#because even if everyone is against them levi will never be alone with gortash by his side
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I think Karlach witnessing Levi almost murdering Gortash and being distressed over it is the final push for Gortash to sell her to Zariel.
Bc Gortash was looking into the ways to realise all his insane plans, and now things are finally starting to fall into the full picture. He had ideas, he had plans, but now? Now, with a beautiful monster what Levi Ravengard turned out to be, he has the means.
Meanwhile Karlach keeps fussing over him, insisting Levi is dangerous, too dangerous, what he almost killed Gortash, and it's annoying. She gets into his way, she becomes more trouble than not. So he sells her and proceeds with his plan to seduce Ravengard's oldest.
Enver can do plenty of things with the knowledge what Levi is a Bhaalspawn. He can blackmail Ravengard, for starters. Threaten to unleash this knowledge into the masses.
Or he can do it smart; play the trustworthy card and swear to keep this secret, promise to honor Levi's privacy and at the same time double his efforts.
And it works marvels; unburdened by the secrecy, Levi actually flourishes under his attention. Gortash sees how scared of the urges everyone around Levi is and how...ashamed they are too, like it's some dirty secret showed under the rug. And he sees Levi himself sees how other treat his "sickness" and what a toll it leaves on him.
So he works on the angle "I like you not because the urges, but with them, because of them, because they're the part of you".
And its so new to Levi, who is used to feeling ashamed, having his father and Florrick being disappointed at him with every death he causes while also not being able to not kill (I'm a firm believer Durge, being pure Bhaal's creation, needs to kill to survive, not just wants/is driven to do that).
Levi is used to people loving him despite the urges, so then someone likes him with them, accepts all of him, every part of his undoubtedly awful self, it's the most freeing thing in the world.
He can breathe, for the first time in his life he can actually breathe. He is honest with Gortash in the way he has never been honest with anyone, not even Jaheira. He tells the man all of his fears and, unlike his family, Gortash acknowledges what his nature indeed is a problem what needs to be dealt with, and it will keep being one for as long as Bhaal exists. Breaking yourself into pieces by trying to change your nature will do no good, but does Levi know what will? Dealing with Bhaal once and for all. Even gods can be defeated.
After that Gortash has Levi in his pocket. Because he saw him when everyone else only agreed to see parts of him and denied the ugly parts. Gortash saw the monster Levi felt to be and called him beautiful.
#dark urge: levi#ravengard ward au#durgetash#Levi's family loves him so much#they're trying to help in the ways they can#but they can't really understand what it's like to be a pureblood Bhaalspawn#not even jaheira can#levi doesn't even know he's pureblood he just knows fighting his urges is a loosing battle#what the less he kills the mote feral he becomes#what he Needs to kill to stay sane. to stay a person#but how can he explain it? how can anyone get it?#and how can they truly love him if this murder instinct is a part of him? big part of him#sometimes it feels like it's all he is#idk what's worse being an open awful murderer as durge is in canon and being praised for it#or being shamed and repressed by every turn and living in shame and fear of yourself#no wonder Gortash becomes the man who hangs up the sun for levi#levi feels like only Enver truly gets him. only he Understands#and in this understanding he finds absolution and sheds the schreds of his morals#because even if everyone is against them levi will never be alone with gortash by his side#even if they're the last people in the world#mean whole Gortash originally tried to sleep and maybe marry his way on top#accidentally discovered the man he was trying to use is a Murder Incarnate#and put 75% of his plans on taming said murder incarnate
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