#been doing around 1k words per day so it won't be too long until i get back to me beautiful spores

[making-you-in-spore]

cannot wait to be done writing this story so i can get back to spores

[mukuberry]

Trial 3 cover song wishlist

With trial 2 basically done, I want to make my last wishlist for covers... these aren't predictions because Deco hates me and won't let me be happy ever ^u^ there's quite a few songs I wanna see be covered but since we'll only get one per character, I've forced myself to just choose one each....

Haruka - Relationship Scramble

You know, we'll end up love's prisoners, hurt each other,

And say farewell no matter what, right?

In that case, isn't the right answer the twisted one?

What a pain! This pain is so great it's lingering even now.

Searching for legitimacy

Cost me so much that I fell apart.

Yuno - Rabbit Hole

If you get lonely, find anybody, just get lucky

I loathed to love but it gave me life, gonna be a smitten mitten till the day you die?

So why don't you kiss up and shake your cottontail?

A bad dance, why don't you drown in it?

Fake out! I like you! Ugh, can't take it

Fuuta - Chimera

Oh, 1 like, 2 likes...

Your face is like a wolf in sheep's clothing

But watch your step, the evaluation is using a point deduction system

Don't be greedy or you'll drown in poison

Wow! 100 likes, 1k likes!

Your face looks like you're trying to suppress your ego

Muu - Theory Of Negativity

It's not like you'd ever understand, so I'll just keep my mouth shut and make a fool of you

As long as people have secrets to hide, I'm invincible

I can be a good girl through the tears I shed

"Shall I just die"- even while making wishes like this,

I accidentally said "I want to live"

Shidou - Ghost Rule

No statute of limitations for my crime,

Robbed of forgiveness for that thievery of mine,

Things don't look any better today,

Unable to keep up this deception the way I'd hoped

Slowly lapsing in depravity

I hardly realise what has already become rotten

Mahiru - Cosmic Rendezvous

I wanna dance with you, forever, I wanna poke fun and play, forever

This sucks so bad, this countdown to bye-bye, not long until it runs out, fuck

Hey, take me with you to the other side, "together forever" like on a playground, laugh around

But seriously, what's up with my wish not coming true, fuck

Kazui - We The Hostages

I can't drag you along. I can't drag you along, so let's say goodbye.

No matter how much you love me, all I do is get itchy

So give me back the version of me that you own

The memories you want to forget are hostages

So you have to be prepared to kill them at any moment.

I knew too much, so I wish to forget

I only like your exterior. After all, I want to make you my servant

Amane - Poison Apple

You make me laugh with your "sorry", serves you right, always self-centered

On a different note, your tear-stained face, it kinda tickles me the right way

No more, not any more, you really should stop.

No more, not any more, I'd get so ripe, I just can't

Poison check that love, mmm tasty, yummy

Spine shivering sweetness, I wanna feel it, I can't forget that flavour

Mikoto - Nocturnal Kids

I want to sleep but I won't- today is still all right.

Though we've transmitted our voices to each other over and over again, and it's lasted so long,

Let's stop. Let's run away. It's okay.

You can sleep now. I'll protect you diligently, after all.

Let's say "good morning" and make it "today" again.

Kotoko - 118

Not to mention, the fact that you don't even seem to feel any remorse for your actions is just so pathetic

My iron heart has already been melted down and broken

From all the love and affection that was jammed into it

Hearing the words "I love you" just makes me hate you

Where has our happiness been hidden away?

[strxnged]

HSBSBSNDNS DON'T OVERWORK YOURSELF I LOVE YOU || oh my gosh. i have been craving reverse comfort for so long. i beg of just. being able to hold any haikyuu boy during midnight as i cradle him and tell him he's going to be okay HSHDBRBRBRHRH JUST ANY OF THEM BUT IF YOU NEED A CHARACTER I CAN SEND YOU ONE IN LIKE TWO SECONDS ALR

thanks. flawless request. enjoyed writing it a little too much.

ushijima x gn!reader. <1k words (oops it was meant to be under 500)

— 1:52AM

the words shot through his chest like a sword. 

it was worse than the feeling of the volleyball hitting the floor on his side at the end of a game. it was worse than his father's quiet disapproval. it was enough to make him realize that everything was not going to be okay, that there was no light at the tunnel this time. he would not get to play volleyball with you again. he would not get to be kissed by you and have you mean it.

"i'm sorry, ushi. you're great, you're everything someone could want. but satori and i just fit better. ever since you introduced him to me, i've known it would be this way."

"i shouldn't have introduced you to him, then," he said, shaking his head at his mistake.

"no, ushi. don't you want me to be happy? i'll be happy with tendou."

"y/n..."

"don't try to change my mind," you said through a forced smile. "i finally know what will make me happy."

ushijima felt his hands shake, then — his entire body quivered, and he sat up in bed with sweat rolling from his brow. without wasting a second, he whipped his head in your direction.

you were there, of course. peaceful, unbothered.

but what if his dream had been real? what if it had been revealing something that you'd been feeling?

with a shuddering breath, he reached towards you. he had been meaning to wake you, but now he was feeling guilty for trying and withdrew his hand. he'd bother you. you'd said that tendou made you happy, not him. so he should stop bothering you.

so instead he sat like a statue, facing the darkness with a hundred swallowed sobs. ushijima didn't cry, never. and he wouldn't now. he simply sat there, hands shaking in fear of the possibility that his actions could have changed your mind.

he didn't notice that you were awake until he felt your lips on his neck and you mumbling, "ushi, why are you awake?"

he opened his mouth to speak but as per usual, he couldn't figure out how to express it. "thinking."

"oh?" you lazily pressed your forhead to his. "you wanna talk about it?"

"it's not important. you should go back to sleep."

"of course it's important."

some irrational fear awoke in him, wondering if him telling you would make it real. maybe there would be a way around it, though — he'd try to ask without sounding accusatory.

"how do you feel about tendou?"

"i dunno. he's funny. you two make an interesting pair, you know that? it's cute."

it's cute. ... "ever since you introduced..."

"is that all?"

"hmm," you hummed, tangling your fingers with his. "i dunno. i met him yesterday. i don't know him that well."

that was true. in his dream, it had clearly longer than a day. but maybe it had been predicting the two of yours' future.

his chest clenched and he pursed his lips. ushijima didn't cry. crying was a pointless display of emotion, crying revealed weakness, crying used up valuable time.

you heard a singular sob into your shoulder, one that showed how afraid he really was. of losing you. of realizing that he'd built his life around the fact that you'd be in it. of being second best because he knew he'd never be happy with anyone, not with the person that he was. he was built for volleyball, not relationships. so ushijima sobbed once, and whispered fiercely, "don't fall in love with tendou," as if this could possibly have any effect on your feelings. but he knew it wouldn't.

you'd fall for him. it only made sense. he wished time would stop here before you did.

"oh, baby. you know i won't," you said. "i love you, and only you."

"but what if he makes you happier?" he mumbled, hiding his face in your back. his arms wrapped around you tightly, clearly so afraid of the day he expected you to leave him. "i know i'll never be like he is."

"exactly," you said. "you'll always be you, wakatoshi ushijima. oh, baby, i'm sorry." you rubbed his back. "i'm sorry i don't show you enough love to make you certain of my love for you."

ushijima took a deep breath, and his hand found your face. "don't say that. you're everything i need. don't change a thing. don't think you're not doing a good enough job. it's me, y/n. i'm too—" and then he went quiet. he felt as if he'd said too much — more than necessary —

"did you have a dream where i fell for tendou?" you asked.

"yes," he confirmed.

"i hate to break it to you, love, but you have never once had a predictive dream and i think it's unlikely to start with something as impossible as that."

ushijima stayed quiet. but he knew you were being honest. he appreciated how straightforward you could be.

"okay, then," he said. "thank you."

after a little more consoling, the two of you lay back down, and just before you drifted off, you heard his voice clear as day.

"i love you."

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