#becuz she doesn’t wanna mother us

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keeping myself half accountable by telling tumblr i relapsed LMAO

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Fruits Basket, SE02, Ep20

This is a buildup ep for yuki’s confession, like most buildup eps in furuba they kinda seem awkward & a bit stretched, but overall this one is not bad. 

-The theme of “ letting go” & tohru:

Tohru needs to Not only let go of her excessive attachment to her mom, but also, of treating yuki as needing of much help all the time. tohru’s is the mother friend for all, she tends to care for everybody, however, since she lives with yuki, this instinct fire up & she provides care, nurture, support & worry lots abt him since she knows the sohma’s abuse. Their dynamics need to change as yuki is starting to depend on himself as equal leaving tohu’s nest, tohru needs to accept his change & support him differently from before. The analogy of yuki leaving the nest is also fitting of tohru’s need to focus on herself since her nest is now empty. Tohru has also been using her motherly care for others to avoid working/focusing on herself. I find it ironic that Arisa’s “ tohru come convince kyo, he doesn’t wanna be a prince” comes as tohru & yuki acknowledge the need of a modified dynamics between them & she sends him off with her “ do your best” instead of her usual “don’t overwork yourself”. She leaves him to go to kyo/her own personal life that she needs to focus on.

-The Endless Parallels:

As yuki is starting to open his lid to his pal, the focus is shifted to machi! I’m happy she’s back. Similar to kyo’s apology into tohru’s ears in Se01, machi was given the questionable behavior without explanation treatment to hook viewers & I’m hooked! I know I’ll love this girl. It was pretty clear that her & kakeru are yuki exclusive characters & if he’s the best buddy, she’s the love interest. To connect her with yuki, certain good parallels were hinted at from the beginning:

She always leaves a mess behind, yuki lives in a messy room.

She has to have traumatizing background in order to make her need yuki in her life cuz part of yuki’s wishes is to provide for someone who needs him the way kyo provides for tohru. Yuki is ready to give back, now that he’s healing. Machi is yuki’s person.

Her coping mechanism is a bit similar to yuki in SE01, she shuts herself from others, doesn’t talk much & is withdrawn. I love that they both have somewhat similar coping  mechanism regardless of the nature of heir trauma, it makes them both less ashamed of what they adopted to cope regardless if it’s wrong/harmful. 

 She has low self esteem & is shocked when someone notices her, very lonely which is why she noticed yuki’s loneliness since Day 1.

She saw through yuki’s resistance of his “prince” title. She’s perceptive in nature just like him.

She looks physically more similar to yuki than she’s to kakeru, her brother, (yuki’s family grayish hair/his mom’s /ayame’s long eyes). Not really fond of that, but no harm, I think it was done so she & yuki will have similar aesthetic & have similar color shades.

All these are amazing parallels above help connect characters together & build relationships. However, I’m kinda annoyed that the writer went over board with the parallels, to the point of semi-exact situation:

Machi & Kakeru are siblings who were not close at all due to abusive family attitude. Exactly Similar to: Ayame & Yuki.

Kakeru is the older brother & was able to stop his abuse cuz of his character or extreme behavior that saved him from being caged into the family’s grasp while machi, the younger, was unable to escape & isn’t free yet. Exactly Similar to: Ayame & Yuki. 

Kakeru, the eldest, is trying hard to reach out to his sibling & aid her as much as he can but fails due to his insensitive character or his failure to see where she stands. Exactly Similar to: Ayame & Yuki. 

In their relationship, kakeru is the extreme, bubbly & bigger than life character while machi is the vulnerable, silent, withdrawn one. Exactly Similar to: Ayame & Yuki. 

This is a ton load of parallels that is not much needed to make machi suitable for yuki. I know that the writer is aware that machi is introduced late into the story, & is eager to flesh her out to be loved, but I don’t think that adding all these similarities to yuki’s life is the way to go. In the contrary, it makes her seem like a female version of him without the curse. Machi should be fascinating without yuki or kakeru. I guess making her kakeru’s sister helps create situations of yuki knowing more abt her without her talking & can be used to redeem kakeru’s character if he was ever harsh to her the way ayame was cuz you bet kakeru will play matchmaker. but overall, it takes uniqueness from machi’s situation herself & draws more attention towards yuki & kakeru. More focus on what will yuki & kakeru do. I really love her form the few things I saw abt her & her reactions, but yeah, don’t mind me~ it was a fleeting feeling of disappointment. Oh well, it is what it is. I hope her own perspective of her situation is rewarding.

-Machi is NO weak woman:

She really isn’t! She took control of the situation when she noticed it needed quick intervention. That’s why, the first set of 6 parallels mentioned above is important for machi! She saw through yuki without needing to know abt the exact similarities of their abusive homes. You don’t need all that to see through someone who was in the darkness for years, cuz she too, must’ve been in the darkness as well! So, in unique fashion, she comes & destroys yuki’s walls. Don’t worry, I’ll save you. I see you.

-Cinderella ( what??):

I didn’t expect elementary school fairly tale to be chosen & I sure didn’t see the cast choices coming! XD I’m sure sth will happen & they’ll change cast. but It’s 100% awesomely spot on in a reversed manner!! So Ironic!

Yuki godmother means yuki in female dress???? similar to SE01, Momiji ep! poor yuki! plus godmother is a nonhuman character that is superior & grants wishes & yuki is considered stronger than normal human without training & despite weak health, all his skills are always extraordinary. But maybe becuz he’s nearly done healing/opening the lid, he’ll help the others now, godmother style. XD

Tohru is evil stepsister?? Tohru is kindness reincarnated! but perhaps tohru needs a hint of evilness to wake up for herself & be more assertive! plus tohru is considered evil by yuki’s fan club (there’s an entire ep dedicated for that lol).

Hana Cinderella?? The queen of darkness & eerie wave reports who can see right through humans will play the weak, powerless Cinderella. XD. But it suits her cuz she was once called witch when in reality she’s kind.

Arisa a prince! the woman who wants to be a model & is desperate to turn kureno’s head with her womanly charms & is dying for a kiss from him in their first meeting! XD. but it suits her as she used to be a gangster? XD.

Kyo the prince?! the most un-princely prince! kyo’s kindness & warmth is exclusive to kazuma & tohru, the rest of the world sees him as the always annoyed, easily teased, harmless dude! Princes are diplomatic with their words! kyo’s life would be over in a second if it depended on his words! XD. He depends on his physical body & actions to show affection & love. You want him to be shower girls with compliments the way princes do?XD. but it suits him in a way, cuz he stole the main female protagonist’s heart like in all fairy tales & he’s genuine with his affection. XD.

I want Cinderella play NOW! plz don’t change the cast!!

Side Note:

The ep started with yuki’s statement abt what he wants from tohru, however, failed to deliver an answer by the end. It is obvious that (a) the answer will be given once yuki explains himself (b) a tease to hook the viewers into waiting for yuki’s answer. However, it was badly done. Rather than giving anticipation, it gave a disappointing feel. It dragged a genuine & vulnerable moment for the entire ep for cheap hook by the end. It can be completely avoided by not opening the ep with yuki’s lines. The thrill/anticipation would’ve come 10 times stronger with his closing lines leaving viewers with “OMG, he’ll say it next ep!! rather than “ what? i was waiting for that all ep? man~, next ep perhaps?”. I duno what is the nature of the manga chapters. but there are times when it’s so clear to me (an anime-only) when the show adapts things via direct cut & paste rather than working them to suit the ep format. Generally, the show doesn’t know how to implement cliffhangers, so I really wish they avoid them altogether.

From the way he handled machi’s apology to his firmness with the chibi member, to his elaborated speech with kakeru, to his calmness inside the locked room & how the flashback didn’t affect him as much as I thought it would! yuki’s growth is 90% complete! =D! You go boy!

I gotta confess..I’m slightly disappointed that kakeru turned out to be another abuse survival child. I was loving the idea that yuki is connecting with someone via their own character/personality not shared past of similar experiences cuz there are TONS of those in furuba. Kakeru’s character with (mix kyo-ayame) & virtues/vices is a good balance for yuki, adding the abusive past is hinting that broken kids only befriends broken kids which isn’t true. Plus this means that all young characters “with importance to the plot” must be abused one way or another... I know furuba has a theme..but you don’t have to make it part of every important character. I still love kakeru tho. but if kimi turned out to be ANOTHER abused child, I’m quitting furuba! XD..jokes..

[genshin-obsessed]

Hiya Pocket! Sorry I haven’t been interacting at all lately.. Genshin is very addicting.. but know that I miss talking to you! Okay, the main reason I’m here is becuz I wanted to share a Genshin concept wit u! (Like a concept for a potential OC) so she’s a villain, ofc, but her weapons are strings. She’s a cryo user (not a vision holder, but has the ability to use cryo) and she uses the strings and her cryo to paralyze people and can take control of them, like a puppet master. And sometimes, I’d like to think that she has to team up with Toxin as a villain duo, but they don’t get along very well. Unless they’re forced to cooperate, then I’d think they would be the scariest duo to roam the Genshin universe. But yea these are just a few ideas and if you wanna, (u absolutely don’t have to!!) you can flesh out her character profile more and stuff,, (and for her appearance, she has pale blue hair and either super dark or super light eyes) but then again, this is totally up to you if you wanna create her more!

Luv, 🖤 anon

Ps. Wow that was a long paragraph

So I made her 🥺👉🏼👈🏼 I hope you like it! I didn’t give her a backstory but I gave her bits and pieces!!

Yasmin Grimm

Basics:

Full Name: Yasmin Grimm

Alias(s): The Puppeteer

Age: 25

Gender: Female

Place of Birth: Unknown

Date of Birth: February 14th

Occupation: Former Adventurer

Height: 5’6

Hair Color: Pale Blue

Eye Color: Bright blue

Accessories: A necklace she’s had since she was a child. She doesn’t know anything about it.

Personality: Quiet, standoffish, smart, and malicious.

Likes: Sweet foods, snowflakes, dolls.

Dislikes: Sour foods, heat, anyone giving her orders.

Trivia:

She often uses her ability on her dolls and plays with them.

She respects Toxin and her abilities, even though they don’t always get along

She respects her mother and father, that’s why she disappeared. She doesn’t want them to see what she’s done.

Fighting:

Weapons: Strings; she’s able to control the strings, making them pierce through the air to wrap around her enemy.

Abilities: She can use cryo without a vision.

Relationships:

Family: Mother (alive), Father (alive), brother (deceased), sister (deceased).

Love Interest/Crush: None.

Friends/Allies: Toxin

Enemies: Heroes, traveler, Archons.

Quote(s):

“Oh? Can’t move? I wonder why...”

“You’re nothing. You’re worth nothing. You’re just little plaything.”

“I don’t take orders from you.”

“This world... it’s cruel, no? They call us monsters yet they parade around killing whoever they want. I hate them all... I HATE THEM ALL!!”

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Fruits Basket 2019 ( ep,20 )

-Hiro is real. A typical pre-teen, rude, mean, & rebellious brat with endless smart arguments. Jealous & dealing with first love. I like him. he adds different view to the show. Unlike sohma’s so far, hero don’t like tohru. The show used him to address potential criticism towards tohru. I avoid talking abt fruits in real life & not following its blogs to avoid spoilers, but when I watched eps 1&2, I wrote judging her as a typical girl saves broken boys story. It’s not until I watched more eps & realized that tohru is full of issues & flaws herself & she has no healing powers. All she has is her kindness & emotionally intelligent words. Hiro called her on saving ppl & she showcased her talent. Tohru doesn't know abt Akito, cant protect kisa or make hiro strong. what she can do is boost his courage & lift his spirit. She picked up on his low self esteem & desire to protect kisa, she used his own words to help him.” I’m a child, I wanna be an adult”. She said admitting that makes you brave & you’ll grow up to be kisa’s prince. Hiro knows her words are just words, If he rejects them, they have no power, but her words truly hit a cord in his heart. He felt better, He can be kisa’s prince if he is willing to grow up maturely. That he’ll work on. So, Hiro still didnt fall for tohru & isnt healed by her. He just chose to believe in himself as her words encouraged him to do.

-Tohru’s "my mother just got kidnapped” &“ my mother is inside” are red flags.  Everybody plays along with her choice of words to make her feel better. In reality...we notice when ppl uses questionable words..but we tend to play along in order to give them space. Clearly tohru is not okay when it comes to her mother. The show continues to make her say more of these lines, but it’s still to be seen if it’ll be treated as a part of her character or an actual problem that needs to be addressed. Moreover, hiro noticed how much tohru can’t stand up for herself. The girl who pushed the feared Mr.Akito away from terrified yuki, couldn’t stand up to a preteen & retrieve her mother’s pic. I love this! It makes her so endearing & human.

-Shigure’s “out of the two of us, I’m not the one who’ll be sorry at the end” & “sickeningly immature” are chilling. His “ it is natural to get cowardly if the one you love get hurt becuz of you” speaks volumes. Yes! we tend to not care if we’re in danger but if it is befalling a loved one because of us...boy~ then it is a tragedy..we become paralyzed with fear, guilt & selfless love. exhibit A: hatori. Akito is scary..the show does not joke when it comes to him. He uses physical & mental abuse with the zodiacs. a child was beaten “down black & blue”..”took long time to heal”..How many ppl have seen their neighbor’s wife/kid with bruises? how many actually interfered? yup. Reality is harsh.

Side notes:

“He cant blame Akito” why? even Hatori didnt blame him for his eyes?

“ she’s just some mama’s girl” Hiro is one observant boy.

What on earth is momiji wearing?.... lol

Kyo was on full “protective boyfriend” mode.lol. This boy is so endearingly dense. jokes aside, kyo does notice things quickly with tohru & he is right, tohru can be frustrating sometimes. Tohru~ dont take orders from brats!

first love can be one of the episode’s themes. Hatori/kana’s a failed example. We have hiro/kisa as the future with pending result. I wonder... how many first love is there in this episode right in front of my eyes & i didn’t see it...Yuki/kyo/tohru/momiji/editor-san/crepe truck lady/shigure?..shigure struck me as a womanizer..lol.. this perv cant be satisfied with one woman!