#bc she guilt trips me and uses the ‘grandma wouldn’t want the family to fall apart’ thing

[psychoticwillgraham]

had a rlly bad breakdown (wasn’t the huge one yet) bc im frustrated with my current life situation (the mom shit and her forcing me to skip friday night magic tonight to go to the store with her even tho she’s perfectly capable of doing it herself and she KNOWS that this is the only day of the week that I can be away from her) and was thinking about how desperately I wish that grandma was still here so she could comfort me and lie and say that everything will be alright, but I’d believe her bc it’s her telling me.

like SOBBING sobbing, im talkin the whole nine yards: massive headache, face (and part of my neck) red and blotchy from crying, snot all over my face, body shaking from crying, and sounding like a wounded animal with my sobs.

in comparison to my two previous breakdowns since her death, this one was minuscule in severity. I’m still waiting for the MASSIVE massive breakdown that’ll probably get the cops called on me. listening to Atlantic by Sleep Token while having said breakdown certainly didn’t help tho.