#bc the cross is right there and it would be too much of a blasphemy

[deathisamotherofbeauty]

Forever mad saltburn never had a premier in my country like... I could maybe have s poster for free😭 and I get so pissed now that all newspapers and basic magazines are talking about the movie🚬 y'all couldn't have fought to get it in the movie theaters?

[noxstrix]

ABOUT THE MUN.

hello. i am coyote. my pronouns are she / her and they / them. i am over 21 years old, and a full time college student. i’m a practicing pagan in the real world. i have adhd and anxiety, so i really prefer to reply to drafts selectively and with mutuals only. my classes are mon - thurs  and i tend not to reply very much on those days. because of this i’d call this blog medium activity. as of right now nisa is my only character. i believe everyone has the freedom to say whatever they want on their blogs, within reason, please do not follow me if you are someone who is easily offended.

i know my rules are long, but they are to keep everyone on the same page and to prevent any future discourse from happening on my blog or between us as writers. thank you so much for taking the time to read everything, i sincerely appreciate it !!

TRIGGERING CONTENT / TRIGGER TAGGING.

please exit the page and unfollow right now, if you are under the age of eighteen.

this blog is extremely triggering. i cannot stress this enough. blasphemy is a reoccurring theme. a lot of the content i write here explores  conspiracy theories about the biblical apocalypse, the vatican and its links to illuminati, free masonry, and the ninth circle. if you have ever been curious enough to research on these cults, then you would likely know they are linked to subject matter such as human sacrifices, sex trafficking, murder, pedophilia, etc etc. while i do not promote or condone any of this, there will be frequent mentions in my writing of these topics and i won’t be tagging them. blasphemy will also never be tagged on my blog.

images posted / reposted on this blog are sometimes graphic and contain blood, gore, or melancholy. i will not be trigger tagging anything that does not make me personally uncomfortable. this blog is mine and i can do or post whatever i want on it. however, sometimes i do feel like there’s a line that might be crossed in regards to my followers.

i will be tagging any triggering imagery as  /  horror.  if you wish to add that to your blacklist. additionally if you have any really specific, and legitimate phobias you require me to tag, don’t hesitate to message me privately. all phobias brought to my attention ( ie. spiders, eye gore ) will likely wind up under the blacklist tag   /  trigger.  i will not be tagging anything such as food, or body image.

THE CHARACTER / THEFT.

my character takes basis from biblical, luciferian, satanic, gnostic and jewish mythology. she is lilith’s reincarnation. i however, do change up some of the lore and give it my own ideas and flavors. everything about nisa and lilith, i headcanoned myself. same goes for her partner blog lucian / lucifer ( @antichrstis ). i wrote both of biographies. please do not steal any aspects of either character, or any of my lore regarding their universe, as i worked very hard on their background stories. i will post a call out, if i catch you imitating, copying, or stealing anything. this is your one and only warning.

AGE LIMITS.

because this blog is full of mature, adult content, please do not follow me if you are under the age of eighteen or you cannot maturely handle in character content like profanity, sex, horror, violence, torture, mental or physical abuse. if  either of the words sex or smut bothers you and makes you feel even a little queezy or you have an aversion to it, i definitely  do not suggest following. while i don’t smut often on this blog, it does happen, and when it does, it’s with characters whose writers are over the age of 20. sorry, i personally do not feel comfortable writing smut with muns younger than 20 years of age, i don’t care of 18 is the legal age, this is my personal preference.

additionally, i do not ship my oc against characters whose face claims are under the age of 25. i will not ship her with characters under the age of 23 ( divided by 2 + 7 rule )  that’s creepy to me. not only is nisa thirty one years old, but lilith is older than the earth’s creation. don’t even try to come up with excuses or convince me otherwise because it’s gonna get you hard blocked, you feel me?

MUN =/= MUSE.

nisa’s personal beliefs and actions, are not my own ! please keep ooc and ic separate in this regard. these are works of fiction and this is roleplay. the mun’s personality is not the muses. she’s a bit of a binch sometimes and narcissistic, but just because she is rude and mean to some characters, does not mean i, the mun, feel that way towards you ooc, or towards your character!

CHARACTERIZATION + METAGAMING.

please, please, please, read nisa/lilith’s about pages in full. like every detail, okay? because i am so, so very tired of people approaching her as the stereotypical lilith. or approaching her automatically like she’s a bitch. if you’re a bitch to her first or give her an attitude, you better believe you’re going to get a reply according to that ten fold.

nisa is in essence, a fallen angel / demon, and the creator of witches and supernatural monstrosities, reincarnated. lilith is sometimes interpreted in biblical prophecy as the anti-christ’s partner in crime, which means only god can kill her. you can throw holy water at her, you can torture her, decapitate her, but your character can’t get rid of her.

she is true immortal. if you are going to pick a fight with her, pick your battle wisely, because she will not hesitate to use her magic or destroy your character to make a point. i do not hold her characterization back for any reason, so when you find yours flying across the room or pinned on a ceiling, don’t be surprised.

also bear in mind she has the ability to see people’s pasts and future, to pick up on their emotions, insecurities, and decipher personal things about them. i always read character’s backgrounds first to get an idea, and sometimes dig through headcanons pages for some juice. unless your character is a witch or supernatural being who has taken precautions spiritually or magically to block anyone from doing so at any given time,  don’t be surprised if this happens. i analyze your subtext as well, so anything your character is feeling or any vibes they’re giving off may or may not additionally not be picked up on.

if you read this and you’re thinking “lol overpowered, mary sue,” don’t follow me. it’s that simple. all of the powerful / evil characters you hate to love on television are mary sues when you strip away the lime light media.  i suggest taking a look in the mirror and getting off your high horse when it comes to your attitude towards original characters, kay? awesome.

GOD MODDING.

ah yes, god modding. please don’t do it to my character unless discussed first, or unless you are sending me a starter! starters are the only situation i let people gently god mod in, because i know it can be difficult writing threads out of thin air.

do not undermine evil or magically powerful characters. i think most of us have been around the rpc long enough to have seen the psa going around on tumblr about this. it’s truly frustrating, when you have someone’s human character or any being capable of dying, repetitively poking a villain with a sharp stick, and then getting all butt-hurt when the other person replies accordingly with negative consequences for their muse.

because my character is an immortal, with nearly all magical abilities, i am going to be honest with you. if your character does anything threatening towards nisa/lilith, or anything which might provoke her to harm yours, i will god mode in my reply. again, pick your battles wisely. this only happens if your character does something to deserve it. there will be no ’ attempts made ’ because  if they are human, she can literally begin choking them from across the room, melting their brain, breaking their bones, setting them on fire, or instantly kill them with a tap on their shoulder, if she chooses.

if your character is supernaturally based and has magical powers, etc, i will message you first and give you a heads up so we can discuss how we want their fight to end and which direction to go in. every attack on your supernatural character will be attempted. in counter, if your character wants to engage in a magical battle or some sort of violent fight with mine, i hope you will respect me the same way and message me before hand.

ENGAGING / INTERACTING WITH MY CHARACTER.

this blog is mutuals only! if i don’t follow you please do not send me random memes, or anything unprompted. also please do not like any of my starter calls or reply to my open starters. if i don’t follow you back, please don’t feel bad! it is most likely because i don’t see her interacting with your character, you post too much ooc, or i already follow too many of a certain muse. i am ocd about what is on my dash. i have adhd so a fast and clustered or disorganized dash does give me anxiety!

with that out of the way, any mutuals, whether we have or haven’t interacted, are always welcome to send nisa/lilith random starters, dialogue one liners, crack, memes, headcanon questions, etc. there is no limit as to how you can interact with me or how you want to. if you feel like interacting with nisa, feel confident that you can just do it and don’t hesitate !!!!! none of you will or could ever annoy me tbh.

SOFT / HARD BLOCKING / UNFOLLOWING.

this blog practices both soft blocking and hard blocking. if i soft block you and you try re-following, i hard block. i do this to protect myself, and to protect my creative freedom on my blog. i don’t owe anyone an explanation. if i see frequent call outs, callout reblogs, vague posts, or negativity on your blog, i will not hesitate to block you as i see fit. please keep your ooc political views off my dash. i really don’t give a shit, since i’m here to roleplay.  

if you think i might have unfollowed you on accident  ( bc lets be real the mobile app is really trash and my thumbs are clumsy ) please unfollow and then refollow me to alert me of my mistake. my tumblr msgs are currently for mutuals only, so that’s the easiest way to get my attention.

SHIPPING / SMUT.

as far as shipping is concerned, this blog only engages in pre-plotted ships. all  pre-plotted ships will get their own verse.

nisa is a complicated character and she is demiromantic. she isn’t really a flings kind of person and i bet you’re thinking ’ lol but it’s lilith ’ and yeah, that’s true, but just because the bible  called her a whore, doesn’t mean she is one. i’d really like to point out that they gave her that image because she disobeyed adam and god, whom are both men. did i also mention that the bible and rabbinical story of lilith, was written by men?

okay, great. now, we’re on the same page. many pagan practices and religions believe that periods of celibacy are a good thing, and actually makes witches more powerful, because sexual energy is powerful. before nisa accepts her fate of being lilith’s reincarnation, she does this frequently, as well as fasts, so that her various uses of magic, or that her visions, have an amplified effect.

in contrast, sometimes celibacy gets to be too much and she needs to actually release that tension and craves companionship, so one night stands, and flings are more likely to happen over romantic ships. she is flirty by nature and sometimes touchy-feely, this does not mean, however, that she wants to engage in sexual relations with your character.

i will only write with / ship with one lucifer, and that is @antichrstis in her main verse.

if your character is feeling nisa, or you view her character as someone yours might want to romantically ship with, and you would like it to happen, please feel free to message me andwe can discuss verse arcs and details ! don’t let what was previously mentioned above deter you.

i briefly mentioned smut earlier in my rules, but this is a reminder that i will not smut with anyone under age 20 or any muses whose fcs are under age 25.

DISCORD / TUMBLR MSGS.

if we’re mutuals, message me at your leisure! if you would like my discord, it is available upon request. i am open to ooc chit - chatting and plotting. i like making friends and getting to know people, so don’t be shy!

[lunasaturnine]

Surprising Resurrection

Two easters ago was the dopest easter ever. I had just spent a whole season acclimating to the Episcopal church schedule and the sense of a lil spiritual community. Enough immersion so that Lent and its pared down services with less music and no flowers and stuff like that really affected me. Then I did all the holy week shit which is all super dark and spare, getting more and more somber as the week goes. Including the night services. And then, Easter BLOOMED, so many fucking flowers, gorgeous amazing huge music, candles, incense, and taking communion... I don’t want to make a LONG post about it here but it was like, I really felt the potency of the ancient Church of England bringing hope to the poor wretched Europeans, distributing this beneficience and this promise of a welcoming world beyond this one... ok side note in the context of wretched old Europe, the notion of heaven was necessary because the way life was, was just so freaking bad and low-quality. Life was filled with so much suffering. Humans caught glimpses of the divine in love, music, humor, etc. but so much sickness and poverty... even rich people lived terrible and uncomfortable and uncertain lives. Sewage dumped in the streets. All those babies dying all the time. The promise of a life beyond where things are good, means a promise of an existence where things are good period. It had to emphasize mortality to get to the idea of goodness. Anyways, whatever. I really felt the ancientness of the ritual at play, the generosity of it, the big machine, the circle of the people giving the communion goblet as we poor sinners all knelt in surrender... it was DOPE. I was very affected by it on a somatic level and was spiritually hung over the next day.

Easter last year was covid easter. We got out of choir for spring break and never came back. So many people we never saw again. Lent had just started. We made jokes thruout the year about how long lent was lasting... I submitted a video for the easter service of me battling a bach prelude. DIdnt watch the service. God I would never watch a church service of my own free will

Easter this year...

Last night I was feeling blue and I wept a little, remembering the easter of two years ago. How much lent had allowed the rose of easter to bloom, how much the steady meeting of the church community allowed for the rhythmic wheel to turn of the church seasons. During covid, no communities were meeting (in my life). No wheels were turning. It was more than a long lent. I didn’t stay penitent during the “long lent.” I didn’t stay anything. I just released and got fat eating cheese and coping. I was too fat for my cute easter dress. I was/am also premenstrual, last night, and I wept a little at how Easter was not going to be in a rhythm. And I wept at how much had been let go of. How disoriented and numb I felt. Partially because I was so fat and bleary from cheese. Partially because of covid. An entire year feeling released in some ways from the wheel of... the world we build together. I reminded myself other people feel it so much more than I had felt it. People who love being in the world, who have the energy for a lot of things like that.

One thing that didn’t change was the rhythm of the earth. Funny how the Christian holidays ride this rhythm and also sorta try to deny it, try to make the Christ story the driver of it all. At my church the rector really likes botanical metaphors and alludes comfortably to the turning of the seasons - it aint so bad at all - it’s just, come on, those are clearly the primary things. Pagan ritual is so fun because it’s tied directly to that. Solstices, equinoxes, and those fat mid-season celtic holidays in the fixed signs.

At its core, church should be people gathering regularly to honor what is sacred. And, I think it would be nice, if ... life revolved around it. If one’s life work had the rhythm of preparing what to bring to the sacred festival as part of it, and then release from it, and then do it some more. Because, we want community, we need community, and church’s best function is a way of creating an artifice for community interaction w/ each other, and its second best function is creating/celebrating/sculpting a shared value system (second best bc it’s dysfunctional usually). The pagan way is pleasantly neutral. If your community chooses a certain style or set of divinities... there might be cliquey responses but there’s no sense of blasphemy. It’s tied fundamentally to the earth. It’s sensual in that way.

Here’s what easter was this year. This is particularly good because it was inspired directly by the sermon that the rector gave. He is a smart good-minded dude who is finding his stride. His 9AM service was better than his 11AM one he didn’t emphasize it in the 11one come on dude. He talked (among other things) about how the ladies who went to jesus’s tomb went expecting to find him there, dead, even though they had heard him say over and over that his body would be resurrected. He said it wasn’t bc they were dumb, it was bc we are not fully capable of comprehending the idea of resurrection. He talked a lot about the impossibility of resurrection.

I sat with that while I looked at the trees and shit (outdoor service ftw). Our bodies know death. Our bodies know death. Our bodies know death. Our flesh is mortal. They know it really fundamentally. Our spirits are immortal, and know immortality. They do the death process, but for them it is not a spookery thing at all, it is just a transition. So there’s this wild dissonance in the human existence. I thought about how lent comes in the context of the church cadence to create a sense of a fast, a sense of quiet, a sense of death. It’s like those old fashioned mystery rites when you go into the cave of ceres or whatever. You are repeating ideas of death with your mercury words so that they imprint on your spirit, and your body likes to resonate with your spirit. And it’s also enforced by the darkness in the church and the darkness of those rituals... so you are using all of your resources and harmonizing to the mortality part of you, the idea that death is indeed real, you embody death you live out death. The quiet the sorrow the misgiving the mourning. And THEN, YOU EMBODY THE LIFE. And not just new life. Not birth of a baby so the cycle continues. YOU EMBODY THE ETERNALNESS OF LIFE! YOU EMBODY ETERNAL FUCKING LIFE! HE IS RISEN!!!! It’s the GOOD NEWS, when you talk to Christians who really believe it it’s the BEST NEWS THEY’VE EVER HEARD, THE BEST NEWS THEY COULD EVER TELL YOU, and when the church believes it and gives it to you, they are being the most generous as its possible to be... you embody the eternal nature of the soul that your spirit knows is true. You glow on both sides of the yin yang... This is the main focus of Christianity and Christian alchemy. It’s... COOL. 

What happened this easter was, there were services inside and outside. The music director put me and my 2 favorite people in a thread and told us to come up with the music. I did, and they acquiesced. I picked just like a bunch of my favorite music from Mozart operas, plus a couple other pieces that I liked (turned out to both be by Aquarius composers). One of the pieces was a hymn to Isis and Osiris but it turns out sometimes Christians put “When I beholdthe wondrous cross” to it so that worked :)))) Ummm... the whole process was so easy, everyone respected me and each other, no one fought, I practiced but not too hard, I played ok but not too great hahaha, the others played very well, we all cooperated, we all saw all the community, we all picked up right where we left off. I didn’t feel the incense eternal life high I felt two easters ago. But, everyone was there, the weather was beautiful, nothing was the matter. Without any sense of cycle or attachment to a wheel, without stress and labor, resentment drama expectation criticism strife... it was simply, a wonderful musical time, that I was given to create and enjoy, and I really enjoyed it, and we all three got a hundred bucks. It was the type of experience that I’m used to trying to plan, but get frustrated and it turns impossible... and look, it was just Given to me. And. I didn’t believe in it yesterday. I didn’t believe in Easter’s promise last night. I thought the magic of the world was broken or wounded. I sat with my sorrow and embodied it with my bleary fatness on my meditation cushion. I couldn’t see or feel anything clearly... just a sense of being a broken toy. And it was beautiful. Mild. Meaningful. And just right there. So accessible. 

I have to tell my church I’m leaving them for the other church. It feels fine... it still feels like the right thing. It feels like it’s going to be a growth of this energy. All the welcoming open feelings are even stronger at the other church. And I think it will open the door to even more collaboration, b/c collaboration is already starting to happen. I think it will be fine I just gotta rip the bandaid off.

[ajholdsamb]

Mountains & Minoans

After our relaxing days at the beach resort we were off to the mountains! And we were definitely glad to have a gps. The drive was so pretty & interesting... there is still snow on the mountains in Crete?! Not enough or far down enough for us to play with, but still an impress feat for summer in the Mediterranean nonetheless. We drove through the Amari valley, one of the recommended sights to see on Crete. It has majestic tall sheer grey cliff faces overlooking idyllic green valleys with lots of wildflowers & sheep. On our drive to our next sleeping location we also stopped by Moni Arkadiou. There we saw the remains of a monastery that served as a last stand fight between several hundred Greek rebels and a much larger and well armed Turkish force. Bullet holes are still present in the beautiful walls of the church, testimony to the close hand fighting that killed every last man holed up inside. It reminded me of the American Alamo, but unlike the Alamo the Greek soldiers had their families with them. As the men fought, the women, children, and older people huddled in the monastery cellar. When the last man fell and the Turks began to beat down the door, the 80 year old abbot in charge of the monastery lit a barrel of explosives stored in the cellar, killing everyone within, blasting out the ceiling, and killing a number of Turkish soldiers as well. Although we cannot be sure why he did this, it seems clear he feared those within would meet a fate worse than death if he surrendered. It was a beautiful monastery, and as it is seemingly super important to the Cretan national consciousness, we are very glad we visited. We may have mentioned this before, but since Crete is in such a prime location between the Middle East, Europe, & Africa it has seen a lot of conflicts over the years. However this battle with the Turks for independence from an outsiders perspective seems to hold more significance for the Cretans, maybe akin to how we Americans feel about the revolutionary war? After that stop we drove to the Aeortis Villas, our next home. It is located in Lampini, a little mountain town with a gorgeous view and more sheep than people. Even though the town is less that a square mile & maybe has a population of 50 people, we spent an hour trying to navigate the tiny roads to locate reception. We did falter a time or two (shout out to the old Greek man who let us drive into his tractor parking and doorstop to turn around on a one way road!). We were confused because we could see the villas, but there was no obvious area to check in, and so consequently we were just sort of creeping around other guests' backyards? Eventually we decided to suck up the international phone charges and call Olga, who runs the place. Olga was super nice, and ran over right away, and it seems that she had forgotten to write our reservation down. However, she put us up in a local house rental (which boy aj really liked bc then we could see how the locals live : ) and then a very nice villa the next day. She also made us dinner, amazing 3 course breakfasts and seemingly gave us one of the bigger spots (we had a two bedroom two story house to ourselves for only 50 € a night) so we really like Olga! While in Lampini, we hiked the smaller Antonios Gorge with a church/temple built into the cliff and opportunities to sort of rock climb (my favorite:). We also had dinner at a taverna with the nicest old Greek lady, who we grew a lot of the food herself. Those dinners were also fun because we had to actually use our Greek (or play charades when we didn't know a word) and we ate while the flocks of sheep that ran past. The days were relaxing here too. Even when we were exploring, and trying to find a particular place, when we messed up we usually ended up in another place we were thinking about (in one case a creepy abandoned monastery). We also watched the excellent blasphemy that is Disney's Hercules, & drank some delicious Cretan wine. The most stressed we were, were the couple of times the GPS thought that a one lane dirt road with a vertical incline of 30-45 degrees was passable in our two wheel drive mini sedan... Of course we also saw some archaeology! I'll let boy AJ share about that. We made the quick drive to Phaestos and saw our first big Minoan ruin. Although we were what would have been a day's travel or more from the Minoan capital of Knossos, this part of southern Crete was under imperial control so an administrative center developed to extend the Minoan redistributive economy to this area. Although Phaestos is called a palace and it did house local royals and other important people, it seemed to me to be more of a glorified warehouse or bank. As you enter the site, your eyes immediately focus on a grand set of stairs leading to the central part of the palace. Instead of finding the residences of the wealthy at this magnificent location, I found rows and rows of storerooms, some with massive ceramic vessels as large as a person for storing the agricultural products owed to the king. Outside of this central area were bedrooms, craft production areas, and public spaces for religious processions, but what really stood out to me here was the significance of goods to this group of people. It drove in the fact that economy is the cornerstone of society, and when it fails so does society as what would happen to the Minoans and the reason the palace was in ruins in the first place. We then made a short but harrowing drive to the Graeco-Roman town of Gournta. A brief word on driving, since I'm not sure if that's been discussed yet, but it's pretty crazy here. We've had a lot of one way situations with blind turns and little old ladies walking into the street out of nowhere, it's nuts. Anyway Gourtna was the capital of Roman Crete and as such was a pretty huge town. Unfortunately, what's on display is only a small fraction of the town and you can see its ruins extend well beyond the site's fences. What is on display is the first written legal constitution on Crete, a 6th century bc inscription etched into a massive curved wall. I'm not sure when the space between words was invented, but it certainly wasn't around then because all the letters are packed together into what looks like a giant Greek word search and looking at it for too long almost gave me a headache. Unsatisfied by the small amount of archaeology on display at such a large site, I led AJ off on a goose chase of Roman ruins through the surrounding farmland. Heidi, if you're reading this, we kept it totally safe, stuck to the dirt roads, and didn't cross any gates or fences; even I know safety is more important than archaeology. Anyway, after some searching we found a beautiful round temple, with a massive pile of marble columns in the center, out in the middle of this agricultural area. Gortna was a fun site, but we needed to explore a little to really appreciate what it has to offer. The people, the remoteness, the mountains, & the precocious sheep made Lampini a truly wonderful stop! If you're ever in the area, we'll let Olga know you're coming ;)