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ambardiaz · 2 years ago

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HOLA, MI NOBRE ES AMBAR LUCIA DOMINGUEZ DIAZ Y LES QUIERO CONTAR UNA HISTORIA ...

MY NAME IS AMBAR LUCIA DOMINGUEZ DIAZ 32 Y/O FROM DOMINICAN REPUBLIC. GOING THRU HARRASEMENT, ASSAULT, BULLYING, LIES, BANK FRAUD, IDENTITY THEFT, MANIPULATION, PSYCHIC HARRASED , DISCRIMINATED, FALSED ACCUSED, ALMOST DESTROYED BY THIS GROUP OF INDIVIDUALS USING A SOFTWARE THAT CHANGE THE INFORMATION OF THE ORIGINAL AT THEIR CONVENIENCE. THEY HAVE RECLUTERS THAT BECOME YOUR CIRCLE OF FRIENDS, MANIPULATE YOUR PLEOPLE FOR YOU TO BE LEFT ALONE WITH ONLY PPL FROM THEIR TEAM SO AT THE END THEY SEND YOU TO JAIL, DEPORTED, MENTAL INSTITUTION, PROSTITUTION OR CEMENTERY AFTER THE CRIME. HE TOLD ME THIS HAPPENED TO YAKAIRA VALERIO FOR HER MISS BEHAVIORS AND THAT IT WILL HAPPEN THE SAME TO ME, HE PLAYS W MY MIND SAYING HES A DOCTOR AND ITS FOR THE SMOKE ADICCION THEN CHANGE THE VERSION LAUGHIN AT YOU TREATING YOU LIKE SHIT THAT THIS IS A POLICE TEST TO BECOME AN OFFICER SAYING DONT WORRY WE ALMOST DONE AND LAUGHING AT ME. IN THE MEAN TIME I WAS DEFENDING MYSELF FROM ALL THE SHIT HE SAID. THEN HE CHANGE AGAIN SAYING ITS A TEST TO BECOME ARMY SOLDIER AND MORE. THE THEMATIC : HE USE REALITY WITH LIES COMBINED. HE CAN ISSUE THE CERTIFICATE TO BE A POLICE BUT HE WILL REPLACE YOU (HUMAN TRAFFIC) FOR A SIMILAR PERSON AT HIS PREFERENCE . I AM SO USED TO THE BAD THINGS THAT IM SURE IM READY TO BE SENT OUT TO PROSTITUTION BECAUSE I WONT QUIT SMOKING SO THATS NOT AN OPTION AND AFTER MY SEPARATION AND WITH THE STALKER HARRSSEMENT I BECAME LESBIAN . HE STOLE AROUND 60.000 AS PER LAST MONTHS MATH, IF HE TOOK MY NYS BENEFITS HOUSING FUNDS AND OTHERS THEN MORE THAN 100.000 US DOLLARS FROM MY ACCOUNTS LIKE CITI 1065, BOFA 0864,0035. AFTER HE SENT ME TO A MENTAL HEALTH INSTITUTION FOR PSYCHIC HARRASEMENT FOR ABOUT A YEAR I CAME BACK TO NY AND STARTED WORK BUT HAD TO TAKE A BREAK AGAIN ON APRIL AFTER MY DAYS OFF DUE TO COVID19. SO I APPLIED FOR UNEMPLOYMENT FUNDS, SHORT TERMN DISABILITY BNEFITS AND HE BLOCKED ME AND STOP ME FROM GETTING THOSE FUNDS BECAUSE HE IS A ROFESIONAL HACKER AND SINCE ITS A TEAM THEY HAVE PPLENTY OF SKILLS. DEAD THREAT ME WITH MY MOM AND SISTER IN TAMPA FLORIDA I AM SCARED OF CRISTIAN AND HIS LAST NAME IS RELATED TO WILLIAM CURRY HIS UNCLE THEY SAID. HE CONTROL EVERYONE BECAUSE OF HIS PSYCHIC SKILLS AND THEY HAVE MOVE TO MANY CITIES BECAUSE THEY DO THID EVERY WHERER THEY GO. SIMILAR CASES AT EACH CITI. HE PLAYED ME 11 YRS COUNTIN THIS ONE , MAKING ME DO A LOT OF THINGS YEAR BY YEAR BECAUSE I WAS INNOCENT AND BEING MANIPULATED WITH LIES TELLING ME THAT YAKAIRA VALERIO WAS COMING TO GET ME BC SHE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME AS WELL. THAT HE KNEW I WAS GOING TO TELL HER I LIKE HER THE LAST DAY I SAW HER WICH IS TRUE THAT WAS ON MY MIND, SO FOR SOME REASON HE CAN READ MY MIND. EVERY YEAR HE USED TO TREAT ME LIKE SHIT TELLING ME OH NO YOU LOOSE SHE IS TAKING YORDY WITH HER BECAUSE YOUR DUMB, BECAUSE YOU SMOKE, BECAUSE SHE DONT LIKE WOMEN, BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO SLOW, AND MANY MORE DESILUSIONS, FRUSTRATIONS AND WEIRD FEELINGS CAME TO ME THAT THIS YEAR I TOLD HIM:

I AM GOING TO FOLLOW YOUR ORDERS LIKE " GO TO THIS HOTEL YAKAIRA IS THERE" OPEN THAT ROOM SHE IS WAITING FOR YOU" . I DONT BELIEVE ON A PSYCHIC VOICE OF COURSE NOT BUT THEN THIS FEMALE VERSION USED TO TELL ME AMBAR HELP , THEY SENT ME FOR PROSTITUTION, HELP ME THEY TOOK ME TO THIS STREET I THINK, HELP ME AMBAR.. SO SINCE THEY I AM HUMAN I FELT BAD FOR THE FEMALE VOICE WICH STATED IT WAS YAKAIRA SO I STARTED CALLING 911 BECAUSE WHAT IF SHE IS DETH AND CANT TALK AND ONLY COMUNICATE HERSELF PSYCHIC MENTAL SO THIS YEAR I TOLD HIM : I WILL DO IT FOR THE LAST TIME BUT TELL YAKAIRA SHE WONT PLAY WITH MY FEELINGS NO MORE. SOME OF THEM SAY SHE PASSED AWAY AND THEY EVEN TOOK ME TO THE PIER TO A "MEMORIAL " IN THE WATER (THATS WHY I INVOLVE COAST GUARD WEEKS AGO).

Ambar Lucia Dominguez Diaz

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I know it’s a bit confusing because since I am still going thru this situation I want to explain everything together and fast. That’s why I made this blog. To listen to your opinion and suggestions. I want you to know what will you do if this happens to you and or your mother/sister/friend or anyone you will help. Tag any person or institution you think will listen to me and will get their own opinion out of this situation. At this point I don’t need a group of therapy, I need a person who believes in me, someone willing to make the person pay me back what he took from my bank accounts and someone that help me get like a lawyer for me to get my US benefits that I deserve as a us citizen that paid taxes for more than 10 years and now and being temporary disable approved by sedgwick thru jetblue until sept is when I needed them the most specially after the stalker sent me to DR to a mental health institution for about a year without an income in my country I came back broke. The only way to get back on track counting on myself only its getting a shelter (wich he is making it impossible and it’s a free room basically first benefit) that way I don’t pay rent get a citi bike or metrocard from FAIRS ( another benefit from the city) getting food stamps SNAP ( 3rd benefit form the city that I deserve and I am not getting because of him) with this I can perfectly be mindfully in peace and will be ready to go back to work and maybe not normal activities right away because it was a lot of bullying and I am ashamed he bulled me a lot with a lot of things but at least working and living like a human like me that always put myself of others shoes deserve. I ve always been independent. I count on myself only. I don’t expect things from others I used to have this person I call an angel that used to pay everything for me without having sex. A lot of people judge about this matter but how obsessed can someone become without sex? Without a kiss with the thonge inside? Also 9 years ago I used to live in the heights and someone advise the guy I like girls and I admit it and this was when I use to live in hillside ave. How obsessed can someone that knew all this can be? Specially when months ago he told me it wasn’t cheating because girls don’t have dicks. Who is capable of making such a drama pretending to be this guy just to judge me and bother me? I am the type of person that don’t call no one. Sergio Tobar, my bamby, used to be my #1 and I barely called him. I get the news at home always and that’s when I say what I think to people. Unfortunately I am m super honest and I say straight up what I think and people don’t like this. I don’t care what others think about peoples appearance if I want to say hi to you because I think you are a good person I will call you even if “the group” doesn’t like it.

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ambarstorysblog · 2 years ago

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HOLA, MI NOBRE ES AMBAR LUCIA DOMINGUEZ DIAZ Y LES QUIERO CONTAR UNA HISTORIA ...

HE TOLD ME THIS HAPPENED TO YAKAIRA VALERIO FOR HER MISS BEHAVIORS AND THAT IT WILL HAPPEN THE SAME TO ME, HE PLAYS W MY MIND SAYING HES A DOCTOR AND ITS FOR THE SMOKE ADICCION THEN CHANGE THE VERSION LAUGHIN AT YOU TREATING YOU LIKE SHIT THAT THIS IS A POLICE TEST TO BECOME AN OFFICER SAYING DONT WORRY WE ALMOST DONE AND LAUGHING AT ME. IN THE MEAN TIME I WAS DEFENDING MYSELF FROM ALL THE SHIT HE SAID. THEN HE CHANGE AGAIN SAYING ITS A TEST TO BECOME ARMY SOLDIER AND MORE. THE THEMATIC : HE USE REALITY WITH LIES COMBINED. HE CAN ISSUE THE CERTIFICATE TO BE A POLICE BUT HE WILL REPLACE YOU (HUMAN TRAFFIC) FOR A SIMILAR PERSON AT HIS PREFERENCE .

I AM SO USED TO THE BAD THINGS THAT IM SURE IM READY TO BE SENT OUT TO PROSTITUTION BECAUSE I WONT QUIT SMOKING SO THATS NOT AN OPTION AND AFTER MY SEPARATION AND WITH THE STALKER HARRSSEMENT I BECAME LESBIAN . HE STOLE AROUND 60.000 AS PER LAST MONTHS MATH, IF HE TOOK MY NYS BENEFITS HOUSING FUNDS AND OTHERS THEN MORE THAN 100.000 US DOLLARS FROM MY ACCOUNTS LIKE CITI 1065, BOFA 0864,0035. AFTER HE SENT ME TO A MENTAL HEALTH INSTITUTION FOR PSYCHIC HARRASEMENT FOR ABOUT A YEAR I CAME BACK TO NY AND STARTED WORK BUT HAD TO TAKE A BREAK AGAIN ON APRIL AFTER MY DAYS OFF DUE TO COVID19. SO I APPLIED FOR UNEMPLOYMENT FUNDS, SHORT TERMN DISABILITY BNEFITS AND HE BLOCKED ME AND STOP ME FROM GETTING THOSE FUNDS BECAUSE HE IS A ROFESIONAL HACKER AND SINCE ITS A TEAM THEY HAVE PPLENTY OF SKILLS. DEAD THREAT ME WITH MY MOM AND SISTER IN TAMPA FLORIDA I AM SCARED OF CRISTIAN AND HIS LAST NAME IS RELATED TO WILLIAM CURRY HIS UNCLE THEY SAID. HE CONTROL EVERYONE BECAUSE OF HIS PSYCHIC SKILLS AND THEY HAVE MOVE TO MANY CITIES BECAUSE THEY DO THID EVERY WHERER THEY GO. SIMILAR CASES AT EACH CITI. HE PLAYED ME 11 YRS COUNTIN THIS ONE , MAKING ME DO A LOT OF THINGS YEAR BY YEAR BECAUSE I WAS INNOCENT AND BEING MANIPULATED WITH LIES TELLING ME THAT YAKAIRA VALERIO WAS COMING TO GET ME BC SHE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME AS WELL. THAT HE KNEW I WAS GOING TO TELL HER I LIKE HER THE LAST DAY I SAW HER WICH IS TRUE THAT WAS ON MY MIND, SO FOR SOME REASON HE CAN READ MY MIND. EVERY YEAR HE USED TO TREAT ME LIKE SHIT TELLING ME OH NO YOU LOOSE SHE IS TAKING YORDY WITH HER BECAUSE YOUR DUMB, BECAUSE YOU SMOKE, BECAUSE SHE DONT LIKE WOMEN, BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO SLOW, AND MANY MORE DESILUSIONS, FRUSTRATIONS AND WEIRD FEELINGS CAME TO ME THAT THIS YEAR I TOLD HIM:

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Hoy 09/03/2022 fue un dia horrible. Mi cellular se dano por culpa del maniatico bastarde acosador. La gente me dira “ Pero porque por culpa de el? “

Cuando hablamos de la reaccionn que toma un ser humano hacia para con otro tenemos que entender y analizar que esta reaccion se produce por una accion de la otra persona. En este caso Cuando llevo mas de 2 anos diciendole a mi familia que me hackean y empezo en el 7910 35th ave 6H que era mi casa y mi sospechosos son un grupito de el edificio principales Romero Cristian/ Juan , Daniel Ribeiro, YasiKov y el flaco de la mani , 5B. He ido al precinto, los ecuatorianos del gordito de la esquina y muchisimos que anexo a este blog seguire anadiendo. Entonces teniendo en cuenta de que estan abrumando Psiquicamente, ciberneticamente, fisicamente pero lo mas complicado y el delito mayor entre lo que me hicieron estas personas es limitar mis pensamientos, mi conducta, hacerme perder el tiempo, perjudicar seres queridos y otros no tan queridos entonces si analizamos todo junto ya hoy 09/02/2022 kiero que se muera sin remordimientos alguno o quisiera que me mate sin remordimiento. YO NO ME KIERO MORIR LITERAL QUE NO, pero como estoy cansada de el prefiero ahora meterme mas en la boca del lobo para ver si logro q me maten. Descubri SPA algunos con prostitucion otros no, descubri locales o apartamentos de personas muertas/ deportadas o en centro de salud mental (lo que quieren hacer conmigo ahorita les cuento mas ) que ellos utilizan para poner sus negocios, viviendas y demas cambiandole con el mismo software que mensione cuando empece este blog el nombre del muerto por el de ellos. En un CLICK ellos te hacen dueno de cualquier compania. ( Luego detallare datos de el software porque lo amenace diciendole que voy a asegurarme de comunicarme con los presidentes de todos los paises del mundo para avisar que este team quiere reemplazar el gobierno , osea es una amenaza para todas las empresas y las personas del mundo. El entra a CUALQUIER EMPRESA. En jetblue me robo un buddy pass y yo envie a un email a steele y 3 personas mas al lado de Indira Hutchins mi supervisora que me aconsejo a quien enviar dicho correo advirtiendole a la compania que tengo un stalker, hice reporte en la policia que el me aseguro que borraria del Sistema de ellos tambien ( AMENAZA PUBLICA) si era capaz de robar un buddy pass, era capaz de todo!! Despues se burlaba de mi diciendome que todos tenian apartamento ya con el dinero de ADA de cada persona o con la voz de algunos de mis companeros con su software de 16 pianos que hacen sonido o con mis companeros de verdad que algunos se que si estan involucrados por su mejoria drastica y extrema en corto tiempo lol .

El plan es como dije separate de los que te quieren pa que el y los suyos que no te quieren sean tu circulo. La estrategia es ser honesto y explicarles con la verdad, asi es la unica forma que he logrado un major trato en algunos de sus companeros.

Hoy en la farmacia elegi 3 articulos los cuales me cobraron 3 veces 1 redbull , 1 vez proteina, 1 vez leggings. Al y over que me cobraron extra por los redbull coji mis 3 items y le dije al tipo que me iba, que hiciera un void en el leggings por querer ser vivos y cobrar 3 veces, A MI, que tengo anos perdiendo mierdas viviendo esto. Entonces salir y cuando iba saliendo el Manager del CVS Steinway Astoria 11103 me golpeo para asi arrebatarme la bolsa y los articulos calleron al suelo y no me los entrego ni me devolvio a mi tarjeta los fondos. Llame la policia y aca tengo un video que quiero anexar a esto donde grabe la conversacion los con oficiales que no defendieron los derechos humanos en este caso , esto si el hacker acosador me deja porque desde que vio el blog, el borra pedazos de las cosas que digo para q no salga entera la historia. Con esto pido a gritos un llamado a los conocidos que sepan de hacker a ver si me ayyudan con este individuo por favor!!!!!!::

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MY NAME IS AMBAR LUCIA DOMINGUEZ DIAZ. Im a 32 Y/O FROM DOMINICAN REPUBLIC AND ITS GOING THRU HARRASEMENT, ASSAULT, BULLYING, LIES, BANK FRAUD, IDENTITY THEFT, MANIPULATION, PSYCHIC HARRASED , DISCRIMINATED, FALSED ACCUSED, ALMOST DESTROYED BY THIS GROUP OF INDIVIDUALS USING A SOFTWARE.

THIS TWO SOFTWARES, THE PIANOS WHERE U CAN MODIFY THE SOUNDS AND GLOBALSIGN THAT CHANGEsTHE INFORMATION from THE ORIGINAL AT THEIR CONVENIENCE. THEY HAVE RECLUTERS ( WHOEVER IS IN CHARGE OF GET TO KNOW YOU, BECOME YOUR FRIEND TO THAN STAB U FROM THER BACK) THAT BECOME YOUR CIRCLE OF FRIENDS, MANIPULATE YOUR PLEOPLE FOR YOU TO BE LEFT ALONE WITH ONLY PPL FROM THEIR TEAM SO AT THE END THEY SEND YOU TO JAIL, DEPORTED, MENTAL INSTITUTION, PROSTITUTION OR CEMENTERY AFTER THE CRIME.

I AM SO USED TO THE BAD THINGS THAT IM SURE IM READY TO BE SENT OUT TO PROSTITUTION BECAUSE I WONT QUIT SMOKING SO THATS NOT AN OPTION AND AFTER MY SEPARATION AND WITH THE STALKER HARRSSEMENT I BECAME LESBIAN . HE STOLE AROUND 60.000 AS PER LAST MONTHS MATH, IF HE TOOK MY NYS BENEFITS HOUSING FUNDS AND OTHERS THEN MORE THAN 100.000 US DOLLARS FROM MY ACCOUNTS LIKE CITI 1065, BOFA 0864,0035. AFTER HE SENT ME TO A MENTAL HEALTH INSTITUTION FOR PSYCHIC HARRASEMENT FOR ABOUT A YEAR I CAME BACK TO NY AND STARTED WORK BUT HAD TO TAKE A BREAK AGAIN ON APRIL AFTER MY DAYS OFF DUE TO COV0ID19. SO I APPLIED FOR UNEMPLOYMENT FUNDS, SHORT TERMN DISABILITY BNEFITS AND HE BLOCKED ME AND STOP ME FROM GETTING THOSE FUNDS BECAUSE HE IS A ROFESIONAL HACKER AND SINCE ITS A TEAM THEY HAVE PPLENTY OF SKILLS. DEAD THREAT ME WITH MY MOM AND SISTER IN TAMPA FLORIDA I AM SCARED OF CRISTIAN AND HIS LAST NAME IS RELATED TO WILLIAM CURRY HIS UNCLE THEY SAID. HE CONTROL EVERYONE BECAUSE OF HIS PSYCHIC SKILLS AND THEY HAVE MOVE TO MANY CITIES BECAUSE THEY DO THID EVERY WHERER THEY GO. SIMILAR CASES AT EACH CITI. HE PLAYED ME 11 YRS COUNTIN THIS ONE , MAKING ME DO A LOT OF THINGS YEAR BY YEAR BECAUSE I WAS INNOCENT AND BEING MANIPULATED WITH LIES TELLING ME THAT YAKAIRA VALERIO WAS COMING TO GET ME BC SHE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME AS WELL. THAT HE KNEW I WAS GOING TO TELL HER I LIKE HER THE LAST DAY I SAW HER WICH IS TRUE THAT WAS ON MY MIND, SO FOR SOME REASON HE CAN READ MY MIND. EVERY YEAR HE USED TO TREAT ME LIKE SHIT TELLING ME OH NO YOU LOOSE SHE IS TAKING YORDY WITH HER BECAUSE YOUR DUMB, BECAUSE YOU SMOKE, BECAUSE SHE DONT LIKE WOMEN, BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO SLOW, AND MANY MORE DESILUSIONS, FRUSTRATIONS AND WEIRD FEELINGS CAME TO ME THAT THIS YEAR I TOLD HIM:

I AM GOING TO FOLLOW YOUR ORDERS LIKE “ GO TO THIS HOTEL YAKAIRA IS THERE” OPEN THAT ROOM SHE IS WAITING FOR YOU" . I DONT BELIEVE ON A PSYCHIC VOICE OF COURSE NOT BUT THEN THIS FEMALE VERSION USED TO TELL ME AMBAR HELP , THEY SENT ME FOR PROSTITUTION, HELP ME THEY TOOK ME TO THIS STREET I THINK, HELP ME AMBAR.. SO SINCE THEY I AM HUMAN I FELT BAD FOR THE FEMALE VOICE WICH STATED IT WAS YAKAIRA SO I STARTED CALLING 911 BECAUSE WHAT IF SHE IS DETH AND CANT TALK AND ONLY COMUNICATE HERSELF PSYCHIC MENTAL SO THIS YEAR I TOLD HIM : I WILL DO IT FOR THE LAST TIME BUT TELL YAKAIRA SHE WONT PLAY WITH MY FEELINGS NO MORE. SOME OF THEM SAY SHE PASSED AWAY AND THEY EVEN TOOK ME TO THE PIER TO A “MEMORIAL ” IN THE WATER (THATS WHY I INVOLVE COAST GUARD WEEKS AGO).

THE GROUP TREATED ME LIKE SHIT FOR A LONG TIME. THREY USED TO TELL ME : ASCO KATHY , ASCO” ‘MIRATE LAS CELULITIS” ” TU TIENES EL TOTO DEFORME” “MIRATE, TU CREES QUE ASI MAGNOLIA TE VA A HACER CASO TAN GORDA?” WHEN I WAS EATING ATTACKING ME BY SAYING EMBARRASSING SITUATIONS IVE LIVED, ONE TIME I SAID ” DEJENME COMER COMER TRANQUILA PLS” “NO PODEMOS, QUERIDA NO QUIERE QUE TU COMAS TRANQUILA”. ELLA ERA CAPAZ DE SENTIR POR MI Y SI TENIA UN GAS DECIA” YAKAIRA AMBAR TIENE UN GAS” THATS ONE OF THE LIMITATIONS THAT HE PRODUCED ACTING LIKE THAT. AT NIGHT THEIR MISSION WAS TO NOT LET ME SLEEP BY TELLING ME THINGS TO MAKE MY HEART BEAT FASTER AND MAKE MY ADRENALINE GO UP TO KEEP ME AWAKE.

THIS WAS NONSTOP 24/7 EVEN IN DR FOR DURING ALMOST A YEAR I WAS THERE ON A MENTAL HEALTH INSTITUTION AS A CONSEQUENCE OF HIS TORTURE. THE FEMALE VOICE DIDNT HELP. SHE TELLS ME ( BECAUSE SHE STILL BOTHER ME) ” AMBAR YAKAIRA ESTA AFUERA, SAL” Y YO IBA Y SALIA, “AMBAR ABRE QUE LLEGO YAKAIRA”, “YAKAIRA DICE K PASE P[OR SU CASA Y ME DA UN ADDRESS”, ETC. WHEN HE CHANGE THE STORY AGAIN AND SAID QUE ERA UNA ”TORTURA CHINA ” THE NAME ACTUALLY MATCHES WITH REALITY. THEN THAT ITS A MENTAL ARMY TEST TO BECOME AN ARMY SOLDIER.

THE THEMATIC : HE USE REALITY WITH LIES COMBINED. HE CAN ISSUE THE CERTIFICATE TO BE A POLICE BUT HE WILL REPLACE YOU (HUMAN TRAFFIC) FOR A SIMILAR PERSON AT HIS PREFERENCE . I AM SO USED TO THE BAD THINGS THAT IM SURE IM READY TO BE SENT OUT TO PROSTITUTION OR A WAR BECAUSE I WONT QUIT SMOKING I HAVE MY RIGHTS AS A HUMAN SO THATS NOT AN OPTION PERIOD.

THIS INDIVIDUAL/GRP STOLE FROM MY ACCOUNTS CITI AND BOFA AROUND 60.000 (AS PER LAST MONTHS MATH). HE STOLE OR CANCELLED WITHOUT MY CONSENT MY NYS BENEFITS HOUSING FUNDS, SNAP, FAIRS, MEDICAID, ERAP AND OTHERS. ADDING THIS, IVE LOST MORE THAN 100,000$ USD. MOST IMPORTANT ACCOUNTS: CITI 1065, BOFA 0864, 0035 W KEVIN MY EX HUSBAND.

I TRIED TO REOCATE IN MIA BUT HE MADE THIS IMPOSSIBLE AND SENT ME TO A MENTAL HEALTH INSTITUTION FOR ALL THIS PSYCHIC HARRASEMENT FOR YEARS. THIS ITS SO HARD TO EXPLAIN THAT BECAUSE I SMOKE PEOPLE THINK ITS SCHIZOPHRENIA BUT 1. THATS NO 5-3 THE DEFINITION OF THE WORD AND 2. I HAVE PSYCHIC KIND OF FRIENDS ALREADY. ALMOST A YEAR LATER I CAME BACK TO NY AND STARTED WORK. I FELT A LIL BREAK FROM JAN-MARCH. MY ROUTINE WAS TAKING THE TRAIN FROM THE HEIGHTS TO JFK, FEEDING MY DOG, CLEANING MY ROOM, (ALL THIS WHILE SMOKING), PAINTING CANVAS, SINGING, SOMETIMES HANGING OUT AT THE PARK BUT SINCE HE NEVER STOPPED I GOT AGGRAVATED W TE ROUTINE PLUS THEIR PRESSURE SO I DECIDED TO TAKE A PAID VACAY ON APRIL AFTER MY DAYS OFF DUE TO COVID19. DURING THE BREAK TO BE ABLE TO SUPPORT MYSELF I APPLIED FOR UNEMPLOYMENT FUNDS AND SHORT TERM DISABILITY THAT I SUBMITTED THRU SEDGWICK BUT HE BLOCKED ME FROM SENDING PAPERWORK PUTTING MY JOB ON RISK. I WENT TO STAPLES TO SEND THEM BUT HE STOPPED ME FROM GETTING THOSE FUNDS BECAUSE HE IS A PROFESIONAL HACKER AND LIKE I SAID USING THE SOFTWARE HE MADE IT SEEM LIKE I SEND THE PAPERWORK TO THE OFFICIAL WEBSITE BUT NO SO I FAXED THEM AFTERWARDS. HE HAS A TEAM AND THEY COMBINED HAVE PLENTY OF SKILLS. HE DEAD THREAT ME WITH MY MOM AND SISTER IN TAMPA FLORIDA. I AM SCARED OF CRISTIAN SOMETIMES (THATS HOW THEY CALL HIM) , BUT HE IS A SMALL GRP OF EX NEIGHBORS THAT SOMEONE OUTSIDE THE BUILDING PAID THEM TO DO THIS FOR US (TATIANA AND I).

SINCE NOW HE ACTS LIKE IF HE IS A DOCTOR HE INCLUDED (FORCED BY THEIR ABILITY TO LISTEN THRU THEIR MINDS PSYCHIC WAY) FRIENDS, CO-WORKERS, FAMILY MEMBERS AND FRIENDS OF FRIENDS BY TELLING THEM ITS A TREATMENT FOR MY ADDICTION. ANOTHER GROUP CREATED BY HIM FROM MIA WITH THE PURPOSE THAT YOU CAN DO STUFF BUT NOT GETTING SKETCH. LLIS OFF,ICE EVERYONEFROMFR PIGH A DIFFERENT PURPOSE.

HE CONTROL EVERYONE BECAUSE OF HIS PSYCHIC SKILLS AND THEY HAVE MOVE TO MANY CITIES BECAUSE THEY DO THID EVERY WHERER THEY GO. SIMILAR CASES AT EACH CITI. HE PLAYED ME 11 YRS COUNTIN THIS ONE , MAKING ME DO A LOT OF THINGS YEAR BY YEAR BECAUSE I WAS INNOCENT AND BEING MANIPULATED WITH LIES TELLING ME THAT YAKAIRA VALERIO WAS COMING TO GET ME BC SHE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME AS WELL. THAT HE KNEW I WAS GOING TO TELL HER I LIKE HER THE LAST DAY I SAW HER WICH IS TRUE THAT WAS ON MY MIND, SO FOR SOME REASON HE CAN READ MY MIND. EVERY YEAR HE USED TO TREAT ME LIKE SHIT TELLING ME OH NO YOU LOOSE SHE IS TAKING YORDY WITH HER BECAUSE YOUR DUMB, BECAUSE YOU SMOKE, BECAUSE SHE DONT LIKE WOMEN, BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO SLOW, AND MANY MORE DESILUSIONS, FRUSTRATIONS AND WEIRD FEELINGS CAME TO ME THAT THIS YEAR I TOLD HIM:

I AM GOING TO FOLLOW YOUR ORDERS LIKE “ GO TO THIS HOTEL YAKAIRA IS THERE” OPEN THAT ROOM SHE IS WAITING FOR YOU” . I DONT BELIEVE ON A PSYCHIC VOICE OF COURSE NOT BUT THEN THIS FEMALE VERSION USED TO TELL ME AMBAR HELP , THEY SENT ME FOR PROSTITUTION, HELP ME THEY TOOK ME TO THIS STREET I THINK, HELP ME AMBAR.. SO SINCE THEY I AM HUMAN I FELT BAD FOR THE FEMALE VOICE WICH STATED IT WAS YAKAIRA SO I STARTED CALLING 911 BECAUSE WHAT IF SHE IS DETH AND CANT TALK AND ONLY COMUNICATE HERSELF PSYCHIC MENTAL SO THIS YEAR I TOLD HIM : I WILL DO IT FOR THE LAST TIME BUT TELL YAKAIRA SHE WONT PLAY WITH MY FEELINGS NO MORE. SOME OF THEM SAY SHE PASSED AWAY AND THEY EVEN TOOK ME TO THE PIER TO A “MEMORIAL ” IN THE WATER (THATS WHY I INVOLVE COAST GUARD WEEKS AGO).

DURING THE BREAK TO BE ABLE TO SUPPORT MYSELF I APPLIED FOR UNEMPLOYMENT FUNDS AND SHORT TERM DISABILITY THAT I SUBMITTED THRU SEDGWICK BUT HE BLOCKED ME FROM SENDING PAPERWORK PUTTING MY JOB ON RISK. I WENT TO STAPLES TO SEND THEM BUT HE STOPPED ME FROM GETTING THOSE FUNDS BECAUSE HE IS A PROFESIONAL HACKER AND LIKE I SAID USING THE SOFTWARE HE MADE IT SEEM LIKE I SEND THE PAPERWORK TO THE OFFICIAL WEBSITE BUT NO SO I FAXED THEM AFTERWARDS. HE HAS A TEAM AND THEY COMBINED HAVE PLENTY OF SKILLS. HE DEAD THREAT ME WITH MY MOM AND SISTER IN TAMPA FLORIDA. I AM SCARED OF CRISTIAN SOMETIMES (THATS HOW THEY CALL HIM) , BUT HE IS A SMALL GRP OF EX NEIGHBORS THAT SOMEONE OUTSIDE THE BUILDING PAID THEM TO DO THIS FOR US (TATIANA AND I). SINCE NOW HE ACTS LIKE IF HE IS A DOCTOR HE INCLUDED (FORCED BY THEIR ABILITY TO LISTEN THRU THEIR MINDS PSYCHIC WAY) FRIENDS, CO-WORKERS, FAMILY MEMBERS AND FRIENDS OF FRIENDS BY TELLING THEM ITS A TREATMENT FOR MY ADDICTION. ANOTHER GROUP CREATED BY HIM FROM MIA WITH THE PURPOSE THAT YOU CAN DO STUFF BUT NOT GETTING SKETCH. LLIS OFF,ICE EVERYONEFROMFR PIGH A DIFFERENT PURPOSE.

COMO MENSIONE ENTRE EL MAN Y SU GRUPO HAY UNO O MAS HACKER PROFESIONALES. ESTOS SON CAPACES DE BLOQUEARME PAGINAS, SUBIR Y BAJAR EL PRECIO DE ARTÍCULOS ( PRONTO SUBIRÉ FOTOS A ESTE BLOG DE COMO ME SALE A MI EN EMI CELL Y COMO LE SALE A OTRO EL MISMO ÍTEM) , ES CAPAZ DE TRANSFERIR MIS LLAMADAS, CAMBIAR PIIN, ÓSEA, SI ME ROBO UN BUDDY PASS DE JETBLUE HACE 4 ANOS O 3 , ES CAPAZ DE TODO. ENVIE UN EMAIL A STEEELE Y 3 PERSONAS MAS AL LADO DE MI SUPERVISORA INDIRA HUTCHINS LA CUAL ME AYUDO A ESCRIBIR EL EMAIL A LA EMPRESA PARA ADVERTIRLES QUE ESTE CYBER HACKER ME TENIA HARTA Y QUE TUVIERAN CUIDADO Y BIEN ALERTA PORQUE ERA CAPAZ DE TODO.

ME HA TOCADO CAMBIAR VARIAS VECES DE NUMERO , HASTA DE COMPANIA Y POR ENDE HE PERDIDO EMAILS Y INSTAGRAM Y ETC POR LO DEL CÓDIGO DE VERIFICACIÓN AL PERDER EL NUMERO PIERDO ACCESO A LA RED SOCIAL. ESTOY HACIENDO UN BLOG QUE ME GUSTARÍA COMPARTIRLO Y QUE COMENTEN…

ME SIENTO MEJOR QUE AYER. AYER ESTUVE SUPER DEPRESIVA. QUIERO UNA AMIGA CON CUAL COMPARTIR. ME SIENTO SOLA. HOY HABLE CON MI MEJOR AMIGA WENDY AQUINO PERO COMO VIVE EN RD Y ME ROBARON EL PASAPORTE NO PUEDO IR A VERLA.. ADEMAS QUE DESPUÉS DE HABERME ROBADO MI ID EL DIA QUE LLEGO ELCHEQUE DE JETLBUE A RITE AID DE DYCKMAN ( JUASTAMENTE CUANDO VOY A COBRAR EL CHEQUE QUE LLEGABA AHÍ DE FEDEX SE ROBAN AHÍ MISMO MI ID) … COINCIDENCIA SABIENDO QUE EL ACOSADOR ME PERSIGUE ???

ENTRE LOS DATOS QUE ME DA EL ACOSADOR ES QUE JESSICA MARIN ES MI CRISTIAN HACKER Y QUE TIENE MI DINERO QUE LE COBRE LOL. QUE SILVI ES LA JEFA DE LOS REPLACEMENTS DE PERSONAS (PA NO DECIR TRATA). QUE YAKAIRA VALERIO LA PRINCESA DE LA 187 Y SU FAMILIA HACEN LO MISMO CON LOS JUDIOS, QUE MI PRIMO FERNANDITO ES EL JEFE DE LA BANDA SALVADORENA CON EL DE YADI Y DOMINGO EL PAPA DE YAHAIRA, LIVA Y LUIS, QUE LAS PROSTIS NO HABLAN CON LOS DE GURABO Y NOS BLOQUEAN A TODOS, QUE TATI ME ODIA AUN, QUE MONICA Y SU GRUPO ESTAN PENDIENTE DE MI AL IGUAL QUE LA FAMILIA DE NATALIA PRIMERO DESCONFIABA DE MI Y LUEGO ME APOYAN, QUE MI YAKAIRA ES MI PSICOLOGA JUNTO CON JESSICA MARIN, QUE LIZ MIAMI ME HABLA TODO EL DIA Y LE ENCANTA HABLAR CONMIGO, QUE VIOLET Y JERAC HAN HECHO MILLONES DE COSAS POR MI, QUE TODOS ESTAN HARTOS DEL PSICOLOGO.. YO SOLO PIENSO SERA QUE ESTO ACABARA BIEN? O SERA Q ACABARA PARA MI PERO YAKAIRA SEGUIRA PRISIONERA? YO QUIERO ACABAR SU TORTURA PRIMERO O JUNTO CON LA MIA. AQUI EL HECHO ES QUE ESTE MAN TIENE ANOS JUGANDO CONMIGO ENTONCES LO DEL PSICOLOGO LO EMPEZO HACE POCO. CONFUSO..

OTRO DIA MAS, OTRA TORTURA MAS… DESPUES DE LAS VECES QUE ME HA AMENAZADO CON MI HERMANA Y MI MADRE DE MATARLAS SI YO NO HAGO LO QUE EL DICE EN EL MOMENTO. SU TEMATICA COMO QUE BAJO DE NIVEL PORQUE TIENE DIAS SIN AMENAZARME Y APARTE ES QUE SEGUN UNA DE LAS VOCES DEL INTRIGADOR PRINCIPAL QUE SE LLAMA EMY LOPEZ GUERRERO, ESTE ACOSO, LAS INTRIGAS, MANIPULACIONES Y DEMAS HA DEJADO VICTIMAS Y A LA VEZ CONSTRUIDO MONSTRUOS. AL HABER PASADO ANTERIORME UN GRUPO DE AMIGOS Y PERSONAS CERCANAS QUE SE ENCONTRABAN LAS SITUACIONES INJUSTAS DECIDIO UNIRSE PARA DISQUE HACER COSAS POSITIVAS O A FAVOR DE LA VICTIMA DEL MOMENO. YO OBVIAMENTE NO CREO ESO. HAN PASADO ANOS Y SOLO CON PALABRAS SIN HECHOS NO CREO NADA.

OTRO METODO QUE UTILIZARE PARA DESMENTIR EL ENGANO ES HABLAR CON LOS DUENOS DE LAS COMPANIAS, HOTELES QUE EL AFECTA ESTE MAN CON MI NOMBRE. POR EJEMPLO:

HOTEL CORONA: EL STALKER SE SALE CON LA SUYA AL ASIGNARME UNA ROOM DONDE EL SECADOR DE PELO NO FUNCIONE O LO DANA O ME LO ENTRA ASI.

VERIZON WIRELESS : EL CAMBIO A TMOBILE SIN MI AUTORIZATION Y YO TENIA DEUDA PENDIENTE CON ELLOS QUE QUISIERA ARREGLAR.

Hoy 09/03/2022 fue un dia horrible. Mi cellular se dano por culpa del maniatico bastarde acosador. La gente me dira “ Pero porque por culpa de el? “

Weekend feriado library closed. No habia podido escribirles los nuevos acontecimientos. Sigo buscando Home, estoy media triste y depre como todos los dias. Como les explico que soy sensible, si me gusta una chica mas sensible me pongo ante cualquier situacion y encima el detalle es que lo puro aqui, son mis sentimientos.. El acosador, hacker no para de molestarme. En marzo 2022 aplique para short termn disbility y fui aprovado hasta 09/05/22, envie unos documentos a la compania encargada y todo habia quedado bien como me gusta pero luego me entere que el hacker habia enviado a mi trabajo papeles llenos con datos erroneos para perjudicarme en el ambito laboral al igual que en mi vida personal.

00Empezo diciendo que era un juex de vida para darme una leccion!, despues los del edificio por el ruido, despues los amigos de jose porque nos burlabamos de el disque mis amigos y yo, despues mi milia, los de miami, los brasileros, las amigas de chayannelos coworkers, los del colegio, los de0 la uni, los amigos de marcelle, la clinica pignanelli, los de tallaj, , los fde shirley nj , Magda , yermys y los de DR, , las famosas de gary lol, los d0e emmy, los sobrinos de querida, los del taller, los de betances , las valerio, los londono, los cabrera-rivera, los gonzales y los lopez bencosme, la fam de shirley, bibiana cindy , joyce, zeo , las carol g que son como 4 jajaj..., wendy y su grupo, falan y su grupo, la fam de wendy, la f0am de falan osea anthony y sujey , jc y los de boston y providence Y UFF..

Hoy 09/03/2022 fue un dia horrible. Mi cellular se dano por culpa del maniatico bastarde acosador. La gente me dira “ Pero porque por culpa de el? “

Como les decia aye, asi empezo esta tortura. Culpando a culpando a millones de personas para disculparse y que dar bien el. Esto es un truma y como no lo conosco ni me interesa saber quienes son sus culpables ni lo que piensa. Ante mis ojos el problema mio es, el. Hoy quiero tener un dia medio productivo. ojala logre avanzar este blog.

Entre las cosas que dicedian antes era que mientras yo comia les preguntaba: cuadno se van a callart pa yo comer en paz? y me deciann querida no kiere q tu comas en paz.

La cancion para el junto con un Muerete!

WHy you so obssesed w me?

MOJITOS: DISCRIMINO PARA SERVICIO

#HUMANRIGHTS #HELP #DEFENDIENDOMESOLAHPT #YOPUEDOCONESTOYMAS #WARRIOR #QUEENOFLOVE #LAMALDITAPIPERA #TENGOQUEENCONTRARTE #JUSTICE #HELP

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ethercxls · 4 years ago

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( jordan fisher , cis man , he/him ) was that SHILOH RHODES taking the stairs ? the 27 year old VET TECH has lived in APT 3D for TWO YEARS. i heard they’re pretty BOYISH, but some say they’ve been CHARMING. they’re pretty well known for BOYISH CHARM THAT IS ANNOYING BUT LOVABLE & HEADPHONES IN WITH MUSIC SO LOUD YOU CAN IDENTIFY THE SONG. / / HONEY, SHE/HER, 26, CST

dork boy extreme, grew up in the city and is the son of a surgeon & a psychologist

growing up was weird, he wasn’t overly spoiled but he also was used to getting almost anything he asked for

he is the oldest of 4, he has 3 younger sisters

his parents wanted him to be a doctor but he loves animals & loves helping them

they don’t approve of his job, but they don’t hate him for it. they just made it clear that they won’t give him any type of allowance. they’ll help if he really needs it, he just wont be a trust fund baby

over all he’s a goof, friendly, flirty (hetero) & loves people

will pet all the dogs

loves music and very much needs to learn how to control his volume

slight revamp of previous shiloh

not as sleep around slooty, just flirty and stupid

it’s not that he doesn’t sleep around, he just doesn’t do it nearly as often and when he does it’s definitely casual

but he loves flirting, and he’s a sweet boy who wants to see people smile

he doesn’t date because it’s not something he’s ever seen for himself. he likes being single, and he likes living his life. he doesn’t think he needs a significant other.

this probably dates back to his parents who treat their relationship as more of a business transaction than anything else. they shower their children with love and understanding, but with each other they’ve never seemed overly loving.

he’s never seen his parents fight, he’s never seen his parents kiss.

so yeah. in terms of love i’m not sure how he’d find it or what would make him want it, but for women he sleeps with it’s probably someone he’s befriended who is an occasional with benefits person.

loves animals, and owns a husky mix named thor who will scream if you look at him bc he wants all the attention

#hqg.intros #shiloh

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wheezykat · 4 years ago

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WIP Game: please tell me about What You See?

Hi Tee! Thanks for the ask!

OOF. This is embarrassing 😂 - but this is (was?) my LCD entry that I decided not to self-prompt bc deadlines are terrifying. I still absolutely adore the idea I had, and literally completely outlined the entire thing and wrote a few scenes, but ya know, threshold apprehension. I already put so many hours into it, and like what I’ve done, so I’ll probably finish it at some point. It’s based on the film Those People. Which is absolutely fabulous, by the way!

It starts at the beginning with a prologue during 8th year, introducing you to Harry and Draco becoming friends as they’ve been forced to share a dorm (one of my fave tropes 😂). The friend group eventually blends together between the war survivors, focusing particularly on Harry, Draco, Hermione, Ginny, Pansy and Theo. Then we fast forward a few years, and the group is all living in the city, with Harry going to Uni for an MFA in magical painting. Draco is a typical pureblooded trust fund kid, living the high life and all that - but his family becomes embroiled in scandal yet again when Lucius is arrested and sent to Azkaban for financial fraud.

It’s a character study of sorts, which falls in line with the film’s plot nicely. Harry and Draco are best friends, and Harry is next-level pining over Draco (and he’s completely aware of it). It explores what it means to grow up, how to separate yourself from the past, the way you adapt to changing friendships and relationships, and in general, feels.

Snippet below the cut for you! <3

ask me something about my WIP folders!

Harry entered the penthouse, a slight smile across his face, blood buzzing beneath his skin. Humming under his breath and throwing his keys onto the kitchen counter, he replayed his afternoon spent with Tim. They had gone to the local park, lounging on a picnic blanket beside the large pond, soaking in the sunshine, shyly stealing kisses from each other between reproachful looks from strangers. So wrapped up in each other and their blooming happiness, he could hardly be bothered by it.

Frowning as he noticed the unusually quiet penthouse, Harry glanced around looking for Draco, a compass always searching for due North. He slowly meandered through the flat, first checking the study and the sitting rooms, eventually moving on from his usual haunts. Deciding to head up the spiral staircase towards the bedrooms, Harry saw a faint glow peeking out from beneath the door to his room. He hesitated just as he lifted a hand to the knob, listening carefully for any hint of sound, heart clenching, as it was wont to do when thinking about Draco, beautiful, ethereal Draco, tumbling in the sheets with yet another stranger.

Waiting just a moment longer before deciding the coast was clear, he rapped his knuckles lightly against the door before entering.

Draco was barely more than a misshapen lump in his bed, linens and pillows piled around him like armor, body wrapped up tight, just a hint of his tousled platinum peeking out.

“Hey,” Harry murmured softly, slowly making his way over, careful, so careful, as he always needed to be these days. Not daring to utter another word until Draco responded, gave him some sort of clue of what was upsetting him this time.

He watched the rise and fall of his back under the blankets, stopping just beyond the edge of the mattress, waiting with bated breath. Which Draco would he face tonight? The soft spoken, articulate, sensitive man he’d come to know over the years? Or the flighty, temperamental Draco, jumping to irrational conclusions, flinging scathing words like hexes?

“Why are you home? Don��t you have something better to do at Tim’s?”

Ah.

Harry nodded slightly to himself, sucking in a soft breath, biting his cheek to keep himself from lashing back. Draco clearly wanted a fight, was just in one of those moods. Harry promised himself that he just wouldn’t do it, wouldn’t give into the temptation to become defensive, to meet him with harsh words or angry jabs.

“He was playing tonight, down at that posh place off Clarendon.” Harry cleared his throat, head bowed. ”I thought we could hang out.”

Draco scoffed under his breath, barely discernible but for the silence that filled the room. He ducked down even further under his fortress, sighing heavily.

“Just go-” Draco sniffed, rubbing his cheek against the soft pillows, still refusing to look at him. “Please leave me alone, Harry.”

Feeling unbearably unsure, raw at the seams, tired of the extreme mood swings and tension between then, he almost does. But he knows Draco better than that, better than anyone.

Instead, toeing his trainers off, he cautiously crawled into the bed beside Draco. Settled onto his back, arms lax beside him, the room thick with unspoken words. Harry stared helplessly up at the ceiling, waiting.

Always waiting.

He didn’t know how long they laid there in the quiet, their soft breaths echoing, before Draco spoke again, whispering into the dim room hesitatingly, voice thin and shaky.

“Do you think I’m a bad person?”

Unsure where this is coming from, Harry sighed, pushing his glasses up and rubbing his palms against his face. He dropped his hands back to the bed, inches from Draco’s back, before responding.

“No.”

Draco sucked in a sharp, trembling breath.

“You hesitated,” he laughed self deprecatingly, ”Fuck… you hesitated.”

He sounded like he was on the edge, about to break into a thousand pieces, voice reedy and soft, and so timid. Harry’s not used to him, being like this. He feels a weariness set into his bones, a deep sadness spiraling in his heart, squeezing tight until he can barely breathe. It’s blistering, burning. It’s too much.

He rolled over, carefully, so carefully, tremulously raising a hand to hover over Draco’s back, just beyond his reach.

“No,” he whispered, sure of one thing- the only thing- he can say, “There was no hesitation, Draco.”

Harry shuffled closer to him, slowly, as if approaching a scared animal, until he was right up against him, his hitching breaths vibrating against his chest. Harry wrapped a hand around him, softly, unsure, as he tucked his chin over Draco’s shoulder, leaning into him. Relishing the closeness of him, the warmth against him. Hating that it doesn’t mean what he wants it to, that he’s only here because Draco is shattering, and needs him to pick up the pieces and put him back together again. Again, and again, and again.

His lips brushed against Draco’s neck, the only bit of skin he could reach, the only place that would be unquestioned, strands of silver tickling his nose with each breath.

“You’re the best person I know.”

#WIP folder asks #wips asks #ask and you shall receive #wheezykat answers #my writing #kat writes

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dazaiapologism · 4 years ago

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[spoilers for genshin 1.1 update] i keep trying to work out how it is that childe would have already known and had a thriving social connection with zhongli before the archon quest starts like. ok timeline:

childe arrives in liyue, makes friends with the local ‘disappearing dead people off the face of the earth’ business bc thats what fantasy mafia bitches do

zhongli finds out through wangsheng that childe is here and goes out of his way to make a connection

they just??? hang out a lot??? i think they just like eat their way through the entire city of liyue.

somehow childe broaches the completely hypothetical topic of deicide since that was his plan

zhongli peppers in the fact that if rex lapis WERE to die, he would probably be the one dealing with the funeral

childe deems zhongli a useful ally and spends stupid money on every stupid thing he wants to buy for literally no discernable reason

rex lapis Dies and all childe’s plans change

childe somehow concludes funding the rite of parting is worth it, even though he’s now banking on the qixing/adepti fight being his opportunity to steal the gnosis from the dead dragon

is it because funding the rite of parting means the qixing have to keep the body somewhere thus extending his window of opportunity?

how would the rite of parting even come up unless he was discussing it at length with zhongli throughout this time

seriously how did that conversation go like?

c: so what happens now that rex lapis is dead z: well at the very least, they should hold a funeral c: yeah but like what do you even do with a dead dragon god body like haha where would they even store it z: .... presumably they’ll keep it somewhere safe and out of the reach of the public. c: wont people want to like. inspect the body? do you have to autopsy a god? z: given the existing tension btwn qixing and adepti, we can probably expect some kind of conflict. I don’t think there will be any opportunity to get near the body except during the rite of parting. c: shit. ok uh. how do i get into that you guys do funerals right z: why do you want to go? hoping to pay one last respect to rex lapis? c: yeah im SUPER devout about the whole archon thing im so cut up about this so i have to see it with my own eyes. i have to physically be in the room. preferably with nobody watching me z: .......... it might interest you to know that i’ll be handling the rite of parting personally c: OH ok do you need help can i be involved can you let me a totally unsuspicious fantasy russian mafia guy be alone with the god corpse for like 10 seconds i’ll pay for whatever shit you need. z: .......................................... i appreciate the offer.

#genshin tag #genshin spoilers #childe is so fucking. how are you so dumb

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godrevy · 5 years ago

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funding offers come out this week apparently and im 90% sure i won’t get any (bc i dont rlly deserve it!!) and i wont take it to heart RE my ideas and project i just need some time to grow AND im sat at my kitchen table making a list of reading about cities and wandering and gender and im happy - i have the luxury of time and i just have to use it to go lateral again and let go of all of this stuff weighing me down

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whx-m · 6 years ago

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I'm curious about online shops. Got any general information / details that might go missed?

i am a dumb dumb that has inhaled too much information the past couple weeks trying to learn so take what i say w/ several grains of your preferred salts

this all goes for etsy/shopify/whatever you use for e-commerce. the levels of serious you take it and get into it i think depends on how far you want to take your online shop... or how much you make. google the hell out of your states sales tax laws and apply for a sales tax permit in your state before you sell a damn thing. ill go over the stuff i think really needs to be highlighted for anybody mulling over starting a legit shop, esp artists who want to make a living selling their stuff.

edit: HEY HIT “J” ON YOUR KEYBOARD IF YOU DONT GIVE A SHIT BC THIS IS REALLY LONG AND IM NOT SORRY BC I THINK I LEARNED EVEN MORE WRITING THIS SO THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT...

this will be how you feel when youre 2 hours into logo trademarking research

1. hm..

if you make, or plan to make, over $400 in sales, then most states consider this going beyond a hobby and being self-employed. so accept the fact you gotta pay a self-employment tax on your income.

also... gotta pay federal and state income taxes on your sales. even if your online shop is technically considered a hobby, not licensed as a business and you dont make over $400, still gotta report/pay income taxes on it. i know a lot of ppl dont take that seriously but it might bite you in the ass if you let it go on too long.

2. register sole proprietorship so i know its real

registering in your home state as a legit business entity is likely a solid route to go if you really plan on fleshing your shop out and building it up for the future. most artists starting an art shop or craft shop file a SOLE PROPRIETORSHIP type of business- meaning the business isnt a place or a group of owners, its just lil ole you. you file under your own name or a “Trade Name”/DBA (Doing Biz As) with your state. but beware, this trade name isnt trademarked or federally protected. and since you ARE your business, any tax trouble means the IRS is auditing you personally and holding you personally liable.

its relatively affordable to file, but take your bookkeeping seriously... be careful because the IRS eyeballs sole proprietorships’ reported taxes and expense deductions hardcore, since the lines between business and personal expenses get really blurry and sketchy. the more you need to save, the more you need to log as a deduction, and the more you deduct the more likely they’ll try to audit you and catch a mistake. so keep your books right and tight. [ 50 state guides for applying for sole proprietorship ]

that being said, IMMEDIATELY OPEN A BUSINESS ACCOUNT AT BANK/CREDIT UNION AND KEEP ALL BUSINESS RELATED PURCHASES/SALES ON THAT ACCOUNT and not your personal one!!!

3. bite the hand that takes your income away!!!

sole proprietorship means your business income = your income, aka “pass thru entity” where profit in your business passes thru and adds to your personal taxable income. it used to be that your business income was just taxed at the same rate as your personal income bracket and thats it. BUT LISTEN UP! NEW 2018 TAX LAWS ADDED A STANDARD 20% DEDUCTION TO TAXABLE INCOME FOR PASS-THRUS WITH LESS THAN $157,500 REPORTED INCOME. that's auto-subtracted along with your business expense deductions etc, before it’s taxed. what does that mean? it can knock your taxable income down: if you’re single and make $38,700 you get taxed $3.7k instead of $4.6k. If you make $82,500, you get taxed $14.5k instead of $18.1k. And thats not even accounting for other deductions before being taxed.

applying sooner than later for sole propriety/”pass through entity” can really help because of BUSINESS EXPENSE DEDUCTIONS. if you keep careful itemized records and your books clean, you can report tons of business related expenses and get your taxable income at the end of the year lowered. that new tablet, paints, software you bought on the business-only card? the gas you put in your car to get to your anime con, the hotel you stayed at? take it even further: shipping costs, wholesale costs, promo merch for advertising (stickers & swag) and even fees from hiring an accountant can usually be claimed. there’s a LOT that can be claimed.

dont skimp on the research because just logging and reporting expenses can make or break your shop. [heres another link] applying to be a business entity early means more of your start-up costs are logged and claimed as expenses.

and you know what happens at the end of the year when you report your income and claimed expenses? the expenses are subtracted from your total reported income, and youre taxed on whats left. so if you make $50,000 by the end of the year, but you spent $10,000 in approved business expenses, you’re only taxed for $40,000- but wait! 20% deduction= $8k, which drops your taxable income to $32,000. you just dropped from a 22% tax rate bracket to a 12% and you end up only paying $3,840 in taxes. that is only 7.6% tax on your 50k income!! and you could probably pay even less with all the other tax breaks you can score.

make sure you read up on the IRS website on this stuff too. look up youtube videos and stuff to make sense of anything that confuses you. and dont forget to crawl your state’s own websites and see if they have any tax breaks or incentives for start-ups, artists, etc!!and now the worst part. im so sorry.

4. the ugly seven-headed demon of sales tax and online shops....... stay with me plsthis is the biggest thing and becoming a super hot topic these days with states wanting to cash in on online sales to their residents

first things first: NEXUS. think of your sales tax nexus as the physical irl presence of your business, in a state-by-state basis. customers in states you hold nexus in? gotta charge them sales tax. customers from states you DO NOT hold nexus in? no sales tax for them! (for now... ill explain later)

you have nexus in your home state, obviously since you are your biz and you live there, so you’ll need to charge sales tax on anybody buying from you in your home state. BUT.... if you contract someone in another state to do design work for you, unfortunately that means you also have nexus or “presence” in their state, too. if you have a warehouse storing inventory in another state, yep, another nexus and another state wanting to cash in on sales tax. getting enamel pins made in yet another state and they drop-ship your orders for you on your business’s behalf? yeah, likely another state to report sales tax to.

collecting sales tax isnt a big problem- nearly every ecommerce site like etsy, shopify, bigcommerce and the like automatically configure sales tax in U.S. states you set up as a nexus for your shop. the problem comes around when you’ve got to apply for a sales tax permit in every nexus state, and then keep track of all the filing deadlines. every state is different. just four nexus states to report to means there are four permits to apply for, four reporting/filing schedules/deadlines to keep track of... and each state has different schedules, you could have two states requiring you to report annually and two states quarterly. it can be really hairy and a lot to keep track of if you’re not careful.try to keep your sales tax nexus in ONLY your home state, if at all possible. use manufacturers in your state to print/drop-ship orders.if theyre out of state, have them send the finished product back to you before you mail it off to customers, so you can avoid creating a new taxable nexus.

[ Sales Tax & Nexus Guide ]

still with me? this is the ugly part sorry:

the other big problem with having multiple nexus to report is how much sales tax varies- not just state by state but by city, town, county, even jurisdiction !

one state can have HUNDREDS of different sales tax rates to report, and you have to clearly report each individual one you collect sales tax in.

for instance, over a year you sell to multiple people in your nexus state-- in the same exact county, under the same sales tax ordinance. they live near a bunch of schools so their county has an added jurisdiction sales tax that goes toward education programs. the report you file has to clearly define how much tax $ you’ve collected from them so that state knows exactly how much is going back to that jurisdiction, so they can divvy it up for that sweet sweet education funding.

now imagine that multiplied across counties, cities, and then doubled with another entire state... and thats why keeping your nexus low is a huge deal for someone who’s running an online store solo.

thankfully, you probably wont have to input all that data yourself.

MAKE SURE you find a good website to settle into- that, at the very least, compiles this information for you to make it less of a headache to file in the right format, with the right info. there are upgrade auto-file options built into most ecommerce websites, so you dont even have to worry about it or think about missing a deadline... but that monthly fee might be too expensive to manage at first. that would be one of the FIRST things i’d do once i could swing it, to eliminate any chance of late fees, getting audited or having my sales tax permit suspended for that nexus state.

5. IMPORTANT!!: even if you make absolutely $0 dollars in sales from any nexus state, you STILL HAVE TO REPORT IT AND FILE BY THE DEADLINE. don’t get a $50 fee over literally nothing.

ANIME CON OR CRAFT CON ARTIST/VENDOR? BEWARE!

always research the convention’s home state/city sales tax regulations before registering (or blowing money making merch) for a con. it varies great and wide and has been changing a lot so always recheck before cons. some states supply simple time-limited permits, some states dont require sales tax at all for 2/3 day vendors, and some states will qualify a single physical sale as creating a permanent nexus. dont overlook that stuff or you’ll regret it when you get home to do business as usual with your shop and you have to start charging/reporting sales tax for every customer from that state!!

6. but wait ore.. you said something ominous about no sales tax for non-nexus states...... “for now”..?

yeeahhh... there’s a big national reform going on currently and it boils down to: Jeff Bezos ruined ecommerce for everybody. fuck you greedy bastard!!

a slew of states are jumping on a bandwagon to snipe up more sales taxes and create “Economic Nexus Laws”. this may not really apply to you at the start of your shop, but its something you need to be aware of for future ref.

basically states are passing laws that say, “If you make more than $XXXX or do more than XXX transactions selling to people here, that creates a state nexus and you need to get a sales tax permit with us.” which, is not ideal. the good thing is, most sales thresholds in these states are between $10k - $500k, so its not a problem you’ll face right off the bat. transaction numbers might be the one to watch out for, though. once you hit a few hundred transactions in a state it might create a nexus and you’ll have to start charging sales tax.

the problem is this: 1) every participating state has different thresholds, rules, and sometimes tax deductible/exempt items. thats a lot of fine print to go thru and toggling options on your shop, and a LOT of sales tax bookkeeping, filing, reporting, managing. 2) some ecommerce sales tax plugins and clients havent caught up yet to be compliant and convenient for online sellers, its a big job to program and categorize all these variables. when choosing your website host, be sure to vet their built in sales tax clients and see that they’re updating and streamlining capabilities ASAP. it may not be a concern now, but you wouldnt want your shop to boom and have to shut down, lose money and switch hosts to be eco-nex sales tax compliant.3) for successful solo start-up shops, this almost makes it impossible to file your own sales taxes once you pass those thresholds. this is like 30 states! youd spend so much time doing paperwork, its just not feasible. there will be a rising cost of economic nexus management and auto-filing services that you just cant run your business online without.

[ Everything You Need to Know Abt this Shit ] ( ^ full list of state regulations and updated with new developments so bookmark this page)

tl;dr: online shops are complicated, research literally every term you dont know and look up youtube videos on everything you suck at. if youre still motivated after being depleted of brain power, then go the fuck for it and all the Moon Crystal Power Make Up to you

#online shop #sales tax #eco nexus law #etsy #shopify #ecommerce #im sure this is all absolutely bad advice #but i am sleep deprived and YOU ASKED #added some spicy stock photos to break up text wall #Anonymous #ore answers

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Hoy 09/03/2022 fue un dia horrible. Mi cellular se dano por culpa del maniatico bastarde acosador. La gente me dira “ Pero porque por culpa de el? “

#serial harassment #911 #NYPD

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@stormshot-prime

Since stormshot asked me to list the lies from the Establishment now demanding we obey and believe them THIS time, “lol” I’ll just rattle off a few, right off the top of my head bc I don’t want to waste too much time on someone who seems to be willfully blind, but challenge accepted. * The WHO lied to us about Covid when it was still mostly in china, in a way that economically benefitted China * The media and Left told us Tom Cotton was racist for talking about the dangers of Covid * The media and Left told us Trump was racist for talking about the dangers of Covid and trying to close the borders * The Left made a point of telling people in cities to go out and party, just to show the orange man what for, because of his racist covid fears * The Left and Establishment flip as soon as they realize Covid was a thing, and now Trump bad for not doing enough, while they had spent all their time hindering him. * Fauci tells people that masks wont be neccessary, that young people should go on cruises-->Fauci tells people masks are neccessary-->Fauci tells people to wear TWO masks * 14 days to flatten the curve * It’s racist and a conspiracy theory to suggest that Covid came from the wuhan lab and not the wet market across the street from it, ignore the scientists that point to it showing signs of human manipulation (but “trust the science”), ignore the fact that the closest genetic covid relative is 2000 miles away, say bats aren’t used in the lab (they are, shown in China’s own promotional videos from years before), deny that the US has any involvement (Fauci’s name literally on the check written to fund the lab), insist no gain of function is being performed in the lab (it was and is based on their own documentation) *Trump rallies are super spreaders, while BLM riots “reduce the spread of Covid” *Fauci says herd immunity is achieved when 65% of people are immunized....70%...75%....80%.... * The number 1 source of all Covid deaths due to 5 Dem governors mandating that sick people be placed in nursing homes, where the most vulnerable people lived. Then deny it and cover it up. * The Elites demanding we all follow these rules while publicly flaunting the fact that they dont have to * Talking about how the anti-malarial drug, available for 25 cents a pill, wasn’t a viable treatment/pallative for Covid (after a french study showed that it was, and further testing has confirmed this), and blocked an executive order from Trump to make it available to everyone, in order to release a $13k/treatment with no reduction of death or hospital time, 3 weeks later. * Artificially inflating Covid death counts by first lumping together all influenza, covid and pneumonia deaths in their counts (you can look it up, I did, they had their own acronym that literally stood for this.) then lumping together all deaths for everyone who died and who was believed to have covid under rather unscientific and iffy qualifications, even if they died from cancer, heart failure, poisoning, suicide, accidental injury, homocide, suicide, etc (literally google CDC comorbidity table and check their own website where they admit only 4% of the total deaths can be attributed to Covid alone) I could go on, but that’s the fast and dirty things that I can call to mind off the top of my head. I’ll probably think of more as soon as I post this. But yes. Call me skeptical for looking at 19 months of constant, continual lying about every aspect of this disease, and deciding to doubt them now. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Fool me 50 times, and that’s a sign that I’m a braindead idiot. But sure, call me a “conspiracy theorist” and an “anti-vaxxer.” Go ahead, drink the kool-aid, I’m sure you’re perfectly safe by believing the lying overlords. They wouldn’t lie to you THIS time....

funny how this pandemic is literally never going to end bc the people who keep complaining about the pandemic keep engaging in activities that prolong the pandemic

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DAMN WEL THANK U OMG this is going under a read more after some bc damn this is a lot i love u thank u

1. the meaning behind my url

2d! stuart pot! 2 dents in his wee head!

2. a picture of me

the face behind the mask of tons of pics of 2d and noodle

3. how many tattoos i have and what they are:

none :( my parents wont help me pay for college if i get any facial piercings or tattoos, so i’m being patient. i’ve got a jar full of coins that i’ll some day exchange for money and use that for tattoo funds!

4. last time i cried and why

yesterday night after telling my dad i can’t come up with the money in time to pay my medical bill lol

5. piercings i have

just my ears i’m so boring lol

6. favorite band

i really like the band SALES, they are very calming. but i also like gorillaz (obviously), lullatone, K.I.D, best coast, the smiths, and the velvet underground

7. biggest turn offs

shoes???? this sounds stupid and idk why i do this but i dislike wearing tennis shoes on the daily. on a lighter and more understandable note i dislike people who are full of themselves even in the slightest? confidence is like really important and is completely different that conceitedness.

8. top 5 (insert subject)

i’m doing gorillaz songs bc why not.

faust

slow country

out of body

el manana

on melancholy hill

9. tattoos i want

already answered!

10. biggest turn ons

LEGS. like nice legs. idk what kind they are (short, skinny, plumpy, long) they are just GOOD u know u look at them and ur like GOOD. they are just aesthetically pleasing sometimes i guess more of like nice for the eye than a turn on. i like choking. ngl.

11. age

i’m 19, 20 in february next year!

12. ideas for a perfect date

planning one now actually! in october i have my one year with my boyfriend so we’re going to rent a hotel in chicago and go around the city for shopping, museums, and plays!

13. life goal

already answered!

14. piercings i want

MY SEPTUM

15. relationship status

dating a really weird hippie kinda dude named jacob lol

16. favorite movie

already answered!

17. a fact about my life

i weirdly own a lot of things with stitch from lilo and stitch on them and gudetama. i told my aunt when i was like 5 that i liked stitch and for some reason in japan there is a lot of stitch stuff like notepads and water bottles. same with gudetama. she just won’t stop sending them.

18. phobia

already answered!

19. middle name

maura. lol. my mom is mad all her kids have middle names bc japanese people don’t have them

20. height

5 foot 2. i’m sadly kinda short.

21. are you a virgin?

nope

22. what’s your shoe size?

women’s size 5!

23. what’s your sexual orientation?

already answered!

24. do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

occasionally drink beers with just my dad, not too much of a party drinker

25. someone you miss

my sorta grandma in japan who passed away recently. my real grandma died before i was born so this lady is my mom’s sister’s husband’s mom but she lived with my aunt so i saw her a lot. she like to make lots and lots of crafts and give them to me!

26. what’s one thing you regret?

spending so much money before i found out i had to pay a 400 dollar medical bill lol

27. first celebrity you think of when someone says attractive

already answered!

28. favorite ice cream?

already answered!

29. one insecurity

my thighs :(

30. what my last text message says

“then stop textin bihhh!!!” to my sister when she said “stop distracting me”

31. have you ever taken a picture naked?

no, but someone has taken a picture of me naked lol

32. have you ever pained your room?

not myself no :(

33. have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

yes!

34. have you ever slept naked?

only after sex so like, napping

35. have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

all the time omg all the time

36. have you ever had a crush?

duh? i am dating boy

37. have you ever been dumped?

like once or twice, i doubt three times.

38. have you ever stole money from a friend?

i think accidentally once? she left 20 in my car and i thought it was mine but i’m pretty sure thinking back on it it was hers but i hate her now so yeah that 20 got spent on a good trip to the cinema

39. have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?

too many times this month to count

40. have you ever been in a fist fight?

thank god no. i would lose so fast

41. have you ever snuck out of your house?

surprisingly no? my parents never ask where i’m going and never really have all my life. i would walk to taco bell in middle school at like three in the morning at times and in the morning they would be like “oi how was the quesadilla”

42. have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

now what kind of person would i be if i went through 13 years of general schooling and didn’t have an unrequited love?

43. have you ever been arrested?

nope! never plan to be lol

44. have you ever made out with a stranger?

NOPE NEVER WANT TO

45. have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

this is a vague question that i feel is meant to be like shocking. yeah, i met up with me boyfriend at subway earlier does that answer the question

46. have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

like. every single day lol they don’t seem to care

47. have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

nah all my neighbors are antisocial

48. have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

in senior year i left school in the first hour to drive to canada and drink the day away with friends

49. have you ever slept in the same back with a member of the same sex?

another question that’s meant to be shocking. i slept in my sisters bed last night

50. have you ever seen someone die?

no but does a cat count

51. have you ever been on a plane?

too many times

52. have you ever kissed a picture?

i swear i have but i can’t recall of when or of what

53. have you ever slept until 3?

yeah, even 5

54. do you love someone or miss someone right now?

my boyfriend i suppose? i’m used to technically living together and sleeping in the same bed every night so yeah i miss him right now

55. have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

it’s a game called “find the dick in the sky”

56. have you ever made a snow angel?

when i was really young i only remember bc we have pictures

57. have you ever played dress up?

i was a tom boy when i was younger so no

58. have you ever cheated while playing a game

THIS MAKES ME FEEL GUILTY WHO HASNT

59. have you ever been lonely?

what kind of question is this of course i have felt a basic human emotion

60. have you ever fall asleep at school/work?

only at school never at work

61. have you ever been to a club?

no, i don’t really party

62. have you ever felt an earthquake?

yeah, living in japan makes you like never worry about them lol

63. have you ever touched a snake?

get that away from me its cute to look at but no way

64. have you ever run a read light?

only by accident

65. have you ever been suspended from school?

almost once but no

66. have you ever had detention?

saturday detention for dress code once

67. have you ever been in a car accident?

only when others are driving

68. have you ever hated the way you look?

all the time?

69. have you ever witnessed a crime?

i used to sit on the arm of my dad’s computer chair while he used to burn dvds we rented

70. have you ever pole danced?

ONCE there was one in my friends apartment and i gave it a whirl i love it

71. have you ever been lost?

my sister hates relying on technology so once it took us an hour and a half to get home from something that was only 20 minutes away

72. have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

yep! went to nevada and arizona once.

73. have you ever felt like dying?

can we not lol but yeah

74. have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

what teenage girl doesn’t

75. have you ever sang karaoke?

its a big thing in japan so definitely!

76. have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldnt?

duhhhhh one of those things was to never have sex

77. have you ever laughed until something came out of your nose?

yeah its uncomfortable dont do it

78. have you ever slept with someone 5 years older or younger?

no no no no ew

79. have you ever kissed in the rain?

yeah! not too special there are better places to kiss.

80. have you ever sang in the shower?

i used to a lot, never anymore

81. have you ever made out in a park?

no :(

82. have you ever dreamed you married someone?

ugh i hate those dreams so much

83. have you ever glued your hand to something?

yes :(

84. have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flagpole?

nope! that’s gross!

85. have you ever gone to school partially naked?

is this a crack at dress code lmao

86. have you ever been a cheerleader?

nope and im ok with it

87. have you ever sat on a rooftop?

when i was little my pal let us climb on her roof and was like “i do it all the time”!!1 and then someone called the cops on us

88. have you ever brush your teeth?

what

89. have you ever been too scared to watch a scary movie alone?

every single one? i am a wuss

90. have you ever played chicken?

YEAH THAT WAS MY CHILDHOOD

91. have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

no and good because that means people are considerate about your phone being on you lol

92. have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?

one time outside a mac demarco concert a pimp would actually not leave me alone and kept asking me to become one of his girls so i guess so? his name was papa schoolboy and he made me take pictures with him on my phone

93. have you ever broken a bone?

NO AND I NEVER WANT TO

94. have you ever been easily amused?

… all the time?

95. have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

yes

96. have you ever mooned/flashed someone?

only my friends mom because she flashed me

97. have you ever cheated on at test?

in high school yes

98. have you ever forgotten someone’s name?

okay who doesnt wtf

99. have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?

mac demarco

100. give us one thing about you no one knows

but if i give it someone knows

#ask #about me

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420710ge-blog · 7 years ago

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my first entry

all of these entries will be more or less stream of consciousness

Im watching queer eye. SO I felt like writing a blog and starting a blog bc im emotional and severely depressed. ( if the fab 5 could re vamp me and my life omg)

I'm trying to grasp this concept that i am 28 years old

and i STILL have no idea who the fuck I am or what the fuck am i gonna do.

what i do know is I am a single. I am straight-ish haha (no one is straight these days eff lables and gender norms) I live in a basement. The neighborhood I live in isnt the best in my opinion for me. I know I enjoy cities and hustle and bustle and noise. this area is not where i want to spend a long period of time in. I have my drivers license but dont have a car. I'm on a fixed income. I am very very poor. I've been struggling with money my whole life. My mother was struggling with money and work my whole childhood ive come to learn. i feel like my mom maybe didn't give me all the right tools i needed to make it in this world.

I'm not a good cook, but i enjoy cooking and wish I was good. I eat very unhealthy. I dont know how to shop for groceries or clothes. i eat fast food,microwaves meals and snacks, cheese and crackers, cereal, deli sandwhiches, pb & j, fruit snacks, ice tea, juice and water. (thats basically it unless i go out to eat which is bad bc i have no money for it.)

i cannot grasp the concept of money i dont know how to budget or balance a check book or keep track of spending. i need to put money a side and save and i just cant seem to do it. The money is always being used. i feel like im always in debt or owing money that i never get in front of this wave to start earning actual income every dollar i make is always spoken for and the $1 to 80 dollars that i actually get left over is for cleaning supplies hair products medication condoms tampons pads basically things i need. and im honest in saying i do spend money on food and great craft beer bc its my way of treating myself for actually making a payment or actually getting out of bed, for going hungry for a few days or for having a good mental health day.

My hobbies include filling out job applications, fighting with doctors and secretaries, bill collectors debt collect companies and creditors, watching youtube videos, vloggers and youtubers on my phone and my freinds old old laptop the basement has pretty difficult internet connection and it is freezing cold but other than that its nice it works its a place to sleep and shelter, other hobbies are watching movies and tv, and lastly SLEEP. i sleep 10-14 hours most days or i go 2 days without sleep. i am always over sleeping or i just cant turn my brain and stress and anxiety off just to shut my eyes and sleep. I almost never talk with friends or see other people or go out and hang with friends. the only times i do go out is if someone offers to pay for me or otherwise i cant.

i am addicted to social media. i cant go for more than 15 seconds without checking instrgram or snap chat or youtube or facebook. i can easily spend 11 hours going back and forth between those 4 sites. it is very bad for my mental health and its stunted my success bc i cant help but compare myself. and its vicious negative cycle that i cant seem to break.

i have to walk or use uber or lyft or public transit to get around which gets very expensive over time. walking and being out waiting for the bus or train is very triggering for my mental health. People who are fortunate to have the luxury to own or lease a car please realize the people who cannot afford a car or cannot drive for whatever reason are not second class citizens. People and humans are very nasty and rude and more terrible than youd imagine. having to walk everywhere and be in with the public as much as i have turns you into a cynical abrasive aggresive hateful and rageful person. for example a few weeks ago a car turned on the street that i was walking on and the walk sign was lit and he had a yellow switching to a red, her turned quickly to beat the light that he didnt see me or the walk sign and was inches away from me so i ran after his car and punched the shit out of the passenger window. i spazed out like that bc i had a week of walking in the freezing cold (and living in a super cold place) being rained on and splashed by the puddles being ran thru by cars, teenagers on busses making fun of me throwing things at me, people in cars yelling shit at me and the others standing at a bus bc we dont have a car and we have to wait in the cold assuming that we were all bums or homeless.

I am not happy or passionate about things i use to be obsessed with. I grew up loving comedy. stand up sketch improv.

i use to perform. i would go see it all the time it meant the world to me it is what i wanted t0 do with my life.

but now I dont and i think its was stupid. and a waste of time. same with college it was a waste of time and money to get a degree in something i have no passion about anymore. and a degree in something in which there are no jobs for you.it was terrible decision i made. one of the billions of terrible decisions i ahve made in my life

I have zero self confidence and i barely care what my appearance looks like anymore. i glance in mirrors but never really look at myself. I dont look people in the eyes anymore. I think so hard about what i am saying for i say that it comes out more often that not weird or incorrect bc i am so worried about what others are thinking about me so then that leads to me getting made fun of for how i talk or how i say things. I am always the butt of my friends jokes im always being poked fun at or pranked or messed with.

I dress like 15 year old skate kid. i have nothing that is appropriate for like an office or an audition or job interview or business meeting or family event or a formal event or cocktail party. i dont know how to dress for my age or for my gender.

I am super lazy and messy but i have been working on it.

i use cannabis recreationally not everyday but definitely multiple times a week. when i can afford it. it helps clear my head and use the same way a person uses a nice glass of wine at the end of a long day. i dont think its wrong or inhibiting me as a person. sometimes it even helps with motivation and helps get me out of a depressive funk.

I am severely depressed and have an anxiety disorder.

I over think about everything. i make plans and lists for every scenario that i am going to encounter on a daily basis its almost obsessive. my train of thought before entering a conversation with anyone is “do not say anything weird dont look at them for to long, dont fidget, omg what are they thining about when they are looking at me, am i ugly and i coming off as weird or immature or nervous.”

I lost alot of very important people in my life bc of death or from people and friends and family just cutting me off and people to live the rest of their lives without me. it makes me judge and hate everyone.

I am constantly worried that i am gonna become homeless live on the streets and become a junkie. I actually think about this so so so much. i actually shocked from what i have been thru that i havent become a junkie yet.

I dont want what most white women in their late twenties want and crave. i dont relate or most girls in my age range. its hard for me to find things in common with my peers.

I dont want to buy or own a house. renting forever is fine by me

I do want to buy and own a car preferably a truck but a small suv could work too.

I dont want a family. I dont want children my own or adoptive. I dont want to live in the suburbs or in a neighborhood with tons or old people and families.

i dont want marriage i think its problematic and dumb thing to subject yourself to.

i enjoy soccer and skateboarding and true crime movies and tv shows and horror movies and tv shows.i like some funny things but its selective. i love the sims.

i want to try out living in other states in the us and maybe even try living in the uk.

if i was rich i would want 2 small apartments in central city locations on both coasts of the us one on one and one on the other. and ill use my money to travel. i am craving to travel so badly its all i have been thinking about lately. but again no funds

i want to meet someone who just totally sweeps me off my feet. somone who knows how to be a real man and real boyfriend im tired iof these boys i need a guy who calls me out on my bs, gives constructive criticism, incredibly supportive and KIND. i want our respectfulness to be at an 100%. i want to feel worshipped and adored. i want them to be succesful and be able to bring me up and boost me forward. great listener. not sleepy or annoyed very easily. insane dark weird goofy sense of humor. id love them to be outgoing and be able to command a room and be comfortable around people new and old. great sex and adventures. currently im giving my ex a chance and its prolly a terrible idea.

i want a makeover i want to learn how to dress myself correctly and figure what my style is, make money and keep money, how to cook, how to skateboard, how to surf, how to take care of my skin and my hair. I want to learn how to work out where i wont make my current ailments and injuries and medical issues flare up and put me out of business for few days. id like to have toned arms back shoulders and legs and to not be winded dont everyday tasks.

if i had to make a dream cocktail. and the final result would be the new me i would throw in the blender: confidence of a drag queen, the wit and sharp tongue of joan rivers, the comedic timing of sean hayes, riley reids sex skills, the intelligence and maturity of michelle obama, pinks hair and singing skills, kat dennings body and dgaf attitude. that would be the perfect me in my eyes.

I want to make everyone proud of me. and I want to be proud of myself.

idk what this was but its on the internet

-GE

#selfhelp #depression #anxiety #stress #comparing #addiction #social media #i wanna get better

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