#bcs ultimately kakashi is always up in his feelings & stuck in the past

[xhatake]

LOVE LANGUAGE

a knife called grief

You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything. You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them.

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[allthingskakashi]

As a fellow Kakashi lover, I’m curious if you feel that Kakashi is pretty misunderstood by a lot of fans? I’ve seen people say that he should’ve defected the village, and that he’s messed up for hiding his trauma. (Which he could’ve been more open about, yes, but I’m not sure that he even knew how to go about discussing it at the time) He could’ve easily left the village, but instead he wanted to change things and make society better by teaching teamwork, and to value everyone’s life by putting yourselves before the mission. He never lost hope for the future of shinobi and knew that it could be better. He definitely could’ve been more open about his past, but he’s always been more of a quiet and reserved kid (even before the trauma lol) Idk, I feel like a lot of people overlook his backstory when talking about him!

Istg every time i meet another person who shares this view i just wanna give em the biggest bear hug and im boutta go OFF

Remember back in their childhood when gai was being bullied by these men one time about his dad and kakashi dropped in and whacked them? He always had the conscience to stand up for what was wrong and be there for his comrades but sakumo's death was so traumatic for him, it forced him to change his own beliefs. He became a machine and he believed that carrying out missions as instructed was his only purpose in life, irrespective of what HE felt

because GOD YES he's so so misunderstood by fans half the time and I've seen so many people throw around the term bootlicker for him just cause he didn't throw away everything and leave the village and and join some criminal cult and like no?? The fact that he stayed only shows his strength of character if anything. He could've easily left if he wanted to, he would've made a very sexy villain too but he chose to be hopeful and he chose to remain good and that shows strength of character because it took him a fkn lot to stay in the right path and continue working for the village that took away his father from him.

And it had nothing to do with him being a bootlicker because kakashi is very much his own person and he has his own morals and ideals and he's not a stickler for rules until he believes in them. Yes he did become awfully rule-abiding after Sakumo's death for a while because he saw what listening to your heart instead of adhering to the rules did to his father. He saw the extent to which a previously respected shinobi was villified that he had to resort to taking his own life

And kakashi was angry at sakumo because he was only a small boy who had just lost his father. He couldn't help resent sakumo bc he kept thinking that if only sakumo had just stuck to the rules, he would've still been there with him. that if only he had just done what the village had asked him to, he wouldn't have lost the only family he had. Those were very valid thoughts for a child whose father had just committed suicide but kakashi did know in his heart that his dad was right and that's why he wanted to teach those very principles to the younger generations later on. That's why he told sakumo when they met in the limbo that he was proud of him. But back then when sakumo had just died, kakashi was a grieving child who was angry and dealing with so much pain inside him that he decided he'd never do what cost his father his life. Because he saw right in front of his eyes what happened if you broke the rules and so he did what his 5 year old mind thought he should. But even then, that was never who he was at heart. He never believed in mindlessly abiding by rules and that's what made him consider obito's words and ultimately go back to save rin. Obito's words did not change him, they only helped him see what was already in his heart.

But when obito said those words to him, it resonated with what he truly believed in inside his heart. So yeah, he's no bootlicker, he was just strong willed enough to not give in to the bad things that happened to him. He didn't make an impulse decision. He didn't want to abandon his village. It was his home and despite everything, he loved his home and he valued the people around him. He didn't want to just leave it all. He wanted to stay instead to make the village better, to pass on sakumo's values to the upcoming generations so that they became good shinobi AND humans. To teach his students the power of love and friendship so that they didn't grow up to become the kind of people that had denounced his father. Kakashi didn't want to take revenge for sakumo's death because his actions were never motivated by hatred, but he ensured that his father didn't die in vain.

Leaving would've been much easier for him too,he may have almost even thought of it on nights that were extremely painful, nights when he was completely engulfed with pain and anger at the horrible unfair world but he would've never done it bc that's not him. He CHOSE to listen to the part of his heart that still saw good. Betraying the village that was his home wasn't an option for him

So yeah the fact that he stayed only shows his strength of character. his determination, his judgement, his will to change the village for the better. He refused to pass students unless they knew the value of teamwork. He was the only one who failed team after team and sent them back to academy bc no matter what, he never would've let students who didn't value their comrades become shinobi. Would a bootlicker do that? He broke into root and freed tenzo; when everyone in the village ostracized naruto and iruka had almost made up his mind to ask hiruzen to assign him another student, KAKASHI was the one who told iruka to approach Naruto with love instead. He always had a mind of his own. When team 10 wanted to get their revenge after Asuma's death, kakashi himself offered to accompany them even tho tsunade wasn't initially very enthusiastic about the idea. Would a bootlicker do that? He sneaked naruto off to meet the 4th raikage bc he understood that it was important to Naruto. Would a bootlicker do that? He always did what he thought was right

He realised his mistakes and he changed for the better. He had to raise himself and yet he managed to stay on the right track and make not just a great shinobi but also a great person of himself. He didn't want to leave his home. that was his very identity, that was his world. He wanted to change it, not abandon it. I'm sorry that is not a bootlicker. Danzo had even tried to recruit him or smth once but he'd had the judgement and sense to turn him down

As for hiding his trauma idk what to say to that i mean you can't dictate how someone deals with trauma?? Sure, his ways weren't ideal but what can you expect? He was only a kid. He lost everyone that was important to him before he was even 15 and it's not like he received any help from anybody to heal and get better. The one time he tried to approach jiraiya, he turned kakashi away saying he was putting everyone off by being sad. Ig after that he just decided to stay quiet and keep it all inside himself. The village treated him as a human weapon and he started to see himself that way too because he really didn't care for his life anymore. He suffered from survivor's guilt and he wished he'd die, he hoped one of these missions would kill him. And he was this way for many years but what matters is that he did slowly let himself open up. It took him a long time but he did. He taught his genin team but he learnt from them too. They grew on him, he loved them and cared for them. Sure they were a handful but he they were his handful and he adored them. He could gather up the courage to finally let gai in too and even be verbal about how much he meant to him. It took a long way for him to get there and it was not easy but he got there and that's what matters

SO YEAH PHEW

im sorry that was so long but i get v riled up when people shit on kakashi about these things like you're missing the point and essence of his character and i will throw hands goddamit

The fandom really does misunderstand and misinterpret kakashi v often and there are many instances where i don't agree w the majority so it's so beautiful to me when i see people who think the same way THANK YOU SM I COMPLETELY AGREE W YOU LY <3

[softnaruto]

Quick! Who’s your top 10 most fave Naruto characters? And who are the top 5 that you dislike the most?

Character Rating

author: Hello! I decided to explain why I like each character! I will bold the characters if you don’t want to read though! Thank you for asking this!

Top 10: 

For #1… I’ll definitely have to say that it is Kakashi. Why? Is it a fangirl issue? Is it just a think about looks? I honestly really admire his strength. He’s emotionally and mentally strong and although he has trouble with communicating his feelings, he’s just such a good person. I just appreciate that after everything he’s been through, he is so selfless and will do anything just to help other people. He’s also gorgeous!

Tenzo!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. He gives me such dad vibes and he’s so awkward at times it’s absolutely adorable. I relate to his sense of being—wanting to act tough and as if everything is under control but on the inside, it is so hard to forget the tough times, you know? And also the fact that he’s so pure just makes me so happy. I mean, ultimately, he just wants to feel as if he belongs, which is just so relatable. He’s so strong, dorky, intelligent, and such a warm soul. (P.S. I hate that he was put through so much and ended up being stuck to the worst person ever)

IRUKA! My cute baby boy! Wow, I have so much to say about Iruka. He works hard, he tries to teach his students as much as he can, and he is just so dedicated to teaching. He is such a sweet person and even though he was orphaned at a young age, he still manages to wake up every day and continue to work hard. He makes others feel at home and he was Naruto’s true father figure.

 Itachi. HE DESERVED SO MUCH MORE. He deserved to figure another option out, to be able to be with his family, to be able to LIVE in peace without being haunted by the horrible actions he was forced to do by some irresponsible pieces of—you get my point. Itachi has such a sweet, old soul. He would be the type of person to just listen to you. Also, he’s so intelligent and his actions are ALWAYS planned. Also, his dark, emo self just attached to mine and made me so soft. I would recite him dark poetry anytime.

Obito! He was definitely such a sweet-natured kid and I feel like he was always a good person. Deep down inside all he ever wanted to do was be loved and to be friends (to fit in.) I just want to make him feel as if everything is okay, you know? It’s okay to help others and be late. It’s okay to not be #1. And also, just his entire story made me literally despise evil-natured people. How could someone brainwash such a helpless sweet baby? 10/10

Kiba! He is just so aggressive and wants to be the best at everything, which is really relatable. I am more of a soft-spoken person, so seeing him yell and be chaotic makes me feel safe, lol. Also, Kiba is such a WOMEN WORSHIPPER. He was raised by women and he respects women, PERIOD. In this house we absolutely love respect!!! Also his love for Akamaru makes me soft. 11/11

 HINATA. Hinata was talked down to all of her life but in the end she just didn’t give up. She walked forward and stood tall and WORKED so hard. I admire her strength, her diligence, and the way she carries herself with pride. She’s also so adorable and fierce at the same time? Like she could punch me and I would blush.

Now this one is… controversial. Madara. HEAR ME OUT. I believe he is a good-natured person that was just hurt and completely mistaken. I mean, he wanted peace. He wanted people to not be afraid of him. He also just wanted respect and equality. Let me say that the government of the leaf village did discriminate against the Uchiha and who would’t be upset? It makes sense that he would be upset and try to change his world to what he believes is right (which is messed up but in his point of view he’s fixing the world, right?) Also… Tobirama did kill his brother and that caused Madara to also go insane. If my brother was murdered, I don’t think I could just be okay with everything, especially if my heart work isn’t credited and I am to just be a simple “civilian” and not the Hokage (he created the village too!) He’s not one of my top 5 because he completely destroyed Obito and I also dislike him for that.

GAARA! Gaara is such a wonderful character? He did not deserve anything in his past. The fact that his father hated him and the whole village absolutely despised him and he was still able to change and become a better person is just so… admirable. He’s such a cutie and I love him to death.

NAGATO NAGATO NAGATO! He DESERVED better. He is such a sweet person and was manipulated as well. All he ever wanted was to be at peace. I mean, after all his parents died for NO REASON! He was orphaned at a young age and had to fend for himself. He really just grew up wanting to belong and be in a family and all he was left with was manipulation by a man who was pushed to the brink of insanity. (You see the circle? God the circle makes me CRY)

Top 5 I dislike (this was hard because I'm a very... “they had their reasons bc trauma affects people differently” type of person, so these are just the ones I hate! It’s hard for me to hate any character:

Danzo. Do I need an explanation? He messed EVERYTHING UP. EVERYTHING. He needed to be cut off long before he did. Actually, before anything ever happened. Thanks.

The elders! MAN I DISLIKE KONOHA’S ELDERS SO MUCH. They are selfish, despicable, and who would even agree to such extreme measures?

Orochimaru. He’s a pervert who’s obsessed with children. Nope.

Jiraya. I liked him for some scenes and I hated him for other scenes. He would steal Naruto, AN ORPHAN, money. He sexualized Konan when she was a kid. Just so much that was not okay. 

[cherryfated-blog]

Sakura After the War

The whole thing is under a cut so feel free to skip past this if it’s triggering for you.

Just a quick headcanon that I was thinking about.

Sakura has always had depression, although it waxed and waned throughout her lifetime. After she graduated and before Sasuke left the village, Sakura was at an all-time high for how happy and content she was. Sure, she wished that she felt more like a part of the team, but she could deal. And yes, Kakashi ignored her for a good portion of her time underneath his tutelage, but he could have been worse and not taught her anything, right? 

Back to Sakura Post-War. The war was not easy for anyone, that last scrape of childhood/innocence was quickly snuffed out. Sakura saw and did a lot of things that she can never take bake. There were a lot of shinobi that she couldn’t save/didn’t have the time or energy to heal. And instead of remembering the lost but ultimately moving on with her life, she’s stuck in this limbo. Logically, Sakura knows that their deaths weren’t really her fault, but emotionally, she feels that she could have done so much more.

This leads her down a steep slope, struggling to stay above water even as she chokes on it. The act of opening up the Mental Health Hospital for children helped alleviate it, for a time. But then she was back in the hospital, stagnant and unhappy with where she was in life. It didn’t matter that she ( used to ) love(s) her job at the hospital, Sakura feels as if she doesn’t deserve to be there when she can’t even save those that were lost. She feels useless, broken to a point where no one can help her. At this time in her main verse ( which is the blank period bc it gives me a lotta wiggle room ) Sakura is very suicidal and distances herself from friends and loved ones, instead she buries herself in work and missions when she can. 

Each interaction can either hinder or help, ( if it’s in her main verse ofc ), but it will take time for her to heal. And it’s going to be messy, and emotional. But on a subconscious level, Sakura wants to get better, she’s screaming on the inside, hurting in a way that she’s never really experienced before.