#bc then hed have to admit he likes himself to a degree

[freakquarantine]

finally romancing wyll on a multiplayer playthrough and ouhgh this man is too sweet and kind and im not even halfway through act 2 and his approval just Maxes with you

He loves you so much....

But also wyll we are taking dancing lessons when we get back to the gate. the style you were taught as a kid I dont think is Quite how adults at balls really dance

[summonhouse]

ok ermm questions about lawrie, 1. why did he decide to become a substitute teacher and 2. what does it do in its free time

this is a good question bc i realize i said "sweetheart is an au of lawrie" as if anyone knows Who lawrie is UHHH lawrie spotlight moment before answering;

art by slugwiki on here commission her 1 million times

hes for a roleplay i run which you can read a summary of here in a toyhouse advertisement or in a different format here on a tumblr blog in which ive written a few posts from lawries perspective actually

lawrence percival octavius ramsey sylvester sterling bartholomew jr ii is a wooden puppet/clock magically enchanted to come alive by his terrible terrible parents- however he has been lied to all his life and is entirely unaware that being made of wood is unusual and he believes hes a normal organic human and all that. his parents, clock and watch manufacturers, were killed by an angry mob after they used their magic to force people to work themselves to death, leaving lawrie extremely extremely depressed because he has been neglected so thoroughly he convinced himself his parents were very good loving people

WHY HE BECAME A SUBSTITUTE TEACHER:

one; after his parents death he spent a good year just in a dissociative coma before eventually attempting to return to acting like a human with meaningless minor motions, he wants to be a respectable man but has nothing to do so he begins to look for any job that will accept him so he doesnt continue just rotting in his home- if he has no job he has no purpose, two; the school he signs up to work at is evolution academy, an up and coming very well respected establishment advertising "unorthodox" teaching methods specifically trying to teach students practical things instead of what the headmaster mx dream deems as "useless" core curriculum stuff. lawries obsesssedddd with good image and what he sees as "respectable work" and real actual effort so he thinks the schools different approach is nice and he wishes to be a part of that, three; he has no qualifications, he never went to school and his parents hardly homeschooled him, despite this hed done a lot of reading up so hes not HELPLESS, but he certainly does not have any degree that would allow him to teach anything specialized, four; substitute teacher at ea means "mx dreams henchman" basically and hes forced to do all of the loose busywork around the school more than hes supposed to watch or teach students- mx dream specifically hires him because hes a fucking rube, major stunted attention whore who slurps up all the attention she gives him like a sponge and mx dream is intend to manipulate him, So despite his, to be frank, absolute fucking stupidity (hes terrible with interacting with people from, you know, the years of neglect) he is accepted into his position because due to that hes really, really easy to take advantage of (THE SCHOOL IS NOT GOOD), five; he really desperately wants to help everyone, he has an insanely strong sense of justice and right and wrong which is INSANELY SKEWED such that he believes capitalism and a strong economy will assist everyone- he wants everyone to have a good life and to get what theyre worth, genuinely, despite his idiocy approaching it, and he hopes working with younger people will allow him to help them- and he really, really hopes no one ends up like him or his parents. six; if he gets a job his coworkers are forced to interact with him Tee Hee hee attention whore moments

FREE TIME:

lawrie loooves reading, both nonfiction scientific diagram filled drivel, philosophy (especially if it fuels his own beliefs), and hes a BIG fan of artsy fiction (though he hates to admit that and is vocally against "frivolous pursuits" such as fictional story tales)... he also loves repairing broken timepieces (still doesnt know hes a clock but he deeply identifies with clocks, it reminds him of home and his parents).... ATM in the span of the rp he will not admit that he adores art and would love to create himself (his parents used to punish him for doing so) in the future whenever he gets over himself and is encouraged to act more like a person he will surely spend his time painting dramatic abstract paintings of himself and his friends, and working on plays with his (planned) boyfriend(s?)

sorry this is long LMAO im obsessed w lawrie ive said this b4 but he is my character of the year fr. i used him in a different rp at the start of the year from like jan-marchish and it died out in summer and eas been active sinceee like the end of september? and every time hes active he is All i can think about. SO theres a lot to say because i am Constantly thinking about his .. brain

[alyimoss]

i hear dream and dust and my head snaps around 180 degrees in two frames.

the thing abt dream and the mtt is he would try his hardest to get them out of nightmares grasp. he believes they deserve a chance to be better than they are. and the interesting thing abt this is that if theres one common thread between all of the mtt its that they do not think they deserve that.

dust i think is the best example of this bc horror generally refuses to admit the things he did were wrong and killer is killer.

dust believes that the "best" fate for him is staying under nm's control. is he suffering? yes. is he making other people suffer? yes. does his suffering get worse as a result? yes. and this is what he deems "just" for what he's done.

as long as he is suffering he can say that the people hes killed are getting vengeance. as long as he keeps hurting others, he can keep suffering. he doesnt think a fate where he is redeemed is fair to his victims. he doesnt think theres anything he can do except rot in his guilt and his misery and keep killing and keep hurting because thats what he is now - a murderer. and he doesnt deserve to be anything more.

he has a strict self-imposed role that he doesnt stray from.

...hey, know who else has a strict self-imposed role that he doesnt stray from??

granted, its not wholly self-imposed. the role of "guardian of positivity" has been his since his mother's death. but the way in which he fulfils this role is very much self-imposed. the persona he puts out there is of his own making.

dream imo thinks he needs to be always helpful and nice and bright and palatable... no matter how he feels about certain people, he keeps a smile on his face and lets himself be pushed around because he thinks thats the best way to guarantee the positivity of others. he never turns down requests for help no matter how drained he might be because what kind of helper isnt always available to help, yknow? the ways in which he fulfills his role are draining to him and, were he mortal, would be entirely unsustainable (even as he is its barely sustainable)

anyway what im getting at is theyre pretty similar. and i think its an interesting thing for dream, whos so used to helping people who desperately want out of their horrible situations, to see someone clearly suffering and acknowledging it but refusing to leave. it would probably be baffling to him at first. dream and dust (and honestly dream and the entirety of the mtt plus nightmare) are a study in the appeal of negativity and the tendency of people to dwell in it instead of working to get better because of a whole range of reasons.

dream would try to convince dust that he doesnt have to stay with nm, that he can help him get out and go somewhere like the omega timeline and get a second chance, but dust would hear him out silently and then ask him if he doesnt have a duty of his own. hed answer that he does, obviously, and dust would answer that so does he. he has a duty to those hes hurt to feel the same pain theyve been through.

"...and how long will you be suffering like this?"

"eternity."

theyre interesting to me because through each other i think they would recognize their biggest flaws, specifically this sense of "duty" that does nothing but harm. through trying to change this in the other, they change it in themselves, yknow??

also i just like the idea of dream being able to vent to dust. and the rest of the mtt, really. he doesnt often let himself do stuff like that, but they convince him its good to ged the feelings out (and theyre right) and he just sits there and tells them all the grievances he has that he couldnt say to the faces of whoever hed had them with.

ive mentioned this before in a post, that i think the mtt invite dream ti hang out a lot. because they like his positive aura, how it makes everything more bearable, even if just for a little bit. how they dont allow themselves good things because they dont think they deserve them, but its almost like an instinct to survive at this point and being around dream allows their bodies rest at last.

i just generally think dream is very liked in the multiverse lmao. in part because of his aura, sure, but mostly because hes just neat. he hangs out with the mtt and then stops by the omega timeline to hang out with core and others, then while hes out and about reaper pops outta nowhere and gives him some food and drink like "here, a gift from my bro and i" and then he goes to ccino's cafe and hes got a regular order already that ccino gets ready wordlessly as he sees dream approach. and obviously he hangs out with the stars both on missions and off. and he somehow ends up hanging with error when theyre not on opposing sides?? he likes undernovela, too. fresh would also like him, if mostly for the fact hes very useful...

can you tell i like dream.

Know I love thinking about characters who I don't really see together

Like, tf Color and Error think of each other. I mean how much of an AT is too much for Error? Like if its an AT turned to an A like is he chill for a sec and then not? Tf Color think of him?

Killer and Epic would be a funny duo maybe, but not necessarily for the reasons one may think.

What are the one-on-one dynamics of the epic sanses like?

Dream and Horror?? or Dust??

Outer or Birdtale and literally anyone? LMAO

(feel free to add if you wanna I like talking LMAOO)

[twogyus]

taeyong x reader (side yuwin)

friends to lovers/ roommates au pt 1/2

genre: fluff, angst

Disclaimer: this is a bulleted version of an in progress fic. I will update with the fic link[PART 1] when it is complete. this is a jumbled mess, but i felt compelled to make a bulleted whatever u call those shits that I HATE reading because it was a good clear way for me to organize my thoughts on an upcoming project, enjoy xoxo

Sicheng is your first friend at Uni

he sees you struggling and takes you under his wing

at first you two just sit together in shared classes and study every once in a while

 eventually he wants you to have more  of a social life

he takes u to meet ALL of his friends and there are A LOT

at first u only pay attention to Yuta bc u notice something between him and your bestie

yuta is very flirty, especially with Sicheng, who he looks at so sincerely

Sicheng just can’t seem to openly reciprocate

you devise a plan to get them together

once you make sure your bestie is set up with the man of his dreams you begin to focus on getting to know the other members of the crew

you get close with a few, and learn one is abroad for a few terms

you,Yuta and Sicheng become the three musketeers

they hold u close to them since you helped them become a couple

When they get tired of living in a dorm with no privacy they decide to get an apartment off campus

ofc they invite you to be their roommate

the three of you live happily

they occasionally have people over to hang out

but most nights its just the three of you cuddled up on the couch, watching a movie or doing school work

they soak up the affection you rarely give so freely

most of the time u even ditch your bed for theirs for the good company

they call u their little hermit

which u resent

but wcyd

one day they say they’re having a party, and want u to participate for once

you don’t wanna but they say their friend is coming back after having been gone a year and you’re intrigued

they tell you he’s worth knowing, a sweet and talented guy

“A hot guy” *insert obnoxious winks*

you will yourself to not take any naps throughout the day so you have an excuse to ditch everyone later

You find yourself wanting to stay up all night, however, when you set ur sights on the missing piece of the puzzle that was Sicheng and Yuta's eclectic friend group

Taeyong? A synonym for god-like? 

That’s your first thought after he introduces himself

You’re immediately smitten

his good looks and shy demeanor are more than enough to pave the way to infatuation lane

u quickly learn he is a lot more complex than he lets on

also that he needs a place to stay

Yuta has to be drunk when he says Taeyong can room with the three of you

it's only a two-bedroom apartment, you whisper

he repeats you loudly, tacking on, “But you fall asleep on the couch or in our bed anyway” before patting your shoulder

that earns you all a few looks but you agree that he can stay after he mentions he doesn’t have enough to get his own place yet and was having complications getting into the classes he needs to finish his degree because of his time abroad and he can’t stay in the dorms unless he’s enrolled

that same night Taeyong stays over, all he owns is in a bag

drunk as a skunk, when you try to go to your bed and see him curled up in your sheets you stare for a long time before going to pass out on the couch

you only realize he was awake the next day when he won’t make eye contact with you

the awkwardness takes forever to blow over

Yuta and Sicheng’s hermit is not good at communication

he tries to talk to you but you usually freeze up and he thinks you hate him

you don’t hate him

you think he’s cute and so nice and you’re not sure you can talk to him without saying something weird

so when he tells you he’s sorry for taking your bed and you say

‘i wouldn’t want anyone else to have it’

the ice is broken

he giggles cutely and you nearly choke at how adorable he is

you two become fast friends

he’s very agreeable

everything is going smoothly until he sees you go into Yuta and Sicheng’s room for the first time

the next morning he asks you if the three of you ‘you ..know?”

he immediately apologizes, says its rude

you tell him the truth and he seems content with ur answer

thinks are good 

you listen to music together and cook dinner for everyone, and he helps you study when Sicheng isn’t around

you even start to participate with the group more in order to spend more time with him

you  learn its okay to let people in, that it can be refreshing sometimes

you stop clinging so much to your best friends and start to cling to Taeyong

it gets worse when the two of you drink

you’re both very touchy

you lay all over each other, hold hands, stroke each other’s hair

you’re happy because Taeyong is kind of a germophobe and sometimes doesn’t like to be touched

but he doesn’t seem to mind as much with u

but maybe that’s the alcohol

you don’t touch a lot when ur sober

otherwise, the occasional brushing of fingers when you’re cooking together is enough to keep you happy for a few solid hours 

you feel yourself getting attached after a couple of months

you find yourself lying in bed with him after nights of drinking

its all platonic hand holding and hed petting but you cherish it the same

it becomes hard when you realize you’re falling hard and fast

because every day with him is better than the last

he’s the sweetest guy, always checking up on you and offering his help

when he get’s his classes figured out you spend less time together

he makes friends outside of the group

you stop hanging out with..well..everyone

things seem less fun without him around

Yuta points out your crush but you ignore him

its at the next house party you admit to yourself Yuta's right

you’re jealous of the lone girl at the party, aside from yourself

she’s next to Taeyong on the couch, her hand on his arm his on her knee

you go to Yuta and Sicheng’s room to sleep away your sadness

the next morning you wake up to the smell of what could only be Taeyong’s home cooking

you’re excited to ask what he’s prepared until you hear giggling

not his 

a girl’s

you retreat away

you’re in shock

she stayed the night

first, they flirt on the couch, your BED btw

and then they...IN WHAT USED TO BE YOUR BED?

you calm down, try to act like nothing has changed

because nothing has

besides Taeyong having slept with someone he’s still the same towards you

when he’s gone, he’s gone and you miss his companionship

but when he’s around you still hang out, joke, cook, study

sadly it hurts all the same as the morning u woke up to see a girl in the kitchen, Taeyong’s arm around her waist

you try to suck it up, you really do, but you settle on the fact that you aren’t adult enough to get over it 100%

your last straw is when he says he can’t catch a movie with you because he has other plans

you were being paranoid and selfish, but you decide then and there that you can’t be around him

you have places you can go, you know, but dorms were full by the time Taeyong was able to enroll again

he has nowhere else to go

so you pack a bag and are the first to leave

You can’t handle that he’s not into you

or worse

that he was at one point and the two of you missed your chances

those drunken nights of holding each other were friendly at first

but you were sure he could feel the underlying emotions

couldn’t he?

tbc

[gweyson]

jack 13, 19, 21, 29, 38, damien 7, 22, 26, 33, 44

13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

he is not…he probably had to bandage up damien more than once so he’s fairly used to the sight of it

19. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

he just kind of. forgets to check on his partner and make sure theyre alright a lot. he doesnt mean to be malicious or anything he just kinda forgets that other people have needs and wants

21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

he usually doesnt beat himself up over stuff bc he figures that once somethings happened theres no point beating urself up over it too badly. but he does blame himself to some degree for damiens death

29. What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

he wanted to do smth big like? idk an astronaut or doctor or smth. his ambitions became smaller over the years tbh he doesnt know exactly what he wants but he’s happy with what hes doing (hes studying english at uni/college/whateevr its called)

38. Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

he’ll remove himself

7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

being small, being helpless, being back in shitty/traumatic situations he thought hed escaped from

22. What does your character like in other people?

idk how to explain this properly but he thinks its interesting how different ppl react to tge same situation. psychology babey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

26. How does your character behave around children?

he thinks theyre chill but he probably swears and talks about Not Child Friendly Stuff a bit too mych so he cant b trusted :/

33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

some kind of combo of defensive and self-deprecating

44. How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

talking abt emotions in general is hard for him and admitting he genuinely loves someone makes him feel awkward….

[renamusing]

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in the folder re: konhiji like we’re not told how old toshi was when he met kondo but probably a teenager considerin sougo was 6-8 so i always thought toshi’d place kondo in a place similar to tamegoro but misunderstand those feelins as smth else bc he’s just a baby + kondou’s the first to show him real (or any) affection outside tamegoro n not fear or resent him in any way but actually want to help him (he later in life realizes hed just misplaced/misunderstood their 

nature). from that same era, i think his feelins for mitsuba would fit a similar narrative as in bc of circumstances she HAD to be the woman he loved bc all men must love a woman plus she had feelins for him (tho tbh i also dont think hers were any different from the familial love she had for kondou and it was also a matter of circumstance but thats another matter) so it was a done deal but still easy to leave behind for a new life n have as backup/excuse for any other

woman hed meet or more like a shield from havin to open up w/unravel to any feelins of love of a non familial nature for anyone. his take on love is rly naive n pure (contrasted to ofc my baby whos smart n no fool) bc it also serves as shield n hes also said to be unable to relate/open up to women multiple times but is defenseless towards men (n sorachi loves that trope esp w toshi n gin chan in which theyre ‘men that are more attractive to other men than women’) which

i think is why hes so well defenseless towards gin chan durin their duel in the rooftops like for gin chan thats just a ‘crazy cop attacked me again’ moment but for toshi it like shakes the foundations of his whole bein he like lies there all wistful like wtf…..im gay? no… w a blossomin crush that only gets worse the more he interacts w gin chan (cant blame him tho gin chan is an angel) but like the way hes constructed specifically as an archetype hes too set in

performin masculinity (kyuchan says this but he also says this abt himself also multiple times) n sorachi is aware to an extent (plus hes drawin from men who were practicin mlm themselves) what this trope entails wrt sexuality n its expressions like for toshi its comfortable not to think abt love or any of that bc he has a goal n the excuse of a dead woman but its impossible to read him as anythin but not straight no matter the degree to which he is aware of it (which

tbh i think its a lot more than what ppl in fandom give him credit for) i have more detailed backed up analysis of this somewhere but i cant find them but basically at the end of the day i think toshi meetin kondo n at least havin some mixed up feelins abt what he feels towards him that hes able to resolve as bein brotherly later on in life set the path for him realizin he can love other men not in a brotherly way n in the way he (as a man) is supposed to love women

wow long but yes like toshi’s archetype in other manga/literature is easily read n can be coded as mlm/gay n is often the case but his issues run too deep for him to even consider that part seriously (at least tbh until 551 maybe baragaki but i dont think that early) so he has to suffer for it he deserves the worst the only reason gh is okay is bc he provides economically for gin chan n would be willin to pay any outstandin debts as shown in the soul switch arc. the end

i feel like this was just a sneak peek into that folder, but I loved it 200%! it’s super hard for me to reply without going into my own headcanons about gh and how they relate to one another, cause the way toshi relates to gin is so different from kondo in my perspective; in fact, it’s why i can’t get romantic konhiji at all, though i admit you make a fair point when u address the transition of toshi’s “most important person” from tamegoro to kondo (at that young age mixed feelings would be acceptable) plus, i always saw kondo as the character that ‘saved’ toshi, while gin was the one that ‘healed’ him. ofc both relationships go way beyond these dynamics, but without any actual canon romantic proof it’s difficult to postulate from toshi’s limited pov. 

so, while the shinsengumi became his substitute family and kondo tamegoro’s substitute (the family core), it’s a given that toshi perceives this love as unconditional, would-die-for etc. however, it would be interesting to explore his feelings for kondo back then in relation to mitsuba; like in an effort to answer the love of a woman (as you so brilliantly put, that in those circumstances toshi HAD to love a woman) he tried to shift his romantic feelings/attraction to kondo’s masculine figure to her ? (IM ONLY  REALIZING NOW THAT THIS WAS PROBABLY WHAT YOU MEANT BEFORE? IM SORRY) tho i don’t agree that mitsuba’s love for him was familial cause ponytail toshi, mack, like pls, she had to be blind ???

then we come to ginchan, whose whole relationship with toshi is based, imo, in the fact that they not only see a part of themselves in each other (the guilty, self-hating, rebel part) but that in seeing it they understand themselves better and are able to open up, share their experiences and encourage one another; not to mention protect what’s dear to them. aka they love each other. there is literally no other explanation for ginchan waiting in the rain for toshi so they could go out for a meal? i mean, sakata gintoki sat in the rain, under his umbrella, looking all complacent & shit. ALRIGHT. 

btw i bolded some of your bits cause i rly relate to them in the way i see toshi, especially the ones about him putting up a shield. toshi has always had problems dealing with his feelings, even before we knew of his past with his brother (which for continuity’s sake was probably what triggered him to bottle  everything up), he had always been written/regarded as a cold, level-headed character who doesn’t let emotions get the best of him. his rank in the shinsengumi further emphasizing this (and his otaku persona as well). so, without disregarding ginchan’s merits, i think that kondo’s influence (and even mitsuba’s to some extent) may have contributed to lowering toshi’s shield enough that he was able to give himself a chance to connect with someone outside his comfort zone/past. the fact that that person happened to be a man only makes more sense given his background and the hints that tell us he was never able to relate to women or feel like he could make them happy. it’s Tough on my heart to say that ginchan is basically ideal because, even though he is the mc, it’s like he was made to play that role in toshi’s life. he doesn’t bring all the answers but rather more questions cause there’s no way toshi can be confused now because his attraction to ginchan cant be excused with the role of ‘brother’ or ‘fated woman he was supposed to love’, gh bond is their own, their closeness in canon SHOULD raise suspicion cause it sure doesn’t seem straight.

well, i digressed WAY more than i should, but yeah that’s it, kudos on that folder.