem can lead towards him seeking validation from a wider crowd in a bid to smother his insecurities. how he uses that to feed his ego until he becomes reliant on it and desperately doesn't want to lose it. and it is validation specifically he prioritises over a deeper understanding or connection with others. because he would have that deeper connection in the form of beryl if he'd so accept it.

#been watching s4 today and was thinking about how the timeloop au specifically had me knowing exactly how sapphire was going to act #it's entirely understandable and in-chara but it doesn't make it any less frustrating the way he self-sabotages to prop up his self-esteem #beryl and sapphire #xiao lu he xiao lan #also like. I'm drawing these examples from cases where he doesn't have a huge crush skewing his reactions #but even in those cases some of it still stands tbh. beryl tends to see sapphire flaws and all.#and sometimes sapphire just wants the positive views of himself/is too scared of the rejection inherent in negative views

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