#bcs for the longest time i’ve just been reading book excerpts

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i’ve not read a single book written by sylvia plath or jane austen and it is due time for that to change

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fic writer tag game!!

i was tagged by @meztliel, thanks so much!!

AO3 name: starlightwalking

Fandoms: mostly Tolkien, my current main WIPs are Hobbit and LOTR fics, but i’m definitely mostly writing for the Silm these days, just lots of oneshots. i also dabble in Les Mis (at least once a year for Barricade Day!) and TAZ :)

Number of fics: 179??? how??? and i’m only gonna have more!! i’m not even done with B2MeM20 yet!!

Fic I spent the most time on: oh geez. that’s a tough one. this fic that i just posted, a Measse/Thuringwethil oneshot, i started in 2015?? but i left it sitting for 5 years, so i don’t think that counts. and i guess this drabble comp would be the next candidate, i started it in May 2016 and i last updated it in December 2019, but it’s...a drabble compilation, not an actual fic. so i think i actually spent the most time on my current WIPs, “Moonlight” and “Roads Go On,” both originally posted in May 2018 (jesus i was still in HIGH SCHOOL) and updated.....last year...... really i just haven’t had time to work on them, rip, though i think about them constantly. that’s what happens when you’re not in high school anymore i suppose....

Fic I spent the least time on: i mean, something from that drabble comp, probably. Or a B2MeM ficlet. probably this Glorfindel fic? I only remember writing it because I know it was written in a hurry at like 2am and my friend Moth @thishazeleyeddemon loved it and I was like “wow weird considering how little effort I put into it!”

Longest fic: Currently my post-BotFA Tauriel fic “Beneath the Stars” coming in at 49k! RGO and Moonlight both promise to be longer, but that would require me actually finishing either of them... but I love BtS so much that I’m glad it’s up there, it was a real labor of love <3

Shortest fic: “The Lay of Nienor” which I just wrote this past month! it’s only 238 words long - but it’s in verse, so that’s pretty respectable!

Most hits: My first BotFA fix it fic, “A Merrier Place,” with 5544 hits - to no one’s surprise by my chagrin. That was one of my first forays into Hobbit fic and I wrote it shortly after the movie came out, when people were most in need of a fix it AU. So I don’t blame them, really - but as I’m sort of setting out to rewrite my thoughts on what actually would’ve happened in an Everyone Lives AU in my current fic “Moonlight,” I wish people would pay more attention to that...

Most kudos: My TRSB19 Gigolas fic, “Love and Fear,” coming in with 155 kudos! this fic features art from @ginogollum and honestly, it deserves that love! (though, I think it does say a lot about what fandom wants that my only romo!gigolas fic has the most kudos of anything i’ve written, and all my qp!gigolas fics are much lower down the list... though perhaps I’m being unfair, considering my qp!Domadry fic “Wedding Blues” has the second-most kudos at 147.)

Most comment threads: My other TRSB19 fic, the Feanorian Redemption/Rebirth story “ATATYA” - that’s 71 comment threads and 147 total comments including replies!!! :) that makes me very very happy, because I wrote the 45,000 words of that fic in like...two weeks, about? it was INTENSE. and i’m very proud of that story, it’s got a lot of headcanons that I stand by, and I reference it frequently!

Most bookmarks: I added this category bc it felt weird it wasn’t here. Again, this prize goes to “Love and Fear” with 43 bookmarks!! woah :o second place is “A Merrier Place” with 35, and then the first fic I haven’t already mentioned is “The Naming Dame,” a HTTYD book fic with 30 bookmarks! I really should go back and update that fic, considering I wrote it before the last book came out and there’s new relevant information...

Total word count: I also added this one because I wanna brag!! I currently have 739,961 words archived on AO3 - holy shit!! adding the ~253k words I didn’t transfer over from FFN, that’s nearly a million words of fic! by the time i finish B2MeM I might push past that threshhold!!!!! that’s so exciting!!!! (fun fact about me: before Tolkien, my main fandom was...warrior cats...roughly 215k of that fic I left to gather dust on FFN is WC fic........)

Favourite fic I wrote: This isn’t fair, I can’t choose just one!! Ugh...well, if I must, I think it has to be “ATATYA”? This is subject to change, and “Beneath the Stars” is a close second, but “ATATYA” is my first real Silm longfic and I’m very proud of what I accomplished there, especially in such a short amount of time. Bonus: my favorite oneshot / favorite non-Tolkien fic is “and Love,” the aro Magnus fic I wrote for ASAW last year!

Fic you want to rewrite/expand on: I mean, I already talked about how “Moonlight” is kind of a rewrite of “A Merrier Place,” so...hm. Well, earlier today in an ask game I mentioned my fic “fell and fey” which is the Eol-living-in-a-fairy-tale fic I wrote just this past month. I started writing a longer, more poetic version of that fic that I’d like to return to and expand on someday, but I wanted to get that idea out of my head and B2MeM was a great excuse to do it, so I went with the shorter version instead - for now!

Share a bit of a WIP or a story idea you’re planning on:

I’ve got a couple WIPs right now... here’s a snippet of ch8 of “Roads Go On” (which i PROMISE i will have up soon...i know i’ve been saying that for more than year but i MEAN IT this time...)

“What do you mean we can’t take the freeway?” Boromir snapped.

“My way or the highway, he means,” Gimli quipped. “And, uh...not the highway, I guess.”

Mithrandir shot Gimli a withering glare. Though he only smiled, some part of him shriveled up inside. A wizard’s evil eye was nothing to mess with.

I think I’ve already shared that snippet in a different tag game, so here’s one more for the road - this one’s from “Cause and Consequence,” my Halenthir baby OC fic. This snippet comes from a chapter that won’t be out for awhile (and might undergo some serious revamping before then), and it’s set right after the Nirnaeth, with my OC (Ryndil) about to confront their dad.

“This is no place for mortals,” Maglor said flatly. “You do know who we are, don’t you, Rýndil of Brethil?”

A shiver ran down their spine. Seven tall elf-lords, gaunt and scarred and bloody in the aftermath of a disastrous battle. Maedhros, the eldest, was a shell of the glorious figure he’d been on the battlefield; they weren’t sure if he was even awake, his eyes were so glassy and unfocused. Grief, they supposed. They’d heard the rumors about him and the High King, after all.

Maglor, leading in his place, trembling despite the firmness in his golden voice. Celegorm, bitter and angry and mean despite his fair features. Curufin, his dark shadow, flint in his eyes and venom on his tongue. Amrod and Amras, mirroring each other in their distrustful glares. And yet despite the blood and dirt and pain, a light shone from each of them. These were men to be feared, men to be worshipped.

And then there was him. Caranthir the Dark. Rýndil’s father, the blood flowing through their veins, the reason they were here in the first place. Gaunt and red-faced, the weary host of his defeated brothers, he had scarcely stopped moving about and making room for them since they arrived.

As much as Rýndil was of the Haladin, as much as they were the child of Haleth, they were bound to this family and people also.

there’s a lot of grief-stricken angry feanorian banter that comes after this (including some Maedhros characterization that i’m Very Proud Of), and honestly? i might just go ahead and post the whole excerpt if anyone wants to read it (it’s about 1.3k words) since I’m fairly sure I will be changing a lot of it anyway, even if it’s only for tone.

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looking at these stats, i’m both kind of sad and kind of proud. like, i’m proud of myself for what i’ve written, and proud of the relationships i’ve forged with readers and writers on AO3, but i know lots and lots of folks who have waaayyy higher stats than me. i know considering i write a lot of gen and aro fic that i’ll never be a Big Name Fan, but that doesn’t stop me from being jealous... sigh...

anyway, this was very very fun!!! i tag @buffintruder @himrings @mushroomwriter @zealouswerewolfcollector @hennethgalad @absynthe--minded @stormxpadme @morifiinwe @raisingcain-onceagain annnd any other writer who sees this and wants to do it!! no pressure of course, only do it if you want to :)

(and LMK in replies if you’re interested in seeing more of that Ryndil snippet!!)

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Annual Writing Self Evaluation

My lovely friends @nightwideopen @hrrytomlinson and @mediawhorefics all tagged me in this so, get ready for a long, rambly mess 

1. List of works published this year:

pray for some sweet simplicity (last half)

oh we’re in love aren’t we 

lightning before the thunder

Ever Fixed 

cage me like an animal (first part)

You and Me

Baby Honey

Trouvaille 

2. Work you are most proud of (and why):

probably finishing pfsss, because that was my longest fic ever and my baby. I’m also proud of how Ever Fixed turn out bc I wrote it on a tight deadline and it still turned out alright. 

3. Work you are least proud of (and why):

I’m really not happy with the lack of attention I gave to cage me like an animal. I’m still limping to finish it and I just wish it could’ve been better. 

4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

from pray for some sweet simplicity: 

“This is the first time I’ve seen you at an event without your racer’s jacket.”

Louis snorted softly, pushing back against the desk until only his fingertips were pressed into the carved edges.

“Is that all you have to say to me?” he asked. His words weren’t cutting, or teasing, even, just soft. A reach, to see if Harry bothered to say anything back.

Harry dipped his head, examining a point on the floor Louis couldn’t see in the mirror, and then lifted his gaze back up.

“It’s all I can think of right now,” the other man admitted, and Louis shook his head. His hand smoothed over the book in front of him, the pages crinkling under his fingertips.

“You’re lying,” Louis said softly, bringing his eyes back up to the mirror as he said it, “You have a lot more you’d like to say,”

“Maybe,”

Louis leaned forward into the desk, his waist digging into the front of the table.

“Well then, say one of the things you maybe want to say to me.”

Harry didn’t speak for a long time, and Louis was suddenly very aware that he might never speak to him again. He could walk out, disappear into the night, and he could spend the next several months with a silent ghost watching him from the sidelines.  

But instead, Harry looked back up, and this time, he steadily held Louis’s gaze.

“I think you look very nice tonight,” he said, “Without your jacket.”

“Very nice,” Louis repeated, licking his lips. He meant to say it drily but there was no air in his chest, “Thought a writer would come up with something better than that.”

Harry’s eyes flickered, like he wanted to drop his gaze, but he kept his eyes steady, his voice soft and smooth when he spoke again.

“You look beautiful, Louis.”

5. Share or describe a favorite review you received:

on Ever Fixed:

“Oh my goodness, first of all the love story in this is beautiful and heartwarming and that plot twist made me gasp during class hahah but mainly I’m just so floored by how you wrote grief. At the start of this year I had to go through weeks of sitting at the bedside of someone I loved in a hospital and watching them slowly die and it fucking hurts, reading this was helpful and heartbreaking all in one so thank you so much for sharing it.” 

Finding out you can help someone in a moment like that....yeah it’s a raw and incredible feeling 

6. A time when writing was really, really hard:

Any time during the school year, it’s just hard to find the time. But I always struggle with my mental illness during school breaks so right now and over the summer was really tough to get through because mental illness bumps always come with mad writer’s block. 

7. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

Anything I wrote with Private Alex James Styles, the love of my life who I did not expect to adore this much. 

8. How did you grow as a writer this year:

I definitely was more fearless and put out far more fics than I did last year. I actually followed through with ideas and didn’t care as much about how they’d be received, I just wrote because I loved the idea. I can’t always stay in that mindset, unfortunately, but I’m working on it, because it feels very freeing. 

9. How do you hope to grow next year:

Force myself to actually have structured writing time, because too often it gets pushed to the side when I’m doing schoolwork and my job and errands. And as always, just keep improving and being a stronger storyteller with each story I put out. 

10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

So many people. One, @bottomlouiswriter for being a saint and putting up with my shit, and @hrrytomlinson @mediawhorefics @erosau @tommostummie @twoghostsacoustic @hogwartzlou​ for being lovely friends and lovely cheerleaders and just....lovely 

11. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

oh we’re in love aren’t we is largely based off my college experiences so far so yes, for sure. and there are also lil anecdotes and stuff from my life that pop up in my writing one way or another. 

12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Just have fun, fuck everyone else. Maybe find someone who can shame you into finally learning how to punctuate correctly. 

13. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

Sooo many! My big bang fic, finishing my werewolf au, writing more Alex/Louis and maybe thinking up so old wips I abandoned, among other things

14. Tag three writers whose answers you’d like to read.

Lots of people already got tagged, but I still wanna pick @smrwine and her beautiful, brilliant brain (oh, and I forgot my sweet bub @erosau !!!) 

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Personal Trainer  Jungkook

Pairing: JungkookxReader 

Warning: Cursing, Smut, Slight Angst?

Excerpt: He had never seen you this exposed since middle school at pool parties, your body was a shock to him. The way the leggings hugged every curve and made your ass looked perked up not leaving much for the imagination. As well as your sports bra which left your mid-drift completely exposed and your breasts slightly shoved up. “Um hi uh yeah let’s not waste time, get down and give me thirty push up and then a thirty second plank.” “Wow Jungkokie is bossy when he’s at work.”

Word Count: 2,887

Note: I was actually working out (shocking) when I thought of this bc holy shit imagine Jungkook big ass arms picking you up like a fucking rag doll and his veins just omg yes please bias wrecker!   

Lately you’ve been in a rut, you weren’t happy with how things have been going since you’ve started university. Being so caught up in school work and actual work at the coffee shop you started to notice yourself drifting away from your friends. Those friends being the seven hyungs you’ve known since middle school. Picking your phone up from the picnic table you were studying at for the moment, desperately trying to get out of this rut you decided to reach out to them in the group chat to meet and catch up on life. 

To Hyungies: “I miss you fuckers, lets chill at the campus fire pit around 8?”

Jiminnie: “Awe guys she misses us, how sweet.”

Me: “I miss you the least Jiminnie.”

Jiminnie: “The lies you tell Y/N ;)”

TaeTae: “I’m down”

Hobi: “LITTY TITTY I’LL BRING THE BOOZE”

Me: “So I guess I’ll go ahead and reserve it so it can just be us.”

Kookie: “I might be there a bit late but for sure, and Hobi don’t bring that wine cooler shit.”

As the rest of the texts came spilling in you couldn’t help but get excited, you haven’t seen the little shits in almost three weeks and last you checked that’s the longest you’ve gone without seeing them yet. 

You went ahead and made arrangements to reserve one gazebo with the fire pit included. Perks of working on campus is that it was completely free. After hanging up with the sweet lady on the phone you noticed that it was already 6:55. You momentarily paused for a second to figure out if you should book it back to your dorm to actually make a big effort for the hyungs, or just go with flow. You made a choice that basically mixed the two. Take the longish scenic route back to your dorm but also maybe add a tad bit more effort into how you’ll look tonight just to impress the hyungs a little bit. 

When you got back to the dorm you already had an outfit to wear in mind. You settled on a 70′sish black off the shoulder top with a white bralette underneath, light washed jeans and the basic black and white high-top vans. Your makeup was pretty light, going with a small black cat eye, a touch of bronzer, and to top it off some vanilla flavored chapstick. For your hair you took your bun you’ve had up all day out and let your long tresses fall down your back in a wavy pattern. Taking a look at yourself one last time in the mirror before spritzing yourself with coconut and lime scented perfume, you noticed something. As simple as you were dressed you haven't looked this good in a little while. You could only imagine what all the hyungs would say, though you wouldn't mind a few compliments. Taking your phone off the charger and checking the time it read 8:15. Shit you were already late for the plans you made. Good thing the fire pit wasn’t excruciatingly far from your dorm. 

 “Ah Y/N about time you showed up, at least Kookie gave us a heads up that’d he’d be a bit late” Namjoon embraced you in a hug as you saw everyone but Jungkook had arrived. After exchanging hugs with everyone and Tae being especially touchy by giving you tons of little pecks of kisses around your face like a puppy, this was never out of the norm for Tae the two of you had always been playful. Afterwards you went to go sit beside Jimin, just when you were about to sit. He swiftly pulled you by your hips into his lap. “Jimin what the hell, I swear you’ll never stop being a fuckboy will you?” “I can’t joke with a friend, jeez Y/N?” He said as he started poking your sides and tickling you, both of you bursting into a fit of laughter. When Jimin had decided to stop picking on you, Yoongi had gotten up to get himself more of whatever he had in his cup. “Yoongi would you be the best person ever and get me a cup of whatever you’re having?” “Sure Y/N but don’t expect any more from me.” He motioned for you to take the cup with a wink. The moment that the cup was in your grasp you attempted to take a big gulp trying to catch up with everyone around you who was already buzzing, which seemed to be all of them except a still absent Kookie. When the warm alcohol flooded to the back of your throat you almost choked on how much it burned. “Hobi what in the actual fuck did you buy!?” “All of you fuckers told me to get something hard so I got Henny!” He had a smug look on his face and brought his cup to his lips taking a swig almost like he was trying to send a mental ‘fuck you’ to everyone. “It’s the fucking devils nectar is what it is Hobi” The poor guy was caught off guard so quick he spat his drink out and most of it go on Jin who was sitting beside him. “HOBI I could kill you right now.” Jin hissed at him and Hobi actually seemed slightly frightened. In attempt to save Hobi’s ass, “Jin calm down it was mostly my fault, so if you’re mad at anyone let it be me. Jin had seemed to calm down a bit and went back to do whatever he was doing on his phone. Probably in another fight with his girlfriend which none of us liked, sometimes you questioned whether Jin even liked her. But that situation is a whole other story.

Noticing Jungkook still wasn’t here and it was already almost nine had you slightly worried, “Joonie when is Jungkook supposed to- A sweaty flustered Jungkook came jogging into the gazebo “Guys I’m sorry I’m so late I got caught up at work and the client wouldn’t stop harassing me for my number and the manager had to get involved it was just a mess.” You didn’t know if it was the alcohol or that you hadn’t seen Kookie in a while but you couldn’t peel your eyes off of him. He had a light layer of sweat on him that glistened in the light of the fire just right, his arms had gotten huge and his veins flexed at every hand gesture he made. God even his face was framed just right by the sweaty pieces of hair that had clung to it. You bit your lip without realization and continued to admire his body until you saw a hand waving in your face, realizing the hand had belonged to Jungkook snapped you out of your thoughts.

“Sorry Kookie.. I was thinking about..” Stumbling over your words Jungkook took you into a sweet embrace and you smell the mix of his sweat and cologne that was oh so heavenly on his hoodie. You could’ve lived in that smell if it weren’t for Jungkook pulling away.  “Y/N I was asking how are things going at the coffee shop?” Slow but good, so you have a job I hear?” Kookie must’ve been pretty proud of himself because he stood up stout and whipped out a badge that you couldn’t comprehend because it was so dark outside and the fires light only put a glare on the card. “I work at the campus gym as a personal trainer, it was pretty easy due to my history of football experience” he scoffed while flipping his hair. “So do you only train men or do you train women as well because I’ve been thinking about getting a personal trainer but I just don’t like strangers telling me what to do.” You laughed and playfully put your arm on Jungkooks Shoulder. You immediately regretted that decision due to henny goggles clouding your judgement and all you wanted to was take Jungkook right there if it weren’t for all the boys being around. “Well actually if you want I don’t have anyone booked from 8-9 if you’d like to come check it out and your first session could be free of course by yours truly.” He shot you a big grin that could melt your heart.  “That sounds like a great plan Kookie I’ll be there!”

 “This is a terrible plan I want to die.” You mutter to yourself as a 6:30 alarm goes off. Your surroundings seem like hell around you. The curtains were slightly opened, a tiny bit of sun creeping in and instead of it seeming welcoming in the morning like usual the rays looked more like death rays and the sun was the laser gun. Your head throbbing and a faint taste of Hennessey still on your tongue. Hennessey was like your kryptonite of all alcohols. You would drink maybe two or three shots and be hammered. Checking your phone screen you had a text from Jungkook reading “Can’t wait to see you later : )” Fuck, this was the worst idea. You were a wreck from this hangover, eventually just deciding to take two Advil and downing a whole bottle of Gatorade before getting in the shower. You decided to wear a pair of black spandex leggings, a black and white sports bra from Victoria secret because let’s be honest your girls need that fifty dollar support, a pair of black Nike roshes, and lastly to top it all off a black baseball cap with an alien flicking people off to hold your pony tail. You walk out of your dorm with a water bottle that says ‘fuck this shit’ and your phone.    

 You walk through the gyms doors and sign in as a guest since you weren’t an official member. After asking the lady where to find Jungkook’s training room you make it back there not bothering to knock and just walk in. The moment you open the door you see Jungkook shirtless lifting weights, you don’t even know what caused it but you froze and your phone fell out of your hand making a loud thud on the ground causing Jungkook to quickly look in your direction. He sets his eyes on you and makes a coughing sound like he had choked on air. He had never seen you this exposed since middle school at pool parties, your body was a shock to him. The way the leggings hugged every curve and made your ass looked perked up not leaving much for the imagination. As well as your sports bra which left your mid-drift completely exposed and your breasts slightly shoved up. “Um hi uh yeah let’s not waste time, get down and give me thirty push up and then a thirty second plank.” “Wow Jungkokie is bossy when he’s at work.” “Y/N I’m serious do it, now.” You got down on the mat after rolling your eyes and started doing push ups. When you finally got to thirty you were already done with the whole situation. “Kookie there’s no way I can do a thirty second plank after all that.” He shot you the dirtiest glare in man kind so you got down and did what he demanded. Jungkook not taking his eyes off of you, taking note of how tight and perky your ass looked in that positon. It’s not like you’re stupid Jungkook wasn’t hiding his stares well at all. You saw his eyes trail all over your body so you decided to get a rise out of him. You looked Jungkook in the eyes almost like a whimper you said “Kookie I can’t do this it’s too hard” Your mouth lingering on the word hard, he looked shocked seconds after demanding you to get in the downward dog position to stretch. You did as he demanded but as you brought your ass into the air you did ever so slowly letting a small moan of relief out. You heard Jungkook mutter “God fucking damnit.” “Jungkookie what’s wrong?” Even though you knew exactly what you were doing to him.

“Are you really fucking doing this to me right now Y/N?”

“What do you mean Kookie I’m only doing what you ask me to.”

In that instant Jungkook snatched you up off the ground and pinned you against the wall, “Are you fucking serious Y/N all last night you stared at me like you were a tiger and I was going to be your next prey, did you really think I wouldn’t notice? And jesus fucking Christ you come walking in here dressed like this, I bet every guy out there had seen you and was just mentally eye fucking you!” The words that were flying out of Jungkooks mouth and the firm grasp he had around your waist only made a heat stir between your legs. In an instant you wrapped your hands in Jungkook’s hair pulling him closer to you. With the tip of your tongue you licked across his bottom lip ever so lightly. Jungkook couldn’t take it anymore he collided his lips into yours, it was almost like he had been starving for this feeling and your lips were the food to satisfy him. You took the chance to reach down and palm his hardening length through his joggers. He snatched your hand away and began grinding his erection into your now dripping heat. Before the two of you could go any further you mentioned “Jungkook the door.” He picked you up to go with him to lock the door and then laid you on the weight bench. Your fingernails now running down his hardened abs sent an ever so light moan out of his mouth. Seeing what your touch could do to him made you need him inside of you. “Jungkook- you wrapped your legs around his waist shoving his into yours- do something.” “Now look who’s bossy” he shot back before pulling your leggings off and devouring your heat like it’s his last meal making your back arch off the weight bench. The way his tongue would slide up your slit and flick your clit and then back down, coming up once again but with his tongue flat and moving from side to side focusing on that bundle of nerve that made you a moaning mess. He then teased you by circling his fingers around your clit and lightly down your folds, barely any pressure at all. “Jungkook please.” With those two words he shoved his fingers inside of you without warning, going in and out curling them in just the right way. He was palming himself over his joggers making you sit up and treat him now. “Jungkook take my spot I want to ride you.” He looks at you in shock but does it anyway. You trail wet kisses down chest until you meet the waistband of his pants. Pulling them down made his erection slip free and slap against his abs. At the sight all you could think was about his dick inside of you, you climbed up to straddle him. Taking it in your hand you start to rub the tip in circles against your heat. Jungkook took your waist into his hands slamming you down on his cock throwing your head back and moaning trying to adjust to him. “Ride me baby.” He cooed right into your ear. You started to roll your hips making your clit rub against his pelvis. You couldn’t help but to clench your walls around him making him grab your hips so tight you were sure there would be bruises. The pain mixed with pleasure was something you never felt before but now obsessed with the feeling. To further pleasure him you turn around on his cock and have your back facing him and use the weight bar to your advantage by using it to bounce up and down on Jungkook’s dick. Spews of Y/N and ‘fuck this feels so good’ came spilling out of his mouth. That’s when you had undone your bra and chucked it across the room. Grabbing Jungkook’s hands you put one on your clit and the other on your breast. He began pinching and pulling the nerve on your breast while the other was rubbing circles on your clit doing amazing things to your body. “Jungkook I can’t hold out I need to cum.” “I want you to cum on my dick princess, can you do that for me?” Those words sent you over the edge when you stopped moving Jungkook laid you down and pounded into you at a ravenous pace making your orgasm pulse throughout your whole entire body. He couldn’t handle the feeling of your walls clenching and unclenching around him anymore, that’s when he pulled out jerking himself off and cuming on your stomach. Both of you completely blissed out and the pace of your breathing becoming normal again Jungkook decided to lay on the floor mat.

“So how was that for your first personal trainer session?”

“I think I might have to become a member and schedule weekly.” You giggled finishing your sentence.

[speaknowslut13]

Lauren my beloved! Sorry I missed yesterday, my life is chaos and also I was out of data haha.

Ohh very fun! I feel like kids that age are fun because their personalities are really starting to develop.

Awesome! I’ve also played flute since 5th grade and then I played piccolo in marching band all through college. I miss playing in groups, and I’m really hoping that’ll be possible again soon! You are to drums as I am to singing lmfao I was almost kicked out of choir in high school bc I canNOT carry a tune. What other instruments do you want to learn?

I love channels like that! That and cooking channels are the majority of my subscribed to haha so if you ever decide to start a YouTube, I will certainly be on your subscribers list. Understandable, Tiktok stresses me outtttt lol I go on from time to time bc my sister always sends me a bunch but then I have to delete the app again.

Awwwwwe oh my gosh, that’s so cute!! 🥺🥺 what was your wedding like? (Though I never plan on getting married myself, I loveeeeee weddings hehe) what kind of stuff do you like to do together?

Omggg what an incredible experience for rep tour! Tumblr during rep tour was one of my favorite times ever on tumblr, like so exciting to get clips of the b stage songs and see peoples posts about meeting her! What other concerts have you been too?

I’m hoping to visit Croatia at the end of august, if everything goes according to plan/covid doesn’t once again wreck my plans. I grew up in the northwestern US, and there people joke that the seasons are “fire season, road construction, winter” and winters are regularly so much snow, windy, and -20°, so not ideal conditions for enjoying them. Have you been to Grand Canyon or any of the other national parks in the southwest? They all look so beautiful, that’s one part of the US I would definitely like to see more of.

Thank you!! I’m really excited to be a student again but I am also really glad I took some time off. I enjoy Dostoevsky! Probably not my all time favorite, but my best friend loves him so I’ve read a lot of his stuff and talk about it a lot. Also a big fan of Byron and I have a love/hate relationship with Shakespeare. My favorite poet is ee cummings, I love Cynthia Kadohata, huge Neil Gaiman fan. And many many others haha but off the top of my head let’s go with that 😅

What do you write about? And in what medium? I write a lot of poetry and I like writing non fiction, but I learned in college that I am NOT a fiction writer hahaha.

What have you been up to this weekend?? I hope you’ve had a lovely day 💖 Drew

ps: I love reading your responses! Please don’t feel bad or stressed about writing a lot ✨✨

Hello, Drew! Chaos feels like the natural order of the world lately. It’s fine if you miss a day or two! I understand.

I actually never really wanted to be married myself. I figured if I did, I’d be at least 30. I wanted to get school done first. Then, after my previous relationship, I decided I wanted to be alone. Fate had different plans. I also wasn’t sure I wanted kids. Changed my mind. However one is plenty. One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone invalidates a person’s choices by saying “oh you’ll change your mind”. So even though I changed mine, I won’t be implying or outright denying that you don’t know your own mind.

My wedding was small. We eloped. It was a complicated situation with his family at the time, and we had decided to have the protection of a legal document since we were living together anyway. We picked randomly picked the day. Turned out to be Valentine’s Day. So, I, along with millions of other people, got married at a court house. In fact, someone was wearing my same dress that day! It was awkward. We have yet to have any celebration outside of that day. It was just my immediate family. However, I’ve never regretted marrying him and I still look back fondly on it. Fun fact: his parents found out we were married after we totaled their truck a few months later. Not so fun fact: that was the scariest accident I’ve been in to date. Accident wasn’t our fault and at least in this accident I had airbags. Ever been in an accident? Or in one without modern crash technology? It’s not very fun. Hurts a lot. I remember having to tell my father in law, on the side of the road, that Chase and I had actually gotten married. He was stunned but super supportive. Like I previously said, it was complicated . And I can get into it more, but there’s so much else to address right now!

We really like sitting in silence on our phones together! 😂 We are one of those annoying couples who like to do everything together. We are practically attached at the hip and the pandemic has only made it worse. He’s really interested in getting into D&D. We like playing video games together. We both love swimming. We both really want to travel. I’d love to take him to Europe. We like movies. But we both compliment our different likes and knowledge. He loves animated movies and animes and I love books. We both love art. He’s so good. He lets me do his makeup and nails from time to time. It doesn’t bother him at all. But not only that he’s really helpful at making sure I get my medicines and that I get rest when I need it. Throughout the lockdown he’d do all the running around so I wouldn’t have to go out since I’m immuno compromised. Sometimes I feel like he’s too good to me and the kid. I try to give back what I can. But honestly, he’s my best friend too.

Ahem. Enough gushing.

Other than some musicals and local symphonies, I’ve never been to any other concerts! Weird. I know! I’ve wanted to but never have. I’ve always wanted to see Imagine Dragons. Or Panic! at the Disco. There’s a few artists actually, I’d love to go see.

Croatia is BEAUTIFUL. My time in Europe was 2 weeks during July. I’m in love with it. If you go, Rijeka is wonderful. But near Rijeka is a mountain town called Fužine. It’s MAGICAL. I spent most of my time there. One of the upsides to staying in Rijeka is that it’s just a few hours away from Venice, too. Which. Was also breathtaking. I cried at the beauty of it. I have pictures of these places and I love looking at them. But they also make me a little sad. For multiple reasons. We had a layover in Munich on our way home and so we spent two days there as well. We drove up to the Neuschwanstein castle. It was amazing. But the most harrowing part of that stop was at the site of Dachau. I will never forget the heaviness of it. I had to stop halfway through. It was too much for my sensitivity. A privilege I will never forget.

I was able to visit Idaho (Rexburg) during October and December one year and I loved it. I’ve only ever been to Washington (coastal) and Oregon during the summer months. I wanted to go to school in Washington, originally. Thought I’d move up there. Now the goal is to ultimately expat. Canada, likely. We will see if that ever pans out, though.

I’ve been to the Grand Canyon once when I was 10 or 11(?). We went during December to ride the “Polar Express”. It’s a special event they run during the winter months before Christmas. We were snowed in so we stayed an extra day and took the train to the Grand Canyon. So I got to see it all snowy and clear. It’s gorgeous and I highly recommend it once. I don’t know if I would ever really go back but I might take the kid someday. I at least want her to go on the Polar Express ride. It’s cute and fun for the kids. I was a little too old to fully enjoy it, but my little sister was roughly the right age.

I’ve been to several places in Arizona. The missions, Jerome, and I’ve also been to some places in Colorado and New Mexico. I can’t recall all their names off the top of my head and it was a long time ago.

I greatly appreciate anyone who can write poetry. It is not my forte. They come out childish and awkward. So, I keep those to myself. I write anything and everything. I have several stories, but three top priority right now. One is complete but needs serious reworking and revision. I started it when I was 15. It’s a paranormal mystery with romance. The second one is a fantasy that I started with a friend when I was 14/15. It has its own world and has taken on a life of its own since then. It’s massive. And the third one is a coming of age story. It’s my most delicate one. I started it when I was 21. I have shared an excerpt on tumblr of this one. It’s my most complicated one yet. Like any artist, I’m constantly second guessing my work and lamenting my talent.

This weekend has been mostly spent recharging. I’ve been helping my mom with a project. And of course swimming. I’m a child at heart and I bought myself a mermaid tail. I’ve elevated my pool game. It’s so much fun but my body is yelling at me. I’m not as energetic as I was in my youth. You mentioned marching band? You and I really do have much in common! Not only are you a flautist, but a marching one at that?! I marched in high for two years. I loved it but I started to get burned out. And then I started horseback riding and planned to do that instead. My parents couldn’t afford to do both. And then I caught mono. Looking back, I understand why my mono knocked me out for so long (it’s linked to my autoimmune issues) but at the time every one of my friends thought I was being dramatic. It was kind of a horrible experience. So even if I had signed up for band my junior year, I would’ve had to quit. And then my senior year I signed up for this program that put me through a college program to get my EMT-B. I didn’t take band at all that year. Now I just play for myself. Ideally I’d learn every instrument.

I actually couldn’t sing very well for the longest time. Which was ironic because my mom was operatically trained. My older sister was also trained. And my little sister preferred chorus to band. I ended up teaching myself later. So now I don’t sound terrible but I’m not going to take my solo act on the road anytime soon.

If I can teach myself makeup, art, instruments, and other various things, then maybe I can also someday be brave enough to put myself out there on the internet. And if I do, I will definitely let you know! I will at least have 3 subscribers. 😂

Tell me about this trip you’re planning to Croatia!