#beatheyapper

[blueberrylovv]

i love when there's a person in my notifications spamming likes/reblogs (which i adore so dw if you do that too!!!) and i never seen them before (bc i am insane and i check my notifications and i try to memorise people so if you interact with me regularly there's a big big chance i know you and i think fondly of you whenever you pop up in my notifications like a friend that drops by to say hi <3) i go OMG DID YOU JUST FIND ME DID YOU JUST FIND MY BLOG DO YOU LIKE IT ARE WE FRIENDS NOW WILL YOU FOLLOW ME NOW ARE YOU GONNA COME HERE OFTEN HI I SEE YOU AND IM SAYING HI TO YOU IN MY HEAD!!!

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AMEN BROTHER

[blueberrylovv]

tomorrow a new month starts - however you did in september does matter now - if you did well take it as a challenge to do even better, if you did badly take it as an opportunity to make up for it - new month resets the board, the past you doesn't matter only the current you and the future you you're working on, dont let the slipups of september drag you down, dont let the wins of september make you fall into a false sense of security - new month, blank page, prove that you really want this

[blueberrylovv]

i can joke about it, poke fun at the situation but it's hard to put on a brave face when you know you're wasting your 20s sitting alone in your room, avoiding socialising, losing on friendships and relationships, slowly fading into the background just because you cannot stand the sight of yourself and even the idea of being seen makes you want to jump

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I said in the groupchat that I feel like sh1t bc of my period and one of my friends ordered me f0òd to make me feel better :') I have no idea what tho I just got the tracking number so ik the delivery person is coming...

i want to be sad because I'll have to break my fãśt bc I think it is unfair for my kind friends if I ignore the fò0d they sent me but at the same time how could I be sad when I am being loved and taken care of

I think we all have to choose our battles and today I'm chosing to not be miserable and self-loathing but instead be grateful for the friends I have who want to show me they care about me in the way they think is the best (even if it crashes with my own goals)

I hope you (and me too because I know I'm guilty of it more often than I'd like to admit) can recognise that the people that seemingly hinder your progress don't do that out of malice but out of care, they aren't in your head they can't read your mind they don't know what you're going through all they see is a person who is struggling and needs help and for some people helping is making sure you êat somethig so you won't díe - as frustrating as it is at times they just want you to be okay, I don't think we are justified to be upset with them over that

[blueberrylovv]

your friendly reminder to maybe screenshot your fołlowińg/moots list just in case tvmbłr gets you so you can find your friends easier - with love, your friendly neighbourhood bea who got got 3 times already so she knows her shit <3

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masterlist

@blu3b3rryl0v <- bąckup

the 'think [colour]' series:

#1 green #2 yellow #3 red #4 green #5 brown #6 blue #7 pink #8 orange #9 brown #10 white #11 green #12 orange #13 purple #14 pink #15 green #16 dark red #17 dark purple/black #18 pink #19 orange #20 brown

if you work hard this could be your spring/summer/autumn/winter the vision boards:

2014 tumb|r a lazy day inside and drinking coffee angel (male) autumn basketball girl batman (male) beach trip black swan ballet bucky barnes/winter soldier (male) can't the leaves turn brown faster cat/neko girl chappelł róan vibes coquette (poc) coquette dark academia dark green emo emo boy (male) estern europe nostalgia/smutno mi boże fairy (poc) girls with glasses girl with horses goth green goddess green it girl horror video game protagonist kogal light academia long hair don't care male poc manifesting this for october mcbling mermaid (poc) morute natasha romanoff/black widow pilates princess pink summer punk boy (male) punk rockstar girlfriend sage selfcare day spiderman (male) spiderman #2 (male) strawberry the 2014 tvmbłr grunge tvmblr 2014 twilight vampire white and chrome winter zombie

you can send in requests my inbox is always open

tags for this blog:

#thinkcolour - the 'think [colour]' series #beagossip - for answering asks that aren't board requests (aka just sweet messages or giving ideas/advice/perspective) #beathechef - pictures of my męąls (if you would like the recipe/ingredients just lmk under the post or via inbox id love to share so you can also make it) #beatheyapper - just for random yapping yk as one does #beaboards

[blueberrylovv]

as the weather is getting gloomier and gloomier by the day please remember to implement supplements in your day to day life - vitamins D and C, iron, magnesium. remember to drink warm drinks like tea or just warm water with lemon slices if you don't like tea. and to moisturise your face/lips to protect it from harsh wind.

here it's been raining and raining and raining, the weather shifted and now we are truly well into autumn. its supposed to be warmer for a few days next week but after that it will be getting only colder and gloomier. if its also the case for you then remember to adjust to the weather accordingly - getting sick will only slow you down and make you feel terrible, let's take care of ourselves as much as we can to not deal with any more issues than we are already dealing with okay? <3

[blueberrylovv]

the contents of my fridge rn:

half of a zucchini

2 cartons of vanilla flavoured oat milk

opened brie cheese with a small slice missing

3 protein yoghurts (blueberry one, vanilla one, cappuccino one)

opened bottle of teriyaki sauce

1 bottle of apple juice

half of a cucumber

2 bottles of whiskey

3.5 red bell peppers

1 acai berry redbull

thank you for your attention

[blueberrylovv]

dont mind me just doing honey's polls in the morning like the newspaper's crossword

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also mandatory follow my bąćkup post bc duhhhh

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also stretch your body rn!!! stand up and stretch your neck, arms and legs!!! now!!!!

[blueberrylovv]

AM BACK!!!!

anyways hi hello I'm so sorry for being inactive for the past idk how long it all has been just oh so shitty and I was fighting for my life :') I am kinda still fighting for my life but ig I had some nice interactions recently, I started dressing up nicely every day, I am waking up around 6am every day even if my first class is at 9 or 11 and I have time to get ready in the morning (which is so unlike me I've always been last minute kinda gal waking up 10 minutes before I have to get out and stuff), I took 4 exams recently 2 for my Latin class and 2 for my German class and I got 100% in all of them so that provided some academic validation and motivation I needed.

ana has been kicking my ass, hate her so much rn... she came back, kicked down the door and said 'you're gonna be miserable now' and yeah I've been miserable alright. usually i don't mind when she comes back randomly bc usually I use her as motivation but this time she came back as 'you're not making any progress, you will never be able to achieve your goals do you even deserve fo achieve them blah blah blah' v nasty stuff hate it here but oh well I am pushing through ig...

but yeah I'm gonna get my ass back into posting here I think I would benefit from some creative output even if its just a board here and there

so sorry for people I've been ignoring I feel really about about it :c I'm gonna go through my notifications to check who @ me in the past couple weeks so I can respond to you even if it's v late :') also thank you to all the people who are still here and haven't unpfollowed me you're the best ill get back into interacting with you now <3

WATER REMINDER!

[blueberrylovv]

what's up with your parents' house that make you want to eat like a pig... I never eat breakfast yet here I am catching myself looking through the fridge for breakfast I would never do that in my own flat like its not even about them forcefeeding me shit all the time (which they obv do duh) it's just that I'm suddenly looking for food

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will the account survive the night? no fvck1ng idea my guess is as good as yours anyways see ya when i wake up kiss kiss (extra kisses to my 'biggest targęt' hope you are having the day you deserve bestie)

[blueberrylovv]

having a crush makes you forget about food

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I dressed up nicely today for the first time since the beginning of the semester and I wore a skirt for the first time (last year I wore exclusively skirts and dresses, I wore pants only a handful of times in two semesters) and every girl in my uni group so like 20 girls told me I looked pretty and aaaaaaAAAAAAAA I feel so good when I'm all dressed up and put together, i love clothes and fashion and I have a whole room not just a closet an actual room full of clothes and I should be dressing up every day but it's been so hard recently bc I hate myself so much rn and I think I'm disgusting but I think I'm gonna force it now, I think im gonna dress up anyways even if I don't feel pretty enough for it, fake it till you make it because the nice words made my day today so maybe that's how im gonna get myself out of this slump