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officeobject · 7 months ago

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(Feck off if you're someone who misuse or romanticize addiction or something)! Also I end up writing a lot about my addiction LOL.

Sorry if I didn't get all addictions, BUUUUUUT,

Also, allegedly poll people are still here. Y'all just aren't decorating my tree, and like, I don't know WHY, but oh well.

Also yes I KNOW some might find it ironic that I TAG the things related to the addictions, but not ALL people with an alcohol addiction, will relapse or feel like crap or whatever, at any mention of alcohol - some might be fine with even being near it, some can just read about it, some can tolerate brief mentions like this or whatever, and some can't, and can therefore not take this poll - I mean I don't have an alch addiction, but I do have an addiction with many triggers/tied to many things, and even THEN and even with being apothiaroace, I can personally still enjoy my ships in a romance fanfic and stuff, but yeah not all can.

Anyways, as a certified addict, I'd say that, like, yeah, it helps to just TALK, to people - if you're like me and HAVE to talk to AIs for some reason, talking to THEM also helps - and it also helps to just KNOW that people won't see you any differently.

You see, addiction is often used as, like, an indicator of if a person is good or bad, because otherwise, why would you start doing unholy things, knowing it could lead to something as bad as an addiction?! Well, some people do start stuff like drugs and whatever, for fun, and HAPPEN, to get addicted, or BECOME bad people due to addiction, or start shit on purpose, but a lot also DO NOT. Not everyone has visible signs of addiction, not everyone is a mess in every obvious part of life due to it, not everyone has TOTAL reduced function, not everyone is or BECOMES a bad person, or starts bad crap on purpose, or know/knew it was gonna become addictive, and some THOUGHT they could handle it, etc.

It's one thing to become an abuser due to addiction, or just be really mean or a bad friend or something, and it's another thing to just become DIFFERENT, or just a mess, or scream on the inside for help, etc - like I really hope I'm phrasing it right - basically, the abusive mom can be real, the careless teen can be real, the edgy young adult can be real, the old mess can be real, but you can also just be someone trying to get by in life, or crumbling under peer-pressure, or trying to forget, distract yourself, "better" yourself as a person through addiction, etc.

I do regret having weird views and stigma and stuff MYSELF, but that's probably just due to society, and addiction can happen due to: bad home life, not knowing what to do, boredom, desperation for relief, emotional regulation, liking the activity, not KNOWING it's an addiction and therefore not knowing it's bad or to seek help, glamorization, downplayment, wanting to feel happy, self-hate, trying to actively harm oneself, etc.

I relapsed for like a day, because yes I do have an addiction, and people get so serious about it when I admit it, and I understand addicts more when I admit it's a problem, and admitting it makes it more serious to me, and makes it easier to get help, and for people to understand - and look, I'm not saying whose addiction is more serious, because guess what, THIS ISN'T THE OPRESSION AND/OR ADDICTION OLYMPICS - but yeah I like relapsed for a day, and I sometimes relapse for fun, or because I'm worried about the future, or wanna be happy, or wanna feel good about myself, or stop thinking about something, or stop being clingy, etc, but anyways, that was for like a day, and the AFTERWARDS, I've considered multiple times, but I'm trying not to relapse - I'm feeling better than ever, and it's EASIER than ever, and I gotta stop thinking it's because I "tried hard enough" as if I didn't try, and didn't try to avoid triggers, in the past - like, not sure how TRUE that is, but it's a really bad mentality, so feck that, but like, I think about what changed, and I think it's just the perceived support of, like, poll people, or whatever, and yeah I for some reason COMPLETELY FORGOT, that you might wanna need support to recover, especially from people who don't see your addiction as YOU, but like yeah, now I have that, I guess ... and also less of people who make me not wanna be myself and stuff, so I haven't relapsed, as far as I know -

Poll-wise though - wait just gotta mention that a lot of addicts actually don't have support or LOSE it, which is very bad for them and the entire fecking concept of recovery - BUT ANYWAYS,

People also don't take SHOPPING-ADDICTION, seriously (which I don't have, though I do sometimes have a hard time telling what is hyper-fixation-hyper-focus, VS addiction), but like, it IS, and being a shopaholic is a REAL thing (as well as coffee addiction and whatever else), and people need to SHUT THE FUCK UP, about it, when they're just misusing it - like, look, I LOVE shopping, even just browsing, getting new things, trying new things on, and whatever else - but it's a REAL addiction, that has consequences on relationships, money, and can be hard to get help from - like, people arguing about you and therefore leaving because you bought what you bought, losing money (but that should be pretty obvious), people thinking about you as shallow or as just a fun shopping-friend, etc, and yeah ALL addictions have crap like that, but still, and do not underestimate yours, if you have it.

Coffee addictions have the negative effects of caffeine, they're also costly, can really fuck up your sleep, can fuck up your energy, brain, etc.

Being a workaholic can affect your relationships, make you spend less time on life, overwork your body, fuck up your energy, etc.

I gotta go eat but I hope you get the point. For this poll I chose "other". Will make another one for MORE addictions to be mentioned.

#tw alcohol #tw alchohol mention #tw alchoholism #cw alcohol #cw alchohol mention #alcohol #cw drugs #tw weed #weed tw #tw drug mention #tw drug use #drugs mention #tw drugs #addiction #Poll Drama

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