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scroogemcducksbastardchild · 2 months ago

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recently realized that the reason i’m so attached to angst and queerbait is because that longing is the closest thing i can feel to romantic attraction. romantic fluff doesn’t mean anything to me (if anything it makes me actively uncomfortable) and cutting a story off before it gets to that point is my way of.. living vicariously through the characters, i guess. grief is the closest i can get to heartache.

#there’s joy in being aromantic obviously #but i haven’t fully come to terms w that part of myself yet i think #and it’s sad #it’s sad not understanding the feeling of butterflies when you look at someone and the euphoria or a first kiss #but i just. don’t. feel that #and angst is really the only way i can connect to fandoms #that are primarily shipping-focused #because i just don’t see the appeal of romance without another thematic element woven in #which is why i like hannibal and merlin and similar shows #because with hannibal there’s the added element of understanding and intimacy that doesn’t come with a romantic relationship #and the obvious moral dilemma #and the romance in merlin is doomed and unconsummated and so tightly woven with destiny that it’s impossible to discern the two #idk. i’m tired #will rambles #aro vent #aromantic

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