#bc it means people are exercising control over my living space

[jimmyandthegiraffes]

At the stage of overwhelmed where I just become really misanthropic and my demand avoidance goes insane

[in-tua-deep]

Are you into my hero academia? What about an AU or crossover with tua?

UHHHH I am technically, like, peripherally? I watched some seasons of the show like two or three years ago and since then have simply absorbed all content through osmosis, reading fanfiction that has canon events, and my sister telling me about the arcs of her fav characters lmao

so a crossover hmmm

First of all you'd have to like, establish whether bnha is an alternate universe or just The Future If No Apocalypse with quirks being traced back to the descendants of the kids born without mothers

So let's say it's that - the glowing baby was the "first quirk" but the truth is people had powers before that. But - well, the Umbrella Academy was obviously a marketing gimmick to those in the future! There were even comics based on them

In the future, you might find some of those comics in museum exhibits dedicated to depictions of powers in the pre-quirk era, but they're just fun depictions and much less popular than, oh, DC or MCU comics which are also in the exhibits!

End of s2 doesn't happen I guess in this au?? No sparrow academy at least lmao. So, the Umbrella Academy stop the apocalypse (again) and the Commission threat is? Neutralized? Whatever. They decide to jump back to the future

Five warns them that time travel is a crapshoot, that he has no fucking idea when they'll land beyond some nebulous "future" because Five can at least control the direction if not exactly how long

Also, Five is like. Super tired. Incredibly tired. Homeboy still has a healing gut wound, time traveled twice, has been jumping all over the place, gotten even more injured, experienced paradox psychosis, and managed to undo time all in the space of like, two weeks. There actually more than that but we don't have time to get into how fucking tired Five is from his ~Month of Hell

Like genuinely this is like putting someone almost delirious from lack of sleep in the driver's seat of a car and expecting to get to your destination in one piece

But hey, the siblings are like "do it uwu" and Five has sacrificed everything for them already so why not get behind the wheel again

So Five jumps them, and of course something goes wrong because Five has pushed his powers like a great big rubber band and honestly it was only a matter of time before he lost his grip and it snapped back to hit him

So here be the umbrella academy: spilled out into the future like a cup of bad coffee.

Five probably isn't in too good of shape tbh, like they're hundreds of years in the future (but hey at least confirmation of no apocalypse am I right) in a world full of superpowers and Five is like. bleeding from his ears and nose probably idk

Let's handwave a little bit - Reginald made them all polyglots so the squad all speak varying levels of Japanese. Allison is the best at it, Five is second best but tends to use more archaic words bc he had missions in Japan back when he was with the commission, and Klaus is third best.

(Ben is the worst bc he decided when he was 16-and-dead that he didn't have to do anything regarding lessons and maintenance and hasn't given a shit since - but also he's dead so)

So you have a bunch of weird adults with a bleeding child in like, an alley who have appeared from nowhere

so of course heroes get involved

Anyway, the squad get taken in and Five is conscious but like, barely? And he's not going to let himself get separated from his siblings again fuck-you-officer and there is a lot of confusion

anyway detective tsukauchi ends up getting involved and ends up having to hear this batshit story and be like "...truth." which sends all kinds of people scrambling because fucking time travel? Like yeah, it's been theorized to be a possible quirk but there's no recorded cases of any sort of time travel that is for more than 24 hours let alone hundreds of years

"I'm an adult." Five says sourly, "I just happened to be returned to my 13 year old body when I time traveled one time."

"True." Tsukauchi says, feeling his soul leave his body, but like. absently. the way he does when he's called in at 2am after getting off of work at midnight.

"I'm 58." Five says.

"Lie." Tsukauchi says, because this is a headcanon hill I will die on.

"I'm probably 58, but it was hard to keep track. I'm at least 50." Five corrects.

"True." Tsukauchi sighs like these six (seven? they keep referring to another sibling and Klaus said 'ghost' like that was fine and it registered as true and Tsukauchi is not nearly paid enough for this) are not giving him a migraine by just existing

on the bright side there's like, probably protocols in place for individuals who are Legally Chronologically Adults but thanks to quirks are Not Physically Or Not Mentally Adults with tests to determine if the individual needs a guardian or not

though i'm gonna be honest idk if Five would pass the test bc he literally cannot take care of himself at all, has never paid taxes or understands how to exist legally, and also his emotional maturity is stunted as all hell. also like. we don't actually know how much being in his thirteen-year-old body affects his mental state but yeAH Five is vibing

anyway Tsukauchi probably phones a friend on this bullshit because Time Travel Child alone is probably enough for the Hero Commission to be like "find a way to control and use it or nuke it from orbit" and that's not even touching whatever the fuck Klaus is doing (shit gets real once 'dead men tell no tales' stops being true) let ALONE Allison's whole deal

on the bright side like, at least Vanya isn't getting side-eyed that much bc Big Destructive Quirks aren't exactly unknown? if vanya wanted to i guess quirk suppressors exist for that until extensive training on how to control a super powerful quirk happens

Tsukauchi in the group chat: Aizawa please I am literally begging you to take this bullshit on

Aizawa: in this economy? with my class?

RatGod: lol we'll take them ;3c

Aizawa: no

Anyway they probably end up having to live at UA while Five insists on trying to get them home still and everyone else is like "oh hey we used to be child soldiers as well! (:" and Aizawa is like "i hate everything about this and everything about all of you but also like nedzu is making me interact with you so :/"

nedzu is out here vibing like "lol i just don't want the hero commission to get their little paws on these time traveling fuckers, i think you should make then teaching assistants or something"

honestly the siblings are probably like. figuring out how to function in the bnha universe and getting like, legally registered and stuff while Five ferally refuses bc that's like saying he's giving up on getting them home and he can do this

Recovery girl tries to heal him a little when he arrives and he passes out for two weeks like, immediately bc homeboy is running on fumes and spite at this point

also i think on principle it would be REALLY FUNNY if the squad got to tag along with the class bc like. Five is thirteen and the class are all 15. this does not sound like a large age gap. anyone who has interacted with teenagers know that the class would squint at Five and be like "who is this sassy lost middle schooler."

I feel like when I was a sophomore we were still like "freshman... babie" even though we were literally only one year older.

i think the difference between the umbrella academy and school kids would be pretty funny like. objectively the bnha kids are lowkey child soldiers?? like they're 15 and fighting villains but like, there's all this red tape and laws and stuff but,,, deku still be breaking his limbs in a child fighting ring against equally superpowered children for like. entertainment and sponsorships sooo

but also like Five would be like "oh cool when is the experimentation class"

"the what"

"you know, when your powers are pushed real hard by putting you in different terrible situations while your dad and sibling stand by with clipboards writing down the exact voltage it takes before you can't use your powers anymore when being electrocuted"

"hound dog's office is right there. therapy is available to you at any time. i need you to know this."

all might calls Luther "my boy" like one (1) time and Luther just breaks down crying probably because he is starved for positive attention

klaus and midnight get along like a literal house on fire, aizawa tried his best to keep them apart for as long as possible but god damn

(klaus: your name is shimura nana??

all might: immediately dies choking on blood)

i feel it absolutely necessary to point out that aizawa, present mic, and midnight are all like, 30? and the umbrella academy are all between 29-early 30s? they are PEERS but like. the umbrella academy are more chaotic due to childhood trauma

the umbrella academy probably get offered to like. also train to be heroes. i mean,, there HAS to be some sort of track for people who change careers right?? you don't have to cement your future as a hero when you're 15 i'm sure there must be something and the squad already have experience if they want to go be legal heroes

diego probably does at least?? diego just vibes honestly. diego gets momo to make knives during a team exercise and they just go feral on everyone else and it ends with diego highfiving momo and someone getting way to close to being stabbed for comfort

Five might just be. legally enrolled as an Actual Student? But also i think it's funny to picture the entire squad just. all in the back of the classroom with luther trying to fit into a high school desk as they take notes on the laws of The Future surrounding heroics

every word out of the umbrella academy's mouths just make everyone more concerned on principal but like, five and klaus are probably the worst offenders. Klaus just says whatever comes to mind with no filter and Five doesn't get what people would consider to be abnormal anymore like

Five: yeah our dad bought us when we were babies and experimented on us throughout our childhood in order to make an elite team of child soldiers superheroes, it happens

Todoroki: ...have you heard of quirk marriages?

izuku probably has an aneurism bc he's is the only person who might recognize them from the comics because you know ya boy extensively researched the idea of heroics in pre-quirk eras (batman was an inspiration alright???) and might dredge up a memory of a less popular comic series

Five: I can time travel but it is very hard, which is why we are hundreds of years in the future. And why I look like a child.

Kaminari: so are you a kid or not?

Five, serenely: whatever is most convenient for me at any given moment

Mina: hell yeah game the system

they have a brief lesson on astronomy and Luther raises his hand like "ooh! i was isolated on the moon for four years and did SO MUCH research" and then just gets up and starts infodumping like way too much information on the moon

Izuku sitting there like "damn if quirks hadn't popped up we could have achieved so much in terms of space travel. please tell me more giant man who lived in pre-quirk era."

Vanya finds out about the quirkless and is like "oh mood that genuinely sounds like my childhood, being ordinary in a house full of extraordinary people, and then i found out that i did have powers but only much later in life after i had already been emotionally scarred by the experience"

deku: vanya we have so much in common

iida and uraraka: concerned noises

aizawa: hound dog. therapy with hound dog for all of you.

there's probably some conflict with like, the hero commission wanting to get their hands on the time travelers?? but probably especially five and klaus as a) time travel and b) ghosts (the hc def has bodies they would like to stay buried)

five has a pavlovian reaction to anything with 'commission' in the name and hates them on site, probably plays into his age in order to become a ward of UA or something to protect him from the commission a little bit.

(this makes nedzu Five's legal guardian. aizawa has his resignation papers all prepped in a drawer marked 'in case of emergency' but let's be real, if nedzu wants to take over the world aizawa should probably be on the rat-bear's side of things :/)

five: ah, i do recall the inhumane experimentation that we were subjected to

nedzu, who was experimented on: haha same hat! want me to dig up the location of reginald hargreeves's remains so you can spit on them?

klaus: nah no worries we dumped them out in the courtyard unceremoniously like, a while back. how long ago varies for each of us because of time travel!

luther: you said hound dog's office was down the hall and to the right?

on the bright side, Luther probably feels like. way less self conscious about his body, partially bc of his fighting and all that in the 60s but also bc !! now he genuinely doesn't feel like a freak. no one even gives him a second glance. one of the teachers looks like a slab of cement with a face. gang orca looks Like That. there is literally a student with an entire bird head and goth aesthetic. Luther does not stick out at all

allison and shinso bond over having "villainous" voice-based quirks

allison and shinso having worn muzzles at some point in their youth as punishment 🤝

aizawa probably helps train vanya as well with the whole, being able to erase a world ending quirk safely thing he's got going on which makes for a very nice safety net

i don't think vanya would want to be a hero at the end of things though. maybe the assistant teacher in the music class or something?? all vanya wants is to be able to not end the world

i feel like as time goes by, five brings up trying to get home less and less. part of that is because like,,, genuinely what do they have to go back to?? Allison has Claire, but like. I'm 100% sure the first thing she did in the future was try track down Claire's records and found out Claire was like. fine. became an adult, had a family, probably became the ancestor of the first "quirked" kids who officially popped up after light baby. had a good life, died at an old age etc. etc.

they start settling into the bnha world with like, "we can always hop aboard the five express into where the fuck ever" as a plan Z if things go completely pear shaped (again)

i'mma be real, five himself doesn't give a fuck as long as there is a) no apocalypse and b) his family is alive. Like that's it. His bar is so incredibly low and yet his life keeps fucking trying to limbo under it

i just think it would be funny to have like, Five trying to get along with his "peers" and make friends while the siblings do the same but like, in the staff room

also think it would be funny for five to just walk into the staff room and get coffee occasionally.

a teacher: why is a student in here -

Five, sipping coffee: i'm an adult

nedzu like "what kind of guardian would i be if i didn't teach my new son all the tunnels around ua so he can pop out wherever"

five like "hey new dad can i put stashes of supplies all around ua of weapons, money, food, and other assorted things that might be useful if one needed to fight or make a run for it" and nedzu is like "haha just put your list of what supplies you want in your go bags on my desk and i'll critique it later!"

anyway a bnha/tua crossover would be incredibly chaotic but probably very funny

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

What’s your opinion for Leo’s reaction to finding out the mc was immortal as well- not necessarily a vampire, maybe they’re some other type of supernatural. I’m really curious because Leo seems like he’s mainly in love with the mc bec they are human.

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Tbh I think my opinion remains the same about something like this? I'm going to link to an ask I wrote up a while ago, only because it's v pertinent to the subject matter and good background for what I’m going to expand on here.

That being said, I'm happy to kind of tl;dr/expand on what I talked about there. Basically I had the feeling that Leonardo choosing MC as a lover was more circumstantial--regarding the state of his life in the moment, regarding his general feelings about vampires and vampire society, and regarding his unresolved trauma as a young kid.

I guess my answer to that question--and forgive me if it seems like a cop out--is that it really depends, I feel? I think his attraction has a lot more to do with the kind of person somebody is, their sensibility, more than it has to do with mortal vs immortal. If it was an immortal MC that showed ridiculous fortitude and self-control, measured patience and maturity, I really don’t see him not noticing that? I think he would be wary at first (assuming it’s all a front) but with time would likely feel a great deal of love if they were interested in a life together. If they were able to see and understand what he needs and answered those needs, I guess I just really doubt his ability to say no. It’s all he’s really looking for, and the fact that he hasn’t found it after so long really speaks to his frightened evasiveness and the rare nature of that kind of unshakeable strength.

I also think a lot of his hinging away from purebloods (true immortals, in other words) is that he 100% does not want his familia having any involvement in his meaningful relationships. Which might be why he shows more acceptance towards turned vampires, or potentially different supernatural beings.

But I also don’t like giving a vague answer without some kind of explanation as to how I got, to that conclusion, so a boatload of analysis follows below the content warning.

Spoilers for Leonardo’s route and a few mentions of JPN ver content:

I think he has less of an obsession with the idea of mortality, and more like a constant association of goodness and freedom and maturity with humanity. And while it's understandable, there are signs that--when he has the proper time and space to heal--his views seem to soften from those extremes. I mean his decision to live with Comte is pretty much his first step in that direction; it was him acknowledging for the first time that vampires aren't inherently loathsome or incapable of normal living. (On a revealing note, I think it says a lot that he agrees with MC that she is living in a “wolves’ den” but also feels the need to clarify the men are basically the domesticated equivalent. They don’t pose the same threat other vampires typically do to humans because of their lifestyle and sire.) Additionally, his tsun-like behavior towards Comte also seems to solidify this concept for me: Leonardo’s trying to come to terms with something he's sworn to reject since he was young, but also can't entirely deny that Comte is as chill and mature as purebloods come lmao

[There was also an event in the JPN ver–which seems to be approaching the ENG version rapidly, though only the first part is here right now–in which Leonardo fully offers to turn her. MC is essentially on her death bed, and Leonardo doesn’t want to lose her after so little time together; it’s MC that rejects the future as a vampire out of sheer principle. Even more noteworthy is that, when a reincarnation of MC is reunited with Leonardo in modern times, he is revealed to be exceptionally shaken by that loss. There are suggestions he can’t take losing her again, which could mean succumbing to the desire to bite her.]

Two things I feel are necessary to hit home:

The first being that, at least within the storyline so far, the most mature and human-like vampires we’ve seen are Leonardo and Comte. They seek to emulate the maturity they see reflected in the human beings they’ve known all their lives. Given how vampire society and their hierarchies work, I get the feeling humans are nothing more than amusing tools to them--a way to survive and creatures to exercise control over. There’s an objectification and delusion that comes with what I’ve seen, and I think it’s important in this discussion? If the vast majority of vampires behave this way (because I’m ngl, Leonardo and Comte don’t seem very keen on remaining in touch with other vampires all that much) then it only makes sense they prefer the company of humans who can at least share this sensibility of “been there, done that--stop hurting people bc you’re bored/repressed, grow up.”

One event story where this was exceedingly evident was actually Leonardo’s proposal story. If y’all remember, an old pal/acquaintance of Leonardo’s finds out he’s gunning for a human woman and basically goes “lmao not on my watch.” His name was Adam iirc, and he felt he had every liberty to try and pressure Leonardo into turning MC. Failing that, he insisted they should break up and not be together anymore. Now, on the one hand, it’s fair to say that he was looking out for Leonardo in a way–he didn’t want him to end up miserable and alone when she was gone. But at the same time I feel that Adam’s behavior is deeply revealing of vampire society as well lmao. He doesn’t really try to understand the situation, just immediately assumes it’s the only appropriate outcome. It does insinuate a lowkey cultural disdain for humanity: they are imperfect, they do not last or cannot have real value without preservation. If Adam was really Leonardo’s friend, wouldn’t he realize that Leonardo considers vampirism nothing more than a burden that he would wish on no one, much less his future wife? Additionally, wouldn’t he also keep in mind that Leonardo considers human beings beautiful just as they are? Since he fails these basic requirements to understand Leonardo, my impression is that he is influenced by the larger vampire culture to some extent. Furthermore, it underscores just how thoroughly Leonardo has been trained to keep his cards close to his chest for fear of ridicule/violent reprisal: no vampires know his true feelings on the matter because he would be vehemently rejected outright.

[One can also offer that maybe Adam wasn’t being malicious, maybe vampires find human women they fall in love with all the time and turn them (or any other permutation of companionship that occurs), so he doesn’t understand why Leonardo wouldn’t. But even then, to try to force them to break up if she doesn’t turn? A bit overkill imo but also revealing--Leonardo’s will is being ignored for the sake of upholding a kind of ill-founded superiority complex lmao]

While Leonardo does have a somewhat overbearing need to control the pacing of his relationship and who sacrifices what, I don’t think it’s wrong to be cautious--to want to think things through. I think it’s fair to be afraid that the person you’re with can’t handle what you’ve seen/known. But that also leads me to a core issue I have with MC: she doesn’t inspire much confidence that she can handle the life he’s lived, and that’s a problem of both incapacity and incompatibility. I have to wonder how he reacts when he’s with somebody at the same maturity level, or at the very least somebody with whom he can see her strength with time. When MC’s life was dying out he was desperate enough to accept biting her because he didn’t want to lose her–human or not. It’s MC that rejects this solution, which leads me to further believe that he just doesn’t care about the divide when it comes down to it; it has more to do with his difficulty with being vulnerable and fully trusting someone to care about him. (Assuming they also have the fortitude to stay hopeful and relatively strong over the course of a very long life.)

In line with that, the second thing I think it’s important to acknowledge is how deeply hurt Leonardo is as a result of his family treating him like a fool/black sheep. He outright says and heavily insinuates that his family would write her off as worthless, that they’d never accept her--that's his first thought:

Leonardo: “My familia would call you frail. I think you’re strong and beautiful. You do more with your time than we try to do with ours.”

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MC: “And those letters were from your familia?”

Leonardo: “Yeah. I don’t talk to them or see them anymore. We don’t agree...on a lot of things.”

[Brief intermission here. But lmao. Who does that sound like? If any of you guessed Isaac, that’s exactly what I’m alluding to. Isaac says in his own route smth along the lines of “Why bother trying to get through to people when no amount of talking does any good or gets you any closer to being understood?” Which also explains the way they get along to uncanny degrees: they find comfort in making things/researching because it means being able to avoid the distress that comes with being blatantly misunderstood by others. Their pain simply comes in different dimensions; for Leo it’s about loss and hiding who he is out of fear of rejection, for Isaac it’s about betrayal and people turning on him--ultimately abandonment for both. But I digress, back to the main argument.]

Leonardo: “Once they discovered my location, they began hounding me with letters again. They don’t want me to be with just anyone...They want more purebloods. I’m no more than one half of an equation for them.”

There is a clear implication that his desire to choose somebody that truly makes him happy means jack shit to them. They keep talking over him and trying to wear him down to force him into what they want. It’s no wonder--imo--that he has such a hard time just saying what he wants in his life, to feel like he has the freedom to wish and pursue anything freely. It’s no wonder he just expects MC to spit on everything that’s important to him. It appears as though only other human beings in general and Comte have ever come close to understanding him.

At some point MC realizes that his insistence on being compagni provvisori was originally just another act of sacrifice, and that he was fine with giving up his time and a little privacy if it meant she would be safe. The thing she doesn’t seem to realize in the course of this--and he struggles to say it until later on--is that it stopped being blind generosity. He really did start to fall in love with her, and that’s the whole reason things became even more messy; because he didn’t anticipate not being able to let go on top of the vulnerability. And it’s a big part of why he’s hesitating to speak. He feels he has no right to those feelings, and that he’s imposing on her--not that he’ll be welcome.

And when she did finally admit those feelings were welcome, it was compounded by the parroted views of his family and larger vampire society as a whole. Saying that she herself wasn’t enough, that she had to become a vampire to make him happy. Imo that sounds very potentially retraumatizing given his experiences (people trying to force him into marriages with other vampires who didn’t remotely understand or care about him because it was “the right way of things”). It’s no wonder he freaks out and does something incredibly stupid and insensitive–which is pretty insanely ooc for him.

Leonardo: “...It shocked them. Quieted them down a bit. Hard to get peace when your familia is immortal. Grazie, cara mia.”

Leonardo: “You’re strong, and you’re kind. So probably you won’t cry while I’m here to see it. But when I’m not looking, you’ll cry. If I had done that to you (bitten her, in other words), you’d still be crying when I wasn’t watching... Maybe it’s selfish of me, after what I did, but I just wanted to make you happy. You always look pretty, cara mia, but your smile takes my breath away...It’s not your destiny to love someone who will only make you cry.”

This man literally cannot handle anyone deeply sad or in despair. He’s always going to try to cheer people up and care about them, but general tragedy/emotional discord affects him very powerfully--and it’s likely a reflection of what I’ve mentioned before. He can’t bear to see people feeling helpless or miserable because he’s just been there too many times to be able to cope. He wants to help and heal (even if he’s suffering from prolonged compassion fatigue), but he knows that his powers are limited--even if he is a pureblood.

And the thing is? While it’s misguided to believe she would cry alone when it comes to the context of healthy romantic love (bc the idea would be that you lean on each other when something upsetting happens) he has zero reference point. He was not born as a result of authentic love (his parents never married, he was the result of a procreative arrangement), his family talks over every wish and belief he has and they still claim it’s done out of love/honest concern for him. One can only imagine the serpentine and obnoxious lengths to which his family has deceived or tried to force him into reconnecting with them. Every person that ever did know him/care about him in a real way is gone. Love, for him, has only been a series of losses that left his heart hollowed out; I don’t really blame him for expecting further disappointment and isolation and exhaustion. 

He’s also not wrong in the sense that he partially saw MC do what he outlined, and it’s a big part about what he loves about her. When she was feeling alone and lost–powerless–all she did was shrug and move forward. That doesn’t make it hurt any less, but focusing on what you can do instead of what you can’t do is healthier. And they both have the tendency to hide when they’re in pain or feeling lost, all because they don’t want to trouble anyone. Remember that when he says this, it’s a reflection of himself too: because even if he was heartbroken beyond measure, all he would do is hide it every second; he would never expect anyone to see right through him or care.

I mean I tend think of that one post I saw that talked about how people often see themselves as a social burden when most of their life has just been a series of neglect and loss. They don’t really have a concept of “you’re not heavy because I want to stay with you. It’s my choice to care about you.” How do you feel worthwhile an existence when four hundred years later your family still won’t treat you with basic dignity. The men in the mansion also all look to him for guidance and soothing because of the kind of person he is–he’s either silent in the periphery or helping. He never betrays so much as an inkling of insecurity or distress. 

I mean the whole reason Leonardo comes to the mansion is because he has absolutely no issue helping Comte in a pivotal time of need without seeking much of anything in return. Remember that Comte explains how Leonardo came to the mansion in response to Comte’s distress about the future. This makes sense considering Comte was rapidly trying to stop Vlad by beating him to the punch, and had only enough time to plan the basics. He had no certainty things would work out, much less that his boys would thrive. But Comte, unlike the boys, has become acutely aware of how much Leonardo is hiding his fatigue and despair in the course of being helped. As such, he wants to return the favor--and tries to be a good friend to him as much as he can (handles his insane familia, keeps things light and silly time between them, takes him seriously as a person, doesn’t pry beyond what’s fair.)

[I also think of that psychology concept of “the good enough mother.” It’s not always about being perfect every second of your life. It’s about paying attention and acting where it really counts. I feel like people who grow up under an enormous burden of neglect or parental/mentor abuse have a hard time coming to terms with the idea. This notion that just trying is enough for a lot of people, that showing them they’re not alone is enough to make  difficult memories bearable. Because it’s the oppressive silence and apathy that tends to kills people, imo--not people who mean well. But Leonardo doesn’t really understand any kind of reciprocal or non-self-emptying model because the concept is beyond him. He has no experience with it beyond Comte and a select few humans he’s befriended.]

Let’s continue on this point of MC crying where he can’t see her, shall we? The reason this scares him so much is not because he doesn’t care, or doesn’t want to make the effort. It’s precisely that he cares to the point of madness. It’s that he is legitimately convinced nothing he has to say, nothing that he can do, no part of him is enough to ease what she will have to trade away to stay with him. The core issue is not one of disregard or objectification, I find it to be more about his belief that he just isn’t enough. He doesn’t trust that anyone can love him to the point where just the sight of him or time with him can heal. And while there is a foolishness to this belief, it’s understandable when you consider where he’s coming from. You can call it selfishness, but it just feels involuntary--he has a lot of fear when it comes to love.

I mean Comte even says it himself? His words here always strike me: “I want you to understand, it’s because he cherishes you just as you are--more than he cares about his future or his well-being.”

Comte is openly identifying the way that Leonardo has a tendency to give more than is healthy. That Leonardo isn’t hesitating because his feelings are lacking, he’s doing it because he knows it’s going to hurt like a bitch trying to love her and never ask beyond what feels reasonable. (Spoilers: no request is reasonable. That’s the problem here. He’s convinced he deserves nothing.) Therefore turning her into a vampire to stay with him is--consequently, to Leonardo--out of the question. This is the literal hingepoint at which Comte and Leonardo divide; Comte simply tells MC he’ll take full responsibility for asking so much of her. He intends to make her happy with every single resource and skill he has at his disposal. Even if he doubts his ability or fears losing her to vampire rhetoric madness, he’d rather try than live with the regret and immediate loss. Leonardo is more resistant because of his dour outlook, that her fear of immortality is never going to be something that either of them can overcome. And/or he’s likely afraid she’s only going to regret being together after so long, and might succumb to the ridiculous sort of power/greed complexes vampires seem so attracted to by nature.

I think Leonardo is still coming to terms with the idea that he isn't alone in the world in a lot of ways, and I think he's also coming to terms with the idea that immortality does not equate to evil. Sure, human beings on average are probably more open to flexible modes of thinking and living compared to vampires--their maturity is in some ways guaranteed due to the instances they're forced to adapt to survive. However, just one look at the ruling class and oligarchies of all kinds (even just stubborn human beings) reveals how they are not immune to the same sort of megalomania, arrogance, and thoughtless violence purebloods/vampires are capable of.

So I guess I hesitate when it comes to the thought that he only loves her because she's human. If anything, I think he loves her for the fact that she's very rooted in reality--not quite so bound by the extremes that trouble him. It's one of the many reasons I believe Leonardo needs a lot of maturity and patience; the ability to differentiate between his panicked/overwhelmed/hurt reactions versus his calm is a skill in and of itself considering his capacity for concealment. To say nothing of getting him to slow down when this happens, too.

I suppose I think about it in a way that’s similar to how Napoleon’s main story narrative is framed. While Leonardo’s route doesn’t focus on the grandeur of being a former emperor, there is a clear insinuation here that he also craves normalcy? Just a little life, with a person he loves dearly, where he can rest and be himself for once. I think because he gives off such an appearance of steadiness, people fail to see that he is barely holding on--not to mention the kind of experiences he’s been deprived of (the exact security and understanding he so expertly emulates).

Closer to your question, it’s worth mentioning that Leonardo’s life goal for a while was the creation of an immortal human being--in that he fully recognized human beings could not offer what he needed as they were.

He loves humans because of their adaptability, their frequent desire to keep seeking out hope and making the best of the broken pieces they have. But then again, it has more to do with the nature of how frequently that sensibility occurs in humans vs vampires (and immortality in general): mortality does demand some level of necessity to change and grow. Which is one of the largest trauma points for him; the vampires around him just refused to grow up, always demanding at him like children and obsessed with their power complexes.

Thing is I also don't know enough about vampire society to know how correct this perceived ratio is. However, given Comte's similar avoidance of other vampires and general inability to live with them (he and Vlad were literal childhood best friends and Comte can't stand him anymore lmao) I think Leonardo may have more validity here than people give him credit for. Which begs the question--why did he quit trying to make a human immortal? What was it that stopped him? Was it the horror of what needed to be done to achieve it? Or would a potential companion start to fall more in love with the idea of immortality than they do with life itself/him? I think it’s a worthwhile question to ask, given the disdain he seems to aim at Shakespeare in particular--once human, but now emulates all of the violence and insatiability marked by vampirism.

This is where the transition from human to vampire/immortal contains another hingepoint: is Leonardo so incapable of finding a middle ground because he feels like any choice he makes will be a wrong one? Marry a human, deprive them of a normal love where they can grow old together. Marry a human and turn them, what if they are reborn with immortal wounds/psychological harm? What if time proves they get bored of him or hateful, what if they begin to act like the predatory purebloods he hates so much? Marry a pureblood/immortal, and be hounded by his family for heirs--risk being with somebody who will never love him or their children, and only inspire more misery in the world.

Does it make sense how this can really start to become an anxious downspiral for someone like him? How the personal insecurity and life history comes together to just compound stress endlessly?

That's the thing that's important here, I think. Leonardo just needs somebody who is open-minded, firm, and not easily deceived. If one takes a look at Leonardo's main story route, the whole reason everything goes to shit so disastrously is because MC stops listening at a critical point. Granted Leonardo could have been more forthcoming for sure, but when she started assuming Shakespeare was right instead of seeing how Leonardo was feeling/reacting, she responded in ways Leonardo wasn't prepared for. He never wanted to shake her faith or insinuate whatever she is is not good enough for him, and tbh I think Leonardo downspiraled because it was just the same thing all over again. What he is--a vampire and immortal--keeps ruining everything he wants with his life. 

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hi again dia! happy first day of december ❤️💚 i wanted to ask you what, in your opinion, are the 5 most underrated dcoms? i remember you saying before that you've watched all of them so i'd love to hear your opinions 😊 - 🎅🎁🎄

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH secret santa you are so good! asking me all the best questions 💜

okay so i literally had to make a list of all the dcoms i consider underrated and then narrow down a top 5. theres lots of dcoms that i love, but that i think got the right amount of attention and care (like lemonade mouth and the teen beach movies, for example), so this list just focuses on ones that deserved more hype for their quality level.

5. The Cheetah Girls: One World (2008)

okay so even as i type this i feel like a hypocrite. i have only watched this movie one time. BUT i can acknowledge that its one of the most criminally underrated dcoms ever, tons of people didnt watch it simply because raven wasnt in it. thats why i avoided it as a child, and i didnt get around to watching it until i did my big dcom binge in 2016. and it was so good. theres a really long post floating somewhere around tumblr full of specifics on why its actually the best cheetah girls movie (my favorite is the second one purely out of nostalgia), so to paraphrase some points from that post:

its a solid example of cultural appreciation, rather than appropriation, as the girls go and learn about bollywood and indian culture together

the indian characters arent treated like props or unimportant sides, they get their own agency and storylines that are important

the songs are good!!!

basically this movie was overlooked and slept on even though in terms of role modeling and social value, and just like the first two cheetah girls movies it was important and impactful.

4. Sharpay’s Fabulous Adventure (2011)

okay so as someone whos very neutral and occasionally negative-leaning towards the hsm franchise (mostly bc its overhyped and not really representative of all dcoms), i was pleasantly surprised by sharpays fabulous adventure. this is another one that i know lots of people skipped right over and dont hold with as much esteem as the main hsm franchise, and that doesnt sit right with me.

i do not agree with the “uwu sharpay was the real victim in hsm” arguments bc in their efforts to look galaxy brained the people who say that overlook the fact that she was a rich white woman who used her power and status to exercise control over opportunities that should have been fairly and freely available for all; they were not “making a mockery of her theater” in the first movie, they were literally just kids who wanted to try out a new school activity that everyone was supposed to be allowed to participate in; and despite allegedly learning her lesson and singing we’re all in this together with everyone at the end of the first movie, she literally showed no growth in the second movie as she fostered an openly hostile environment and favored troy so heavily that it literally cost him his friends, all as part of yet another jealous plan to take things away from people who already have less than her. she was NOT the victim in the main franchise, and she did not seem to exhibit any growth or introspection either.

and that!!! is why sharpays fabulous adventure was so important. in focusing on sharpay as the main character, they finally had to make her likeable. they did this by showing actual real growth and putting her outside of her sphere of influence and control. we saw true vulnerability from her, instead of the basic ass “mean girl is sad bc shes actually just super insecure” trope (cough cough radio rebel), and this opened us up to finally learn about and care about her character. throughout the movie we see her learn, from her love interests example, how to care for others and be considerate. she faces actual adversity and works through it, asking herself what she truly wants and what shes capable of. and in the end, when she finally has her big moment, we’re happy for her bc she worked hard to get there. she becomes a star through her own merit and determination, rather than through money and connections. this movie is not perfect by any means, but it is severely underrated for the amount of substance it adds to sharpays character.

3. The Swap (2016)

okay i know im gonna get shit for this but thats why its on this list!!! just like sharpays fabulous adventure, its not perfect and definitely misses the mark sometimes, but it deserves more attention and love for all the things it did get right!

the swap follows two kids who accidentally switch bodies because of their emotional attachment to their dead/absent parents’ phones. and while i normally HATE the tv/movie trope of a dead parent being the only thing that builds quick sympathy for a young character, they definitely expanded well enough to where we could root for these kids even without the tragedy aspect. we see them go through their daily struggles and get a feel for their motivations as characters pretty well. as a body switching movie, we expect it to be all goofy and wacky and lighthearted, but it moves beyond that in unexpected ways.

the reason the swap is on this list is for its surprisingly thoughtful commentary on gender roles. its by no means a feminist masterpiece, and its not going to radicalize kids who watch it, but it conveys a subtle, heartfelt message that deserves more appreciation. the characters struggle with the concept of gender in a very accurate way for their age, making off-base comments and feeling trapped by the weight of expectations they cant quite put their finger on. we watch them feel both at odds with and relieved by the gender roles they are expected and allowed to perform in each others bodies, and one of the most interesting parts of the movie to me is their interactions with the other kids around them. as a result of their feeling out of place in each others environments, the kids inadvertently change each others friendships for the better by introducing new communication styles and brave authenticity. 

the value of this movie is the subtle, but genuine way it shows the characters growing through being given the space to act in conflicting ways to their expected norms. ellie realizes that relationships dont have to be complex, confusing, and painful, and that its okay to not live up to appearances and images. jack learns that emotional expression is good, healthy, and especially essential to the grieving process. one of the most powerful scenes in the movie comes at the end where, after ellie confronts jacks dad in his body, jack returns as himself to a very heartfelt apology from his father for being too hard on him; the explicit message (”boys can cry”) is paired with an open expression of love and appreciation for his kids that he didnt feel comfortable displaying until his son set an example through honest communication. this is such an empowering scene and overall an empowering movie for kids who may feel stuck in their expected roles, as it sets a positive example for having the courage to break the restrictive societal mold. for its overall message of the importance of introspection and emotional intelligence, the swap is extremely underrated.

2. Freaky Friday (2018)

this is my favorite dcom, and probably my favorite movie at this point. ive always assigned a lot of personal value to this movie (and i love every freaky friday in general), for the message of selfless familial love and understanding. i know i can get carried away talking about this topic; i got an anon ask MONTHS ago asking me about the freaky friday movies and i wrote a super super long detailed response that i never posted bc i didnt quite finish talking about the 2018 movie. and thats bc on a personal level, i cant adequately convey all the love i have for this movie. so i will try to keep this short.

first lets state the obvious: the reason people dont like this movie is bc its not the lindsay lohan version. and i get that, to an extent, bc i also love the 2003 version and its one of my ultimate comfort movies, and grew up watching it and ive seen it a billion times. i even watched it a couple days ago. but the nostalgia goggles that people have on from the early 2000s severely clouds their judgement of the wonderful 2018 remake.

yes, the 2018 version is dorky, overly simplistic plot wise, a bit stiff at times, and super cheesy like any dcom. the writing isnt 100% all the time. the narrative takes a couple confusing turns. the song biology probably shouldnt have been included. i understand this. but at the heart of it all, this movies value is love. and its edge over all the other freaky friday movies is the songs.

on a personal level, the movie speaks heavily to me. i cried very early into my first viewing of the movie bc i got to see dara renee, a dark-skinned, non-skinny actress, playing the mean popular girl on disney channel. that has never happened before. growing up, i saw the sharpays and all the other super thin white women get to be the “popular” girls on tv, and ultimately they were taken down in the end for being mean, but that doesnt change the fact that they were given power and status in the first place for being conventionally beautiful. so, watching dara renee strut around confidently and sing about being the queen bee at this high school got to me immediately. and in general, the supporting cast members of color really mean a lot to me in this movie. we get to see adam, an asian male love interest for the main character. we have a second interracial relationship in the movie with katherines marriage to mike. ellies best friend karl is hispanic. and we see these characters have depth and plot significance, we see them show love, care, and passion for the things they value. the brown faces in this movie are comforting to me personally. additionally, the loving, blended family dynamic is important to me as someone in a close-knit, affectionate step-family.

but on a more general level, this movie is underrated for its skillful musical storytelling and the way it conveys all kinds of love and appreciation. in true freaky friday fashion, we watch ellie and katherine stumble and misstep in their attempts to act like each other. its goofy and fun. but through it all, the music always captures the characters’ intimate thoughts and feelings. the opening song gives us a meaningful view into ellie and katherines relationship and the fundamental misunderstandings that play a role in straining their connection. ellie sings about how she thinks her mom wants her to be perfect, and her katherine sings about all the wonderful traits she sees in her daughter and how she wants her to be more open and self assured. this is meaningful bc even as theyre mad at each other, the love comes through. the songs continue to bring on the emotional weight of the story, as ellie sings to her little brother about her feelings of hurt and abandonment in her fathers absence. the song “go” and its accompanying hunt scene always make me cry bc of the childlike wonder and sense of adventure that it brings. for the kids, its a coming of age, introspective song. for katherine who gets to participate in ellies body, its a reminder of youth and the rich, full life her daughter has ahead of her. she is overcome with excitement, both from getting to be a teenager again for a day, and from the realization that her daughter has a support network and passions that are all her own. today and ev’ry day, the second to last song, is the culmination of the lessons learned throughout the movie, a mother and daughters tearful commitment to each other to love, protect, and understand one another. the line “if today is every day, i will hold you and protect you, i wont let this thing affect you” gets to me every time. even when things are hard and dont go according to plan, they still agree, in this moment, to be there for each other. and thats what all freaky friday stories are ultimately about.

freaky friday 2018 is a beautiful, inclusive, subversive display of familial love, sacrifice, and selflessness, and it is underrated and overlooked because of its more popular predecessor.

1. Let It Shine (2012)

this is another one of my favorite dcoms and movies in the whole world. unlike the other movies on this list, it is not the viewers themselves that contribute to the underrated-ness of this movie. disney severely under-promoted and under-hyped this movie in comparison to its other big musical franchises, and i will give you five guesses as to why, but youll only need one!

let it shine is the most beautifully, unapologetically black dcom in the whole collection. (i would put jump in! at a notable second in this category, but that one wasnt underrated). this movie was clearly crafted with care and consideration. little black kids got to see an entire dcom cast that represented them. the vernacular used in the script is still tailored mostly to white-favoring audiences, but with some relevant slang thrown in there. in short, the writers got away with the most blackness they were allowed to inject into a disney channel project.

the story centers on rap music and its underground community in atlanta, georgia. it portrays misconceptions surrounding rap, using a church setting as a catalyst for a very real debate surrounding a generational, mutlicultural conflict. this was not a “safe” movie for disney, given its emphasis on religious clashes with contemporary values. it lightly touches on issues of image policing within the black community (cyrus’s father talking about how “our boys” are running around with sagging pants and “our girls” are straying away from god), which is a very real and pressing problem for black kids who feel the pressure (from all sides) of representing their whole race with their actions. its a fun, adorable story about being yourself and staying true to your art, but also a skillful representation of struggles unique to black and brown kids and children from religious backgrounds.

on top of crafting a fun, wholesome, thoughtful narrative and likeable protagonists, let it shine brought us what is in my opinion the BEST dcom soundtrack of all time. every single song is a bop. theyre fast, fun, and lyrically engaging. “me and you” is my favorite disney channel song of all time due to its narrative significance; i will never forget my first time watching the movie and seeing that big reveal unfold onstage, as a conversation and a plot summary all wrapped into a song. the amount of thought and care that went into the music of this movie should have been rewarded with a level of attention on par with that of other musical dcoms.

if disney channel had simply cared about let it shine more, it couldve spanned franchises and sold songs the way that other musical dcoms have drawn in success. i would have loved for a sequel that explored and fleshed out cyrus’s neighborhood a little bit more, and maybe dipped into that underground scene they caught a glimpse of. i wanted a follow up on the changed church community once cyrus’s father started supporting his sons vision. i want so much more for these characters and this world than disney gave them in just one movie.

for its bold, unabashed representation of blackness and religion, subtle, nuanced presentation of race-specific issues, strong, likeable characters, and complex, thoughtful songs, let it shine is the most underrated dcom.

and because i made a full list before i started writing this post, here are some honorable mentions:

going to the mat (2004)

gotta kick it up! (2002)

tru confessions (2002)

dont look under the bed (1999)

invisible sister (2015)

[blackwoolncrown]

cw pet messes

My dog is old (15+), but like healthy-old. Except for one thing:

He has totally lost continence of his bowels. It’s been interesting to see how complications have spread bc of this in an otherwise healthy dog’s situation (he’s feeble in his hind end which is where the issue is coming from, a compounding of neurological weakness and arthritis).

In many instances it actually wouldn’t matter if he was an outside dog in some capacity, bc he’d be able to just go whenever. But as it is now we have to walk him and hope he poops- there are certain positions you can put him in that encourage/stimulate his bowels (like making him sit in the grass, sphinx position), but if he doesn’t go when you take him out...that’s it, there’s not much you can do. He’s at the point where even if we HAVE just taken him out and he pooped, we still have to restrict his space in the house tot he makeshift room we made for him by his doggy stuff, because he still sometimes poops right afterwards (so we’d rather have him somewhere we’ve laid a blanket than to keep having to use the carpet cleaner. BTW if you get a dog and live somewhere with carpet INVEST IN A CARPET CLEANER).

And lately his digestive cycle has been such that he hasn’t been ready at night before bed, meaning for the past week, he shits overnight. During night or day, he also can and will poop in his sleep (even less control). Diapers don’t work bc first of all we’ve yet to find decently sized dog diapers that acknowledge that some dogs have dicks and secondly-- him pooping in a diaper just isn’t great, for reasons.

All of this is to say that while usually his ‘woops I passed my turds while I was sleeping’ events aren’t usually that messy, this morning he seems to have like, stepped in it last night and now he is going to need a bath (and baths are really hard for him at this point).

Anyway one thing that really stands out to me about aging animals in general but esp in this example, is that aging really truly does start from the pelvis. And humans are so lucky to be able to do pelvic floor and hip flexibility exercises. This dog is so healthy otherwise- his leg gives out and he is honestly so blase about it and totally willing to adjust and get back on his feet asap. Otherwise his body is great (which like yay bc we’ve spent a lot of money on his diet and supplements over the years!), but this poop issue is probably what affects him most.

Do kegels, people. No joke.

[werewolfchoir]

Sadposting, but about past Julian (and possibly future Julian-- we shall see)

So I’m working on acknowledging that I spent a good deal of time last semester anxious as hell. I did some shit that helped with the anxiety, but I definitely didn’t give myself enough space to experience it. I wanted to believe Things Were Good, and in some ways they were good, or at least better than they were before. I was in pain, though. I couldn’t attend to my studies as well as I wanted, and I had recurring meltdowns where I’d just cry. During these meltdowns, I lashed out at my family. I felt completely overwhelmed by fear, and I usually got furious with myself for my weakness because if I were enough I wouldn’t carry about these “petty” concerns. I got wildly upset over emotionally threatening discourse, and felt like I had to work out whether it was true to be allowed to have a reaction. In general, I lived my life feeling precarious and threatened, even though I want to underline that some things in life felt good to me. I had a very wonderful friendship with a professor at my school, and I visited him in office hours once a week. I also worked out a couple times a week, and felt pretty good about it. I came out as transmasc on Tumblr, and the days that followed were among my happiest. I found myself in a good mood more of the time than in any period I remembered. So in many respects, things were easy for me and I felt good about my life. Even so, I struggled against a deep undercurrent of anxiety.

 I think I just... felt so “privileged” that I didn’t allow myself to take into account my negative feelings, and I feared the implications they might hold for my future. I felt like I was playing on easy mode, and that I should basically feel content with my lot, and so on. I felt a deep guilt and inadequacy for having a life that looked like this, and still feeling overwhelmed with anxiety about my obligations. It’s true that relative to other people in my life, I’m extremely privileged. That insulates me from a lot of shit, and I understand if people who have fewer resources find it hard to sympathize on that basis. At the same time, my material privilege doesn’t negate the fact that I felt those emotions. First, it’s a relative matter, and things can legitimately suck for one person even if they suck way worse for another. Suffering is pretty intense like that, I guess. And there’s no rule that says “if you have it moderately well under capitalism bc you are an upper middle class white person, that means you’re automatically allotted enough to flourish”. It’s still okay to find it hard to sympathize with this stuff, but I think if you take a relative view of the world my experiences become more sympathetic (which is, of course, the end goal of any worldview-- get to work on your ideology, chop chop).

 Anyway, even if I am in some objective, blameworthy sense a “fragile” or “weak” person, that seems like a problem I should address through means other than dismissing and invalidating my emotions. Especially when I’m crying on the floor about it. People who are currently crying on the floor about it do not respond well to “have you tried being stronger?” That makes them feel worse, and then they spend the rest of their freaking out time seething that you’re Unfair, and they don’t fix shit at all. Therefore, noticing these patterns of emotion and how they make it hard to do important stuff will probably help me become stronger. Or it would if I became motivated to get stronger, and that’s honestly something I’m struggling with.

I’m going to try do both “acknowledging reality” and “giving myself compassion” next semester. Because it honestly might suck again in these ways, and I can’t control whether it sucks but I can like, attempt to sit with it and find the best way to deal with the situation rather than frankly running from my problems (which I definitely did by getting better at hedonism). And that’s a short-term solution to like, everything, and I knew it so I didn’t feel safe. Some of this shit feels massively unfair, and maybe --justly so--, because in an ideal world I will always have enough time to meet foundational needs like “are you getting enough exercise”. It is probably not like, privileged whiner bullshit to want time to exercise so you can not feel scared all the time. But I also did not feel strong enough to deal with anything that scared me, and that freaked me out even further, and so on. So I’m going to try the thing where I admit when something sucks, even if I’m afraid of my answer. I mean, I deeply wish I weren’t neurotic to the degree that I am, and I worry that on top of the consequences to me it’s a moral fault, but simply hating myself for my temperament won’t solve shit. Even if it’s an objectively bad thing to be, I’m neurotic. 

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We've got it good here

For the @solarpunkstoryexchange Prompt: solarpunk in SPACE (in space colonies, in deep space)

Author notes: I got really excited about the prompt, but fell a bit short due to not being able to work out a plot or time to write. Because of these reasons, this has been mostly left on the brainstorming stage - It starts with a bit of a story and changes into brainstorming bullet points, which span about 3 generations (or more) of people living in the place. I hope you enjoy reading it!

A couple wants a kid. Or, to be more precise, a lesbian couple on the Mars colony decides they want to try getting a kid. Their friends and local colleagues agree to the plan. The Mars colony is a close-knit community, and they collectively decide that they will love and support the kid, whatever they are like. Whether they are rowdy or quiet. Whether they’re scientific or artistic. Whatever gender they are. Whether they're disabled or not.

The earth control doesn't like the idea, but they can't control what the Martians do, only do their best to adapt and help.

The first try- no. Second - another loss. Every pregnancy is keeping the whole Mars base at their toes. Constant checkups. Mental wellbeing regulated as well as physical health. The possibly pregnant woman is given less intense work and sports. She isn't allowed out of the areas with best radiation screening. She does still work, she has to, but she also spends a lot of time studying various things. Stuff about pregnancy, about children, but also music and literature and other kinds of arts. About all kinds of problems that may arise, but also about how to best take care of a child in general.

Her wife does a lot of studying, too, just as everyone else on the base. But she also takes the extra time to be with her pregnant partner. In all honesty, so does everyone. In some way, the child will be all of theirs. While in some way, they will be a child of all of humanity.

When the pregnancy doesn't end near the beginning, and then continues well for months, they are hopeful. And when a baby is born, after several years of trying, the Mars base celebrates. And far away, people on Earth celebrate the first human born off-planet.

As a small kid, the Mars-born child is unaware of their celebrity status on Earth. They will learn what it means, but not yet.

Brainstorming:

"what do you mean i can’t have a hydroponics in my room"

Mars!!

Planting plantsies; Bacterial protein; Critters?

"Is this something I can plant in? What if I add compost?" "Hey can we do smth of this plastic? Melt it? Sun? New packages?" Wind power in Mars?

"Uh-huh wanna be the dad of my kid?" "I'm gay" "It is dangerous™ but I want a kid let’s do it" "Ur their dad but also godfather"

Aka a lesbian couple and a gay guy decide to get kids. The kid lives with lesbians but dad is integrated in life and lives in the neighbourhood

How is it solarpunk? Do they decide to do it or something else despite being prohibited?

Closed loop system

Growing culturally significant stuff even though it’s inefficient - Doing, too

Everything that can be recycled, is recycled

Outside soil made usable via mixing with compost and growing stuff that can extract nutritients from it

3d printing

What plot? Everyday life plot?

Is there a lot of scarcity?

Do they have their own internet places? Earth internet connection, but slow? Friends at earth or other space colonies???

What if someone wants to move there? Exchange student? Could someone from earth be?

Friend with the aforementioned Mars-born kid? A science enthusiast - space kid more of an art person

Jump jump!! Very popular and also healthy. Climbing too!

Exchange students bring lots of Earth stuff with them. Some personal items, but mostly small things. For all, some spices not grown on mars, and other stuff they may need/ want / have requested.

Exchange students/new residents, how many? Five or ten? An nb person too!

Had lots of stuff to digitally read when on long travel. Travel is tiring and they ate mostly packed food bc it’s easy in zero-gravity (but also fresh vegetables that grow fast, and stuff grown in poo made compost - or is it just collected for use in mars? Probs. Other grown veggies)

Getting to know each other on the flight, also gotten to know each other on the before-launch stuff. One had to drop out at the last minute due to health problems :(

When on mars: “whoa there’s gravity!! How do I get used to this again??”

People of different professions. Some doctor, some scientist, some engineer, some person person like psychologist or smth

People exercise but also do crafts. Lots of 3d-printed stuff. Games!! Also on space flight! Full body sport games! Brain games! Very regular favorite games!

Lots of lag on online stuff though :( But lesser quality = ok and faster

Gardeners!!

So much focus on learning. And everyone got to do something, whatever they can. Even if they’d rather do art? Are ppl forced to exercise? Ableism what? How much is there of it?

Growing lights and lamps. Some, in living areas, syntethise daylight and night, some, in agricultural areas, are continuously on

Mostly plants that are small but wield lots of fast food, but some less fast food for special treats (like fruits from small pruned “bonsai trees")

A large open hall for sports, including stuff like soccer, tennis, and various team sports

At first the place is very small. It grows. The amount of ppl grows from less than 10 to more than 30. When the exchange students come, more than 50 - maybe around 70?

Someone rich gets there with their money? But is made to learn to do work and use the money not for themself but for the community. Is taught social and coworking skills etc.

Most people: problem? Research!

Several do digital art to some degree - or blog! Blog a lot. Or tweet or such. Videos! Of what life on Mars is like. Everyone must be aware that the public is interested.

Most time is spent in public areas. Work is often done in small groups. All specialised in something, but can do basics in everything.

Solar panels! Lots! On top of where the hub is underground.

Marswalks done rarely, and remote-controlled robots are used a lot. Robo bees! Roombas! Farming robots!

“Exchange students" the first few with not much previous experience. A bit less that 200 into tests, then maybe a hundred into further ed and evaluation, then a few dozen into training. Finally, about 10 best chosen. This way, younger people. Around 25 to 30 when to Mars. With a few more qualified people.

Biologists manage gardens. Engineers manage repairing and building new and 3d-printers.  Doctors manage health. Chemists manage various stuff. Earth can always tell info and such when needed.

Downloaded books, online searches and videos though slow-ish to load. Calls and video conferences. New clothes from hemp grown on Mars!

Induction stove. Lots of food made by once. Stable food: beans? Sugar from where? GMO is used a lot. Sugar beets? Lots of new seeds brought every time something arrives - about every 2.5 years or longer. Good thing: no/few pests. Not many animals, possibly rats?

Most walls filled with stuff, esp. in older areas. Everyone owns not too many clothes. Maybe up to 5 outfits. Every time stuff is brought, they can wish for some. Not much though. A lot is 3d-printed on-site. Few personal belongings - most is co-owned. Works when there are few people and everyone knows everyone.

Baby gets clothes, most made of stuff grown on mars. Cutting made so it doesn’t trash fabric. Clothes are mended because making new takes a lot of resources. Kids’ clothes made a few sizes too big or so they can be easily expanded when they grow.

When exchange students come, there are a few kids. Maybe 3 who were born on Mars.

Kids are familiarized with work on Mars. Curriculum specialised for life on Mars. Made in unison with teaching experts on earth. No rigid school days, but a lot of learning. To work with the adults, though with an extra person to make sure they don’t mess things up.

A lot is automated. Taking care of the automated stuff is important.

Kids are not let into older parts. There are lots of things they may accidentally pull, and worse radiation filtering. They have some toys, 3d-printed. A few plushies, part or mostly made of extra fabric scraps

Space travel done in sleeping bags, they keep them when they come to mars.

Phones/laptops/equivalent for all. VR for games and learning! AR glasses?

Jewelry? Someone likes making it. Clothes, too - and customising! Recipes have to be fitted for Mars. Some people love trying them out.

Kid has a bit bad eyesight.

Main languages English & Russian

When did ppl first decide to *stay*? And not just spend a few weeks/months/years? “Hello we're looking for people willing to live on Mars" or “Hello we’re not leaving" ?

Mars colony grows. Also “Hey we’ve lived here for ages and I like my home planet I want to be independent"

There have been a few generations. Maybe this is the third gen. Someone child of one of the first marsborns. Is older - in 20s or 30s or smth

There is a growing community. Mostly scientists. But maybe a few other professions there too

Someone gets to make food! Communal eating almost daily or more - lunch or dinner? Dinner probably. Lunch often in work groups

Cultural feasts and celebrations are shared if applicable. Seasonings are valuable

Lots is made in laboratory. Even food like meat, but mostly medications etc.

People have to do some work and learn new stuff as long as they can. However most get significant osteoporosis when older. Eyesight loss is another difficulty, but there is an optical station that can make glasses. Things also start being adjusted for use with reduced eyesight.

Should it be somewhere else than Mars?

Over the years, parts of the base are adjusted to become as natural as possible, introducing new species into their ecosystem. Main agricultural areas are kept hydroponics, and some get turned into aquaponics systems (=includes fish, which also can occasionally be used as food)

Settlement at around equator or at middle to pole, on a flat area

Room- or apartment-like parts connected to each other by hallways. Old parts and newer parts. 1 floor and sometimes 2 OR MORE!!Like a department store!! Especially some housing areas. Or like a cruise ship with a “promenade" and rooms with windows there? Elevators?

Climbing is loved and easy because of the lower gravity, but it needs to be made safe because breaking a bone is very not good.

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Being Alone, Anaconda, and Andrew Bogut: Good little Girl who has been beautifully cared for. Kymbella slept in bed with her owner, comes when called ans sits nicely on command. She is very playful, likes toys likes to cuddle and gives sweet little kisses in return. anhattan ACC 6 yrs oldi 40 lbs Kymbella ID#22518 RETURNED 06/19/18 / Reason: Landlord Issues again (was Returned to Owner 03/17/18) >> NEW PICS and NEW POSTER for lovely Kymbella <3 KYMBELLA IS A GOOD LITTLE GIRL who sadly lost her beloved human and her home due to housing issues. Please share dear litty Kimbella for a beautiful new home <3 A volunteer writes: Kimbella seems to have been a one-man(woman)'s best friend, although she is said to be welcoming of strangers and children. She comes with excellent recommendations, slept with her person, was house trained, very playful and a good girl when left alone in the house. Kimbella has been beautifully cared for by her former owner, is perfectly groomed in a silver grey brindle coat, healthy, well mannered and was surrendered into our care because of housing issues. She is acting a little shy here at the care center but complies with whatever is requested from her. She is a great walker, does her business on the way, ignores birds and other dogs, sits on command and comes right away when called. She does not like it when her peers are too pushy or bark at her. She enjoys being free in the yard, hops on the bench next to me, squeezes against my chest and accepts caresses, giving kisses in return. She lightens up at the sight of a ball and runs briefly after it. Kimbella most likely likes her space, gentle manners, soft words and well-behaved people and peers. She would likely be a wonderful friend to the new human looking for a loyal companion. Kimbella is at the Manhattan Care Center, dreaming to be yours. Another volunteer writes She's so sad it's palpable. Surrendered due to NYCHA. Her former owner said she pulls on leash but she walked beautifully for me and another volunteer later in the day. She stops walking all of a sudden and flops over to roll around on her back - she did it twice with me, once as we were crossing the street on First Avenue! She gives kisses,likes to cuddle, and although she apparently bit a dog in her building I venture a guess it's because the dog bothered her. observed her with multiple dogs of all sizes and when they ignore hershe ignores them. It's only if they bark or pull towards her that she responds in kind. She's really so sweet, and volunteers are singing her praises. She's a Level 2 only because of the dog issue which is SO easily manageable and controlled, even in NYC. VIDEOS http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-D_90zTXPgE http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w45qZdSXALE KYMBELLA ID# 22518 MANHATTAN ACC 6 yrs old, 40 lbs GRAY / WHITE SPAYED FEMALE Owner Surrender / Landlord Issues (again :( ) Medical Behavior: Blue Intake Date: 6/29/18 SHELTER ASSESSMENT: EXPERIENCED HOME Single Pet Home OWNER PROFILE June 2018 Date of Intake 29-Jun-2018 Spay/Neuter Status Spayed Basic Information: Kymbella is a 6 year dog that was surrendered due to issues with the landlord. Previously lived with: 1 adult How is this dog around strangers? Kymbella is friendly around strangers. How is this dog around children? Kymbella has never been with children. How is this dog around other dogs? Kymbella has a previous bite history with another dog which required vet care. Kymbella barks at other dogs. How is this dog around cats? Kymbella has never been around cats. Resource guarding: Kymbella's owner has never taken away her food, toys, or treats. Bite history: Kymbella bit another dog in December 2017. That dog required veterinary care. Housetrained: Yes Energy level/descriptors: Medium Other Notes: Kymbella is not bothered by storms or fireworks. If someone unfamiliar approaches Kymbella barks at them. She is not bothered by being restrained, given a bath, brushed, or having her nails trimmed. Has this dog ever had any medical issues? Yes Medical Notes Kymbella is overweight. For a New Family to Know Kymbella is used to being an only dog. She is reactive to some dogs on leash, but not all. Her owner described her as friendly with people, affectionate, playful, and curious. Kymbella is housebroken and likes to urinate on any plastic surfaces she can find outside. If plastic is not available, she will use the cement. She is used to getting her daily exercise through two walks per day and through playing fetch with a hard rubber ball with her owner. She is well-behaved when left home alone. She is used to eating twice a day. She usually receives Purina dry food, and her owner filled her bowl to the top. Kymbella is not bothered during loud storms or when fireworks are going off. She will play and pull back on the ball when her owner tries to take it back. She has primarily been kept indoors. Kymbella either sleeps in her dog bed or in bed with her owner. Kymbella usually has her tails trimmed by the vet. Kymbella enjoys bath time. She someone unfamiliar is in the hallway, she will run to the door and watch it without barking. Her owner stated that she rarely barks. Kymbella is not bothered when strangers approach her owner. She also stated that if she is awake, Kymbella typically is. She goes for slow walks with her owner. On the leash, Kymbella pulls hard and consistently, even when given a correction. BEHAVIOR NOTES Kymbella scanned positive for a microchip. She pulls hard. She was not interested in treats. She allowed all handling and for her picture to be taken. Date of intake: 29-Jun-2018 Spay/Neuter status: Yes Means of surrender (length of time in previous home): Owner Surrender Previously lived with: An adult Behavior toward strangers: Friendly Behavior toward dogs: Barks and lunges at some dogs Resource guarding: None reported Bite history: Yes, Kymbella bit a small dog in December 2017 that was in her building. The dog required veterinary care. Housetrained: Yes Energy level/descriptors: Kybella is described as friendly with people, affectionate, playful, and curious with a medium level of activity. SAFER SCORES: Date of assessment: 1-Jul-2018 Look: 1. Dog's eyes are averted, with tail wagging and ears back. Allows head to be held loosely in Assessor's cupped hands. Sensitivity: 1. Dog stands still and accepts the touch, eyes are averted, and tail is in neutral position with a relaxed body posture. Dog's mouth is likely closed for at least a portion of the assessment item. Tag: 1. Dog follows at the end of the leash, body soft. Paw squeeze 1: 1. Dog does not respond at all for three seconds. Eyes are averted and ears are relaxed or back. Paw squeeze 2: 1. Dog does not respond at all for three seconds. Eyes are averted and ears are relaxed or back. Flank squeeze 1: Item not conducted Flank squeeze 2: Item not conducted Toy: 1. Minimal interest in toy, dog may smell or lick, then turns away. Summary: Kymbella approached the assessor in the assessment room with a soft body. She was social during the assessment, allowed all handling, and displayed no concerning behaviors. Summary (1): 3/11: When introduced to the helper dog on leash, Kymbella is tense, hard barks, and growls. Due to described discomfort and bite history involving another dog, a single dog home is recommended. Date of intake: 28-Jun-2018 Summary: Kymbella was social and allowed handling. Date of initial: 29-Jun-2018 Summary: Kymbella allowed handling. ENERGY LEVEL: Kymbella's previous owner described her as having a medium level of activity. IN SHELTER OBSERVATIONS: Kymbella has remained highly soft and social with her human caretakers throughout her time at ACC, enjoying time out of her kennel with staff and volunteers. She allows all handling and shows no wariness of novel people. In her kennel she displays highly stressed behavior (constant whining, panting etc.) and does not engage with enrichment while in her kennel. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION: EXPERIENCE (suitable for an adopter with some previous dog experience, especially with the behaviors outlined below) Behavior Asilomar TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations: Single-pet home Recommend no dog parks Recommendations comments: Single dog home/no dog parks: Due to described discomfort and bite history involving another dog, a single dog home is recommended. Potential challenges: On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration Potential challenges comments: On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration: At the care center, Kymbella has been observed to react to other dogs on leash, lunging towards them, barking and growling. This behavior was also reported in her previous home. Kymbella may need positive reinforcement, reward based training to teach her to look at you rather than other dogs. We recommend a front clip harness or head halter to help manage this behavior. MEDICAL EXAM NOTES DVM Intake Exam: Estimated age: 6yrs (o reported) Microchip noted on Intake? Y Microchip Number (If Applicable): History: o/s d/t issues w/ landlord Subjective: BAR, energetic Observed Behavior – worked up but compliant for exam, less restraint better Objective:T = DNP P = WNL R = eup BCS 7/9 EENT: Eyes clear, ears clean, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: Mild tartar and staining, no significant dental dz noted PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: Spayed female MSI: Overweight; ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat CNS: Mentation appropriate – no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: Externally normal Assessment: overweight, otherwise apparently healthy 6yr FS dog. Prognosis: good. Plan: ok for placement ---------------------------------------------------- NOTES FIRST STAY - Intake 3/10/18 KYMBELLA@MANHATTAN ACC Hello, my name is Kymbella My animal id is #22518 I am a desexed female gray brindle dog at the Manhattan Animal Care Center The shelter thinks I am about 6 years old, 53 lbs Came into shelter as owner surrender 3/10/2018 Reason Stated: Landlord won't allow (nycha) Kymbella is at risk for behavior reasons. She is highly stressed in the care center, and whimpers and shakes whilst in her kennel. Kymbella is social with people, but due to her behavior with other dogs, we recommend she be the only pet in the household. Medically, Kymbella has been treated for conjunctivitis and dermatitis whilst at the care center. My medical notes are... Weight: 53.8 lbs Vet Notes Medical Assistant 10/03/2018 [DVM Intake] DVM Intake Exam Estimated age: 6yo Microchip noted on Intake? neg Microchip Number (If Applicable): History : O/S. Dog reactive, did bite another dog last December Subjective: BARH. Friendly and well behaved during PE and med handling. Muzzled just in case. No growling or other signs of aggression. Observed Behavior - Evidence of Cruelty seen - n Evidence of Trauma seen - n Objective T = P = wnl R = wnl BCS 6/9 EENT: OU periocular alopecia and erythema. Ears mild brown/black ceruminous debris, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: mild dental calculus PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: FS, spay scar, no MGTs, no vulvar dc MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: normal externally Assessment suspect allergies otherwise, apparently healthy Prognosis: good Plan: diphenhydramine 50mg PO BID x 7 days ctm until transfer / adoption recommend allergy diet post placement SURGERY: spayed 12/03/2018 Reportedly not eating over the last 24-48 hours; started on diphenhydramine for suspected allergies but is not taking medications with food S/O -BAR, appears friendly but anxious; hard barking at kennel door and very reactive to noise -no nasal discharge, sneezing or coughing -OU: moderate periocular erythema -appears eupnic A 1. Dermatitis, suspect underlying allergies 2. Inappetance-suspect behavioral secondary to stress of shelter environment P -entice to eat with different diets -if starts eating, consider adding trazodone during stay in shelter to ease anxiety 14/03/2018 I discussed pt's behavior and poor appetite with the Behavior team today. They report that pt is very sweet outside of the kennel, but is terrified of other dogs. S: Pt comes to the front of the kennel and wags her tail and whines. O: -Small mass on OS lower lid -No ocular discharge, nasal discharge, coughing or sneezing A: -Fearful of other dogs, not eating well inside her kennel -Small eyelid mass P: 1. Discussed pt with volunteer and had the volunteer walk pt, feed her outside on a walk. Pt ate well. I also had the volunteer feed pt 100 mg trazodone - at 3:30pm this afternoon0. 2. Continue 100 mg trazodone BID - consider increasing to 150 or 200 mg depending on response. 3. If eyelid mass irritates pt's eye, consider excision 1088 14/03/2018 Started on trazodone (100 mg PO BID) yesterday due to inappetance which was suspected to be secondary to anxious behavior S/O -BAR, appears friendly and much more relaxed/docile but not sedate -no concerns with appetite today -no nasal discharge, sneezing or coughing noted or reported -OU: mild conjunctivitis, mild periocular dermatitis A 1. Inappetance, appears resolved 2. Anxiety, appears to be responding to trazodone 3. Conjunctivitis, periocular dermatitis-suspect underlying breed related allergies P -extend trazodone at 100 mg PO BID x 7 days -add neo/poly/dex OU BID x 7 days Details on my behavior are... Behavior Condition: 2. Blue Behavior History Behavior Assessment Upon intake, Kymbella was friendly and receptive to touch. As noted by her owner, she does pull very hard on her leash. She was not interested in treats, but did sit down for a photo nicely when she was less distracted. Date of Intake: 3/10/2018 Spay/Neuter Status: Spayed Basic Information:: Kymbella is a six year old spayed female medium mixed breed dog. She came in as an owner surrender due to landlord issues involving NYCHA. She most recently saw a vet in 2016. Previously lived with:: 1 adult How is this dog around strangers?: Kymbella is friendly around strangers. How is this dog around children?: Kymbella has not been around children. How is this dog around other dogs?: Kymbella is not often in the company of other dogs. When walking, she typically does not pay much attention to other dogs. She will bark and lunge at some, but not others. She bit a small dog in December of 2017 within her apartment building which resulted in that dog needing vet care. How is this dog around cats?: Kymbella has not been around cats. Resource guarding:: Owner has never tried to move or touch her food or treats. Bite history:: Kymbella bit a small dog in December 2017. That dog did require veterinary care according to its owner. Housetrained:: Yes Energy level/descriptors:: Medium Has this dog ever had any medical issues?: No For a New Family to Know: Kymbella is used to being an only dog. She is reactive to some dogs on leash, but not all. Her owner described her as friendly with people, affectionate, playful, and curious. Kymbella is housebroken and likes to urinate on any plastic surfaces she can find outside. If plastic is not available, she will use the cement. She is used to getting her daily exercise through two walks per day and through playing fetch with a hard rubber ball with her owner. She is well-behaved when left home alone. She is used to eating twice a day. She usually receives Purina dry food, and her owner filled her bowl to the top. Kymbella is not bothered during loud storms or when fireworks are going off. She will play and pull back on the ball when her owner tries to take it back. She has primarily been kept indoors. Kymbella either sleeps in her dog bed or in bed with her owner. Kymbella usually has her tails trimmed by the vet. Kymbella enjoys bath time. She someone unfamiliar is in the hallway, she will run to the door and watch it without barking. Her owner stated that she rarely barks. Kymbella is not bothered when strangers approach her owner. She also stated that if she is awake, Kymbella typically is. She goes for slow walks with her owner. On the leash, Kymbella pulls hard and consistently, even when given a correction. Date of intake:: 3/10/2018 Spay/Neuter status:: Yes Means of surrender (length of time in previous home):: Owner Surrender Previously lived with:: An adult Behavior toward strangers:: Friendly Behavior toward dogs:: Barks and lunges at some dogs Bite history:: Yes, Kymbella bit a small dog 4 months ago that was in her building. The dog required veterinary care. Housetrained:: Yes Energy level/descriptors:: Kybella is described as friendly with people, affectionate, playful, and curious with a medium level of activity. Date of assessment:: 3/11/2018 Look:: 1. Dog's eyes are averted, with tail wagging and ears back. Allows head to be held loosely in Assessor's cupped hands. Sensitivity:: 1. Dog stands still and accepts the touch, eyes are averted, and tail is in neutral position with a relaxed body posture. Dog's mouth is likely closed for at least a portion of the assessment item. Tag:: 1. Dog follows at the end of the leash, body soft. Paw squeeze 1:: 1. Dog gently pulls back his/her paw. Paw squeeze 2:: 1. Dog gently pulls back his/her paw. Flank squeeze 1:: Item not conducted Flank squeeze 2:: Item not conducted Toy:: 1. No interest. Summary:: Kymbella approached the assessor in the assessment room with a soft body. She was social during the assessment, allowed all handling, and displayed no concerning behaviors. Summary (1):: 3/11: When introduced to the helper dog on leash, Kymbella is tense, hard barks, and growls. Due to described discomfort and bite history involving another dog, a single dog home is recommended. Date of intake:: 3/10/2018 Summary:: Kymbella was social and allowed handling. Date of initial:: 3/10/2018 Summary:: Kymbella was social and allowed handling. ENERGY LEVEL:: Kymbella's previous owner described her as having a medium level of activity. IN SHELTER OBSERVATIONS:: Kymbella has remained highly soft and social with her human caretakers throughout her time at ACC, enjoying time out of her kennel with staff and volunteers. She allows all handling and shows no wariness of novel people. In her kennel she displays highly stressed behavior (constant whining, panting etc.) and does not engage with enrichment while in her kennel. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION:: EXPERIENCE (suitable for an adopter with some previous dog experience, especially with the behaviors outlined below) Behavior Asilomar: TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations:: Single-pet home,Recommend no dog parks Recommendations comments:: Single dog home/no dog parks: Due to described discomfort and bite history involving another dog, a single dog home is recommended. Potential challenges: : On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration Potential challenges comments:: On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration: At the care center, Kymbella has been observed to react to other dogs on leash, lunging towards them, barking and growling. This behavior was also reported in her previous home. Kymbella may need positive reinforcement, reward based training to teach her to look at you rather than other dogs. We recommend a front clip harness or head halter to help manage this behavior. *** TO FOSTER OR ADOPT *** If you would like to adopt a dog on our “To Be Killed” list, and you CAN get to the shelter in person to complete the adoption process **within 48 hours of reserve**, you can reserve the dog online until noon on the day they are scheduled to die. We have provided the Brooklyn, Staten Island and Manhattan information below. Adoption hours at these facilities is Noon – 8:00 p.m. (6:30 on weekends) HOW TO RESERVE A “TO BE KILLED” DOG ONLINE (only for those who can get to the shelter IN PERSON to complete the adoption process, and only for the dogs on the list NOT marked New Hope Rescue Only). Follow our Step by Step directions below! **PLEASE NOTE – YOU MUST USE A PC OR TABLET – PHONE RESERVES WILL NOT WORK! *** STEP 1: CLICK ON THIS RESERVE LINK: https://newhope.shelterbuddy.com/Animal/List Step 2: Go to the red menu button on the top right corner, click register and fill in your info. Step 3: Go to your email and verify account Step 4: Go back to the website, click the menu button and view available dogs. It should read, "reserve in progress". That is YOUR reserve. Step 5: Scroll to the animal you are interested and click reserve STEP 6 ( MOST IMPORTANT STEP ): GO TO THE MENU AGAIN AND VIEW YOUR CART. THE ANIMAL SHOULD NOW BE IN YOUR CART! Step 7: Fill in your credit card info and complete transaction Animal Care Centers of NYC (ACC) nycacc.org HOW TO FOSTER OR ADOPT IF YOU **CANNOT** GET TO THE SHELTER IN PERSON, OR IF THE DOG IS NEW HOPE RESCUE ONLY! You must live within 3 – 4 hours of NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Norther VA. Please PRIVATE MESSAGE our page for assistance. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a dog on the To Be Killed list, including those labelled Rescue Only. Hurry please, time is short, and the Rescues need time to process the applications. Shelter contact information Phone number (212) 788-4000 Email adoption@nycacc.org Shelter Addresses: Brooklyn Shelter: 2336 Linden Boulevard Brooklyn, NY 11208 Manhattan Shelter: 326 East 110 St. New York, NY 10029 Staten Island Shelter: 3139 Veterans Road West Staten Island, NY 10309

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Returning to Canada after Melbourne’s strict lockdown has been a shock (and not in the right way)

In mid-October I returned to Canada having spent the better part of 2020 under not one, but two lockdowns of increasing severity in Melbourne. Better acquainted with the four walls of my bedroom than the four corners of the vast Australian continent, my working holiday year had certainly not gone as planned. I’ve been back nearly 7 weeks but it still hasn’t quite sunk in. This house, this city is not where I grew up and they hold no more than holiday memories for me. In limbo, I can’t go back to where I was and yet I’m not sure how to move forward. I am frustrated and sad that the opportunity to live and travel in Australia just evaporated. I feel in some ways like I was never there, that it will go down in my life story as the ‘missing year’.

As the first wave of coronavirus swept the globe, I chose to stay in Melbourne. I’d only just arrived a few months previous and Australia seemed to have a better plan than Canada. The government closed its borders and sent all returning citizens into supervised mandatory quarantine at hotels. Community transmission - to the extent that it even existed - was quickly nipped in the bud and in May only a handful of cases were being reported each day. Things started reopening and although I had lost my job in March, I felt confident I had made the right decision in staying and would be able to find another. Australia, like New Zealand, was a rare success story. 

That sense of pride didn’t last long. In June case numbers in Melbourne started to creep upwards. News articles started appearing about breaches at the hotel quarantine sites which allowed the virus to gain a foothold in the community. The return to the restrictions of the first lockdown were gradual - targeting postcodes (mine included) with the highest number of cases. At the beginning of July, the rest of the state joined us. New cases were 100+ and climbing every day but a far cry from the numbers Canada was experiencing and deeming acceptable. But this time the lockdown didn’t work. In August, as case numbers hit the high of 700+ a day, the government implemented its strictest measures yet. There was a night time curfew. Only 1 hour of outdoor exercise per day was permitted and you had to be alone or with members of your immediate household only. Masks were mandatory even if you were just out to walk the dog and you couldn’t be further than 5km away from your home. Rules were enforced with large fines and police and Australian Defence Force personnel patrolled parks and other areas where people might try to gather. 

Draconian? Authoritarian? Critics and Twitter bots certainly thought so: the Premier was often referred to as ‘Dictator Dan’. I do not dispute that the economic and mental health cost of Melbourne’s lockdowns was enormous. But it was the only way Victoria could get to the zero or single digit cases that the rest of Australia was enjoying.

Victoria has gone 31 days without a single new COVID case. In contrast, British Columbia announced a record breaking 911 positive cases on 26 November. It’s been incredibly tough to see Instagram stories from friends in Melbourne: they are going to bars, the beach, meeting new people, planning Christmas vacations. Of course we can do all this too in Canada, with limits depending on where you live, but it comes with a COVID risk that does not exist in Australia. 

Coming back to BC’s fairly relaxed guidelines was terrifying. Any relief I felt over leaving the nearly 4 month lockdown was quickly replaced by anger and disbelief at how complacent provinces were as they stared a second wave in the face (I exclude the Atlantic bubble here). With cases in BC climbing to the same level that precipitated Melbourne’s harshest restrictions, I found myself wishing to be under those rules again.

It’s not ridiculous to look at Australia for guidance on how to deal with this second wave. The state of Victoria and the province of BC have comparable populations of 6.6 million and 5.1 million respectively. Both Australia and Canada have similar systems of government in which the premiers have much of the control over how they handle the pandemic response. Just like we are seeing in Vancouver and surrounding cities, the majority of sustained community transmission was in the greater Melbourne metropolitan area. What is different is the path that was chosen when the pandemic started. Australia, like New Zealand, aimed for elimination, even eradication of COVID-19. Canada was content to merely suppress it at levels that would not overwhelm hospitals. That choice may have worked the first time but it’s certainly not now.

“New modelling from the Public Health Agency of Canada (PHAC) shows the number of COVID-19 cases could reach 60,000 a day by the end of December if Canadians increase their current level of contact with other people. That number could be limited to 20,000 a day if Canadians maintain their current number of personal contacts, according to PHAC. But to drive that number under 10,000 cases a day by the end of the year, Canadians would need to limit their interactions to essential activities while maintaining physical distancing and adhering to other public health guidelines.” CBC 20 November 

The fact that we should just accept 20,000 cases a day with our current levels of restrictions is mind-boggling. Even 10,000 cases a day scares me. Much of what I take issue with in the following is BC specific but it goes for any province not doing enough to curb this second wave (cough, Alberta, cough).

When I returned I was shocked to discover that BC did not have a provincial mandatory mask mandate unlike many others. The official line was that the spread was mostly from social gatherings and masks wouldn’t be worn in those situations anyway. To this I yelled ‘then put more limits on gatherings” at the TV. On 19 November masks became mandatory in public indoor spaces. Even as she made the announcement, Dr. Bonnie Henry seemed to brush it off as something the government was only implementing to appease the growing public call for legislation; other than that, there was still no reason for it. Furthermore, the mask mandate does not apply to schools. Again the government maintained the position that there was not enough transmission in schools to warrant it. So now BC is in this ridiculous situation where a parent has to wear a mask in the grocery store for half an hour while their kid sits in a poorly ventilated building for 7 without one. With contradictory messaging like that it’s no wonder people don’t take it seriously. Wearing a mask is relatively low cost high reward but it must be enforced in all indoor public settings.

The other thing that seemed crazy to me was people eating in restaurants, going to the gym, and attending large weddings and funerals. Those events had not been allowed in Melbourne for months. A few weeks after I arrived the government talked a lot about sticking to your ‘safe six people bubble’. But it was never made clear that a bubble is only as strong as its weakest link and would never be completely COVID free. With people still going to restaurants, the gym, and cinemas, the chances of someone bringing COVID into your bubble only increased as cases numbers did. Now we’ve finally been told to socialize with our immediate households only, but we can still troop out to the bar or go to a gym (although high intensity activities like spin classes are no longer permitted). 

What could help monitor these social interactions is the federal COVID Alert app. Yet the BC government has consistently declined to activate it stating that it will hinder current contract tracing efforts and confuse people who receive alerts that they may have been exposed. Adopting the app will never replace track and trace investigations by human beings but it can complement it. Dr. Henry has admitted that the rising case numbers are causing delays in contact tracking. If the alert can tell me I’ve been potentially exposed before a public health official can, I’ll take it. It’s the same principle with mask wearing - it will never completely prevent you from picking up COVID but it sure helps your chances.

I want my normal life back as much as anyone but that is simply not possible. Leaving one lockdown for another is not my idea of fun but 7 weeks of being back in Canada has demonstrated that this country is only putting off the inevitable. Even after 9 months of this pandemic, the federal and many provincial governments would rather use words like ‘encourage’ or ‘recommend’ rather than ‘mandatory’. They put out confusing or contradictory information and then scold people for not following it. The longer we wait to enforce stricter rules, the harder it will be to flatten the curve, let alone force it downwards. It’s only the end of November; we have another four to five months of cold weather keeping us indoors to get through. I shudder to think at what our case numbers will be in January after the holidays.

The news of three promising vaccines provides cause for celebration but we should not resist implementing further restrictions simply because some people *may* start receiving the jab next spring. It will take time before it gets to the general population - our medical professionals and the vulnerable rightly need it first. We will still have to wear masks, limit gatherings, and socially distance as those around us slowly start receiving the vaccine. Yes that means throughout 2021 for Canadians, especially if we cannot get a handle on cases this winter. 

I can offer these thoughts only as someone who experienced an actual lockdown (make no mistake, Canada’s version is ‘lockdown-lite’). I won’t bother advocating for the harshest of Melbourne’s restrictions because the government isn’t willing or prepared to invest the manpower it will take to enforce such rules. But surely some watered down version could be implemented. At some point public health must take priority. You can’t have a thriving economy when your workforce is sick, isolating, or dead. As the Victorian government reminded me daily this year: ‘staying apart keeps us together’. 

[noheroes-allowed]

of going to campus

pros

potentially seeing people – keith, ivy, really not much else, I really don’t have friends. segc? idk everyone feels so distant, all my progress has been thrown away this spring/summer. march feels like a dream - how was it real?

I won’t be wondering what if – what if I went to campus? would life be different? if I stayed home, life would carry on as it has been the past 6 months (wow that’s half a year). this kinda sucks bc I feel like I’m not even going to do anything on campus anyway. like I’m not going to make new friends am I? I’m not going to see him that often either (at all?). I don’t even think he cares anymore. but could that change? could I make it change if I went? this is what I mean by I won’t have to wonder what if. I will be disappointed/jealous/other emotions in spring semester too wondering what ifs. unless I actually actually move on. is this lingering idea worth the pros of staying home I’d miss out on?  

getting away from family – april was horrible. my most vivid memory of that time is working until 3am and procrastinating badly, being so unproductive and having meltdowns. I felt like I was in high school all over again and I hate that feeling. may/june/july is a blur. I just worked and read and stressed myself out. I didn’t do anything with my family. I got into fights with my parents and my brother. the past two weeks have been anomalous. my experiences recently are not indicative of what the upcoming 3 months will look like. I will get mad at everyone, I will get annoyed by everyone. having time apart always makes me more appreciative/patient when I come back. staying here will make me feel like I’m trapped.

a new space – I’m tired of my room. would it be possible to rearrange it? I’m not sure if that will completely help. I’m tired of springdale. I got sick of going on walks around here. I’ll get sick of Ithaca too, but I’ll be inside so much with work that that feeling might not even come up until november. I miss having my own space. I miss being in control and not having people bother me when I don’t want to be bothered. my mother will continuously come into my room if I stay. my brother will be noisy if I stay. I want to control my food. I want independence.

recruitment – I will definitely focus more on this on-campus since I’ll have less distractions. if I’m home, I’ll probably do something fun instead of productive like applying.

 cons

$2400 – someone wants to sublet from me from sept – dec. that’s 4 months rent. is that more than how much I value the independence/freedom/change of pace/productivity I’d get from going to Ithaca?

people – I like watching wheel of fortune with my brother. hanging out with eunbin? idk since we’ll both be busy (we never even hang out). my mom? I’ll see her when I get back. and the summer. this one is hard to say bc idk where I’ll be in the future. if I live close to my family, I won’t care so much about these 3 months. but if I live far away, maybe I’ll look back and regret isolating myself from them. I will be independent for the rest of my life (realistically). 

covid – obvious. I feel like I’ll get more exposed going to get tested than I’ll be just being off-campus in my room all the time.

exercise – I’m more comfortable exercising at home than at school. I was considering some PE classes, but I don’t want to overload myself. or waste/lose my money once we go online.

I hate talking about this to -- . I feel like she’s not hearing the other factors here and that she puts her opinion and choice above other people. it’s twisted the way she frames some things. like she’s guilting me that I am not compassionate towards other people if I don’t follow the things she does. but it’s irritating bc she doesn’t outright say it. it’s morphed into a semi-compliment and just guilts me into a corner. may/may not be her intent, but that’s how it comes off.

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BASICS.

FULL  NAME :   Takashi Shirogane NICKNAME :   Shiro AGE :  25 BIRTHDAY :   October 21st ETHNIC  GROUP :  Japanese NATIONALITY :   Japanese-American LANGUAGE / S : English, Japanese, bits of Altean and Galran SEXUAL  ORIENTATION :  asexual ROMANTIC  ORIENTATION :  aromantic RELATIONSHIP  STATUS :   queerplatonic relationship with Allura HOME  TOWN / AREA :  Yokohama, Kanagawa Prefecture, Honshu, Japan CURRENT  HOME :   Castle of Lions PROFESSION :  Black Paladin, leader of Team Voltron

PHYSICAL.

HAIR: deep black and cut short, the sides and back of his head shaved into an undercut. one long patch is left at the front, a forelock that hangs down over his forehead, reaching down just shy of his eyes. while this forelock used to be the same black as the rest of his hair, it’s now white, the colour lost under the severe stress he faced in Galra captivity. EYES :   a dark grey in colour, sometimes looking from a distance to be a deep brown or black. long eyelashes. FACE :  strong, sharp jawline, high cheekbones, long and straight nose, thick eyebrows. LIPS :   average, perhaps leaning on the thin side -- often quite dry or cracked. COMPLEXION :  pale, but in a sickly, unnaturally caused kind of way, caused by complete lack of sunlight and possibly other events from his time in captivity. eyes often have dark circles beneath them. BLEMISHES :   none SCARS :  most notably, the lateral scar running across his nose, gained in a gladiator battle. the rest of his body is littered with scars, of all different varieties. large, jagged gashes, thin but deep lines, claw marks, sword slices, burns -- just about anything you can think of. the placings are all very random, all clearly gained from battle, some overlapping. none of it is a pretty nor attractive sight, one of the many reasons he always has so much of his body covered. as well, there is a great deal of scarring on the bicep of his right arm, where skin meets the metal of his prosthetic. TATTOOS :  none HEIGHT :   6′2″ WEIGHT :   182 lbs. BUILD :   muscular and fit. chest and arms particularly toned, though his legs aren’t lacking in muscle mass. FEATURES :   Galran cybernetic prosthetic arm. ALLERGIES :   none, as far as he’s aware. USUAL  HAIR  STYLE :  kind of just how he wakes up. the only hair he really has that can be styled is his forelock, which is generally left alone. USUAL  FACE  LOOK :   clean-shaven. USUAL  CLOTHING :   not a lot of clothing variety in the middle of space. outside of his armour and his usual outfit though, he’d stick to long sleeves. lots of sweaters or shirts with long sleeves. his style always used to be very casual and comfortable.

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR / S :   loss of those he cares for. isolation. captivity. the possibility that he might not be a good person, that he’s every bit a monster that the Galra are with everything he’s done and is capable of doing. loss of control. panic attacks. flashbacks. ASPIRATION / S :   defeat Zarkon and free those who have been under his control or enslaved by him. keep the other paladins as innocent as he can/they should be at their ages. keep the other paladins alive and get them all home safely. find and save matt and commander holt. work with keith to develop and show him his capabilities. POSITIVE  TRAITS :   loyal | supportive | patient | reliable | practical | observant | compassionate NEGATIVE  TRAITS :   represses feelings | paranoid | pessimistic | solemn | on occasion can let emotion direct him to reckless action | self-sacrificing MBTI :   DEFENDER ( ISFJ-A ) ZODIAC :   libra TEMPEREMENT :   melancholic SOUL  TYPE / S :    leader, helper, caregiver ANIMALS :   sable VICE  HABIT / S :    jaw clenching, finger tapping, biting the inside of his lip/cheek FAITH :  none GHOSTS ? :   doesn’t believe AFTERLIFE ? :   doesn’t believe REINCARNATION ? :   doesn’t believe ALIENS ? :   i mean. he wishes they weren’t real sometimes. POLITICAL  ALIGNMENT :  vol...tron?? whatever being against zarkon is. EDUCATION  LEVEL :    high. graduated the Galaxy Garrison at the top of his class.

FAMILY.

FATHER :    n/a. MOTHER :    n/a. SIBLINGS :   n/a. EXTENDED  FAMILY :   n/a. NAME  MEANING / S :    隆 ( takashi ), meaning “noble, prosperous”;  白銀 ( shirogane ), meaning “silver” HISTORICAL  CONNECTION ? :   n/a.

FAVORITES.

BOOK :  a brief history of time by stephen hawking MOVIE :   n/a -- he needs to pick a new one because all his old favourites are sci-fi and those are a lot less fun after you’ve lived it. 5  SONGS :  n/a ( forgive me, i’ve not settled on his favourite music yet ) DEITY :   n/a HOLIDAY :   new years MONTH :   september SEASON :   autumn PLACE :    his home -- the one where he grew up and lived with his mom after moving from japan when he was very young. WEATHER :   cool, but not cold. sunny, but with clouds in the sky and the chance of rain. SOUND :   wind blowing past leaves in the trees SCENT / S :    rain, freshly dried laundry, mom’s tonkatsu TASTE / S :    subtle flavours, most things fruity FEEL / S :   anything that isn’t metal. soft, anything that screams ‘comfort’ ANIMAL / S :    wolves NUMBER :  11 -- his favourite time is 11:11 COLORS :   he’s been rethinking these, since a lot of his favourites now remind him of not so pleasant things these days.

EXTRA.

TALENTS :  leadership, knowing the right thing to say in most circumstances, combat -- particularly hand to hand, picking up on and memorizing patterns, improvising, observation -- particularly of people and their behaviours, ticks, etc. BAD  AT :  handling his own emotions, seeing his own value TURN  ONS :   n/a TURN  OFFS :   n/a HOBBIES :    exercising, sparring, reading, distracting himself from his thoughts and anxieties, avoiding sleep, spending time with those he cares about, cuddling TROPES :   Broken Ace, Awesome by Analysis, Team Dad, I Am a Monster, 100% Adoration Rating, Not So Above it All QUOTES :     “ If you get too worried about what could go wrong, you might miss a chance to do something great. ” “ Patience yields focus. ”

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 :   if  you  could  write  your  character  your  way  in  their  own  movie ,   what  would  it  be  called ,  what  style  would  it  be  filmed  in ,  and  what  would  it  be  about ?           A1 :   uhhh i mean, since he’s a very main character, i get quite a bit of what i want from canon ngl. buuuut i’d love some full backstory of his life prior to kerberos, plus everything that happened while the galra had him prisoner. Q2 :   what  would  their  soundtrack / score  sound  like ?           A2 :   oh god, idk. music with deep, heavy lyrics, but ultimately with optimistic messages? Q3 :   why  did  you  start  writing  this  character ?           A3 :    okay so i’m a big red vs. blue fan, and i was seeing all kinds of people talking on tumblr about how shiro is so much like wash, who happens to be my favourite character and my biggest, oldest muse. finally caved and watch voltron, and... shiro ticks like, all of my boxes for a favourite character + character i can relate to on some levels. he’s complex, he’s broken, he struggles a lot internally but holds it together and helps others, he’s team dad, he’s self-sacrificing... i could go on, i really could. Q4 :   what  first  attracted  you  to  this  character ?           A4 :   oh. uhm. see the answer above. i heard he was v much like wash except more chill and much less jaded, and also who could escape hearing him referred to as ‘space dad’. i’m weak for space/team dads. Q5 :   describe  the  biggest  thing  you  dislike  about  your  muse.           A5 :   holy shit nothing. i love him and his strengths and his flaws. Q6 :   what  do  you  have  in  common  with  your  muse ?           A6 :   mm... we both believe more in others than ourselves, both v supportive of those we care about... there may be more??? but those stick out to me the most. Q7 :   how  does  your  muse  feel  about  you ?           A7 :   “Please stop playing on my fears” basically Q8 :   what  characters  does  your  muse  have  interesting  interactions  with ?         A8 :    everyone??? i love getting to explore the older brother/dad dynamic he has with the rest of the paladins, and how it differs between the four. also love the dynamic between enemies, particularly those who put him on edge, or worse. Q9 :   what  gives  you  inspiration  to  write  your  muse ?         A9 :    honestly i tend to wake up with inspiration bc he’s become my strongest muse, right up there with wash, buuuuut rewatching canon, having intense discussions about canon or AUs, and doing character analysis all give me an extra boost of inspiration, for sure. Q10 :   how  long  did  this  take  you  to  complete ?           A10 :    like half the fucking day, holy shit. granted, my focus is shit and it’s not the only thing i’ve been doing. multitasking.

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BASICS.

FULL  NAME :   Takashi Shirogane ( 白銀隆 ) NICKNAME :   Shiro AGE :  25 BIRTHDAY :   October 21st ETHNIC  GROUP :  Japanese NATIONALITY :   Japanese-American LANGUAGE / S : English, Japanese, bits of Altean and Galran SEXUAL  ORIENTATION :  asexual ROMANTIC  ORIENTATION :  aromantic RELATIONSHIP  STATUS :   single HOME  TOWN / AREA :  Yokohama, Kanagawa Prefecture, Honshu, Japan CURRENT  HOME :   Castle of Lions PROFESSION :  Black Paladin, leader of Team Voltron

PHYSICAL.

HAIR: deep black and cut short, the sides and back of his head shaved into an undercut. one long patch is left at the front, a forelock that hangs down over his forehead, reaching down just shy of his eyes. while this forelock used to be the same black as the rest of his hair, it’s now white, the colour lost under the severe stress he faced in Galra captivity. EYES :   a dark grey in colour, sometimes looking from a distance to be a deep brown or black. long eyelashes. FACE :  strong, sharp jawline, high cheekbones, long and straight nose, thick eyebrows. LIPS :   average, perhaps leaning on the thin side – often quite dry or cracked. COMPLEXION :  pale, but in a sickly, unnaturally caused kind of way, caused by complete lack of sunlight and possibly other events from his time in captivity. eyes often have dark circles beneath them. BLEMISHES :   none SCARS :  most notably, the lateral scar running across his nose, gained in a gladiator battle. the rest of his body is littered with scars, of all different varieties. large, jagged gashes, thin but deep lines, claw marks, sword slices, burns – just about anything you can think of. the placings are all very random, all clearly gained from battle, some overlapping. none of it is a pretty nor attractive sight, one of the many reasons he always has so much of his body covered. as well, there is a great deal of scarring on the bicep of his right arm, where skin meets the metal of his prosthetic. TATTOOS :  none HEIGHT :   6′2″ WEIGHT :   182 lbs. BUILD :   muscular and fit. chest and arms particularly toned, though his legs aren’t lacking in muscle mass. FEATURES :   Galran cybernetic prosthetic arm. ALLERGIES :   none, as far as he’s aware. USUAL  HAIR  STYLE :  kind of just how he wakes up. the only hair he really has that can be styled is his forelock, which is generally left alone. USUAL  FACE  LOOK :   clean-shaven. USUAL  CLOTHING :   not a lot of clothing variety in the middle of space. outside of his armour and his usual outfit though, he’d stick to long sleeves. lots of sweaters or shirts with long sleeves. his style always used to be very casual and comfortable.

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR / S :   loss of those he cares for. isolation. captivity. the possibility that he might not be a good person, that he’s every bit a monster that the Galra are with everything he’s done and is capable of doing. loss of control. panic attacks. flashbacks. ASPIRATION / S :   defeat Zarkon and free those who have been under his control or enslaved by him. keep the other paladins as innocent as he can/they should be at their ages. keep the other paladins alive and get them all home safely. find and save matt and commander holt. work with keith to develop and show him his capabilities. POSITIVE  TRAITS :   loyal | supportive | patient | reliable | practical | observant | compassionate NEGATIVE  TRAITS :   represses feelings | paranoid | pessimistic | solemn | on occasion can let emotion direct him to reckless action | self-sacrificing MBTI :   DEFENDER ( ISFJ-A ) ZODIAC :   libra TEMPEREMENT :   melancholic SOUL  TYPE / S :    leader, helper, caregiver ANIMALS :   sable VICE  HABIT / S :    jaw clenching, finger tapping, biting the inside of his lip/cheek FAITH :  none GHOSTS ? :   doesn’t believe AFTERLIFE ? :   doesn’t believe REINCARNATION ? :   doesn’t believe ALIENS ? :   i mean. he wishes they weren’t real sometimes. POLITICAL  ALIGNMENT :  vol…tron?? whatever being against zarkon is. EDUCATION  LEVEL :    high. graduated the Galaxy Garrison at the top of his class.

FAMILY.

FATHER :    doesn’t really remember or know much about him MOTHER :    deceased. SIBLINGS :   Keith Kogane, adopted brother EXTENDED  FAMILY :   n/a. NAME  MEANING / S :    隆 ( takashi ), meaning “noble, prosperous”;  白銀 ( shirogane ), meaning “silver” HISTORICAL  CONNECTION ? :   n/a.

FAVORITES.

BOOK :  a brief history of time by stephen hawking MOVIE :   n/a – he needs to pick a new one because all his old favourites are sci-fi and those are a lot less fun after you’ve lived it. 5  SONGS :  n/a ( forgive me, i’ve not settled on his favourite music yet ) DEITY :   n/a HOLIDAY :   new years MONTH :   september SEASON :   autumn PLACE :    his home – the one where he grew up and lived with his mom after moving from japan when he was very young. the home where he watched Keith grow up. WEATHER :   cool, but not cold. sunny, but with clouds in the sky and the chance of rain. SOUND :   wind blowing past leaves in the trees SCENT / S :    rain, freshly dried laundry, mom’s tonkatsu TASTE / S :    subtle flavours, most things fruity FEEL / S :   anything that isn’t metal. soft, anything that screams ‘comfort’ ANIMAL / S :    wolves NUMBER :  11 – his favourite time is 11:11 COLORS :   he’s been rethinking these, since a lot of his favourites now remind him of not so pleasant things these days.

EXTRA.

TALENTS :  leadership, knowing the right thing to say in most circumstances, combat – particularly hand to hand, picking up on and memorizing patterns, improvising, observation – particularly of people and their behaviours, ticks, etc. BAD  AT :  handling his own emotions, seeing his own value TURN  ONS :   n/a TURN  OFFS :   n/a HOBBIES :    exercising, sparring, reading, distracting himself from his thoughts and anxieties, avoiding sleep, spending time with those he cares about, cuddling TROPES :   Broken Ace, Awesome by Analysis, Team Dad, I Am a Monster, 100% Adoration Rating, Not So Above it All QUOTES :     “ If you get too worried about what could go wrong, you might miss a chance to do something great. ” “ Patience yields focus. ”

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 :   if  you  could  write  your  character  your  way  in  their  own  movie ,   what  would  it  be  called ,  what  style  would  it  be  filmed  in ,  and  what  would  it  be  about ?           A1 :   uhhh i mean, since he’s a very main character, i get quite a bit of what i want from canon ngl. buuuut i’d love some full backstory of his life prior to kerberos, plus everything that happened while the galra had him prisoner. Q2 :   what  would  their  soundtrack / score  sound  like ?           A2 :   oh god, idk. music with deep, heavy lyrics, but ultimately with optimistic messages? Q3 :   why  did  you  start  writing  this  character ?           A3 :    okay so i’m a big red vs. blue fan, and i was seeing all kinds of people talking on tumblr about how shiro is so much like wash, who happens to be my favourite character and my biggest, oldest muse. finally caved and watch voltron, and… shiro ticks like, all of my boxes for a favourite character + character i can relate to on some levels. he’s complex, he’s broken, he struggles a lot internally but holds it together and helps others, he’s team dad, he’s self-sacrificing… i could go on, i really could. Q4 :   what  first  attracted  you  to  this  character ?           A4 :   oh. uhm. see the answer above. i heard he was v much like wash except more chill and much less jaded, and also who could escape hearing him referred to as ‘space dad’. i’m weak for space/team dads. Q5 :   describe  the  biggest  thing  you  dislike  about  your  muse.           A5 :   holy shit nothing. i love him and his strengths and his flaws. Q6 :   what  do  you  have  in  common  with  your  muse ?           A6 :   mm… we both believe more in others than ourselves, both v supportive of those we care about… there may be more??? but those stick out to me the most. Q7 :   how  does  your  muse  feel  about  you ?           A7 :   “Please stop playing on my fears” basically Q8 :   what  characters  does  your  muse  have  interesting  interactions  with ?         A8 :    everyone??? i love getting to explore the older brother/dad dynamic he has with the rest of the paladins, and how it differs between the four. also love the dynamic between enemies, particularly those who put him on edge, or worse. Q9 :   what  gives  you  inspiration  to  write  your  muse ?         A9 :    honestly i tend to wake up with inspiration bc he’s become my strongest muse, right up there with wash, buuuuut rewatching canon, having intense discussions about canon or AUs, and doing character analysis all give me an extra boost of inspiration, for sure. Q10 :   how  long  did  this  take  you  to  complete ?           A10 :    like half the fucking day, holy shit. granted, my focus is shit and it’s not the only thing i’ve been doing. multitasking.

[bloojayoolie]

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If you are looking for a tail wagging wonderful friend who will shower you with kisses, and be up for any adventure, look no further. Blue has the biggest heart of any dog we’ve seen, and he’s ready for his perfect family. Please don’t let him wait too long. Message our page or email us at MustLoveDogsNYC@gmail.com if you can foster or adopt him. A volunteer writes: Blue was brought to us because his owner left Blue with a friend. Due to circumstances, the owner is unable to reclaim Blue and no one is able to care for Blue long term. A volunteer writes: “Blue was surrendered as a stray, and he's now looking for a new place to call home. He looks and acts like a very young dog, so we'll see if his age will change on his profile. He did well in playgroup with Nanouk, and he's very friendly with people. He's in adoptions now at SIACC.” A staff member writes: "Hey, Blue!" That is a popular refrain shouted from the stands at umpires at a baseball game when a call goes against the home team. You will never strike out with this Blue, who is playing for Team ACC out in Staten Island. A true all-star of a pup, he certainly could lead the majors in stolen bases as he is fast runner with a ton of energy. If you are looking for a friend to bring some excitement to your home, one who knows how to be a team player, Blue could be for you! Come down to Staten Island's Care Center to see if you and Blue are destined for a Hall of Fame match-up!” MY MOVIE Blue - handsome and friendly https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jq4fWBdO1ec BLUE, ID# 65308, 8 yrs old, 52 lbs, Unaltered Male Staten Island ACC, Large Mixed Breed, Black / White Surrender Reason: his owner left Blue with a friend when being arrested. Due to circumstances, the owner is unable to reclaim Blue and no one is able to care for Blue long term. Shelter Assessment Rating: LEVEL 2 No young children (under 5) No cats Medical Behavior Rating: INTAKE PROFILE - BASIC INFORMATION: Blue is a black and white, male, large mixed breed approximately 8 year old dog that was brought in due to his owner being arrested. Blue previously lived with 2 adults. Blue is friendly and outgoing around strangers. Blue has no experience around children. Blue has spent time around a small mixed breed male dog. He was respectful, relaxed and playful. Blue will lunge and growl around cats. He has no ressknown ressource guarding issues and no known bigte history. Blue is housetrained and his owner describes his energy level as very high. Other Notes: Blue will destroy furniture and has escaped a 10 ft fence. He is nervous during storms, fireworks and will hide. Blue is not bothered by having his bowl touched, his treats taken away, his toys taken away, being pushed off furniture, being held, being disturbed while sleeping, being given a bath, having his dog brushed, having his nails trimmed, or when someone unfamiliar approaches the yard or house. Has this dog ever had any medical issues? No Medical Notes Blue has no known medical issues For a New Family to Know Blue can best be described as friendly, confident, and excitable. His favorite activity is playing with other dogs. When at home, Blue tends to follow his human around. His favorite toys are chew bones. He loves to play chase, and is use to being indoors and outdoors. Blue is use to sleeping in a crate and eats both wet and dry food. Blue is house trained and and prefers to go to the bathroom on cement. When left alone in the house Blue will escape. Blue knows the command sit, and gets his exercise playing in the yard. On leash Blue pulls very hard. When off leash, Blue will wander but will come back. BEHAVIOR NOTES Means of surrender (length of time in previous home): agency Previously lived with: 2 adults Behavior toward strangers: friendly/outgoing Behavior toward children: no prior experience Behavior toward dogs: respectful, relaxed, played Behavior toward cats: lunge, growls Resource guarding: None reported Bite history: None reported Housetrained: Yes Energy level/descriptors: very high Other Notes: Blue was reported to destroy furniture and escaped a 10 foot fence SAFER ASSESSMENT: Summary: Leash Walking Strength and pulling: moderate Reactivity to humans: inconclusive Reactivity to dogs: inconclusive Leash walking comments: Sociability Loose in room (15-20 seconds): moderately social Call over: approaches readily Sociability comments: Handling Soft handling: accepts contact Exuberant handling: seeks contact Comments: attempts to jump up on assessor Arousal Jog: Engages in play with handler (loose, soft) Arousal comments: Knock: Approaches (loose) Knock Comments: Toy: Grips, relinquishes Toy comments: PLAYGROUP NOTES - DOG TO DOG SUMMARIES: 6/11/19: Blue was introduced to a neutered male. When the male attempted to mount him, he gave a slight grumble. They did not play but were comfortable in the same space. INTAKE BEHAVIOR: Date of intake: 8-Jun-2019 Summary: loose, wiggly MEDICAL BEHAVIOR: Date of initial: 9-Jun-2019 Summary: hyper, friendly ENERGY LEVEL: very high BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION: Level 2 Behavior Asilomar TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations: No young children (under 5) No cats Recommendations comments: Due to the high level of jumping seen at the care center, we recommend a home without young children. Older children who are comfortable around large, jumpy dogs should have an in-depth interaction prior to adoption. Blue was reported to lunge and growl at cats. Due to this, we recommend a home without any cats. Potential challenges: Destructive behavior Basic manners/poor impulse control Strength/leash pulling Potential challenges comments: Blue is reported to show destructive behavior in the home, such as chewing on furniture. We are unaware of what, if any, attempts were made to remedy this behavior but we suggest to future adopters that Blue will need to be provided with physical and mental stimulation and with a variety of appropriate and engaging chew toys so he can engage in necessary chewing behavior without damage to human objects. Please see the handout on destructive behavior. Blue has been seen to jump up on handlers. It is recommended that default behaviors such as "Leave it", "Sit/Stay", "Down" are reinforced to substitute any frustration and teach her to control her impulses instead of simply reacting; proper management is also advised. Force-free, reward based training only is recommended. Please see the handout on basic manners/poor impulse control. Blue is a very, strong dog with the capability to pull over an average adopter. His adopter must be prepared and able to handle a dog of this size and strength. It is recommended that he be walked on a front clip harness or head halter, which help diminish his strength through leverage, and that he be trained using positive reinforcement, reward based training to not pull on leash. Please see the handout on strength/leash-pulling. MEDICAL EXAM NOTES 18-Jun-2019 Pre-Op Exam Subjective: pre-neuter exam; was treated with enrofloxacin for otitis Objective BCS- 5/9 EENT: Eyes clear, AU-mild erythema and brown debris, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: mild tartar PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupneic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: MI, 2 descended testicles MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: external wnl Assessment: otitis externa Plan: neuter today applied oti-pack AU 18-Jun-2019 Spay/Neuter Summary [Surgery Template - Dog Neuter] Was this dog a cryptorchid? No If so describe - Pre scrotal Incision Spermatic Cord Ligation with: 2-0 PDS Sub Q closure: 2-0 PDS Skin closure? 2-0 PDS intradermal 18-Jun-2019 Surgical Notes Post Surgery Note: 1:11 PM Anesthesia Summary: Canine NEUTER Pre Medication: Hydromorphone 2 mg/ml – 1.18 ml IM, once. Dexmedetomidine 0.5 mg/ml – 0.14 ml IM, once. Induction: Midazolam 5 mg/ml- 0.47 ml IV, once Propofol 10 mg/ml – 9.46 ml IV, once. Testicular block: Lidocaine/Sterile water/ (1.18 mL/2.82 mL), administered pre-operatively. Anesthesia Notes: Size 9 mm . ET tube placed, maintained general anesthesia throughout procedure on variable isoflurane and variable O2. Used (rebreathing) system with 3 L bag. 20 g IVC placed in L cephalic vessel. Intraoperative IV LRS at 5-10mL/kg/hr at 300 mL/hr NSAID: Rimadyl 50mg/mL injectable, 1.89 mL, SQ, once post-operatively, for post-operative pain relief. Recovery Status: Uneventful Anesthetist/Surgical Monitor : 1289/0715 Start 1 tablet of Caprofen 100 mg SID PO x 3 days as pain management. 9-Jun-2019 DVM Intake Exam Estimated age: 8 years Microchip noted on Intake? no, ACC implant Microchip Number (If Applicable): History : stray Subjective: active, alert and responsive Observed Behavior - hyper, friendly Evidence of Cruelty seen - no Evidence of Trauma seen - no Objective T = P = R = BCS- 5/9 EENT: Eyes clear, ears- otitis externa, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: mild tartar PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: wnl, intact MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: external wnl Assessment: otitis Prognosis: good Plan: baytril (enrfloxacin) 136mg PO SID x 7 days recheck ears in 5- 7 days. SURGERY: Temporary waiver due to otitis *** TO FOSTER OR ADOPT *** If you would like to adopt a NYC ACC dog, and can get to the shelter in person to complete the adoption process, you can contact the shelter directly. We have provided the Brooklyn, Staten Island and Manhattan information below. Adoption hours at these facilities is Noon – 8:00 p.m. (6:30 on weekends) If you CANNOT get to the shelter in person and you want to FOSTER OR ADOPT a NYC ACC Dog, you can PRIVATE MESSAGE our Must Love Dogs page for assistance. PLEASE NOTE: You MUST live in NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Northern VA. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a NYC ACC dog. Transport is available if you live within the prescribed range of states. Shelter contact information: Phone number (212) 788-4000 Email adopt@nycacc.org Shelter Addresses: Brooklyn Shelter: 2336 Linden Boulevard Brooklyn, NY 11208 Manhattan Shelter: 326 East 110 St. New York, NY 10029 Staten Island Shelter: 3139 Veterans Road West Staten Island, NY 10309 *** NEW NYC ACC RATING SYSTEM *** Level 1 Dogs with Level 1 determinations are suitable for the majority of homes. These dogs are not displaying concerning behaviors in shelter, and the owner surrender profile (where available) is positive. Level 2 Dogs with Level 2 determinations will be suitable for adopters with some previous dog experience. They will have displayed behavior in the shelter (or have owner reported behavior) that requires some training, or is simply not suitable for an adopter with minimal experience. Level 3 Dogs with Level 3 determinations will need to go to homes with experienced adopters, and the ACC strongly suggest that the adopter have prior experience with the challenges described and/or an understanding of the challenge and how to manage it safely in a home environment. In many cases, a trainer will be needed to manage and work on the behaviors safely in a home environment.

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THE DAILY GRIND... ARE WE THERE YET?

Saturday, 2 Dec., 2017.  Dark, wet and grey and cool.  Another day in the life.  I'm lonely but feeling pretty good, lately.  I've come to accept that I'm old and there is nothing I can do about it.  Go with the flow, as it were.  Did some painting, some selfies, some exercises, pot, coffee, T3's.  Stopped at my pharmacy to drop off a Rx and get a flu shot on the way downtown.

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I'm old and I know it.  Time is running out and I try, hard, to find ways to fix the planet and teach you things... to be useful, as it were.

I encourage you to learn a few things about history, not just isolated events, but to think about the time period and what was happening, at the same time, elsewhere.  When you start doing that, creating a mental image timeline of history, time shrinks and you begin to see patterns and connections of things.

In 1300BC Egypt was still powerful, but falling into a slow decay.  Old tombs were being robbed by the new kings.  In England, the south and west were filled with enough humans to build Stonehenge and we know they ate a lot of pigs.  The north was still pretty chilly but would have farmers in the next 400 years... many from Europe, as it would be easy to cross in the winter when ice bridges still formed.

Egypt would fall into decline because of a worldwide climate issue that affected the Mediterranean the most... drought would cause the first recorded labour strike... there was no grain to make payments.  The Jews would high tale it out and move east and north to greener pastures, as it were.  By 1,000BC King David, a little red-headed Jew would begin a short-lived Jewish kingdom, of sorts.  That would come crashing down by the 8th century BC.  The Minoan Empire vanished along with Myceans around 1200BC.  Likely a volcano blew its top and caused the issues all over the place.

Meanwhile, in N and S America, the Inca would begin to rise around 500BC as well as the Mayans.  The Inca/Aztecs would wipe out the Mayans by 1200AD and be, themselves wiped out by the Spanish and Portuguese in the 15-1600's, for their gold.

In 400-500BC people like Buddha (623BC), and Confucious (551BC) came into the world.  Alexander the Great would follow.  In the far east, the Jews had been free from Persian control for a few hundred years but were not of any consequence upon the planet.  The Egyptian empires were in decline and had been for centuries.  In England, farming had begun and Viking invasions and control were the norms.  In North America, the Mayan Empire was on the rise and would fall in the next 1,000 years.  China was not an Empire to be feared.  What China lacked but would soon get, were horses.  China didn't have full-size horses until the rise of the Mongols who would make excellent use of war horses.  India had been in decline for centuries and continued to decline... Alexander the Great was coming to India soon. ..............................

THIS IS THE END OF THE DAILY GRIND.

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Absolute rest is not possible... ever.  The universe can not end.  Time is change and is an illusion.  It is always now, everywhere, all at once, all of the time. Proof of that is that ANY object MUST be HERE and THERE at the SAME time, no matter how large... even a Galaxy.  It is always NOW on both sides... here and there, in space,  of the Galaxy... all galaxies, everywhere.  Waves can be either physical or electronic.  The duality of the universe keeps it ongoing.  DNA is the battery of life.  When the chains can no longer co-operate, life ceases in the body.  Life, itself, is a duality.  Time measurement is a relativity convenience.)  Time travel is impossible because time is not a place and nothing stays where it was.  One year from now the Solar System will have moved about seven BILLION kilometres through space and will NEVER return to where it was... ever.

Earth travels through space like a long wave... it has NEVER, ever made an actual circle, nor ellipse, in space.  The circle/ellipse is an illusion of relativity.  Nothing can ever travel in an actual circle in space... NOTHING.  Nothing can ever go backward.  Backwards motion is an illusion of relativity.  Time is a repercussion of change and has no fixed rate... things explode or move like a glacier.  At best we can only compare rates of change.  Our rate of change is called the second/minute/hour/day/month/year system.

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Earth moves about 7 billion kilometers through space, each year... in a long wave.  Earth NEVER returns to where it was before.  Earth is NOT an island in space... one of the reasons why time travel is impossible.  If you take a trip through space, outside the Solar System, Earth will NOT be there when you return... it will be far, far away.  You will have to return to where it will BE when you arrive... remember, it's moving very, very, very fast through space in a long wave... never a circle, or ellipse.

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Inhibitions are just so inhibiting, I avoid them.

I'm a friendly, but pretty blunt, kind of guy.  No time for beating around the bush.  I like to say what I mean and mean what I say.  I'm 73 years old.  Time is not on my side.  You don't have to like me.  I'm a social recluse, anyway.  I share my life, in photos, video, and words, to let you into my life and hope to inspire you to be a productive and useful human.  I have old age issues but will continue to post, here, while I'm well and able.  I talk a lot... I'm told it's part of my OCD and ADHD.  Come direct at http://ButchNaked.com  Sign in if you wish to see me naked.

If you don't know me, the following might help you get to know what kind of person I am.  I don't expect you to understand me.  I can be a bit OCD and ADHD.

"They've already got more blowjobs than we'll ever get"  Steve Smith (American Dad), talking about college jocks.

"Now let us touch testicles and mate for life"  Alien on The Simpsons

"It never hurts to have a second set of prints on a gun"  Nelson Muntz, The Simpsons.

I'm here to teach you things.  While I appreciate other people's opinions, I really don't much give a crap what anyone thinks.  Until you prove your worth, I will be nice but you have to earn my respect. The moment you say a word, I'll be figuring you out really, really fast.  You should assume that I don't trust anyone.  I've not met a single trustworthy person in my entire life.  I've met lots of nice people who aren't too bright... well-intentioned folk who know little about anything, people who are nice, most of the time until you say something that offends them.  Honourable people agree to disagree.

Look up the phrase "CRITICAL THINKING" then learn to practice it.  Most people leap before they look and judge before they listen to the facts.  Most don't have enough knowledge, nor experience, to be experts in much of anything.  You don't know what you don't know.  I like to remind you of that, often.

The only other REALLY IMPORTANT thing to know about me is that I, totally, despise all religions, the teaching of religion, and religious institutions... I despise them as the evilest things on the planet.  If you follow a religion, you CAN NOT BE MY FRIEND.   THAT'S THAT.  You are an ignorant idiot who is an ever-present danger to yourself and everyone and everything around you.  Nothing, absolutely NOTHING, is eviler than religion.  I don't stand for, nor sing, our National Anthem because it praises a fictitious and superstitious being called 'God'.  Only a brain dead moron bonehead ignorant idiot would believe such a thing.

If you have a religion, I will not associate with you... period.  You are a danger to be around.  Yes, I insult religions... they are extraordinarily evil.  I said it, I mean it.  You have a right to be an idiot, but not around me.  I have a right to defend myself against the horrors of religion and I will.  Religion is evil.  I can't say it enough times. http://The-Shape-Of-God.Tumblr.com

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Animals, Apparently, and Cats: 58456-2 years old, 64 lbs Junior CUTENESS ALERT Adorable, friendly, playful, loves toys & playing Fetch, crate trained, good with older kids super id @Manhattan ACC waiting for LOVE **** TO BE KILLED - 4/2/2019 **** JUNIOR IS A VANILLA AND CHOCOLATE CHIP doggie who is so hoping someone will scoop him up to safety. He has lots going for him, he's super adorable, young, healthy, charming, smart and understands what being down on ones luck means. He is described as playful and affectionate with children. Junior had a home all his young life, and in a quick moment, it was gone. He's frightened, unsure, and lonely. The shelter does not consider these realities. They mark these innocent companion pets as fearful, requiring rescue assistance. Junior is settling into the shelter, responding to volunteers who show care, and beginning to feel hopeful that maybe he has a chance after all. Like anyone whose world fell apart, Junior shows he's more than ready to start over. He did nothing to deserve this fate, and now that he's starting to acclimate, the shelter decided his time is up. If you are able to foster or adopt this young cutie pie, please message this page for assistance. JUNIOR@MANHATTAN ACC Hello, my name is Junior My animal id is #58456 I am a male white dog at the Manhattan Animal Care Center The shelter thinks I am about 2 years old, 64 lbs Came into shelter as owner surrender Mar. 28, 2019 Reason Stated: OTHER Junior is rescue only Junior is at risk, new hope only determination, for behavioral reasons. Junior has displayed fearful behavior while at the care center and has allowed for only minimal handling. Junior would be best suited for placement with a new hope partner that can provide gradual behavior modification and management, as well as positive reinforcement and reward based training. Medically, Junior seems healthy. My medical notes are... Weight: 64 lbs Vet Notes 29/03/2019 [DVM Intake] DVM Intake Exam Estimated age: 2 years Microchip noted on Intake? No Microchip Number (If Applicable): History : Subjective: BAR before sedation Observed Behavior -Very tense and nervous in his kennel. He growled when we poked him to sedate him. He did not lunge at us. Evidence of Cruelty seen -No Evidence of Trauma seen -No Objective T = P =50 under sedation R =eup BCS 5/9 EENT: Eyes clear, mild wax AU, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: Clean teeth PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic, no c/s ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: M/I, both down MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healing superficial wound right shoulder CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: Clean externally Assessment: Apparently healthy Prognosis: Good Plan: -Sedation: torb 0.9 mL IM, dexmedetomidine 0.6 mL IM and ketamine 0.6 mL IM -1/2 dose Antisedan for reversal -Behavioral assessment -Consider a course of trazadone SURGERY:Okay for surgery Details on my behavior are... Behavior Condition: 4. Orange Behavior History Behavior Assessment Due to behavior no handling was performed at the time of intake. Date of Intake: 3/28/2019 Spay/Neuter Status: Not Applicable Basic Information:: Junior is a roughly 2 year old large dog whom was surrendered due to no space and was kept in the same home since he was 4 months old. Previously lived with:: 2 adults How is this dog around strangers?: Around strangers he is described as reactive and fearful and will bark, growl and lunge How is this dog around children?: Around older children he is described as playful and affectionate How is this dog around other dogs?: Around other dogs he is described as reactive and will bark, growl and lunge How is this dog around cats?: Around other cats he is described as reactive and will bark, growl and lunge at them and also chase them around Resource guarding:: He has no known resource guarding issues Bite history:: He has no recent bite histories however over a year ago he chased a stray cat and bit the cat on the neck. Housetrained:: Partially Energy level/descriptors:: High energy level Other Notes:: Junior is described to bark often, isn't bothered with loud noises, being bathed or brushed and being held. He will bark and growl when unfamiliar people approach his home or owner. Has this dog ever had any medical issues?: No For a New Family to Know: He is described as playful and excitable. He enjoys playing with balls and playing fetch. He has been crate trained and does well overnight and was being fed Signature dry food 2 times a day. He was being walked 2 times a day, pulls hard on the leash and off leash will be hard to catch. Date of intake:: 3/28/2019 Spay/Neuter status:: No Means of surrender (length of time in previous home):: Owner Surrender (In home 2 years) Previously lived with:: Adults Behavior toward strangers:: Reactive and fearful, barks, lunges, and growla Behavior toward children:: Playful and affectionate with older children Behavior toward dogs:: Reactive- barks, growls, and lunges Behavior toward cats:: Reactive- barks, growls, lunges, chases Resource guarding:: None reported Bite history:: Yes, a year ago Junior chased a stray cat and bit it on the neck. Housetrained:: Partially Energy level/descriptors:: Junior is described as playful and excitable with a high level of activity. Date of assessment:: 3/31/2019 Summary:: Junior is extremely fearful at the care center and has growled when hands go near him. For this reason and out of concern for his stress levels, he is not a good candidate for a handling assessment at this time. Please see his owner surrender profile for a full history of his behavior in his previous home. Date of initial:: 3/29/2019 Summary:: Tense and growled. Sedated for exam. ENERGY LEVEL:: Junior is described as having a high level of activity. We recommend long-lasting chews, food puzzles, and hide-and-seek games, in additional to physical exercise, to positively direct his energy and enthusiasm. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION:: New Hope Only Behavior Asilomar: TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations:: No children (under 13),No cats,Place with a New Hope partner Recommendations comments:: No children: Due to Junior's history of growling and barking at unfamiliar people and how fearful he currently is at the care center, we recommend an adult only home. Place with a New Hope partner: Due to all noted concerns displayed in a home environment and at the care center, the behavior department recommends Junior be placed with a New Hope placement partner who is able to provide an experienced adult-only foster home. A period of decompression is recommended to allow Junior to acclimate comfortably to his new environment; force-free, reward based training only is advised when introducing Junior to new and unfamiliar situations. Consultation with a professional trainer/behaviorist is highly recommended for guidance to safely manage/modify any behavior Junior presents with outside of the care centers. Potential challenges: : Bite history (other animal),House soiling,Fearful/potential for defensive aggression,On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration Potential challenges comments:: House soiling: Junior is reported to have accidents in the home. Please see handout on House Soiling. Fearful/potential for defensive aggression: Junior is reported to lunge, growl, and bark at unfamiliar people. At the care center, he has allowed minimal handling and growled when hands get close to him. He will need time to acclimate to new people and a slow approach. Please see handout on Fearful/potential for defensive aggression. On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration: Junior is reported to be reactive to other dogs on leash, lunging towards them, barking, and growling. Please see handout on On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration. Bite history (other animal): Junior chased a stray cat and bit her on the neck. He may have a high prey drive and will need to be controlled around small animals. Please see handout on Bite History. JUNIOR IS RESCUE ONLY…..TO SAVE THIS PUP YOU MUST FILL OUT APPLICATIONS WITH AT LEAST 3 NEW HOPE RESCUES. PLEASE HURRY!!!

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Animals, Apparently, and Cats: 58456-2 years old, 64 lbs Junior CUTENESS ALERT Adorable, friendly, playful, loves toys & playing Fetch, crate trained, good with older kids super id @Manhattan ACC waiting for LOVE **** TO BE KILLED - 4/2/2019 **** JUNIOR IS A VANILLA AND CHOCOLATE CHIP doggie who is so hoping someone will scoop him up to safety. He has lots going for him, he's super adorable, young, healthy, charming, smart and understands what being down on ones luck means. He is described as playful and affectionate with children. Junior had a home all his young life, and in a quick moment, it was gone. He's frightened, unsure, and lonely. The shelter does not consider these realities. They mark these innocent companion pets as fearful, requiring rescue assistance. Junior is settling into the shelter, responding to volunteers who show care, and beginning to feel hopeful that maybe he has a chance after all. Like anyone whose world fell apart, Junior shows he's more than ready to start over. He did nothing to deserve this fate, and now that he's starting to acclimate, the shelter decided his time is up. If you are able to foster or adopt this young cutie pie, please message this page for assistance. JUNIOR@MANHATTAN ACC Hello, my name is Junior My animal id is #58456 I am a male white dog at the Manhattan Animal Care Center The shelter thinks I am about 2 years old, 64 lbs Came into shelter as owner surrender Mar. 28, 2019 Reason Stated: OTHER Junior is rescue only Junior is at risk, new hope only determination, for behavioral reasons. Junior has displayed fearful behavior while at the care center and has allowed for only minimal handling. Junior would be best suited for placement with a new hope partner that can provide gradual behavior modification and management, as well as positive reinforcement and reward based training. Medically, Junior seems healthy. My medical notes are... Weight: 64 lbs Vet Notes 29/03/2019 [DVM Intake] DVM Intake Exam Estimated age: 2 years Microchip noted on Intake? No Microchip Number (If Applicable): History : Subjective: BAR before sedation Observed Behavior -Very tense and nervous in his kennel. He growled when we poked him to sedate him. He did not lunge at us. Evidence of Cruelty seen -No Evidence of Trauma seen -No Objective T = P =50 under sedation R =eup BCS 5/9 EENT: Eyes clear, mild wax AU, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: Clean teeth PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic, no c/s ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: M/I, both down MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healing superficial wound right shoulder CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: Clean externally Assessment: Apparently healthy Prognosis: Good Plan: -Sedation: torb 0.9 mL IM, dexmedetomidine 0.6 mL IM and ketamine 0.6 mL IM -1/2 dose Antisedan for reversal -Behavioral assessment -Consider a course of trazadone SURGERY:Okay for surgery Details on my behavior are... Behavior Condition: 4. Orange Behavior History Behavior Assessment Due to behavior no handling was performed at the time of intake. Date of Intake: 3/28/2019 Spay/Neuter Status: Not Applicable Basic Information:: Junior is a roughly 2 year old large dog whom was surrendered due to no space and was kept in the same home since he was 4 months old. Previously lived with:: 2 adults How is this dog around strangers?: Around strangers he is described as reactive and fearful and will bark, growl and lunge How is this dog around children?: Around older children he is described as playful and affectionate How is this dog around other dogs?: Around other dogs he is described as reactive and will bark, growl and lunge How is this dog around cats?: Around other cats he is described as reactive and will bark, growl and lunge at them and also chase them around Resource guarding:: He has no known resource guarding issues Bite history:: He has no recent bite histories however over a year ago he chased a stray cat and bit the cat on the neck. Housetrained:: Partially Energy level/descriptors:: High energy level Other Notes:: Junior is described to bark often, isn't bothered with loud noises, being bathed or brushed and being held. He will bark and growl when unfamiliar people approach his home or owner. Has this dog ever had any medical issues?: No For a New Family to Know: He is described as playful and excitable. He enjoys playing with balls and playing fetch. He has been crate trained and does well overnight and was being fed Signature dry food 2 times a day. He was being walked 2 times a day, pulls hard on the leash and off leash will be hard to catch. Date of intake:: 3/28/2019 Spay/Neuter status:: No Means of surrender (length of time in previous home):: Owner Surrender (In home 2 years) Previously lived with:: Adults Behavior toward strangers:: Reactive and fearful, barks, lunges, and growla Behavior toward children:: Playful and affectionate with older children Behavior toward dogs:: Reactive- barks, growls, and lunges Behavior toward cats:: Reactive- barks, growls, lunges, chases Resource guarding:: None reported Bite history:: Yes, a year ago Junior chased a stray cat and bit it on the neck. Housetrained:: Partially Energy level/descriptors:: Junior is described as playful and excitable with a high level of activity. Date of assessment:: 3/31/2019 Summary:: Junior is extremely fearful at the care center and has growled when hands go near him. For this reason and out of concern for his stress levels, he is not a good candidate for a handling assessment at this time. Please see his owner surrender profile for a full history of his behavior in his previous home. Date of initial:: 3/29/2019 Summary:: Tense and growled. Sedated for exam. ENERGY LEVEL:: Junior is described as having a high level of activity. We recommend long-lasting chews, food puzzles, and hide-and-seek games, in additional to physical exercise, to positively direct his energy and enthusiasm. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION:: New Hope Only Behavior Asilomar: TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations:: No children (under 13),No cats,Place with a New Hope partner Recommendations comments:: No children: Due to Junior's history of growling and barking at unfamiliar people and how fearful he currently is at the care center, we recommend an adult only home. Place with a New Hope partner: Due to all noted concerns displayed in a home environment and at the care center, the behavior department recommends Junior be placed with a New Hope placement partner who is able to provide an experienced adult-only foster home. A period of decompression is recommended to allow Junior to acclimate comfortably to his new environment; force-free, reward based training only is advised when introducing Junior to new and unfamiliar situations. Consultation with a professional trainer/behaviorist is highly recommended for guidance to safely manage/modify any behavior Junior presents with outside of the care centers. Potential challenges: : Bite history (other animal),House soiling,Fearful/potential for defensive aggression,On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration Potential challenges comments:: House soiling: Junior is reported to have accidents in the home. Please see handout on House Soiling. Fearful/potential for defensive aggression: Junior is reported to lunge, growl, and bark at unfamiliar people. At the care center, he has allowed minimal handling and growled when hands get close to him. He will need time to acclimate to new people and a slow approach. Please see handout on Fearful/potential for defensive aggression. On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration: Junior is reported to be reactive to other dogs on leash, lunging towards them, barking, and growling. Please see handout on On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration. Bite history (other animal): Junior chased a stray cat and bit her on the neck. He may have a high prey drive and will need to be controlled around small animals. Please see handout on Bite History. JUNIOR IS RESCUE ONLY…..TO SAVE THIS PUP YOU MUST FILL OUT APPLICATIONS WITH AT LEAST 3 NEW HOPE RESCUES. PLEASE HURRY!!! IF YOU CAN FOSTER OR ADOPT THIS PUP, PLEASE PM OUR PAGE FOR ASSISTANCE. WE CAN PROVIDE YOU WITH LINKS TO APPLICATIONS WITH NEW HOPE RESCUES WHO ARE CURRENTLY PULLING FROM THE NYC ACC. PLEASE SHARE THIS DOG FOR A HOME TO SAVE HIS LIFE.