#bc if I talk abt kit I have to talk abt freddy’s big brother complex im not stable ..

[marybatson]

captain marvel/shazam family is literally um. every member thinks they’re worse than the other. billy’s like mary and freddy have their lives together and are so much more competent than me. i wish i could be as good as them bc i am falling apart and i can do this all by myself but im too selfish bc i want them with me and that makes me a horrible person. and mary’s like billy thinks so highly of me im going to disappoint him im never going to be the sister he envisions. when he looks at me he can see something else overlaid on me like a filter and it’s heavy and im doing my duties but is it enough is it ever enough… and freddy’s like i can see right through mary n she’s just a person but she’s handling this better than any of us and billy’s so good, so stubbornly impossibly good, like a myth instead of a boy. and im just the angry little kid who was supposed to die still trying to prove that i was worth saving. even though im not meant for this. but let me smile and wave at the cameras and make sure that mary and billy never have to do any of the dirty work, so that nothing bad could ever touch them..