#because i was sad for my maternal aunt that she can't share this special thing in her life (kid getting married or becoming a grandma)

[meiffel-tower]

(tw suicide)

so like one of the things that suck and just becomes Part of Your Life when you lose a parent (and/or maybe even just an immediate family member in general) to suicide that I even forget about sometimes is that that's part of MY medical history now. like I went to the gynecologist for the first time here and since I'm a new patient she was asking about the health conditions of my parents and grandparents and in my head i'm like ok yeah my material grandma died of a heart attack and my dad has high cholesterol and blood pressure.... oh yeah I guess I should mention my mom died by suicide that's probably relevant to an assessment of my health I guess and then its like oh great now i gotta bum out a stranger

anyways consider this your reminder that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and the people who love you can and will still feel the effects of losing you 18 years later and for the rest of their lives