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made-my-peace-with-all-the-bad · 5 days ago

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hi it s almost 3 am for me and i’m so very sleepy but i’ve been thinking about pbj like all day. johnny hates his birthday lowkey and the only people who actually know when it is are dally pony and steve (some how .) and pony know johnny doesn’t want some big deal outta it so he doesn’t make a deal outta it. just “oh look, we baked a new cake this weekend.” “i found this at the store for real cheap and thought of ya,” “let s go to the lot today yeah? jus’ me and you,” and johnny 100% knows what pony’s doing be he just. allows it cause there isn’t no stopping him

AHDGHJSGHDHA I love that

Because yeah, Johnny probably grew up thinking and being told his birthday was a burden because he was a burden. How every birthday his parents reminded him that he wasn’t wanted there. And he just started to hate his birthday.

But then there’s Pony who grew up loving birthdays because they brought people together. And even though he knows that Johnny hates his, he likes to do little things for him. And Johnny, who loves Pony, can’t even bring himself to be bothered by it. Because this is Pony telling Johnny he loves him, he cares, and Johnny isn’t a burden to him. So yeah, he’d eat the cake that Pony made, and he’d shyly take whatever it was Pony got or made for him, and he’d let his hand be grabbed as Pony pulled them toward a quiet night in the lot. And if Johnny smiled, even a little bigger than normal, Pony viewed the entire day as a success.

#thank you thank you thank you #also go to sleep 😭😭#but thank you #ajgdshagshdja #oh they make me sick #in the best way #bc imagine Pony waking up on Johnny’s birthday and habit leads him to mixing ingredients in the kitchen for a cake #and about halfway through he remembers #he remembers Johnny is gone #and this day doesn’t mean anything anymore #and so he just breaks down on the kitchen floor #because what should’ve been his best friend’s 17th birthday is now just a random Saturday #so pony finishes the cake #and he cuts a slice and wraps it and takes it to go eat at Johnny’s grave #and he’d just sit there and talk to him and give him updates #tell him about how Darry got promoted and Soda has a new girl #tell him about how Two Bit quit drinking and Steve still loves his cars #how Ace was closer to finally getting away #how they were all moving forward #and he cries too #ok now I’m sad #the outsiders musical #the outsiders broadway #the outsiders #ponyboy curtis #johnny cade #pbj

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