#bc im like man ive been mostly toon talking here which is fine

[frostbite-the-bat]

its funny i originally made my toon blog to not bother ppl on this blog w toontown stuff but now its like. thats my spot to be More Noral on toontown if it makes sense i feel like due to my url being cathalbravecog i must make myself presentable. people recognize me toon in-game and me as "the cathal guy" (even if i rarely talk about them now). 300ish followers isnt a whole lot but that could be a decently full server in toontown! its not a nothing number and people certainly know me. as much as my recognizability is a joke with me and my friends it's a bit stressful at times. doesnt help my paranoia (is.. that the right word...? i apologize) of saying 1 thing wrong like a fact or a opinion and that i'll be hunted down, doxxed and harassed. and rsd in general over getting a fact wrong and being informed about it.

so i try not to post there now as much and keep my more... "whiny" longer rambles here about this i guess. i feel so wrong for talking like this there and it's literally just a side blog. i don't know what (aside from the things i already mentioned) caused me to view it that way. i dunno i feel like my attempts to be more proper choke me out there.

when im more myself people ignore me, and if i do get attention on my own personal stuff or if i leave even a bit of a longer ramble on things i just get ignored or hit up w ppl i... may not be the biggest fan of, i'll be real! im sghorry i may wanna talk but wgho is this 12 yeaur old :sob:

i feel like i have this pressure on my shoulders while also not being "cool" enough. it's easy to say to ignore these things but a bit hard when you really dont have anything else going on in youre life. hot diggity dang

yea man i dunno i feel better about talking abt toontown here now... i felt similarly to my bugsnax blog as i do now except now i have an url im badly attached to, its a part of my watermark, i use this name in other places and so far i've posted all my toontown art there. man i dunno.

i guess ill try to keep that as my toontown art posting game and have occasional rambles there but have other stuff here? ugh i dont wanna reblog posts on 2 places. dude. the ppl who follow me there dont follow this and then ppl who follow this dont follow that and like man if i rb art from someone i like i want ppl to see it.

aurughhh christ almighgthly never let urself get folllouvers or try to act all proper brah