#bc. if i manage to achieve great success by working longer (unpaid) hours. if i stress and streas and get things done. they will assume | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cannibalisticskittles · 1 year

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i go back to work tomorrow and it is. so weird not having something pressing to do.

obviously starting tomorrow -- and particularly starting next week, when the kids actually come back -- i will have far less time to be listless. and when my next class starts in a few weeks, i will have no time.

but for the moment it's. weird. i need something to throw myself into.

#theoretically i could start prepping for work #bc lord knows there's never enough time to get the classroon and materials ready #but i refuse. i refuse to work outside my contracted hours except in (what i deem) emergencies #when i am there they have my time and my energy #but before and after that my time is mine and i will not concede a meagre second of it #this is how i keep myself from burnout #otherwise i would never have made it to the second year #they have no curriculum for me. they have few materials. they haven't even given me desks yet.#and i will not strain myself to make up for these failings -- not on my time #bc. if i manage to achieve great success by working longer (unpaid) hours. if i stress and streas and get things done. they will assume #that i can continue working like that #i will not sabotage myself or the students of course #but like. theyre giving me more kids and i'm already down a TA.#so i can guarantee that my students will be safe and happy. guarantee. and I'd LOVE for them to learn.#but w/ three grades at once and HAVING ONE LESS TA than i ought to have.... its not going to be nearly as efficient as it could be otherwise #the sped facilitator is so busy and tired all the time that its worsening her physical injuries #i wish she'd take time for herself #but I can't make her.#i can certainly say no for myself tho.

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