#beacuse i managed to live like a normal person for 2 years like i kept going and tried to enjoy my days
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for the first time in my life meditation actually worked for me but...
#after spending a decade with anxiety and depression i thought id gotten better#beacuse i managed to live like a normal person for 2 years like i kept going and tried to enjoy my days#but encountering another super stressful situation made me realize i was not completely in control#it was so bad i felt a weight on my heart and neck and an urge to shake my legs#i also wanted to cry a lot#realizing that everything that thought i healed from was coming back to me was the worst of it all#as a result i started doubting my choices on really important matters like going back to school#and spending so much time and energy on something i am not even passionate about#i was literally freaking out#thankfully i decided to meditate and i can function like an avarage adult#but some questions remain#am i really on the right path? no.#knowing that made that anxiety attack even worse#i want to enjoy the things i work so hard for after losing my early twenties to depression#but i literally chose the wrong path when i had the chance to choose and i am stuck with this dullnes forever#what i was stressing over remains as a problem but the reason i actually freaked out to point of having physical effects is this#knowing that i'll never truly enjoy life even after losing so many years#:((#kendime
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