#bc of how tall the tables were vs how short i was and how dull our pizza cutters were.. so i had to push weird | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

droodlebug · 2 days ago

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it is frustrating to have spend over a decade putting in so much effort to maintain my hand health only for something i cant control to give me paresthesia, muscle weakness, And reducing my fine motor skills everywhere including my hands. it definitely has made sure its not worse than it is but man

#the only thing i had happen before was the start of cubital tunnel from my pizza job at 18 #bc of how tall the tables were vs how short i was and how dull our pizza cutters were.. so i had to push weird #but a coworker gave me some stretches that solved it and it doesnt give me problems as long as i stretch it like once a month #i keep having to learn how to draw again with every new thing that happens. my symptoms come and go in severity in the moments and #in the long term and getting worse really quickly actually. its really upsetting to be doing this thing ive loved my entire life #that is my best way of expressing myself and thinking through stuff. that has saved my life. that i wanted to be my j for so long #and then i go through hours or days where my body cant move right. my fingers shake too bad. my hand and arm twitches too bad #my nerves stop talking to my muscles so im too weak to do anything for long.#i already cant Feel temperature or texture in most of my body. the tips of my fingers are completely dead numb now.#its. frustrating. and upsetting. but i will still make art even if i can only fingerpaint or have to learn to draw some other way.#sorry for getting a little too real on this acc. its unfortunately something that affects my art a Lot #both in the actual art and how frequently im able to do anything in the first place

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