#because I hate it and whenever I look at it I'm like what 18-year-old wrote this

[gabekidd]

The urge to scrub my masterlist of my old fics because reading it back now I HATE it

[frogiwi]

HIIIII KI ✨🥰🫡 7, 18, and 27 pleas for the more fic writer asks !!!

HI HIDEY ILY

7. your preferred writing fonts

OUGH. SORRY I KNOW U ARE TYPEFACE ENTHUSIAST. HOWEVER I JUST USE GDOCS DEFAULT ARIAL..............

18. if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

DO I KEEP THEM? pause while i go look through some docs LOL

OK I FOUND SOME. i found a lot actually but i got bored of rereading them so i'll go with the first one i found which i had entirely forgot about, deleted from my first makichi fic, right in front of my eyes

“Do you trust those guys?” Chihaya blinks. Sure, he does. Loathe as he is to admit it, Kiyomine is as much of a monster as ever, and Kaname improves at a pace far beyond any true novice could. Todo’s performance had been questionable in their last game, but Chihaya’s willing to give him another shot to prove himself because he’s shown results before. Yamada is as reliable as ever, even while they iron out the kinks in their lineup. They have good senses, and what some of the group lacks in skill, they make up for in enthusiasm. They’ve settled into a good routine, and they’ll only get better from here. “Outside of baseball,” Makita tacks on belatedly.

so.... i wrote this fic back in july, so i don't really remember any of my thoughts outside of the notes i have in the doc. but these lines happen during a conversation chihaya and makita have after the second round of the summer tournament in first year, when makita asks chihaya to meet up. the fic is about, like, exploring how the shitty things makita said to chihaya came from a place of hurt and rejection rather than from hating chihaya or resenting him, and about chihaya learning that makita didn't resent him but just wanted to be friends with him. it's about reconciling, to put it simply. it's a short and sweet one too. i think the reason the above passage got cut is twofold

a lot of my early bouba wips have this thing where i. have the narrating character (chihaya or todo, p much) kinda... reflecting on the composition of the team and thinking a nice (and/or snarky) thing about each person. idk why i did it so much. we get it, the team is full of earnest weirdos who are great at baseball or are learning to be great at baseball. the show told us that already, move on. i think the reason this came up in this fic is bc makita has noticed that chihaya is actually friends w his high school team while he wasnt friends w anyone on his and makita's old team, and makita wonders why they weren't good enough. so chihaya thinks about his team and why he's friends with them. i think this paragraph just didnt feel like it really added anything by going specific though. none of these things are like, things makita or others on the old team didn't have tbh. but then to my second reason

"outside of baseball", now that i think about it, doesn't make sense at all in a fic about chihaya. bc 1) we know that one of his biggest problems is trusting people, which is presented to us through the lens of baseball and how he would only rely on himself in crucial moments, rather than being presented to us in terms of his social life in general, and 2) makita doesn't care about things that aren't baseball, and he wouldn't care about whether or not chihaya trusts his team outside of it. he WOULD care so much about whether he trusts them in baseball, bc he didnt trust makita or the rest of that team. but i dont think ANY of this occurred to me when i cut it. but now that i reflect on it i'm glad i did LOL

ok anyways idr what i was talking abt. i found a TON of cut stuff for the todochi/makichi cheating fic too but it was all boring. no wonder it was cut AHAHA

27. your favorite part of the writing process

HM.......... i think..... ok, i don't have much of a "process" other than: write whenever my brain and hands allow me to until either i get hopelessly stuck, or i finish it. if i get stuck i go to some trusty friends and gather thoughts and i discuss deeply with my beta (THAT'S YOU!). and then i work on it more and finish it. editing is generally minimal.

so that said, i think my favorite parts are

when i have an idea take hold so strongly that i spend a day writing multiple thousands of words and end up with a solid chunk of really good shit, ESPECIALLY if i was just endlessly rotating it in my head before but never writing words other than notes. what's better than coming back to ur doc the day after a writing fever like that and seeing all this shit that wasn't there before. IT SLAPS.

actually, having beta discussions is probably my favorite part. it's so fun every time to absolutely dissect the shit out of the plot, or a character, or a paragraph, or even just a sentence. i feel like how i think about writing has transformed so much in a short time bc of this part of the process and it's also made me better at identifying my own goals and intentions etc. it's really fun to really get into it for hours and come out of it with a page full of notes to start plugging away with. i've never stayed stuck after we do this so it really is the best thing ever

ok this got rly long as always but these ones were interesting and took some thought (other than font....) so THANK U ILY

✍️ fic writer asks

[startledstoat]

Right Person Wrong Time

I definitely don't ship Sirius and Mary but I kinda like the idea of the two of them dating as teens and then having this mutual realization of like "omg I'm gay" "omg wait me too" "omg I'm in love with my best friend" "omfg dude. me too." and having an amusing amicable breakup and becoming each other's wingman/woman so here's this that I just wrote except its less amusing and more sad.

14-year-old Sirius black not knowing was being gay even was because merlin forbid such a topic was spoken about within the halls of the noble and most ancient house of black.

14-year-old Mary choosing random guys to pretend to have crushes on because she didn't know why she never had a real crush like all the other girls her age. She didn't have the knowledge she needed to recognize her feelings for her best friend yet.

15-year-old Sirius asking Mary out because she was a pretty girl and he thought he was supposed to date pretty girls.

15-year-old Mary saying yes because Sirius was a cute boy and she thought maybe if she dated him long enough, she would actually start to like him.

15-year-old Sirius not understanding why the room felt like it lit up whenever Remus walked in but that didn't happen with any of his other friends.

15-year-old Mary being afraid of why she got butterflies when Lily hugged her but not when Sirius kissed her.

16-year-old Sirius hating himself for hurting Remus and not being able to find the words for why his guilt was so immense and why it ached so bad that Remus would likely never speak to him again.

16-year-old Mary suddenly making sense of everything when Marlene came out to her and Lily. Realizing that she'd never grow to like Sirius romantically because she's only ever had eyes for the girl sitting next to her.

16-year-old Mary breaking up with Sirius and being honest with him about why. Not telling him about Marlene or even about Lily but telling him that she had feelings for a girl. Mary being relieved when Sirius took it well and wished her the best of luck with the girl.

16-year-old Sirius having an honest to god crisis when Mary came out to him, realizing that if girls could like girls, then boys could probably like boys too.

16-year-old Mary seeking Marlene out and asking anything and everything about how she knew and what it felt like to be gay. Marlene answering all of her questions and helping her become comfortable with her identity.

17-year-old Sirius keeping these feelings bottled up, even after Remus has forgiven him, because despite being wholly supportive of Mary, he just can't accept himself the same way. Not when his mother's voice is always at the back of his mind, telling him to be a good son, a respectable man, and pure heir. Not when Remus' words to him a year prior "Looks like you really do wear your last name well" rattle his bones every time he looks at the boy.

17-year-old Mary being crushed when Lily and James start dating. She admits her feelings to Marlene, who only gives her some sad words of comfort, unable to do anything else. Mary staying by Lily because she values their friendship above all else and if she can't have the girl she loves, she's at least going to make damn sure that that girl is happy.

18-year-old Sirius not going to James about this, because he needs someone to give him something other than blind faith and optimism. Sirius going to Peter, and for the first time admitting out loud ever, let alone to someone else, tells Peter that he's gay. That he's in love with Remus. And that he hates himself for fucking it up before he ever had a real chance. Peter telling Sirius that he knows. Because Sirius Black has never known subtlety. Peter telling Sirius that, while he has certainly made himself a considerable large obstacle to get around, he doesn't think that Sirius has completely fucked up his chances.

19-year-old Mary being Lily's maid of honor, heartbroken but somehow genuinely happy for her best friend. Mary admitting to Lily just after the wedding that she had feelings for her, not with the intention of ruining her marriage, just with the intention of finally getting the weight off her shoulders. Lily telling Mary that she loves James and wouldn't give him up for anything, but that she wishes Mary would have confessed years earlier. Because Lily had once loved her too. The two of them laughing at themselves and hugging and making a childish pinkie promise. Lily promises that Mary's feelings will never change how she acts around her. Mary silently promises to always have Lily's back and make sure she's happy.

19-year-old Sirius seeing his best friend get married and finally working up the courage to confess to Remus. He doesn't expect Remus to return his feelings, or even still be his friend afterwards. He doesn't expect Remus to cut him off mid-rant to kiss him full on the mouth. Except that's what Remus does. They're in the middle of a war, and they're young, and they're fucking terrified, but none of that seems to matter when now they're all of that together.

21-year-old Mary has failed. Her promise has been broken. The butterflies are gone, withered alongside the Lily that gave them life with each of her hugs.

21-year-old Sirius is so, so cold. There is no light in dark Azkaban cell, the one room Remus will never walk into. The war is over, and he will not be young forever, nor will they ever be together here. Sirius is left to be terrified alone.

[wolfpants]

20 questions for fic writers

thank you for the tag @squintclover! This came at just the right time - I need to do something fun and I love these kinds of posts!

Username: wolfpants

1. How many works do you have on A03? 64

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 748k

3. What fandoms do you write for? Just Harry Potter!

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Romp and Circumstance (Drarry)

Pages of You (Drarry)

Forever Live and Die (Wolfstar)

Led By Light of a Star Sweetly Gleaming (Wolfstar)

Terrible People (Drarry)

5. Do you respond to comments? I try to, but I'm quite slow 😭 Just know that I read, adore, and love every single one of them. My heart skips a little beat whenever I get a comment notification in my emails. It's such a wonderful feeling, and I am incredibly grateful!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? It's a toss up between Music, When Soft Voices Die (James/Albus tragiporn) and Spellbound (Dralbus kidnapping dddne fic).

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Oh, god, like all of them! I write happy endings for pretty much all of my fics. It was nice to give Drarry a happy ending in Thickets after decades of being apart.

8. Do you get hate on fics? Unfortunately, from time to time!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I do. Most of my fics are rated E. I write mlm smut.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I have never written a crossover. But I have a Drarry WIP planned for later this year which may fall into this category, pulling up an old fandom I used to read but have never written for 👀 So look out for that, because I am daring to dream a little bigger... darling...

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? No.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Not yet ;)

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? Drarry, but Wolfstar is very up there too and although I haven't written or read them in a while, I do have a big soft spot for them.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Perhaps my Drarry Bridget Jones fic, or my Dronarry in Malta fic.

16. What are your writing strengths? I don't think I'm best placed to answer this - only people who read my stuff can answer that! I will say I can be quite a fast writer.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Same answer as above!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I can't, because I don't know any other languages!

19. First fandom you wrote for? Harry Potter! A very short fic about Draco having a crush on Professor Lupin. I wrote it when I was about fourteen years old and I am certain it was hideously OOC.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? I can't look back at it much (or most of my fics tbh!) but I do have a very soft spot for Pages of You, because it was my first Drarry fic.

no pressure tagging @hoko-onchi-writes @apricitydays-lazynights @arminaa8 @sleepstxtic @citrusses and anyone who sees this and wants a go!

[christotokos]

20 questions for writers

tagged by @chejuu, tyty

1. how many works do you have on AO3? 195. i orphaned some old works but they're inconsequential. i also had a storied career as a teen on ff.net but those are all blissfully deleted <3

2. what's your total AO3 word count? 963,052 words.

3. what fandoms do you write for? the outsiders mainly and whatever fandoms i decide go into the blender with it. i also had a stint in grease: rise of the pink ladies.

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

fire in the sky — not a surprise as this is my longest fic and the one that's being updated regularly over almost five years.

alpha major — i think people like this one bc it's outsider pov and reader blind. it's also the most stereotypically omegaverse

this is your heart (can you feel it?) — soc au my beloved!!

sits before us, scattered into ash — one of the first fics i ever put up since i came back to fandom, thought i feel the rust whenever i read it

it is not enough to be dumbstruck — trojan horse ass fic that i adore.

5. do you respond to comments? always! i do have a huge backlog that i've only recently cut down on and i'm slowly getting to it.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? a little less conversation (a little more action) is probably the most heart wrenching thing i'll ever write.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? though i never laid a hand on you is my personal favorite in this regard because the possibility of love in the future is sweet to me.

8. do you get hate on fics? lmfao yup and they got their little assess suspended by ao3.

9. do you write smut? If so, what kind? yes lmfao. i wish i could write more but my brain is like "but we have plot!" it's mostly kinky, loving sex so sue me.

10. do you write crossovers? all the time!

11. have you ever had a fic stolen? nope

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? nope!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? not really no.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? dallas winston/ponyboy curtis you will always be #1 in my heart.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will? i finish all my wips eventually but i think the hardest one right now is sempre la stessa storia cause i have to semi go back to the drawing board and don't you look good in red? because i kinda don't care about steve randle but i think the concept should be out there.

16. What are your writing strengths? i can do long form fic pretty goddamn well, i'm good with character voices, i'm good with scene setting.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? i sometimes can only do longform, i think my smut can be improved, and sometimes i'm too occupied with established relationships

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? that's fine.

19. First fandom you wrote for? sailor moon, lmfao.

20. Favourite fic you've written? i think a little less conversation (a little more action) is my magnum opus but a fic i'm fond of currently is this is your heart (can you feel it?) cause soc au my beloved.

tagging anyone who wants to do this!

[fatefulfaerie]

20 Questions For FIc Writers

Thanks @linksthoughtbrambles for tagging me!

I honestly don't interact with the Tumblr fic community anymore because time is such a fleeting thing so whenever I post I feel like everyone is like who dis?? I do wish I had more time for this stuff and miss the good old days <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

26

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

523,592

3. What fandoms do you write for?

The Legend of Zelda mostly buy RWBY, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, and Star Wars when I'm feeling those.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Ten Thousand Years Ago: 135

Hindsight: 137

Written In The Stars: 184

Honesty: 229

In Calamity's Grasp: 345 (but that's because my co-authors @pastelsandpining and @aurathian were/are awesome)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to but sometimes I forget!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

uhh to many to chose from but *sighs* yeah that's probably ttya

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Have I written any uh...yeah probably AMB

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I did once and I deleted the fic because of it. They were upset because I pulled the "it was all a dream" bit and like sure but it's fan fiction about an alternate timeline that I made up based on a fictional web series. I mostly write it as a thought experiment and like idk. People got really mad and for what? Like I wrote a thing, I did words, nothing in it was problematic and hey I'm just a human? Like I'm not saying it was perfect but I think the amount of hate I received was a bit much. Sometimes people just want to be mad and RWBY "fans" like REALLY want to be mad. I have no idea.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind.

Not really. It's not even because I'm squeamish anymore it's just not my wheelhouse. I respect people who do though!

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I don't think I have?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No but I think fan fiction.net had a translation option and I remember playing with that to see what my words looked like in other languages.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! Pastels and Bella and I wrote ICG together! It's still one of my favorites!

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

The nonexistent bridge fic between botw and botw 2 but idk. That's the only situation where I feel exhausted fixing Nintendo's problem for them. They should just hire me so that these things don't happen in the first place.

16. What are your writing strengths?

dialogue

also humor I've been told but I can't control that power yet

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

descriptions

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I've played with French for some poetry but that was using Google Translate. I think I'd need to actually know another language in order to do that.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Probably Once Upon A Time when I was 14

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

Am I allowed to say In Calamity's Grasp?

Tagging @pastelsandpining @aurathian @linktheacehero @dyventus

Idk if you guys are still around or what you've been up to but I consider you the OG lackeys although I know I'm forgetting people I'm just not sure of usernames anymore

[lilacs-in-space]

1. How many works do you have on AO3?:

9

2. What's your total AO3 word count?:

87,894

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I only write for Star Trek these days. I muddle between all of them as I tend to write for small background characters I've developed unhealthy obsessions with.

Back in my fanfiction.net days I predominantly wrote Star Trek Enterprise and Stargate Atlantis but I took a 20 year hiatus (more or less) in writing fanfic. I only really started writing again about 6 months ago because Star Trek Picard made me simultaneously so happy and so angry that my creativity just exploded back to life.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Not Your Typical Disaster Scenario (Discworld - Terry Pratchett) 

Eight Down. Yellow Bird Who Goes 'Quack!' (Discworld) 

A Way With Wordes (Discworld) 

Come freely. Go safely; and leave something of the happiness you bring. (Star Trek: Picard, Star Trek) 

Where the falling angel meets the rising ape (12 Monkeys (TV))

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Absolutely! Nothing makes my day like receiving a comment on a fic. I always make sure to leave them on fic I enjoy too.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I think my fav kinds of endings are bittersweet rather than angsty. A lot of the time they end with lovers parting, willingly or not. Love me a 'doomed by the narrative' type.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

A Way With Wordes - it ends with a wedding announcement!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No, which given that I've written for an insanely unpopular ship once or twice, is actually a little surprising.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

My good man/woman/rogue, I only write smut these days. I used to live for fluffy friendship fics, and I like to think I still inject a lot of tenderness into my work, but I am more motivated by the idea of becoming a good erotica writer than anything else these days.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I don't. I thought about writing a 12 Monkeys/Picard crossover but never went through with it.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes. I had a bunch of Spock/McCoy poems I wrote back in 2002 reappear over a decade later on AO3 under someone else's name. Not an archive, just some guy pretending he wrote them. I honestly didn't care. They were exactly the kind of mawkish tripe you'd expect a 12 year old to write.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Back in my day, sonny, we wrote fics round robin style through hotmail.com or on the yahoo message boards. (So yes, but we're talking like 20 years ago. I don't do it anymore because I'm in too weird of a niche these days!)

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Nebula class. Looks like a frog. I have a Nebula model on my desk that I replaced the decal of to make it the T'Kumbra!

OH, you mean like...OTP? Uh... I don't think I have one anymore? Back in the day I used to read a tremendous amount of McKay/Weir(SGA), Archer/T'Pol (Ent), and Jack/Sam (SG1) but these days I really enjoy reading about niche characters and ocs. Some of the best fics I've read this year have been oc/oc fics or obscure character(OC) and original character(oc) fics.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

You got me in between the devil and the deep blue sea - I was so taken with this idea when I started, then I got super sick and now whenever I think of working on it, I just feel tired again and don't. We'll see if I return to it.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I feel like I'm really good at setting a mood and drawing a person in with all their senses. I get a lot of comments about that.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I don't use one word where many will do. My chapters are way. too. freakin'. long.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I do this a lot, but I always put in the translations. If it's a sentence, I will place the translation after the sentence. If it's just a word, I'll put in a glossary.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Ever? Star Trek TOS and it was a Spones fic. On AO3? Discworld and it was Vimes & Vetinari.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

I am obsessed with A Perfect Match. I love delving into Romulan and Vulcan culture and exposing the similarities and dichotomies of two arrogant characters like Letant and Solok.

However, I am also very proud of Not Your Typical Disaster Scenario which I wrote based on a piece of art I found super inspiring.

If you’re reading this and want to play, I hereby tag you with no pressure. 🥳

[jamsandsuch]

found an old draft of something i wrote in 2020. i'm not much of a creative writer anymore but i think 18 year old me wouldve wanted this out somewhere. wc: 679 words

I twist the ring around my finger, and the gemstone giggles in the afternoon sun.

"Do you wanna talk about him, Win?"

"Mmm." Light trickles through the slat blinds, sunlight like maple syrup and honey poured onto her pancakes. Ground coffee and Bossa Nova. A boxy TV hanging from the corner of the diner hums then crackles and pops with static. Grandma looks at me, waiting for my answer. I don't know what to say. Where do I even start when it comes to you?

I think about the newspaper on your kitchen counter.

"Convenient how they just give out all this gardening material for free, yeah?"

"Pretty sure you're supposed to be reading the newspaper."

You wrinkled your nose. "You read the newspaper? No wonder you're such a downer."

"No idea what you're talking about. I like having fun."

"Oh yeah?" Your fingertips were caked in soil in a way that would've made mom scold me.

"Jesus - wash your hands, country boy."

"Learn to get yours a little dirty, city girl." You wiggled your fingers around my face to spook me as chips of dirt fell from your fingers and onto the wood floor. There was a ghost of a child's checkerboard grin in your smile, like the boy you must've been all those years ago never really went away. I laughed and swatted your hands away but you grabbed me, holding me in a tight hug while I tried to wriggle free. You lips tasted like strawberries. They always tasted like strawberries.

"Just you wait. We'll have a big ol' house with a garden. All that space to run around. Whaddaya think, Winnie?"

I'd like to imagine that we would've planted a strawberry patch in that garden. That whenever I missed you I'd have a whole grove of your kisses growing on bushes.

"You would've loved him."

"Did you know he was sick?"

"He didn't tell me."

You didn't want to. When you called me you apologized. Said you were being so selfish. You asked me to leave. Begged me to hate you. But I couldn't.

"Loving anyone is pretty selfish anyway, isn't it?"

"You're too good to me."

I stomach a mouthful of my pancake and think of how it tasted so much better than the garbage they were feeding you in the ICU. Maple syrup pooled on my tongue, bittersweet as I knew this was the kind of breakfast you deserved to wake up to.

Your skin was the color of caramel and toffee, lightly baked from the hours you spent in the sun, but when I'd come to visit you I'd watch the color slowly leach from your face. it might've been the blue-white hospital lamps, or it could've been your body missing the daylight.

The last time I saw you awake there was a milky film over your eyes. Your gaze was cloudy. I saw heaven in those eyes, and you saw heaven in mine. Tears spilled from my cheeks and into your hands like pearls falling from the gates of heaven. You must've known you were getting closer because you gave me your ring that day.

"He was so much worse than I thought, grandma. He was so much worse."

The night you left, I howled like a wounded wolf through the double paned hospital glass. There must've been some more animal in me than we thought.

"I did it all right, grandma. I don't get it. I did everything right and I'm dying lonely."

"We all do, Winnie."

"Easy for you to say, you had grandpa."

"Had."

"But weren't you happy? Weren't you in love?"

"I didn't say I wasn't." Her face is a sculpture, wrinkles and folds pressed in by the hands of time.

"But this hurts. It hurts so bad."

"We fall in love and we pay the price."

The waitress slides a plate onto the table. Strawberries. I bring them to my lips. I almost expect you to be there. I close my eyes and let you tease me with the false promise of a kiss one last time.

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Genres:

Smut (obviously)

Fluff

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Groups + Soloists I Write For:

æspa

Karina

Winter

Giselle

Ningning

BILLLIE

Sheon

Tsuki

BLACKPINK

Jennie

Jisoo

Lisa

Rosé

fromis_9

Saerom

Jisun

Hayoung

Girls' Generation

Taeyeon

IVE

Gaeul

IZ*ONE

Eunbi

Sakura

Hyewon

Yena

Chaeyeon

Chaewon

Minju

Nako

Hitomi

Yuri

IU

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Shuhua

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Yujin

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Dayeon

LE SSERAFIM

Yunjin

Kazuha

Red Velvet

Irene

Joy

Yeri

Seulgi

stayc

Isa

TWICE

Nayeon

Momo

Sana

Tzuyu

LOONA

Heejin

Hyunjin

Chuu

Olivia Hye

Yeojin

Lightsum

Chowon

WJSN/Cosmic Girls

Yeoreum

woo!ah

Nana

Limitations:

1.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ No underage

This rule is pretty obvious.

I will not write smuts for idols who have just recently turned of age. I will only accept requests for idols who are 18 years old if they have been of age for six months max. However, fluff and angst might be considered for them.

2.‎ ‎ ‎ No over-the-board kinks

Kinks I'm okay with are: daddy/mommy & unnie/oppa kink, breeding, degradation, squirting, power dynamics etc.

I won't be judging you if you are into them, but don't expect that I will write the following: feet, full-on noncon, scat

3.‎ ‎ ‎No beastiality

Requests can be made by clicking on the talk balloon with a plus sign on the right-hand top side of my blog, or you can scroll up and click the last link linked in Introduction. Too lazy? Just click here to do it.

If you are uncomfortable revealing your username, you can toggle the anon function when you leave an ask/request.

Requests are always open but will take a while because I write them whenever I feel like it.

Please be specific with it. Do you want it to be smut, angst, fluff...? Which idol do you want it to be?

Don't spam the same thing over and over. I'll get to it in a while.

I can reject a request if I feel uncomfortable with it or simply do not want to do it. But besides that, I'm pretty open.

Notes & Reminders

I get that many people don't like smut, or fanfiction about real people in general. So if you are one of them, you're free to block me or simply click off my blog. It's that easy, trust me.

Other than that, whoever comes across this blog, I hope you enjoy my writing. It's been a while since I wrote this much so I'm kinda rusty, but with enough feedback and experience I'll probably be good enough to go.

And for the love of God, please do not copy or plagiarize my work. Do not even try to convert it or post it on another website without my explicit permision. It has happened twice already, and I've only written here for a month.

If you want to post it somewhere like Wattpad or AO3, DM me about it. Same method goes for people who want to translate or convert my stories.

Also, the only social media I have for my writing and fanboying are Wattpad (@iznsfw) and this Tumblr blog. I am not active on any other social media, for my writing or personal life. So, if you see my smuts on this or any other platform that aren't under the designated blog name, please report it to me. Similarly, if you see people claiming to be me on any other platform other than Tumblr and Wattpad, please report it to me.

[a-snow-decahedron]

16 17 and 19 for ask meme ?

Qkgkskgks thank you for asking!!

16. What's the weirdest thing you've used as a bookmark?

I read a lot on PDF and even on paper I don't use bookmarks. HOWEVER... The weirdest bookmark i do use sometimes is my phone skgjdjfj

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

Right now I'm mainly writing for another fandom, Hollow Knight. I started a really chill project in which I explore post-canon events of one of the endings. I've posted 4 chapters, I'm halfway through the 5th out of 16-20 chapters? Since this isn't the fandom this work belongs to I won't dwell for too long, but I can talk about it more in my HK sideblog (@fungal-wasted) (I'm a little desperate i need to talk about it)

FOR THIS FANDOM: I have been delaying a Chara essay for far too long skgkdjf I also have some thoughts related to Frisk in neutral endings, and a Pre canon Sans and Toriel fic that had lived in my brain for A While but I have not written because idk how to start.

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

PFFFT. So I barely consider myself a writer but I've actually spent a lot of time thinking about writing or telling stories. This is long but hopefully not tedious to read!!

8 year old me would write in the format of a play (with formal notations and all) about my first OCs. They were average for a kid that age to be honest. I remember one was named Carmín. Whatever. I just wrote because it was fun to make stories. I also hated reading so not even my old self would have cared about the story lol.

9-11 I had some self insert OCs who were 3 sisters and they went to a lot of vague fantasy places. Never wrote a story down, just had very vivid images and I'd talk to myself roleplaying my characters... Man i was a little weird. It's OK though. It was fun.

By 12-14 i got into Wattpad. I was into Heroes of Olympus and got introduced to fanfiction there. There were also my first attempts at translation and they weren't great but i had a lot of readers. It improved my English inmensively, despite it all. I was into YA literature but I was a bit dumb, not too critical and ashamed about it.

15-18 pure silence. I read some stuff, wrote nothing and I thought I was cringy, I also left Wattpad for the most part, knew about AO3 but rarely frequented it...

And now we're here. I started writing fic regularly whenever I'd get an idea to share, or a scene in my mind that I wanted to portray and add to the piles of fic that sometimes didn't have what I was looking for. It also became a good chance to understand conversations, intent and such better and to have an outlet for all my thoughts. I also like writing essays or such on occasion. OH and it was a chance to write in English too and practice!!

The biggest bumps are when you feel the structure of your story shaking under the weight of inconsistency and or lack of a way to address what you want and have the desired effect.

Now I like both character studies and worldbuilding, and that's what my writing tries to do! I'm also trying to get back into translation (check out @tortadecuchufli ). I want to try out different things and maybe branch out to original writing at some point in the future but who knows.

[karliesbuzzcut]

(100) Million Dollar Lawsuit

Intro | part1 | part2 | part3 | part4

We are on the last chapter (for now) and this the most chaotic one. Mainly because it doesn’t follow any kind of chronological order (or logical sense), it’s just Russ going in circles for literal years.

But I’ll try my best to condense it for you, so all you need to do is to keep your seat belt fastened until the aircraft stops completely.

Right after the failed Ari lawsuit, Russ goes back to his one and only love: Taylor Swift 💫 And he has learned a lesson — not a good lesson, mind you, but a lesson: small claims courts won’t take him anywhere. If he really wants to punish women for not complimenting his suit, he will have to file a multi-million dollar federal lawsuit.

But, since denying sex from The Russell isn’t illegal (yet), he had to come at it from a different angle. I’m going to give Russ a chance to explain himself first.

Before you ask: yes, the following was Russell’s response to a woman thanking Taylor for visiting an 8 year-old girl who was very badly burned in an accident.

As I’ve always said, it’s okay if you aren’t fluent in Bullshit. That’s what I’m here for.

You see, Russell views human interactions as a series of transactions: I make a tweet worth liking, you go on a date with me; I take you to Olive Garden, you give me a handie for free; I put on a suit, you hug me and smile; I write you a song and sue you, you produce said song. Whenever women don’t fulfil their side of the deal, he becomes enraged.

But the reason he has such a strong hate-boner for Tay, is because she seemed to also follow his same ‘moral code’. A kid makes a cute video, she visits them at the hospital. A fan writes her a letter inviting her to their wedding, she goes to the wedding. A couple of kids fold 1989 paper cranes for Andrea, Taylor invites them to one of her concerts.

Russ thought “this is a done deal”. He didn’t write that song for Taylor because he particular liked her; he just thought she’d be the most likely artist to produce it — or at least acknowledge his existence.

I mentioned before that Russ wrote a whole-ass book about this. And I think it’s as good a time as any to talk about it. For a short amount of time, Russell chilled out about the ✨100 million dollar lawsuit ✨ but my guess is that he thought his book would get him the same results as a lawsuit? To be fair, the book is fantastic. 5/5, would recommend. 

He details the harassment he went through after suing Taylor Swift (the first time). Apparently old ladies at coffee shops would scream at him because he dared to sue Our Queen. A Mexican even pointed a gun at him (it wasn’t me, guys! Just a fellow countryman ❤️) and ordered Russ to drop the lawsuit. Computers at his job caught on literal fire because he was sent very powerful viruses. His friend Ken — who definitely exists! — was hit with a Molotov cocktail. Yep. 2016 was definitely the year people were willing to murder for Taylor Swift.

There’s also this brilliant dream sequence that involves an owl with the voice of Morgan Freeman, and Taylor’s agents guarding a tower in which she’s being held captive. 

ALSO ALSO: an entire chapter is called “SHE CHOSE HIM OVER ME”. Taylor Swift chose Joe Alwyn — a man she actually knows — over a man she’s not even aware exists. Women, amiright?

I think Russell would enjoy the Kaylor community to a certain extent. Not the lesbian part, obviously: he doesn’t trust women who don’t want to touch his peen. I just mean the baseless hatred of Joe. Look, I made a little collage of his rants ❤️ tell me if any of this sounds familiar!

You know — I’ve been joking around a lot about Russell just wanting to do the nasty with Taylor. But you know me, I like joking around. In reality Russ only wants what is fair. He wants to put a stop to all these senseless acts of kindness perpetrated by Taylor ‘The Generous’ Swift.

This isn’t about him at all, actually. Shame on you for thinking there’s an ounce of greed in that selfless little body of his. HE’S DOING THIS TO PROTECT THE KIDS WITH CANCER!

There are no ulterior motives here! This isn’t about a date!

THIS IS NOT ABOUT A DATE AT ALL GUYS STOP SAYING THAT.

I think this is my favourite post of his, because– grammatically speaking –he doesn’t specify which of them is wearing the red dress. And that sends me every goddamn time.

Anyway. The book, as magnificent as it was, got him absolutely nowhere. I know, I can’t believe it either. So he went back to focus on his lawsuit. But apparently not enough, because he didn’t serve her properly..? Now, don’t expect me to understand this, because I am very stupid (so it’s quite a good thing that I haven’t sued anybody for millions of dollars) but something about him sending the lawsuit to her old legal team..? And then trying to force UPS to serve her? I think he even said he was going to serve her in the middle of one of her concerts... but I’m guessing that didn’t go as planned 🤷‍♀️ oops.

Of course, Russie wouldn’t allow such an anticlimactic ending. Can you guess what he did? Please tell me that you can guess what he did. HE MADE ANOTHER SONG 😭❤️

This one is called ‘I Don’t Get You, Taylor Swift’. Another masterpiece that we definitely didn’t deserve 🙌

This was around April, 2019. By then I was being lured away by Kaylors, so I broke it off with Russ. I know that he filed a 3rd lawsuit against Taylor last year, which is just like the second one but hopefully this time he’ll be able to serve. And listen— I know that sounds like an awful thing to wish on Taylor, but I’d rather have Russell occupied suing a rich woman (who isn’t even going to deal with him), than a poor sex worker in Nevada. I bet TayTay would prefer that too.

Well guys, I’ve mentioned this a few times already, but I really had to be selective with the amount of information I was going to throw at you. I’ve avoided some of the shittier stuff he said or did, because I wanted to keep these posts as lighthearted as possible. I also didn’t touch on many things because they would just derail us. Like for example: one of the few lawsuits he has filed against someone who isn’t a woman, was against the state of Utah. I know, right? He’s trying to singlehandedly legalise prostitution in Utah, and even wrote a book (more like a pamphlet) brilliantly titled ‘Why I'm Making It Legal for Your 18 Year Old Daughter to Get In Bed with a Complete Stranger for Only 500 Bucks: A Short Essay from a Pro Se Litigant who is Challenging the Utah Brothel Bans’.

I copy-pasted that title guys, I swear to god.

The book is very graphic. This one I certainly do not recommend as I still suffer nightmares because of it.

Soren is a character who also had to be cut out — which is a shame because he really tried to be a good christian and help Russell. Not as in “I support you, Russell” but as in “why don’t you take a nap, Russell”. Turns out, even cinnamon rolls have a limit. Russ, of course, blames Taylor Swift for the fact that he’s losing his friends. I’m not joking — it’s an article in his lawsuit:

Greer has lost family relationships, friend connections and business connections because of the trauma of Taylor Swift. His family tells him to "get over it," resulting in shouting matches and strained relationships. Greer's friends get annoyed by his focusing on the trauma of it, when nobody knows the pain of getting rejected by a public figure — twice — and the fallout that has resulted from it.

Russell embodies that comic/meme of the little guy who puts a stick in his bicycle’s wheels and then blames Taylor Swift when he inevitably falls.

Sooooo...

Maybe someday I’ll write a post about Russ’ latest antics. I know he still posts stupid stuff on Facebook, which he later deletes. He shined especially bright at the peak of the BLM movement. He also plead guilty to electronic communications harassment— did you see that conviction coming? Yes, yes you did 😌

Regarding Taylor, I read that Russ knew someone who knew Todrick Hall — and Russ sent him a song and video for Taylor. All he got back was a Cease and Desist letter. But I’d have to do a bit of digging to get the details. I was already so overwhelmed with organising the information I was previously aware of, that I decided to leave the newer stuff for another time. You know, once I’ve had some time to inform myself... as well as a really long shower.

Since I left so much shit out, I’ll be taking questions if you have any. And if you can muster the courage to ask them. I’m weirdly proud of being some kind of Russell encyclopaedia. I might not have much going for me...

There’s no ‘but’ — that was the complete statement.

Before I go, I wanted to add this screenshot. I absolutely love it because it summarises ✨The Russell Experience✨. Russ wants Taylor to know pain, poverty and punishment. But when asked “why?” his answer is just “oh, I was ignored lol”

*none of the screenshots are mine

[inside-the-mind-of-a-lunatic]

Adulting

Adulting: the practice of behaving in a way characteristic of a responsible adult, especially the accomplishment of mundane but necessary tasks.

Life seems an endless pain, the times you're alone you desperately wannabe with someone, and the times you are with someone you wanna be left alone. This goddamn tumor never dies, like pebbles trapped in your shoe, it starts as a person slowly moves towards adulthood, turns out that you can't really be free, you'll have to be retarded to feel that, there is always some tension stress sadness present in tour brain like pebbles, constantly irritating you never leaving you alone, turns out you can't really relax you cant really feel relaxation no matter how much comfortable your seat is you will always find yourself to be losing your mind at all times. It began around when I was 16 or 17 years old that I started aggressively feeling these things Idk if it was the pressure I felt to crack an examination or because of the surprise burst of increase in the syllabus, It is now only that it is like this earlier it was there but not this aggressive its a permanent nail to the head hammered into your head it's funny but so true it always hurts whenever even you move your head around.

it doesn't just mean that your hormones have stabilized now that you can think rationally and form your own unique opinion, adulting gives you freedom but along with it comes with the price of responsibilities and duties and tonnes and tonnes of difficulties which you'll be compromising with on a daily basis. I am currently 18 about to be 19 in a matter of months and I'm documenting the experiences that one faces when going through this rapid change of becoming an adult from a teenager. nothing truly makes you feel relaxed, nothing truly makes you feel happy and nothing ever seems to make you calm.

Adulting is a process scientifically defined as a phase of life where a person develops himself into whatever he or she feels like but this statement is only partially correct only partially complete they didn't add the fact that it is the stage where you'll always look back and wanna relive your childhood and just admire to be loved by someone, here Life will seem like an endless pain, a very long sentence to death, the times you're alone you desperately wannabe with someone as if that solves anything, it only multiplies the problems and loneliness and the times you are with someone you wanna be left alone.

you'll constantly look for escapisms and always find yourself to be disappointed as the route to escapism also happens to have a time limit and no matter where you escape no matter how far you go no matter how many people surround you you'll always feel lonely and alone the feeling of melancholy just never leaves.

I'll paint you a picture here for example if you were to give me anything when I was 9 u could have either hated it or loved it but now that I've developed a complete mind of my own that I have my own personal opinions and ideas and thoughts which are rational, I find it hard to completely hate or love anything, everything has its own flaws and everything will have something good in them.

If I had to watch a movie from when I was 9 I would have a greater time no matter what the movie is, now that I have grown will dive deep into the films scripts dialogs direction action music, and all aspects and come out a very complex opinion about it based off my knowledge. And I haven't even paid my first bill yet so I have a rough road ahead of me

thanks for listening to me I really appreciate you giving time of your day to come here and join me, and I wanna apologize for treating you as a personal psychiatrist. thanks for listening to me vent and whine about my life I hope you all have a nice day thanks again.

(I apologize for this blog being messy, I wrote it in paragraphs and I didn't do it in one go, so here it is...poorly stitched together)

[existentialstatesofmind]

Weekend Fun

Clare: smiled at Dakota and then glanced at Stacy when she spoke. She nodded. "Okay. That makes sense, I just think I'm the one who is getting to better end of the bargain." She didn't elaborate because Dakota already knew how miserable things were at home right now and she was trying to keep Stacey out of it. "It will be. There's no point in rocking the boat until it becomes necessary." She didn't know when that was going to be. Once she turned 18, her parents wouldn't be able to use the whole Dakota having custody of a child thing to keep them apart because Dakota would no longer be a minor either and they'd no longer have a stay so in who she dated anyway. Clare knew she couldn't wait that long to tell them though. She would only be turning 16 this year. "Dad won't be home." She promised. If she had to she could tell her parents an abridged version of why Josephine couldn't come over when he was there but it probably wouldn't be necessary to complicate things further. Clare smiled at Stacy and Dakota, and nodded in agreement. Then she looked at Dakota's mom curiously when she said she was going to adopt Josephine. From what his mom was saying it might be what was best for Josephine but who knew how Josephine really felt. Family matters were complicated. If Dakota considered Josephine his sister and his mom agreed, it changed things in her mind though. Her parents couldn't dispute whatever 'story' Clare told them. Adoption was actually something her parents advocated for and respected so Clare didn't forsee them asking nosey questions about that if it were true. Not that she should be thinking about herself right now. Josephine needed out of a bad situation. Clare shrugged to say that was fine when Dakota said she'd be sleeping in his room whenever she slept over. She doubted Dakota was ready for a physical relationship after everything she'd learned about him today and he knew she wasn't. It might be uncomfortable sharing a bed but they'd get used to it. Plus she wouldn't be staying the night often. At first she was confused when they started talking about a grandmother. She didn't know their grandmother lived with them. She got why having her there full time might not be great, Clare couldn't handle more than a few weeks at a time with her grandma. Then Clare got it, their grandmother died and they thought the room was haunted. Clare couldn't help laughing. "No, I don't need to be brave and go in there. I've seen Poltergeist a dozen times so the TV cutting on by itself is kind of creepy..." She playfully poked Dakota's shoulder. "How am I supposed to impress your grandmother if I sleep in your room though, she might come in there and throw a shoe at me." Her eyes widened when Emi talked about the deceased old lady giving her candy. If she wasn't actually haunting her own room she'd obviously left a lasting impression since her family was taking good care of the room and everything in it. Clare smiled sheepishly. "Right of course not, I should've thought of that. How do tourists find their way around? We might have a really hard time even with Emi's help and a Japanese dictionary app. Of course we should be able to use our phones to get directions in English. Hopefully." She looked at the paper. Clare knew the Japanese used symbols instead of words in their language. But she certainly hadn't known what it was called or how the symbols looked. "This is really cool Emi. I've never seen anything like it." Clare told her. "How does learning sounds work? Still, it was very clever of you to figure out how many strokes you needed. You're good at drawing." Clare didn't think she would be able to learn much Kanji. French was hard enough to learn and they had the same alphabet. "I believe it, I knew the languages they use in places like Japan and China was more complex than ours and the hardest to learn but jeeze." She exclaimed to Dakota. "I don't know how I feel about octopus. Have you tried it Emi? I might like it better than I would Sushi. I hate fish so raw fish doesn't really sound appetizing to me." She admitted. "Besides if it's grilled I know they at least took the eyes out. I'm not sure about the tentacles though. Food aside, it sounds like so much fun!" She grinned. "Good idea, I bet there's a lot more to do and I wanna dance with you." Clare said shyly. If she was going to have on pretty robes they shouldn't go to waste. "I can't wait. I hope I don't embarrass you too much, Emi, because I'm going to be taking lots of photos." She chuckled. "Okay fair point. What was Time Square like, were they filming anything? But the toy stores always looked really cool on Home Alone 2, were they like that?" No wonder he got lost. "I don't need pom-poms just clapping. Aww a banner would be nice, no one's ever done that for me before." Clare beamed at him. She was lucky to have a thoughtful boyfriend. "Do you like robots?" She asked Emi hopefully. Clare returned the chaste kiss before raising an eyebrow at Dakota. "But we weren't even dating until today, someone must've been pretty confident I would say yes." She teased him. Clare kissed him again. She hadn't even known he liked her and would never have dreamed of going on a date with him. Clare followed Dakota when he carried Emi out to the car. "Of course." She said quietly. "I know where the kitchen is now so I'll put them in the icebox." Clare buckled her seat belt and reached for Dakota's hand.

Kota: nodded at Clare's words as she spoke about Jos and her parents. "She won't throw a shoe at you. She's only ever hit Bren alive and dead." Dom stated. "Let's not talk about Bren until he passes." his mom said and they nodded. "You don't really need to make an impression on her. She doesn't leave her room. Never has, so if you don't go in there, you're fine." Kota stated honestly. "I never met her and I don't plan to. I also stay in Dallas' room a lot." Stacy assured. "Plus part of Grandma's always with us." Dom said honestly. "Not really, that part of her is always in my closet. Like I want Grandma with me when I use the bathroom." Kota stated. "Part of her is in my purse." Kelly shrugged. "Am I the only one that keeps part of her with me?" Ash asked and Kota looked around. "Apparently." Dom answered. Kota listened as Clare asked Emi questions and wondered if she could answer them, though he knew if she couldn't he would. "Um..." Emi trailed off looking for words. "You know how you learn the ABC's then the sounds the letter's make?" Emi asked. "We do something like that. We learn our alphabet and the sounds they make. The symbols change when you form words just like the sounds of the letters in the ABC's change." she tried explaining and wrote " す し" on a paper and showed it to Clare. "That's the sound for Sushi. The first symbol makes the shu sound." she said and took the paper back only to write "寿司" on a paper, then showed Clare again. "And that's sushi when it's written out. I memorized the symbols off a restaurant that way I'd know momma was getting sushi for dinner." she explained. "The sounds are easier and we learn them first. We don't fully learn how to write until we finish middle school since there are over a thousand symbols that take so long to learn." she huffed the last part and thanked Clare about her drawing. Hearing her ask if she had octopus she nodded. "I only had it fried. I watched someone try to eat it still living and it looked dangerous, they couldn't get the octopus out of their mouth." she explained. "I won't eat it at restaurants because they serve them whole and they dance when you put soy sauce on it. Momma got mad because I liked to make them dance so much and wouldn't eat them." she shrugged. "As for sushi, you need to try a California roll, no fish." Kota said looking at Clare. "It's rice, seaweed, fake crab, and avocado." he added and looked at Emi. "Everyone already takes a lot of photos so it's not embarrassing." she smiled at Clare. "Yea, they were just like they were on Home Alone 2, they weren't filming when I was there though." he explained. "Everything is huge in Time Square including the pizza." he added. "I haven't seen a robot. They were only in Tokyo." She stated honestly as she ate her food. "I was hoping you'd say yes." Kota smiled into the kiss. Once Emi was buckled in, Kota held Clare's hand the entire ride home. As soon as they got home, Kota smiled and unbuckled Emi and watched everyone get out of the van. "Um, can I carry Emi?" Stacy asked catching Kota off guard and to look at her. "The light in the house is on. I really don't want to deal with Bren." Stacy whined a bit causing Kota to get out of the car and look at Dallas when he stepped by them. "Is Bren home?" he asked curiously. "No, mom's inside and there's no yelling." Dallas assured causing him to sigh in relief. "Thank goodness he's not coming home." he said honestly. "I agree." Stacy sighed in relief as well as Kota lead Clare inside. He could immediately hear his mom fiddling with stuff in the kitchen and walked there holding Emi and Clare's hand still. "Bren got expelled." his mom said honestly. "I'm putting him in public school with Ash." She added and Kota looked behind him to see Ash. "I want videos. Lots of videos." he stated. "Anyway they didn't say when they're sending Bren home. Clare, if you're here feel free to hit Bren as much as you want want." His mom stated as she started to bake. "He was switched at birth." Kota stated. "Sadly he wasn't, I did a DNA test the moment you boys came up with that theory. Mom and I started to believe he really was switched at birth." Kelly said and Kota shifted Emi a bit. "I'll take her, thinking about Bren coming home is blowing my mood. Cuddling with Emi tonight will take my mind off it, just get me her pajamas." Kelly said to Kota and he let go of Clare's hand to get Emi's pajamas for his sister. Once he got back he handed Kelly the pajamas and took Clare's hand. "I'm done with worrying about Bren coming home. We have one day of peace left and I plan on spending it with Clare and Emi. I'll worry about what to do with him after he comes home." Kota stated and started to walk to his room with Clare, picking up the bag for her as they walked. Once they got to his room, he shut the door behind them and took off his slippers, then his shirt. "The bathroom's right here." he said opening a door that has a sign that has Japanese writing on it. "The sign says bathroom since Emi mistook the closet next to it for the bathroom since the doors are the same." he said honestly as he stepped inside and took out a small box. "There are tooth brushes in here, take your pick, we don't have pink though." he said knowing there were all the other colors but pink and a lot of styles and brands. "I'll be out here when you're done." he said and shut the door behind him as he left. While he was waiting for Clare to finish, he changed into his pajama bottoms and got a blanket for Clare, then laid on his bed and covered up in his black blanket.