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[mummytoamelia]

Me, Myself and I...

Hiya, my name is Dana. Amelia is my daughter, and this is my story of becoming her mum...  I’m not an open book, I have a resting bitch face that could curdle milk... but I am a nice person...I promise! I’ve toyed with the idea of starting a blog for a long time, I didn’t and still don’t think I’ll be much good at it, but I’ve decided to give it a go and see how I get on.  This is coming after having not one, not two, but three mental break downs in the space of about an our today.. not what you picture when you envisage being a mum right? Well i know that’s not what I pictured anyway.  I saw myself a being, kind, loving and understanding...always. That is not the kind of mum I currently am. I’m anxious, tired and agitated...all the time, and I hate it. It’s not what I want to be, I want to be one of the Instagram mums who make meal plans and have their life organised to a T!  I am 22 years old, and prior to having Amelia, I begged my other half for a baby for years! I was convinced it was always going to be pretty dresses and coordinated Christmas jammies... this is NOT the case! More often than not, I’m wearing mismatched jammies, and 2 week old hair that’s in bad need of a wash, while shes in her vest from the night before cause she hates every kind of clothing there is, either that or she tries to bloody eat it!  Anyway, this is where I’m going to post snippets of my life as Amelia’s mummy. I’m not sure hat I want to gain with this, but hopefully some sort of catharsis...  love, Dana  xx 

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[mummytoamelia]

Have A Baby They Said...

So with this post, I’m going to tell you about finding out I was pregnant... this will be a long post, so for those of you this doesn’t interest, I’m sorry!

The day I found out I was pregnant I was at work, I work in my local shop, we sell fresh made food and at the time I worked in the back kitchen where the food is prepared.

I remember feeling really funny, like I had a little niggling in my lower abdomen, I kept putting the thought aside because there was no way I could be pregnant, I was on the pill, and taking it religiously.

At the time, my shifts were 6am-3pm. I decided to go over to Ballymena ( a town near where I live) to do some retail therapy, but as 3 o’clock drew near I started to feel queasy, the niggling was still there.

I got on the bus at a quarter past 4, I arrived at a quarter to 5 and the niggling was still there. I decided to go and get a pregnancy test to put my mind at ease, cause there was no way I could be pregnant... right?

I bought the test and took it to the toilet in my fav coffee shop. Hands shaking, I peed on the stick, put the lid on, turned it over and set it on the sink. I’m sat there in a toilet in costa, knickers round my ankles feeling like I’m about to throw the fuck up... “at least you're in the right place” I remember thinking to myself.

I could HEAR the blood pumping round my head as I picked up the test and turned it over...and there it was, the faintest blue line I’ve ever seen in my life, so faint that I questioned if it was even real, it looked like a negative test, one where you could kinda see the line because it’s always there, but slightly stronger.

“I’m a mummy...” I kept murmuring to myself, but it didn’t feel real. I felt sick to the stomach. I picked up my phone and rang my best friend... “hello...are you busy? I’m in costa, can you come and meet me?” “No I’m not busy, are you okay?” “I don’t know, I just need you to come and get me” “Okay, I’ll be there in five” she hung up the phone.

So I’m outside pacing back and forward in the car park waiting or her to pick me up... How on earth was I going to tel her about this? She had only just gone through the same thing, she just found out she was pregnant too a few weeks ago! 

She pulled up beside me and I jumped in the car “Niamh, I think I’m pregnant” I said to her, and her reaction, her face, her actions everything about this human, I loved! She was so happy for me, But I still couldn’t quite believe it! I had 3 other pregnancy tests in my bag that I was going to take.  quick text to Thomas “I’m going to Niamh’s she’ll bring me home, you don’t need to lift me” 

We got to hers and I still didn’t have to pee! Trust this to be the one time my tiny bladder doesn't need to empty itself every five minutes! 

 After about 3 cups of tea n a lot of chat about the future possibilities for the two of us with our little bubbas, I FINALLY had to pee again. 

In I went, Peed on the stick, you know the process, waiting and a lot more chat about what was to come. 

I turned it over. 

There it was. 

The blue line. Clear as day. 

I was pregnant. 

I was going to be a mummy! 

Niamh grabbed hold of me and we started to jump around her sitting room! “YOU’RE GOING TO BE SUCH AN AMAZING MUMMY!” She shouted as we collapsed in a pile of legs and limbs. I had this amazing person by my side to go through it all with me, I knew I was going to be okay! 

In the car the whole way home I tried to form how I was going to tell Thomas, the love of my life, the daddy of our baby, that I was growing inn my belly! The words would not come to me so eventually I gave up and just sat quietly waiting o get to my little flat. 

When we got in I took my shoes off (it’s a rule in my house). I went into the spare room and Niamh went into the kitchen to put the kettle on. “Thomas can you com here a minute”  shouted down the hall to hie “Yeah?” he said confused as ever as he came into the room “what’s wrong?”  I took out the pregnancy test and showed it to him “Is that hers” he said taking about Niamh. “Why would I be showing you her pregnancy test?” I’m looking at him like mate the fuck? “He looked at me and goes “Are you serious?!” he said really shocked sounding “I would never Joke about this!” I said to him. He pulled me into him and hugged me so tight I genuinely thought he was going to squish the baby! “I love you so much...the both of you!” He whispered through a tear... and I don’ think he’s ever meant something more in his life! 

We went up to the sitting room where Niamh was, “Did you tell him?!” “Look at the grin on his face...of course I told him!” I turned to look at Thomas, and asked him if he was happy? “Of course I am!” he said as he pulled me in to cuddle me again!   

This is one of the only times Niamh has been on hand with a camera when it was necessary but I am so glad she caught this moment, it’s one I will cherish for the rest of my life! We were so excited about the adventure that we were about to set out on... and by fuck was it an adventure and a half! 

If you have made it to the end of this post without clicking off, then thank you! I hope you enjoyed reading as much as I enjoyed writing! 

In my next post we’ll take a look at my pregnancy, the good the bad and the down right ugly! 

all my love, 

             Dana                      xx

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