#bc rn things are not going great in the fic 😆😆 i am on the verge of imploding

[allfortzu]

i started reading "stumbling through the dark" on ao3 and just caught up oml 😭😭😭 I love fics with more than 100k words thank you so much 🫂

[imaginespazzi]

Nivi… how do you write angst so well? Like is your life really angsty?? LMAO

The angst in chap 11 was so good, and now THIS as well?? I am usually one for angst, but holy shit, I felt my heart strings tug BAD and now I need fluff for next chap… you got me feeling like how P+A were feeling during their chat on the couch and P not willing to say she was gonna stay LOL

I can’t imagine seeing your ex/love of your life in basically a movie scene with rain falling and interacting with someone the same way they used to interact with you. The touches, the smile, the gaze?? Like that’s SOOO cruel, and I felt soooo bad for Azzi 😭 and the fact that Paige doesn’t know that Azzi came back and wanted to confess her love?? Please tell me Paige eventually finds out? Did Ice tell her? Will Azzi tell her??

Azzi getting knocked up bc she saw Paige with someone is soooo 25 year old quarter life crisis vibes LOL. And Azzi wanting to keep the baby bc she felt LONELY, drastic times calls for drastic measures right?? But we love Stephie so I’m glad Azzi was down horrendously bad I suppose 😆

Also, is Stephie allergic to any type of nuts? Since Tristian was lol. Was Tristian tall and athletic?? Gotta know if Stephie is gonna have the good basketball genes from her sperm donor as well LOL

Stephie just wanting Paige to say that she would stay, and Paige couldn’t promise that 😭 and then Azzi asking for the same thing, and Paige doubling down again and not being able to say that she’d stay 😭😭 I honestly wonder how P+A are gonna work this out. Like there’s just so much history and distrust there. I wonder what Azzi is gonna do for Paige to fully trust her again? It’s interesting that Azzi isn’t worried about Paige leaving at all and just wants her to stay, meanwhile, Paige is ONLY worried about Azzi leaving… they’re literally on the opposite ends of that stay/leave spectrum rn lol. But ig it’s bc Azzi left Paige and not the other way around. I’d still be hesitant tho if I was Azzi bc Paige literally has a foot out the door… what if Paige says she’s going to stay but then she actually ends up leaving Azzi this time? (But that won’t happen bc you love us Nivi and will write a happy ending 😁)

I’m excited to see how the next chapter will be!! I’m usually all for the angst, but man, we need some fluff to recover from these last 2 chaps 😩😩😩. Need P+A to talk and communicate more. You guys both want forever!! Azzi is ready for that now, but Paige isn’t?! Oh how the tables have turned compared to the dreaded night when Azzi said no.

Thanks for the spectacular writing Nivi! I always look forward to this fic and I fr squeal when I see that it’s been updated 😆 also can I claim an emoji? Let me join the emoji bookclub gang hahaha. Is the 🥹🥹🥹 emoji taken yet?? Bc that emoji truly describes my face after I get done reading your work LOL

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LMAO my life honestly is not that angsty right now but lowkey writing is emotional relief for me at time with more mundane stresses like school so that bleeds into it a little bit I think

Azzi does technically tell Paige a couple chapters ago that she went to visit which is part of what prompts Paige to kiss her in Steph's office but idk if she'll ever tell her in-dept. Ice has been keeping her mouth shut though lmao.

Listen it worked out well for Azzi but I would like to make sure everyone knows that I do no endorse keeping a one-night stand baby for loneliness reasons like that shit only works out in fiction.

Stephie is allergic to nuts and it's mentioned when they're getting coffee and cookies! Tristan is definitely tall and athletic and attractive so even that 10% of genes Stephie gets from him is great.

It's definitely a complicated dilemma and I think Paige is more scared because it's happened before. Azzi's a little less scared but she needs more than Paige saying she'll stay, she also needs Paige to get rid of that deal i.e her escape plan. They can't be together, in Azzi's eyes, until the Liberty deal is completely off the table. It's a lot more complicated for Paige though because really what even can Azzi do (I suppose I have to figure that out lol)

Awwww of course you can have that emoji!