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lesenbyan · 2 months ago

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I will not start a project with denim when I've been awake for 19 hours. I will not start a project with denim with I've been awake for 19 hours. I will not start a project with denim when I've been awake for 19 hours. I will not-

#repetitive text;#manic posting;#i remembered in hs when i'd spend my manic nights writing somg lyrics in sharpie on my arms and legs and jeans #and then had the idea to stitch/embroider lyrics into said jeans bc i was PRETTY sure i still had them bc they were ny favorite and #idr them wearing out. but APPARENTLY not. i looked everywhere short of digging out the closet i've wanted to for a month #but that's got years worth of chewy boxes broken down amd stacked in front of it bc i am a disaster #(i mean to recycle them. that never happened. at this point i'll just put them in thw dumpster. when i get around to getting them out of #the corner and down the stairs #i took my meds at least (not the tegretol. i don't want to intentionally kill my first proper manic episode in /so/ long)#BUT i was then thinking about canabilizing old jeans to create the cut i loved about the old ones (but half what i loved was texture)#and then embroidering that #but my last manic project with denim left my fingers so fuckin bloody #bc manic me can and will not use a sewing machine and thimbles get in my way #and that was. back in 2013-2015. wish i still had that. never wore it bc course not.#i also don't have the manic project of the L (death note) inspired Lolita skirt #think theu both stayed in NC #man i left all the good shit in NC #but yeah like. to say nothing of the fact that ostensibly the roommate will be home and wanting to sleep at some point #and manic me and headphones are fucking rivals #manic me has a lot of beefs #it's almost like (and this might shock you) i'm manic!#(i promise i'm trying to go to bed at this point)#(it's bed or cleaning my room or denim project and i would like SOME sleep if i'm gonna do either)#(to say nothing of i need to do 3 expert roulettes in XIV and can you imagine that shit after literally not sleep?)#(mania will NOT save my ass from micronapping)#personal;#i'm so sorry for anyone actually reading all these posts and tags #but! if you are! welcome to my oversharing corner <3 #also i am still planning on helping a friend clean and assmeble a chair tomorrow #which! mania is good for! i can clean! i love cleaning when manic! (my OCD ramps up when manic)

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