#because I didn't want to work on the idv one anymore

[navxry]

Update

Hello everyone, I'm back from my week long break! As of writing this, I feel better from it (at least with binging other shit while I couldn't use Tumblr or Discord), but I did come to a realization while I was away.

(utc, rambling abt Genshin as a whole and my feelings + current status)

I realized that I don't enjoy Genshin as much as I used to.

I think it's been eating at me for a while, because for the past few months, I never felt happy with it anymore. It wasn't as prevalent, I think, it was almost like a nagging thought which I brush off with talking to others involved in Genshin.

That was just how it was. A nagging thought. A thought I knew I can ignore.

But then life hit me with a massive curveball, and I started to feel like shit.

I enjoyed other fandoms when I left it for months- I used to hate Twisted Wonderland, actually. I got burned out and didn't want to touch the game anymore, so I took a 2+ months long break and came back and enjoyed it more than I ever could have.

The same went to IDV. I dropped it during Frederick's season, and came back 2 - 3 seasons later (months) and I am back in that rabbit hole again.

Those games kept me company for a while in my week long break. And because of it, that made me realize that I felt the same as I did to them on Genshin.

And it also made me realize that I just stuck around with Genshin for others; for my friends' sake because they're involved in it and I didn't want to ruin it for them.

My mutuals all love different games but some are into Genshin, and I don't want to drop it because I'd feel bad. It feels less of me liking the game and more "I only stuck around because my friends do" type of thing.

Honestly, it felt like shit. I don't enjoy the game as much as I used to, but back then, I felt like it was affecting me personally and on a negative scale. Not even doing the things I loved helped in making me feel less negative.

I did my best in making others happy, but by doing so, I neglected making myself happy. It affected how I look at things, and although I knew that, I didn't try to rectify it or stop it because I am too much of a doormat to do so.

Even roleplaying Genshin with my friends didn't help, because I felt like I'm entertaining them than myself. Despite taking a rain check on roleplaying to regain interest... It didn't work, and I felt more and more like I'm just there for the convenience of others.

I thought me saying that I'm there as an enabler for people is a joke, but now? It felt less of a joke. And it isn't anyone's fault but my own, because I'm well aware now that I am too scared to put up boundaries.

I was on a really bad headspace back then, and I didn't felt happy at all. It felt miserable and I just needed a break, but much like a clingy ex in a relationship that felt like Titanic, I couldn't break out of it.

So, after much long deliberation and thinking... I took a week long break.

It was a bit difficult because time felt slow when I did the first few days, but I was fine playing other games and doing other things. I even went out a few times just... Walking while listening to music. (Zombies Run is a good app ngl, but fuck the membership.)

And slowly, I found myself feeling better and happier- without thinking of Genshin and especially for my mutuals that would be angry if I left.

As of right now, though, the irrational shit left... Well, some of it, anyway. I still feel like it, but now its not as bad. It's much more manageable, which is great. But sometimes, it gets to me- though, it doesn't bother me anymore now that I had a week of a breather.

In that regard, I'd like to make one thing clear:

I will be on an indefinite hiatus on Genshin Impact as a whole.

This means I will no longer do content for the fandom or other shit with mutuals, too.

This also means that as of right now, I will not be roleplaying Genshin for the time being- selfships or not.

Maybe once in a blue moon I will, but I found myself feeling like I don't enjoy the game as much as others do, or even the memories I made before my break being as pleasant. Is it selfish? Maybe, maybe it is.

But for the sake of my own health, I'd like to make it clear and I don't want to beat around the bush about this anymore.

I also want to make this clear that this also affects my mutuals, too.

If we're roleplaying Genshin, those threads will be on hiatus, and I will not open any new ones.

Personally, I don't know if I'll ever get back to the game. I found myself happier with other franchises, and I think that's the one thing I feel sad. At the cost of me dipping from certain things, I come back and feel much more happier with them when I come back.

But I suppose its for the best.

If its for my sake and my happiness, I will be disassociating myself from the fandom.

Will I still support content creators on this fandom? Yes. I'm actually planning to open up an RB blog that's just me rb-ing people's content on Genshin: both SFW and NSFW.

But will I be involved in it with or without my mutuals? No. As of right now, at least.

Lastly, I want to make this clear: this isn't made to target anyone in specific. I want to make this announcement as a blanket rule of sorts for everyone, even me.

Maybe I will come back sooner or maybe later. God knows when I will, but I find myself happier with other games. Other games that don't feel like a trainwreck to deal with, yknow?

Thanks for reading, lads. And as a last reminder from me:

I will not be associating myself with Genshin Impact and will be on a break. This means any sort of content creation WILL be put on hold, and I will also stop roleplaying Genshin Impact or any AUs associated with it.

[zdux]

Hi :)

I just found your Antonio x reader fic in AO3 and fell in love with it and was wondering if you'll continue it. Its ok if you dont want to and please don't feel pressured or anything. Just wanted to let you know that I really loved it and think its a really cute and suspenseful fic ❤️

Hope you have a nice day :)

Have some cake 🍰

Hi!! Thank you so much!! I'm really glad you enjoyed it!! It's still technically in the works, I just got a bit of writers block a while back because I spent an entire writing session on a chapter where Antonio makes the reader dinner... only to realize I had left the last chapter off early in the morning T_T But again, I'm really glad you enjoyed it, and honestly I might work on it again soon! I haven't played IDV in soooooo long but Antonio has a special place in my heart <3 (Though my writing might not be lore accurate anymore if they've updated his.)

I may update it today, as I have some ideas on how to fix my writers block!

Update: So I'm a silly goober who didn't realize I had fixed that already! Well, I'm gonna republish the last chapter, as well as post a new one! Sorry about that!

[fakesaintess]

New Name, New Beginning

Summary: A character introduction and backstory of Emma Woods within Ivory Raven College, a crossover/au involving twisted wonderland and the Ivory Tower costume set from idv.

Warning: This fic contains implied suicide and child abuse/neglect

Before Emma Woods, there was Lisa Beck.

Born to Martha and Leo beck, Lisa was well loved. At least, at first.

At five she was able to perform some minor feats of magic. Her father was delighted. Despite how lackluster her ability was at the time, Leo praised her endlessly. He would tell her that she has a grand future waiting for her and that he'd support her every step of the way.

Martha did not praise her. When she used magic to help flowers grow, Martha scolded her, saying she was messing with nature's course. Martha frowned when she used magic to water the plants quickly. "You'll only damage them." she scolded. With every spell used Martha was there to criticize it.

She didn't notice Martha's disdain for magic. Or she didn't understand it at that time. It became more obvious when she was 9 and Martha began spending more time away from home. She could ignore her mother's absence as her father made sure to make up for it.

He'd take her to the park where she could help the flowers grow. He'd take her to the pond where she could say hello to the animals around her. He'd create plenty of toys for her to play with. Leo would always tell her how much she loved her and how amazing she'd be one day.

It was as if Martha didn't exist at all.

Martha's disdain soon became disgust. She was made aware of it on her tenth birthday when Leo brought out her cake for her. As the candles flickered, she had asked, "Shouldn't we wait for mom?"

"Your mother isn't coming home." Leo answered, unable to meet her eyes.

"Can we wait to celebrate when she gets home?" She asked.

"Your mother isn't coming home anymore. She.." Leo trailed off. Taking a moment to gather himself he said, "Your mother doesn't want to be a family anymore. But your birthday will be great without her. I promise."

He puts a reassuring hand on her shoulder. "Blow out your candles and make a wish."

She did blow out her candles and she did not cry. She made sure not to because her father had worked so hard to make this happen so she would not let it go to waste.

She did not cry when she saw Martha in town with her new boyfriend. She didn't cry when Martha made a face at her and turned away. She didn't cry when her father's toy store began losing business because a fancy new chain store opened. She didn't cry when other kids teased her for not being able to afford new things and her family's situation.

She did not cry because she still had her father and he loved her very much. So she did not get caught up in things that did not matter at the end of the day because she was happy.

It was Christmas. Leo had dropped her off at a nearby church.

"I just have to close up the store. I'll be back soon." Leo said and he hugged her very tight. He smiled at her one last time and then he disappeared into the snowy night.

And then she would never see him again.

A lawyer read to her a letter Leo had left. All the money from the burnt down toy store and his life insurance would be left to her. Then she was handed the letter to her so she could read it.

"My darling Lisa,

Despite what your mother thought, your magic has always been a gift. Like you were a gift to me. I am the luckiest man in the world to have you as my daughter.

I'd like to give you everything. But I can't, not with how things are now.

My little girl, please grow up well and live life to the fullest. I may not be there to see it but I will always be watching over you. I will always be proud of you.

With the money you'll be left from this I hope you can go to a nice school and learn to become a great mage. I believe you can change the world. Do not let what anyone says to you, not even your mother, stop you from pursuing greatness."

Your father will always love you."

Turning the ash stained letter in her hands, she did not cry. This time she did not cry because she was bitter. She was bitter Martha who didn't want her. She was bitter at Martha's new boyfriend Freddy who seduced a married woman. She as bitter at their unborn child who will have the life she never will.

Alone in the church, she only had that bitterness to drive her forward. If there was nothing for her here, she'd go somewhere new. She just needed a chance.

She poured herself into studying and practice. Despite the nuns mockery and the other children's teasing, she continued spending her time in practicing the garden. Her place of study. Her place of sanctity where she'd tend to the plant life that grew there during her breaks.

As the garden blossomed so did she.

A black carriage appeared before her. Even in the darkness of the night, it was beautiful. The thing that'd take her away. It'd take her away from the painful memories and cruel people that surrounded her. It'd take her away from the ashes of the toy store and the church where no one cared for her. It'd take her away. She boarded the carriage.

And wakes in a coffin, the lid being pulled away by a mysterious man in a strange mask.

"Lisa Beck," He says to her, "I'm headmaster Crowley. Please ready yourself as in a few moments the mirror will judge you."

Lisa. Lisa. Lisa. The name that ties her to her past. It ties her to what she had lost and to people she loathes. If she truly wants to leave her past behind she needs to leave Lisa behind too.

"Sir Crowley, can you give me a new name?" She asks, her voice timid and soft.

"A name? Why ever do you need a new one?" He responds. She doesn't respond but her grimace clues Crowley in on what could be happening.

"Emma Woods." Crowley says, changing his tune when seeing her pained expression. "From now on you'll be Emma Woods."

Emma smiles. The name likely had no meaning to Crowley, but to her it meant everything.

With a whispered thank you, Emma heads to the mirror to receive her dorm assignment. Emma continues to smile when she's assigned to Heartslabuyl, even with the rumors that the dorm leader is a tyrant. Emma continues to smile when a beast breaks into the venue and starts a fuss.

Emma smiles until she's in her dorm room, getting ready for bed. Emma can finally smile again because she's obtained her fresh start. She's in her new home and that town is a far away memory.

[sk3tch404]

I gotchu fam, us Ren'py users must stick together after all, even when our code doesn't wanna cooperate with us and throw the computer equivalent of a temper tantrum, just because we forgot a line break or a : 😔✊

As for the aforementioned OC, uhhhh

https://imgur.com/a/6Fz9hff

Full credits to my friend for the drawing, cause she's also the co-creator of our boy 🙏

Infodumping time: he's basically part of a whole batch of animal hybrid OCs for a hypothetical game and yk what I'm just gonna copy paste a discord essay I wrote about him on "why he can't be a yandere in my eyes" <- literally what I wrote last year

Mosquitö

Haha, look at this lil chuunibyou motherfucker, also has a case of weak twink syndrome who doesn't and refuses to work out, he claims that gaining muscles would make him look less like an evil seductive vampire, but everyone knows that it's actually because the dude can't even lift the lightest of weights at the gym and was too embarrassed to return to the gym for a second time because of said incident. Would also be too intimidated by you after your first encounter because he genuinely just doesn't rlly talk to anyone for more than 30secs, and that's with the old ladies in his neighbourhood if anything he just gets excited that ur not put off by his behaviour and already treasures the fact that u still put up with him and don't just straight up leave after the first encounter like most other ppl he's met.

I think my friend also has a doc w his general character info but I don't have it at hand rn so 🤷‍♀️

Hope ya enjoy!

-Ren'py anon

Oh

my

god

HE"S HOT?!?!?!?!?

tbh I was expecting a hacker nonny situation.

YOUR FRIEND IS SO TALENTED

FUCK HE"S SUCH A VAMPIRE ANIME BOY I LOVE IT

IDC IF HE"S A MOSQUITO HYBRID HE CAN SUCK MY BLOOD ANY DAY AND THROW ME AWAY

I love this little character summary! It's way different than from the whole, 'hot 18th century vampire that looks down on mortals'. He actually has issues and has a effective comedic effect on him.

And it's kind of sweet that he only talks to the old ladies lol

He's so anxious that he's even scared of talking to the elderly people around :o that's so me

Wow both of our vampire OC's don't go to the gym 😍😍😍 I just blame my OC's muscle on vampire genetics, but yours is way more fun.

We can literally overpower him if we have some sort of constant past physical activity, so i guess that means he's more of a nice and docile yandere? Or maybe he has a short temper now that he's a itty bitty obsessed 😫

The OC's route I'm working on is kind of like yours! He's anxious, doesn't talk much unless player heavily starts the convo, and gets obsessed because player is one of the only people who was REALLY nice to him.

They should hang out tbh.

Yandere playdate!!! 🥺🥺🥺 Awww they're so quiet and akward... Oh wait. Oh shit they're conspiring together.

AW FUCK DON'T BUST OUT THE ROPE-

Please hand the character info over if you can! I would love to draw my OC and yours together sometime!