#bc they are an amazing person full of love and patience and grace

[cosmogyros]

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tagged by my fav @loulovehome thank you pu hope that this quells your curiosity! 

MUSIC

fav genre? not to be that person but i think i have a toe in most genres, i suppose my favorites have got to be anything taylor swift does, pop punk, r&b pop/new age r&b, and bluegrass

fav artist? again, not to be that person but i love so many artists! let’s do this based off of genre: taylor swift, 1D, 5sos, massive focus on ZAYN, the Avett brothers, and counting crows

fav song? fav song of all time (since i was young) is going to be come around by rhett miller but more currently i’d say you are in love by taylor swift and dRuNk by ZAYN

song currently stuck in your head? i have no idea how it got there but i have stressed out by 21 pilots stuck in my head??

5 fav lyrics? ok let’s do this kids. edit: this went in a “fav love song lyrics” way so sorry in advance.

1)  I hope that I don't sound to insane when I say / There is darkness all around us / I don't feel weak but I do need sometimes for her to protect me / And reconnect me to the beauty that I'm missin' (January Wedding - The Avett Brothers)

2)  Hands around my waist / You're counting up the hills across the sheets / And I'm a falling star / A glimmer lighting up these cotton streets / I admit I'm a bit of a fool for playing by the rules / But I've found my sweet escape when I'm alone with you (Disconnected - 5sos)

3)  This is the worthwhile fight / Love is a ruthless game / Unless you play it good and right / These are the hands of fate / You're my Achilles heel / This is the golden age of something good / And right and real (State of Grace - Taylor Swift) 

4)  What if I changed my mind / What if I said it's over / I been flying so long / Can't remember what it was like to be sober / What if I lost my lives? / What if I said "Game over"? / What if I forget my lies? / And I lose all my composure (Back to Life - ZAYN)

5)   I never said I was perfect / Or you don't deserve a good person to carry your baggage / I know a few girls that can handle it / I ain't that kind of chick, but I can call 'em for you if you want / I never said that you wasn't attractive / Your style and that beard, ooh, don't get me distracted / I'm tryna be patient, and patience takes practice / The fact is I'm leaving, so just let me have this (Jerome - Lizzo)

radio or your own playlist | solo artists or bands | pop or indie | loud or silent volume I slow or fast songs | music video or lyrics video | speakers or headset | riding a bus in silence or while listening to music | driving in silence or with radio on

BOOKS

fav book genre? murder mystery and young love!

fav writer? jane austen, lisa jewell, and rick riordan (nostalgia ok?!)

fav book? the way i used to be my amber smith, rebecca by daphane du maurier, and then she was gone OR watching you (both by Lisa Jewell)

fav book series? i guess the whole percy jackson situations? i have everything RR every wrote, and i liked it all but i havent touched the older ones in ages

comfort book? not one specifically but the nancy drew books

perfect book to read on a rainy day? bird summons by leila aboulela

5 quotes from your fav book that you know by heart? i hope i can name five...

1)  “The point is, life has to be endured, and lived. But how to live it is the problem.” “I am no traveller, you are my world.” (both are My Cousin Rachel by Daphne Du Maurier)

2)  “And I’m terrified he’ll see through the tough iceberg layer, and he’ll discover not a soft, sweet girl, but an ugly fucking disaster underneath.” (The Way I Used to Be by Amber Smith)

3)  "I cannot make speeches, Emma," he soon resumed; and in a tone of such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably convincing. "If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. But you know what I am. You hear nothing but truth from me. I have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other woman in England would have borne it. Bear with the truths I would tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I have been a very indifferent lover. But you understand me. Yes, you see, you understand my feelings and will return them if you can. At present, I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice.” (Emma by Jane Austen) (sorry for the length, the shortened versions were not cutting it for me)

4)  “Read, read, read. That's all I can say.” (The Secret of the Old Clock by Carolyn Keene)

5)  “...amazing how boring you can get away with being when you’re pretty. No one seems to notice. When you’re pretty everyone just assumes you must have a great life. People are so short-sighted, sometimes. People are so stupid. I have a dark past and I have dark thoughts. I do dark things and I scare myself sometimes.” (Invisible Girl by Lisa Jewell)

hardcover or paperback | buy or rent | standalone novels or book series | ebook or physical copy | reading at night or during the day | reading at home or in nature | listening to music while reading or reading in silence | reading in order or reading the ending first | reliable or unreliable narrator | realism or fantasy | one or multiple POVS | judging by the covers or by the summary (im a very judgmental reader) | rereading or reading just once

TV AND MOVIES

fav tv/movie genre? i like dramedies, mockumentaries, and procedurals 

fav movie? ive got a massive list on my phone but ill pick Doob (No Bed of Roses) and 3-Iron as my favs for today

comfort movie? 2000s romcoms, im talking clueless, 13 going on 30, how to loe a guy in ten days, ten things i hate abt you, legally blonde

movie you watch every year? mamma mia and all listed in prev question

fav tv show? too many, currently im rewatching arrested development

comfort tv show? new girl

most rewatched tv show? new girl

ultimate otp? shawn and jules from psych (ultimate bc ive been watching since diapers literally)

5 fav characters? winston bishop, stiles stilinski, bellamy blake, clarke griffin, lydia martin

tv shows or movies | short seasons (8-13 episodes) or full seasons (22 episodes or more) | one episode a week or binging | one season or multiple seasons | one part or saga | half hour or one hour long episodes | subtitles on or off | rewatching or watching just once | downloads or watches online

super fun even though it took me an hour lmao, I'm tagging @technosoot @hometothecanyonmoon @sassylilnoodle @sushiniall @rosegold-thorns no pressure and sorry if youve already been tagged!

edit: i somehow managed to forget what i consider to be one of the greatest opening verses ever???? so bonus lyrics:

Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog / Where no one notices the contrast of white on white / And in between the moon and you / The angels get a better view / Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right (Round Here - Counting Crows)

[hops-hunny]

Neville getting his sweet little slut a collar and she ends up not wanting to take it off even after (almost wearing it to class even) and so Neville surprised her with a day collar so she's satisfied?👀

PRONOUNS: SHE/HER

God I'm so excited to write this bc I want this so badly

(Y/n) wouldn't say she was obedient of her boyfriend, more so that she was absolutely submissive to anything he had to say or anything he did. She couldn't help it, she loved the way he made her feel, always going out of his way to take care of her. That didn't just stop at coursework though, it also traveled into the bedroom.

Even currently, as Neville was buried balls deep inside her, a strong firm grip on the chain that was connected to her collar, she couldn't help but look at him like he was the world, moon, stars, and everything in between. If she looked at him any more adoringly, her pupils would be shaped like hearts. Anyone would think she was crazy, but she found it all to be quite romantic. From the way she had bits of dried cum and spit splotched across her face to the bruises and love bites that littered her body.

"Whose are you, bunny?" he asked, pulling the chain which caused her head to move back towards him. She groaned at the slight restriction of air flow, glossed over eyes looking back at him. His eyes softened when he saw how utterly fucked out she was.

"Y-yours! All yours, daddy's girl. Love you so much! Your girl Nev, I'm your girl." she cried out as if it were the only words to ever grace her mind. He placed a kiss on her swollen lips before pulling her back to rest flush against his chest. He bit her shoulder harshly, groaning as he coated her walls with his cum. (Y/n) practically buzzed at the sensation, loving the way his seed made her feel utterly full, utterly his. After a brief moment, he pulled out of her releasing his hold on the chain.

"You did so good for me, petal. Let's get you all cleaned up yeah?" He cooed, flipping the girl on her back. He was very gentle with her, wiping her gently, soft affectionate pecks on all the places he had been overly rough with. Caring for her afterwards was just as much his aftercare as it was hers. After he was done moisturizing and massaging her skin, he trailed his fingers over the collar that she wore around her neck. The collar was a newer thing that they had implemented it but every time they used it, it seemed that sex was a shit ton better.

He reached his hand down, undoing the chain before trying to remove the collar. However the girl let out a whine, moving away from him. He shot her a confused look, eyes looking into hers expectantly.

"No..wanna keep it on." she responded, pulling the blanket over her head to protect it.

"How come, petal? We're done for the night, you don't gotta keep it on." he purred out, pulling the blanket back down to rub at her cheek affectionately. He laid next to her, pulling her into his side as he did so.

"Wanna be yours. Like being your bunny, Nev." she mumbled, giving him a wide set of puppy dog eyes. He never could resist those.

"You're always my bunny, sweet girl. However if you wanna keep it on, I won't stop you. Okay?" he asked, brushing her hair behind her ears. She smiled softly, nodding before letting out a yawn. Without another word, she clung to his side, drifting into sleep with Neville not far behind.

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The next morning, as usual they were the last ones to get ready. In their usual morning rush, they showered together before splitting to get dressed in their uniforms. However, before (Y/n) could put on her robes, Neville noticed something unusual.

Walking up behind the girl, he tugged on the hoop that was connected to the collar. "Petal, what's this?" he questioned, catching her gaze in the mirror which she quickly avoided.

"I want to wear it." she whined out, pouting as he removed it from her neck placing it on the table in front of them.

"Don't be silly, you can't wear it out! You can keep it on in my dorm but if you were to wear it out, you'd definitely get a few strange looks." he chuckled as he imagined it, pulling the girl into his embrace.

"I just want everyone to know I'm yours." she said, looking up at him with a small frown. He comforted her with a small peck before pulling her towards the door. He'd figure something out, anything for his girl.

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It had been a week since the collar incident and the (y/h/h) girl had made no attempts to wear it out again. However, he noticed that often times she'd look down at her empty neck as if she was picturing what it'd be like to have it on her during the day.

"Bunny, I have a surprise for you!" the boy said, reaching down in his bag to pull out the small box in his hands. The girl turned to look at him, bouncing excitedly as he approached her. They were currently in her room set to study soon.

"What is it?" she asked excitedly, making grabby hands for the box in his hands. He chuckled some, holding it out of reach above her head.

"Hold on love, patience. Close your eyes." he told her, smiling softly as she did, even going as far as to place her hands over her eyes. He opened the box, looking down at its contents. When he saw it in the store window, he knew she was sure to love it. He unclasped it before wrapping it around her neck. He guided her towards the mirror, admiring the way it looked around her delicate frame.

"Oh you're going to love this. Open them!" he exclaimed, his smile growing wider as the girl gasped, staring at the small object in amazement. It was a collar, similar to the one from prior except a lot more inconspicuous. It was a simple velvet strap but the pendant was a heart which was engraved with the initials 'N.L', encrusted with what looked to be diamonds. It was a touch he had gotten personalized. "Do you like it pretty?" he asked, growing nervous at her silence.

He let out a small 'oof' as she squeezed him tightly, nuzzling into his chest. He became concern as he felt tears soak his shirt but was relieved when he was met with a large smile along with them. She pulled him down, pressing a lip against his lips.

"Thank you."

[welcometotheocverse]

🌟 for Elliot pls?

:D aaaah! I’ve had him in the brain a lot lately okay sorry this got long And also im rewatching rn so its sorta season 1ish.

Elliot is Rory’s younger twin. He was given Christopher’s middle name. He’s mostly grateful it was the middle name.

He and Rory are super close. It was just the two of them ( and then Lane) The Twins That Read A Lot. Because they had each other they didn’t have much incentive to make friends outside of each other ( Elliot more than Rory) and extrapolating from the Pilot where Rory doesn’t seem like she has a lot of friends ( or any sans Lane) and is lowkey scoffed at for reading the assignment I’m gonna go with “other kids weren’t that keen on making friends with them either”

Rory’s the talkative one, he’s the quiet one. This is a bit of Rory also being protective of him/noticing when he looks overwhelmed and just...talking up a storm as is her wont and subtly getting attention away from Elliot. For a lot of the early season they’re not seen one without the other ( keeping in mind their arch is to learn it’s okay to have different dreams and even go different places ) 

Sorta shy and a bit more introverted than Rory. Once you become his friend however he pretty much would die for you and his face absolutely lights up when he sees you as opposed to his usual reserved nature and he talks to you albeit not as much as his twin ( unless hes super excited or talking about something he finds interesting then the resemblance kicks in lmao but thats the exception)  its like a switch ( seen with Rory, Luke, and Lane in canon and Sophie/Paige in their xover)

Likes hanging out at Luke’s. They both sorta enjoy... being quiet around each other. Elliot thinks he has a really calming vibe …when Taylor’s not there.

Ms Kim doesn’t like him because he’s a boy so he’s not allowed at Lane’s like Rory is ( honestly the feeling’s mutual bc “I’m pretty  sure locking you up for days and keeping you from school falls under child abuse also wtf” and lowkey the girls are like “lets just keep you not in the house” Lane might be closer to Rory but they still talk music together. She’s part of the reason his music taste actually started deviating  from  Lorelai’s and Rory’s.)

He doesn’t like unfair treatment of other people. It really gets to him. Examples are Ms. Kim to Lane and his grandparents and father to his mom. Later examples are Mitchum Huntzberger, and Marty. ( he’s pretty unimpressed with Marty and how his feelings for Rory make him act in general tbh but what he does with Lucy is just...it really bothers him he’s adamant that  Rory should tell Lucy the truth.)

Highkey  he has about zero patience for bad/toxic parents partly bc of his own feelings about Christopher and to an extent his grandparents that he keeps minimizing so they get projected on...everyone else with bad parents lol.

 Logan’s still a bit amazed that this shy soft spoken kid he met in his junior year went off like “He’s not your fucking property” when Mitchum went on his “You’re available when i say you’re available” tirade ( Elliot was ngl intimidated/scared of Mitchum who pretty much went “Who the hell are you??!” but Logan’s his friend and that wasn’t okay and he kept eye contact with the asshole until Logan diverted his attention back to him/the fight they were having and made sure he at least told Logan afterwards because “but he shouldn’t..” and “he shouldn’t have” and “No! No..it’s not Okay. “)

But also like constantly “it’s not a big deal” when it comes to his aforementioned feelings about Christopher and pretty much anything he might be angry about. 

Lowkey spends a lot of time Rory goes through relationship drama between “????” and “wowww dodged a bullet” Rory throws pillows at him for the latter because “If I’m gonna rant at you El, you could at least give me sympathy.”

He does have some insecurities about his orientation born out of just..f.eeling othered due to isolation and also some stuff he’s heard his dad say.

He figures out he’s asexual before he figures out he’s aromantic and has to deal with a lot of “Are you sure?” and “is that..is that normal?” from some townsfolks before he figures out Luke can scare them off and he lowkey spends a lot of time at the dinner during this time. Luke smiles at him and gives him muffins tho he’ll deny deny deny if you mention it.

A bit more sensitive than Rory like on the pilot episode when he notices Lorelai is worried about Chilton/having to ask her parents for money he stops at the base of the stairs and asks “is...everything okay mom?” and is kinda just in tune with how the people he cares about are feeling/picks up on things like that.

He...doesn’t super like his grandparents because of how they treat his mother.  Emily already made him a bit anxious because of her passive  aggressive nature ( he’s giving me some anxiety vibes tbh) and the fact that he thought the fact that his mom kept them away sorta ominous.  A lot of season 1 is him looking down at his plate and tensing with every “your mother’s golf clubs are in the attic along with the rest of her potential” and Richard’s “he ( Christopher) always was a smart one that  boy, you two must take after  him” and “as a maid with all your brains and talents” and it sorta...yeah he spends a lot of time looking at his plate and swallowing resentment. There are times where it gets better but overall he’s never completely at ease around them. He’s very quiet but civil around them even as he grows some affection and builds bridges with them along Lorelai and Rory. And I haven’t even figured out the fallout with the thing they pull at the wedding.

Emily at least once asked off handedly why Elliot wasn’t seeing anyone and I’m still figuring out if she says something like “that’s not normal” before Lorelai or Rory intervene.

(( Full disclosure Emily reminds me a bit too much of my own relationship with my mom and its really hard to write her favorably though I at least try to be fair. So Elliot is sometimes  a bit harsh on her and very in Lorelai’s corner when Emily and Richard are...less than nice. ))

Sort of a mamma’s boy. Rory and Lorelai have their special connection but so do Elliot and Lorelai. Rory was a bit more extroverted and would play/hang out with Lane while Elliot was perfectly content as a babie curling up with his mom and reading. It worried Lorelai a bit, how hard it was for him to reach out ( she never had that moment she had with Rory and Lane of “my kid has a friend” with him) but he always had Rory yknow so she calmed herself with that. Sometimes when Rory’s with Lane he’ll hang out at the Inn and work there. He somehow got in to Michel’s good graces ( “because you are quiet and unobtrusive”  and got him to teach him French 

Very tactile. When he’s getting nervous Rory will reach out and grab his hand or Lore will put her hands on his shoulder and he’ll calm down. He does the same when wanting to comfort friends or just wanting to show affection ( will lean on Finn and Colin a lot as he gets closer to them or accept that they’ll just throw an arm around him)

Meeting the LAD bridgade kids makes social events with his grandparents so much easier like ohmygod subparties with Logan Colin Finn and Rory  become lifesavers. ( its not so much the drinking as having someone you can laugh with while dodging your grandparents friends and the girl they told to look for you yknow)

He has more resentment towards Christopher than his sister and doesn’t see him with the rose colored glasses Rory sees him in their younger years. His absence hurts him a lot. He hides it well and is nice enough towards him because he loves Lorelai and Rory and wants them to be happy/have a good time but if you catch him on a bad day you might get a rant about how little Christopher knows about them and how little he was there  and “he just drops by, spends like a day with us and leaves yknow...it’s...and we’re supposed to be happy???” and the fact that he doesn’t wanna tell Rory or Lorelai bc he thinks it’ll upset them just  sorta...makes it worse.

And then at some point  Christopher pops off with “and how long are you gonna entertain this phase of his Lore, a boy his age should be dating” and while Rory’s making angry noises and Lorelai’s saying “Outside. Now” ( though they don’t know the twins are listening) he just gets...this thin unsurprised smile and...yeah it’s not great. 

Very supportive of people he loves. He’s constantly telling Rory through the Chilton years that she’s smart enough, more than smart enough to get through this and helps her study. He makes sure he tells Lorelai he loves her or hugs her if he can tell the dinners are a bit hard on her. Honestly a total cream puff. The resentment for his grandparents and father is mostly buried and comes out like when he’s upset/they do something that provokes it. Mostly he’s a really soft boy and kinda soft spoken, loves reading about science and space ( he balances out Rory’s preference for literature and history though they both like poetry and Elliot occasionally reads prose as Rory lets him infodump sometimes about science journals) and loves his friends so so dearly. Will get angry a la Beware The Nice Ones if you hurt them though the first thing he’ll do is comfort them/try to cheer them up.

He loves Stars Hollow but being the only aroace person he knows of there ( and fielding well intentioned “are you sures?” and “oh honey you’ll find someone someday”s and just..alot of early 2000s Star Hollow-ness ( “Hey kiddo you gonna bid on a basket this year?” “oh you’re getting handsome, gonna find yourself a girl for the starlight festival?” “is he..youknow?” is just...a lot? He wants to spread his wings and find his place/people like him/feel less isolated.

He still loves his town though as its his home and raised him his sister and in a way his mother. He visits while he’s at Yale ( the distance helps tremendously as does the ability to just...leave again) like Rory and says hi to Miss Patty and Gypsy and Andrew ( he loves Andrew omg. One of the few people who didn’t just assume he and Rory were always reading the same books) He helps the 30-Something gang find jobs/fine tune resumes  though im not including anything else form ayit and checks in how they’re doing bc..its still his town. They’re his family. “my nuts-o, extended...well meaning but sometimes overly invested and too-pushy-and-slightly-overbearing family.” even as he dreams of getting out a lot and once he does he...really likes it. He loves them

He goes to Yale because Rory goes to Yale (because again the whole Learning To Be Independent From Your Twin...kind of a slow process for him) and gets sibling-adopted by Finn and Colin  in a turn of events he’s pretty much confused over like im p sure they were like “hes ours now” and Elliot was like “im ...you’re...w..what?” and Logan who Knows Finn and Colin is like “don’t fight it” and lowkey adopted him too.

Im cutting myself off bc this got Long and im sorry lol

Thank you so much for the ask <3

send me a ✨ and i’ll tell you about a random OC

[bnha-scenerios-imagines]

Same person! But yeah i have a habit of not mentioning headcanons or scenario. But i woukd like headcanons pls love your blog❤️

Bakugou and Todoroki with a s/o that has a superiority complex bc she has a very strong (like mob psycho 100 or one punch man strong) telekinesis quirk

Katsuki Bakugou 

The first time you use it is when he attempts to attack Midoriya during class and you just sit him down and tell him to calm down. He shoots back a snarky comment you laugh,“Says the kid who can’t move.”“Fuck off”“Make me.”

Cue him struggling to get out of your grip and attempting to kill you. Aizawa has to shut it down by moving Bakugou to the front so he won’t try and attack you.

There is a lot of fighting after that between the two of you. Sometimes when Aizawa is sleeping and Bakugou does or did something that bothered you, you would toss random pieces of paper at his head to piss him off.

Anytime the two of you are against each other for training you just keep holding him back a few feet away from you. If you’re feeling especially gutsy, or just feel like pissing him off, you’ll hold him so he’s in front of you and he can see your smug smile.

He knows you’re strong but he doesn’t realize just how strong until the league of villains ambushes them. In the distance he can see the building slowly tear apart and just fall to pieces, dust blowing up from the sudden collapse and he just knows it’s you.

He just fucking runs to where he thinks you are, blowing up anything or anyone that gets in the way. By the time he gets to where you are you’re on the ground, curling in on yourself.

He just yells your name and when you turn your head to look at him, your arms desperately gripping each other he feels his stomach drop, thinking you’re hurt. He climbs over the debris and runs over to you.

And he just freezes. His hands inches from you, reaching out but afraid to touch. You’re unharmed. He just watches as the tears fall from your eyes and a broken sob leaves your lips. He doesn’t know what to do. People are still fighting in the distance but here you are. He slowly brings his arms around you in an awkward, stiff hug.

You just break, allowing the tears to flow more freely and allowing yourself to cry into his shoulder. He stiffly rubs your back as your arms wrap around your torso. He doesn’t understand much of your babbling however, he does catch one thing.“I never meant for this to happen. I didn’t want this to happen”

He finally just looks at the scene around him and he can see how terrible it actually is. The building had collapsed, the unconscious bodies of the three villains were left broken on the ground, pieces of the debris surrounding you in a large circle. You had done this. The building collapsing had been you’re doing, the villains who laid broken and beaten on the ground were because of your powers.

He holds you closer than before as you continued to sob into his shoulder.

He doesn’t treat you any different afterward, you appreciate that. He’ll still pick a fight with you and he’ll still yell back snarky remarks but he’s a little more protective of you and he has a new appreciation towards you and your quirk. It takes a lot of patience and control to be able to keep yourself in check. 

But also ultimate Power Couple™

Many of the students fear the two of you and are scared to even mess with either of you in fear of the consequences. A rumor spread that once a student insulted the two of you and he was later found on top of the school with no way down with a swollen cheek, he was stuck up there until the next day where he was helped down. He never said who had done it but everyone knew. There was an announcement the next day asking everyone to not use their quirks unless totally necessary.

Shouto Todoroki

At first, he sort of just ignored you and your narcissistic attitude. He acknowledges that you have an amazing quirk and you’re excellent at using it in practice. However, he can’t say he enjoys your taunting behavior.

He once saw you launch Mineta into the ceiling after he attempted to flip up Momo’s skirt before class started. You didn’t even spare him a glance as you kept an amused smirk graced on your lips. When Mineta jumped up glaring at you angrily you laughed, glancing over your shoulder.“What are you going to do? Stick a big tapioca pearl on me?”

Momo thanks you and he admits, he kind of likes you for sticking it to Mineta. He just wishes you had been more careful.

The first time he saw the true extent of your power was when the two of you were back-to-back surrounded by two nomu’s. He was injured, blood dripping from his left arm as he primarily used his right hand, and his body was slowing down due to the overuse of his right side.

Just as he made a move to shield himself from an attack from one of the creatures they broke through the ice and slammed against his right side, throwing him away from you.

The other nomu, upon seeing your sudden surprised and vulnerable state, grabbed hold of you and threw you into the nearest building.

Todoroki made a move to run to you but was pinned to the ground by the creature’s foot, pinning him between the claws. He couldn’t breathe, the monster continued to put more pressure on his chest. He looked over to you and saw your unconscious body on the ground, the creature slowly lifting up your broken body.

Suddenly he felt something, a change in the air and you suddenly moved.

The wind began picking up and the nomu who had its attention on him looked over to you. Suddenly, shards of ice pierced through the nomu’s body.

Your figure was surrounded by darkness, a feeling of dread following you as the nomu fell to Todoroki’s side and the one holding you exploded.

He managed to stumble up and run to you upon seeing your body finally fall to the floor. “(Name)!”

You turn towards him and the shadow that covered you slowly washed away from your body until it only left you.

You two stared at each other and upon seeing the scene in front of you, you slowly fell to your knees. Todoroki kneeled next to you.“You did what you had to. You saved us”“But at what cost, Todoroki?”

You let out a broken sob and he awkwardly rested a hand on your shoulder. He looked around at the damaged. Blood had been splattered on his clothes however, you were spotless. If no one had seen what happened they wouldn’t believe you had done this.

He pulled you up and he held you as you cried.

He had more respect for you after that day. He knows it’s hard to keep yourself in check and some day’s where your narcissism is perhaps a little too over the top he pulls you aside and the two of you sit in silence or talk.

He just wants to be able to help you.

He never wants to see how vulnerable and broken you were that day ever again.

Imagine this though:You’ve snapped and when nothing else seems to work, not All Might coming to stop you or any of your friends calling out to you Todoroki calls your name and talks to you calmly, pulling you into an embrace, gently kissing your temple, and the shadows whisking away from your figure in a peaceful manner as he calms you down from your emotions. His hand gently rubbing your back while your arms wrap around his torso and hold him close to you.

[thegracegatsby]

this post is all over the place but here’s a super long update if you care lmao 

So it’s officially been one month since i’ve been on this marketing internship in Prague which is basically working a full time marketing job without the pay (duh, Grace) lol I really thought I was going to be filing papers and going on coffee runs, but nope this is the real deal. I didn’t even get a day to fix my jetlag nor was I eased into the job. The day after I arrived I had 15 minutes to learn about all the projects everyone was working on, got acquainted with the office and the other interns, then started on all my tasks. To give you an idea of what I’ve been up to, my first week here I had to think of several marketing ideas for a local company and had to present them to the owner. The Stress and nerves had me on bed rest that weekend ngl lol. The owner loved the presentation, but I couldn’t help but be so hard on myself. I felt so underprepared I didn’t expect to be thrown into the field at full speed. I literally felt like the Mr. Krabs meme. I was shookington. I thought college and a regular part time job was hectic, but wow I was not prepared for job that required 110% of my time and mind. What I mean by that is I was/am technically working on four different projects and each of them need to be unique aka I can’t repeat ideas. I learned to trust myself and just trust that if I did my best…. it would just had to be enough. I can only learn from my mistakes and find a way to improve myself every day. Those “do one thing to be better than yesterday” quotes were always cute, but they have been extremely relevant this summer. That’s been such an important lesson and habit. Some other things I was up to is sometimes the company gets invited to special private events so so far I’ve attended two events. The first one being some networking event with a panel so different CEO’s discussed the future of tech & marketing and answered questions, then another event where the communications director of Manolo (shoe goals) spoke on the brand. Even got to meet her she was so sweet! Last week I got sent on my first official business trip to Poland to meet with different Korean companies at an expo! I had to basically see and negotiate potential products to market in the US and Latin America. Crazy. I loved every second of it. I’ve been meaning to write for a few weeks now so my thoughts are probably a little all over the place, but now is when I feel like I finally have the time and energy to sit down and catch up on a blog even if no one reads this lmaoo. It’s wild how a month and a half ago I left my job at the bank with a heavy heart and had my summer classes get cancelled/wasn’t able to register for any new one’s since they were all full. I was so close to doing nothing all summer except go job hunting again so this trip was such a blessing. It’s super challenging I’m not gonna lie. I feel like I’ve grown so much from being here. I’ve had to get out of my comfort zone in every single sense of the word. I’ve had to depend on myself mentally and emotionally in different ways than I’ve had to back home. I know this sounds super dramatic lol, but honestly this is the first time I’ve been away from my home, family, friends, city, for more than two weeks. Taking such a huge step without my family around has been difficult. It’s how I imagine it would have been like if I moved away for college. I’m going through “real life with training wheels” because I’m staying with family here so I’m not 100% on my own, but that’s the farthest thing from perfect. Like.. my extended family is going through some hell shit and I feel like I’m in the middle of it so I can’t escape it. I guess that’s where my desperate homesickness comes from. I was SO ready to go home I even asked if I could book a flight after TWO weeks of being here. That’s how desperate I was to go back home. I never talk about my personal life, but I will say that my actual home life, thankfully, is healthy. No relationship/family is perfect don’t get it twisted, but my parents learned from the mistakes of their families/friends and tried very hard to raise my sibling and I in a peaceful home. Don’t take this as the “I’m the best because my parents don’t hate each other can’t relate sweetie (: just be happy and drink tea” way because that’s not what I’m saying at all lol. Sadly, toxic families are everywhere, but reading/hearing about a household that is going through a nasty divorce with unhealthy drama happening every single day is completely different than actually experiencing/witnessing it with my own two naked eye balls. Especially from my own relative. I know this makes me sound immature or naive or whatever, but I mean… I’ve never lived anywhere else so I never knew anything other than my own family dynamic ya know? My empathy for children and teenagers who have to go through what I’ve been seeing on a daily basis has grown so much. Again, this isn’t a show off way of me saying “my life is semi-perfect” (no one’s is) I’m literally saying the change has helped me understand and appreciate the importance of a healthy home so much which… isn’t a bad thing. I’d rather learn this now seeing it from afar than with regret later on in my life. I’m genuinely so heartbroken and empathetic for every single person going through this much toxicity especially my own cousin who will have to grow up with the issues her parents are making alone. The biggest takeaway is I know what the fuck NOT to tolerate in relationships. If I thought my tolerance was low, now it’s even lower I’m not putting up with any bullshit ever wow. Now none of this would matter if I only got to work then go home and mind my business, but nah it’s not like that. An argument happened? Guess who gets some insults and bad attitude. Me. Since why did my extended family think it’s okay to disrespect and insult me for everything??? Don’t even get me started on the side comments about my weight :)) All I do is try to stay hydrated and mind my business! lmaofdnsfds. I guess that’s where the mental and emotional challenge comes from. I’ve never been a super emotional person literally the last time I cried from emotion was the day of the musical in high school because I messed up on stage and was super embarrassed. That was literally 4 years ago in April. I’ve had like two mental breakdowns already not including the countless times I’ve had to calm myself down, do some breathing exercises, and mentally try to disconnect from the fuckery. The hardest times being when I’m in public. I NEVER talk back tho which is weird because I hardly ever bite my tongue I’m quick to defend myself, but deep down I know the aggression stems from all these problems.. plus I try to tell myself it’s not that deep and I’m leaving in less than a month. I know I won’t have to deal with this ever ever again. Also honestly staying quiet gets everyone on my side because people see the way I’m spoken to and are like “wtf ignore it you’re doing great”. Lol I wish I could go into more detail because there is SO much tea I can spill, but for privacy (and maybe legal idk?) reasons I’m going to stay quiet. Another intern who started seeing the verbal abuse asked me about everything so I confided in her about all the drama and she’s like “wooow everything makes sense things were worse when before you got here” kjndvdf we were super tight it was so great :’) but she left and everything changed when the fire nation attacked. Honestly, everyone I work/have worked with have been so great. I only got close with like two or three tho but still everyone is so nice lol. So yeah even though the work experience here is amazing and something I will value for the rest of my life, the home life aspect is fucked up. I’m even trying to convince my parents to sell this plot to Lifetime lmao it’s THAT dramatic. *sigh* Some other news is I was supposed to be in Spain right now. I literally Uber’ed myself and my grandmother all the way to the airport yesterday morning, show up to the check-in counter with a smile and bags in hand just so they could tell me “Sorry, you don’t show up on our system” to my face. I’ve never had an issue with my flight so the room was spinning a lil and was low key panicking because 1. English isn’t anyone’s first language here 2. I was abroad and had no idea what to do because I didn’t even make the reservation so I had to call two different airlines and try to resolve the MESS, but nothing was resolved they fucked up my booking from the beginning so only my return flight was paid for not the departure :) so after easily deciding I was NOT going to pay $580 for a one-way outbound ticket, I had to quickly figure out my next move. (PRO TIP: ALWAYS BOOK DIRECTLY WITH COMPANIES THEY’LL WORK WITH YOU AND REFUND YOU IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG. EVEN IF YOU SEE A CHEAPER PRICE ON ONE OF THOSE TRAVEL SITES SOMEONE TOLD ME THEY’LL PRICE MATCH YOU AND EVEN GIVE YOU DIFFERENT FLIGHT ACCOMMODATIONS LIKE CHANGING LAYOVER FLIGHTS IT’S MAGICAL). Everyone I’m living with went to Spain the day before, so after bending over backwards to try and get the house key from my grandmother who already passed through security (she couldn’t wait for me bc the guy at security had 5 min to wheelchair her to her gate), I found a way to contact her (a blessing bc if not I would have had to stay at a hotel or something) and had her hand me the keys back to our place. I didn’t have the patience to take a bus back to the city so I paid the extra fare to Uber back home. The weird part is I’m not even mad. After calling the airlines, contacting my parents, contacting my family already in Spain that I wouldn’t be going, I was just… chilling. Got some groceries and I’ve been living la vida loca just eating and watching netflix lol. Sure, I wanted to go see a new country and even try to see the town my great grandparents were from, but if there’s anything I learned this year is… everything happens for a reason. I think it would have been an amazing trip, but there’s a reason I didn’t get to travel this weekend. Theres a reason I had to leave my job at the bank. Theres a reason I’m here in Prague in the first place. There’s a reason I’m witnessing this entire Mess. I guess there’s some growth in that too you know what I mean? Younger me would have probably combusted in hatred and be extremely negative and complain that “my life sucks” when in reality it’s fine it’s just in general, shitty things happen…. but life won’t stop for anybody not even me. On the bright side, some good lessons came out of this experience. Forget 2016, this was the real year of realizing things™. I’m going back to Miami with a completely different drive and mindset. For example, I knew school is important and I get good grades, but my attitude towards my education is COMPLETELY different now. Being “good” just isn’t good enough for me anymore. With my grades now I could get into a “good” grad school, but now I don’t even want “good” I want something better. I want great I want the best I want to work my ass off to get into an AMAZING school. I still don’t know everything or even want I want 100%, but this trip has helped me change how I plan to approach/execute my future goals. That “oh I guess I’ll work someday idk that’s a long time from now so I don’t care I’ll worry about it another day” won’t cut it anymore. Now that I’m thinking about it, a lot of things need changing when I get back. Which speaking of getting back, I’m counting down the days I’m so excited I leave at the end of the month ayee!! Lol okay I feel like I’m just rambling at this point. There were a few more things I wanted to say buut………… I forgot it so I’ll just end it here and make a new post if I remember lol. Even if no one reads this, future me will and she’ll remember how the Ctrl album from SZA was playing in the background while writing this and probably cringe at how bittersweet this whole experience/year has been.

TLDR I learned a lot on this internship (good and bad) and I’m basically going back home a new person :-)

[hungerpunch]

notes on healing

it feels incredible and also crazy that it’s been seven months since the accident. a lot has happened since then--justin is doing physically amazing given the circumstances. it took about 5/6 months for his hand to stop looking like pulverized, swollen rubber and he recently did have to have surgery because a metal plate in his arm popped out (casual) but other than that, i think he’s done really well with all his physical therapy. i feel confident he’ll be drumming by the year anniversary again. he’s pretty emotionally depressed though. since he was working on a contract when he crashed, the employer didn’t renew his contract. and his health insurance got fucked. and it’s been impossible for him to find work since then. so he’s been unemployed since the accident, living off a meager disability check, and it’s just got his spirits so low. k & i try to tell him to have patience with himself bc he literally almost died, but i think just having nothing to do all the time is getting to him :\ k finally convinced him that he should, yunno, see a therapist about all this shit so he’s trying that! i’m hoping it’s good for him.

what’s so incredible is that months AFTER the accident, though, we learned about what a big risk the surgeon took on justin. apparently he called around to literally dozens of experts, fellow surgeons, to ask their opinion on justin and ALL OF THEM told him to just amputate justin’s arm. but for some reason, something compelled this surgeon to take the hardest path possible and fight to keep every single piece of justin that he could. when we learned that i was really honestly floored. i didn’t realize what a chance and a risk the surgeon took. what a... weird act of fate? to end up in that doctor’s grace.

k’s appetite finally returned and the nightmares have stopped being so frequent. flashbacks still happen and it’s easy to trigger them. like cooking ground beef for tacos :\ we also had to stop watching american gods bc there was way too much body horror for k to deal with.

k’s bike took almost two full months to get back so the riding season was super short for them and they were hardcore bummed about it, but we tried to ride at any opportunity. k has been so fearless getting back on it. idk why but throughout all of it, the idea that k wouldn’t want to ride anymore never crossed my mind. the bike is their sanctuary, their freedom. the bike is how k built themselves into the person they are today. i would never take that away or try to. but justin’s sister pulled me aside once and said “you don’t have a problem with k riding that death machine now?” and i didn’t know what to say that wouldn’t offend her. life is a death machine. you can get hurt anywhere at any time. 

but the truth is that i catch myself a little more uncomfortable as well. i would say 75% of the time, i don’t have an issue. but then every now and then, i’ll catch a thin slice of the accident in my mind and spend the rest of the ride in an anxious hunch, waiting to get scraped off the road by a car.

i think the biggest thing is how it’s changed k & justin’s relationship. there’s an undercurrent of tension there whenever they hang out, i’ve seen it. and it’s not like badbad tension, but it’s like... it’s going to take a long fucking time before they can hang out without having the accident at the forefront of their minds. i think it honestly might be a little hard for them to see each other sometimes, bc the crash is so oppressive. a couple months ago k had to really reach out and have some real talk with justin about their friendship, which i’m glad they did bc it helped them reaffirm that they love each other even if shit is weird now. i’m ready for summer to come so they can get outside and make some new memories.

anyway this is a part of my process. i go back and i re-read these entries and i think about how they changed me/us and how things have changed since then. looking back at it, the last six months of 2017 really tried to take me out. hoping 2018 is gentler for us all. 

processing a bad accident that happened yesterday

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