#because all i ate was a pack of belvita

[extrastrengthvirgin]

friendly reminder not to skip meals. senshi dungeonmeshi himself told me he wanted you to eat three good meals per day

[dubbyi0]

30/04/2021 - Tired and Angry

5:30 Currently it’s around half 5 and I’ve done better today then I expected. I don’t know what we’re having for dinner so it’s to early to say it’s a good day. I was kind of worried because I had breakfast with my class to celebrate that we’re almost graduating. (Where I live you have a set group of people who you have lessons with. I had breakfast with them, not the entire year.) I was worried but there actually was no need. I’ve said before that I don’t eat breakfast. Beside from that I had yogurt and granola with and just ate that. I also had a mug of chocolate milk but I’ve burned that of my now. For lunch I just had 1 belvita cookie. I was planning on eating the whole pack but didn’t feel like eating more after the first one.

The weekend will be spent with family so I’ll see how it goes. I didn’t get a chance to weigh this morning so it’ll have to wait until next Thursday.

7:30

So I’m at my grandparents house and turns out the scale here does work :)). I’m going to weight myself tomorrow morning before my shower. Even though I’m pretty happy the scale works and also really annoyed by my family. They don’t give a shit. They just do what they want without asking me or taking me in consideration. Like I had a little table by my bed which they just took without asking first. For dinner tonight we’re getting junk food again because they don’t feel like cooking. I get it but we also had junk food yesterday so I’m not in the mood. I’m pretty happy now that I didn’t eat much during the day and waked quite a bit. But anyway my brother doesn’t care that I don’t want to eat what he wants. I suggested KFC but no, he wants McDonalds. Like why even ask my my opinion if you’re not going to listen to it. My mother does that all the time as well and it pisses me of. That when she even cares to asks me for my opinion.

Sorry for my little rant. I’m just kind of angry now.

intake 29/04/2021

water: 0.5 L (I wanted to drink more but by the time I realize I had drank so little I was too tired to care)

cal. intake:

°greek yoghurt: 50

°granola: 146

°chocolade milk: 154

°belvita cookie; 54

°chicken strips: 525

°large fries: 381

°mayo: 221

°Cola Zero: 0

Pepsi max lemon: 20

total: 1551

exercise: 889

net cals: 662

I don’t how to feel about today. On one hand I had a fun day at school. On the other hand my family made me feel like shit. Tomorrow is going to be a bad day as well. I don’t know I guess.

[husc2000]

Food Diary & Final Reflection

Sunday

Breakfast- cinnamon roll and chocolate milk (1.20)

Lunch- tortellini soup (1.55)

Dinner- Grilled chicken (1.25)

Snacks- chex mix (.35), fruit snacks (.20) hot chocolate (.10),

$4.65

  Monday

Breakfast-Chocolate Chip Muffin (.75)

Lunch/Dinner - roast beef sandwich (1.50), cheetos (.30), cookie (.25), fruit snack (.20)

$3.00

  Tuesday

Breakfast- Belvita (.50)

Lunch- pulled pork sandwich & mac n cheese (8.23)

Dinner- Chicken Noodle Soup ($1), Cookie (.25)

$9.98

  Wednesday

Breakfast- Chocolate Chip Muffin (.75)

Lunch- Roast beef sandwich ($1.50) and chips (.30)

Dinner-2 Potato Skins (.70) and tortellini soup (1.55)

Snack while studying: cookies (.35)

$5.15

  Thursday

Breakfast- Belvita (.50)

Lunch- coffee and half a bagel provided in class (thank you!), cheetos (.30)

Dinner- Chicken Noodle Soup ($1) and salad ($1.25)

Snacks- Fruit Snack (.20)

$3.25

Friday

Breakfast- Belvita (.50)

Lunch- Tortellini Soup (1.55)

Dinner- Roast Beef sandwich (1.50) and mashed potatoes (.50)

Snacks- cookie (.25), Dr. Pepper (.40)

$4.70

  Total → $30.73

  Participating in the SNAP challenge this past week has made me realize how much I take for granted everyday. I never realized just how expensive meals were on campus or how much I spend eating out because I am too tired or busy to cook. On the third day of the challenge, I forgot to pack myself a lunch and I have four classes that day. Because I have been sick and not feeling well, I decided it was best to buy a meal on campus that day. If I have would not have bought that meal, I have no idea how I would have had the brainpower to make it through the day. I can’t imagine how people, especially children and students, successfully learn and grow at school without the proper nourishment. I also learned how much I love to snack when I am stressed or tired.There were multiple times a day that I was really tempted to snack. I found that if I was studying at the library or student center, I couldn’t just buy a $2-3 snack and coffee. That is almost a whole day's worth of food on SNAP! After this challenge, I also learned that it is extremely hard to eat healthy, balanced meals. I am usually terrible at making sure fruits and vegetables are in my diet, and this week made it even harder. The only relatively healthy thing I ate this week was a salad, five days into the challenge.

  Throughout the week, I also realized that I was very fortunate because my roommate and I share virtually all our food. We grocery shop together, split our purchases almost evenly and are able to make a few decent meals together each week. So, a week’s worth of groceries that would cost us $40 only costs us $20 each because we share the expense. Therefore, we were able to make a hearty homemade tortellini soup, potato skins, and roast beef sandwiches. I also realized that I have a lot of extra food in my kitchen, because I stock up on food when it is on sale. For example, I have two packages of chicken in my freezer that I got at Kroger when it was very cheap and I then I can cook it whenever I need a meal. I realize that this really helped me this week because I could just calculate food prices that I already initially purchased, and didn’t have to buy a ton of new food at the store. I now see that it is a privilege to make bulk purchases of food when it is on sale instead of having to start fresh every single week with $27. It takes a lot of planning to see what is on sale, go to a few stores for the best prices, and use coupons. That time is a luxury that most people on SNAP do not have; they cannot always plan ahead and buy food that is on sale in bulk. I am really glad I participated in the SNAP challenge this past week because it honestly opened my eyes to luxuries and privileges that I had no idea that I had. I am more aware of what I am putting into my body and how it is able to fuel me throughout the day. I have a new appreciation for people who stretch their SNAP money to feed themselves and their families.

 Jackie Goff

[chitarra10]

I was tagged by @penaltywaltz... well, sort of... I just stole it from her. X-)

Rules: tag 20 people

The Last:

1. Drink: Milk

2. Phone Call: My mom called me to tell me that my grandpa was coming home from the hospital today.

3. Text message: My friend in TX... I wanted to make sure he was gonna be OK since he’s in the path of Hurricane Harvey... he says he’s OK right now, thank God.

4. Song you listened to: “All the Wrong Things” by Branan Murphy ft. Koryn Hawthorne... it’s a beautiful song about admitting your faults and the sincere desire to change... give it a listen, I think you’ll love it. :-)

5. Time you cried: Yesterday... my boss ripped into me for telling him I was too sick to come into work, and he demanded I come in anyway, so I sucked it up and went to work, and it was a living hell of pain and nausea, then I stopped at my mother’s house because she picked up my prescription refills from the pharmacy for me, and I was greeted by my sister ripping into me because for some God-forsaken reason, she decided that my mother should come home from work and clean the house instead of visiting her own father in the hospital, and she decided that I’m selfish and narcissistic and that I don’t care about anyone else but myself for not stopping my mother from going.  I just took the prescriptions, left the house, and broke down when I got back into my car.  And I ended up missing work today because I’m still sick AND depressed out of my mind today.  Way to lead up to my next mission trip in 3 weeks, eh?

Have You:

6. Dated someone twice: No

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Yes

8. Been cheated on: Yes

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: In the long list of diagnoses I have going on right now, depression and anxiety are among them.

11: Gotten drunk and thrown up: No... I don’t drink.

List 3 Favorite Colors:

12. Sapphire Blue

13. That teal color that you can’t quite tell if it’s blue or green

14: That indigo color that you can’t quite tell if it’s blue or purple

In the last year, have you…

15. Made new friends: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: Was never in love

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes... one of my co-workers has been reporting every single thing I say to my boss behind my back, including the fact that I’m currently in the process of getting a concealed carry permit, which lead to a loud shouting match between me and the boss.

19. Met someone who changed you: Yes

20. Found out who your friends are: Yes

21. Kissed someone on your FB list: Sort of... Rocco isn’t technically on my FB list, but I have an entire album dedicated to pictures of him because he’s my little “fur-nephew” and I love him so much, and I kissed him on his little Beagle head when I saw him yesterday. :-)

GENERAL:

22. How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: Probably about 85%.

23. Do you have any pets: I have a “fur-nephew,” Rocco, does he count? :-)

24. Do you want to change your name: Sometimes I’d like to... I’m not exactly keen on being named after my abusive father.

25. What did you do for your last birthday: I had to work, and then I went to a local coffee house afterwards with my friend from church, and she gave me a Sherlock Holmes book for a birthday present. :-)

26. What time did you wake up: I got up at 11 because I was supposed to be at work at 12:30, but I was way too sick to do it, and I ended up spending the next 5 hours sitting on the floor in the bathroom with my phone and tablet in case anyone tried to contact me.  No one did, of course.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: The same thing I’m doing right now... Tumblring with the TV live streaming in the background.

28. Name something you can’t wait for: My next mission is happening in 3 weeks, and I can hardly believe it’s that close already!! :-D

29. When was the last time you saw your Mom: Actually saw her?  Two days ago.  But I’ve talked to her on the phone multiple times since.

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: My health first and foremost, and a close second is my financial situation.

31. What are you listening to right now: “Salvation” by Skillet... it’s the Eurus and Sherlock song, seriously, check it out, it’s the perfect theme song for The Final Problem.

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: My grandpa goes by Tom because his middle name is Thomas, I work with a sales guy named Tom, and I know two Tom’s from church.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My current situation in general.  The stress is just piling on again when I’m trying to get packed and ready for my mission, and I need it to stop so I can concentrate on this.

34. Most visited website: Probably a tie between Tumblr and Facebook.

35. Mole/s: I have freckles of various shades of brown all over my paper-white skin, but only one on my left forearm is slightly raised like a mole.

36. Mark/s: My entire body is full of scars from the acne I had when I was a teenager, multiple cysts I had removed, and a significant amount of self harm in the form of stabbing my arms with sharp objects when I was in my late teens and early 20′s.

37. Childhood dream: I wanted to be a professional ballet dancer and an actress.

38. Hair color: The same as Benedict Cumberbatch’s natural hair color.

39. Long or short hair: A pixie cut that was supposed to look like Jennifer Lawerence’s, but because my hair turned curly once it got cut short, it actually looks like a cross between Daniel Jackson and Sherlock having a bad hair day. X-)

40. Do you have a crush on someone?: A fictional someone... X-)

41. What do you like about yourself: I dunno... the older I get, the more I feel like my greatest talent is the ability to take levels of abuse that other people could never handle.

42. Piercings: 3 in each earlobe and one 90′s cartilage pierce in my right ear.

43. Blood type: O+... as most people of Western European heritage are. X-)

44: Nicknames: Up until I was 30, everyone used to call me this particular word that used to make me blazingly, furiously angry, and I never understood why it did, but the angrier I got, the more people would say it because they thought it was funny to make me cry.  Then when I was 30, my sister started questioning me as to why I got so infuriated at the sound of that word, so I started researching a few linguistic things online, trying to see if this word was truly made up as they claimed or if there was actually something to it.  I managed to find the linguistic roots of the word, and it turns out it was actually an Albanian-influenced Italian curse meaning, “The Devil’s Ass,” with “ass” being in the context of a slave or a work donkey.  Basically, they were cursing me to be a slave to the devil every time they called me that.  Needless to say, I proceeded to angrily confront my family with the evidence I found, and told them that if any of them ever uttered that word to me, about me, or in any way, shape, or form of connection to me, that it would be the last time they ever see me for the rest of their lives.  No one’s ever used a nickname for me ever again.  And after that, they dang well better not.

45. Relationship status: Single... have been for 13 years, and honestly, I stopped looking for a relationship a looooong time ago.

46. Zodiac: Ophiuchus

47. Pronouns: She/Her

48. Favorite TV show(s): Stargate SG-1, Sherlock, Doctor Who, Star Trek in all it’s incarnations, Psych, and Saving Hope.  I might be forgetting a couple, but those are the top of the list.

49. Tattoos: None yet, but I think I’m gonna get one for my 40th birthday in 2019... I wanna get an American eagle with it’s wing around a Central American quetzal to represent how much I love Central America and doing missions work there, and underneath them, “Mark 16:15-16,” which is what’s known as “The Great Commission” from the Bible.

50. Right or left hand: Right

51. Surgery: I had all the baby teeth and 4 permanent teeth removed from my mouth when I was 11, and I had 2 pilar cysts (so far) removed from my head... but there are 3 more cysts forming on my head, and they’re gonna get removed if/when they get big enough.  Dermatologist said I’m gonna have to deal with the cyst problem for the rest of my life.

52. Hair dyed a different color: Never permanently, but I have done temporary dark brown and eggplant purple a few times.

53. Sports: Never was a sports fan... the only sports I actually like to watch is the Olympics and American Ninja Warrior, if that counts. X-)

54. Vacation: The last thing that could actually be described as a vacation was when my friend took me with her to NYC for 5 days because she was eager to cross it off her bucket list.  Before that, it was in 2001, my mother, my sister, and I took a road trip to 2 states that were an 18-21 hour drive away just for two particular food festivals, and before that, my grandmother took my sister and me to Italy after I graduated high school in the summer of 1998.  Every other place I’ve been to has been for mission work... missions are no vacation, they’re hard work, but they’re the most worth-it thing you’ll ever do in your life. :-)

55. Shoes: I have Sketchers work-shoes, a few pairs of canvas shoes, a few pairs of ballet flats, and 2 pairs of heels that I haven’t worn in over 5 years.  But all the shoes that lace up, I laced them with either black or white elastic, so now all my shoes are slip-ons. :-)

56. Eating: I ate a bowl of vanilla yogurt with some chocolate BelVita biscuits about an hour ago.

57. Drinking: Nothing... I had a glass of milk earlier.

58. I’m about to: Back to Panama for my 9th mission in about 3 weeks... this has been the most disorganized and closely cut mission I’ve ever done, but the money came in, so now it’s actually happening!!

59. Waiting for: September 16th because that’s when we’re leaving for Panama... :-)

60. Want: My health back, and my finances in order.

61. Get married: If it happens, it happens.  If it doesn’t, that’s fine, too.  Either way, I’ll be perfectly OK.

62. Career: I’d love to be able to do this missions thing for a living, but the financial support isn’t there right now.  I hope someday (soon!!) that it will be.

WHICH IS BETTER:

63. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

64. Lips or eyes: They’re both pretty essential for a functioning face, but I’d say eyes serve a more necessary function.

65. Shorter or taller: I’d like to be a couple of inches taller, maybe I might be if the scoliosis in my spine can ever be straightened out.

66. Older or younger: Physically I’d like to be younger, but intellectually, I’d like to be older and wiser.

67. Nice arms or nice stomach: My stomach has never been nice, even when I was at my skinniest, and I’ve always been OK with my arms, so I’d say I’d rather have my stomach be nicer looking.

68. Sensitive or loud: These aren’t mutually exclusive, so I think each has their place in the appropriate situations.

69. Hook up or relationship: Relationship.  I don’t go for that momentary fun and then dump them off bull crap.

70. Troublemaker or hesitant: Actually... once again, not mutually exclusive, but... neither of these are characteristics I’m OK with.

HAVE YOU EVER:

71. Kissed a stranger: Not by choice.

72. Drank hard liquor: No

73. Lost glasses/contact lenses: An unfortunate number of times in my life.

74. Turned someone down: Yes

75. Sex on first date: Never

76. Broken someone’s heart: Once... but if he truly did love me and want to marry me, then he should’ve learned sooner that I wouldn’t stand for taking a backseat to his BFF for the rest of my life.

77. Had your heart broken: Yes

78. Been arrested: No

79. Cried when someone died: Yes

80. Fallen for a friend: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

81. Yourself: There is, in fact, empirical evidence that I exist, despite so many people’s opinions to the contrary.

82. Miracles: Yes

83. Love at first sight: No... you can’t possibly learn what you need to know about a person in order to make the choice to love them from just one look.

84. Santa Claus: Every parental figure is a Santa Claus. :-)

85. Kiss on the first date: Not anymore.  He’s gonna have to earn that.

OTHER:

86. Current best friend: I’m actually not sure.  I hate to call someone a best friend who doesn’t think of me the same way, and I don’t believe that anyone thinks of me that way at the current moment.

87. Eye color: The same as Benedict Cumberbatch

88. Favorite movie: Probably a 3-way tie between Star Trek Into Darkness, Star Trek Beyond, and The Force Awakens.

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