#bc i did do that once and felt like i shouldve been executed

[qreyert]

i leave my room for 2 seconds and he acts like ive been gone for 15 Years

[sunfl0wer-witch]

Avatar, like, ATLA? My blorbos!!

Lol, all good. Tbh I was shocked you even replied the first time. Idk what it is about how I talk online but I have a hard time connecting with anyone? Like there is smth about me online that almost everyone is like "nope, dont wanna get involved in that". Which was like, really devastating when I was younger and I kept seeing these communities of online besties, but I just didnt (dont) know how to make that work. So now I'm just like, pleasantly surprised that anyone speaks to me, period 😅

Shit, dude. You'd think a small community fic exchange would be the one time you could sort of garauntee that ppl would see your fic & that popularity wouldnt matter as much... that's rough. I mean, possibly it couldve been taken down for personal reasons & whoever noticed just thought "we're not close enough for me to ask about it", but like, idk that group so idk if theyre the kind of ppl where thats a reasonable benefit of the doubt.

I go super back and forth on writing. Like I'll be online for a bit and post stuff then inevitably psych myself out or smth and then fall out of it. Or I'll be trying to write smth original and psych myself out. But then I always come back to it & idk if I've connected it to my sense of individuality or what. Like, I need to figure out how to be ok just writing for myself, is where I am at? So prob not posting it online period and judging only by my own metrics and not fucking, hits or w/e. But then its like, but I have the thing so why would I not do smth with it?

But either way, rn I'm so burnt out, the best I can do is have like, an idea and text with my one fandom friend about it and then be like "Yeah, that'd be cool af. Hope someone else writes that exact thing someday bc I sure dont wanna"

The arrancar arc, I think gets shit on for a lot of reasons 😅 Like its pretty drastically different in tone from the first two arcs and after some nonsense meeting Nel, Ichigo is not running around being a himbo like he does a lot in karakura arc and parts of soul society arc. Like I think a lot of ppl liked the show for the sense of humour & stupidity in the first two arcs and they prob stopped watching at arc 3 bc that stuff is relegated to like, kon, pesche, and dondachakka who are all sort of exhausting. And the latter half of that arc does the bleach thing where theyre flipping back and forth between like five very intense fights all happening at once, and then goes straight into another arc which is JUST that. So like, idk, I can see why ppl gave up on it bc it did become something different than the first two arcs. Where they had that going on a little, but also like Ichigo was training, and ori was hanging out with yachiru and kenpachi, and ichigo interrupts the execution lookin all badass. Idk, there was a lot to break it up, then the last few arcs excluding fullbringer is like, down to business everyone is popping off on SIGHT lol.

I never really thought of the two arcs as comparing rukia and orihime tho, which seems like it shouldve been really obvious, oops. Im gonna have to rewatch them now lol. But yeah, they did add a bunch to everyones character & complexity. The rukia/not kaien fight is one of my fave moments of the show. Orihime's journey for that arc felt like it started out so strong, like she's manipulated but then theyre implying shes pretending to be sucessfully brainwashed so she can destroy the hogyoku(?), and then that just goes nowhere for her. The end of the arc for her is ig supposed to add depth to her relationship & feelings for ichigo but I was way more interested in what her solo plan was tbh! Cause, yeah, it did start to subvert the love interest thing with her in that arc, where it seems like shes just there to be rescued, but then she has her own plan, but then shes being rescued. And like, there are a ton of other women who arent around to be love interests, and have all this interesting shit happening, but I wish orihime got something meaningful after that. (Tbh, I dont really like her and ichigo together bc their relationship with each other is like, the most boring thing either of them has in their lives, but oh well)

Like I also think bleach treats its women charcters pretty well for the time it was writen? And the point you made about, mostly the cool powerful women become useless to the plot after a season, thats true of like 99% of bleachs characters tbf (poor chad lol). I read somewhere, kubo said when he gets stuck he adds a bunch of extra characters & that definitely shows! The cast gets so big its sort of impossible for more than a handful to stay relevant. Plus I am a useless sapphic so I'm down for powerful ladies who are also sexy, like whats the problem here? The women are even pretty varied, except they dont really age past a point

The world building was so fun! & the payoff to things like the soul king being mentioned & then that comes back in the last arc! Or the flashback to when the vizards were turned & urahara was exiled! Or even just unohanas scary vibe then you find out shes an actual badass! All so good. Also I skipped all the fillers so that def helps my opinion of the show lol.

Sorry, I feel like I just blacked out and word vomited about bleach forever, hopefully most of it followed like, a train of thought? I tried to edit for coherency but then I ended up just adding more and its getting out of hand lol. Its just really nice to talk to someone about bleach who doesnt hate it or doesnt just wanna talk about fight stats

Uhh, you reblogged that "but Im tired" post like seven times back to back, you ok there bud??

Haha uhh... ^^; not really lmao.

I'll spare you the details, but I have been in an almost complete creative block since, like, February/March (which, like, lmao, depression always makes it hard to write, so I've sort of been dealing with writer's block since the start of 2019). My life picked up recently, which I thought would be good for my writing, but I'm just so fucking exhausted.

Before/during June, I was in a huge depressive slump, so I couldn't write anything through my sheer apathy. Now, I'm getting out of the house and working, but it's incredibly tough and horribly draining.

That's been my mood before all of this, but especially with working nowadays, I am just so fucking Tired.