#because i'm too stupid to write a text post abt it

[lemm-moxx]

Dude i really need to write a proper post abt monstale this aus been brewing for over 2 years 😭

[gontagokuhara]

Just went on Instagram to look at more DR art (because tumblr won't let me see a lot of DR art for some reason) and saw hinanami discourse out in the wild which made me say, out loud, "oh, are we still doing this 💀"

Like idk if I've just aged out of the fandom (on Instagram) but just seeing that hinanami rant made me realize I've been spoiled by the DR community on Tumblr bc I'll scroll on here for 2 minutes and see a text post that will literally SHIFT my entire view of a character/ship and CHANGE my LIFE in just a small analysis that was probably written by op while they were on the toilet💀

Anyway it made me think of the post about Maki and Chappel Roan that I actually recited by memory out loud to my friend last night [gooning over wlw content together after watching Muriel's Wedding], And also that one post abt Monomi and Monokuma being Junko's satire of her own rivalry with Mukuro, and Junko not liking that her friends don't appreciate her fursona doing stand-up 💀💀 and like compare that to Instagram discourse and it's like "Komahina is stupid bc hinata isn't straight" like 💀

Anyway maybe it was the same on tumblr before [it probably definitely was] but now that I'm older I'm really appreciating mature convos/takes about danganronpa because good fanfiction/fanart/fan interpretations are truly adapting the story+characters in much better ways than the creators could ever imagine circa 2010 [pointy objects] [peaches and cream] [anything w/autistic nagito] [anything w/transmasc hajime]

number one rule of modern fandom experience (at the very least with media that has a propensity to draw Certain Crowds [looking especially hard at danganronpa and p5]) is CURATE YOUR OWN SPACE AND STRAY NO FARTHER ‼️‼️‼️ i personally escaped the early era dr fandom (pre v3 localization/the 2019 Danganronpa Renaissance) but time capsule posts tell me i dodged something of a bullet there ❤️ in that vein 2019/2020/covid era discourse was still crazy insane (<- was a part of it for sure LMFAO) but it had a much different Flavor than it did way back when. and the same is true of present-day: still a little kooky if you search hard enough (insta/tiktok/twitter/tumblr all have their own demons). but at least This go around i have largely avoided that by picking my people that i trust not to be Weird and just living in my own bubble wrt the dr fandom at large. and thats served me very well the past year+ since i got back into dr <3 and i have also seen MANY of those perspective-altering posts in that little curation circle that has deepened and made better my experience THE GOOD IS OUT THERE ‼️‼️‼️

THE JUNKO FURSONA POST ALSO LIVES IN MY BRAIN its so real and just one of many takes i’ve seen fly by in a post and been like This is so real and it’s mine now. many such cases <3 i follow people like that and simply block people expending energy on discourse i DOOOOOONT care about. like simply enjoy kmha (I SURE DO ‼️‼️‼️) if you like it and ignore hnmi/kmnmi if you dont (cant relate I LOVE YOU TOO HINANAMI + KOMANAMI ‼️‼️‼️) and live your life happy not angry ❤️

like re: maki lesbianism (which was written on the toilet no lie) she is The most lesbian of all time i could write 10,000 scholarly articles on her comphet + traumatic past of being made to hurt people keeping her from fully coming to terms with herself as a lesbian and as someone who wants to Protect the people she loves (an integral pillar of butchness!!!!!!!!) and it is so important to me. and MANY people disagree! and i simply just dont worry about it <3 but i DO think about the people that agree (and the people who i Influence to agree…..that makes me so happy to hear you talking about it with people :D) and that makes fandom FUN!!!!! not arguing over word of god or whatever that isn’t going to change anyone’s opinions anyway 😭

there is a LOOOOOT of good discussion and character/scene analysis and genuinely fun unique takes on tumblr (+ im sure other places but i rly only interact with dr on her & Occasionally by liking a twt post on my main) and that’s where i’ve made my niche <3 people having fun with the media they enjoy and trying to salvage its shortcomings and missteps because they love it!!

and putting little old Me up amongst the dr goats (transmasc hajime) (autistic nagito)………..framing this ask tbh the HIGHEST honor 4 me……..thank you my beloved cider as always KISS MWAH MWAH

[troglobite]

cr discourse bullshit beneath the cut can't fit it in tags on a post

actually my main fucking issue is this:

ppl who are like "WELL C2 HAD COMPLAINTS, TOO! NOT EVERYONE LIKED THE FINALE! IT WAS SUPER DIVISIVE WHEN IT AIRED!!!!"

....if by divisive you mean like a small percentage of people going "wahhhh caleb and essek didn't kiss >:("

like did we WATCH the same finale?

anyway whatever that's not actually my main complaint or issue

it's actually this:

they say that^^ shit up there. as if minor, petty, particular complaints from shitass fucks who can't pay attn to a text or listen to the ppl creating the story

are somehow the same thing as

"hey what happened to that permadeath poison you invented?"

or

"so that major plot beat just has no consequences? cool."

or

"okay so the PCs are going to unilaterally make a decision, claim they didn't make the decision, and then get mad at anyone who says they made a decision. great."

a CAMPAIGN-LONG series of criticisms abt lack of consequences, abt no narrative throughline, abt PCs w no stakes, no serious ties to each other, no real reason to stay together, no real backstories (apart from one, hi liam), like NOTHING.

but that's definitely the same as "i can't believe beau and jester didn't fuck" or "i can't believe caleb and jester didn't fuck"

and the refusal to engage with fjorester as a deeply sweet and interesting story abt mixed race kids w different but sheltered and traumatizing upbringings who see delight in each other and bring out the best in the other

because it's. Straight?

meanwhile it was so compelling to play that travis "no in-game romances EVER" willingham finally romanced his own wife.

or ppl who refused to engage with caleb and veth bc i guess veth is ugly and her voice is weird and she's short and fat and brown and a mom. even though veth and caleb's relationship was just so compelling, i LOVED their dynamic.

but yeah somehow less interesting than [looks at smudged writing on hand] two skinny white bitches who whine and complain and blame everyone else for their problems and don't have anything real for the foundations of a relationship

basically what i'm getting at is this--

in order to defend c3--which you don't HAVE to. you can enjoy something shitty, or even disagree that it was shitty. you don't have to defend it, you can just. fucking enjoy it--people are magnifying the minor (and stupid, petty, baseless) complaints abt c2, mainly.

interesting that c2 is the ONLY CAMPAIGN with more than one PC who wasn't white.

beau, veth, fjord, and arguably jester, as the latter two are mixed race.

and the last two are particularly important bc it was RELEVANT to their stories. it wasn't so much relevant for mollymauk or caduceus, so i don't really include them.

it was the most colorful and nuanced party so far. they really DID deal w societal & interpersonal & identity issues in a way that was compelling for ppl and felt reflective of their experiences.

veth was The Character for trans rep, mixed race stuff, disability, body image issues/body dysmorphia, etc.

fjord & jester were abt childhood trauma, struggling to find identity, and being mixed race

beau was slightly less abt race, but was abt the struggle of being seen as aggressive or less socially graceful, abt being unable to live up to familial expectations, abt extra expectations being placed on her. as well as the whole kidnapping storyline to "get her into line/shape" which was resolved with something we'd all love to see: actual justice. the organization reckoning with its culpability for allowing someone to do something so heinous. promoting beau, making changes in the org, etc.

i can't say the same for fucking anyone in c3.

it feels like this:

nitpicking, idk, shakespeare over like. lack of clarity in a few lines. or discussing preferences and genre or something.

and saying that's the same thing

as offering serious criticism abt structure and themes to a classmate in a 100 level creative writing course

they're so vastly different, and it's fucking RIDICULOUS that so many people are willing to denigrate the WONDERFUL narratives of the previous two campaigns just to bolster shitty campaign 3.

reconcile the fact that you enjoyed a campaign that a lot of ppl--including cr defenders & enjoyers--think was just Bad, Overall. whether or not there were good moments or interesting choices, or whether the future of exandria is gonna be really fascinating.

just accept it and kindly move on.

reflect on the fact that you're shitting all over other things that you, also, probably enjoyed just to try and make c3 seem better than it is.

you're insulting the players and the audience by saying that narrative and themes don't matter.

but then turning around and in the same breath saying that c2 didn't have them, either.

except that they do, and it did.

just really pathetic Cope happening.

the number of ppl i follow or have read from who are DEEPLY critical of the campaign and still watched the whole thing and/or enjoyed many parts of it should go to show that it's not pettiness or shortsightedness or bias.

and also one of the main criticisms of this campaign is that two campaigns set in european-inspired empires with white/european-sounding/feeling shit dealt better with character interiority, Place and Setting, and social norms and consequences

WAY better than the ONLY campaign set in a NON european-inspired setting.

weird how veth, beau, fjord, and jester were better explorations of race and ethnicity and identity, as well as navigating them in society, than ever even came CLOSE to happening in c3.

weird how we know all the politics and ins and outs of everything in taldorei ("WHO'S ON THE COUNCIL?!") and the dwendalian empire, and even the kryn dynasty (and btw the exploration of THAT xenophobia re: the kryn dynasty, as well, in the book they were reading, etc.)

but nothing abt marquet or wherever the fuck they were like. ever mattered.

political higher ups and social norms didn't really matter. none of it did. even the guards and jails and all that shit didn't feel the same as c1 or c2.

the punches that were pulled STARTED with the setting and the refusal to engage with it, and the refusal to just invite longterm cast members of relevant cultural backgrounds to the table.

there was no investment in: setting, location, the gods, or each other.

this campaign, from all those angles, was bad.

and truly you're a fucking dipshit if you think that petty squabbles over shipping wars for c1 and c2 are the same.

ALSO ANOTHER THING.

people are MAINLY saying this shit abt c2. which, in my opinion, was even stronger than c1.

c1 was so tropey and overdone in a lot of ways. i enjoyed it, but it was White Heroes Galore. it got tiresome! it's a great story, but if pressed, c2 is heads and shoulders above c1 for me personally.

so i find it interesting that people AREN'T shitting on c1--which was messier as a livestreamed game bc it started as a home game, so it picked up in the middle of a quest we knew nothing abt and which had NOTHING to do with an overarching plot at ALL, which had an entirely white PC cast (once orion left--though he was a dragonborn anyway), and which followed the most well worn tropes of the genre.

but they ARE shitting on c2, which had a more diverse PC cast, more compelling and nuanced relationships, had a clearer goal with storytelling, had more unique and interesting themes (which ppl nowadays, and at the time, just flatten into schlocky found family), and which did NOT have a Grand Heroes Moment, but instead, had these heroes hiding from authority at every turn, had to convince everyone they were capable at every turn, made mistakes, dealt with the consequences, and never had an easy way out, and therefore learned to work together so well as a team that matt had to work overtime to create the ever-present threat of death for them.

m9 has already beaten vm in a battle royale.

they would beat bh, too.

m9 is the superior team, and they learned a LOT from streaming c1, and implemented it WONDERFULLY in c2.

they took a lot of risks and different angles in c2, and it was glorious.

so to be shitting on THAT campaign, out of the two available, says A LOT abt exactly WHY you're defending c3 so fucking hard.

[wabatle]

HEY BESTIE YOU KNOW I WAS COMING

sososo obvi bllk and you obvi alrdy know i am a girl and would like to be matched up w i boy (honestly what girl from bllk would youmatch me up with anyway💀.. egos assistant??)

for personality

i am a weirdo uhh my friends call me an anime nerd but i dont think in that much of one??

i am VERY sarcastic, savage, and snarky

traits are (plz dont take this as like bragging or anthying just being honest) humorous, uhh VERY soft hearted, kind of a pushover but i used to be a rlly big push over, in ambiverted but at first you would prolly think im introverted, oh im also kinda teasing and in very emotional i will cry if watching a sad movie and i get frustrated easily whicheventually makes me cry(crybaby ik)

oh another thing abt me is that im not rlly good at like expressing my emotions like thro words and sometimes in my face like sometimes i see like scenery for egi probably think it’s really pretty and like stunning and beautiful but like if you ask me what i think id prolly just say “oh its nice” like do yknow what i mean?? Same with my face like i always have a straight face unless in rlly happy that day and the only time ill like actually express my emotions is if youre talking to me or make me laugh

dam that was a lot

un ok for hobbies voice acting, gaming, watching anime, listening to music, writing, editing

kinda semi hobbies thati like but dont rlly do that much are baking and dancing

Things that make me feel negative? Hmmm not entirely sure what you mean by that but… i tii hi ink just negative stuff in general like i HATE movies or shows with sad endings they make me so sad and theres jo feeling of satisfaction at the end :((

Things that make me positive? Well it makes me rlly happy when i make other laugh or when ppl approach me or pop in my inbox like what im bot the one starting a convo fir once?? CRaZY

Someone i dint wanna be matched up with… hmm uhh well any of the side chars like the bald monk💀💀💀 i forgot if you even write for them but also others liek naruhaya and giganaru OH i dint wanna be match up with barou either

Idrc if you post this answering my ask or tagging but sometimes i like to read over my ask when someone answers it so actually could youanswer with my ask

OKAY THANKS POOKIE ❤️❤️❤️ DRINK WATERR

𓆩⚝𓆪 — @stellas-starry-stories13's Blue Lock Matchup~!

𓆩⚝𓆪 — A/N: It might be because you're biased and I'm biased but now I genuinely think you and this person are soulmates. ❤️ Ngl we're actually really similar lmaooaoaoao anyways enough of my yapping!!

𓆩⚝𓆪 — I think your Blue Lock soulmate is...

𓆩⚝𓆪 — Chigiri Hyoma!

I read the part where you said you were sarcastic, savage, snarky, and sassy and immediately said, "Chigiri."

You two are such a duo ngl. Like genuinely you guys are perfect for each other. Such a sassy couple like omg.....

The teasing is real. You probably tease each other so much like help.

Chigiri also isn't that great with expressing his feelings, so you both can help each other on that front. If, like in the example you gave me, you say a view is nice and he can tell you're not saying what you're thinking, he'll ask you, "what are you really thinking about?"

He'll def laugh at you if you're crying about a movie 💀. I'm sorry but he would.

He's pretty good at noticing when you're getting stressed or frustrated, so he'll remind you to take a break and watch something with him.

You definitely pick anime to watch together and watch at least one episode every time you see each other.

Similar to when people come into your inbox, Chigiri texts you every day, whether to ask you something or talk to you about stupid things.

It doesn't take him long to laugh at your jokes. Someone else said the same joke as you and he's just (ㆆ_ㆆ), but you say it and he's giggling.

I think he would like to take you to an arcade for dates. I mean, he's pretty much down for doing whatever you like as long as he can enjoy it too.

I hope you liked it! Thanks for the req Stella my pookie bear!!! 😍😍😍

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary295

7/10/24

wednesday

did a bit of writing today.

and the j-card is done. metadata undone, that changes 2morrow for sure...

all it takes to write is heat exhaustion and slightly fried nerves and dysphoria. so i guess mega fried nerves. and matcha.

here is da j-card:

i like how unreadable it is to beeeeeeeeeeeeeee honest. it's like it just makes you stare at the thing and the text just kind of melts into a mess. especially the big chunk there which is just every song title listed unspaced.

there's some stupid discourse out on the internet today, obviously i shouldn't look but there's some insanity about all the stuff going on re: sexual politics atm. the way people are throwing around 'sex positivity' which can really mean 30 different things, some of which were pretty minimal and like, don't judge people who have lots of sex because sex can be a thing that happens for all kinds of reasons, we ought to have conversations about sex outside of the regular assumptions re: desire and what it leads to, an aversion to moralism, or rather directionless 'having sex is liberating*' (* meaning: if you want to have sex), there is more here too.

really the baffling part for me, outside of the moralism, or i guess i should not say baffling, but it's generally how each generation seems to have bought more and more into the distinct generational character thing, creating insane stereotypes as if they're super real and just proceeding with a huge chunk of earth being those things and never really thinking about or interacting with, those people, or when they do, what they see are the assumptions/signs that they are what they imagine, and nothing else. and as this goes on, it strengthens each prior generation's notion that it is a thing unto itself, it solidifies against the stereotype as if that defends itself, or taking these features as points of pride rather than spectacular invention. this results in the kinds of millennial you see getting mad about eminem getting cancelled or this discourse about how millennials didn't know what boundaries were.

one thing lost in all this is the fact that the mid 00s were a horrific time to be feminine, thinking abt a lot of the ed stuff, the american apparel ads and so on (i recognize the irony in me saying this after posting that image i made where i am wearing american apparel thigh highs + the general uhm sexual nature of the cover and stuff but i'm messed up okay i don't want to get into it but i guess i have and i am crazy and whatever and i at least want to use that in a way that isn't me doing things that hurt myself okayyyyyyyyyyy), this wasn't liberating but it's also not because of 'sex positive feminism' that these images came to be, it's because of patriarchal exploitation and the pornographic gaze which is deeply bound to advertising already, a lot of these things remain the same, we have our current day forms of this. it's an issue that does not need to be so complicated and obfuscated by generational fingerpointing, but i think it feels good to do this, and this is the essential drive mobilized by posting inside the computer, the feeling good and right, and the invention of things to be right about, creation of logics which enable the rightness, and the ability to litigate truth with these methods, at their root they are not very complex usually, it's just about being able to 'see' a demographic and point at it. it goes beyond strawmanning to the point of really seeing people in a distorted way, not inventing them, but seeing them speaking, and not being able to understand because you know what they are already. it's wholly spectacular and strange.

anyhow, this is a pointless thing to look at. interesting to note i guess though. or useful for me. it does wig me out though, everytime you see surges of radical leaning or, idk, i don't think this is radical at all really, but this "radical" appearing way of thinking, you see terfs pop up, young ones too, that always wigs me out, they're funny though, not like in a good way, they're just, funny, as a notion i suppose.

anyway i need to sleep, i hope nobody finds my blog somehow over this and hits me with a t.i.m. moment, they love 2 hit that shit like the griddy.

oh one other thing, there was this british kid in the store today, he put a box of triscuits in his shopping cart, his mom asked what they were for as her and her friends were looking around for crisps, and he said "smores", and i felt so bad and i wanted to say something, as i stood there waiting for my girlfriend, like how he needs graham crackers for his smores and not triscuits but i didn't say anything but he put them away anyways. i am glad there was no tragedy but i feel bad that i might have enabled a minor tragedy in some way, that's kind of a stupid way to think but it's true . as in true that i felt that. or even feel it.

anyway

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sanchoyo]

ok as I was digging thru my old text posts looking for that one specific one abt doppelgangers I found a bunch of really funny text posts that, if you sort of go back in order on, perfectly capture me deciding to do the tm2 comic again. its kind of cute...

like ok, I made these ocs in 2014, and I did (2) failed attempts at webcomics before deciding not to mess with them for years (I mean, I drew them on and off, but a LOT more in recent years after feeling guilty for quitting their comic, I finally worked up the nerve to work on them again...)

in 2022 I was talking about doing a cute fanfic novelization of the story, with chapter illustrations! it wouldve been on ao3!! But I still obviously was conflicted, because a comic is the PERFECT medium for the story imo. there were some things I am just NOT a good enough writer to convey that my art can. (this is funny to say, because in general, I think my writing has gotten more attention overall!! I know a lot of my current followers are here from my ao3!!) not saying I don't LOVE writing, but a comic combines my writing and art....as much as I talked about writing this story out as a fic, I kind of always knew in my heart it was going to be a comic or nothing. it does make me a lil sad my fics get more attention, but those are usually canon characters and it feels like an uphill battle to get people to get people to care abt ocs, lol

midway into 2023 I was pretty sure of that. I kept joking around this time someone ought to tell me no/talk me out of it, because I'd failed twice and I KNEW how much work it was. but this is a story I've had in my brain for 10+ years!!! That's crazy!!! I LOVED making the comic. I did miss it!! I burned myself out, and that made me reluctant to return but enough time had passed I stopped being so embarrassed about failing and became nostalgic instead... this seems like such a small thing, but admitting this was so hard for me. because like. I didnt want it to be a fic. I didn't want it to be a series of stupid lore dump text posts. I wanted it to be a manga like the ones I spent my childhood hiding away and binge reading!!! I wanted to capture the feeling of huddling around a big clunky desktop computer and watching tmm on 3 parts on youtube!!!

A chapter a month is crazy, and I'm glad I didn't do that even if that's still a fear of mine. running out of time is a big fear I have, but I'm still trying not to burn myself out. but this is the text post that made me realize even when I was typing it like. yeah. yeah im doing this. I knew it would be niche. tmm has a small fanbase left and a smaller portion of those ppl are interested in a nextgen story like mine. its a specific type of people I think, lol. but this is MY story and its just like all my other stories in a way because its SO self indulgent. I don't know if its worth it sometimes!! I'm literally putting so much effort and some actual money into running the website but I do know I'm having fun and seeing my story start to come alive is CRAZY. I am really proud of myself no matter what. even if I end up quitting again (no plans for that rn, but uhh, you never know what could happen I guess??)

AND YEAH, I POSTED THIS THE NEXT DAY. I TOTALLY CEMENTED IT IN MY HEAD THAT ID DO IT AGAIN. CRAZY GUY DOES THING OVER AND OVER FOREVER, I GUESS.

I'm not rly sure this midnight ramble has a point, I guess I just wanted to say if any of you guys have a weird niche idea you want to do and think only you'd be interested in you should do it anyway and not worry too much because you might regret taking so long to actually do it. like I wish I hadnt quit, or had restarted it sooner!! and making yourself happy is important too. even if its something youve failed before you can just try again if you love it and really want to. like theres no one who's going to get mad at you or anything. really! you can do whatever! esp living in the uh..times we are rn... everyone needs at least one silly little thing to decompress with.

past me was right. you can have fun with it. its Whatever, dude.

(this makes me want to make the comic weirder and more experimental in the future. esp since ive been doing really weird traditional art in my sketchbook abt it. I love my ocs. :3c)

[jimmy-the-worm]

"My mom doesn't listen to two trucks anymore."

It's that sewage worm everyone loves!

I am a he/it/them because, well, mutated wormt boy.

Before you ask, no, I have no memory of life before I mutated. All I can remember is a gigantic truck running me over painfully until every single fiber of my being was torn apart.

i'm perfectly fine with it, but if you ask me, my mom's a bit... traumatized.

As a part-worm, I will need to go outside, so I may not interact with posts right away.

Other than that, I think i'm done here.

OOC: heres my main blog if you want it: @i-ate-all-of-my-toes

wormt boy is now on social media! This will totally NOT lead to the downfall of the earth.

Whenever you see bold purple text in a post, just know its me, the mod posting.

Romantic asks are fine, but no NSFW! This worm is a minor. I guess theoretically mean asks are fine, he's too stupid to understand anything.

information i guess because i was abt to freaking lore dump. This is constantly updated I TOTALLY RE-DID THIS THING A LITTLE BECAUSE HE'S SILLY AND I REALLY WANNA RP WITH HIM GRAHSGAHD

wormt boy is a pansexual. he has great interest in pans.

wormt boy has a slight case of adhd.

wormt boy can occasionally control the amount he sweats.

wormt boy can also be just wormt.

wormt boy has trouble knowing when people are mad. Vro can NOT read a room 🤣🤣🤣

as said before, he has no memory of before his intense mutation except from being run over brutally by a 14-wheeler. It appears in his dreams sometimes as some lsd flashback or something.

the radiational slime/goop is alive, but in a yeast type of way. Just spray it with water and it'll disappear.

Wormt boy is a MINOR. He may be 512 years old but he's still a technically a kid. Sexualize him and i'll punch you until your eyes fall backwards into their sockets.

if you pet the wormt, it purrs like a cat. Wormt boy will always accept headpats!

He has a good old case of short term memory loss and is a bit stupid. He's a worm, you can't really... expect much.

If you were wondering, his voice sounds like cavetown in "Boys Will Be Bugs"

I like to think that he'd draw really good realistic art because he draws instead of writing. He'd be better and scary good at drawing bugs realistically, though. Like the actual thing is on the paper.

He vomits Mercury! Yes, it looks extremely cool.

[salaapaoo]

University Violan x Jour au

Violan is obv an art major, maybe aiming to become a teacher as well?

Jour??? Probably smth to do with literature or research ?? She seems like the type to go on long, excited tangents about a random topic she's writing a report on!!!!

Ngl I could see her being obsessed with like , astrology or weather as well??

Deruth is . Majoring in business and minoring in smth like accounting or human resources because his family owns a company.

Idk where I'm going yet but I can see jour texting her friend group a link to a job description and application. It's a job post searching for people to be a live model for the art classes.

Jour is just... Broke. She's a college student come on ...

Her friends are saying she's stupid for wanting to take the job, but it's just easy monies???

It's just... She might have to be naked ??

Anyways, Jour finds Violan cute first and Violan is too busy having a mental breakdown staring at Jour's boobs because THE PROPORTIONS ARE WRONGGGGG AND SHES GONNA HAVE TO REDO IT or smth

It just evolves into jour getting really chatting while standing there in a pose. Nonstop talking to Violan

Jour and Deruth are besties... And Violan is oblivious

Im just thinking about them both listening to the other talk ABT smth really specific in their major and study but they're just s o into it and passionate??? I would like . Simps.

Jour takes Violan to an art gallery and Violan just starts vibrating in place when she sees a piece with an amazing and touching composition ??

I want... Nerds in love, broke college nerds in love

[seerofmike]

oops its been a while since i've done a longer post abt apex lore but the way they're writing octane right now is really bugging me

so between the new chapter of this season's quest and The Perfect Son i've seen enough of the newer writers' version of octane to say that i don't think they know how to write him in text quests very well?

i'm not gonna lie and say octane was some hidden genius but he also wasn't Objectively Stupid, either. he's a dumbass, but to me that's different from being stupid. like he was well-meaning but impulsive, he was rash but there were semblances of good ideas in that brain of his that could have been Great ideas if he thought about 'em a little more. now he just says stupid things for the sake of... comedy? and not even in the awkward "oops i accidentally said smth dumb" way mirage used to do, just plain "this man was born yesterday" levels of stupidity.

if you compare this chapter to how he was written in the Family Business SFTO or the season 7 and season 9 comics, there's a stark difference. and this was a minor problem in earlier text quests too, but not as bad. he's always been his best in animations and commissioned comics and i think seeing him visually acting out (or voicing) what they're writing him to say makes them realize how he looks and they dial it back.

and it really sucks because i LIKE the *theoretical* direction they're taking octane right now. him getting worse before he gets better and being okay with torres's actions to an extent because he's incredibly selfish and torres in turn worsening his absolute worst traits. that's very interesting and i like it!! especially when this new chapter demonstrated that like octane, torres is also very manipulative and he clearly gets it from him.

but it's hard to take him or his actions seriously when they have him acting like this. it actually HURTS what they want to do with him. remember when octane was emotionally intelligent? emotionally intelligent enough that he was able to tell lifeline was upset and comforted her multiple times after her parents did awful stuff but ALSO emotionally intelligent enough to be shitty and manipulative and guilt-trippy? he wasn't an Empath(tm), but he at least picked up on cues like that and knew how to use that to his advantage. in this new chapter octane is as dense as a brick in regards to how seer's feeling and i can't see This octane smart enough to be as shitty and manipulative the way he used to be and it makes the parallels between him and torres fall flat on their face.

apex seems to have a problem with flanderization of "comedic" characters in general. mirage got turned into a bumbling idiot jackass for a couple of seasons and it was one of the things that made me hate his character. joke's on the writers tho. i've invested too much time into octane for 4 whole years to have him be torn away from me the same way 😤

[lemonsbakery]

Massive inf au appreciation post, this thing is..rllyy long..

The infected au was made on 2/2/22, today is 2/2/23. The au is officially 1 year old!! :D

The au has come a long way and I am so happy I was able to see it grow to be what it has become today, from the beginning to now. This post is basically how the au came to be, the way it affected me as a person, and more extra stuff!!

Also heads up! Nearing the end of this paragraph there is a bloody eclair edit! Beware!

HISTORY

THE AU & ME

The infected au was formed by a lot of people! Me and a bunch of my other friends (Norman, Roffy, Shun, Klee, Mags, and Trophy) were in a GC that was initially made to raid a server with this one weirdo guy but we don't talk abt him erm, anyways!! The idea to make an au came from Norman. He sent an eclair sprite edit with the text "I might make this an AU if I really wanted 😦" the sprite edit was eclair but really injured and. miserable. We decided to make a server and began brainstorming in there!

Now you might be wondering (no you arent) how did all the creators meet? Did you know each other from another server??

We all indeed meet from another server, we all actually met from a now-deleted cookie run rp server! Ironically enough Norman was the first person I rped with LFAMSSOA anwayys coughs so much erm. yeah!! I have this really vivid memory where Roffy, Norman, Klee, and LEMON (me!!) were doing a Mandela catalog cookie run rp, Roffy was Almond (he got his SHIT ROCKED BTW OH MY LORD), Norman was Madeleine and Eclair, I was my oc, CC, and Klee was her oc, Max! I think that was the moment when we all started getting comfortable with each other.

oh my god, this server has changed me so much as a person and has helped me develop into the me I am today. That place was and still is my safe place. I feel so comfortable in there and the community is so accepting and silly, we're all just like a little happy family. I remember when I was going through a really awful time in my life and I opened up abt it in the server. The community helped me get out of that god forbid situation without making me seem like a fool, they helped me realize that it's OKAY to be going through something heart-wrenching and that people care about me. I remember when I wasn't really a good roleplayer in that server. Every one of my rps would seem so rushed and panicked, but nobody ever made fun of me. They let me go at my own pace, and they made me feel like I belonged. Slowly and steadily I got better at it, I started doing paragraph rps and started researching stuff about writing and reading more, I learned how to expand on my interests and how to get better at what I love all because of that silly cookie run rp server. I wouldn't even BE here without that server, I wouldn't have gotten Tumblr, I wouldn't have even gotten that into cookie run without that server, and I wouldn't be able to make the things I make today without that server. It's so hard to explain just how much this au means to me, this place is like a second home to me. I can be myself there without anyone screaming at me, I can write in whatever way I want without someone telling me I'm writing too much or too less, I can draw anything my heart desires without someone telling me my art is awful or overboard. There's no such thing as 'cringe' or 'stupid' in the infected au, be anyone you want and this place will love you just as much as everyone else! Its literally the most accepting discord server I've ever had the pleasure of building and being apart of. The infected au caused me and so many people to become closer. Roffy is literally like a little sibling to me, Norman is literally my platonic lover, and Klee and Mags are my children apparently, I love them all with every fiber of my being.(/P) I'm so happy we all got to create so many memories in the AU and I hope we all will continue to do so for much, much longer. Today was the day my life started getting better, today is literally like a worldwide holiday to me, today is a day I hope never is forgotten by anyone in the infected au including myself. Im running out of things to write but you get the point.

Happy 1st anniversary infected au!! KILL OFF ALL YOUR CHARACTERS NOWWWWW/J /POS

PICTURES!!

Norman suggesting that we make an au out of an eclair sprite

Half infecteds become real

first few messages in the server

first picture sent to the server

first rp in the server

emo (literally) almond comes 2 life😈😈

uhh yeah thats basically it. The server has come so far and im so proud of it and all of its members. ILYSM INFECTED AU!!

[quidfree]

for the r&j discourse... actually the main topic was about chatgpt is currently available in my country and someone made a post to discuss whether ai would rule the world (and concluded its not gonna be that dramatic like people imagine after he teaching chatgpt chess and asking it questions about moral dilemma). the most possible scenario is that ai will be people's mental counselor (or even the one can give advice on/effect our life choices, our morality), and specifically it will replace book/film reviewers cause chatgpt is excellent at these. and that said person made a joke about if those reviewers dont want to be replaced, they should write something that ai would 'despise' writing about; and then he gave an screenshot that he sent chatgpt a message like:

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so i was just being nosy or whatever about that line "Shakespeare wrote r&j just to criticize love because he thought it's stupid" and thought i could ask you (admittedly i have never read r&j even it got stranlated into my mother tongue 'cause i think it wouldn't be the same when i can read it in its language and still need some motivation for shakespere's works is ...hard lol)

in the discourse, he even noted that current world with ai will be likelier a dystopia in 'Brave New World' by Aldous Huxley than the one in '1984' by 'George Owell' (which i must also admit i don't have a clue, but asking you once again to give thoughts lol)

it was so random and a lot, i know, and you always have been so kind and generous, no need to burdern yourself with this, just delete this without any qualms if this is too much

thank you ^^

interesting..... i was not expecting this to be the direction that query went in lol.

i find the whole chatgpt/ai = future moral arbiter argument so odd. it's an appeal to objective morality that i don't understand bc i don't believe that exists. humans shape morals and humans make ai. like at the end of the day when we see 'ai generated art' it's art ripped from art real people made, and likewise whatever output we get from an ai stems from some person somewhere. it ultimately is just borrowing the voice of real people and their real opinions.

shakespeare is absolutely hard because the english is old and full of references that even the english no longer understand without guidance! i think if you're interested in romeo + juliet you should absolutely watch the 1996 movie, because it's really beautifully true to the feel and emotion of the play while translating it into a modern setting which makes the text a lot more easily understood. and it's sick. mercutio is so cool. the visuals are outstanding.

i don't know that i can give a good verdict on 1984 vs brave new world as our likely future. my thoughts on those 2 books in particular were like... i remember brave new world gave me the vibe that huxley had a lot of weird sexual hangups, and like a lot of his type of author he had 50/50 valid criticisms of liberal/libertarian capitalism and moral panic over irrelevant issues. 1984 on the other hand is a very particular/time-specific critique and a lot grimmer, and as such easier to read because it's less believable a permanent future.

anw in terms of 'accuracy', a lot of elements from those books exist in our current society, but that's because most dystopia is based on the horrors of present day rather than any genius visions of the future. i will squarely admit i don't enjoy the genre, maybe because i don't like to induce existential anxiety in myself when i read or maybe because i prefer my fictitious social critiques to be less... idk, exaggerated. i feel the same way abt candide.

also your message is very kind to me anon, no need to be so hard on yourself either! i'm always happy to weigh in on random subjects of interest.

[pyrolitheus]

Dear friend (idk what your pronouns are so I'm going with this), we americans already know our measuring system is bullshit. A good portion of us who know how it compares to yours already understand how bullshit it is and want different.

The population of the us in its entirety is ridiculously huge and takes up a shit ton of space.

What I'm saying is:

You don't have to insult us in every other sentence in your post abt density and pricing. It was a really cool thing to learn abt, but being insulted in every other sentence is really enraging! I get it! It's stupid! But jfc don't be an ass!

This is long, please bear with me. For anyone who gets impaled through the skull on sight when seeing a wall of text, Microsoft Edge has a built in immersive reader that is compatible with Tumblr posts and will read them aloud to you.

Dear Anon, I am writing this half to you, and half as a sort of open letter. There are things in here that you probably already know, they're just here because this blog has an international audience and that means I've got readers who don't know what it's like to grow up here and I've filled in some blanks for them even though my response is addressed to you. I'm putting that up front because I don't want to make you feel condescended to.

I think perhaps the part of that post that you missed is the part where I am an American. The fact that I am one makes that post a pretty good example of the point you make in the above ask about how a lot of us actually do know metric, and how a lot of us believe the non-metric units we use here in the USA are bullshit and want something better. Now that you know I am an American, you and I are probably in perfect agreement about everything in this situation with the possible exception of whether or not my post was insulting.

I never expressed consternation with people, only with units. To me, that distinction means that I never insulted anyone. Punctuating my post with rage against the units was something I thought people might find funny, American or otherwise, and perhaps relatable for many Americans, especially American scientists like me.

For me, growing up in America meant being taught by school, by my community, by media, and by my extended family to be prideful about our nation to a fault, prideful of myself by extension, and to take offense to any possible slight made against America, or myself, accordingly. And not just take offense, but to get Very Angry but call the source of that anger "insulting" or "offensive," and then defend accordingly. Growing up in America meant being taught to be Very Angry in a lot of ways about a lot of things, actually, now that I think about it.

Being an adult in America has (for me) involved a long (and still ongoing) process of unlearning all of that for the sake of finding peace, because it is really just no fun to live in a near-constant state of anger and there are more-pleasant options. Besides, I generally prefer to treat people with respect (I am sure you do too, after all, even your anonymous offended ask was far more polite than a lot of people are on the internet, especially when anonymous). Treating people with respect is difficult for me to do when I'm lashing out at people out of anger all the time (which was how I dutifully was as a child and teen), especially when I'm feeling righteously justified in lashing out. I am pleased to say that all that American cultural brainwashing is much easier to unlearn now that I have found a bunch of American friends who value kindness and accountability and give second chances and so on while we all unlearn this mess together.

The more I learn how to engage with the world without letting anger take the wheel, the more I feel like a real adult, and the less likely I am to mistake someone's words as personally insulting when they aren't and the more likely I - and the people around me - are to have a good time.

I obviously don't know you, so I have no way to know if you're going through something similar, but it never surprises me to find out that an angry anon - especially one who took something impersonal personally - is a fellow American, because many (most?) of us Americans have to actively work to undo deeply ingrained things we've been taught our whole lives if we want to figure out how to engage with the world without letting anger dictate our words and actions, and without letting anger become this weird source of justification that it is often viewed/used as in this country. Anyway, that sort of major shift can take years or decades or more depending on the person, but gosh, it is so worth it! If weirdly pervasive anger/offense/whatever is something you're dealing with, and you choose to DM me, I will help you find resources. If it's not something you're dealing with, I am so glad you were raised or are being raised better than I was!

Anger/offense clouds our perceptions, as you've probably noticed before. If you go back and reread that post, I think you'll be able to tell it was written by an American. It has indicators such as using American currency and giving American average 2022 middle class household income to provide context for readers outside the USA who have no idea what $10k USD really means. It even explicitly says at one point, "For my fellow Americans suffering through living with an archaic measurement system..." which, in addition to making it clear that I am an American, directly supports the point you made in your ask above about how many of us really wish we had metric here as standard practice. And if you weren't upset by earlier parts of the post, I am certain you would have read the indicators clearly. This clouding of perception is just one more reason I dislike the anger-loving side of our culture here in America. It makes it real hard for us to communicate with each other effectively because it prevents us from understanding each other even when we communicate clearly.

I value being called out very deeply because that is what has allowed me to pursue the growth described above. Sometimes I really do say or post insulting things without realizing it, and most of the call-outs I get are in those situations. Call-outs like yours allow me to apologize and make amends and any necessary edits. So, even though I disagree with the idea that this particular post of mine was insulting, I am still deeply grateful to you for reaching out to me. Your ask is a gift, and I thank you for it.

Anyway I am glad you enjoyed learning from my addition to that post and I hope this response helps you feel a little better about it.

And, thank you for giving me a notification that wasn't a follow bot!!!