#because if people can't be normal now they sure as fuck won't start acting normal if you give them what they want it'd just feed their

[loufuckers]

x

[oneforthemunny]

Could we possibly get a spanking blurb I don’t care which Eddie I just need him to beat my ass😩

sure why not lol. for freaky friday. this was longer than i meant it to be lol.

thinking of going with the classic, dom!eddie. smut ahead. minors dni.

"Grab some plates." You nod towards the cabinet, steam lifting from the pot of pasta boiling on the stove beneath you.

"Plates?" Eddie hummed, tone lilting in a playful way, hand sliding over your hip when he passed you. "Plates for mac and cheese?"

"Yes," You huffed, fighting back an eye roll. You knew he was watching you, itching for you to slip, give him a reason to punish you.

You were so close to winning. Tomorrow, you'd wake up victorious in your little bet with Eddie. A silly bet that started playful until both your competitive natures turned it to something more.

"You couldn't act right if your life depended on it." Eddie scoffed, rolling his eyes at you. "I think it would actually kill you to be sweet for a few days. Not be bratty for once in your life. No way you could do it."

"Please," You huffed back. "I could do it, but you piss me off. Get me to that point."

"That right?" Eddie hummed, tongue rolling down his cheek.

"You know it is." You lifted your brows. "You can't help it. You love it too much. Just push me to my limit where I snap."

"Care to make a little wager?" Eddie's eyes dazzled, bright with excitement that left your tummy flipping. "Four days. I won't provoke you, you don't brat to me. You make it the full four days, you win. If you don't, I win."

"What do I win?" You chirped smugly. "Because I will win."

Eddie bit back a grin. It was going to be too easy. You couldn't help it. "Loser has to do whatever the winner says for a whole day." Eddie shrugged.

"Anything?" You lifted a brow.

"Anything." Eddie nodded.

"Non-sexual too?" Your eyes narrowed towards him.

"Sure. Why not." Eddie shrugged casually, sticking out a ringed hand towards you. "We have a deal?" Your hand in his, the two of you shook on it. A done deal.

Eddie expected you to break by day two. He knew you'd be on your A-Game for the first day, wearing thin on the second. Eddie's eyes would widen with excitement every time your breath would hitch, a snarky comment threatening to roll right off the tip of your tongue, only for a sweet remark to come out instead.

Now, as day four was drawing closer to the end, Eddie had accepted you as the winner. Not that he minded. This was the one bet he could lose and still end feeling like a winner.

"Could just eat it out of the pot." Eddie shrugged, swiping the two plates down from the top shelf. "Less dishes to wash."

"No." You tried to keep your tone light through gritted teeth.

"Just sayin'," Eddie shrugged, pulling the colander out from under the sink, placing it in the sink for you. "I used to do it all the time. We can get two spoons, share it." He grinned at you.

"You don't wanna share a pot with me, hm? Just like we do with popcorn at the movies, but better because it's mac and cheese, and-"

"-That's the stupidest fucking thing I've ever heard." You huffed, throwing your hands up. "That's so messy and disgusting, and you'll end up hogging the whole thing just like you do with the popcorn. We can eat it off plates like normal people do."

The kitchen fell silent, the hiss of the vent the only sound filling the space between you. Your chest settled, days of building agitation replaced with sudden dread. Eddie's eyes wide, gawking at you in disbelief, slowly spreading into a smile.

"You-" Eddie pointed at you. "Holy shit, you lost." He barked out a laugh.

"I did not." You hissed. "You-You pushed me to it!"

"Nuh-uh, don't even try that with me, baby." Eddie shook his head. "You and I both know I was not trying then. That was all you."

Your shoulders slumped in defeat, lip jutting in a furious pout. He was right, and you knew it. You hated it, but you knew it. Eddie had won.

"Fine," You huffed, flicking the stove eye off, moving the pan to the other eye to cool. "You win. Guess we'll be eating out of the pan tonight then?" Your lips curled in a bitter snarl.

Eddie fought back a smirk, lips pressing together smugly. "No, wanna save it for tomorrow. Really get a whole day out of it." He hummed, pulling the drawer above the sink open.

You rolled your eyes, grabbing the pot holder, wrapping it around the hot metal handle to strain the noodles. "Just leave that there." Eddie nodded towards you. "Don't want it to get cold."

"What?" Your brows pinched together in a furrow.

"My victory day doesn't start until tomorrow, but," Eddie pulled the wooden spoon out of the drawer, satisfied with how your eyes widened, your face falling at the sight. "Gotta fix that attitude real quick."

"Eddie," You whined, squirming under his darkened glare.

"Don't even try it, sweetheart." Eddie shook his head at you, taking in a step to close in the space. "You know better than that."

Your cheeks blistered with embarrassed heat, sulking towards the kitchen table, bending over the wood. You pressed your thighs together, a desperate attempt to dull the throbbing between your legs that only intensified as Eddie got closer.

His hand shoving down your little cotton shorts onto the floor, anchoring his free palm onto your spine, before the first hit fell. Your lungs squeezed out a startled gasp of a breath, raising on your toes at the impact. It burned, settled into an achy sting that had you whimpering- still you had to swallow the moan that threatened to follow, lifting your hips back into place, eager for another.

Eddie didn't remark, though he didn't miss the tiny whine that feel from your lips. Instead, he let the spoon rain down in sharp, quick successions all over your cheeks. A steady rhythm of wood snapping against your skin, the table creaking with every squirm.

You knew you'd welt, have round shaped marks that you'd frown at in the mirror tomorrow, running your hand over them and try to ignore the throbbing that'd begin all over again.

For now, Eddie's hands sunk into your hips, a hard hold on them as he used you, rocked your body back and forth, up and down his length. Drilling you over the table, hip bones snapping into the hot skin of your ass as you clawed into the wood of the table.

[strwbmei]

In the spirit of me fucking up my knee, could I request a short thing of Keqing/HSR Bronya princess carrying an injured reader?

~Teeth

(Also heya how’s it going?)

Hello, Teeth!! It's been a while! A lot has happened. Normally I'd say that I hope you've been doing well, but the fucked up knee speaks for itself. Not sure how you hurt your knee exactly or how bad it is, so I apologize if anything written here is medically unsafe/incorrect!

Keqing would go full asian mom style. She'd scold you for being careless, saying things like "I told you to be careful!" and to "stop being so reckless!" while dressing your injury. Her words sting, but you can tell that she cares with how careful she's being with you. Also, she insists on carrying you the same way a few days even after you've recovered. Acts strict, but you can get away with a lot more with her during the time that you're recovering. She'll even let you use her lap as a pillow.

"Ow!" You hiss in pain as Keqing tightens the makeshift bandage around your knee. She glares up at you, eyes full of disappointment and irritation, yet also with a hint of worry that only you could discern. "Well, maybe if someone wasn't being such an idiot..."

"Still, be more gentle! You're dealing with an injured person here, y'know?" You complain, and the other woman rolls her eyes in response. "I'm sure it isn't as bad as you make it out to be if you still have the energy to whine."

Suddenly, Keqing stands up and lifts you into her arms with ease, carrying you bridal style as she starts walking. You yelp in surprise. "What are you-"

"Taking a certain idiot to the infirmary." You sort of just stare at her awestruck because she's rarely so... gentle? It's hard to find the right words to describe it, but you're sure this kind of opportunity is rare.

"What, you think I'd let you walk around with an injured knee?"

"Honestly, yeah, a little bit." As soon as you said those words without thinking, you were sure she'd put you down out of annoyance and tell you that you're free to go to the infirmary yourself, but she only stays silent.

"Whatever. Just... don't worry me again like that, okay?"

Bronya... would definitely overreact. There's no other way to word it. Her expression would be akin to a wounded puppy. She'll have all of the best doctors in Belobog taking care of you and the most luxurious bed for you to lay on even if your injury isn't that bad. Qlipoth bless her soul if the doctors even mention the possibility of your injury permanently impairing you, because she is most definitely going into cardiac arrest. After you recover, she makes it a point to ensure every place in Belobog is accessible to people who can't walk.

Although Bronya works as the Supreme Guardian, she's spent most of her life on the battlefield and she's learned many useful techniques from her experience. One of them is basic medical care.

She's not a professional, but her know-how has saved a few comrades' lives. Still, Bronya most certainly didn't expect that she'd have to use this skill of hers on you of all people.

"Bronya... I'm okay now. Really." You say; an attempt to console the very obviously distressed woman in front of you. With how much she's frowning, anyone that saw her would think that she was the one with an injury.

"No." Bronya responds, and honestly, this is the first time you've heard her so... stern. She knows that you aren't lying, but she sure as hell isn't risking your wound getting worse. "We need to get you to a doctor."

On second thought, it's too dangerous to move you around; it'd be better to have a doctor come here themselves. Still, the nearest doctor is much too far away, so Bronya decides to carry you there instead.

As soon as she picks you up, her mind races with a million thoughts all at once. What if it leaves a scar? What if you aren't able to walk normally again? Aeons forbid, what if you won't be able to walk at all? However dramatic, just the thought has her heart sinking.

She senses your unease and takes a deep breath, pressing a small kiss to your forehead. Perhaps her emotions have gotten the better of her. "I'm sorry, my love. You know how I worry for you." She smiles reassuringly. Whether she's trying to reassure you or herself, you don't know.

[ja3mln]

NCT DREAM REACTING TO YOU NOT WEARING ANY PANTIES IN PUBLIC.

pt 1? (might post a pt 2 but its scenarios if this part gets a lot of attention)

cw: nsfw, using the word slut, public sex.

MARK

gets really flustered once he notices like literally a mess (which you find adorable). he doesn't know how to act at first and is a bit shy abt the fact that he's getting really turned on by it. he's a bit scared that someone will notice and keep asking if you're okay and if you want anything to cover yourself. but after a few times, when he finally get that you do all of this on purpose and you're teasing him his mind goes crazy and he doesn't really hide the fact that he gets turn on by it anymore. he can't help but be rough with you (which is rare) but you make clear that you love it.

RENJUN

he loves it. the first time it really surprises him and he's worried about it but now he can pop a boner just thinking about you not wearing any panties when you're on a date or just doing normal stuff like grocery. it always end up with a quickie in the bathroom like a blowjob or masturbating e/o or just a rough fuck at home. even if he really likes it, he always makes sure you're not uncomfortable.

JENO

it drives him crazy. like he could fuck you right here even if it's in front of a whole crowd when he notices it. he doesn't hesitate to discretely grab your bare ass when he have the occasion to. and he doesn't even wait to get home to fuck you. any place that have a minimum of privacy is ok for him. don't care about people noticing it (like just seeing a small part of your ass) and even takes advantage of the situation to show people that you're his once he knows that you're totally okay with him doing all of this.

HAECHAN

like jeno this man is obsessed with the idea of you not wearing any panties while you're doing your usual stuff like eating out or shopping. he loves teasing you about it and telling you how much he loves when you act like a slut. he also likes quickies in public places like bathrooms or changing rooms. can even start touching you under the table when you're eating out because he can't resist. he always makes sure you're okay with it ofc.

JAEMIN

he gets turned on but doesn't admit it at first. the first time, he will be very surprised and don't know how to act and it just feels like he doesn't like it. he's quick to reassure you that it's just new to him. after this first time he will sometimes check if you have your panties on bc even if it doesn't admit it he loves it (and you know it). when you both gets comfortable with it, he won't hesitate to tease you and grab discretely your ass when he gets the chance to and tease you a lot about it. he will always wait for the end of the date (sometimes he can't help it but bring you home as soon as he knows abt it) to bring you home and fuck you hard.

CHENLE

takes a lot of time for him to get used to this. like the few first times he gets surprised everytime, not only by you not wearing any panties but also by him getting turned on by it. he's shy about it at first but then get comfortable with it and start to like it more and more. he always make sure anyone notice tho, like always getting behind you when you stand up or do smth that could get you taught. likes to fuck you on the couch or against the wall as soon as you get home.

JISUNG

he becomes a mess. gets so so flustered like you get genuinely worried because of the redness of his skin and the way he stutter. he's so worried and always ask if you're okay and if you need anything. he loves it tho even if he's really scared of someone noticing. he needs a lot of time to get used to it but deep down he really likes it since the first day. he likes it when it's not frequent tho because it's really special for him. he will rarely try something in public like when he's really really horny and can't help it he will bring you to the closest bathroom and finger you or ask for a quick blowjob but when you get home he gets a lot more comfortable.

[kerubimcrepin]

Live-read: "Julith et Jahash" - Part 3

"A huge peasant from Bonta?" Their first meeting is so romantic and her first impression of him is so beautiful.

2 seconds have passed and she is trying to kill him by throwing him off a flying platform.

This is off-topic, but I like to think that Jahash and Julith were "opposites attract" in regard to everything: like, personally, I like to think she comes from a wealthy family that didn't care about her, just her success, — and that she was a gifted huppermage kid. The opposite in every way to Jahash (save for the canonical bisexuality they share).

I make myself emotional a lot, thinking of the ways these two are similar to their son, thinking of the ways Bakara is similar to their son, etc, etc... What if Julith was a perfectionist too...

There are also huppermages from these places specifically, — and interestingly enough, there are only three Brakmarians. Considering the seemingly random way contestants are chosen, this might not mean much.

I wish we had more info on huppermages who aren't alligned with Bonta. There has to be some innter conflict, over the fact that most of them are.

What Julith says here, suggest this is either not her first time in this whole situation, — or that she's just been in huppermage battles before.

This leg spin is so unique. None of the trio of the immortal Jurgen-Crepins do it. She's insane for this.

He's so funny for trying to stop the huppermage hunger games by restraining its most active and enthusiastic participant. Surely, she won't kick him in the balls.

Joris was that close to not being ever born.

I feel that it is prudent to point out that being beaten to death and pushed off to become a pancake 38492834ft below the floating platform, is a problem that even Wakfu era huppermages face.

Joris definitely went through this. He definitely thought it was stupid.

"It's cute that you all came here wearing your city's colours. Get naked."

Yeah, very normal and sane of the huppermages to do. Also, very interesting that Julith is unfazed by this. Like she expected it.

Aw! The "she knitted him underwear" thing is referenced. Maybe she decided it'd be funny, if she fulfilled her offer from when they first met.

I think if Joris was in this situation, (and I am thinking about this, because he too, is a huppermage, and uh. what if he DID go through this. The chance is non-zero) he would become violently suicidal immediately. He doesn't like his body, how short he is, his proportions, and looks. He's always felt more comfortable in a hood and some layers of clothing, — and, while he downplays it in the movie, being different from other people does bother him. Even though he's trying to be fine with it, for Kerubim's sake...

He already has it bad enough with all the cruel things people say to him, no matter how mature and professional he tries to act, no matter how he dresses, no matter what he ever fucking does.

And having all his otherness, the way his body differs from people, showcased like that, would be a humiliating, inhumane experience.

One can only hope that it would, very fast, turn into an SCP-096 type situation. He deserves to start killing people. Especially whoever would do that to him.

This is based, and all, but again and again it is shown that a big majority of huppermages, — including at points, the leaders, — are aligned with Bonta. You can't just will the politics away.

Yeah, I don't like huppermages anymore, as an organization. There are far too many things about them that feel... icky. From the institutionalized abuse, to the political stuff that is swept under the rug.

One might say I am taking it way too seriously, — but Ankama can take things seriously. Tot is not blind to what he's writing, and the things the works imply. At least I hope so.

"What an interesting specimen... No fear and no shame to be seen in these features. No doubt, you are from the Abigor family! From now on, your name is the Butcher."

THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS THIS IMPLIES. From Abigors being an important family, like I predicted, — to them all having resting bitch faces. jdsfkgshdfgdfg.

The thing this woman dubs Jahash, based on his expressions and vibes, is "The Pure". They all get these nicknames. And by god, I am so sad about Julith's being this thing she hates.

My personal headcanon, is that if Joris went through this particular kind of hazing and abuse, his govenrment assigned huppermage name was... "the Powerless," of you get the reference.

Because I'm funny like that.

i hate this lady so much its unreal.

[fabaceous]

do you think jackieshauna could've gotten together eventually if the plane didn't crash/if jackie hadn't died or were they doomed from the start?

hi anon i know this took a while (sorry) but it's because this is one of my favorite cans of worms to open and i had a lot to say. so thank you for giving me an excuse to talk about it ;)

my answer, depending on the day and my mood, ranges from NO to YES, BUT to NO, BUT.

NO, because i think that even on a pure friendship level they are doomed. their flaws were like, designed in a lab (or a writer's room lol) to tear them apart. jackie is insecure and holds on too tightly to shauna. shauna quietly resents jackie for it and fucks around behind her back. as long as they have these traits, their relationship is a ticking time bomb. they will never make it within ten miles of a romantic relationship because even their friendship is doomed.

NO, because even if their friendship doesn't implode, they are both simply too damn repressed to ever make a move. im not even saying this as a cop-out, like, i truly believe in my heart and soul that they both have latent romantic feelings for each other but they tie themselves in all sorts of pretzels to avoid it and i'll go even further and say they are both REALLY FUCKING GOOD AT IT. like more so than most people. given my own experiences denying my (in hindsight incredibly obvious) feelings for girls (and i SUCK at repressing things) i have no doubt at all that they could go the rest of their lives convincing themselves that some girlfriendships are Just Like That. the human mind is a very powerful thing and the human mind on comphet and repression? nearly unstoppable. and even if they dont have some world-shattering blowout, and their friendship just sort of fizzles out for some nebulous and ambiguous (read: gay yearning related) reason, years later they'll still be looking back at their relationship saying Huh. Wasnt That Weird...Well...Nevertheless...I'm Sure It Was Nothing To Worry About...

like, okay, im gonna spend a little more time with this one because i think their repression is so key to their dynamic. jackie is obviously unable to face any aspect of herself that is even remotely imperfect. gay feelings for shauna would definitely fall into that category given what i assume she has internalized from her parents and her peers and it being the 1990s. shauna, while more willing to accept her dark side, cant bear the thought of wanting jackie like that. its the one bridge she cant cross. she'll literally fuck jeff. fucking JEFF!!! before she lets herself act on desire for jackie (at least not in a straightforward/normal way lol)

i think both of them on some level must feel that they have a desire for each other, or else they wouldn't be so desperate to avoid it. but they are SO desperate to avoid it, and i don't really have anything to back this up other than my gut feeling but i just can't imagine them ever overcoming their respective hurdles of repression, and definitely not under normal high-school circumstances. MAYBE in the wilderness they would've had a chance IF THINGS HAD GONE VERY DIFFERENTLY because they would be free from societal expectations or whatever, and maybe a life or death situation could've given them enough of a shock that they'd finally own up to their feelings. but EVEN THEN, personally, i think it's still questionable. i think this is just so deeply rooted that it would be anywhere from incredibly difficult to impossible for both of them to get past it. (it's no good if only one of them overcomes the repression, btw. then you just have unrequited pining (but secretly actually requited but the other person won't admit that they're requiting it so it's effectively unrequited which would be perhaps even worse and more painful. btw. if you even care))

now on to the other options...

YES, BUT, even if by some miracle they were able to get past their repression and date each other, i guarantee you all their toxic habits would be not only repeated but MAGNIFIED by being in a romantic relationship. like, ok, the good news is, they would finally be free to be openly obsessed with each other lol. but... imagine jackie gets EVEN MORE insecure about shauna leaving her because now she actually feels like she has a legit claim on shauna being "hers". before, her possessiveness (for lack of a more nuanced term) was tempered by the fact that they are just friends, and shauna should theoretically be allowed to have other friends, even if jackie doesn't like it. but shauna should NOT be having other girlfriends. so jackie would likely be reaching new levels of terrified of shauna leaving her. shauna would still be unable to address conflict directly. rinse and repeat this whooooole vicious cycle until it blows up in their faces like laura le--[gunshot]

finally, NO, BUT, and this one may be controversial & a bit more far fetched than the others, but i do think that under the right circumstances they could kiss or even fuck without it compromising their repression. i actually even think they could have a sort of sneaky situationship while still repressing their bigscaryfeelings for each other. HEAR ME OUT. they are both very careful about compartmentalizing their desire for each other and keeping it hidden FROM THEMSELVES. they often fail and it boils over despite their best efforts, but the more important thing is that they think they're succeeding at keeping their desire from breaching containment. and as long as they have that plausible deniability where they are hiding it from themselves, even if they don't manage to hide it from the rest of us (or even each other), i dont think its impossible for them to act on the desire, like, on pure instinct, but without actually intellectually or emotionally acknowledging the larger implications that that brings. and even if the desire breaches containment, they could still find a way to write it off as just desire in general and not desire for each other specifically. especially when they also still have the excuse of being horny teenagers with no impulse control, they could easily brush it off as, oh, we were just drunk, we were just experimenting. or even, oh, it was just shauna, it's not like i actually LIKE-like her, i just made out with her, but its shauna, so it obviously doesnt mean anything.

and i think they could even do this consistently for weeks months MAYBE up to a year or so, while deluding themselves into thinking this is somehow normal or not a big deal. because they have already proven they are masters of doublethink and repression, otherwise we wouldn't have gotten this far lol. but it would 100% also blow up in their faces. the question is, who would crack first? who would want something real? or who would walk away because it got too real? theres sooo much to ponder with this particular scenario and it's all very juicy and compelling (and GOD would i love to see it unfold with my own two eyeballs, can bart and ashley please write and film an AU of their own tv show?!) but i dont think it would ever lead them anywhere good or healthy.

so long story short (lol. conciseness has never been my strong suit as is probably abundantly clear by now) i personally do not think there is any possibility of a satisfying happy-ending scenario for these two. and i personally am perfectly okay with that because so much about them would have to change in order for them to get a happy ending that at that point, they would no longer be the jackie and shauna that i know and love.

[amooo1023]

Yo how about romantic headcanon for a aggressive, rebellious, energetic but caring and protective reader x the best golden dorito Bill Cipher

Wow, what a long weird request. But I'd be happy to write for this anon!

Bill Cipher x rebellious, energetic and protective reader (ROMANTIC HEADCANONS) (Damn, what a mouthful.)

Bill finds you entertaining, he loves a good fight! When people are too compliant they get boring. Your rebellious side just makes it all the better! Along with your aggressiveness.

Let's say in your first meeting you try to hit Bill or get apprehensive with him. He'll laugh at your attempts at hitting him. He can't help it! You're attempts at hurting him are just too adorable.

Let's say you're not fully convinced at his proposal. Bill will laugh and shrug it off simply telling you that you'll come back eventually. But don't expect him to be done with you. He'll pay you visits in your dreams and nightmares. Terrorizing you and whatever else he can think of.

If you still don’t take his proposal? Fine, guess you're stuck with him for all eternity now. Definitely not an excuse for hanging out with you or anything, no, nO, NO! Ahem, although he will admit that you are certainly most interesting with your friends, being all touchy, protective and all.

You probably won't be getting a lot of privacy, I mean you will get privacy but. Don't take it as a surprise if he just randomly says something personal about you out loud. It's kind of his thing, watching and observing without people knowing. Full on torturing and embarrassing people, normal. You just got lucky by the fact that you were interesting. Or not depending on how you wanna see it.

You might seriously be in a pleasant bath thinking to yourself: "Finally, some fucking privacy-" AND BOOM a triangle comes out of nowhere screaming about some random kitten on youtube being according to him, extremely dumb. But you're pretty sure he found the cat adorable considering his weird trends with "stupid" or "imbecile" -like things.

He's honestly so weirdly curious about things despite the fact that he always stalks and watches earth for it's residents. Food in particular. You had brought in sushi and had eaten with chopsticks and suddenly he was in your lap asking about the food, culture, why, how and etc. Very weirdly curious guy but also incredibly well educated. Makes you more interested in his history to be honest.

He's incredibly energetic himself so your jumpy and motivated self will be a blessing to him seeing as many don't seem to be able to keep up with him. (Well except for Ford) so if you can bring him up for a treat or for some fun stuff in the mindscape or perhaps even the dreamscape.

Oh man, he LOVES your aggressiveness. Sure, most of your aggressive acts had been done on accident with you just trying to be affectionate and going a bit too fast with it. But it is definitely a refresher from the self preserved and calm ones. I mean he has seen you with your friends and it is very intriguing and sorta amusing.

He's seen you in your rebel side but it was only most evident at the start when he was simply terrorizing and annoying you. But now it wasn't as much directed towards him anymore and more less to your own personal views. You had also shown this side to previous abusive bosses. He hasn't seen you full on serious yet but he's sure that's gonna be a sight to behold if you ever get to that point.

Because of your personality you probably warmed up to him pretty quickly. But I'm pretty sure he would warm up to you a lot faster while you later. I mean, he is a dream demon going into your dreams, constantly terrorizing you while full on admitting to have seen everything and potentially watching every single thing you do. Not that big of a surprise if it takes more time for you.

Once you have warmed up to him, he'll probably be a lot more open with you. He already was but open in other ways. Intrests and more interacting with each other, more secretive things.

How you two interact can be varied. To finding about the secrets of the universe to suddenly finding the worlds smallest hotdog that may or may not involve a lot of violence. Yeah, this happens. Also for some reason you find yourself doing a lot of things you swore to never do with him. Definitely not him pursuing or manipulating you into following through his plans. He would never!

Yeah, this isn't that much of a surprise. He may find you interesting and amusing but that doesn't mean he won't put you to use. Sometimes you aren't even aware of it so it's fine. Also your aggressiveness and protective self has a lot of great uses! So why not put them to use when you obviously don't?

Despite all this there are times where you two interact normally. Well, as normally as it can get at least. Small chats, perhaps some bonding experiences and learning more about each other. Bill would never admit to actually liking them but he would add subtle hints. He has a lot of self pride and even hearing you saying anything with him being at least a little vulnerable or dependable on you is embarrassing for him. Take it easy with him, he's not used to affection despite the fact that he's all touch-touch with other people just to be a bit proactive. He's not used to anyone suddenly touching him or being physical. Physical with others, not affectionate. Well, as physical as it can get between the mindscape and physical world.

Considering all your traits it won't be a big surprise when you two start dating. He'll probably be the first to ask you out. You will most likely not even get a chance considering him. His way of asking you will most likely take place in the mindscape or a dream you're having. He'll play around with the environment and make it more liking to your interests.

This is where your affection might show the most towards him. And he'll be honest he didn't expect THIS much. He doesn't hate it! Far from it actually, he loves it. Absolutely adores your physical behavior towards him. Constantly pouncing on him with a hug and a kiss in the mindscape will make him fume bright red and a pink glow. He just melts then and there. Your aggression is just the icing on the top for him. Thing is, because of you affection he might take it for granted at times. Being so used to affection and he might even crave it at times. Cute at first but later it might just turn needy and possibly a bit annoying. So no matter how much self control it takes maybe slow down a bit on the affection.

HE IS SO FUCKING TOUCH-STARVED HOLY SHIT. Ever since he started to have more than fond feelings for you he just kind of subconsciously craved your touch. Interlocking hands with you, hugging, you kissing him and hand holding. Although hand holding might make him feel a bit queasy after a long while.

He won't outright ask for you to touch him, he'll only hint. But if you do not take his hints he might just eventually ask you outright. Sure, a bit embarrassed and possibly a little red and pink but still asking straight-forwardly.

Plan a movie night with him and it will eventually turn into complete chaos. No matter how many things you might've tried to avoid. It will end up in flames and will not be calm eventually. Still don't know how he does it but it happens.

Your protective side may show more in weirdmageddon since that is when more shit actually happens. Bill could be talking to his henchmaniacs and suddenly BOOM you show up with protective arms around him and a glowering glare directed towards the poor henchmaniac. Bill might find it embarrassing at times but most of the time he finds it absolutely adorable. You think HE could get badly hurt? He's practically a god simply limited to a small space of the universe.

Let's just hope nothing bad ever happens. But otherwise a quite good relationship.

(Sorry for the long wait! Still I hope you enjoyed!)

[fierceawakening]

So, actual question about actual gaslighting:

Mom tells me that my birthday gift is a table from IKEA that she and dad are buying me. I'm happy about this, as I very much do need a table. The one I have is one they were getting rid of when they moved into an apartment more suited to them aging in place, and is a lovely table but is way the fuck too big for my small apartment so I'm happy about this.

We go to IKEA. Somehow they forget that this is an hour each way and everyone is frustrated and annoyed at the trip taking so long so we're all kind of snippy while we're there. Which is maybe not great but I'm just kinda, eh, shit happens, I'm finding a table. Whatever.

TO MY PERCEPTION, my mom has a thing about people getting snippy. She starts to get really nervous and uncomfortable and make a big deal out of it, where I personally would prefer we just all laugh it off. "Oh fuck, we're all tired and cranky and forgot how fucking HUGE an IKEA is. Ow, argh, welcome to the universe, we all want to commit murder now but are too tired, woe is us, ha ha ha." But, again, as I perceive it, this is Not Okay with my mom, who really wants everyone to act happy and grateful all the time. It's TO ME like she can't see grateful if you're not beaming, and it baffles me.

BUT I am not her, and I could be downplaying that I'm curt to the point of mean, so let's presume that I'm terrible and grouchy and should really be less of both given that this is a present for me. Okay. I suck. Let's go.

Well, things get worse. We go to have dinner after, and I say we should wait until we get back to town and know the restaurants, and that while I know she practices intermittent fasting religiously "it's never actually the end of the world to mess up your diet once due to extenuating circumstances, we can push dinnertime to 6:30."

Well she LOSES IT because I called her fasting a diet and we have an argument which culminates in us eating at a terrible Mexican place we all absolutely hate so it won't be 6:30 at which point she absolutely cannot eat.

We're all tired and grumpy and annoyed because that was exhausting They take the table home with them and tell me they'll come back tomorrow (today) to assemble it, and then, since this is about my birthday, we'll go out to lunch for my bday. (I could SWEAR I asked if it was OK that that would take attention away from Mother's Day and she said it's fine, but maybe I don't remember?)

Anyway, we're all still exhausted and kind of annoyed, and now we're assembling furniture. I'm tired and hungry and looking forward to lunch, and from MY PERSPECTIVE I'm still in a bit of a snippy mood but I don't THINK I'm doing anything terrible.

But she gets super upset. Why am I not happy? Why am I not excited? Why did I not immediately mention Mother's Day? And I'm just like oh man can I just focus on putting a table together? And she's like why am I talking in the way I'm talking? MY answer to which is that we're all tired and run down and it's normal, but she doesn't like this.

Finally she tells me that she's not going to go with me to lunch if "I can't behave decently."

I'm hurt about this, but I don't want to promise that I can "behave decently" because I know from experience that trying to mask in front of her makes things worse, not better.

So I say, "You need to make up your own mind. I am not sure I can mask my snippiness until I have eaten and calmed down. If this is a dealbreaker for you, please just drop us off and we'll catch back up with you. If it's not, I'll probably be fine once I've rested and have some food in me."

I feel like this makes sense, and actually even like maybe it would help! I can't vow to never be visibly tired or annoyed, but I can be aware she dislikes it and tell her I'll catch her later when it won't put her on edge.

But her reaction to that is basically that I want license to behave badly, and that I don't care about her enough to "be decent." She goes with us, but the whole time talks about how unfair it is that I be allowed to "not be decent."

I eat the food and enjoy the restaurant, and as I predicted, this helps me to feel calmer and present as less obviously irritated. I am hurt deeply by the "not decent" remark but able to hide those feelings as I'm calmer. Everything is fine. Ish.

...

AITA or is she? I mean, I think she is, but... if I am abusive or cruel and giving myself a pass, I feel like I should know that.

I just... Idk. I don't feel like anyone else does this. Like, friends and loved ones have seen me annoyed. And they don't necessarily like it, but there isn't the same sense that I'm incapable of being decent.

Dafuq do I do about this? I love my mom but I'm so tired of feeling like I can't just... be pissed off, lest it hurt her in some way, when it seems like me being pissed off in front of other people is treated like it's, maybe not perfect, but normal.

[mimikoolover]

I saw your post and i think your feeling are valid, but I've noticed that the kpop industry is starting to sorta normalize dating, which is a good thing. There were a ton of couples exposed a bit ago, and only 1 got backlash. I think whatever the outcome is, jimin will be fine. Bts have such a strong fanbase and they have so much fame that it won't affect them in the slightest. Just look at Taehyung he had the 2nd best selling album last year despite the taennie drama.

Now, one thing I do wanna say is I think people need to stop calling that woman names and making her look bad. The truth is we have no idea if they're truly dating, dated, or have some type of friendship. So digging and trying to find dirt on her is a bad move because that WILL damage jimins rep if any of those allegations are true. As fans, we need to know our place because I'm sure jimin wouldn't like it if we were calling someone he knows a hag, ugly, attention seeker etc.. & we also don't want him to go down the same road as hyuna.

nah she started this, if people want to dig up dirt on her it's because of her own actions. fuck around and find out kinda deal. what I wish people would do is ignore her clout chasing ass. you think her putting jimin's career in danger is cute? tae had a good selling album because no one believed teannie because half his fans are tkkers and they wanted to be delusional. plus they never confirmed taennie. you're acting like hybe confirmed jimin dating this bitch. we don't know if he's even beyond acquittances with the bitch if he even knows her fr. let's see the leaked pics of them together oh she couldn't post that? if jimin comes out and owns this woman then fine. until then it's fair play.

if she really dated/s jimin then she could always choose to be quiet. it's not a requirement for her to chase clout on insta.

btw the one that had backlash is the same one who was on the front page of the BBC website here in the uk. that's a massive deal. if you want jimin to be in the news for relationship drama then that would be shocking.

I'm sorry for responding in a rude way but I can't imagine anyone defending a 33 year old (in June) clout chaser.

[cuntess-carmilla]

You know what terrifies me about the massive way in which the trad goth look is spreading on TikTok?

You look at someone dressed in other types of goth fashion and you can't really know for sure that they're a goth. So many people who're not fans of the goth music scene dress like us; metalheads, rivetheads, cyber"goths", and just regular degural people (music-wise) who happen to like the fashion.

Unless they're wearing band merch, or they mention out loud what music they like, or something else like that, just because someone dresses gothy doesn't mean they're a goth. There's a huge chance you'll go up to them thinking they're one of your people, and mention your favorite band, and they'll have no fucking idea what you're talking about, even if by goth standards the band you mentioned wasn't obscure.

But someone dressed like a trad goth? At least until about now, you knew that if you saw some freak (affectionate) with massive teased hair, monochrome makeup, pikes and leather, they were a goth for sure.

However, it's starting to worry me that the look on social media is more and more uniform? Like, the white face paint. I'm not gonna act like it wasn't kinda popular among trad goths before but now it feels like it's a REQUIREMENT. There were plenty of trad goths of all skin tones who used to embrace a normal skin tone. By now, I'm starting to be incapable of telling these people apart from each other. Also the white face paint is ugly yes offense.

Anyways, same dresses, exact same hair at the exact same length, exact same makeup, even exact same room decor, and so on. You know what it means when a look becomes so standardized that everyone who does it looks the exact same? It means it's ready for mass reproduction, like a starter kit, including the chance of it being sold back to us by corporations.

My reluctant prediction is that in some time from now, the trad goth look is gonna lose that factor of "At least I'm sure YOU are an actual goth just by looking at you".

Soon enough, there'll be TikTokers who'll look like they came right off of Propaganda magazine in the early 90s, and they won't even know who Bauhaus are. And just like with all the other goth looks, it's not that they're gonna rival the actual goths wearing the look; they're gonna be the majority by very far.

[zeroducks-2]

(Espero que se me sea entendible)

Que opinión tienes de que Eo haya dicho:

"because it's the only time you'll spend with me."

En vez de:

"because it's the only time I'll spend with you

Te entiendo sì :) Sorry my Spanish isn't good enough for a complete answer but I do understand it well enough.

So the reason why Eo says "It's the only time YOU will spend with me", and not "the only time I will spend with you", is because he does spend a lot of time with Barry even if Barry is normally not aware of it.

Eo follows him around, spies on him, literally stalks him day and night and keeps him under control, he does spend a lot of time with him. It doesn't work the other way around though! Barry doesn't know Eo is there (and even when he suspects it, they don't really interact), so he doesn't in fact spend time with Eobard in return. It's a one way thing in which Eobard watches and looks and observes but never acts, like when he came back from the however many years he was tortured in prison and started just following Barry around, watching him without ever interacting (Eo was being ridiculously shy about it, and the funny thing is that at that point, Barry would have likely been happy to see him and greeted him like an old friend).

Conversely, when Eobard is actively making his life impossible, Barry is forced to react to the things he's put through, therefore he will "spend time with him".

See, Eo has this distorted view of relationships in which spending time with a loved one means that the ONLY WAY he has to be noticed and get the other person to give him attention, is through breaking things. As a child he was ignored by his parents who locked him in a playpen and never even turned towards him, and the only way he had to get them to pay attention to him was to break expensive toys. That would get his father to finally notice his existence and beat him up, which hey, I'm sure it won't traumatize a small child at all!

If you can go past the terrible art, this is what his life has been like for a good chunk of his childhood (then his parents genetically engineered another child and forced him to be his little brother's primary caretaker, while continuing to treat him like garbage).

And sure, now Eobard isn't a child anymore, but the 25th century is a bleak place and beside for the Flash comics he found refuge and comfort in, he didn't have any other guardian figure (or any friend really) who taught him how love even looks like. So, when Barry loses his entire shit in Running Scared, absorbs the Negative Speedforce and beats the everliving hell out of him, from Eobard's perspective he's still giving him attention! It worked, he broke "enough toys" to get Barry to spend time with him! ... In the sense that he was a menace for long enough and threatened Iris enough times, and it's interesting to me how in Running Scared he is so disoriented and so overpowered that he could do 200% more damage, but truly his only goal is getting Barry to spend time with him therefore he keeps said damage to a minimum.

He could have killed Ace, but he just tossed him around a bit. He could have killed Iris, and he barely even touched a hair on her head. He brought her to the 25th century after realizing that she didn't remember barely anything about him (unacceptable! One of the most important people in his life forgot shit about him!!), but beside scaring her, the whole RS arc ends with Iris sporting not even a bruise. The entirety of Running Scared could be summarized with "local time traveler gets brought back to life by his crush, is disoriented as fuck and in his need for attention makes a mess and gets himself killed again (by his other crush)". And in my strictly personal opinion, the reason why his antics look especially childish in Running Scared also comes from the fact that he's indeed extremely disoriented, both by the whole flashpoint paradox situation (he can't forget anything while everyone else has altered memories!), and by the fact that he literally just died and came back to life. Imagine the headache.

[nochi-quinn]

candela obscura chapter 4 episode 1 act 1: bleeding out

why is this episode 5 hours long, you can't do this to me, I'm sick

I also hope Aimee is tempered somewhat by the setting, she's usually too Up for me and I'm not at 100 as it is

don't ask me why opal is the exception to this, my love for the crown keepers does not follow logic

"fire."

bisexual lighting

heart. liver. lungs. nerves.

stop saying 'throbbing'

oldhair

last voyage of the dandridge

"that's right, none of you have said a word and I am COMING FOR YOU"

taliesin's hair is a normal color and I'm uncomfortable

LIAM we are five minutes in don't do that to yourself

the eyeliner is doing Things for taliesin

that cravat pin

glasses!

the fact that I'm pretty sure this is all stuff taliesin already owned

can we use this opportunity to make fun of taliesin's mollymauk voice

I missed Alex, I had to nope out of LAbN eventually

everybody just has such good names

oh, taliesin as a dandy is going to do me in

yes, the aorta, famously located in the upper thigh

I know he corrected himself, it's just funny

"a child's coffin" I know damn well you had a better comparison than that, you just went with the creepy one

Grimoria

oh we love a mononym

oh I'm already yawning and it's fucking with my sinuses, this is not auspicious

blood for the blood chest

"I hate ALL OF THIS. SO MUCH."

no way sunny makes it out of here

taliesin's little snaps at alex's six

"I just bought this vest."

oh I missed alex so much

taliesin what are your hands doing

the cardigan is off, I repeat, the cardigan is off

taliesin your drives

"she's lost in your eyes" understandable

oh leo's very sweet

he's a complete charlatan but he's very sweet

"candela" is becoming "yahtzee"

don't know why it tickles me so much that they're using alex's full government name in the subtitles

not the face!

lights??

aw hell

auuugh texture crawlies

should I stay or should I go (into the drink)

he's gonna need those later

I mean he needs them now but he's absolutely going to need them later

"do I want to let you swim back on that six" "you do."

"because I'm a little shit"

"charm bracelet in hell"

thanks I hate it

ghost friends are still friends

as long as she doesn't drill a hole in her head to let them out

"this young woman is now an old man" reverse jadzia dax

"but does HE have spells"

I had to step away, did they kill grimoria

"as the surgeon you are" night surgeon maybe

grim that's so fucking cute

THIS IS A VERY EARLY BREAK FOR A 5-HOUR EPISODE LIAM

we all know liam can't resist a cutesy nickname

I tried to start midst at one point, I need to try again

dead people living in it

I adore liam and aimee

"he does scream, I won't roleplay that" oh this? this is the time you won't roleplay the scream?

okay the congestion is fucking me up, I'm calling it here and catching the VOD for the other three quarters. have fun watching Liam bleed everyone to death.

[sburbian-sage]

there's some weird ass time bullshit going on in my session right now. so I'm a Time player right now, and the whole thing was going pretty normally until future me pops up and starts insisting that this one girl in our session needs to end up dead, and soon. something about her being alive causes a doomed timeline, apparently??? future me was vague on the details, and I really don't believe him on this. I'm not arranging someone's death, but future me has told me outright he's killing her if I don't make it happen somehow. so what the fuck.

Let's break this down.

The only circumstance in which someone "needs" to die to avoid a Doomed Timeline would be if their death was witnessed at some point in the future. If a player is dead, they're dead, but Time Players can save lives by making the death retroactively not happen. They can't defuse a bomb that killed a player who died by explosion, but they can slip in and extract the player right before the bomb explodes, making it look like the player was obliterated when in truth they survived. For your Future Self to be telling you that *you* need to orchestrate this death, all of the following needs to be true.

Your Future Self witnessed the player die.

Your Future Self remembers having orchestrated the death in the past (when they were you).

Your Future Self remembers being informed that they needed to do this in the past (when they were you) by their own Future Self.

This is, unfortunately, completely plausible. If your Future Self's Future Self (when they were you) was cryptic and vague about the details, they are forced to also be cryptic and vague about the details in order to "close the loop". Which means that when you become your Future Self, you'll have to tell your Past Self the exact same cryptic and vague dialogue. The only possible discrepancy is "if you don't do it, I will". This is impossible, because your Future Self already remembers this happening. There was only one course of events, either you killing the player or you not killing the player (which sets up your Future Self killing them, making you an unwitting accomplice to yourself). But it's entirely possible that, this already having happened, this is less of an if/than statement and more of a psychological gambit to ensure that you take the course of action that you ended up already taking in the future.

This sounds really bad, because it is, but unfortunately the only winning move is "trust your elders". Whether your Future Self is legitimately going to kill your coplayer, or it tricking you into *thinking* that you're killing your coplayer, you're forced to go along with it. Attempting to prevent the situation from happening would cause a Doomed Timeline, and attempting to "trick" your Future Self into thinking that the player is dead won't work, because they'll remember having pulled that trick, and thus this will all have gone according to plan (regardless of whether or not the plan is legit, or serves some other purpose). If your Future Self is intent on making sure that a coplayer dies, the only person who could possibly save them would be *their* Future Self. Meaning that you, once again, have to trust your elders. The upside is that regardless of what happens next, you will eventually gain the same information that your Future Self gains, which will allow you to act with discretion in the future. Potentially even becoming the Future Self's Future Self that saves said coplayer.

Of course, me telling you this means I'm also informing your Future Self of the exact same information, because you will eventually become your Future Self. Which is why I hate Time questions like this. I don't wanna be involved in whatever this is, because now *my* actions are influencing *your* Alpha Timeline. Tip for all aspiring Timelords (not Lords of Time, or Smiths of Time if you're using the correct name), the less people ("people" includes more instances of yourself) involved in time-travelling shenanigans, the less chances everyone involved has to seriously screw up everything.

[deimosbreakfrost]

hey. just wanted to let you know i blocked you and i have no plans of undoing that in the forseeable future. i guess you were fine at first but there's just so many things that i can't ignore!!!! why do you say the F slur so continously!!!!! there's no need!!!!!!!

also why do i have to be an "exception" to the no furries or therians rule? you already told me why but honestly it's fucking bullshit. sure you might've had bad experiences but being so aggressive towards people that are having fun and doing nothing to you personally is just weird. i don't even wanna be an exception at that point, it makes me feel gross that people in my other communities just won't be accepted by you!!!

and one more thing, don't fucking reblog a birthday post my friend makes with "aw man i miss sigmxnd.. huff sigh....." and then CONTINUE by sending them an ASK saying the same goddamn thing??? that's weird as fuck to do that period, but also on a post that's not even about you. vent in your own posts. what are you even doing bro

that's all i wanted to say. answer this or don't, i couldn't give less of a fuck

– sigmxnd

I don't want to sound ignorant but this ask is a 50/50 for me. 50% that's IT'S you and 50% that it's not. Ok let me start:

1. "Why do you say the f slur so continuously! There's no need!"

Look. I'm a gay guy, there is nothing wrong with I saying it. And I don't have any memory of me using the f slur to refer to someone, some character or other people that I barely know/interacted with.

And also, what's wrong with that? If you actually gave a fuck about me saying it, you could talk to me saying that you feel uncomfortable or don't like me saying it (or even say more earlier that you don't want to talk to me)

2. Being "aggressive" with furries/therians?

Really? Dude. I don't and NEVER shit-talked about them or went aggressive towards someone from those communities. What proofs do you have that I was or am aggressive towards them? The "please fuck off" part from the pinned post?

Woah, sorry for feeling uncomfortable and afraid of something happening to me whenever a furry/therian that I barely know or trust interects to me.

3. The birthday post

Okay, sorry about that. But also, how did you expected me to be when someone that I talked with randomly disappears from the app? Just act that I never knew you at all?

I Know that you know, but I ain't and never was the type of person that just forgets about someone that I got attached with whenever they just disappears and stop talking with me without explaining it.

4. "Answer this or don't, I couldn't give less a fuck"

You are already giving a fuck when you randomly appears like a ghost and starts explaining why. And also... Why don't you just show your face?

I'm not saying this to say that "oh, you should show to me how you look irl" I'm saying: why are you sending a anonymous ask if it's actually you? Why don't you just send the ask in your normal blog if it's you then? I don't think you did this for "safety" because I ain't a major threat, and i can't do or say anything to you since I'm blocked

But anyways, thanks for waisting my time and making me realize that someone I knew now can count as my enemy because they can't explain their actions, and magically expect me to realize that I was being "aggressive"

Goodbye graceful, I'm so ungrateful.

[snorkling-in-sodasea]

My Thoughts on Oops

Well, I guess I wanna give my thoughts over the newest Helluva Boss episode, Oops. At least on some things, I either won't go over every single detail or just summerize. At the very least, I'll go over big things. Also, yes, I read other posts on this site. Because that's what I do with every single episode of Helluva Boss (which seems to be some of the only reasons I even bother with this show anymore; it's more enjoyable to hear what other people think of the show than watching the show)

Anyways, I think I'll drop to Blitz's defense on something here, before getting mad at him. (I'll get mad at Stolas right from the get-go, though, so when I bring him up, well, you've been warned right here). Getting on with it, Blitz's defense is when he's skeptical of Stolas's affection. He says that Stolas asks about Blitz's day, comments on his drawings, and laughs at his jokes. Well, the first two things happened OFF-screen. Seriously, I should have seen this shit ON-screen if I'm supposed to even begin rooting for this relationship. As much as some people claim it's not horrid, or toxic as others would say, Stolitz is definitely problematic as all fuck and I can't with it. Seriously, I can't even care about Blitz and Stolas as individual characters. How am I supposed to care about their not-yet relationship or even just the two of them when they're together?

But yeah, Fizz makes it sound like Blitz is just being his usual paranoid-of-love self when the latter refuses to believe that. The episode in general depicts it that way. But I at least don't blame Fizz for being judgmental like that. After all, it's been established at the start of the episode that they only met twice in fifteen years. And Stolas is no doubt a complete stranger to Fizzarolli prior to the episode Ozzie's. How the fuck is Fizzarolli supposed to know how Stolas is like on a normal basis, let alone how he's like with Blitz? It's a complete outsider's perspective. Not to mention, Fizz still hated Blitz at the time so he's bound to not have a lot of patience or understanding for Blitz's problems.

Not to mention, even if Stolas is one of the good ones, that's just it. He's one of the good ones. It's like when you accidentally botch in baking a batch of cookies but then you find one that's not so burnt compared to the others. It's not that hard to like that cookie over the others. Except if we were to think about that metaphor again, then that means that Stolas is still burnt. Thanks to the kind of environment and background he comes from, Stolas still got negatively affected by it all; it's just not to the same extent as the other Geotia. (Not that I'm thinking Stolas is really a good person when it comes down to it. Remember that cookie metaphor I just made, please) So yeah, that not I really care about Blitz and I'm bound to never do so, but he's right to be skeptical of a doting and/or attentive streak that's coming from someone who never acted that way before.

Now here comes the starting paragraph where I thoroughly don't give a shit about him and will likely make that perfectly clear for the remainder of this post. Just so you know. And I think I'll start by the fact that, as right as he is in this episode, he's still a insecure jackass who keeps bringing others down just to prop himself up. It's been established in my head since the end of season 1, like second to last episode for sure, and that opinion has only been going strong throughout season 2. Granted, not my only problem with Helluva Boss but I'm sure you can take some guesses. I'm bound to have the common opinions as anyone who dislikes or even hates the show within logical reason.

But yeah, Blitz actually spills his guts to someone, voluntarily, and it's to someone who wouldn't give a shit about his personal problems. Fuck, is he inept with feelings. How he became that emotionally constipated is one thing but it pisses me off that he's just lived his life like this. If he was an antagonist character, a side character, or (most preferably) a minor character, then I wouldn't have to care. Instead, I gotta get fucking angry since, for all my personal reasons for continuing to watch this show, I'm usually stuck watching this grown-up little boy who fully embraces the sex part of adult life because he apparently thinks it's all you need to be grown up like real grown ups.

Then there's the fact that Blitz is all 'you got no idea what I lost in the fire'. Maybe that line would have worked better for Barbie. Maybe. If only because, since she's female Blitz, she's bound to be so full of herself to not realize it's all about her. Except Blitz is making it all about him because he's saying it to a guy who fucking LOST HIS LIMBS. And since Fizz lost his limbs, he lost along with those limbs his agency, his future, his very way of life... That's not even getting into the fact that Fizz is bound to have lost people he cared about. Seriously, it's super unlikely that Blitz is the only imp at the circus who lost someone to that fire and I'm not just talking about the fact that Tilla was supposed to be Barbie's mother, too. Seriously, 'you got no idea what I lost in the fire' has got to be one of the most insensitive things ever to say to someone like Fizz.

Speaking of, Tilla. I didn't feel it as strongly as Moxxie's mother but I felt instantly positive that the implications of Tilla's death was just for the sake of feeling more bad to Blitz. Well, guess what? I got a dead mom, too, and I felt shit for Blitz because he's shit. And the poor woman, Tilla. I can't feel bad that she died, too. I mean, she's the opposite to Moxxie's mom. Moxxie's mom showed up on-screen and we see her do things, even if they are just centered around males. Yet the lady was never given a name; Viv gives so many names to background characters I would never think about otherwise but she couldn't be bothered to give the mother to one of the main characters a fucking name. As for Tilla, though, she was name dropped but never made any appearances. So I can't feel bad that Tilla died because I never even got to see her. And since Viv and the other members of her crew are relying on me to give a fuck about Blitz to give a fuck about Tilla's death, then anyone who reads my posts know just how well that worked.

Stolas is a funny story. I'm happy to see that Stolas is an awful character now because, otherwise, I wouldn't be giving hate to a character who really deserves it. Especially since the show won't do it anymore... In any case, I didn't like Stolas's appearance here. The confession meant nothing; I knew it's just shipping bait. I got annoyed over him going over the contract; I felt like it was just some attempt to make Stolas look badass. Stolas says that last line; I think 'just go away already'

Striker and Crimson were a surprise but the episode seems to just treat them like mooks. Seriously, Exes and Oohs made a big fucking deal over how menacing Crimson was. (Sure, he's not actually a threat because his gang sure wasn't and, given Crimson's hiring criteria, sure isn't now) And if Crimson actually dies via collapsing building, then Moxxie got cheated of getting the last stand over his FUCKING FATHER. And yeah, Crimson really isn't that different from our protagonists in terms of vileness, but I could at least tell he was an antagonist character so you'd think you want Moxxie, the SON, to get the last stand, not a guy Crimson just remembered meeting once and someone Crimson never met before. And rest in peace, Norman Reedus Striker, I don't think we'll ever get you again... which makes me wonder why Edward Bosco couldn't just have voiced Striker from the fucking start. At least we wouldn't know that we'd miss Norman Reedus Striker.

Really, my only enjoyment from the episode was Ozzie and Fizz, especially when they were together. The banter, the antics, the communication, the nickname Fizzie Frog... the sex-related stuff was even tolerable with those two. I'd want the show to be about these two instead of Stolas and Blitz, especially in how that relationship got got formed, but then that probably means letting Viv and her crew be in charge of the writing. So I think I'll stick to fanfics, especially ones made from more passionate writers who at least try making a good story

[softue]

But they can't know.

Let's start off strong but saying I love them, but I can't use that word. So I just say I like them. It's something about them, when they speak, sing, dance (some of the funniest shit I've ever seen, in a cute way), or just sit there. I feel obsessed every time I dream, I wish I could tell them about my dreams. The dates, the ups and downs, the conversations. It all feels so real, I wish it was real. They can't know though. They're unsure and that's okay, I can wait. Right? I think I can, I want to. I want to wait, so they can be better. I know I'll probably just rush things and fuck it up, like normal. That's okay, I think. I just, want to tell them. That someone in this world cares, no matter what they do. I wish they would understand that my love isn't based off of actions they do or appearances they put up. I love the good and the bad, the dark and the light. Cringe shit, I know. It's true though, everything they do. Every word they speak, breath they take, thought they think, and muscle they move. I think it's all beautiful, but they can't know that. I don't want to scare them off, or make them feel rushed. Even if they end up feeling different, I don't want them feeling guilty. I won't act like they don't have flaws, but I don't mind. I want to work through them, lifting them up to be a better person. They can't know that though. Will they ever? Will they ever see themselves how I see them? I wonder how they see me? I feel like I'm not worth their time honestly, like I'm just there. Wasting their time, like a toy. I don't see what they see in me, which is why I wonder if they see anything at all. They can't know that though, it could make them realize they don't love me. If they do, cool. If they don't, cool. I can't change their mind, I just want them to feel loved. They can't know that though, or I might fuck things up. I can't fuck this up.

I wonder how they'd react to my past? My "issues". I've wanted to tell them at some point, but I'm too scared. They might see the old me for who I truly was, and always have that fear he might return. Which I wouldn't blame them, I'd worry too. I was an ass, a dick, a fuck-up. I sit awake thinking about how much I hate him, myself. Is it because I see my father in him? Is it because I'm scared of what I've done? Is it because I'm scared he'll come back? I think that's my worst fear, especially right now. I can't do that to them, I wouldn't. I couldn't. They don't deserve it, nobody does. Ruining trust, self image, causing scars, using people and bragging about it. It makes me sick, my stomach turns thinking about it. Then I think of them, and how kind they are. Even when they do things I dislike, I can't stay mad. I know that my anger in that moment isn't worth throwing away the joy I get from hearing that joy in their words, seeing the worry and stress leave. Even if it's for a second. All that weight on their shoulders, I wish I could take some off. Carry their burdens for them. Make them our burdens and worries, so they don't have to go through it alone anymore. God I love them, I'm madly in love. I think. I want to be sure, I need to be sure. That's why I need to wait, I couldn't bear ruining that word for them like everyone else. I feel like a stalker sometimes, even in my dreams. I watch, reading their face. Oh my God. That face. They will never understand how genuinely attractive they are. I don't care what anyone else says, it's not your type? Cool, that's fine. It's mine. I don't even care about looks, never have. Though they made me feel something, other than lust. It's a warm thumping in my stomach. Taking my words away with those eyes, how I could stare till the sun explodes. Everyone's eyes tell a story, and their story is one of the most stunning pieces I've ever read. They can't know that though. What if they don't think of me like that? I know I'm not the hottest guy, I'm aware. So I worry that I won't look good enough. That I'm not their type, but they can't know that. That's an ick.

Even when they put effort into looking nice or don't, I'll still think they are the prettiest thing I've ever seen. My golden Aphrodite, the deathless, the laughing one. Though they can't know that.

If I could tell them anything, anything at all. I'd say "I know I said I'd sleep. I'm sorry I lied, I hate when I do that. I didn't mean too. I just needed to get my thoughts out. I hope you don't mind(?). Nothing's changed, I just needed to vent my thoughts. It's easier this way then telling you. Take you're time, I don't mind. Waiting is what I'm here for. Figure yourself out, I'm here to help. I care so much about you, more than a friend? Yes. Though I still care, I care enough that I want you in a healthy spot. In every way. With or without me, I don't care as long as you're at your best. (I really hope you don't read this before work). From your Shining Star." But I can't. So they'll never know.