#beatmyself

[exploded-brains]

my mum was lecturing my siblings n i over how everything happens for a reason, after i literally just beatmyself for not having good grades

she aint even know either like its so funny to me

[sam-bam-mma-blog]

It's hard to beat everyone but it's harder to beat myself #beatmyself #beatmyselfgood #beatmyselfallnightifihaveto #boxing #mma #muaythai #bjj #bondi #mmapt #bondistrength (at Bondi Beach)

[solgainer]

I think the reason I get annoyed when people nag at me is because I’m hyperaware of the mistakes I’ve made in the past. I already shame/beatmyself up with those memories on a daily basis, I’d rather not pile that on.

[englishgirlabroad]

There are many reasons that I become #depressed and for all of them I #beatmyself #beatmyselfup, because at the end of the day I am so #blessed and so #luckytobealive and be here with my family. #Survivorsguilt on top of everything else makes some days very challenging, for me and the people around me who will try to understand but as with my #livertransplant not quite get it. I’m seven months post transplant and supposedly looking “so much better” but sometimes like my #invisibleillness that was my #autoimmunedisease I may look fine but not be so fine inside. I really appreciate people trying to understand and emphasise about what I’ve been through but in the same way that I can’t imagine fully the pain of childbirth no one unless they have been through my experience will know what it feels like to be alive and know that you are only #alive because someone else is dead. I’ve started to watch a lot of sci-fi recently which has had various storylines about skins and replicants and the making of things which aren’t quite us but almost are. It would be so much easier if you could make organs and maybe one day we will but until then only the generosity of others will save lives through #organtransplants #organdonation - I can never thank my donor or her family and even if I could how could I ever form the words when #thankyou #thankyoureallyisntenough - the only thing I can do is try and live my life for both of us now and continue to campaign to bring organ transplantation onto the #nationalcurriculum - only through #informeducation #education will we reduce the #shortageoforgans available for #transplant and help the 6500 still waiting for an #organtransplant that may never come or come too late. Knowing that there are still so many waiting makes me feel more guilty for not feeling #happy #100% of the time. But that’s #depression for you. She takes no #prisoners - #organdonationsaveslives #organdonationawareness #presumedconsent #sadselfie #selfie