#because I cannot fucking stand how badly written it is I literally can't. I've had to deal with that shit too often lately

[daincrediblegg]

I hate it when I accidentally hit submit on the course eval for one of the classes I was most looking forward to critiquing for improvement when I had barely written anything 🙃

[dreamwreaver]

god I feel bad for that charlastor artist on Twitter. To have your work that you put a lot of love and effort on, only to be horribly stolen, traced and tagged with the very ship your antis keep harassing you with. Why are a lot of radioapple shippers like this?? They literally have hundreds of amazing artworks and fics across the internet but they go out of their way to be an utter asshole to people minding their own business.

This lead me to hating the ship. If I ever see a glimpse of Lucifer x Alastor, I'm scrolling and ignoring IMMEDIATELY. No hate to the other decent shippers of them, I just can't stand to see a crackship that has caused so much pain for so many of us Charlastor fans.

I mean, that's basically it nonnie. I don't have visceral negative reactions to ships I don't care for. I'm apathetic by and large. I block the tags and move on with my life. But, there's just the behavior of some shippers... it's been terrible. To the point where I cannot honestly see anything having to do with them without wanting to go on a rant. The main difference? I do that shit in a discord and DONT TAG THE SHIP IM HATING ON. But the behavior of most ra's makes me brace for impact just about everywhere. That ugly ass hoodie being released led to like a two hour vent session with friends. Their propensity to make everything about their ship? Makes me want to scream. The way they play the victim when they're the source of most of the bullying? I want to tear my hair out. And here's the thing; they eat their own the moment they fall out of line. Thankfully Bluesky has people who aren't garbage humans so any ship bullying gets shut down real fucking quick regardless of shipping preferences (the nice ra shippers are on there I will say that) but I saw it happen in real time. An artist known for drawing ra (and has since come out as a multishipper) was commissioned to draw charlastor, did a fabulous piece, and was harassed with two comments so vile they took the piece down. You know who was in the replies calling out the assholes? Ra's AND charlastors, and not a single one of them was fighting with the other.

So, I'll give credit where it's due. There ARE some nice people who have that ship and I respect them. It just depends on where you're finding them. But that toxic and vocal minority? Yeah, may they always step on legos in bare feet. And I will say this; hazbin antis are perhaps some of the most boring antis I've ever experienced in my life. They have normie who discovered fandom because of the pandemic and are appropriating weirdo culture written all over them.

Do you have any idea how many tiktoks I saw where people were cringing because the hazbin soundtrack was in their wrapped as one of their top albums? That's normie behavior. I do not feel cringe, I do not feel shame. I like what I like even if it disappoints me in the end (looking at you miraculous, please Jeremy zag release another movie and piss off the creator when the fandom likes it better). I don't regret liking anything I've ever liked. These people? Nah. And even their insults are like the basic white girl of fandom toxicity. Telling me to kys in one of five ways? I'm a pedo? A homophobe? I shouldn't exist? Boring. I had a Beetlejuice anti once threaten to turn my kneecaps into dice. You know what? I don't like you as a person but I at least respect the creativity. I definitely never heard that before.

And when you don't have any creativity, you tend to steal from the ones who do. Now the ra's are stealing lucillith art and doing it badly to boot. Normally I'm not one to critique art technique. Art is hard and people are always learning, but for the love of god if you're gonna steal someone's art don't add insult to injury by making the drawing ugly as fuck and somehow anatomically fucked. Yes I'm thinking of a specific example, no I won't share it mainly because tumblr says no sex based fun allowed. But I suppose that's what happens when you treat your ship and fandom experience as "content" rather than something you enjoy for fun. And hey, maybe it's my imposter syndrome talking but I still feel a little weird when people say they're fans of my work and seem to think of me as like... a big name fan or whatever. I'm just me, I create because I love my blorbos and if that attracts fans then it's a bonus, but not necessary.

Speaking of which; let me take a moment and say how grateful I am, not just to you Nonnie, but anyone who follows my nonsense on any of my socials. I'm not great with replies but just know I treasure the interactions we have no matter how small.

[blurrypetals]

Bride by Ali Hazelwood

originally posted oct. 14, 2024 - ★☆☆☆☆

Oof. Or, should I say, woof.

I really have to stop taking book recommendations from Facebook and Instagram Reels (sorry, not a TikTok user). I've never read any of Ali Hazelwood's work. Something about the covers just set off alarm bells for me, like a poisonous plant flagging its toxic nature to those who see it, so I steered clear. This book, however, seemed not only directly up my alley, but had a cool cover that seemed to say: hey, this book is different from her other work.

How wrong I was.

This book and I immediately started off on the wrong foot when it was revealed the book is, for a reason I cannot comprehend, set in the modern day. Nothing about the synopsis indicates this and the worldbuilding is so god-awful, it doesn't matter one single bit that it's set in the modern day at all, beyond talking about phones and internet.

It's not that having a vampire (ahem, sorry, vampyre) and werewolf romance set in the modern day is inherently bad, it just does not fit the plot at all and it isn't used to the story's advantage either, so it just feels awkward and out of place. Why do these werewolves have spyware? Spywerewolves. Stupid.

Also, this is, uh...allegedly supposed to be enemies to lovers? Where are the enemies? They just seem like slow-burn friends, for fuck's sake. Lowe also has like, no personality and while Misery has a personality, it's poorly-written and overdone. The sex was also extremely lame, and everything about his knot (which I wasn't prepared for one single bit) made me laugh so hard, so uncomfortably. Holy shit, y'all, this book was so fucking weird and stupid.

The side-characters are all absolutely wildly undercooked, too. Ana is quite literally every precocious child character I've ever read about, especially the badly-written ones. I also really don't understand how Misery so cartoonishly hates children (to the point where she can't tell the difference between a 3-year-old and a 13-year old? Excuse me?) except for this one kid because she's so special.

And speaking of children, the worldbuilding was so wild, it felt like a toddler who just learned what werewolves and vampires were trying to tell me what they were like:��So, uh, the werewolves and vampires don't like each other, and the vampires are spelled with a Y instead of an I, and the werewolves have green blood, and the vampires like the sun but it can still hurt them and—

I couldn't stand this book. I don't understand why it's popular, but that's been the same song and dance for me all year, it seems. The characters were flat, boring, and had zero chemistry, even when they were fucking, the worldbuilding is absolutely laughable, some of the funniest shit I've read all year, and the writing is awful. It's incredible how bad this all is.

Thanks, but no thanks, Ali Hazelwood. I should have known this would be a poisonous plant, too, and stayed far away.