#because like i said i am im possession of Symptoms but they're very blurry because the VILLAIN aka antipsychotics | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

the-acid-pear · 1 year ago

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Dissociation is probably the easiest state of mind for me to notice. When any other matter is modifying my brain it's impossible for me to be sure if I'm experiencing it or not, but for dissociation is SOOO easy because I can just say my legal name and not feel weird and that just solves it 👍

#luly talks #meant to post this like a week ago more than a week ago like a few months ago but i forgor 💀#anyway bc i was walking and i started wondering if i was dissociating (difficult moment) so i just sid that #i thought of three basic things about me: full name; age; nationality #sometimes gender too #see sometimes it's hard to be trans when you also dissociate but its very different for me #one thing is dysphoria because when dysphoric its like. i see what i am and it makes me unhappy #but when dissociating its straight up. i see what i am but this is not me #like its not wrong in a way that you can change its wrong as if you were looking on those funny mirrors #not that exaggerated but its that feeling yknow?#anyway reminding myself of basic bits of info like name nationality gender age can help ground me #and im gonna sound a bit insaner here GO AWAY ⚠️ LAST CHANCE #sometimes its counterproductive in a way because i say that information but that information is wrong it feels wrong and it shakes me up #because like i said i am im possession of Symptoms but they're very blurry because the VILLAIN aka antipsychotics #which made irreversible damage so its like. i feel like lm kicking someone out. or even like we lost track of who is who #there's no direct communication there's nothing solid physical its like being on a dark room and you can't recognize anyone its FOGGY #you can see the outline but how far will that take you? you are guessing. and if one is dissociating it tends to mean ALL are dissociating #aAnyway that was enough speech about the brain goodbye i have to sexualize that puppet now #brain stuff

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