#because it has taken a lot to unfuck my brain and pick out the specks of possessiveness that stem from my experience with abandonment lol | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

angeltism · 3 months ago

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it's like a weird pull of "come on, it's not that bad to indulge a little, so what if you think of obsession and how nice it'd be? after all, wouldn't it be nice?" but i know for a fact if i entertain thoughts like that i'm going to A. spiral back into obsessiveness and become a really shitty partner and qpp or B. panic over the idea of becoming that way, and then suffer because i will become convinced that i am Evil and a Really Shitty Partner And QPP

#➳ the fool speaks #ask to tag #i used to look at ya.n stuff but it always just made me feel lonelier and worse #i have my world. i have people i care about greatly. but i really do love them - and being overly possessive and manipulating others and #only wanting them to be Happy With You And Only You is not love. y'know? that's how i see it at least #i don't need my brain absorbing info that is like ''your beloved should ONLY!!! ever talk to YOU!!!! and should reply to every msg 2 #seconds after you send it otherwise they don't love you and you need to carve their name into your chest to prove that YOU love THEM so #they don't LEAVE YOU !!!! ^_^'' . because that's basically the message on there yk. i'd like to stay uh. a (vaguely) mentally healthy perso #because it has taken a lot to unfuck my brain and pick out the specks of possessiveness that stem from my experience with abandonment lol #just. augh. do not like seeing ya.n stuff man T_T #and i get obsessive thoughts sometimes but i squash em!! i don't tell anyone bc i feel like for Me that makes them worse. i don't post em

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